Chapter 19 Chapter Nineteen

However, within a short while, even this faint thought disappeared, and there was silence. After a long, long time, when I regained consciousness, I heard a conversation between two people. "She was crying all the time, like a baby coming into the world." "It's also thanks to her. During the forty-five days, I must have suffered a lot, and it's not her fault to get lost." "She's all right now." "Awakened." "The first few lost people are not as lucky as her." I opened my eyes and woke up. In an instant, thoughts flooded in, and I was so scared that I quickly closed my eyes, trying to shut the memory out.

"Let her rest. From here, we will hand it over to the team leader." They leave the room. I know I'm back. The smell in the room is not unfamiliar, a clean, disinfectant smell, in our place, it is difficult to smell other smells. I turned my head slowly, and I have indeed returned, but why don't I feel happy? It should be joy to see her husband and children soon.And my mother, who has been missing for forty-five days, must be worried about me. But Fang Zhongxin...he was so excited the moment I left. It is really cruel to force two people with feelings to separate. I closed my eyes tightly and fell asleep facing the wall, tears still welling up in my eyes.

When their team leader arrives and removes this part of my memory, I won't cry. Maybe they are really doing it for my own good. Someone opened the door and came in. "Okay." His voice was light. This is the executioner, to murder my beautiful and sad memory. I refuse to turn my head away. He sat down beside me. He said, "You have suffered a lot, sorry for the pain." I remained silent. "Those unnecessary memories will affect your future life in vain. Believe us, eliminating them is only good for you." I couldn't help but said coldly: "You think it will be good to me."

The man was not angry, "There are many traditional values ​​in society, you can't help but be convinced. For example, children must be good students and study hard. Who said that good grades will make him a happy person? But parents hope He's a hard worker." I said, "I'm an adult." "For the country, you are also a part that needs to be taken care of." I said bitterly: "Enforcement is love?" "You are a mother, you should understand that before children don't know how to choose, you have to make decisions for them and put them on the right path."

"autocratic." He said nothing more. After a while he asked, "Are you ready?" I turned around in horror and pleaded with him, and when I saw his face, I was stunned. "Nelson!" I blurted out. Isn't this Nelson who? Blonde hair, blue eyes, and Yingwei's figure are exactly the same as Nelson Jr.We just broke up, and he appeared in front of me again. I'm confused, where and what year am I? He was also stunned, and looked at me curiously, "You know me?" I said excitedly, "Nelson, what the hell are you doing here?" He said in surprise, "We haven't met before."

I was annoyed, "Are you Nelson?" "Yes, my name is Nelson." "Brigadier General Nelson of the Space Agency, isn't he?" "That's my father, I'm Nelson III," he said, jumping up. I sat on the hospital bed like a wooden sculpture made of clay. his son! Not him, but his son. I was really stunned, still trying to grasp the events and people from fifty years ago. But he was shocked, "Have you seen my father?" I nodded and quickly asked, "Is he still there?" "My father died in an accident twenty years ago," he said sadly, "I was very young at the time." "But you inherited his business, and you look exactly the same."

He immediately became familiar with me, "Did my father assist you to come back?" "yes." He showed a look of admiration, as if paying homage to his father, yearning for it, and it took a while for him to come back to his senses. "I've been thinking about which scientist helped you communicate with us, and who made you return to 2035 without any hair loss. It turned out to be my father," he said proudly, "I'm so happy." I was suspicious, "Where are the others?" "what?" "What about those people who fell into the time-space cavern and had no luck meeting Commodore Nelson?"

He is silent. "They're all dead." "Miss, you ask too many questions." "You are not sure to lure them, but you have enough power to destroy them." Nelson's complexion became ugly, blue for a while, then pale for a while. "Incompetent bungler." "Human progress must come from scientific experiments." "Oh yes, sacrificing some ordinary lives is nothing." I said angrily. Nelson couldn't bear it anymore, "What have you lost? After the operation, everything returns to normal, and you don't remember what happened."

Fang Zhongxin, if you want me to forget Fang Zhongxin, I absolutely cannot, I clenched my fists. "Nelson, I have a request." "Please say." "Could you please open the door?" "Can't." "why?" "You know too much, and spreading what you know constitutes some kind of crisis." "I can't say a word." He shook his head, "Who would take the risk?" "You can read my memory, I can't hide it from you—" "I'm just following orders from above." "Nelson! If your father is as business-like as you are, I won't be able to come back at all. I have already become a living specimen in their laboratory. Nelson, can't you just look at your father's face?"

"Miss, I've told you too much, what do you want this useless memory for? I don't understand." I said sadly: "I don't blame you, our generation has long forgotten warmth." He sighed. I looked at him and said disappointedly: "You are not like your father, he is a sincere person." "Yes," he said, "he gave his life to save his colleagues in an accident during a lift-off experiment." He didn't say anything, pressed the microphone and called the assistant to come in. I didn't struggle any more, I flinched in despair and let myself be slaughtered, feeling like a white mouse in a laboratory.And losing hope is worse than any painful feeling.

