Chapter 6 If the voice does not remember the extra chapter

In a childhood dream of Nitrate, shortly after following his parents to the playground, an unknown collapse occurred there.For the young Nitrate, this unforgotten nightmare became an indelible spot in her memory, so that it later affected her concept for a long time, and finally became a very unreasonable dream at her age. One of the girls who boycotted the playground. So this time to go to the float parade, my friend Xiangman agreed to it after being coerced and lured.However, as if to prove to Nitzi once again how unlucky the playground is for her, halfway through the parade, Nitzi felt the weight in his pocket suddenly disappear.Although I noticed it for a moment, it was a step too late.Nitro touched the empty pocket, and the shadow disappeared from the crowd as soon as it stretched its waist.

My head buzzed.Xiang Man, who was still engrossed in watching the float performance, yelled "The wallet was stolen" and chased him out through the crowd. Thinking of the photo of Fujishima-senpai that I bought for 2,000 yen in my wallet, and the year-end pocket money that my parents had to ask for, I was so angry that I couldn't help myself, and I couldn't care about the rapid loss of energy under the poisonous summer sun. So wholeheartedly chasing behind. Maybe it was caused by resentment, when they reached a secluded place, the person in front of him suddenly staggered and fell into a ball.Nitro was overjoyed, encouraged, and chased after him within a few steps.When I got close, I suddenly realized that something was wrong.

The man who had gotten up had fierce eyes, and a knife in his right hand. So impulsive.Sudden danger. Apart from the softening of the road at night, the sizzle sounded yesterday, and it was the panic that burst out of my heart in an instant.The sound is noisy and noisy, like two fish connected end to end, and the thinking is locked in it and cannot be released.Nitro took a few steps back unconsciously.Just as the opponent made a threatening gesture and rushed forward, the huge puppet bear that suddenly appeared shook the ribbon in his hand and threw the man to the ground again, and then held the opponent with unimaginable flexibility for that huge body. The wrists twisted together backwards.

Nitro was so stupid that he couldn't close his jaw.Hot and cold sweat flowed into his mouth together, it was extremely salty.When he wakes up, look at the man who is struggling, and then look at the huge puppet bear: "Big!!! Bear!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" "Laugh again! Laugh again?!" Seeing Xiangman squatting on the ground laughing so hard that she couldn't stand up for five minutes straight, Nitroz angrily went over and patted her on the head, "Don't laugh!!" "Glass, you are so cute, what should I do if I don't dare to take you to the playground in the future. The person in the puppet costume, I don't even know what he thinks, aha, aha!!"

"...How could I have thought of it! It came out of nowhere..." "That's why you rarely go to places like playgrounds." I don't like it very much, no way.Nitzi dropped Xiangman and turned away, and he could still hear the sound of being out of breath behind him. It's so embarrassing... It's worse than seeing a thief, so I just turned around and ran away.Unexpectedly, he couldn't realize that the other party was just a person playing a doll in the playground.As a result, I even forgot to ask for my wallet back.I have to raise my temper and go to the playground again.

Playground at night.different from daytime.very different.Night is a rubbing of dreams, psychedelic and bizarre.The daytime is an illustration in a fairy tale book, peaceful and happy.Nitro stood quietly in the paradise for a while, and found that he seemed to be able to redeem some prejudice against the playground.But after all, she has never been interested in such things. It seems that last winter there was a rare circus performance from Europe called "Unicorn", and she was the only one in the class who didn't go to see it. After inquiring about the management office of the playground, Nitro passed through the central square.As soon as she saw that the reception door was about to step in, a big doll bear that had just been dressed came out from behind her.Nitro was taken aback for a moment, and stepped over to grab the opponent in three steps and two steps:

