Chapter 8 cheating

My husband is a doctor. Because I was his house fill, I did not accompany him to the UK for the exam, nor did I live in a hospital dormitory with him. When I married him, he was already a senior doctor and a member of several government bureaus. Everyone said that I was lucky, destined to enjoy happiness, and could not escape. Dr. Lin is fifty years old this year. He is energetic and talented. His four children have all grown up and married in a foreign country. He married me because he wanted someone to take care of him. When he attends a banquet, he has a decoration Taste. And I'm not an entertainment woman!A face is already familiar to people, no matter how well married, it also gives people a feeling of "a fox who has cultivated himself into a real fruit". I am an upright art student at the University of Paris. Up to now, I still hold an art exhibition in the Great Hall once a year , in any respect, no one from the Lin family can fault me.

What regrets do I have in my life? Dr. Lin's children don't hate me, because I don't compete with them for the limelight. I am an artist, but artists these days also need to dress and eat, so marry Dr. Lin, so I have a lot of time Come to make my wish. We live in an eight-room house in Shek O. My favorite car is a white Morgan sports car, and my favorite diamond jewelry is an Italian Puccirati. Women's magazines occasionally used me as the cover, and many people sighed in amazement: "Ah, it turns out that Dr. Lin's wife is so beautiful and generous, and she is also a painter."

Lin is very satisfied because he has this woman. But with that said, what regrets do I have in my life? With two drivers, three maids and Kao and his wife, life is too rich and comfortable. But that day, I said to my husband, "I want to move out." He raised his head and didn't understand for a moment, "What did you say?" "I want to move to the countryside, find a bungalow, and do some painting properly." "Don't be kidding," he said as if speaking to his grandson, "Can't you draw here?" "A lot of people follow me, I'm not free." I said.

"They won't come out if you don't ring the bell." He said in surprise, "Why are you upset?" I am silent. That night, he went home early and asked a jewelry store he knew to deliver the jewelry. I said: "I already have several beads like this, so I don't want any more." Impatiently, I asked them to take them back. He laughed, "I forgot, pick another style, okay?" I laughed, "I have everything. If you don't have a piece of this kind of thing, it's boring to be a human being. But after buying it for a few years, it's already full. You can count on enough to wear it. You don't need to spend more money."

"Then why are you bothered?" he asked. I didn't answer. So what regrets do I have in life?But that day when my sports car passed the theater door, I saw the advertising sign of "Moon Palace Treasure Box", and thought: If someone accompany me to watch this movie, and then go to a small restaurant to eat Chaozhou cuisine, that would be a joy. Lin is very busy at work. He has good medical ethics and has the ability to bring the dead back to life in the eyes of patients. Gradually, he is busy for responsibility, not for money, and has no chance to take vacations. A patient came and cried for a long time, begging him to have an operation.He came begging me, and I just sighed and said, "Okay, let's cancel the vacation."

He and I haven't been on our honeymoon for six years, and now if I don't get up and have breakfast with him, I hardly see him. I used to go to his clinic to see him, but now I don't go. As soon as I arrived at the clinic, more than a dozen nurses respectfully called me "Mrs. Lin", and I couldn't stand it. I still want to see Moon Palace Box, the requirements are very low, but for me, it is a luxury. When I first got married, Dr. Lin was quite worried about me. He said with a smile: "I am 20 years older than you. If you run away with those disheveled artists, my heart will go wrong immediately."

I just have to laugh. Later he was relieved because I was not that kind of person. The kind of artist who wears dirty clothes and has a mustache is not in my eyes. As the days passed, I gradually became very withdrawn and lonely, and I didn't want to appear in any publicity occasions. Naturally, Dr. Lin was more willing to rest at home. I don’t buy new clothes any more, I always keep those piles of sweaters and jeans, I wear a thick braid when my hair grows, I wear an apron when I paint, and I want to move out to live a simpler life. I also swim at the beach. I like brown skin. Dr. Lin doesn't like it. He said more than once: "A person who is very white, tanned like a nigger, and dirty." I always laugh with him, but still every year The sun is right.

