Chapter 4 Chapter Four

My career has settled down. Call me to see the work, I am ecstatic. Tang Jing hurriedly made a certificate for me, and it was signed by her: "During the employment period (six years), the letter bearer has worked hard and has good credit..." She became my boss. I am stunned.Lie for me, Tang Jing is too cute. (We only love those who are willing to sacrifice for us. We hate those who want our sacrifices.) "Wear a decent suit to work," Tang Jing said, "First impressions are important." "I have, I have Hua Lun Tian Nu's suit," I rushed to say. "Crazy," she said, "wearing a dress worth 10,000 yuan to work for a job that pays 4,500 yuan a month."

"What? Four thousand five?" My joy was swept away. "How much do you want?" "How much is your monthly salary?" I asked back. "Damn it, are you comparing me to me?" Tang Jing propped her waist and scolded, "Who are you and who am I? I have worked hard outside for fifteen years, and you have lived happily at home for fifteen years. Now you want to be equal to me Four thousand and five would be great, I spent all my treasures to get it back for you." She sneered again and again, "People like you are not worth helping at all, you are so old-fashioned."

I stared at Tang Jing in a daze. "What would you do? An old diploma more than ten years ago, no one wants to use it as toilet paper. If it weren't for my relationship, such a job would not be found. You are dreaming. I don't know where I will help in the future. How many are there, shaking first?" I burst into tears, "Tang Jing, your mouth!" "Wake you up, someone should have woken you up a long time ago, it's too arrogant." I sat down, "OK, I'll do it, I'll do it." "I should have known. You have been doing this for two or three weeks. It's time to rest again. Can you get up at seven in the morning?"

"Why do you push people too hard, Tang Jing. I will do anything you can do," I said angrily, "I don't need a genius, you just got started a few years earlier, so don't be too arrogant." Tang Jing said: "Okay, you said this yourself." I murmured: "Go to work on April 1st, April Fool's Day." "I passed by the boutique and picked up those two pairs of trousers for you." Tang Jing said suddenly, "I decided to wear them, you can save some." "Why are you so considerate?" I said bitterly. "What should I do?" Tang Jingji spread his hands, "The ghost told me to know you when I was seven years old——Shanghai girl can't speak Cantonese, no one wants to be friends with you, so I will teach you 'shidan' at that time They are postage stamps, and 'white shoes' are rubber sneakers, we danced together, played hide-and-seek, and went to the back mountain to find sour grass, have you forgotten?"

I put my head on my hands in a daze.Really, we also visited Liyuan, went to industrial exhibitions, bought front seats and watched cartoons. Later, when we entered middle school, we both went to Ruixing Company to buy mini-packs and French leather shoes. In our dreams, we also hoped to visit Japan. Tang Jing and I did not go to aristocratic schools, our family background is very ordinary, many children are crowded together, but we have something to eat, so I later married Shi Juansheng, many female classmates expressed surprise.After all, it is western medicine, which is really higher than him.

We pull big like sisters.At that time, Ziqun was a bit younger than me, a child with a snotty nose. I didn't bother to talk to her, but my relationship was very bad. After being admitted to university, we were so happy that we both fainted for a while. At this time, Tang Jing began to sink down, and I knew Juansheng, so I had no intention of learning. "—what are you thinking?" I said softly: "Tang Jing, you have suffered a lot these years." "There are still living people in Cambodia. How can I say that I am suffering from Jinyi food?" It's amazing how funny it is all the time.

I finally started that career woman life. Arrangements are made, I will definitely go back to see Pinger on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, and wait for them to visit me on weekends. On April 1st, I was able to get up on time because of insomnia and mixed feelings. Taking a boat across the sea to go to work, most of the men and women on the ferry are sleepy-eyed, pale-faced, reading newspapers with their heads down, and there are also women with bright make-up. The purple rouge is especially sad in the morning light. On occasions, they should not be crowded on public transport, and even the brightest flowers are ruined.

