Chapter 12 Title: Honey, I'm Here

[one] The current living situation is that I will not go out for about a week, and I will be at home facing the computer every day.Chatting with friends, watching animations and Japanese TV dramas, ordering box lunches from outside when there is change, and burning instant noodles when there is no change.When I was in a hurry, I couldn’t sleep well for about five days in a row, and I would jump up from the stool when I heard the phone ringing.In addition, if it weren't for "Super Girl" a while ago, maybe the item "watching TV" would have to be given up.But thanks to Supergirl, I also watched "Exploration·Discovery", which talks about alien life, how poor earthlings want to find a partner in the vast universe, and also watched "I Love My Family" and (I love Xu Shaohua! I Love Song Dandan! TAT!)... Sometimes the biological clock is very disordered, and I fell asleep with the TV on, and woke up at three o'clock in the middle of the night. "The program has all been played"...

The reason why I mentioned this is because I was asked by the editor-in-chief of this book to write "After Fame". I don't think I can be called "famous". Such a description seems to take myself too seriously. If I insist on crowning this term, then the running account mentioned above is my post-XX. In fact, it is no different from before XX. [two] Hey, XX is XX. [three] If I list all my dreams since I was a child, from the initial "want to be an astronomer", "want to be a teacher" (purely because it makes me feel good to arrange seats for fictional people...), "want to be a bakery Master" (Xiangxiangtiantian is me...), "want to be an apple dealer"... It can be seen that this is a person with no ambitions and short-sightedness.This is also impossible. I am a lazy and mediocre Taurus, and my family life has been peaceful day after day since I was a child, so there are almost no emergencies or life twists and turns that made me decide to "study for the rise of China".

And shamefully, I hate reading.I hate math and I hate math teachers even more. At the same time, I have had conflicts with all teachers including English teachers. Of course, what I call "contradiction" may be nothing more than "bad students who are incompetent and don't hand in homework again" in their eyes. Therefore, thinking about how to avoid tomorrow's homework check and make all the teachers I hate disappear overnight in the world were the main considerations at that time. Of course, I have also seen colorful big stars on TV, or so-and-so broke up with so-and-so reported in the news.But at that time, I was just biting my daily vegetable buns, while riding a bicycle, thinking that the annoying school day was about to start again.Therefore, who and who and who is so and so is completely out of my focus. (Faye Wong and Nicholas Tse broke up definitely not because of me! TAT...)

The reason why I say this is to express: Even if the roots go back to a long time ago, things like XX are far away from the lives of ordinary children. [Four] What's more, I heard that those celebrities are easy to be dug up to find out what they were like before.I have too many bad deeds.The math red light alone is enough to light up half a dozen neighborhoods. not suitable. [Fives] In fact, everyone has had a thing or two that is different from ordinary things.Really, more or less.It is used to illustrate that the world is not as flat as we expected.It's just that something like this is a bit unrealistic.It's like a boy in junior high school fell into a cesspit during a spring outing.The whole group sat on the bus for two hours holding their breath and returning solemnly.

He also became famous in a small way. The girl who sings very well in the school, or the president of the student council who is so handsome as in the comics, every time he walks through the corridors of our group of lower grades, I can hear the loud heartbeat in the air "Master- Chair-hey! Master-chair-hey!".Twice my girlfriend and I spotted him on the way home and laughed like idiots. Even the very ordinary deskmate around him will be widely read because of the cockroach that once crawled out of the desk.Everyone has heard a little bit about the first-year junior high school student who choked on hard-boiled eggs and rolled his eyes and was almost sent to the hospital.

So back to myself, I was once included in "Campus Opinion Guinness" by virtue of my special ability of "like eating apples". One day when I saw a strange student from another class, they would say "Oh, I know you Well, the man who eats seven apples a day". I was a little proud of it. Of course, I also know that the other party may not mean compliments. It's just that someone, somewhere, will know you--it doesn't matter whether it's because you eat eggs or apples--seems a little smug. [six] The definition of "XX" itself is so general and diverse.Even the current Luoluo would be recognized by the security guards because "every morning at four o'clock in the morning, she would wear a red dress and go to the 24-hour convenience store to buy drinks in the quiet neighborhood".

There was a moment when he said to my dad, "I know her," and I was really, really happy. [seven] Before it was published, maybe the most famous person in my family should be my mother (of course she is not bad now).The characteristics of the horse are well reflected in her teacher's profession.And I always see her busy with reading, researching, and teaching in a "lazy" state. Slowly, she has reached the best position in this position and has won many honorary awards.It is said that the people in the school are also very docile to her. Mom really has always been the hardest working person in the family.And with the help of a certain amount of luck, I saw with my own eyes how she became a well-known figure in the industry.

