Chapter 18 Chapter Eighteen

When you return to Fangzhai again, you officially regard it as your home. Aimei has become fully familiar with the environment, she has gained a lot of weight, her cheeks are rosy, like a small apple.The big troubles, as long as you see this face, will be temporarily removed. The three of them were laughing and laughing, and I asked myself if I could really drink today and get drunk today. As the sun went down, Fang took me to the ballroom to dance.The music was very slow, men and women hugged each other and moved slowly, their bodies swayed with the beat, they were very intoxicated, and some of them were cheek-to-cheek, and the woman also had a habit of hanging her jade arm around the neck of her male partner.

I didn't expect that dancing fifty years ago could bring out such a subtle erotic element. Who said that the world is getting worse, the more ambiguous the more erotic, the show is deep in the bones, making people blush and can't help it. And it was performed in a public place. I was so stupefied that I refused to go to the dance floor. Fang invited me several times, saying that he would teach me. I still shake my head and smile. The musicians began to play the golden saxophone, and the tune was full of resentment, admiration, and weeping, making the audience intoxicated. "What's the name of the song?"

"This is a night of nostalgia," Fang said, "The title of the song is Sleepy Lagoon." Heh, old on top of old, keep going back, to a dark and unknown corner, where every petal of people's clothes is embroidered with flowers, they are habitually taking anesthetics, and they all have a pair of eyes that can't be opened, like smoke and mist Peony eyes, do not have to do anything, just intrigue or fight for beauty. I read in books that the flowers they plant are black peonies and white begonias, and their favorite colors are bright yellow and Yanqing... It seems that they have grasped this kind of taste tonight, the lights are dim, and crystal-like pearls are shining. intoxicating.

Who wants to go back, where, in order to make me work hard, you can't stop working and dedicating your energy. The lights are the same as sunlight, creating illusions, stimulating metabolism, and treating people as machines. I had to let out a sigh of relief. Fang softly sang to the music: "Drowsy reef, under the tropical moonlight, I swim with you..." He said: "I know a place where spring is like all the year round, in the heavenly flowers, There is a lake called the Lost Lake, maybe hiding there, no one will find us, let us grow gray hair, what do you think, will you go there with me?"

"Yes, let's go together, I am willing." He said in a very low voice, as gentle as the night, "The Lost Lake will always be in my heart, let's dance." With tears in my eyes, I couldn't help nodding. Lao Fang led me down the dance floor and taught me step by step. It was not difficult, and I quickly followed. I followed the example of other ladies, putting my left hand on the male partner's right shoulder, and holding my right hand with his left hand. This is the first time in my life to dance. He whispered in my ear, "Let's go back." Breathe on sensitive ears, causing itching.

My state of mind is also very clear, a fait accompli, and there is no need to deny it. I said, "Afternoon on the 14th." "Is this all the time left?" He asked with infinite pity. "Yes, that's all." I said. He hugged me tightly, "we spent forty-five days together, it can't be said to be unfortunate, there are one thousand and eighty hours in forty-five days, every minute you make my heart happy, knowing you is what happened in my life Thank you Lu Yi for bringing light to my ordinary life." He choked up. Madam is right. Fang has a cute and contented personality, and knows how to take a step back. Therefore, he is a happy person. He is happy and makes people happy.

If you change someone else, you will be greedy. In just forty-five days, it is not enough. I hope that there will be four hundred and fifty days. After more than four hundred days, I hope that it will be four thousand and five hundred days. In the end, it will not be a dream. It's not the end of the banquet, or sadness and disappointment. Is there anything that will accompany us to die of old age, no.I want to wear it as soon as possible, and get out of the sea of ​​suffering as soon as possible. I said to the other party: "We are really happy together, I hope the memories will last forever."

He wiped away my tears with his fingers, "Listen to this old song, which has been popular since my grandfather fell in love until now, it's called Twelve Nevers." "These captivating songs really make people die after themselves." "You like it too? I love them." He led me back to my seat, the candles were flickering on the small table, and he squeezed my hand tightly. "I really want to marry you." "I don't want to trouble you." "I don't want to marry a non-qing." I couldn't help laughing, "You?"