"I'm so sorry yesterday! Please give me back my wallet." After a while, the other party took off the hood: "Huh?" "That, yesterday, the thief you caught... that thing, the wallet, is mine." "what?" "...What, that was the thief you caught yesterday. I yelled and ran... I ran away, but I forgot to get my wallet back. That's it." "But I wasn't on duty yesterday." "Who is that???" Nitrogen blushed, and, again, so reckless! "Wait, let me ask." I saw a boy in a hood poking his head towards the back door, and shouted at someone:

"Hey, who was on duty yesterday." "What?...Oh, yesterday," the inside replied after two seconds, "it's Xintang. Yes, it's Ah Sheng." Finally got the wallet.But there are still some regrets.After all, it is always a little lacking to thank the "Xintang" gentleman in person.It can only be said that it is quite unfortunate.Maybe when I come back next time, I can meet that new Tang lord.If there is no chance, it can only be forgotten. "So you should go out and have fun more often." Xiangman took the opportunity very much, "It's true, Nitro, tomorrow, why don't we go to the playground?"

"A, go again?" What do you do when you are full? "No, it's Fujishima-senpai's appointment." "Scared?!" He grabbed the wallet tightly, "Really?" "That's right. He seems to want to thank us for helping the film and drama club last time. Please come tomorrow. You can come too." Xiangman raised his index finger and shook it, ticking something, "Senior Fujishima Oh." "……go!" Nitzi felt that he was about to float, and his feet were firmly on the ground. Even though he was just following behind Fujishima-senpai, daring to capture all his movements and words without saying a word, he still put his whole heart away, floated upwards.Roller coasters, pirate ships, super big turntables... also, they are all just so dizzy.Especially Fujishima-senpai, who is so considerate, turning around from time to time and nodding at her, the girl who was silent on the side.How can a place like a playground change its taste because of a childhood dream? No matter from which point of view, this place should be a place of happiness!

Turning his head, he smiled happily at Xiangman, and then felt something stuck to his face, and Nitzi came back to look.Hit the yellow fur.Then the one-person-tall puppet bear also turned around and "looked" over. Nitro stared at it blankly for a while: "... Excuse me, Mr. Xintang... Mr. Xintang?" The other party stood straight, and after a few seconds, he nodded slowly. If you look at it from the standpoint of a bystander, this is naturally a very different and funny scene.The short-haired girl in the red winter dress and the big puppet bear, which is two heads taller than her, looked at each other, and a ray of winter sunshine shone in between them...

