Chapter 3 third chapter

I sit alone in the room. Time jumps back in a big way, and it is also such an autumn. I just graduated and made a new cheongsam to wear as an adult. When I came back from the outside one day, I saw someone in the study—— "Yun'er," mother called in the real world, "come out for dinner." Only then did I realize that I was sweating coldly, and I quickly wiped it off with my hands. It's him. He looked at me in disbelief, "You?" He said, "You are Xiaoyun? Ah ha, I really can't believe you are Xiaoyun, seeing you born, a ball of pink flesh, I really want to deny my age No more."

Mom opened the door and came in, "Yun'er, why do you say you shouldn't?" "Come on," I came back to my senses, "Come on." Watching TV with my parents after dinner, my thoughts no longer wandered. The next day I went to work as usual, paler than usual, and the corners of my mouth drooped forever when no one was watching. Who would still giggle while living alone on a deserted island?Smile is for others to see. After the age of eighteen, who would laugh at a cloud, a gust of wind, or a whisper of a rose. It's all fake smiles in the toothpaste tube, squeeze some out and apply at the right time.

Complaints are the same as smiling faces, you have to post them from time to time, otherwise people will think you are too satisfied with life and you will become old-fashioned, so remember to complain a few words. Only the sigh could not be controlled, revealing the meaning in his heart at once. When the little boss saw me coming in, he said, "Zuo Wensi looked for you." "What do you want from me?" I asked, "You listened to the call?" "He invited you to dinner," he said, "you go right away, this is also a business, I hope he can help me design."

What?The sky will send a big task to me? "No, no, I'm not at all sure—" "Yunna, you are too honest. Who is sure about what? Talking about business, talking about business, it can be seen that talking about it will succeed. Who wants you to guarantee it?" "There's a lot of work to do on the stage." I was annoyed. "Then go as soon as you're done." "How did you talk to him?" "We used to know each other." "I'll mention it to him," I said. "The expression should be urgent." I just have to laugh.

The old-fashioned office has the old-fashioned benefits. It is not lonely to be lonely, but if you want to concentrate on writing something, you really need a little concentration. I bit my pen and was about to write a budget. Over there, Miss Yin answered the phone, obviously it was from her boyfriend, she immediately put her hand on her chin, she was so delicate, "Well, I don't know... What do you think..." I have also received such calls.My thoughts fly far away. "Xiao Yun? I heard that you like to eat hairy crabs, and drink a glass of Mo Ting to accompany you. Girls shouldn't have the taste of old ladies, but I ordered ten of the largest fat crabs. How about coming out tonight? Aunt Teng? She bought them in Paris For new clothes, I have to go there in person every time, because there is a store open, of course it doesn’t make money, but it’s just a place for her to live, hey, come out or not?”

I was in a trance. "Miss Wang Line 2." Called from outside. "Ah." I quickly answered the phone. "I'm Zuo Wensi." "Yes," I asked, "how was it?" "Come out to take pictures today. Xiao Yang is ready." "I'm at work." I reminded him, "And I promised Sunday last time." "after get off work?" "I'm so tired that the bags under my eyes are black, what's there to take a picture of?" "It doesn't matter, haggard has haggard beauty." I have never been beautiful.

"I have already promised me, you can't go back on your word." He really has a way. "I can leave work an hour earlier, but you have to promise Cao Xiaokai to design sportswear for him." I said. "This Cao is really determined, okay, let me think for you." Zuo Wensi said. "Really? Then I can come out at three o'clock." He said: "Just this time, the next time will not be an example." I breathed a sigh of relief, I hope Zuo will not ask me to take pictures next time.I'm not beautiful, and I'm not photographed at all. Even when he showed up on time, he would always say that he had been waiting a long time.

"Who would believe that?" I said. "Look at this mustache," he pointed to his chin, "it grew out when you were here." He always talks. That's famous. When I went downstairs to see Zuo Wensi, he had really been waiting for a long time. I answered a phone call at three o'clock, and it took me 20 minutes to talk about business, and then I cleaned it up, which took a total of half an hour. But he didn't say anything, just put his hands in his pockets and looked at me with a smile. It's heart-melting. The sky was still gray and drizzling, mixed with the coal dust floating in the industrial area, it was strangely dirty.

