Chapter 6 Part 2 Roses in Bloom (2)

Huang Zhenhua taught me with a stern face. He said that he never cared about the private life of the staff. As long as they do their jobs well, it is one thing for them to have three wives and four concubines at home and then go out to pursue women. But if I don’t clean up the work on the table, He will fire me. My eyes saw nothing. Pu Jiamin, who used to manage a lot of things, was at a loss now. Huang Zhenhua's proud student not only failed his master, but also failed himself. Then he asked me to sit down and told me a story earnestly. The hero of the story was a man named Zhou Shihui, and the heroine was Huang Meigui.

"That man is still alive, do you want to see him and admire his down-and-out appearance?" I got angry, "Huang Zhenhua, you don't know what love is at all, you don't know how poor you are living, you have nothing but the title on your business card!" He froze, turned his head slowly, and said slowly: "Then go, go and drown yourself in feelings." I said: "At least I have the courage to love, how about you? It is true that you have no pain, but do you have happiness? Huang Zhenhua, don't tell me that successfully relocating the computer room of the International Bank will bring you happiness."

Huang Zhenhua's expression changed. I whispered, "I'm sorry...I'm out to work and I'll try to control myself." "Then you'd better not go to dinner with Rose for a while." My heart ached, "Let me go," I pleaded, "This is the last time." Huang Zhenhua turned his head and didn't bother to talk to me. I sat in front of my desk and worked numbly. Zhou Shihui was different from me. He had a family, but I didn't. Thinking of this, I felt a lot more at ease.I asked the female secretary to come over and record several letters, opened the folder, and dealt with business in full swing.

At noon, I didn't dare to make a sound. Huang Zhenhua walked up to me and said coldly, "Still sitting? It's time to eat." My nose was sore, tears filled my eyes. Huang Zhenhua said softly: "You two brothers have no father and no mother, and it's hard to survive until today. You have to cherish it. We live in a real world. Feelings are not everything. Do you think I don't know how to enjoy? You think I don't appreciate Love? But in this world, we have fixed responsibilities, you think about it." I burst into tears. Such a big man wept in public, and the female secretaries who usually admired me looked at me dumbfounded.Huang Zhenhua shook his head and sighed.

At lunch that day, I sat there listlessly and didn't say a word. The rose was as beautiful as usual, and Mrs. Huang took care of me secretly and talked with me. Rose is wearing a peacock fur earring, with a black top and skirt, a woman so beautiful that she will attract the eyes of strangers—how am I different from ordinary strangers?I thought sadly, it's just that Rose remembered my name. I tried my best to restrain my feelings, Huang Zhenhua put his hand on my shoulder approvingly. After lunch, I went back to the office building, and I worked hard all afternoon. When I got off work, people left one after another, and I stayed there masochistically.

Mimi came to me, her tone was full of emotion, her eyes were full of concern, and she kissed the short beard on my lips lovingly. She said: "What a good boy, working so hard and growing a beard so fast." I swallowed hard and asked, "What did you come to see me for?" She said briskly, "Watch a movie, let's watch Zhang Che's new martial arts movie." I turned my head, "I'm not going." "What, hurry up?" "yes." "Huang Zhenhua forced you to work?" She asked softly. "yes." "That hateful Huang Zhenhua, but I forgive him, I'll take a step first, call me when you leave, and I'll have tea with you."

I nodded wildly. She took the bag and left. I worked late into the night and left without Mimi.I'm going to make her angry sooner or later. When I got home, my elder brother was still practicing the piano, and the sound of the piano was like complaining or admiration, like weeping and complaining, I threw myself on the bed with my clothes, and fell asleep very tired. I restrained myself for a full five days, finished the design of Huang Zhai, and handed it to Zhenhua's desk, instead of going to Huang Zhai to find roses. I haven't shaved for many days, I don't sleep, I smoke more than my elder brother, I lost a circle of weight in just five days, my eyes are red, I gritted my teeth and fought against the shadow of Rose.

Mimi came to see me, I ignored her, leaned my head against the wall, closed my eyes, and ignored her.Mimi thinks that I work hard and encounter difficulties. Although she is unhappy, she does not complain. She is really a sensible and good girl. She has a pretty face like a daffodil and a bright heart, but my heart has already flown far away. Huang Zhenhua gently said to me: "Things will always pass, and it will pass quickly. Mimi is recognized as a lovely person by everyone, and you should be satisfied." I replied to him with the sentence: "Even if the case is equal to the eyebrows, it will be difficult to agree."

The matter was not easy to solve. I owed a lot to Rose in my previous life, so I had to explain it this way. On the day when the renovation of the Yellow House started, she actually appeared in front of me. I looked up and saw her shocked and dumbfounded. I couldn't tell whether it was a hallucination or the truth for a while. But she had already grabbed my hand, shook it twice, and said softly, "Jiamin, why are you missing? I miss you." How could my already fragile heart withstand such a blow? It was instantly shattered into pieces. I gently held her hand and decided to die under her green skirt.Strange to say, I was determined to go all out and ignore it, but my mood was calm instead, and I resigned myself to my fate.

