Chapter 6 Chapter Six

My legs were trembling, I struggled back to the room, fell on the sofa and couldn't move, and it took me a long time to pour out my father's brandy and drink it down. The mother was still awake, who could sleep under the circumstances. "What's the matter with you?" Mother asked, "Go out and come back, your face is ashen." I simply explained to her: "Mom, my business with Wensi has been cancelled." In exchange for a long silence, she seemed to have a premonition that this matter would not go so smoothly. I further explained, "He only has one older sister. Later I found out that his brother-in-law is Teng Haiqi. I think it's better to suppress this matter."

When the mother heard the name, her body shook, and she wanted to say something, but she finally didn't speak. "What a coincidence," I said. She is still very silent, I know she is having a hard time, pretending to be relaxed, "I am still young, the big deal is to marry a foreigner in a foreign country, mother, don't worry about me. It is popular now, many female stars are going back on their promises about marriage. Anyway, one day, I can get married." Mother's eyes were glazed and empty. I poured out another half a glass of brandy, raised my head and drank it down.

This exchange condition wasn't bad, if he didn't have Zuo Wensi's trump card, his father would be doomed this time. Early the next morning, I personally went to the newspapers to cancel the advertisements, and the engagement officially came to an end. When I got home, I saw my father was in better spirits, sitting on the bed eating porridge, smiling. I knew immediately that Teng Haiqi had done his homework. I went over and asked, "Good news?" Mother said: "Today, Mrs. Zhu came to Hong Kong suddenly. Do you remember Mrs. Zhu?" I nodded, that middle-aged woman who claimed to be pure and innocent.

"He's such a nice person," my mother gave me a white look, "Here's a helping hand, Yunna, next time I see her, I won't allow you to be unreasonable." "Why, is she going to help us?" I asked knowingly. "Not only solve our urgent needs, but also willing to take down the factory for us." "That's great." I am very satisfied with Teng's arrangement. "I think it's time for your father to retire. Isn't it enough to roll around for so many years?" The father was silent, obviously having discussed it with his mother.

"The workers will be paid tomorrow," the mother sighed. "I didn't expect the matter to be resolved satisfactorily. Thank God, we met the noble man." The old couple held hands tightly. Teng Haiqi has such a way, it seems that I don't want to keep my promise. He would transfer Vince away so that there would be no trace of our parting. Wen Si knew that he was going to Europe to exhibit, so excited. He insisted that I go with him. I refused straight away: "It's troublesome for me to follow you when you go to work, and you won't have time to accompany me. When you come back at night, you're already exhausted. Let's try another time."

Of course he was disappointed at my indifference, but I spoke reasonably. "How long?" I asked him. "It will take two or three months." He has infinite Yiyi. I nod.Enough is enough, distant love is no love, it comes and goes quickly, Teng Haiqi is very accurate, he thinks that the momentary impulse will evaporate as long as it cools down. "Bring me some nice clothes." "Sure." He remembered, "Did you see our notice in the newspaper?" "Just as I was about to tell you, my father changed his mind again, so I had no choice but to take down all the notices."

Wen Si was puzzled. "The old man's mind is quite difficult to guess, I don't care, what about you?" Wen Si is really a simple person, he immediately cleared his doubts, "It doesn't matter to me, respect is worse than obedience." I was sad, my eyes were moist, and I hugged him tightly. "I won't force you to go with me this time, you take good care of your father here." There was a fresh soapy smell on Wensi's body, lying on his chest, he felt a sense of belonging.Without Teng Haiqi's intervention, we can become a married couple and grow old together.

But not every relationship can blossom and bear fruit. "During this period of time, I will message you every day." He finally said. He walked rather hastily. Teng spoke to me: "I have kept my promise, now it's up to you." He likes this brother-in-law very much, I can see it. Now that I have betrayed Zuo Wensi.The rest need not be pursued.But how could Teng Haiqi, a crocodile, be interested in people other than himself? I never forget.I was so worried that I went to find Gina and had tea with her. Even close relatives, I don't reveal much. "Blow?" Gina opened her eyes wide.