But Nitro didn't realize this. On the contrary, she was still a little nervous about what to say to the person in this suit at the moment. "Yesterday... no, the day before yesterday. I'm so sorry..." I don't know if it's because he can't make a sound or for some other reason, but the "bear" on the opposite side doesn't respond. "That... I, I was the night before yesterday, then, you caught the thief, that wallet..." Looking at the very cartoon-like head in front of him, Nitro gradually felt that something was wrong with this situation, "...I was the owner at that time ..." "Oh..." There was finally a response. Nitro quickly bowed again: "That day, I am very sorry!!! Also, thank you..." "Hmm." As if he had finally recalled everything, "What else?" "Huh?"...Shouldn't you say something to me?This man is so cold! "No, it's nothing." The other party turned and left.Leaving Nitzi standing alone, she didn't chase until she found someone calling from a distance, but she turned her mouth dissatisfied in her heart: What, weirdo, it would be fatal to say a few more words, thanks to me I also went to find him to apologize, but didn't even say hello.It's really "bear-like"! During the free time, Nitzi looked at Fujishima-senpai from a distance, and wanted to go to the bathroom to practice her special "lady-like" smile. After walking a few steps, she was caught by a little girl who hugged her thigh violently He looked confused.Helpless to see the little doll was crying for her mother while wiping her snot and tears on herself. The "Lady Smile" then completely collapsed. At this moment, in sync with the big lollipop stretched out from one side, was the doll bear who squatted down and stroked the girl's head.Nitro stayed there for a moment, then saw "it" lead the little girl who was distracted by the candy, then patted herself, and pointed to the distance.Nitro saw it clearly, bowed his head and said to the little girl, "Uncle Xiong help you find it." Seeing that the girl's hand was gently grasped behind the big palm of the doll bear, and was about to be pulled away, Nitro suddenly clenched the palm that was about to be released: "Sister will accompany you too!" From time to time, people who glanced to one side could see nothing but the fixed cartoon smile on most of the bear's head.It's ironic that someone who plays such a cute stuffed bear is so cold. It doesn't seem right.Cold is cold.Also kind... etc.Thinking so much about what to do, maybe when he took off his hood, he would be a fat man with a face full of flesh.After thinking about it like this, I couldn't help but stand coldly, and then looked sideways. ...Probably not...Come on. The three of them wandered around for more than two hours, and when they finally found the anxious and confused mother at the management office, Niozi realized that it was his turn to find a companion next.Just as he was feeling annoyed, he heard someone behind him say: "Thank you for your hard work." He quickly went back and bowed, seeing that it was Mr. Xiong, his waist bent halfway, and he froze, and the words on his lips suddenly changed: "Without your hard work—" When he realized it, his face was already burning red. Instead, another staff member came up to help her out. He patted Mr. Xiong on the shoulder: "Why are you still wearing it? The shift should have changed two hours ago, right? It's so boring to wear." "Well... let's go." A sudden light flashed in Nitro's heart, could it be that he was looking for a mother for the girl?In order to appease her, did you not take it off?If that's the case...then this person is really kind. ...It can't be kindness with a face full of meat. ...What kind of idea is this. After walking out of the house behind the puppet, and saying goodbye to the little girl and her mother, Nitro was also about to leave when "Mr. Xiong" suddenly moved.Nitro stopped, and saw it raised its hand, reached behind its head, opened the zipper, and then took off the huge doll's headgear. Nitrate heard himself cry out in horror. It was a moving but pale boy's face, with dark black pupils looking at him. The boy took a long breath.He took off the white hood covering his hair again.The hair clings to the scalp wetly.One could clearly see the hot air surrounding him continuously evaporating in the air.Seeing the profusely sweaty look on his face, Niatzi couldn't help shivering for him. "...I. I said... Be careful of heatstroke." I couldn't help reminding, after all, standing in the sun wearing an eiderdown quilt is too careless about health. The boy glanced at it, and it seemed that he had no intention of speaking, but his expression suddenly turned down. "I'll just say...you go and change your clothes." The other party seemed to ignore the advice completely, but just looked at her again, turned his head expressionlessly and entered the staff area.Glass stood alone for a while, still alternately amazed at the man's appearance and angry at being ignored, positive and negative alternately, unable to figure it out clearly.Angrily walking a few meters away, he couldn't help turning his head again, just in time to see the boy standing behind him with his forehead covered after changing his clothes.His hairline was trembling in a blur in his powerless movements, and he seemed to be able to see his unsightly face clearly. In the whole lively playground, it seemed that a small white piece of paper that was particularly inconspicuous and disobedient was randomly thrown away by someone. Paste here in general. Nitro's footsteps stopped, and after hesitating for a while, he turned back. "Are you OK?