Chapter 18 The Most Dignified Way of "Light of the Earth"

most dignified way (1) 5 On the Tibetan Plateau, a land that is more beautiful than they imagined, the loyal and brave Jigme left them in the most dignified way.Jian Sheng couldn't bear to see Kasang alone and continued to follow them into the grassland, so he planned to send Kasang back to her home with Xin He.By her side, even Ji Mei was gone.She is very lonely. In the car of a kind Tibetan young man, on the monotonous and long road, I saw the soft and vast land outside the window undulating slightly, stretching as far as the eye can see.Kassan got motion sickness and looked very uncomfortable.Xin He found the motion sickness medicine from his backpack and gave it to Kasang.She held Kasan in her arms.Kassan was surprisingly silent and quiet.

Jane sometimes fell asleep, and then woke up from time to time, turning her head to see Kassan suffering from motion sickness alone with her eyes closed.He saw her so familiar.Like seeing his silent and painful boyhood.The difference is that Kassan is a truly forbearing child, because she is a strong life on this plateau. We took a ride, then walked, and finally made it back to Kassan's ranch. No one came out to greet her back.Only in the distance, Ren Suo, who was picking up cow dung with a basket on his back, saw Kasang, straightened up to greet her, and called her name, Kasang, Kasang.

That night, Jian Sheng and Xin He camped next to Rilang's tent. They felt tired from the long journey.I fell asleep early.Maybe it was because of the altitude sickness, but after lying down, I had a headache and chest tightness, and couldn't fall asleep. It was very uncomfortable, the kind of discomfort that I didn't even want to talk about.In the darkness, the two fell silent with their own concerns and discomfort. That night, because of Jimei's departure, Kassan felt even more that this was not his home.She was alone in the wilderness near the tent, sorting out her inner emotions.She has always been such a poor child, but because of her own youth and ignorance, she didn't think it was pitiful.Her silence is only infinitely missing, missing her father and mother, her grandfather, and her Ji Mei.

In the past, on nights like this, she would have had the loyal and quiet Jigme by her side.When she was tired of thinking about it, she would lie beside Jimei and fall into a deep sleep in this infinitely vast and quiet world.Jimei's warm and strong body is like home to an orphan.And now Jimi is gone.The world is too vast, the starry sky is too vast, but she is alone. Is another world more beautiful? Otherwise, why would so many relatives leave her, but there is no return date left. Zhamocuo went to Rensuo to look for her, but she was nowhere to be seen.So Zhamocuo knew that she had gone to the wilderness to be alone again.Countless times he had seen Kassan spend the night alone with Jigme in the wilderness.He wanted so badly to go over and be with her too.But I don't know if it's because Jin Mei is by the side, or because he doesn't have the courage in his heart, he has never approached her in such a private way.During the few days when Kassan left, this eagle-like young man missed her so much.He was ignorantly delighted in her.

With a certain restlessness and nervousness, he drove his horse forward to test it.Startled by the rustling sound behind him, Kasang turned his head and saw Zhamocuo riding a tall horse not far behind him.In an instant, the scenes that happened during the days when he was recuperating from his broken bones flashed before her eyes.The boy teased and caressed her face, as well as those wild and unclear words.She has always been suspicious of Zha Mocuo. Now that he came so suddenly and Jimei is gone, Kasang is even more inexplicably afraid, as if some kind of ominous atmosphere is gradually approaching. She is so afraid that she doesn't even say a word, just Stepping back step by step, like a panicked and helpless Tibetan antelope, it spread its legs and ran deep into the wilderness.

Unconvinced, he immediately rode his horse and gave chase. When approaching Kassan, he jumped off the horse, almost like catching prey, and recklessly threw Kassan down, and the two rolled to the ground.He didn't even think that he would embrace Kassan in such a way.He only felt an irresistible impulse, he looked at Kassan in his arms and said, Kassan, I really miss you these few days when you are not here.You are so beautiful, I want to marry you as my wife. Kassan looked at him in horror, his eyes full of fear.She shook her head desperately, wanting to shout, let me go, but for some reason, her voice was suppressed by the burst of crying, and she lost her voice under the great panic.Tears flowed all over her face, she felt so helpless and frightened, so thin, she could only struggle desperately but in vain.

The more she struggled, the more he couldn't tolerate it.The two almost wrestled.No one has ever challenged his unruliness like this, let alone this is the girl he has a crush on.He couldn't bear such rejection in his face. With such a conceited and selfish mood, he took away her poor dignity while defending his unruly self-esteem. That was her memory when she was only ten years old—when she was lying on the grass under the pressure of Zhamocuo, the edge of the blade of grass cut her naked body like a knife.In the bursts of heart-piercing pain, she was terrified to the bone marrow, tears rolled down from her eyes and dripped on the grass.She just felt that she couldn't make any sound, as if she was choked by a short and complete aphasia.