"How did you lose weight?" she asked me. I answered casually: "The belt is getting wider and I will never regret it. I am thin and haggard because of Iraq." She smiled softly, "You child." I put her hand on my face. "Let's go out to eat after work." She suggested. I said, "I'll pick you up at eight o'clock." After Rose left, Mrs. Huang came. I told her everything in a low voice. She didn't look at me, but said softly: "You go, it's good to be happy, you are a single man, she will get divorced soon, there is nothing unreasonable, I think you are going to die gone."

"Thank you." I whispered. She sighed, "I'm happy to be this favor, no one can turn the tide." "I feel happy," I said frankly, "it's the kind of happiness that comes back to life. I know that Rose will not love me. She came to me because she didn't mind having me as a companion." "I wish you luck." Mrs. Huang said sadly. "Mrs. Huang, are you happy?" "Me?" She raised her head, "Both Zhenhua and I are good at controlling emotions. My views on love are slightly different from ordinary people. Most people think love is good, but I think it is a kind of plague. To love a life without hatred is happiness, so being in love is misfortune.” I gently replied: "That's because most people don't fall in love. When the time comes, they get married and have children. They have no choice at all. When they meet someone with higher qualifications and pursue hard for a round, they think they are in love." Mrs. Huang said sadly: "Then ordinary people are still very happy." That night, I was not below the average level of happiness, went to have my hair cut, shaved, put on my best light-colored suit, refreshed, and went to see the yellow rose. Rose is wearing a white low-cut skirt and a thin diamond chain. She has intentionally made up her face and is indescribably glamorous. Her hair is short to shoulder length and is pinned behind her ears with a flower. Her honey-colored skin is soft and smooth. A pair of white sandals with pale rose-pink toes. I was intoxicated by her beauty, she walked over slenderly, I held her gently in my arms, and felt that I was the happiest person in the whole world. I held her slender hand all night and danced with her, we didn't talk a lot, we were adults after all, we knew what we were doing - she was having a good night and I was in love. There was moonlight that night, and we walked on the road for a long time. I was afraid that she would be tired, but she didn't make a sound, so we kept walking towards eternity, and the more we walked, the better my spirit would be. Then we drank in a small shop, and I was already drunk before my lips touched the alcohol. Sending Rose back, she was leaning against the door frame with her hands folded in front of her chest, she was infinitely beautiful, the mole in front of her eyes was still like a teardrop. She said softly: "The old house has been renovated, please go in and sit down. This is my brother's home." "Goodbye." I reluctantly said. "See you tomorrow." "I'll pick you up tomorrow." I said. Rose was not at home the next day, and Huang Zhenhua accompanied her to pick up her daughter, so I was in vain. I had no choice but to go back to the office building to do business and check every hour. Mrs. Huang promised to notify me as soon as Rose came back, so that I could rest assured.I begged Mrs. Huang to say something nice for me, and asked Rose to let me see the little girl. At noon, Mrs. Huang told me that we were having lunch at home, and I said I would be right there.Huang Zhenhua answered the phone and said that I was only allowed to take one hour off. Unexpectedly, his voice was calm and he didn't blame me.I was ashamed immediately, I didn't do what I promised him, he had already given up on me.I was just about to go out when Mimi came to see me and asked me to have lunch with her.I have no choice, tell her I am not available, I have important things to do. Mimi stared at me, picked up her handbag and left without saying a word. I couldn't bear it, so I grabbed her. Mimi didn’t get angry, she whispered: “No matter how stupid I am, I know what happened, I think the best way is for me to quit.” I don't know how to answer. "I think you have worked hard enough and struggled hard, but at this moment you have decided to give up on me. I don't blame you. Of course people only do things that are beneficial to themselves." I lowered my head, but refused to let her go. "I love you, Jiamin, but I've decided to go with the flow. If you'd look at me, you'd see that for two weeks, I've been wasting away for you, and each one