I smiled wryly, "I made money this time, look at my gorgeous clothes." "For what? Did he hear some gossip? Zuo Wensi is not a person who listens to slander, he is a shrewd artist, he knows what he is doing, and I have confidence in him." I held my coffee mug, "I think I'll go back to America when my father settles down." Gina grumbled, "No wonder so many women want to marry foreigners. Once it's settled, I don't know how good it is. Avoid villains. It's as far as it gets." I sighed: "In fact, the villain is an acquaintance from the past, otherwise how would I know so many secrets."

"What's the secret?" Gina said, "It's popular now to turn over the bottom of the purse for people to see, and it's almost impossible to publicly perform the thirty-six postures on the bed. People's little things are blown up as eternal secrets, and he himself is not a once-in-a-lifetime robbery and prostitution thing." I laughed: "The tone sounds like the president of the Moral Rehabilitation Association." The coffee shop has a glass zenith, and the sunlight is very good. Sitting there, it feels like life is like a dream. I said softly, "Killing someone with a knife is not a trivial matter."

Gina was startled. "You love me, of course you forgive me. I've always been bitter about it myself." "It's just a momentary impulse." Gina defended me blindly and motherly. "Almost everything is done on impulse." I don't forgive myself for that. "He was wrong too, so he didn't sue you." "Yes, otherwise I may be sentenced to prison." I cried and laughed, "I will lose my reputation and my life will be over." "—Reformation school, don't forget that you are not old enough." I am silent.Where does the courage come from?I don't even know it myself, I just hate it.Hatred seemed to be a terrifying force, eager to destroy him, and destroy himself as well. Women are all like this, killing themselves before it's too late, all of them have the nature of whores, and they can't live without a man, how can it be so sad? No matter how advanced the times are, going into space doesn't work, women are still women. Now that I have changed everything, I learned this lesson after paying such a high price. If I don’t keep a firm vigilance on myself, how can I do it. I told Gina: "For seven years in a row, I often dreamed that I saw a bloody man holding my leg, or falling down on me, with his face pressed against mine." "Your life is miserable, too." "Basically," I smiled wryly, "In my dream, I could even smell blood. All these years, I dared not touch a knife, and ate sandwiches and instant noodles." I put my hand on my head, "But it's over, everything it's already over." Gina sympathized with me as if she had experienced it herself. "I'm unlucky, aren't I?" I asked softly. Gina burst into tears, lying on the coffee table and sobbing. "Hey, why are you crying, don't be nervous." I pushed her. "It's hard work being a woman, I can't stand it." "But you are a lucky woman. Women don't care about talent, they only care about luck. Lucky people will always have a man who lives and dies for you, and you don't have to worry about food and clothing. You are one of them." "You guarantee?" Gina asked while wiping her tears. I looked at her beautiful and upright face. "I assure you, you don't need an iron abacus to know that she is blessed." She broke through her tears and smiled: "I hope Zuo Wen will come to you after thinking clearly." "There are so many men and women, who will wait for the other to turn around?" I asked. "Don't use the vicissitudes of life tone, okay?" Gina said. We check out. When Wensi made long-distance calls in the evening, I always pretended that I was not there. My parents are so busy finishing their work in the factory that they have no time to pay attention to my love life.They decided to move to a smaller unit for further savings and it was time for me to be away from the family again. My father was both sad and happy. The happy thing was that he didn't have to face the creditor in court. The sad thing was that his life's hard work was wasted. After they settled in their new house, I moved out to live with Gina temporarily. My father asked me: "Where is Wensi? Where is Wensi?" I said, "Father, we have our affairs in mind." At this time, my father was exhausted and had no self-confidence at all, so he could only look at me sadly, without making a sound. I said, "He's in Europe." I didn't even give him a new phone number, and I have since disappeared. I was sleeping in the living room of Gina's small apartment, missing Vance. What will happen to him if he can't find me?I have sent the ring back to him. This engagement was like a farce. He will quickly forget.Yes, forget. The weather seems to be getting colder, so I knit a sweater