With tears in her eyes, she looked up at the misty Milky Way and broken stars in the dark blue night sky.Like the earth, so familiar and silent. The next morning, Ren Suo was waking up Xin He and Jian Sheng, asking if they had seen Kasang.Jian Sheng couldn't quite understand, and while he agreed in a daze, he walked out of the tent sleepily, only to meet Zha Mecuo walking over leading the horse from a distance.Kassan sat on the horseback in a daze, his braids were disheveled, his face was pale, and there was a heart-wrenching sense of out-of-focus in his eyes, which was empty.The expression of fear and sorrow is like that of an old woman.

He didn't know what happened, and looked at Xin He in blank dismay.They watched as Zha Mocuo carried Kasang off his horse, who seemed to be seriously ill and weak, and walked into the tent.Ren Suo followed behind at a loss, and also walked in. My parents were having morning tea, and Kip happened to be there to say hello. The boy told his unprepared parents, I want to marry her! All this happened so suddenly, Rilang replied inexplicably, what are you talking about! The young man didn't agree, but he said outright that last night, Kassan was already my bride! A moment of shock.Ri Lang asked in confusion, what did you say?

The boy even raised his voice, saying, last night, Kassan was already my bride! ! Rilang was shocked, and his eyes stayed on the haggard and distraught Kasang.His face gradually turned ashen, and then he picked up the leather whip in his hand and slapped Zhamocuo.The young man still bit his lip stubbornly and stubbornly, staring at him without saying a word. Rilang became angry, raised his hand and whipped the whip down again. There was chaos.Zhamocuo's mother stepped forward to stop Rilang from waving the whip again, and Rensuo took Kasang off the horse in shock and embraced him.Jian Sheng and Xin He were outside the tent watching what happened inside.From the situation at that time, they had basically guessed what happened last night.