is another's fool." I looked up at her and found that she was really thin. For the past half month, she tolerated me until there was no room for change. "Goodbye, Jiamin." "Mimi—" "Don't worry, I'll always be here waiting for you, and I won't hinder you." She broke free from my hand and walked away without looking back. On the way to Huang's house, I was depressed until I saw Little Rose. It was Huang Zhenhua who came to open the door for me, and beside him was a little girl, about seven or eight years old. Huang Zhenhua was overjoyed, he bent down and said to the little girl, "Little Rose, her name is Uncle Pu." The little girl didn't call me, she looked up at me for a while, then smiled with her lips closed, and hid behind her uncle. I was stunned, this is simply the epitome of a rose, even the blue mole under the corner of the eye is a perfect replica. Rose ran out after her. She was wearing a set of black xiangyun gauze Tang suit and a pair of embroidered slippers. When she saw me, she said familiarly, "Jia Min, have you seen my daughter?" When I saw the rose, my heart tightened. Seeing Mei Mei's Shitangzui red brand aunt's dress made me feel swayed, and she wore two pure gold twist bracelets on her left wrist.I have never seen a woman so beautifully adorned, whose beauty can be endlessly developed to infinity. I sat in a corner and admired her to my heart's content. She walked up to me, "Jia Min, are you unhappy? Why do you look so bad?" I looked down, "Yes, I had a falling out with a friend." "Is it a girlfriend?" I nod. "Is—for me?" I nodded again, "She didn't quarrel with me, she understood very well, so she turned around and left." Rose was surprised, "How chic." "Yes," my eyes were red, "she is a good girl with a very special character, and she is proud. It is the greatest pride to walk away without saying a word." Rose glanced at me, "I can't do this. I'm the most violent person. When I encounter this kind of thing, I have to make both sides hurt." "You are different, you will be forgiven for everything you do." "Really?" She smiled, her expression suddenly went very far away, "Jiamin, you are tolerant of me and treat me well, it doesn't necessarily mean that everyone is like this, you all think that I am invincible in terms of relationships Is it? Actually not.” Just as I was about to answer, Little Rose ran over, leaned on her mother's lap and looked up at me. I reached out to her, she hesitated for a moment, and held my index finger. I bitterly asked Rose: "Ten or eight years ago, where were you?" She knew what I was referring to, so she smiled and replied, "Busy making trouble, falling in love, studying and making trouble." Huang Zhenhua said loudly from a corner: "Hey, come and eat lotus seed and lily soup." "Brother is not so angry with you," Rose said with a smile, "He has a mandarin duck complex, and whenever there is a man who gets along with me, he thinks that he is pursuing me, so he pretends to be an uncle. Bullying people with their faces—there's something wrong with their brains." She said it so wittily that I couldn't help but laugh. Rose said again: "Girlfriend, it's fine if you explain it. Don't make any misunderstandings because of me. It's not worth it. Jiamin, look, my daughter is already this old." I held Little Rose's little hand and stuck it to my face. Before I could speak, Huang Zhenhua yelled again—— "Hey, the frozen lily soup doesn't taste good if it's hot, what are you talking about?" He was very impatient. I whispered to Rose, "I'm...true to you." Rose looked at me pitifully, and was about to say something—— Mrs. Huang brought the lily soup in front of us, and Huang Zhenhua took the little girl to the study to read the comics in a fit of anger. Mrs. Huang asked me: "Jiamin, how are you?" Rose glanced at me, "He's in trouble, his girlfriend ran away." After speaking, she followed into the study. Mrs. Huang said regretfully: "Mimi is a rare good girl in the city. I'm not worried that she won't get married. What I'm worried about is you. I think you know that Rose won't fall in love with you." I drink the sweet soup, bitter in my heart, lily's unique sweet and astringent fragrance is like my love for roses.I asked lightly, "What are her conditions for choosing a mate?" "How can there be any rules? It's just a word," Mrs. Huang said, "Rose has a real temperament, no better than us." "Mrs. Huang," I raised my head, "in your opinion, do I fall in love with roses?" Mrs. Huang sighed, "Of course, you have no obvious symptoms of this disease." She smiled, "Dizziness, body heat, heartbeat, restless