Chapter 11 chapter Ten

For many years, Zhou Manqian has been thinking about what happened that night.The memories that had turned yellow over time reappeared again and again, and at the same time made her nose sour again and again.She still couldn't understand why the man she loved had quietly left her life. She and Jiang Yanzhong have been together for seven years.They lived together for the last year.One midnight, when she woke up, she saw him sitting upright on the bed. "What's the matter? What are you thinking?" She asked softly. Jiang Yanzhong looked at her, sighed, and said, "I want to live a life alone."

Zhou Manqian sat up from the bed in a panic, and saw Jiang Yanzhong's eyes were red, as if she had cried. "What are you talking about?" she asked. After a moment of silence, Jiang Yanzhong said: "I want to have a little more private time in the future. Can you move back home?" "Why?" she said in a trembling voice. Jiang Yanzhong looked at her and didn't speak for a while.The eyes are sad, but the heart is determined. Throughout the night, Zhou Manqian hid in bed and wept.Jiang Yanzhong next to her was no longer like before, when she saw her crying, he would hug her and comfort her.She knew very well that he was not in love with anyone else.He is so good to her, and they are together every day.Every night when he goes to bed, he holds her hand.When it was cold, he would put her cold legs on his warm stomach to make her feel warmer.

These seven years have been too happy to end like this. Maybe it's too much work pressure?Maybe he has a reason?She should let him be quiet for a while, and the next day, she listened to his advice and temporarily moved to the house of her good friend Fan Meiyin.When leaving, she just put a few simple clothes in his suitcase and took away.That small gray suitcase, made of canvas and cowhide, was bought by Jiang Yanzhong many years ago. On the top of the box, there is a dove logo. When Zhou Manlu left with his suitcase, Jiang Yanzhong was sitting in front of the desk at home with a book in his hand, reading it absent-mindedly.

"Call me." She turned around and said to Jiang Yanzhong. He nodded. After walking out, she began to cry again.She dared not cry in front of him.She tried to see the whole thing as a minor incident, and she even thought she was being smart about it.She quietly left for a few days, when she was not by his side, he would miss her. However, as the days passed, Jiang Yanzhong did not call Di. One night, she went back.Jiang Yanzhong hasn't got off work yet, and things at home are a bit messy.He seemed to get used to life without her very quickly.She took off her coat and packed the things at home.In the end, she even polished the bathroom and kitchen floors.She hugged her knees and sat on the cold ground waiting for him.It was already late at night, and he hadn't come back yet.Perhaps, he has lived another life.

Zhou Manqian took out a bag of coffee beans from her purse.This is his favorite coffee.She put the coffee beans on the table, where there was a whole kilo, enough for him to drink for a long time.All along, she was the one who bought coffee beans for him, and that shop was on her way to work.From now on, she might not be able to do this for him. Later, she went to the United States for further study.She can't stay here and miss him every day, she would rather exile herself, just like Jiang Yanzhong also exiled herself.Perhaps, in another place, she could forget him. After returning from the United States, she worked in a hospital.She is a psychiatrist.Patients came to her to solve their problems, but they didn't know that this doctor also had a heavy past in his heart.All these years, she has not loved anyone else.

Now, just driving home from get off work, the last patient of the day, named Wang Limei, suffers from sleepwalking. "Sleepwalking?" Zhou Manping pondered for a while. "Yes. I woke up one night two weeks ago, got my car keys, walked to the parking lot, climbed into my car, and drove onto the highway. My husband woke up Missed me, drove to find me, found my car on the road. At that time, my car was parked on the side of the road, and I was asleep in it. When he woke me up, I didn't know why I was there There." Zhou Manqian didn't pay attention to Wang Limei's story at all.When she heard the words "sleepwalking", her heart had already flown far away.Jiang Yanzhong also suffered from sleepwalking when he was young.When he was six years old, he got up from bed in the middle of the night and walked to the roof of the building alone.His parents found him missing and looked for him everywhere.When they finally found him on the roof, he was sleeping soundly on a railing less than one meter wide on the edge of the roof. As long as he turned over and fell from there, he would be crushed to pieces.His mother was shaking with fright, and his father walked over carefully and picked him up.When he woke up, he had absolutely no memory of what had happened.From that day on: his family locked the doors and windows every night before going to bed.However, sleepwalking happened several times intermittently.This symptom did not disappear until he was twelve years old.