Rilang was dragged by Zhamocuo's mother, and because of his rage, he continued to curse endlessly, how dare you say such a thing!You unfilial beast, I have already arranged for you a girl for your first marriage, but you did such a thing!Kassan is just our maidservant, how can you talk to her... At this point, Ri Lang stopped, but the words had already been uttered, and they were heard by people for no reason.Ren Suo looked down at Kasang in his arms and shook his head distressedly. I do not care!Zha Mocuo became stubborn, turned around and left. Ji Bu came out of Rilang's house silently, but his face was still expressionless.Ren Suo took Kasang back to their small tent.Looking at Ren Suo and Kasang's back, Ji Bu thought about it.He stopped, then turned and followed them. Inside the tent, Ren Suo asked Kasang, tell me, what happened last night? Most Dignified Way (2) Kassan was speechless for a long time.It wasn't until the end that she quietly said that he wanted me to sleep with him...he is so strong...I can't help it... Ren Suo hugged her without saying a word, not letting her continue.Looking up, Jibb was opening the felt curtain and walking in. Jibb sat down, looking stern.He asked Rensuo, what would she do if Rilang's family couldn't get Kasang and Zhamocuo to marry.Ren Suo looked at him and shook his head.Not a word.She didn't know what to do.No one knows what to do.Jibb said no more, he sat in silence for a while, and then went out. That day, Ji Bu found Jian Sheng and Xin He.Ji Bu faced them, such a big man actually knelt down on his knees.Jian Sheng was extremely surprised, they didn't know what was going on. Jib said to them in blunt Chinese, I beg you, if you like Kassan and have compassion for her, take Kassan away and let her leave here. They were a little surprised again, and quickly helped Jib up, asking, what happened? Jib said that when Kassan's grandfather died, I was the one who brought Kassan to Rilang's house.They adopted her, and she worked in their house until today, such a thing happened, Zha Mocuo... He defiled Kasang, and he had a girl from his original marriage. What measures to marry her.I wanted to see Kassan get married happily and live a good life in the future, but unfortunately she has encountered such a thing now, and her future happiness is even more hopeless... I beg you, if you have compassion, take her Go out into the world and treat her well and raise her up... poor child even her Jimi left her...for the sake of you Jimei died...I beg you! The good man begged them for Kasan's fate. Xin He could hardly hold on to himself.She immediately said, okay, we will take her away and raise her properly... Jian Sheng turned his head to look at Xin He with a complicated expression.His heart was shaken.But it's not a trivial matter to take another person's life so suddenly.This is not a matter of a day or two, such a move is like deciding Kassan's life.He said to Jib very rationally and sincerely, thank you, Jib, I thank you instead of Kassan, you are a good man.After we think about it for a while, we will go directly to Rilang and tell him!Don't worry, Jibb. Jibb nodded and walked away in silence. Xin He hugged Jian Sheng and said, Jian Sheng, let's adopt her.Do you have the heart to see her stay here alone like this?There are no relatives here, not even Jimei, and she was raped again...Jian Sheng... Jian Sheng answered her, Xin He, you misunderstood me, it's not that I don't have compassion, it's not that I don't like her.It's just that this decision is very important, and you and I must be extremely sure.Once this matter is agreed to, it will be a matter of no turning back.To raise her in the future, you must take full responsibility for her and give her a good life.We must all work together.It's like deciding to have a child. I was raised by strangers and lived like an orphan in the northern countryside for more than ten years.I know very well that a child who has lived in the original world for more than ten years is suddenly brought back to the bustling city, how much fear and gap there will be in his heart.The process of that transformation was very painful, and it was not something that could be easily endured.If Kassan was brought to live in the city by us, he would have to face such a painful process.Even when we try our best to love her.What's more, she is an orphan with no relatives, no parents, and a Tibetan child of pure blood, a girl who has been physically assaulted at such a young age, and she can't even speak Chinese... We need to pay a lot to her emotion.Have you figured it out, Xin He? Xinhe nodded.I think it over.Jian Sheng.I'm going to raise her.It will only be more painful for her to be here alone. Jian Sheng looked at her and suddenly thought of Huai.Huai's kindness to him.After his mother died, Shi Huai stayed by his side, took care of his life and growth like a mother, and helped him get admitted to the Academy of Fine Arts.He once again had such a profound awe of the kindness and motherhood in women's nature.He nodded and said, good Xinhe, don't forget, this is a definite choice we made together. On that night, Jian Sheng and Xin He called Ji Bu to find Ri Lang.He said to Rilang, it is a matter of great kindness and virtue for you to adopt Kasang. Now that you are in such a difficult situation, leave it to us, we want to raise her. Ji Bu translated what Jian Sheng said to Ri Lang.After Ri Lang finished listening, he and his wife looked at each other in blank dismay, and remained silent for a long time.Then he turned his head and said, since you guys want to raise her, then take her away.My son Zha was so unfilial and made such a mistake to Kassan, please forgive him. Jibb translated for him.Jian Sheng nodded.He said we'd have to ask Kassan to see if she would.We cannot just decide this matter arbitrarily.The final decision is in Kassan's own hands. The three of them came to Kassan's side.While Ren Suo was working, Kasang was still in a trance, as if immersed in a nightmare. Jib walked over and said softly, Kassan, are you better? Kassan, do you want to get out of here?They are willing to be your parents, take you away, and raise you well.Are you willing to go with them and live with them in the future?Kassan? The girl raised her head and looked at Xin He with distressing eyes.Jib looked at her, and he suddenly remembered the scene after Kassan's grandfather passed away two years ago. In that snowy winter, the world was silvery white.Kasang stayed alone in the black tent for three consecutive days and nights, kneeling in front of his grandfather's body wrapped in pulu to keep watch.Ji Mei was by her side.He appeared at the door of Kassan's tent in the early morning of the fourth day and called her, Kassan, let's go, it's time to see Grandpa on his way. During the sky burial, Kasang held the bowl of buttered tea, lowered his head, and handed it to himself tremblingly.It was snowing heavily that day, and after the funeral, he took her to Rilang's house.All the way, the poor child staggered after him.So thin and forbearing. Facing Kassan's worrisome situation, Gibb felt very sad.He hoped that Kassan could leave with this pair of kind young people.This grassland is too vast and desolate, how lonely she will be here alone. Kassan didn't speak.Jib has been so patiently squatting beside her, gently and carefully asked her, are you willing to go?Kassan, answer me. Xin He looked at the silent Kasang, feeling a little worried.She knelt down and got very close to Kassan, reaching out and gently stroking her head.Like a gentle and patient good mother.She leaned over, pressed against Kassan's face, and said softly to Kassan, Kassan, we all love you.Come back with us, it will be your home.I will be your mother and love you well.Kassan, come with us. The child cannot understand her words.But she was actually touched by this maternal and tender care, and her eyes were moist. She looked at Xin He helplessly, like a wronged child looking at her mother, and began to murmur softly: ...he wants to be with me. Sleep...he is so strong...I can't help it... As Kassan said, he stretched out his arms and put his arms around Xin He's neck, like a distressed child, calling softly, "Ama...Ama... When Ji Bu heard this, this majestic plateau tough guy burst into tears. Xinhe hugged Kasang tightly, looked at Jibu anxiously, and said, what did she say? He said that the child called her grandma, and Kassan called her grandma...