sleep and food, worrying about gains and losses, trance-is it not?" I smiled bitterly, "It turns out that there is such a thing as love in the world." Mrs. Huang nodded, "Yes, a plague that can be fatal. Don't forget Romeo and Liang Shanbo." I was lying on the sofa of Huang's house. I didn't want to be them. "I know who you want to be, Dante of Piatrice, don't you?" She laughed. I said sincerely: "Mrs. Huang, you are such a delicate woman. Mr. Huang is so lucky." "Oh, the reason he likes me is because I'm a little more attractive than ordinary girls," Mrs. Huang laughed, "Huang Zhenhua can't stand 2+2:"4 or 3+5:"8 women, and me, I'm ( 9A+8A-2A)+5B, so he is satisfied." "What is he himself?" I asked with a smile. "He thinks he's calculus." No matter how bad I am, I can't help laughing.The lively conversation of their family really made outsiders laugh. Huang Zhenhua came out and scolded, "You boy, you don't know how to learn, just saw you making fun of my wife, be careful and I'll beat you up." I still laughed, and accidentally overturned the chair, Yuan Bao turned over and fell a somersault, the pain was so painful that tears flowed out. There is tears in the smile, there is nothing more sad than this, except for the moon in the sky, no one knows. I still couldn't muster up the courage to ask Mimi out, and thinking about it, I wronged her again. After so many years of dating, I said sorry silently and left her behind, and I didn't even become ordinary friends. I couldn't write a letter even if I tore off a whole letter paper. I couldn't explain the thousands of words in my heart with all my painstaking efforts, so I sat blankly at the desk.This letter must be written, and this is my only explanation. I took out another stack of letter paper, laid it on the table, and wrote half a page after a while.I kept writing until dawn, and finally posted the letter. Believe me, there was no joy in doing this, it was painful, and even though I voluntarily abandoned her, I could be called a winner. I didn't sleep all night, and I was eating breakfast when my eldest brother woke up. The eldest brother glanced at me, "Have you slept poorly lately?" "Barely haven't slept," I said. "For the yellow rose?" he asked with a smile. "Yes, for her." "It's a painful treat," he sat down. I pass him tea. I said, "I'm not as good as you in controlling it, and I'm well-trained." His voice was very calm, "I don't know this kind of thing until it happens to me. Maybe one day, when I meet that person, I will fall harder and hurt more than you." "Impossible." I couldn't believe it, "Brother, your blood is three degrees colder than ours." He chuckled a few times. "Brother, a person like you..." I regretted, "You shouldn't be living today at all, it won't work for you." He raised his head, looked far away, and supported the back of his head with his hands, he said: "What's the matter, you get married early and have nine children, and the problem will be solved." "And you?" "Me?" He stopped talking. I don't know what's wrong with this big brother. His whole body is full of negativity, which makes me worry.I said, "Why do you have to be so persistent, as long as a woman loves you and is willing to have children with you, that's fine." I said, "Brother, you can't ask them to know as much as you do. It's very rare to see the relatives of gods and immortals. Can you count Bi people?" "Yes, Mrs. Huang Zhenhua in front of me." The eldest brother lit a cigarette. "Huang Zhenhua is here," I said with a smile, "his luck is really good." "They also married late." The eldest brother said, "Old Huang has been looking for more than ten years before he met his ideal." "Sometimes relationships can be cultivated," I said. "I don't need that kind of affection," he said. "You love the Vatican dumbbell all your life, but it won't marry you and have children... Really, it costs $70,000 a piano." I said. The eldest brother smiled. He always indulged and endured my accusations against him. He said, "How is that different from buying a Morgan sports car?" I argued strongly, "Girls appreciate Morgan sports cars more." "I really don't care about women admiring me," said the elder brother. "Oh, so hard-spoken, it's a principle against nature." I said, "When you finally marry a wife, I'll repeat this to you." "That's good." He stood up. "Are you going to practice the piano again? Well, you have been hiding at home, and she will come to you." I taunted him again. "Maybe she touched the wrong door," the eldest brother said humorously, "I can see her today." He went in to change clothes. I picked