……" The boy quickly adjusted his expression and looked at her: "I'm fine." Then he showed a colder tone, "Thank you, you don't have to worry about it." "..." She looks amazing, isn't she? !If it weren't for this dying look, who would care about you! But how to say, just when Nitzi couldn't help but blurt out her complaints, seeing the boy close his eyes, and then his face quickly turned pale, she became flustered: "You, what happened to you? Sit here for a while Let's go." Without caring so much, he took the other party to a bench beside him. The boy who didn't refuse seemed to know that he was sick, so he obediently sat down with Nitro, then leaned back in the chair and closed his eyes. very long.Very long eyelashes. The blue T-shirt indented into a small part of his chin made his face extraordinarily thin and pale.Fold flat like the backbone is missing.Nitro calmed down. Is the surname... the surname Xintang?Name... Saint?Is it holy?Or is it called Fujiri (Note: "Holy" HIJIRI and "Fujiri" HUJIRI are pronounced similarly)? Is it a boy named Xintangsheng... huh? Feeling something being stroked on his forehead, Xintang woke up and opened his eyes. His reaction obviously frightened Nitzi, who was wiping his sweat, his hands were frozen in mid-air, not knowing what to do. "You're sweating a lot...so, I, that..." "No." He breathed out a little feebly, while motioning for Nitzi to take back her handkerchief, paused for a long time, and then said as if she had made up her mind, "Maybe the suit was worn for a long time, and it was very boring. So comfortable..." "Ah. Yeah. Two more hours of wear...but," finally speaking to myself!Nitro made up his mind to say the second half of the sentence, "But you don't seem to be in good health....Although it's quite quick to catch the thief." "...You worry too much." He closed his eyes again.After a while, "It's night after all. . . . It's different from daytime." "Is it really too hot during the day?" Niatz thought, it's really not easy to get a job now. Conversation stopped for a while. "Aren't you going?" "...um...huh?" I didn't realize that the person next to me spoke to me, and it took me a while to respond to the other party's question, "What are you going?" "Your friends. Not looking for them?" "Ah!" Forget it! ...But in the current situation, "...Anyway, we have to gather at the door later, so it shouldn't matter." The boy didn't speak any more.So the state between them returned to the slightly incongruous silence before.Nitro rubbed his fingers repeatedly, and felt that the sunlight that was baking on his neck was about to burn marks there.But did not move away.From the corner of his eye, he glanced at Xintang on the side.Fortunately, his position is shaded by trees.The nearby merry-go-round, with brilliant lights, is constantly projecting on Xintang's face, revealing the lines of the face between light and shadow. After all, he was a very handsome man.Nitro sighed silently in his heart, it was the first time he saw someone more handsome than Fujishima-senpai.Just a gender twist.However, someone like him must have a girlfriend.I don't know what his girlfriend is like, so lucky to be able to find a handsome guy.It's beautiful.Alas, when will I be able to come out of the bitter sea, and the matter of wanting to hold the arm of Fujishima-senpai is almost as far away as a dream. ...and where did I think of... "that……" The boy opened his eyes. "Mr. Xintang is working here. In fact, playing puppet, this job, the hourly salary is not high, and it is not suitable for your body." The tone is like striking up a conversation, I really hate myself! "It's okay." The boy looked at the carousel indifferently. "what?" "I think it's a good job." "Would it happen?" Absolutely don't believe it, "This kind of cosplay that can hardly even make a sound...what's so good about it?" Xintang was so indifferent that he looked at Nitzi almost rudely: "I think so, just right." Nitzi's face turned red and then turned white, and she felt a blood vessel on her chin throbbing uncontrollably. She gritted her teeth hard, and managed not to throw the angry sentence in the other's face, but after all, the temperature between the two was still Cool down quickly.Full of confrontational indifference.And the embarrassment also became more intense in the inability to move or make a sound. Nitzi could only turn his head to look at the amusement equipment on one side, wondering if he should hope that the other party would break the deadlock first. But it wasn't her and the boy who were the first to change. After a series of footsteps approached, Nitro looked at