However, his posture is not at all like standing in a place where hawkers set up stalls and workers come and go. He looks like standing in Paris in the early spring, outside the coffee station on Rue de la Belle. "You look fine," he said. "I'm wearing new clothes today." "Nice dress. Ralph Rolland?" Zuo Wensi said. "Yes." I said, "Gina lent it to me." "You should wear the clothes I designed. Let's go." He brushed my hair. "It would be better if the hair was longer." "Men always like women with long hair, a primitive, unconscious love, because long hair is not good for women, it makes women look weak, and they are happy."

Zuo Wensi gave me a deep look, "You are too sensitive and suspicious." I know. I wasn't like this before. I asked, "Do you also design sportswear?" Zuo Wensi said: "No, that's why I refused, but Cao's orders are all for sportswear." "Want to help?" I said. "In business, I'm not a likable person," Zuo Wensi said, "I'm quite shrewd and not easy to get along with." "What about in private?" "You are so smart, I believe you have seen my true face." He lowered his head and said. A long time ago, I liked to observe people's minds, but now, I am willing to listen to what people say.

I didn't see through Zuo Wensi's true face.I am no longer interested. I said, "All I know is that you like me and think I'm good enough to be your fashion model." He turned to look at me, smiling. Xiao Yang's studio is furnished in a grand way, and it can be seen that the cost is sufficient. These days, business is more about decoration. He had a makeup artist who pulled my hair back and started painting my face. After I finished painting, I looked in the mirror and was startled. Like an addict waiting for a drug emergency. I asked, "Does the eye sockets really have to be so deep, and the lips have to be so shallow?" They tied up all my hair, moved it to one side, and made the horse's tail bloom, and spread out like a fountain. Zuo Wensi asked, "How?" "Like a worn-out scarecrow," I said. Everyone laughed. I put on Zuo Wensi's elaborate masterpiece, and I like his silk dress with thin black suspenders the most. The suspenders are as thin as a rope and seem to be broken at any time. It is very worrying, so the design has achieved its purpose. The photographer took pictures of me. It was unanimously agreed that I have the best toes, small and small, like a child, unlike some people who wear high heels and wear their feet badly, and the big toes are particularly curved and thick.Therefore call me barefoot. I had only photographed three pieces of clothing, and I was so tired that I refused to take any more photos. I thought I could shoot in one hour. If this goes on, it is hard to guarantee that it will not be dawn. I have already spent three and a half hours in this studio. Zuo Wensi said: "Now you know that modeling is not easy?" I muttered: "It's not easy to be an accountant." At this moment, the photography assistant said, "Miss Shudong is here." When I looked up, I saw a middle-aged woman who was nearly forty came in with a smile. I was a little surprised. This kind of time comes, and everyone knows her, not necessarily a guest. So who is it? I saw that her hair was cut in the most fashionable style, and she was wearing a toga with large sleeves. It didn't match her age, but she didn't look too unpleasant. Her face was well maintained, but after all, forty is forty up. She is a very elegant woman, and she can see that the environment is very good, and she wears her clothes with the utmost care, a small crocodile leather handbag, the most elegant whale leather shoes, a big diamond ring on her left ring finger, and a watch. It is in the fashion of ancient paintings, densely embedded with precious stones. who? Zuo Wensi's secret lover? I secretly paid attention to Wensi's expression. He was not very happy, and said to her lightly: "Why are you here?" It didn't mean to welcome her. I am deeply surprised, who is she? I try not to show that "who" on my face. "I passed by and met Xiao Yang's secretary downstairs. She said that you are working here. I guessed that you might be hungry, so I brought some snacks." She said very gently. Zuo Wensi still said in that tone, "We don't have time to eat." Who is this person? Zuo Wensi is an extremely gentle and courteous person, I can't imagine that he would be so rude and indifferent to anyone. Besides, this man treated him so meekly and humbly. I can't see it.Then I thought, what does it matter to me?Everyone has his secrets, everyone has his thoughts. I don't turn my face away, take the opportunity to go to the locker room to change clothes. By the time I got back into my old clothes, the lady guest had gone. poor woman. Xiao Yang whispered, "You shouldn't have treated her like this." Zuo Wensi remained silent. "She really cares about you." Xiao Yang said. "Leave me alone." "Wen Si, you have to think about it, she didn't give you what you are today." Zuo Wensi was about to speak, but when he saw me coming out, he stopped. It became very clear.If a hard-working student wants to get up and occupy a position in his industry, no one can do it, so this lady uses her power generously, and Zuo Wensi gets what he wants, but also pays the