for Gina. When my father is in better health, I will embark on the journey again. I didn't know that Wensi had spread to people all over the world looking for me. That day when I was picking up Gina from get off work, I met his photographer, Xiao Yang, on the road. To be more precise, when he saw me on the other side of the road, he shook his hands desperately and shouted: "Yunna!" He ran over.In order not to prevent him from being a ghost under the wheel, a train of cars braked sharply, causing a sharp grinding sound and causing passers-by to look sideways. "What are you doing, Xiao Yang, committing suicide?" I asked with a smile. He grabbed me right away, "Where did you go?" He shouted at me, "Zuo Wensi frantically looking for you." I immediately broke away from his hand. Xiao Yang didn't give up, and chased after her, "Don't go, Yunna, adults have something to say!" I didn't care, but he was a man with long legs and fast legs, so I was caught by him. "See where you go." He was annoyed. I was in a hurry and called the police: "Mr. Police, Mr. Police!" The young inspector came up at once, raising an eyebrow. I immediately said, "This man harassed me. I didn't know him, but he came to hold my hand." Xiao Yang didn't expect me to have this trick, so he couldn't laugh or cry, and cursed bitterly: "You woman!" The policeman was also very good at looking at people's brows and foreheads, so he knew that we were acquaintances. The policeman asked me: "Then do you want to file a case at the police station?" "No, you can call a car with me." I simply followed the policeman, and while the policeman was not paying attention, I winked at Xiao Yang. I got off, not feeling the slightest bit of pleasure in my heart. I didn't expect Wen Si to tell my friends about my disappearance. In fact, he himself is coming back soon. Just ask and you will know.I mentioned this when Teng contacted me. "It's none of your business." He said, "For you, Zuo Wensi no longer exists." I said, "It's rare for you to protect a person like a hen protecting its chicks. People who don't know what's going on will think that he is your son." He laughed a few times: "My lord is very satisfied with the factory price. The factory is losing money and owes wages. If it can be sold, it will be a great success." "You made another bet," I pointed out, "the factory's orders have been received until September next year, and we just have trouble with turnover." "Tsk tsk, I hope I can invite you to be the chief accountant. You are very smart, Yunna, and you are more capable than your father." "Please do not insult my father." "I'm sorry, I just want to know, are you satisfied with this matter?" I said truthfully: "Satisfied." "Remember the terms between us." "You are too worried, Mr. Teng, the more you are like this, the more suspicious I am." He laughed dryly again, as if there was something in my hands. Not long after that, Zuo Shudong found me. This city is too small and crowded, and if you want to find someone, you should have no trouble. She came to ring the bell, I happened to be at home, caught off guard, you can't ask her to stand outside the door for three hours. She was still so beautiful, wrapped in winter clothes, her face was as polished as marble, as soon as she saw me, she said, "Miss Wang, Wensi was so hard to find you." I had to ask her to come in and sit down. She stared blankly at me for several minutes, and I couldn't help feeling ashamed. "Wen Si is in Europe, and he calls three or four times a day to ask me to help him track down your tracks. He is going crazy." "I was with his siblings, and I have never had so many phone calls in my life. After half a month, I had to ask a private detective for help. Fortunately, he has a lot of your photos." Zuo Shudong said. I was speechless, and it was my turn to stare blankly at her. Her lips are beautifully lined, and the dark red lipstick is filled thickly and evenly, like a coloring painting, and her mouth seems to have a thousand words to say. She asked me: "Vance said that he lost contact with you after arriving in Europe. Is it true?" "We..." I stammered, "It's over, I have a new love." Zuo Shudong smiled, I had never seen her smile, she smiled completely differently, very charming. "I don't believe it." She shook her head, "You have other reasons to dismiss me." I made a mistake again. If she can marry Teng Haiqi, it will not be easy.I opened my mouth wide, not knowing what to say. "Have you changed your mind?" she asked. I nodded, knowing that I couldn't tell her, so I just nodded and shook my head in answer. "And why?" Her voice was very mellow and charming, "You are so suitable for him, and he loves you so much, for you, he has become another person, the two of them