He had a boat, which he never went to sea, unless the children needed it when they came back from America. The "children" come back every year, just because they are afraid that their father will become a fool and spend all the family property on the stepmother, but gradually they feel relieved, because every time they come back, they will see me in rags and treat Dr. Lin After a long time, they also know that they are not pretending, so they don't hate me so much, and they don't rush to flatter me. We get along very well. Dr. Lin told me that day: "They are coming back again, you can ask the driver to pick them up."

For some reason, this year I was particularly irritable, and I said at the time: "You can tell the driver yourself." When they arrived at the port, I went out to talk about the art exhibition with some friends. When I came back, I saw a whole room of people greeting me. I couldn't see clearly, and I stood behind Dr. Lin and smiled vigorously. Suddenly someone said, "I'm not, Mrs. Lin, I'm just their friend, my surname is Zhao." Everyone laughed. I nodded to him, "Young Master Zhao, you're welcome, just treat it like your own home." There were nearly ten more people in the room suddenly, and the commotion was upside down. I always ignored it and lived as usual. Dr. Lin was happy when there were more people. I had to admit that he was old.

One day when I came home from outside, I raised my voice and asked, "Is there anyone going fishing with me?" There was only a young man surnamed Zhao in the billiard room. I smiled at him, and he smiled back. "They all went by boat," he said. "What about you?" I asked. "I'm exhausted." He sat down. I understood exactly what he was saying and laughed. He is a handsome boy with the appearance of a standard American college student, energetic, strong, and full of humor. "Hong Kong is really a beautiful place," he said. "You mean, people from the Lin family come and go to beautiful places." I said.