price. Afterwards, afterward is always the same. He thought he didn't need her anymore, and she couldn't keep his heart anymore. It's sad that this kind of clichéd story happens from time to time, and the person involved is so happy with it that he wants to die. Unexpectedly, the handsome Zuo Wensi was also one of them. I said, "If you need me some other day, you know where to find me." Zuo Wensi said: "Sign this simple contract and leave, and you will be paid 150 yuan per hour." "Big deal." I laughed. Xiao Yang said: "Don't forget, after becoming popular, it's another matter, one has to have a beginning." Zuo Wensi's complexion was very bad, all the elation he had just now was swept away by that woman, he was so depressed that he couldn't lift his eyelids. Of course Xiao Yang could see it too, and he said, "Come on, Yunna, I'll see you off." "I don't need anyone to send it off." I waved my hand, "Goodbye everyone." Xiao Yang held me back: "Nonsense, come on, I'll go with you." He put on my coat for me. When I went downstairs, I glanced at Zuo Wensi. As if struck by lightning, he turned into a stone statue and sat there motionless. Xiao Yang said: "He is very emotional. You are not familiar with him, have you ever seen him lose his temper? It is frightening to death. A batch of clothes in the factory were not ideally made. Look, like a lunatic." "That's how they are artists," I said. "Vince does not admit that he is an artist." I said, "Zuo Wensi said he was just a small businessman." Xiao Yang said, "You know him very well." He didn't mention who the woman was. I didn't ask either. It's not that I lack curiosity, and I'm not familiar with Zuo Wensi, so there's no need to pursue him. Nowadays, it is more difficult to invest in emotions than before, and it is better to guard your limited assets. Who doesn't have a dark side, it is very difficult to believe that a person will forget the past, Zuo Wensi can't.Neither can I.No one can. Seeing him in this scene didn't change my opinion of him. We are just friends, and friendship doesn't matter the past. Xiao Yang said, "Yunna, I'll call you a car here." "it is good." I got into the street car and waved goodbye to him. Zuo Wensi didn't call again for a long time. I only read about him in the newspaper: A certain columnist criticized Zuo Wensi for being arrogant and refused to accept interviews while teaching readers how to eat, drink and dress. The wife of a certain celebrity said: She would never want to wear Hong Kong-made clothes, unless it was designed by Zuo Wensi. During this period of time, I still wore Gina's dole. Gina asked: "There is nothing between you and Zuo Wensi? I didn't hear that he was with you." He let me know the secret, he is not happy to be friends with me again. "Why didn't you catch him firmly?" Gina complained, "It can be seen that he likes you so much." "Catch? How? You, like me, are a woman who doesn't know how to do it," I laughed. "At most, it's when someone proposes to us, to see if it's suitable." "Tell yourself so honestly?" Ji Nahui smiled slyly. "Honesty is popular now." I could only laugh, "Honesty and purity." He once said to me: "You are the smartest and the stupidest woman. You are smart because you know everything, but you are stupid because you have to say everything. It doesn't matter if you hide a little bit of adultery in your heart. Just remember." I was yelling, "I'm going to see her! I'm going to tell her!" He said coldly: "Do you think she doesn't know what's going on between us?" I curled up the corners of my mouth and smiled mockingly, really, it's a pity that I was young and inexperienced, and was played in the palm of my hand. People always learn to be good slowly, and gradually build up iron walls to protect themselves. After get off work that day, I saw Zuo Wensi waiting for me downstairs with a lot of paper-like things under his arm. His smile was tired, and he leaned against the lamppost, as if he had been waiting for a long time. I went up to meet him, "Why are you like a dragon who sees its head but doesn't see its tail, eluding you like a ghost." There was no sense of longing in the voice. He suddenly held my hand, "Yunna, we are all emotional people, why do we try to suppress it and not show it?" I don't ring.Tell me how to answer him. We walked side by side. Passing by a stinky tofu stand, I took out a dime to buy two pieces, covered them with red chili sauce, and strung them on bamboo sticks to chew. He didn't make a sound and watched me do it. I handed over the bamboo skewers, and he took my hand, took two bites, and then took out a snow-white handkerchief to wipe the hot sauce from the corner of my mouth, and the linen handkerchief was immediately stained red with oil. I was moved, and fell into an old disease, saying: "I have a bad omen, one of us will be hurt, or even both of us will be hurt." "But we still met," he said. "Hundreds of thousands of men and women meet every day." "Don't you have any strange feelings in your heart?" "No." "If you're not lucky, you're lying to me. My heart is pounding for you, you know that feeling?" I know, years ago, for another unworthy person. A heart swells and swings back and forth, restless and full of excitement, telling