There were also people who scratched itches, picked their nostrils, blew their noses, and cut their nails in public. I lowered my head, not daring to watch. I have been married to Shi Juansheng for too long, out of touch with reality, and have no chance to contact other people in the society. Now I can get used to stepping out and becoming one of them, but I don't know if they will accept me. My boss is Mr. Brown, an Englishman.Yi speaks English with a country accent. He is big, and he is nearly forty years old, and he has begun to gain weight. A three-piece dark blue suit is tightly stretched on his body. It was sewn about seven or eight years ago, and three pieces are missing. No., but he still hopes to wear it for another three years. The vest covers his stomach, the waist of his trousers covers his belly, and the sleeves are worn to the mirror.

He was taking off his coat when I reported to his room.He turned to welcome me, and when he reached out to shake my hand, I noticed a yellow sweat stain under the armpit of his shirt, which hadn't been washed in days. I suddenly thought of Juansheng's Lanvin Kesmi suit and milky white Viera shirt. I have never seen such a shabby man, who was stunned for a moment. After he introduced his colleagues to me, he handed me an essay in Chinese, pointed to a small desk in the corner, and told me to sit and translate. A young child put paper and pen on my desk. The other fellows copied and worked silently with their heads down, without speaking to me.

I sit down. Thirteen years seem to have been lost in my life, doing the work I left off when I was twenty-one. I tried my best to get rid of the sadness in my heart. At lunch time, everyone pooled money to buy a lunch box, and I also paid for it.A colleague handed me a paper cup. I poured tea and took a sip. I felt that it had only the color of tea, no taste of tea, and a burst of astringency. Is this called tea?I am silent. A chubby male colleague introduced himself, "My name is Chen Zongda." "Call me Zijun." I shook his hand. Chen Zongda seemed extraordinarily amiable, "Welcome to our department, you will get used to it after a while."