I stared at Nelson wide-eyed. He didn't dare to make eye contact with me and looked away. The assistant skillfully grabbed my arm and gave me the injection. I said secretly in my heart: Goodbye, Lao Fang. I close my eyes. The assistant asked Nelson, "It's time to start, team leader." "Wait a minute, I want to read her memory." "OK." I gradually fell into darkness, and when I woke up, all traces would disappear.I smiled wryly, Lao Fang, I’m really sorry for you, you treat me with sincerity, but unfortunately if someone asks about you tomorrow, I will be at a loss and say I don’t know you. Alas, human beings have progressed so far that they are not even qualified to retain a little memory. I muttered Fang Zhongxin's name as my last memory until I lost consciousness. The story is not over. If you really forget everything, how can you write down so many details and describe what happened during the past forty-five days. Hear the voice of the husband first. He said: "Tell her not to drive fast, will you listen? Of course not, I just want to play handsome, something happened, it made everyone panic, and I couldn't sleep well." I smile, is that right, are you afraid, have you ever suffered from insomnia?If so, they would not speak in this tone. Then came the mother's voice: "You still say such things at this time? Forget it, when she recovers, I will persuade her a few words." Accidents, yes, mistakes on the road of life, each of us is a car on the road of life, if we don't control it well, we can't return to our mistakes. I smiled wryly in my heart. It seemed that my husband didn’t intend to forgive me. He has always been like this, complaining, picking and criticizing, and never giving constructive suggestions. The nurse said, "Please don't argue here, the patient needs to rest, now please exit and let the children come in." Great, tell them to go, I don't need them, and obviously, they don't need me either. I didn't bother to open my eyes and greet them. However, doing this may be too much for my mother. Somewhere in my heart, I didn't know why, and I called her softly: "Mom." She had turned around, heard the cry, and turned her head. "Child." She walked to the bed. With joy in my heart, I gazed into her face. Strange, in the past when I heard my mother call me, I always felt "what's the matter", but today I was very moved when I heard the word "children". For a long time, I didn't look at her face carefully. In the bright natural light under the window, I found that she was very haggard, the clothes were outdated, the makeup on her face was too heavy, and the dye on her hair needed to be filled. "Mom." I held out my hand. She was a little overjoyed, "What's the matter?" "How are you?" I took her hand, "Why are you so worried?" My mother looked at me and smiled, "This child is not confused, but asked me if I was okay." When she smiled, the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes opened like a handful of flats, the muscles around her mouth formed pouches, and they all loosened, the skin on her neck was wrinkled in layers, and there were many moles on her chest.She is so old, why didn't she pay attention before? I stared blankly at her, how old is she?More than 50 years old, will a person become like this when he is more than 50 years old? "Son, what do you think? Are you feeling well? Do you want to see your brother and sister?" "Yes." I said, "Please come in." Mother was taken aback, and said with a smile, "You've become more polite." I didn't say a word to my husband from the beginning to the end. The relationship is so bad that we should break up. It's time to make up our minds. The younger brother rushed forward, and the younger sister followed behind him, rushing to call her mother. I smiled and hugged each other. Although they are not small, their bodies are still softer than adults, and they can get into a little gap, hatching there like small animals. At this moment, they are in my arms, gentle and comfortable, and their mouths can’t stop moving. Chirp quack quack tells the feeling of parting. The nurse smiled and asked them to be quiet. I asked them, "How long has Mom been in the hospital?" The younger sister pushed the younger brother away, "Forty-five days." I was surprised, where is the injury?I check the limbs. The mother said: "You have a concussion in your brain and you are unconscious." I broke out in a cold sweat. "Ask if you still dare to drive fast." "Don't dare." "I'll pick you up tomorrow, brother and sister, come here, don't bother mom, we'll go back first." "Goodbye, Mom." The children reluctantly said. Outside the room, my mother said to my husband, "She has such a good temper today." Although the voice was soft, I still heard it. The husband didn't answer. I feel very tired, I close my eyes, and when I leave the hospital tomorrow, the first thing I have to do is to contact the work unit. They must have used substitute workers for the past few dozen days.The last thing I remember is that the car rushed down the cliff, and it was lucky that nothing happened, which can be called a fate. The car must have been smashed into a piece of scrap iron. Maybe it's time to change the bad habit of speeding. I'm not young anymore, and I can no longer do whatever I want. The nurse came to inject nutrients for me, and she asked, "Do you want to listen to the book? There are two very touching love novels recently, and many colleagues shed tears when they heard them." Love stories, how cute. A novel that moves many people is, in other words, a popular work. A novel that no one reads is a work of art. Shall I weep with them? I shook my head slightly, lacking energy. "Watching a movie maybe?" she asked again. "I'd better rest." "The doctor will come in later for a final check on you." "Thank you." She exited with a smile. I stayed on the pillow for a long time, my mind was blank, I had nothing to worry about, so I fell asleep peacefully.The doctor came and went. He checked the medical equipment and said with satisfaction, "She is 100% cured." He didn't wake me up.