everyone what happened. many years ago. Zuo Wensi continued, "I also thought it was a misunderstanding. After a few days of silence, I realized that it has become a fact. Let me tell you today..." He looked at me, unable to speak. I smiled narrowly, "It's harder than you imagined, isn't it?" Zuo Wensi sighed, "They say everyone has a nemesis." I won't go on. "What are you going to do?" I laughed. "Will you accept my request?" Zuo Wensi said. "Vince, stop joking." I refused. "Even I can muster up the courage, what's your problem?" I am silent. "It's just an unsatisfactory incident in the past that made you wary." I was shocked.Don't turn your face away. "You think you are covering it up very well, but in fact, everyone can see it. Don't worry, the past is the past. I will never ask you what is covered under your left wristband." To put it more clearly, it also told me not to ask who is that elegant and beautiful middle-aged woman. Is it really okay to write off the past? I said, "Let me think about it." I turned and walked away. "You don't want to see your picture?" "What's there to see?" I said, "You can see enough in the mirror." "Then why did you accept the invitation to take a photo?" "Because of you," I confessed, "you make me feel irresistible." "So, you don't hate me." He pursued hard. This is the source of pain. Unlucky Zuo Wensi, originally he was a free and happy person, he would lose his temper as much as he likes, aloof and self-willed, which can also be called a unique temperament, but now he came to a factory building in To Kwa Wan Waiting for a woman who dare not have feelings with anyone. He has had bad luck this year. "No, I like you very much," I said, "I think human relationships should be limited." "Are you afraid." "Yes," I said, "terrified to death." he laughed. He pulled me and we walked side by side in the crowded streets where the crowd forced us to be lovers. I don't know where I'm going to go with him, but I feel that there is someone next to me, and that person likes me so much, I really feel a solid sense of security. My eyes were moist and my nose was almost red. He told me to get into a little sports car and sit together.This sports car is like a small animal, breathing and panting, driving us forward. When we came to the suburbs, he lived on the top floor of a four-story house. He took me up and opened the lock. The house was very ordinary, not like the model houses in interior decoration magazines, but it was very comfortable. "What?" I asked. "No gold-plated taps?" "Don't be naughty or playful anymore, in front of me, there is no such need. Hearing what he said, I had no choice but to calm down. The most unique feature of his apartment on this floor is that half of the roof of the study room is a glass skylight, the interior is as warm as spring, and I sit and watch the stars. The dark blue sky is full of silver stars, just like those seen in the planetarium. Great place, no doubt about it. We were both very stiff and didn't know how to start. Should we eat first?Or listen to music? Or don't bother with anything, hug and kiss first? We are like the kind of little lovers in school uniforms, full of ignorance. I looked at Wensi, Wensi looked at me, looked at each other, and I suddenly smiled. I said: "Men and women are alone in the same room, and they don't necessarily have to sleep." "But if you don't recommend sleeping now, it seems that the other party is not attractive enough." He also laughed. I couldn't close my mouth even more, "And you don't sleep, what are you doing here?" Wen Si shook his head, "It's really a tragedy for modern people." I buried my head in my arms and couldn't breathe from laughing. How many times hastily done it just because it seemed the right thing to do, or everyone else did it. "Listen to the music, I have some very light and relaxing music." He turned on the stereo equipment. "Is there anything to eat?" I said. "Among the women I know, you are the favorite to eat." Zuo Wensi tapped my nose with his hand. I wrinkle my nose. "I'll show you the clothes I designed for you." "I, or is it the Cao family?" "You, who cares about Mrs. Cao." He smiled. "Just for me?" "yes." I couldn't help but follow him into the room. "Women, that's how women walk into a man's room." That is the workshop, with many clothes hanging, colorful. "Did it for me?" I couldn't believe it. "For you." He said softly. All of them are made of soft whale skin, all of unrealistic colors: light purple, light gray, pink, bright yellow. "It was the first time in my life that I used colors other than black and white." "But...whale skin." I stroked it lightly. "Yes, I like this material," he said excitedly. "Look, how beautiful it is, but it gets dirty right away if you don't wear it. Don't you feel sad?" I am silent.For me, really, for what?Why? "Put it on and see." I couldn't help but change into one, the little black vest covered with star-shaped small rhinestones, the big purple skirt, the leather was as soft as cloth, and the narrow waist jacket with shoulder pads, Peugeot is unbelievable. The style is not very new, but the combination is very romantic, making me feel like a princess. Wen Si said: "This is for you to wear, not