the uniformed playground personnel who stopped panting in front of Xintang. "Oh, great, you haven't left yet." "What?" the boy asked. "That guy Kondo broke his leg and went to the hospital." "What?" He sat up straight. "There is still one missing in the puppet theater, you can take his place." "Okay, I'll go now." "Hi!!!" Hearing this, Nitro finally couldn't hold back and shouted again, "Can you take it?!" The visitor looked at Xintang suspiciously: "What's wrong with you?" "No." Xintang looked at Nitro for a long time, and stood up, "Miss should also meet up with her friends. They will be worried." Nitrate felt as if he had been greatly insulted: "Alright, alright, you go and act, you go and act, a person like you who doesn't cherish himself deserves his illness and death!" He yelled out abruptly, but he felt guilty first, and Nitro watched the boy's reaction with infinite nervousness. "Then deserve to die of illness." His face was expressionless. His indifference is like a fine needle, piercing a row of pain points in Nitzi's heart quickly, and tiny bloodshots emerge.She didn't know where the courage came from, she ran over and grabbed the boy, and shouted at the staff member: "He's sick. If you really want to find someone to act, then let me do it!" Sitting in the background, Xintang felt a sudden chill on his face. He turned his head and saw that the girl handed him the iced coffee. After thinking about it, he took it.Then the girl sat down next to him and lifted the bottle cap, but she didn't seem to be able to do it, even after several times.Xintang sighed inwardly, stretched out his hand to take it, and heard the girl's repeated "sorry", and opened it again, but felt that he didn't have much strength in his hand, but he still gritted his teeth and lifted it away. "I'm nosy, but I just can't see people not cherishing themselves so much." While pouring down his throat, he said in a rambling manner. Xintang didn't make a sound, and Nitrogen was encouraged: "Fortunately, there are other extras in the end, otherwise, if you really play, you will be so bored in the hood that you will be vomited, and it will be troublesome." Already vomited. Not just vomiting.And exhaustion and exhaustion.Especially in summer, after taking off the clothes, the whole skin is still wrapped in an airtight suffocation, and there is almost no strength to move your fingers. Before I got this job, I never thought that playing a puppet would be such a difficult job. Or because there are too many things that have happened, which left an indelible sense of depression with them, and took away too much strength from myself. Xintang glanced sideways at the girl's pretty short hair, and the corners of her mouth were covered with brown marks.He put the coffee can aside, and the figures in front of him were busy and intertwined: "You are also kind." "Ha, you finally know." He looked so happy that he was about to cry, "The playground has given me a little comfort." "What?" I didn't understand the meaning of the sentence. "Oh, I'm... I've always felt that the playground is an unlucky and auspicious place, so I'm always repulsed. But today, it seems that something good will happen." "What counts as a good thing?" "Ah?" This, of course, is sitting with you drinking coffee or something... what kind of mess, "...the senior senior I like is also here." "That's it." There was a tone of "you girls".Nitro was motivated to take advantage of the victory and pursue the idea suddenly: "You have seen a lot. There are so many couples in the playground... If I were to work here every day, I would definitely not be able to stand the excitement and cry silently in the hood." Xintang's eyes fell on an unknown place in the distance: "Here... everyone should be happy." "That's right, that's right," so don't keep a cold face, "But if I don't go back, Yoshizawa will be so angry that he will hit me." A series of crashing and rolling sounds followed the aluminum can that fell from the boy's hands, extending for several meters before stopping.The unfinished coffee forms intermittent color lines on the road, and under the sun, it returns a dazzling luster. "Ah..." Nitro wanted to stand up, but Xintang stepped forward, bent down and threw the coffee can into the trash can beside him.Walk back again.Nitro thought maybe his hands were slippery, after all, the water vapor condensed on the outside of the jar was very strong.Just when she was feeling a little embarrassed, she heard Xintang's voice: "your friend……" "Yoshizawa?" Looking at the subtle changes in the color of the boy's brows, Nitto added without knowing, "Yoshizawa Kami. Do you know her?" "...No. I don't know." Sure enough, when they met at the door, they were still nagged by Xiangman.Such as "Why did you come to the playground", "Fujishima-senpai, Fujishima-senpai", "No matter how you say it, you can't just run away like this" are endless.When she saw Xintang walking behind Nitrogen, she suddenly realized that she pulled Nitrogen aside, and quickly asked for a confession, "New acquaintance? How did you know me! I can't tell..." Just as Nitrogen