A girl said: "Mr. Chen is not in our ranks, he is the supervisor of the computer department. Brown is also a supervisor, so Chen is also a boss. The boss is so shabby, and we guys have no status at all. The lunch box was delivered, and everyone ate together. I ate a few mouthfuls, thinking of the three dishes cooked by A Ping at home, I was always disgusted-"A Ping, is it chicken soup again? My brother doesn't like chicken soup." "A Ping, sir hates celery the most, you and The official doesn't know what the official's surname is!" Thinking of my arrogance, I couldn't help but smile. Colleagues seem to be very gentle, of course, it is difficult to know the truth in a day or two. The work is boring and busy. After a week, I have a little eyebrow.Brown told people to do things like dancers making cheongsams, and they had to change them. He waved the red pen himself, and changed his subordinates' masterpieces beyond recognition, which was equivalent to rewriting, but he himself refused to write. Changing the article, I have a prestige. Poor little man. After get off work every day, I feel as if I have finished fighting a battle. I have to go through life and death, and I have to serve all kinds of people with a soft voice. It is really tiring. Ruth's rank is lower than mine.His arrogance is higher than mine, and he has a sharp throat. Because he is a familiar hand, he took advantage of telling me where the women's toilet is and what the name of the young man is. Because I was too shocked, I didn't respond, and I let me take advantage of me, and I blamed me for any trivial things that didn't make anyone happy. I don't care, what else am I fighting for?If you want to fight, I won't fight with Gu Lingling? The chubby Chen Zongda was very kind. He saw that I was a novice and gave me advice on everything. The translation alone is also very trivial. Many technical terms have to be inquired in various departments. Once I wait for a whole morning, I usually go out for meetings in the afternoon, and I am a follower to check the goods. Sometimes I can't leave until six o'clock. You can still visit Ping'er and An'er after get off work. An'er was busy with going abroad. I was surprised that everything was in order for a girl who was only a little over twelve years old. Juansheng accompanied An'er to the Canadian Consulate to complete the formalities and chose a boarding school in Vancouver. Ann told me: "When Brooke Shields became popular, she was only twelve years old." But our family has an old alarm clock for fifteen years. It was used when I was in junior high school. How can a twelve-year-old girl be independent? The arrow is on the string and has to be fired. , In order to send Ann to the airport, I took a morning off. An'er didn't bring much luggage. She said that her father gave her a lot of cash, so she didn't have to worry about having no clothes to wear. She is too sensible, but I feel desolate, my nose is sore and astringent, and my voice is muddy in my throat. If she is seventeen or eighteen years old, I will feel at ease, she is still young after all.I finally covered my face with a handkerchief. Ann promised to come back to see me during the summer vacation. Juansheng saw me at the airport, hesitated for a moment, and came forward to talk to me. "How? Are you still used to life?" He asked. I didn't know how to answer. After thinking for a long time, I said pertinently: "At the beginning, I don't know yet." "I heard you got a job?" "yes." "Remember, what others can do, you can do too." I said, "Tang Jing said the same thing." He seemed to have something to say, but I turned and left, and he didn't stop me. Back at the company, my colleagues had already had lunch, and I ate an apple to satisfy my hunger. Chen Zongda came over and said, "Beware of stomachache." I raised my head and tugged at the corner of my mouth as a greeting without saying a word. "Hey, have you cried?" He expressed concern without hesitation. I still don't make a sound. He turned his face closer, Chen Zongda is not a handsome man, I quickly took a step back, it's better to keep a little distance from my male colleagues. He was, in fact, rather ridiculous-looking, with a slightly oversized head, a face covered in scars from childhood acne, and old-fashioned tortoiseshell-rimmed glasses. Chen Zongda looks very honest and hardworking. He graduated from middle school and has been working in this large organization for nearly 20 years. His promotion was not as fast as others, but he finally went well, so he also has a sense of self-confidence. I'm not unappreciative of his concern for me, but I don't think he can help me. "Crying?" Chen Zongda pursued persistently. I am surprised that he is also a very polite person on weekdays, so he shouldn't ask so many questions. I just nod. "Don't cry over spilled milk," he said. Suddenly using a specious idiom, I can only laugh. He said: "Bad men go because of him, and it's serious business to strengthen yourself." I froze, then surprised.I misunderstood Zongda Chen. Beneath his honest appearance, he turned out to be a sophisticated guy who likes to pry into other people's secrets.I've only been here for a month, how does he know about me?Judging from the two sentences just now, it seems that he didn't give me any more details about my past. I was a little taken aback, and then continued to remain silent. Talking too much is my problem, and I have to correct this disadvantage. His fat face was full of sincerity, and he said softly: "Divorce is a very common antecedent these days, so don't worry about it." I was very curious and wanted to ask, "How much more do you know?" The sadness of seeing off An'er was halved at once. "Don't get me wrong. Colleagues should care for each other. Your family affairs spread all at once. There are the most rumors and rumors in a large organization. Every staff member's mouth is constantly chattering," he smiled, "but I share Find out what is true and what is false." "Really?" I