He also understood very well, "Of course, in Hong Kong, you don't need a lot of money to live well." "What are you thinking about?" "Medical students." "God." I laughed! "We have more doctors in this room than clinics." He said, "Are you a painter?" I said, "Don't dare." I stretched and took a piece of fruit to eat. He stood up, "Are you looking for someone to fish?" I hesitated for a moment, it would be too obvious to refuse him at this moment, so I nodded. He was very sensitive, raised an eyebrow, "It's okay." "Of course it doesn't matter." I said. The two of us walked to the beach and sat down. The sun was very strong. I put on my straw hat and put down my fishhook. "It's so quiet," he said, "I can lie here for a lifetime." I nod. He stared at me, and I smiled. Although I am in my thirties, I have never lost my self-confidence, and I don't care whether young men look at me or not. He suddenly asked, "How did you marry Dr. Hugh?" I was surprised when I heard that, and turned my head to him: "Why can't you marry him? He is a man of knowledge and qualifications." "But he's very old," Zhao said. "He's only fifteen years older than me." I said, "I'm old too." "Are you thirty-five?" he wondered. "No," I pissed off, young people these days really, "I'm only sixteen, and I married this old man just for the money." "You're angry," he said. "You're so cruel," I said, "that you don't accept the best of the older generation." He dared not speak out again. I added another sentence, "It's too rude to say what you think of." I dropped the fishing rod and walked away. I refused to eat with them that night. This kind of young people go to other people's houses to insult people! I asked Dr. Lin, "When will they leave?" Lin said, "What's wrong with you, you seem very upset." "It's noisy." I said. "It's really childish. You were very happy in previous years." "Who is that Zhao?" "Zhao Chuanwang's only son, for some reason, can't live in his own house, so he came to our house," he laughed, "I think he likes to be lively." "No tutor." I said. "How did you offend me?" Lin suddenly became nervous. "No." I hesitated. He patted me on the back, "Tomorrow the children will treat you to dinner and dress up." I laughed, "Am I really overdressed?" "You are an artist." He smiled straight. I love him, he treats me meticulously and caringly, this is love, what else do you want?Only this kind of love is immortal. "Doctor Lin," I called him. Everyone in the family, including Xiao Maotou, called him Dr. Lin, including the children and me. "Let's take a vacation to dance, travel, and swim. Think about it, we How long has it been since you had a good time?" I pleaded. He was very embarrassed, "I'm going to the Geneva National Hospital for a meeting." I sigh. "I came into this world," he scratched his head, "I didn't come here to play. I don't know why, but there is so much work to do. You have to be considerate of me." I lowered my head, "I understand that things are not perfect. To have a husband like you requires sacrifices." "Sorry." "Don't mention it, I'm going to Bali to find some subjects, let's go our separate ways." I smiled wryly. I didn't expect the world to be so small. After getting off the plane, I stepped into the Bali Hilton and saw the kid surnamed Zhao in the lobby. I couldn't help but say hello to him. Fortunately, I have a large group of friends who temporarily avoided him. That night, when he received a call from my room, he immediately said, "I'm sorry, Mrs. Lin, I apologize to you." I asked, "What are you apologizing for? Forget about the past." "I invite you to dinner, okay?" He asked, "Don't refuse me, you still have to eat." His words were very earnest. I said, "Today I rented a jeep, and I'm going to several villages to do sketches. I don't come back until late at night. I don't have time to eat. I'll bring dry food and water. I'm not here on vacation." "Hope you get eaten by headhunters!" he cursed at me. I laughed, "Do you want to participate? The natives have a very good temperament. They can speak a little English. You won't be disappointed. The wooden carvings in their temples are worth watching." He was overjoyed, "You invited me?" "Tomorrow at six o'clock in the morning, wait in the hotel lobby. I have to prepare tools now and go to bed early." The next day I went downstairs for breakfast at 5:30.The weather is very good, the sun has just risen from the east, the air is dry and warm, all kinds of big red flowers are nodding in the garden, Bali is indeed a fairyland on earth. After drinking my coffee, I went to the side of the road to stretch, and looked at my watch, it was six o'clock. "Mrs. Lin." I turned my head and Zhao was standing behind me. I nodded to him, "Morning." "Let's go," he said. "Have you eaten?" I asked. "I have eaten and brought some fruit and mineral water." I nodded approvingly. At this time, the driver of the hotel drove a small Jeep in front of me, and I got in the car with him. His expression seemed to say: I thought you could only drive Morgan sports cars.So I laughed without saying a word. The car drove out to the southeast, a road I had already been familiar with. The car drove for more than half an hour, the scenery along the road was pleasant, and I didn't feel tired at all. I turned on the tape recorder and played local folk music. Looking at Zhao's expression, I knew he was enjoying it too. Offend me again. When