are walking well, and they are already engaged, how could such a thing happen? Tell me about it." I was speechless and looked at her helplessly. "I'm my sister, and I have the right to know. I don't want to see the two of you disperse. What's wrong with you? Can I help?" I thought for a long time, "Will you believe that my parents think he is not a college student?" Zuo Shudong shook his head. "Our personalities don't match." I lowered my head, "I'm too strong." "He accommodates you like this, he needs you." I felt a pain in my heart, and I let out a long sigh. "I see that you are also very reluctant." I didn't answer, my eyes fell on my hands. "Is it for money? I still have a little on hand, so you can tell me." I was very moved. I held her hand. Zuo Shudong's hand was cold and fragrant, and the blood-red nails were very beautifully manicured. I suddenly knew what Zuo Shudong looked like - she was like a plaster model of Yunshang Company, impeccable, but not flesh and blood. She loves Vince so much. "For my brother," she said, "I can do anything." I opened my mouth and closed it again. "Do you find it strange," she said to herself, "that he hates me and I love him?" I cleared my throat, "If you love him and he loves you in the world, it would be too boring." "He didn't forgive me, because I was willing to be an old man's concubine for sixteen years." Zuo Shudong said. I was startled, I didn't expect her to be so frank with me. "I also live for a living," she said. "I was twenty-one years old and he was twelve. Of course, I could live if I only worked as a factory worker or an office postman, but I didn't choose that road. Do not forgive me." Her voice was bitter. I asked, "Old man, let's get over it. "No." "what?" "Three years ago he let me out, gave me a lot of money, and told me to marry someone." "He was a good man, wise and kind." "Yes, but Vince always thinks he is an old whore." I smiled, "Vancee's world is clear, black is black, and white is white." Zuo Shudong tugged at the corner of his mouth, "You are helpful to Wensi, he needs you." I asked again: "Why did you marry Teng Haiqi?" "Ah, you know him?" Shudong was slightly surprised. I looked up, "I've just heard of it." "I have money and I want to marry someone. He is a man and waits for the money to be used. Isn't that enough?" "Is he waiting for money?" I was surprised. "He was very embarrassed at the time, but now he has turned around again." She paused, "Wen Si is more satisfied with this brother-in-law." She said helplessly. I know that Teng Haiqi and Wen Si are very close. "It's he who promoted Wensi." Zuo Shudong said. "Vince has a genius." I reminded her. "I think so. He has been refusing to use my money, has been wandering outside, and he even refused to admit that he has my sister," Zuo Shudong said, "I had to try to help him secretly." "Things should be much better now." I reassured her. "I beg you not to leave him." Her eyes moistened. I was suspicious.For my sister's begging, I don't want to leave him, and I'm willing to pay any price.My brother-in-law forced me to leave him, no matter the price. "Why did you choose Teng Haiqi?" I asked more and more deeply. "It's very simple. There are not many greedy men," she sighed, "Only he is willing to marry me, so I marry him." "Who said that? You are so beautiful, there must be many men who want it. You are too impatient." I said, "Besides, I believe he chased you first." She was surprised, "Only you speak for me." I patted her arm. "At that time he had just divorced, and his wife left. It was said that he was having an affair, and it was very unpleasant. His ex-wife took away most of his property, and he was almost penniless." I listened quietly. "My requirements for life are extremely low, and I have never hoped to find happiness in marriage, but I work hard to live, and I am used to it." Her beautiful face is still. "You deserve more," I said, "but you should be content now that you have money." "Yes," she smiled, "Wen Si doesn't know, but his shop is actually my property." I smiled and shook my head, "Vance is a pure bunny." "Zuo Shudong couldn't help it," you love him so much, why did you break up with him? " "But in our life, besides the love between men and women, there are many other things." "I can't say enough about you." "Why tell me so much?" I asked. "If you want people to confess to you, you must first confess yourself to others." She said tactfully. I have no comment. "I feel that talking with you can communicate effortlessly, and I believe Wensi feels the same way," Zuo Shudong said. I am silent. "Don't let me talk in vain," she begged. I asked back: "You won't tell Wensi that I live here?" "Of course I will tell him." Zuo Shudong said without thinking. "You