He pretended to be sullen, don't turn his face away. "Natural nature is hard to change. The day after I leave, you can hold chocolates to find a new love." I said. Fang said seriously: "Time can prove everything. You just need to ask your mother to find out the details." I felt a chill in my heart, "We won't talk about this." "Okay, I will go to Penglai Wonderland with you and spend the rest of the time together." "And what about Aimee?" "Take Amy with you." I made up my mind, "Okay, let's go with you."

He made me leave my husband and children and go to the ends of the earth to enjoy myself. I was such a miserable woman. But no matter who you are, you always have the right to seize happiness. It is worthwhile to sacrifice other things for the little happiness in your life that you can't meet. We left Twin Suns almost empty-handed and arrived at Lost Lake. There is a small old hotel by the lake, with flowers and trees along the bank, and swans on the lake looking for food. It's like a paradise. The owner of the hostel gave us a warm welcome. Regardless of the shady appearance of the hostel, here is the most fragrant lobster soup, the sweetest champagne, and the most complete game equipment.

The three of us didn't do anything. Sometimes we went boating in the lake, squinting our eyes, I lay on Lao Fang's lap, Ai Mei lay on my arm, and we spent an afternoon overlapping each other.The fish shreds kept shaking, and it was obvious that some fish had taken the bait, but we ignored it. Aimei felt extremely safe, sleeping soundly like a small animal, snoring. I said, "It's a pity I can't accompany her much." Fang laughed and said, "It's fortunate that you have been with her." This is the difference between optimism and pessimism. "She will never forget you," Fang said. "When she is down in the future, you will be her pillar." "Yes, she does remember me." My mother had mentioned this unnamed lady countless times, treating her like a god and an idol. "When Aimei is sensible, do you want me to tell her the truth!" "No." "What should I say?" I am silent. My mother never knew that I was her daughter, which means that no one had time to tell her the truth. Fang Zhongxin didn't wait for her to grow up and understand, she was no longer in the world, and that husband and wife were of course experts at keeping secrets, so Xiao Aimei didn't know who I was. Fang Zhongxin said: "Life only needs to be good, not long." I didn't understand this before, but now I feel it, so I nodded. He asked again: "After going back, I'm afraid you will be lonely." That's for sure, even though he didn't speak, his eyes showed the news, he wasn't worried about himself, he was busy comforting me, "At least bear with it." I lowered my head sadly. "Or you can talk to him in detail to make him understand your needs." "He doesn't care about my needs, how can I talk to him?" "Strangers can talk to strangers." He is so naive. "You talk to Lily?" I asked him back. "Why not? She thinks I'm not decent enough, so she terminated my relationship with someone else. Do you think I'm always in love? Not necessarily. She is not happy with her new friends, and she often calls to complain. You don't mind Bar." "No, how can I be petty." He breathed a sigh of relief, "I sweat every time, except for you, women are too troublesome." It's just because he likes me, so when his eyes spring out, I have no shortcomings, only cute. In fact, among so many women, I hate it the most.The most troublesome thing for me is that I have to entrust a five-year-old child to his care before I leave. I said, "When I go back this time, I may be able to bear the rest. I am used to eating chocolate, but what should I do?" "Take more away." "I don't think so." "Then eat more now." He always has a way. "certainly." "Lu Yi, I'm afraid I'll miss you and go crazy." He stared at me with nostalgia. I dare not speak out, because even my right to think about him will be taken away. I have been interfered with what to do and what not to do since I was a child, and now I have lost even the freedom of thought. "Lu Yi, don't be upset. Look at this moonlight, which is specially designed for us. Have you ever seen such a silvery white round moon?" No, I haven't seen it. After getting to know Fang Zhongxin, I found that many things that I hadn't noticed before shocked my heart. These little things that I thought were insignificant and trivial in the past have now become the joy of life. He opened a heavily locked door.Show me wonderful flowers, and a whole brave new world.time is too short. The bright flowers in the garden in the morning have covered the ground in the evening. But according to Fang Zhongxin, as long as it has been in full bloom, it is easy to live without shame. "There are many, many