we arrived at the village, the children came out to welcome me. I took out a large box of chocolates from the trunk of the car and distributed them to them, and then walked with Zhao to a place where we could collect materials. Zhao looked at me and said, "You really know how to enjoy." "My job is indeed cuter than other people's jobs." I laughed, "but without the support of Dr. Lin's unlovable job, it would be difficult for me to be cute." He does not interface. I sat on the hillside and began to sketch the scenery of the village. Some children followed me and begged me for food with a smile. I asked them to stand for fifteen minutes until I finished a sketch before letting them go. Some were just toddlers, and I held them in my arms, laughing with joy.Zhao was also very happy. After a while, the two of us became one with each other, and I even completed three watercolors with his assistance. He said, "It's two o'clock, aren't you hungry?" "I can eat a tiger." I laughed. "Be careful! When it comes to Cao Cao, Cao Cao will be there." He still pretended to look around. We had a great time, sat on the ground and had a picnic, and he drank a beer and handed me a sandwich, which I ate a lot of.I have been to Bali countless times, but this time is the happiest because I have him by my side. Who said I'm not afraid of loneliness?I am at a loss, if Dr. Lin can accompany me... "What are you thinking?" He asked: "You always have a kind of 'not here' confusion, which is not found in other women." He stared at me. I laughed: "Nonsense." I peeled a banana and ate it, attracting a little monkey to climb onto Zhao's head. I laughed and shouted: "My God!" I quickly took out my Polaroid camera to take a picture of him. After a good meal, I packed up my painting tools. "Stop drawing?" he asked. "I stopped painting. It's hard to work when I'm too happy. Let's go to the village." We went to the village and chatted with the women. The rice fields in Dali were very large, and I took many photos. The women greeted me with pastries. Zhao said, "I'll take pictures for you too." "I'm a mess," I said. "Irrelevant," he said. He asked me afterwards, "Why did you use a Polaroid camera?" "I'm impatient. I want to see the beautiful time immediately, and save it for the future. That kind of enjoyment will be compromised." I said. "You are a special woman." He said very sincerely. I smiled, "There must be many special girls in Hong Kong. If I hadn't married Dr. Lin, maybe I, like those other special girls, would have been reduced to a government agency with a monthly salary of several thousand yuan as a cattle worker, burying my genius." , I will never see you, Young Master Zhao, for the rest of my life." He was silent, and then said: "You are a very grateful woman." I sighed, "Maybe I'm guilty, I have to remind myself that without Dr. Lin, I wouldn't be where I am today, so I must never do anything to make him unhappy." He was a little surprised. I said gently, "Let's go back." I drove the jeep, halfway through, when it rained, I hurriedly rescued the drawing paper and tools. I laughed and said, "People are waterproof, but paintings are not." I hurriedly put the "expensive" works into the trunk of the car, and I was drenched. If he was not here, I could take off my shirt and wrap up a big towel, but now... I had to drive the car very fast. When we arrived at the hotel, it was already evening, and the weather was quite cool. I sneezed a few times and said with a smile, "It's doomed now." He helped me take out the painting utensils, and said, "If you drink some wine to drive away the cold during dinner, then--" I interrupted him, "I want to rest." I said, "I won't come down for dinner." He was taken aback, then said, "I understand." He understands, understands what? I took a hot shower, washed my hair, and ordered food to be eaten in my room, hoping that he would call me again, but he didn't. The next day I woke up early to sort out the pictures I drew yesterday. I felt that my grades were good, and I sunbathed in the swimming pool in the afternoon. Zhao appeared next to me again. I asked, "Are you here alone?" "No," he laughed. "There are still friends, but I left them behind." "why?" "Because I'm happier with you." I jumped in, swam two pools, and wrapped myself in a towel. Zhao handed me a glass of mineral water. He looked away, and he said: "I am going back to the United States after the summer vacation. Now no one knows that I and you are meeting in a different place. If you are afraid that I will say it afterwards, I am not that kind of person. We can It's absolutely safe, you don't have to worry about anything." I suddenly felt thirsty, and my heart was pounding. After a long time, I asked slowly, "Are you tempting me?" He still looked into the distance, "Maybe you tempted me," he said, "I don't know, I just know that I will still remember you until I am ninety years old, I like your indifferent look, even I appreciate your loyalty to Dr. Lin very much. I don't think you will get divorced, but I am happy to be your episode." I lowered my head, my throat even more dry. I took a look at his handsome young face, clear and bright eyes, strong arms, and slender body. He was the ideal boyfriend I always wanted when I was young, but I never met such a good man when I was young. child. Now he is late. I sigh, better late than never?I was finally tempted. "Are you