are not enough friends." I regretted, "I have to find a new place to live." "Even if you have found a new love, you have to tell him personally that leaving is not an option." "When does he come back?" "the day after tomorrow." I let out a long sigh. She took the handbag, "I think I'm leaving. If you need anything, don't hesitate to find me." She gave me a card. When I saw the card, I was immediately stunned. There were at least five or six famous local boutiques on it, and Zuo Shudong was the owner. "Shh, eyes don't know Mount Tai." She smiled and walked away. I held the card with my hands, and felt very lonely. Of course, I missed Wen Si.I ate but didn't know the taste, lost weight sharply, couldn't sleep at night, and my mind was in a trance. Of course I missed Wensi. But I have experience, and I know this pain can be overcome, and in time, I will heal, and larger traumas can heal.There are more important things in this world than the relationship between children. I sat on the couch until dark. Gina has gotten used to my virtue, she compared the sweater I knitted to her body, "It's almost done," she said, and then went to move about on her own. I heard her turn on the little radio in the bathroom, first to report the news, then to sing, very melodious. When Gina comes back every day, she always stays in the bathroom for a long time: shampooing, showering, applying facial mask, foot massage, and manicure are regarded as a great enjoyment, and are performed as a ritual every day. Always perfectly groomed, I think she's great, and while she's doing these things, I'm usually lying on the couch, motionless, like a lazy dog. Over the past ten years, Gina has been persistent in her pursuit of beauty. Gina finally got it done.Wrapped in a big bath towel, I was very surprised when I saw me: "Uncle treats guests today, why don't you go?" I said, "He invited Mrs. and Mrs. Zhu, so it's not convenient for me to go." I said, "That middle-aged lady doesn't like me." "It's not a solution to stay at home all the time. Has Wen Si come back?" "how could I know?" "Obviously engaged, why do you act like nothing happened?" "It was my wishful thinking at the beginning." I yawned. Turn on the TV, you don't have to think about the dialogue anymore. "I'm afraid to see your example." She said. I turned my head and said, "Hey, but do you have a boyfriend?" "Walking around are these few people. In the past, people came back from vacation, and now they don't have to think about who they will stay for. Which woman is willing to send them to the door to provide free entertainment. That is still welcome, but I want to take this opportunity It's wishful thinking to hit it off and step into the church." "It's good to have delusions, life is easy." "But how do you step down?" Gina was nervous. "Jump down. I'll sprain my ankle at worst. Who will pay attention? Who will worry about whether Wang Yunna will marry Zuo Wensi?" "Me," she said. There is no doubt that there are Teng Haiqi and Zuo Shudong couple. Gina asked: "Will you marry a very ordinary person?" "It depends on whether he treats me well." "What if it's very good?" Gina asked. "A person who has no family background, no diploma, no passport, no real estate, no career, no savings, nothing?" "Ok." I asked, "Will you fall in love with someone like that?" "Think about it. Auntie will give you a dowry? Are you planning to use it in a small family?" "I didn't say it was me," she argued. "What did you do?" "When I married you, at best, my parents would give you a set of jewelry and a quilt with a picture of a hundred sons, and the man's family will be responsible for the rest. Unless you can do it yourself, you have to be realistic." "Why are weddings so extravagant?" Gina objected. "No one said that weddings do not require money, but life after marriage requires living expenses. The purchase of house furniture and utensils is astronomical, and there are seven things to open the door, hire a servant, buy a car, the tax bill at the beginning of the year, wow ,” I laughed, “Have you really thought about it?” "It's amazing," Gina said. "Marriage is very annoying." I crossed my legs, "It's not enough just for money, you have to have feelings. Look at my mother, how beautiful she was when she married into the Wang family! A child of an aristocratic family, if you want money and people, you need someone. He is kind and loving, but for the past 30 years, he has been going downhill. Since the old garden house on Prince Edward Road, he has been moving to worse places, and he is about to live on Lamma Island. Fortunately, she loves him, otherwise it would be so hard. " "The two of them really haven't lived enough." Gina admitted. "Now I'm going out for a candlelight dinner. My