was about to answer, she saw the boy has gone far.I wanted to shout something, but I couldn't. Still like a light-colored piece of paper, stuck somewhere.A certain emotion in Nitzi's heart swelled little by little behind his shadow, until Senior Fujishima put her shoulders and asked with a smile, "Where did you go just now?" The girl immediately switched channels and explained nervously.At the end, when Senior Fujishima said, "I thought you didn't like this place, come out to play when you have free time", Nitzi almost suppressed his excitement, nodded and said, "Okay! I like the playground the most!" Sure enough, as he said, "Here, everyone should be happy." The story about Nitro and Fujishima cannot continue here.In the end, we still have to talk about the new hall.New Church St.This summer, he has been working in an amusement park for more than a month. After getting on the tram, he often hears incoherent breathing in his ears, but he doesn't even have the strength to raise his hand.Occasionally, a female high school student sitting next to him would look at him frequently in a restrained manner, or he would hear how the topic whispered behind him mentioned him and then turned into a tacit chuckle among the girls.It's so different from working as a Muppet at an amusement park.There, I will always appear as a cartoon image in the eyes of others, take pictures with tourists, and even a little boy will climb up to his shoulders. I met one after another ordinary girls like Glass, laughing at myself as a big cloth bear, or ignoring myself with an older mood.Thousands of tourists shuttle around him, brewing the joy and happiness of the entire playground.And Nitro will never know that the reason why this young man named Xintangsheng took such a job was not because the amusement park could not find a manpower to offer a relatively high salary, but because the person in charge unintentionally said "this job The hard work is hard not to breathe, not even to make a sound." Can't make a sound. Why do you have to speak out. People with physical disabilities will come across, people in wheelchairs or people with hearing aids organized by tour groups enter the playground. Due to physical reasons, they cannot take most of the facilities, so quite a few people surround the puppets and take pictures. It's a "go here".At that time, Xintang saw a middle-aged man who could not speak, and could make gestures fluently, and he could also hear his voice of "Yah Ya".At that time, Xintang sympathized with him very much, but later found that this was not contradictory to his hatred of "sound". Xintang leaned himself against the car window as far as possible, and heard the heavy and messy breathing echoing in his ears.Seems like it's been a while.The body is hot and cold.The reason is because I took this job, or because of the earlier... not long ago, in the spring... I said to the girl in front of me, "Please forget about me." The reason is so lengthy, in fact, it was doomed earlier. When the new female teacher became her 14-year-old class teacher, she fell ill in the rain because of taking care of herself who lived alone. Inadvertently used the power of the voice, repeatedly implying "teacher, you will not be cold" and "teacher, you are fine" until she was critically ill, and what happened afterwards was funny and ridiculous, and the parents were anxious to protect their son. I forgot this past, but I didn't expect to use the power of sound again in the summer when I was 17, and the sky began to rain with dandelions.At that time, he said the three words "dandelion" in such a warm and pity voice, but he didn't realize that the future would continue irreparably. Irreversible, so I will use the power of voice to say "Please forget me". It's irreversible, so it doesn't matter how hard it is to work, to be out of breath in a plush toy, to vomit, or to be exhausted, since there is no need to make a sound. It's irreversible, so it doesn't matter if you give up your health. In the heart of this young man named Xintangsheng, he will always remember that day.In the playground in summer, I acted as a teddy bear and took photos with people everywhere.Another group of visiting high school girls surrounded him. Through the sweaty hood, he saw the little girl with long brown hair, with a slightly bulging nose and bright eyes, laughing non-stop with his girlfriend . The girls rushed up and dragged the teddy bear's arms to take pictures together.One, two later, the third shouted "Jize, it's your turn". Responding, she hooked her arm very skillfully. It's because of the bear that sees itself as a mascot. She could feel her body through the thick fleece. Please forget about me. Please forget about me. I'm right by your side.Yoshizawa. Why can't I let you know that I'm by your side, Yoshizawa. "Mr. Xiong, look at the camera." The girl looked at him with a smile, her soft voice penetrated through the artificial fur material and the white hood, through the skin and blood, and melted into every cell. A tingling busy sound appeared in the boy's mind, which ran through his short days.