At the same time, her education to me is also increasing day by day.She said that one must achieve something, don't be muddled, have a plan, and be able to endure hardships, saying "how can you see a rainbow without going through wind and rain" (probably). But you said, as a generation of anime lovers and the king of idleness of the year, how could I easily listen to it.The way to study hard at a prestigious university and become famous sounds like the word "boring". My father is struggling, my mother is struggling, and I continue to live aimlessly. [Eight] If there was a voice in the dark asking me: "Do you want to be famous?"

...I might think it was haunted. [Nine] No one ever asked me that.I didn't even think about asking myself.It seems that the successful future can not be summed up in one word with "famous".So at that time, I didn't rush to set this up as a goal in the future. Because for me in reality, it seems that bank clerks are the direction of my life. [ten] The most "famous" person I met before junior high school was probably a certain little girl in the school.Because she looks very much like Jin Ming, it seems that a film crew found her.When the news spread, it was called boiling.Soon all kinds of news spread rapidly in the originally boring school.For example, the girl's father actually did what kind of official, he entrusted the relationship, for example, the girl's math score was actually cheated...

Even people who are not interested in it will be gradually promoted in such a wave of public opinion.So, which ones are real, which ones are fake, which ones are good, which ones are bad, are all mixed and stirred in the air. I saw that girl once when I was home.In fact, she is no different from before.It doesn't necessarily mean raising your eyes higher or speaking louder. But at that time, I couldn't help feeling "she really gave me a blank look" or "she was really loudly promoting her recent situation". why? so boring. [eleven] What happened to the little girl?