mad?" he asked. "No." I said. After a while, I looked at the sparkling water in the swimming pool, and I said, "Let me think about it." "I'll wait for you." He said, "I'm in Room 134." I said, "No—" He watched me closely, and I swallowed. I can't, I can't be sorry to Dr. Lin. I ran upstairs, closed the door, and sat on the edge of the bed in a daze. But Dr. Lin won't know—what's the harm? This kind of thing has been done once and twice, I can't start, and then go down this dirty road. If you dislike Dr. Lin, you can divorce him. If you don't want to part with his wealth and status, you can be loyal to him. No, I am an intellectual and cannot do such a thing. I decided to leave Bali immediately, booked the plane ticket hastily, checked out of the hotel room, and rushed back to Hong Kong. My heart was beating all the time on the plane, afraid of seeing this boy. The driver was waiting to pick me up and back to Shek O, I ran into the house and yelled: "Dr. Lin! Dr. Lin!" The servant greeted her with a smile, "Madam, the doctor has not returned in Geneva." I whimpered in despair, "Where's his phone? Connect him for me." The phone was connected, I ran to listen quickly, I begged him to come back, I said I missed him. "Come back soon," I said, "or it will be too late." "Don't mess around," he scolded me, "How can I separate myself for a while? Just be good and don't mess around." I begged him again: "Then I will come to see you, and I will come right away." "Ma'am," he said, "I have meetings every day, what are you doing here?" I cried, "If you don't come back, I will divorce you!" "You child!" "I'm not your child!" I screamed, "I'm your wife, come right back!" I hung up the phone and went upstairs crying. I tidied myself up in the evening and went downstairs to eat. Four dishes and one soup were neatly placed on the table. I only ate a little and was very listless. I don't think Lin will come back, his career is above all else, I divorced him, there are a lot of girls waiting to marry him. He has never put me first. I have known for a long time that I have to deal with the boy surnamed Zhao alone, and Lin will not help me. I told the servants to call back and say that I was not in, and they would not answer long-distance calls anymore. I have never been so depressed. I am just a woman. It is good to have material wealth in life, but spiritual life is also very important. My husband ignores me and makes other men have the opportunity to take advantage of it. He doesn’t care. There is no point in maintaining a marriage. I pulled out the fur coat from the closet and scattered it all over the floor, kicking and stamping hard with my feet. I tried to get drunk again to relieve my troubles. A lot of women in my situation would justifiably look for a lover, but I love my husband. I got up very late the next day, and the maid said, "There is a guest waiting for you, ma'am." "Who?" "It's Young Master Zhao." "I don't see him." "He said he has been waiting, but he won't leave," said the maid. "I'll tell him myself," I said. I changed my clothes and hurried to the reception room. I opened the door, and when he saw me, he stood up immediately. "Don't run from me," he said. "You go." "Don't send me off," he said. "Say 'yes' or 'no,' and take courage." I said, "You underestimate me, my answer is 'no', I would never cheat on my husband, I love him." "But does he love you? He puts his career first and ignores you." "Yes." I admitted, "Our marriage is in crisis, he doesn't value me, but it doesn't mean I will take revenge on him, I am very sad and troubled, because I see him less than thirty days a year, but It's between me and him, I'll make it clear to him, but still, I won't be unfaithful to him, you go." He was silent for a long time. I sat on the big leather sofa and held my head in my hands, feeling infinitely sad and hesitant. I said, "I'll ask for a divorce, but I can't be sorry to him." He finally said, "I'm leaving, I'm sorry." "No." I looked up. "I appreciate your advice. Because of you, at least I know I'm still an attractive woman." He left without looking back, and his self-esteem was hurt. I buried my face in my hands for a long time. "Mrs. Lin." Someone called me suddenly. Startled, I let go and found Dr. Lin, my husband, squatting in front of me. "You!" I jumped up. He put me on the sofa. He was very gentle, "I'm back, I'm afraid you have something to do, end the meeting and come back to see you." I said apologetically and nervously, "But—" He waved his hand, "I'm already in my early fifties, and I plan to close the business, and we can enjoy a few years of leisure." My eyes widened. "I heard all of your dialogue just now." His eyes turned red— "Ah!" I was terrified. "I have always let you down," Dr. Lin said, "You are not a woman who blindly pursues material things, but spiritually, I have given you too little satisfaction. Now, I really want to enjoy my old age and be with my beautiful and young wife." I threw myself into his arms. He hugged me tightly. He said: "I remember when I proposed to you, you hugged me so tightly." "Let's start over," I cried again, "OK? Start over." "I originally wanted to ask you to give me such a chance," he said, "but you brought it up first. From this we can see that you really love me, and I am a blessed man." He hugged me so tightly that I couldn't breathe. I suddenly laughed again. I am also a blessed woman.