for exhibiting." "What should I do if it's dirty?" I asked hesitantly. "Dirty is dirty, wear it as coarse trousers." "Too capricious." "Basically, fashion is capricious," Wen Si smiled. "Think about it, a car only costs 40,000 yuan, but a better Houston coat usually costs the same. The same goes for Tippi coats, what's there to say." "I bought them with you, I really don't want to take them off." "There are other styles here, with sweaters and scarves, all of which can be worn to work on weekdays." He said, "And this one, this one is for eating with me." I laughed, my heart was astringent, my nose was sore, and I sat down in a daze. After a while, he said again: "I will buy them with you." "Not for sale," he said, "and," he said proudly, "you can't afford it." "Hey." I could only smile wryly. "Seven sets in total, enough for your daily wear." "Thank you." "A thank you is enough?" He leaned forward, "I've been racking my brains for you these days, and now there are still people making hand-knitted sweaters for you with the designs I designed." "What do you want me to do?" I pretended to be surprised and took a step back, "Promise with me?" I crossed my hands to protect my chest, and hypocritically said in the tone of a weak woman, "I... am pure." "You." He laughed loudly, then frowned again, "Nowadays it's too popular for women to make physical promises, it's not a big deal, no, no, I ask for more than that." "Don't be greedy," I said solemnly, "It's fine if you get the body, you can't be overbearing if you have power." He handed over a glass of baijiu, and we were tired from laughing, so we drank it down in one gulp. "I still thank you." Suddenly I looked up, only to find that he had framed my photos, hung them on the wall, put them on the desk, and pressed them under the glass...everywhere. But in the photo, I have a pair of cold eyes, looking at the whole world in disbelief, but the smile on the corner of my mouth is sincere. Why is this.why. My lips trembled a little. "You finally saw it," Wen Siqing said, "These photos have already gone to New York." I dare not raise my head. Suddenly I became extremely precious, because a loved woman is always precious. How can I repay him.I only have a body, I don't have a heart.A long, long time ago, my chest was empty and became a spinach. The two of us sat silently in the small room without saying a word. I touched the skirt, scratching dark lines on it. Being alone with a man is, quite frankly, experienced.I believe that Wen Si is also a person who has experienced many battles, but tonight I was really dizzy, and he also fell short. Relatively speechless, there was a sour feeling in my heart. It is impossible not to talk about the past, the past is also a part of my life, if he asks "what made you hesitate" or "that scar was really so deep", I still have to explain to him, and I will finally Hate explaining. He didn't ask, so the two remained silent, as if there was an invisible wall blocking them. The doorbell rang at this time, The sound was really not at the right time. Wen Si didn't intend to open the door. He didn't stand up. Of course, this person couldn't come looking for me, so I didn't care. The doorbell rang a few times, but I couldn't pretend I didn't hear it, and when I looked at him, he couldn't help but say nothing. But just when he stood up, there was a rustling sound at the door, and it was clear that the person who rang the bell was holding the key and was opening the door to come in. Terrible, who could this be. Who will give the key to another person. When the door opened, Wen Si and I were stunned at the same time. It was Miss Shudong who came in. She changed her clothes and wore a black narrow skirt, black stockings and high-heeled shoes. Her whole body was wrapped in black, and she had a sense of sadness and mystery. Her face was still delicately covered with heavy makeup. The three of them looked at each other, and the most embarrassing one was naturally me. Miss Shudong opened her mouth wide, and she said to Wen Si: "I, I thought you were not here." Wen Si was annoyed, and the veins on his forehead were exposed, "Since you think I'm not here, why do you open the door and come in? Why don't you give me a little freedom?" He clenched his fists, the situation was horrific. "I..." Shudong took a step back. I grabbed my bag and said, "I'm leaving." There is no benefit in being caught between these two people, sooner or later one will get a slap on the left cheek or the right cheek, and it is better to avoid it. I hurried over, Wensi grabbed me, "Don't go, Yunna, you don't go." I patted his arm, "Calm down, Zuo Wensi, please control yourself, it's not convenient for me to stay." "Then I'll go." Shudong said. "You, you destroyed everything, and then walked away." Wen Si pointed at her and cursed. "I one by one" Shudong burst into tears, "I do everything for you, Wensi, my whole life is for you." It's a bittersweet scene, why bother playing a supporting role here, and immediately ran away. Zuo Wensi kept chasing after me, calling "Yunna, Yunna". I ran like a 100-meter race, and escaped like a lost dog. I am most afraid of this move. Get a streetcar on the street and jump on it immediately to go home.