Chapter 19 [19] cheat cheat cheat liar

Speaking of this, Senin has already smoked his tenth cigarette. Yang Zuoluo climbed into bed because of chills.It's a triple bed and it's very big.He put his feet into the other corner of the bed, his head was dizzy, and he didn't dare to pant loudly. She went down to pour water, and he went to wash his face. Yang Zuoluo: "Are you in your twenties now?" Sai Ning: "24 years old. The year of birth. The fortune teller says that I will be lucky in my fleeting years, hehe..." Yang Zuoluo: "What happened when I was 18?" Senin: "Rada lied to me. That year changed the lives of the three of us."

Yang Zuoluo: "3 people? Do you mean you, Zigong and Lada?" Senin: "Yes." The end of the story: The three of them grew up together.Lada has been helping Sai Ning and Zi Gong send messages.She also likes Zigong, she loves Zigong very deeply, and buries it deeply. Later, it was necessary to maintain communication secretly by writing letters. Rada has read almost all the correspondence between them.She even dreamed that Zigong said the same sweet words to her in the same tone, and when she woke up, she found that it was actually a nightmare. In the last letter, Zi Gong said that he was leaving the city and could not make his mother sad anymore.He made an agreement with Sai Ning that after Sai Ning finished his college entrance examination, he would go to Huan City to find him, and they could live there together.It was the best way, because he couldn't leave his mother, and getting out of here was the only way to cheer her up.He selfishly begged Seinin's forgiveness.Invite to meet in Huancheng, see you soon.At the end of the letter, he said he loved her.

Rada read the letter as usual, but this time he made an unpredictable decision. In the year after finishing the college entrance examination, Lada disappeared and went to Huancheng alone to find Zigong. When she arrived in Huancheng, she said to Zigong, "Zigong, give up. Saining hates you. She scolded you for being cowardly and tore your letter to shreds. I saw that my heart was about to break. You are all exhausted in love, because your love is too unfree and blocked by other things. I came to you behind her back, and I think it is wrong for her not to give you an explanation. Wait for a lifetime. I have come here specially to tell you, I hope you will not be sad. As an outsider, I admire and understand your love..."

Zi Gong never thought that Sai Ning would not understand his painstaking efforts.He is desperate.Stay in the room moping all day. During those days, Rada spent time with him day and night, comforting him and resolving him.Slowly infiltrating his love into him, Zi Gong found that he had failed Sai Ning and could not fail Radha again. At the age of 20, they got married. After the first year of marriage, Zi Gong accidentally found the letter he wrote to Sai Ning in Lada's suitcase.The kind of sadness is self-evident. As soon as his divorce from Radha began, his health gave way.The doctor said that his heart was too cold. If Zuoren hadn't been so unhappy, he wouldn't have suffered from such a serious illness at such a young age, and his body would not have collapsed so quickly.

During the year and a half of Zigong's illness, Lada left Huancheng and went to look for Saining in the place where he lived as a child.But her parents couldn't tell where she had gone.During the last few days of Zigong, Sai Ning finally went home and found the letter in the mailbox. At that time, Zigong was likely to die at any time, and Lada was by his side to take care of him and couldn't leave, so he had to send a letter to inform her.In fact, being able to see Zigong for the last time is a kind of love from heaven, a kind of fate. Yang Zuoluo: "Is the song "Senin" written for Lada? I remember very clearly that day you said that it was sung for a person, and it felt very sincere. You were trying to persuade her not to cry, right? Then How is she doing now?"

Sai Ning: "She has a serious heart disease and takes a lot of medicine every day. Her parents came back from abroad to pick her up for treatment abroad. I visited her once before she left. She knelt in front of me and kept crying. Refusing to get up. So I wrote that song to comfort her and keep her from crying." Yang Zuoluo: "Did you forgive her?" Sai Ning: "How else? She is also for her own love. Besides, Zigong is her husband. She lost her love and her husband in the end. She lost almost everything. Even if I don't forgive her, we Everything can’t be reversed, life has gone to this point, and it’s not a videotape, it can be said that it can be reversed, and it can be zoomed. And in a sense, she loves harder than me, and she doesn’t get any response My love is much worse than mine. I feel sorry for her, and I also miss our old relationship. Her psychological debt has already made her breathless, and I can no longer put pressure on her."

Yang Zuoluo: "Don't cry...it's over." Sai Ning wept silently: "I thought everything was over, but, it happened that I met you." Yang Zuoluo: "..." Sai Ning: "I remember Zigong once told me that he knew my mother had feelings for his father very early on. Before his father died, he told him that he would marry me in the future. His father said that I sing well and I look like my mother..." She couldn't help it, and burst into tears.The sound pierced the heart and shook the world. After a while, a little more stable, she went on: "When I met you, my consciousness was completely confused. I took you as Zigong, you look and sound too much alike. I made a crazy decision to marry you. Although I don't know you, I don't want to marry you. I know you. I hope you are Zigong, and I don’t want to see you with a different personality from him... But, I found that I was wrong, and it was outrageous. I gave you my first time, and I suddenly realized that you It’s you, Zigong is Zigong. Your personalities are completely different, and you can’t replace Zigong. Maybe I’m selfish when I say this, but it’s from my heart. I’m guilty in front of you. You have been involved in my chaotic life. After Zigong died, I have been very peaceful, wanting to sing, play the piano, and spend the rest of my life..."

She didn't want to raise her head to face Yang Zuoluo's gaze, and regretted her ignorance even more. Yang Zuoluo grabbed his hair, unable to continue listening to her, shouted loudly: "Why does he look like me?! Why does he look like me?! Why do I look like him? Why is everything wrong except him?! Why did you bring so many stories about marrying me, but I didn’t see any flaws?! Why did I fall in love with you before you fell in love with me?! You?! You are indeed guilty!! How many women are innocent?!" He suddenly thought of Marguerite, and his head was so painful that he was about to faint.He suddenly felt that he was the unluckiest person in the whole world.He felt that these two women had extremely unlucky experiences, and the timing of meeting him was not right.He doubted his love and even hated the city.

He felt that the people in Huancheng were actually the most unhappy people.People in the city are sad because of numbness, and people from outside the city come here because they escaped disaster or love in their hometown. Under those shadows, they cannot be happy.