up my briefcase and went to work. When Huang Zhenhua saw me, he complained naturally.He said that Rose's husband, Fang Xiewen, would not agree to the divorce no matter what, and now he has rushed to negotiate with Rose, and this person will arrive sooner or later. I know Huang Zhenhua dislikes this brother-in-law, so I am neutral. I am now chasing roses, and with my pride, I don't bother to step on Fang X to promote myself, it is unnecessary.I know my portion. I wanted to meet Rose that day, but she told me that she couldn't find time, so I had to give up. As I was driving home, I said to myself: Did Mimi get that letter by now? What about her reaction?I'll never know, from now on Mimi and I are strangers. My eldest brother came home earlier than me. His cooking skills have always been superb, and he made a big pot of fragrant borscht, which even the maids praised.I sighed as I ate, what was it like, a barrister who is proficient in Latin, while practicing the piano, he is showing off his skills in the kitchen... He deserves to be unable to marry a wife, it is too stealthy, ordinary women, how dare to go to him stand by. In the past few years, he has not looked particularly old, but he is more handsome and melancholy than before. He asked me how the soup tasted. I said with a playful smile: "The soup is good. When will you learn to sew? I have a few pairs of jeans that I need to change. Also, it's getting cold, help me make a woolen vest." "You are in a good mood," said the elder brother. "Mimi came to my place today and cried for an hour." I put down the soup, and a haze covered my heart, "Say what?" "I didn't say anything, I just shed tears. I am most afraid of girls crying, and my heart is broken." He shook his head, "Is this kind of thing really inevitable?" "She really didn't blame me?" She got the letter. "I didn't bless you either. I'm sorry. She didn't pretend to be generous. She stood up and left after crying. She is really a noble girl." The elder brother said regretfully, "It is rare to find such a girl nowadays." I dare not make a sound. "But I believe you have thought it through clearly, I don't care about your business." The elder brother said. "Brother," I said emotionally, "you have taught me to raise me all these years, and I will obey your orders. If you tell me to marry Mimi immediately, I will obey." "Nonsense!" he said in a deep voice, "Why should I make you unhappy?" I quickly apologized and said with a smile: "Yes, yes, I'm just talking." He has gone back to the study. I sighed, feeling that it was too difficult to please this elder brother, his withdrawn temperament—— At this moment, the doorbell rang loudly, like a naughty child hurriedly standing outside the door begging for candies.The maid went to open the door, and Rose stood outside. I "huo" stood up, "Rose!" She was furious, "Jiamin, I just came back from the old house. They tore down my study. I was so anxious that I rushed here right away. Didn't we agree that everything can be moved, only that room study--" "No, don't worry, they just moved that wall, and the study room won't move, so don't worry." I didn't know how to comfort her. "Oh." She patted her chest like a child, "It scares me." Her hair was tied into a ponytail, she wore narrow-legged jeans, and a large white shirt. She didn't have any makeup on her face, and there was sweat on her forehead. My heart ached, and I stretched out my index finger to wipe off the sweat for her. I whispered: "What you said, I will keep it in my heart. How could I forget it? If you don't worry about other people, you should also worry about me." She smiled softly and leaned against the door frame.I noticed that she was wearing a pair of old Japanese slippers on her feet, and there was no bra in her shirt, and her beautiful breasts were looming. I suddenly remembered that when I was fifteen or sixteen years old, I learned to dance with my female classmates at the Christmas ball, and embraced the opposite sex for the first time. She turned her head and asked me: "Who is playing the piano?" She was a little surprised, "I have never heard such an emotional, impulsive, and tense movement." I replied, "That's my elder brother." "Is he a musician?" "No, he's a barrister, but he's been a weirdo since he was nine years old with dumbbells." I shrugged. "What is that movement?" "Haven't you heard it? It's the section of Liang Zhu's Violin Concerto. Zhu Yingtai complained to Liang Shanbo that she has been betrothed to the Ma family. The movement is tense and mournful—although the eldest brother said that listening to music