mother is still quite attractive in her dress, and my father admires her expression, and he still takes her very seriously. Without them as an example, who would believe in the love between a man and a woman." "Really, I have nothing to say." Gina kept nodding. "Speaking of which," I smiled, "I don't think money is that important anymore." "Using the spear of the son to attack the shield of the son, how about it?" Gina gave me a white look. "I know that my mother's last piece of valuable jewelry was sold. Do you still remember that string of jade beads? It was only sold for 70,000 yuan. After changing hands, those profiteers made ten times and twenty times." I said with emotion, "Now There are only two or three diamond bracelets left, and they said to leave them to me, I don’t want them anymore, the stones are too small to see clearly. Some time ago, the engagement ring brought by Wen Si was expensive, only three diamonds, that’s true I had to use a magnifying glass to realize that the times were different, so I quickly thanked Mom for the gift." Gina smiled, "Do you remember her earrings when she was young? They were all the size of white beans, and there were a bunch of ten or so pieces. They were really brilliant and genuine. Did they all sell?" "Don't talk about that, even the magnificent mahogany furniture handed down from my grandfather will disappear automatically, as well as some calligraphy and paintings hanging in the living room, and the aunt's driver will no longer be seen. It's amazing," I shook my head and sighed, "Bing Lost like a mountain, I heard that when my grandfather went south, the gold bars were carried in soap boxes, picked out, and used up in decades.” We actually talked about the grand occasion of the Wang family. Gina said: "Uncle likes to dance in Lichi the most." "That's not it." I smiled. "After swimming and dancing, my mother likes to comb the ponytail. She has three bone trousers. She looks like Lin Cui." Gina clapped her hands and said, "They say my mom looks like You Min." I sighed, "Stop talking, go to sleep." "You remember their red MG sports car?" Gina asked. "Go to sleep." "It's really hard to sleep. Women back then didn't have to work. Now, except for a few daughters of the richest man, women have to go out into the world by themselves. They're as cheap as maids." She held her head. I am silent. "Also, if you don't want such a good partner, I will go after him." Who is not nostalgic. In the past, the days were wayward and careless, regardless of cost, every piece of clothes was washed and ironed by hand, the girls were all charming, and every family had a aunt. Now?Everything is about efficiency, practicality, success is king, failure is bandit, God knows. Like Zuo Shudong, she has nothing but money, but she is compensated for not having everything by herself, and her mother, her love life is impeccable, but she has to accompany her father to endure hardships. They can get at least one of them.Gina and I seem to get nothing. Gina asked, "Are you asleep?" I will not answer her. I want to desperately flee to a small town in Europe with Zuo Wensi, so that no one can find us for the rest of their lives. But how to make a living?Vance's roots are here.His career and fame cannot be displayed in a foreign land, and it is impossible for him to make such a sacrifice. Forget about him. I curled up on the sofa, not knowing that I was a guest in my dream. The next day I went to visit my parents and saw my mother washing vegetables in the kitchen. I asked, "Both Lao Mo and the Filipino maid have been fired?" Mother nodded. I muttered under my breath, "I want to go back." "Your father needs you." "Nothing has been done for months, the climate here is not for me." "Rome wasn't built in a day, your father recovered faster than expected, you can find another job." I don't ring. "It is said that the first year is the hardest, and I will get used to it in the future." I help her wash the dishes.The cycle of life is to eat and wash, eat again after washing, and wash after eating. "Well, let's see in half a year. If you're really unhappy, it's not too late to leave." She paused, "When will Wen Si come back?" "We're done early, you didn't tell your father? I have another boyfriend now." Mother remained silent, wiped her hands dry, and was very busy. In less than a few months, she was unkempt and covered in oily smoke.I couldn't bear to put my personal troubles on her and decided to deal with it myself. "I'm going to see the job tomorrow." I said. "At this time, can you find a job?" "A 40% discount is calculated as a salary. There must be someone who wants it. How can there be something that cannot be sold? Just reduce the price." Mother shook her head and smiled wryly.