gently perfunctory him, "Good skill." That afternoon, Mr. Brown threw out all the reports I wrote, and commented: "Illegal", I was baffled, at this moment, the pay slip was sent out, look for the number typed on the paper: four three twenty, I don't know Why, my hands were shaking. This is not hard-earned money what is it?What is the difference between this and Xiangzi's remuneration for pulling a foreign car?I was so devastated that I couldn't help but slumped on the desk. When my colleagues saw me so sad, they didn't ask why, they just pretended not to see it, and the indifference between people was completely revealed. Today, I finally let me see it, and I didn't feel sad. The road must go on, sad What's the use? " I read the format of the report first, then complied with the rules, and copied it to Brown. The female secretary reminded me, "He doesn't like people asking for leave, and this time he is trying to show you off, so you have to be careful." Such warnings are rare. I am silent. Relegated from a wife of Western medicine to a small employee, not everyone has such an opportunity, I laughed nervously... When I got off work, Chen Zongda said to me, "Do you want to have a drink? Relax your nerves?" I also heard that after work, you can go to some bars to enjoy the so-called "happy hour".At that time, the wine was very cheap and the atmosphere was very good. It was a good place for wage earners.Somehow, I had a feeling that I was happy to see and see, so I nodded. Chen Zongda has an indescribable joy, he is very kind to me, I can see it, I hope he is not as impatient as he is now, he is the kind of little person who follows the rules, and he is a little bit short of his parents and his family in his spare time. Yes, if you really want him to do something earth-shattering, unless you feed him leopard guts. For such a neutral character, I am at ease-why am I not at ease?I am already a mother of two, a divorced woman. What do people think of me? The only mixed wine I know is "Grasshopper". At that time, Juan Shengxi had a pleasant color and was often mixed to eat. Chen Zongda's opening remarks were very strange, he said: "The salary has been paid." I actually resonated very much, "Yes, the salary was paid." "Are you spending it by yourself?" He tentatively asked. "Yes." I nodded. "That's the beauty of being a woman," he said.I took a sip of the wine and listened attentively to what he had to say. "My salary is going to be spent by the family." He sighed. "Oh, how many children? Didn't the wife do anything?" "Two children, a boy and a girl, are in elementary school. Even if the wife goes out to work, she can only earn a few hundred dollars, so she just stays at home as a mother." I nodded, "The monthly salary of 10,000 yuan is not so easy to spend now." He seemed to meet a confidant, "No, what kind of business did your former husband do?" I was very bitter, and replied: "Do some small business." He was suspicious, "They said it was Western medicine." Asking knowingly, I also became tricky, and I asked, "Do you believe them or me?" "But it's been widely spread. It is said that the one who left with the female star Gu Lingling is your ex-husband." My drunkenness welled up.Then he said, "Gu Lingling? I haven't heard of it." At this moment, someone patted me on the back, "Zijun, why are you here?" I turned my head: "Tang Jing." Hastily took her hand. "Come on, I'll take you back, you're almost drunk."She couldn't help but pull me up. I said, "I just had two sips and just sat down." She didn't say much to me, grabbed the handbag for me, and left immediately. I had no choice but to wave to Chen Zongda. In the car, I said to Tang Jing, "I'm not drunk." "I know you're not drunk." I look at her.In the early spring, she was wearing a leather dress, bright make-up, and a world-weary look, which made me even more wretched, and I bowed my head. "I don't want you to sit and drink with that kind of guy. Within an hour, people will treat you as his kind." Tang Jing taught me. I also feel that there is nothing to say, and I don't know how to explain it. "You can tell at a glance that your wife will find her boring after twenty years. Zijun, if you get divorced ten times, you don't have to associate with this kind of person." I don't ring. "Lonely?" Tang Jing asked. I nod. "They may not be able to help you solve the problem." Tang Jing said. I said: "The salary was paid today." I made an excuse to change the subject. "Great, how do you feel?" "Doing evil," I sighed, "it's hard-earned money. Tang Jing, I don't want to do it anymore." "Your grandma, if you talk to me like this again, I'll peel your skin," she said angrily, "only this job can save you now, can't you see?" I sighed, "I'm just talking, I dare not not do it." "If you're lonely, I'll introduce you to Dream of the Red Chamber." "It's suffocating." "You're the one who is suffocating." She said angrily. Tang Jing drove the car to her home, we kicked off our shoes and drank together, she handed me two tattered dark blue thread-bound books. "...No success in life, half life is down and out." It's a bit interesting. "Hey," I said, "isn't this me?" "You? You're the one who thinks, I'm the one who thinks it is," Tang Jing said, "I've never accomplished anything, and half my life has been down and out." "There are people who are struggling?" I gave her a white look. He picked up a magazine and looked at the cover: "...Who is Zhang Minyi?" "A very capable woman." I asked, "Is she capable or are you capable?" "Me? I'm not worthy of carrying shoes." "do you know her?" "Nodding acquaintance." I drank the glass of wine in my hand, "Is she happy?" "I didn't dare to ask." Tang Jing said. "Seeing high worship, seeing low stepping," I snorted, "everything is scolded when you see me, and you don't dare to ask people when you see me." "you're drunk." "So what if I'm drunk?" I fell on the carpet of her house. I heard her say dimly: "It's not good, I have to get up and go to work tomorrow."