can't be so rational—" The movement had stopped, and I noticed Rose staring behind me, I turned my head and saw my eldest brother standing at the door of the study.When did he open the door? I coughed and introduced: "This is my elder brother Jiaming, elder brother, this is a rose, a yellow rose—— elder brother, elder brother?" The eldest brother woke up like a dream, and said softly, "Miss Huang, hello." I couldn't help laughing out loud, it's so cliche-"Miss Huang". But Rose said: "Mr. Pu, your piano sound...is so beautiful." I smiled and said, "Brother, you have met a bosom friend." The eldest brother didn't answer, he stared at the rose for a moment, said "forgive me", then turned around and went back to the study.I had no choice but to explain for him, "My elder brother is lonely and widowed by nature, don't pay attention to him, come, I'll take you home." "But he doesn't look like you," said Rose. "You're not like Huang Zhenhua either." I smiled. "Usually people describe beautiful women as 'otherworldly'. Today I met your elder brother, and I realized that men can also have this kind of appearance." "He's gone crazy," I said. "Is he married?" "Never married." "Do you have a girlfriend?" "No woman is worthy of him." "Never been with a woman?" I shook my head, "Nobody would believe it, never, I suspect he's still a virgin." I couldn't help but smile again. "It's impossible." Rose opened her eyes wide, "We are nothing but flesh and blood." "I'm different from him. My big brother keeps his body like a jade, but I, I'm just a mortal. I like all beautiful things, especially beautiful women." I said frankly, "Beautiful women will always make my heart beat." "Isn't he lonely?" asked the rose. "Who? Big brother? He? There was a time when he worked so hard to get me into college that he couldn't get a girlfriend, and then it got put aside and he devoted himself to music...I guess he was lonely. But he was a man Very noble, never explain, never complain, he is the most admired person in my life. For me, he suffered a little bit, but my life is taken care of perfectly by him, for me he is not married, now I Self-reliant, but he lost the opportunity, I guess he would never want to marry an ignorant girl of seventeen or eighteen years old." "But a lot of girls will like him." "They don't know how to appreciate him," I said. "At the moment, the ultimate goal of girls in Hong Kong is to ride in a Mercedes-Benz with a driver." "Such a wish is easy to achieve." Rose smiled. "So the elder brother didn't get along with women. He is a very ascetic person. Do you know that every Sunday morning he practices calligraphy—" "What body do you practice?" "Thin golden body." Rose was silent. We took advantage of the moonlight to drink coffee in Repulse Bay. I can't tell Rose about Big Brother. "—women are not happy to delve into his inner world, they only know that he has a good job--that's all. He has more advantages than the title printed on the card, and the barrister is not allowed to print the title on the card at all. , only the name, address and phone number are listed on the card." Rose folded her hands and rested her chin on them. "Gradually he stopped looking for a partner, and told me several times, that you can't meet, you can't ask. He sacrificed so much for me, and I couldn't help him. He became more and more silent." Rose raised her eyes, "That's not true, he is not silent." "Why?" I was surprised. "His thoughts are all in the sound of his piano." Rose asked, "Didn't you hear that?" "What? I never thought of that. How could such a thing happen?" "Just listen and you'll know." I turned my head and thought for a while, Rose is a smart woman with a delicate heart, hehe, she understands the sound of elder brother's piano. After a while she said, "Fang Xiewen will arrive in Hong Kong tomorrow." "Don't be afraid of him." "Thank you, Jiamin." "I will support you." I said. Fang Xiewen, just as Huang Zhenhua described, was a desperate person. He is obese, slovenly, stupid, and dull, and he can't even make sense of ordinary social dialogue. He is sandwiched among a group of exquisite people in the Huang family, and there is no place for him at all.He probably understood this very well, so he gave up even more, kept wiping sweat with a wrinkled handkerchief, and wore an American suit made of smooth man-made fiber. The collar of Fang Xiewen's suit was still very wide, and a tie was tied indiscriminately, which was four inches wide. The toe of a pair of leather shoes was worn out, and the elastic bands of the socks were loose. The general bank clerks