who knows…… It's not about writing her "After XX". [twelve] After that, how did it gradually become known to others because of reasons other than "like eating apples" or "buying drinks in the middle of the night".After leaving a school that was a complete failure, he finally embarked on the industry he wanted.Maybe because that's the field I really like, you don't need to examine your mathematical theorems and physical laws, as long as you have a flexible mind and a funny or a clear analysis. How nice.I love everything about anime.So there is no problem at all in commenting on them.That's when, with the publication of the magazine, letters from readers began to arrive.For a long time at the beginning, I was immersed in similar happiness, which had nothing to do with being famous, just the joy of being affirmed like "going out and making friends everywhere". At that time, the pseudonym "Luoluo" was used, and many people would say "Oh, Luoluo, how are you?" on the Internet or in real life. [Thirteen] I am very well. very good! [fourteen] It seems that I can't find the entry point of the so-called "XX" after writing here. After all, I don't have any experience that can be called "XX". If I broaden it to "a lot of people know you", in my opinion It is "not many people know."What's more, anyone who publishes a book will be known, even the handsome guy in the McDonald's Nanjing East Road restaurant has been known by many people. Even if it will be said "tsk tsk, I'm not satisfied after all this", but I have to find the so-called "XX" feeling from the life of box lunch and instant noodles. [fifteen] Don't talk about these, the more you smear, the more black you are. [sixteen] So what to say.Luoluo is used to walking on the street alone, and likes to go out alone and stay at home alone-although singing K with friends is also very happy, and talking gossip is also very happy, but it is too helpless to go against my original intention, if possible, I might actually wish I could be alone all the time, with enough time for multi-layered, all-encompassing thoughts, and the same quiet atmosphere for me to digest them one by one. I have always been someone who is used to running away from lively parties. So, speaking of these, I want to show that this thing named "XX" really doesn't match my attributes at all.And the various by-products it brings, even I, who can't even talk about "XX", feel pressured. [seventeen] Saying you feel stressed is a literary way. In fact, it is disgusting. [eighteen] Thanks to "Nianhua", letting people know that there is a person like "Luoluo" has opened a big hole.A lot of people can count as meeting me for the first time.I am but a symbol of two words in front of them.The contact between people must involve long-term communication, and such a one-sided interaction gives me the feeling of "it's so noisy, I can't stand it". Well, it's a bit of a cheap and good-looking taste. I also tried my best to put on an expression of "Hey, everyone is having fun together". [nineteen] If it were a few years ago, maybe as a writer, you don't need to pay attention to too many things other than words.Not a singer, not an actor, writers have always been very low-key and silent!They work silently, eat grass and milk milk! But the so-called time has changed, and the era of idolizing everything has already arrived.Then, what is different from before? What do you say? [twenty] From a long time ago, he could not be said to be a person of great promise.Everything dilly-dally refused to take the initiative to do.To be pushed and pulled and whipped.I don't like lively places, just sit on the sofa and watch TV for a day.Of course, the necessary communication is still needed.But I am very afraid of strangers.Facing strangers, he smirks too much from time to time, but he is indifferent enough. Think about how difficult it is to smile and smile again for the public (and my teeth are not white enough!). [twenty one] Talking to my friends, my dream is to do behind-the-scenes work, such as the editor-director of a TV station, or the planner of a magazine (eh, it’s just a dream, I don’t have a degree to get in TAT).It is largely influenced by Japanese TV dramas. I think those strong women who are popular in the industry look very handsome.Ahh, people like me who eat instant noodles at home all day long can't catch up with bare feet. But in front of the curtain, the host or singer who accepts the test of the public, this pressure is not what I am willing to accept (pure obscenity...).Maybe there will be many people signing autographs on the road, and many people will pay attention to which male star you have had dinner with... But no matter how I think about it, it seems that the nature of the work behind the scenes is more attractive to me. --It's like unfathomable martial arts masters, and most of the time they just play the role of roadside beggars. ...I don't want to be a beggar, but when I can walk on the road in a low-key manner, and no one recognizes me, I am secretly beautiful in my heart, "Hmph, in fact, none of you know, I stomp my feet and..." This should be How nice.It is my supreme dream! (refer to!) [twenty two] After the big sale of "Nianhua", it relieved some of my difficulties very well, and it also made people feel confident.This is beyond doubt.I think there is nothing more joyful than being able to read your own books.Thank you to everyone who made this dream a reality. I also received E-MAIL, talking about feelings, because I was shy, I always didn't know what to reply.Saying "thank you" in the same way seems to be considered insincere, so just run away. So what I want to express is that although many inexplicable and one-sided attentions make people feel very awkward - I really can't get used to people who come to criticize JJWW for reasons other than words, but we also need to see the bright side of society Well, because no matter what, even if I have the cheek to pretend to be a person who is "after XX" for a while, among those who understand what I want to say, they have always given me the reliable strength of friendship. [twenty-three] In fact, I only feel restrained when I sign a sale. Although I will take advantage of the gap to make a couple of jokes, I am still quite nervous after all.This is another side effect of the so-called "after XX". You must know that it is not a happy thing to hold on to the skin of "smiling", and every time I sit behind the table, I often feel "I want to go home and eat watermelon." !" Or "It's like going home to eat slanderous frogs!" Such homely and vulgar thoughts. However, in order to sell books, there is no other way. It's just that the theorem "I hope the book sells well, more people will know about you" makes me very embarrassed. "Is it possible that there is only a way to sell books but not to be popular?" He was accused of "You have a good idea!" Hey, okay, okay, if you gain something, you must lose something.I also know. [twenty four] Writing this "After XX" article has to face double contradictions.Saying that I am already XX, I think it is too pretentious, and I will be ridiculed.But when I always hide it and say "I don't have XX at all", it seems that it is easy to fall into the public opinion of "you greedy guy". But these are not all I want to say. From a very young age, the Luoluo you know is a guy who has no great ambitions, and is struggling to survive under the pressure of his family and teachers while holding on to the only life-saving straw of "a slightly better Chinese score".Perhaps it was the many psychological traumas at that time that made me become the crooked person I am now.And words are the only outlet I can express. There are many times when I was stimulated by the rapid suppression and cried bitterly, I was so confused that I ran away from home in the past, and there are weaknesses in human nature that cannot be solved until now.Those are things hidden deep under the flesh.Even I don't feel it often, only at certain times. In this way, from the beginning to the end, I am facing a strange and huge readership class, and I still use my articles to try to communicate with them. Many people saw it. Some of them got it. I can't always see what they all look like, and don't understand where they exist.But the only thing I understand, assuming that I am really XX, then the most important thing XX brings to me is to make it easier for those who may have a similar state of mind to find me. "Hi, I'm here". After all, the hope has always been to at least be able to use words to find someone who once felt or experienced the same thing as me.Just like when I was in the most emotionally chaotic high school, I used to hold Chen Danyan's book tightly, and became relieved and anxious because I found someone peeping into my secret.So, one day later, I also studied clumsily, hoping to welcome other people's trains on the railway tracks paved with words. It's like walking in a crowd with a sign in hand, and meeting people who stop and say "Oh, is that me you're looking for?" That's how it feels. [twenty five] I am looking for you. This is you I found at the risk of being known by many unrelated people. [Twenty-six] Are you OK? I.I'm not bad.