people who live to be seventy or eighty years old," he said. "The sum of their happy hours does not exceed a few hours. Compared to that, I am really lucky." The time to say goodbye has finally come. We return to Shuangyang City. That night, I contacted my wife. I said, "Tomorrow at four o'clock, at the 23rd kilometer of Sunset Boulevard." "It's a wise move," said Mrs. I smiled wryly, "Is it okay not to do this, they will blow my head to pieces." She doesn't speak. "Ma'am, when you get there, allow me to come and find you." She laughed, "Silly girl, I don't think I'll live to be eighty-eight." I said with certainty: "You can." "Longevity is not necessarily a blessing." I said stubbornly, "Madam, you must live a long life." She couldn't help chuckling. "Let me visit you." "If you live to be ninety years old, you may not have the energy to greet your friends." "I'm no ordinary friend." "Well, if the memory is still there, we are here, and you can come and have tea." "Thank you, ma'am." Ah, at least in that desolate and indifferent world, I still have a friend. On the morning of the last day, Fang Zhongxin and I were very silent. Both Fang Zhongxin and I decided to send Aimei to school so as not to irritate her. The child did not doubt that he was there, happily put on his school uniform, packed his schoolbag and went out. I hugged her tightly before she got into the car. I can still see her later: only then she will be an old woman. I thought sadly, the flowers in the morning have fallen to the ground in the evening, and life is like a dream. Fang Zhongxin held my hand, "Farewell to Lu Yi." His eyes were red, and he was obviously crying too. I said: "Hurry up and find a partner, start a good family, and raise a lot of babies. Time flies so fast amidst the crying and laughing of children, and the days are lively and lively. Only the crisp laughter of children can save the souls of adults. .” He shook his head, "You don't have to talk nonsense to comfort me, I hope time can heal me." I had no choice but to shut up and stare at him with a piercing heart. Since 9:00 in the morning, my head started to hurt badly. At first, it hurt every hour, about one minute each time. Don’t look at the tens of seconds, it was unbearable. I held my head tightly with both hands. , the pain was so painful that his eyes turned black, and he rolled on the ground. The warning sign came. If I don’t go back, I’ll die in pain. At first, I kept Fang Zhongxin from telling him, but after twelve o’clock, the frequency was increased to once every half an hour. He was by my side, and he couldn’t hide, watching me suffer. I was in so much pain that I didn't feel the existence of my body and mind, and the whole universe was only the feeling of pain. If the pain could be stopped, I could do whatever I was asked to do, and death would not be a pity. Panting from pain and pain, Fang Zhongxin drove the car out of the sugar factory and drove towards Sunset Boulevard. The microfilament blood vessels all over my body exploded due to strong endurance, and the skin was covered with pinpoint big purple spots, which looked really weird. When I arrived at 23 kilometers from Sunset Boulevard, I actually felt a sense of amnesty, okay, okay, it's almost over, I hope I won't suffer this kind of torture again. Nelson Jr. had been waiting early in the morning. When he saw us, he immediately got out of the car and came to meet us. I asked, "Has the time come yet?" "It's almost there." Fang Zhongxin supported me, "Has the severe pain started?" I nod. "Be strong." He hugged me. They put my car in a strange position and told me to sit down and close the door.Fang Zhongxin reached out his hand from the car window and held it with me. "Don't be afraid." He paled. My lips quivered and I couldn't utter a word. Nelson said: "Mr. Fang, please step back immediately, and Fang will immediately strengthen the gravitational force to take her back." Fang Zhongxin let go of my hand, and the car window closed automatically. I stared at the prisoner Fang Zhongxin's face, even for a second longer. He seemed to be yelling, with a pained expression, and Nelson pulled him away forcefully. I knocked on the car window with my hands, and suddenly felt that the physical and mental pain had reached the limit, and I couldn't bear it anymore. I screamed, one after another, and pushed hard on the car door, wanting to go out and meet Fang Zhongxin. At this moment, the body trembled like an electric shock, as if turned into flying ash, blown away by the wind, there was an indescribable joy. It's death, everything doesn't exist, including pain, how good it is, I can't help but shed tears with gratitude. After a while, however, even this faint thought disappeared, and there was silence.