in Hong Kong are still dressed more stylishly and neatly than him, but like all the Chinese who have lived in foreign towns for a long time, he still wants to reveal his sense of superiority in every word. Everything is better in the United States, the United States People can even eat a piece of fried fish, and the moon in the United States is on the horns. But I am not impatient to argue with him, why bother, he is a frog who lives at the bottom of the well, as long as he is happy, it doesn't matter to us. I was just secretly surprised that Rose would spend ten years with such a man. Fang Xiewen has nothing to do with Rose's mother and daughter, from beginning to end.He is an outsider. As Huang Zhenhua said: "Little Rose has such a father." Fang insisted on not divorcing Rose. He still wanted to control Rose and hoped that she would go back with him. Rose's expression was cold and calm, as if she had nothing to do with her. Fang: "I will not divorce, you are still my wife." Rose: "No way." Fang: "The child is mine." Rose: "The whole thing is impossible. Even if I die in front of you, I still want a divorce." I feel sorry for Fang Xiewen. What else did he want to say, but Huang Zhenhua had already stopped him: "Fang Xiewen, I want to stop when I see a good person. Rose has already given you the best ten years of her life. May I ask what you are not satisfied with? She It was a mistake to be with you, you should be grateful that you had the opportunity to live with her, enough is enough." When Huang Zhenhua said this, his face was livid, and Mrs. Huang shook her head secretly. Rose stood up, "Jia Min, please go out for a drive with me." I accompanied her to drive the car to Shek O. After sitting on the beach for a long time, she raised her head and said in an extremely confused voice: "Why did I marry this person? How did I spend so many days with him?" I don't know the answer. At the breakfast table, I told my eldest brother about it. I said: "Yue is always very mischievous, and he just brings together two irrelevant people. Rose doesn't know how to live these years." The elder brother drank mineral water and asked, "Are you her boyfriend now?" I smiled wryly, "Do I have such a blessing?" Big brother is silent. "What do you think of her?" I asked. "beauty." I nodded, "It's heart-poundingly beautiful, it's still so beautiful at thirty years old." "Thirty years old is the most beautiful time for a woman." The elder brother said. I continued, "Like a rose in full bloom, because I knew she was going to wither soon, she was extraordinarily beautiful, I couldn't stand this blow, her skin was a little loose, but her outline was perfect as before, her tired expression still carried A little innocent tone--I wish I had the right to watch her grow old." Big brother is silent. I'm completely bewitched by roses, Big Brother knows. I said: "Brother, maybe you will be impatient to take care of such a woman, but—" The eldest brother interrupted me, he stood up and went out to work. I stayed there in a daze, maybe he didn't approve of my association with Rose, because he himself lived a pure life and didn't show sympathy for other people's emotional disputes. Fang Xiewen was driven to live in a hotel, Huang Zhenhua was angry that this honest man gave him endless troubles. Mrs. Huang felt that Huang Zhenhua was snobbish.And I, I'm going to propose to the rose. Huang Zhenhua said: "I would rather she marry you, but she won't, she won't live a good life for herself." I smile, I am willing to wait. get off work. Big brother is not at home.Ask the maid, the maid said he was out. go out?He hasn't been out for ten years. With whom?The maid doesn't know. I sat at home alone drinking whiskey and soda.Could it be that Mimi has something to say to him?For years he treated Mimi like a sister.Thinking of Mimi, I was terrified and remained silent for a long time. What's wrong with her now?With whom? After watching the TV news and waiting until dinner, I felt boundless loneliness. It would be very unwise to leave Mimi. We are like-minded, childhood sweethearts, and we have a tacit understanding of everything.I believe she will be a good wife, and we can easily grow old together and live a peaceful and happy life. calm. joy. I shouldn't be too demanding in life, but I would give up Mimi to pursue illusory love. Although I didn't lose my reputation, I was devastated, but now I can no longer accommodate women below Rose. I suddenly understood that meeting roses was the greatest misfortune in my life. When the eldest brother came home, his pale face was rosy, as if he had been drinking. I accidentally asked: "Going out with friends? Is it a colleague?" A lock of his soft hair hung on his forehead, and he smoothed it gently, a little hesitantly. "I don't want to talk about falling down," I laughed, "It's better for us brothers to switch. From now on, I'll drink at home, and you go to activities." "I'm going to sleep." I sigh deeply. Eldest brother is the only man I know who can be called touching. He has a look of hesitation, with indescribable restraint and melancholy.When a careful woman sees it, her motherhood is fully aroused, which is irresistible, but people in this commercial society are careless, and no one can discover his advantages. The renovation of the old house of Huang's family is proceeding at a rapid pace. I went out to have a look, and the furniture has been done in a messy way, maintaining the original spirit and refurbished. It looks very comfortable.The study room has not been moved, one wall has been rebuilt, and near the roof, there is a row of rosewood trees, which adds a lot of atmosphere. I am very satisfied. The worker told me that I can move in after a week. The change in this series of days is greater than that of the previous ten years, and it is all because of the rose. For several days, I wanted to ask Rose to see the new house, but I couldn't find her. I asked Mrs. Huang if she had gone out, but she didn't say anything. "She is in Hong Kong, but we have barely seen her this week." "Is it because Fang Xiewen troubled her and she avoided him?" Mrs. Huang pondered, "No, she was never afraid of Fang Xiewen." "What will happen to him?" "Of course not. Don't worry, she still comes back to sleep, but she leaves early and returns late. Jia Min, don't be suspicious." "Ask her to contact me." I said, "Huang Zhenhua asked me to go to Hawaii for a meeting. I have to go for ten days." "Do things well." She advised me. 直到上飞机的时候，玫瑰也没给我一个电话交代，我很失望，但我不能祈望一个美女行事与常人一般，故此寂寞地上了飞机。 到了夏威夷我故意在香港时间清晨打电话找玫瑰。 黄太太来接的电话，我将她在梦中惊醒，因此道歉。 黄太太说：“玫瑰已搬回老房子去了。”语气间有点犹豫。 我顿时多心起来，“你们有些什么瞒着我？” 黄太太笑，“你这孩子。” “是不是咪咪嫁了人？”我问。 “没理由，你叫她一刹间嫁谁去。” “我回来再跟你们算账。”我说。 “多多享受夏威夷的风光。” “闷死人。”我说，“游泳与晒太阳最好分开两天做，否则一下子做完了没事做。” “别这样好不好？你早已被香港以及香港的女孩子宠坏。” “回来再见。”我又带一线希望，“老房子那边电话是否仍然旧号码？” “你算了罢，早上四点三十分扰人清梦，”黄太太说。 回到香港那天，黄太太来接我飞机，她一贯清爽，一身白麻布西装。 我愉快地张开手，“黄太，”我说，“真高兴见到你，如果玫瑰是玫瑰，那你是水仙了。” “你少肉麻。” “玫瑰呢，她可在家？” “我出来的时候她不在家——怎么样，公事进行得如何？” “别一副老板娘口吻。”我问，“今天晚上约玫瑰出来可好？” “家敏，今天晚上，你来我们家吃饭，我有话跟你说。” “什么话？顶多叫我另谋高就而己，你们夫妻俩，一向没安好心眼。” 黄太太很沉默。她驾驶技术不好，老走之字路，但因速度不高，并不惊险。女人开车，就是这个样儿。 黄太太忽然问：“你爱玫瑰有多少？” 我反问：“你认为有多少？” “我只知道你已经为她放弃了咪咪。” “不只那样。”我抬起头，“我爱她多于我自己。”自觉声音非常悲凉。 “她有否说过爱你？”黄太太小心的问。 "No." “你是否会以她的快乐为重？” 我转过头瞪着黄太太，忽然暴躁起来，“你想说什么尽管说，别在草丛里打来打去，玫瑰到底怎么样了？” 她把车停在我家门前，“你先回去吧，洗个澡，到我这里来，我告诉你。” “好，我一小时后到。”我说。 我提着行李上楼，取出锁匙开了门。 约是下午三四点钟左右吧，屋内静寂一片，只有音乐声。我摇摇头，大哥这人，偶尔有时间在家，也必然要听音乐。 我放下箱子，朝书房走去，书房门并没有关拢，哀怨的梵哑铃轻微地传出来，我看到大哥坐在安乐椅中——慢着。我的血凝住了。 伏在他膝上的是谁？ 我如五雷轰顶！ 玫瑰，那是玫瑰！ 玫瑰微微扬着脸凝视着溥家明，博家明的手按在她的肩膀，完全沉醉在他们的世界里。 我眼前渐渐一片黑，我明白了，为什么一直找不到玫瑰，为什么黄太太吞吞吐吐，我明白了，大哥与玫瑰在恋爱，就瞒着我一个人。 我转头就走，行动出乎我自己意料的镇静，我到车房找到自己的车子，“呼”的一声开出去，直驶往黄家，我将车速加到极高，冲黄灯、偷弯路。 我已经死了，现在控制我行动的不过是我的神经中枢，不是我的心，我的心已经死了。 车子驶上黄家花园的草地停下来，我奔到大门前按铃。 黄太太亲自来替我开门，她看到我的样子呆住了。 “家敏——” 我用手撑住门框，觉得晕眩，力气仿佛已在路上用尽，人像是要虚脱似的。 我闭上眼睛，轻轻说：“我都明白了。” “家敏——” 我再也忍不住，大声嚎叫起来，“为什么，为什么，为什么是溥家明？为什么偏偏是溥家明？”我用拳头大力捶打墙。 黄太太用力拉住我的手，“家敏！家敏！” 我号陶大哭起来，蹲在地下，用手捧着头，“为什么是溥家明？”我反反复复地叫，“为什么是溥家明？我巴不得马上死掉，我宁愿死掉。” 黄太太抱着我，“家敏，你要往好处想，这两个人都是你一生最亲爱的人，你应该为他们高兴——” “不，——玫瑰是我的，是我先看到玫瑰，我恨他，我恨他！” 黄太太大喝一声，“溥家明是你大哥，他对你恩重如山，你胆敢说出这种话来！” 我已经死了。 我不敢再抬起头来，这世界对我来说，已经毫无意义。 我挣扎地站起来。 “你要往哪儿去？家敏，你要往哪里去？” “我不知道，”我疲倦地说，“我想喝点酒，好好睡一觉。” “你在我们这里休息，我来照顾你。” “呵是，”我点点头，“我已经不能回自己的家了。” “你坐下来——” “我不应打扰你们。” “家敏，你别说这种话。” "I gotta go." “我不准你开车，你不能走，”她坚决地说，“我求你给我一点面子。” 我诧异地问：“你怕我去死？” 黄太太的眼睛露出恐惧。 “我早已死了，”我说。 黄太太忽然落下泪来，她哭道：“你们这些人一个个怎么都这样？叫我怎么办好呢。家敏，你可别吓唬我，我是看着你长大的，你不能对不起我。” 我叹口气，“我要睡一觉。” 黄太太真是天下间最容忍最有母性的女子，她服侍我在客房睡下，给我喝开水。我懂得她在水中掺了安眠药。 我很快睡熟了。 醒来的时候是清晨二点。 客房的空气调节得十分清新，静寂一片。 我默默地起床，到浴间洗脸洗头洗身，刮了胡髭，走出客房。 黄太太并没有睡，她迎上来。 我说：“黄太太，累了你了。” 她凝视我，“我与振华商量过，你现在就住在这里，天天与他一起上下班，我已差人把你的衣物搬了一部分过来。” "Thank you." I said. “振华先睡了，他明天要开几个会。” 我说：“我肚子饿了，想吃点东西。” “跟我到厨房来。” 她让我吃三文治与啤酒。 冰凉的啤酒使我清醒，我告诉自己：溥家敏，从今以后，你是一个死人，死人没有喜怒哀乐，故此你要好好地过日子。 “家敏，你好过一点没有？”黄太太出现在我身后。 我紧紧握住黄太太的手，将她的手贴在脸上。“你们待我真好。” 黄振华的声音在我们身后传来，“溥家敏，你少对我老婆甜言蜜语的，我宰了你。”他先笑了起来。 他们俩对我温言相待，我再也忍不下来，我说：“我……我心如刀割。” 黄太太说：“家敏，家敏……” 黄振华说：“爱她不一定要占有她，家敏，你应当明白。” 我的眼泪汩汩而下。 黄振华叹口气，“我要去睡了，更生，你好好开导他。” 我说：“不不，黄太太，你去休息，我一个人坐在这里。” 黄太太说：“别担心，我是天下第一个闲人，又不上班，也不理家务，这些事若果我不包揽上身，我还做些什么呢。” 我说：“我想一个人静一静。” “我在书房里。”她站起来走开。 我把头伏在饭桌上。 黄太太真是一个知书识礼，温文有礼、体贴入微的女子。 假如，咪咪也会有这样的成就，我还希祈些什么呢。苦海无边，回头是岸。 一百年后，我有没有遇见过玫瑰，又有什么分别。 最主要是现在活得高兴。 伏在桌上久了，我的脖子渐渐僵硬，但我没有移动身子。 我不能与大哥争女人，我一生欠他太多，不能成全他就罢了，我不能与他争，而且要使他相信，我对玫瑰并无诚意。