After breaking up with Jiang Yanzhong, Zhou Manqian hoped that she too would suffer from sleepwalking.Even just once is fine.She didn't know why she thought so.Maybe, if she also had sleepwalking, she and Jiang Yanzhong would be closer.It's like after you fall in love with someone, you find out that you used to live on the same street when you were young. Perhaps, you have met many times before.The feeling of each other seems to be closer, and everyone can recall the life on that street together. She just wanted to have somnambulism.Jiang Yanzhong has gone far away, and the only way to get close to him again may be to go back to the year when he was six years old and suffer from sleepwalking together with him.However, this hope is too slim after all.Children suffering from sleepwalking may be due to the immature development of the central nervous system.Among adults, very few people have sleepwalking.She could miss him thousands of times in her dreams, but it was impossible for her to enter his sleepwalking world.

She went home, put down her briefcase, and made a cup of coffee.She didn't like to drink coffee at first, but now she only drinks a cup occasionally; maybe she can't say that she drinks it, she just likes to smell the aroma of coffee.That scent can often bring her back to the good old days. Jiang Yanzhong sat alone in this Starbucks and ordered an expresso. "It's very cold today!" Han Chunyi said when he arrived. "Want a cup of coffee?" "I don't drink much coffee, so let's have a cup of Caffclatte with you." "Yes, drinking coffee is not a good habit." Jiang Yanzhong said with his head down.

"Why do you seem so depressed today? Is it related to the weather?" "It's related to your income." Jiang Yanzhong took out a check from his pocket and handed it to the ground, "Look, your royalty income is higher than my salary, it's really enviable!" Han Chunyi looked at the check, smiled and said, "If you can't make money, what motivation is there to write?" "People who like to write don't care about their income..." "Who said that? Zhang Ailing won the bonus for her first submission. She didn't use it to buy a book or a pen, but a lipstick. I write novels for the enjoyment of life."

"You often talk about yourself very realistically, you are not such a realistic person at all." "Really?" Han Chunyi was noncommittal. "Where does your novel go? Can it be published next year?" "I'm collecting some information on sleepwalking." "Sleepwalking?" "One of the characters in the novel is sleepwalking." "Why don't you come and ask me?" "ask you?" "I had sleepwalking as a child." "Quickly talk and listen." "It all started when I was six—" he said, taking a sip of his coffee.

Wang Limei came to Zhou Manqian's clinic for the third time.This time, she finally spoke from the bottom of her heart.She is having an affair.Her sleepwalking also began at that time. What a complex animal is man?This lady tried hard to hide the evil in her heart, but that evil manipulated her body fiercely. Sleepwalking was the sigh of her conscience.She can't forgive herself for betraying her husband, but she can't leave her lover. "Why can you love two men at the same time?" Zhou Manfeng asked her. Wang Limei smiled: "They are two completely different people." Husband and lover are two completely different people, which is why the earth loves them at the same time.The answer is so obvious. At that moment, Zhou Manqian suddenly felt that her question was stupid.She should ask herself, why can she only love one man?She smiled miserably. When leaving the clinic, Wang Limei pointed to the pager on her desk and said: "Few people use pagers now, and your pager is as big as the palm of your hand." "Yes, mine is an antique." Zhou Manqian said with a smile. She has been reluctant to replace this pager.Even when she went to the United States to study, she still asked Fan Mei to keep the paging number because she paid the paging fee.Maybe, don't know which day?Jiang Yanzhong would think of her.Then, when he used the previous number to find her, he could still find her. Keeping a number is just to wait for someone. That night, Jiang Yanzhong said that he wanted to live some days alone. He didn't say how long those days would be, but she didn't expect it to be that long.She had always hoped that he would return to Earth after he finished his life alone. Jiang Yanzhong had already had his third cup of expresso. "After I turned twelve, my sleepwalking disappeared," he said. "So, what happened after you turned twelve?" Han Chunyi asked. "I was just starting to develop, you don't want to know the details?" he joked. "I've never heard of your love history." Jiang Yanzhong smiled: "I wouldn't be so stupid. I told you, wouldn't it become the subject of your novel?" "Have you not been loved, and loved no one else?" "It's useless, I won't tell you. I don't believe in women writers." "Forget it, anyway, you won't have a lot of love experience," "why would you say so?" "You are a handsome man with a weak heart. Am I wrong?" How could Han Chunyi know him like this; he was a little embarrassed. "Do you want another cup of coffee?" Jiang Yanzhong asked. "Okay, I still want to talk." Han Chunyi said, holding her head. The man sitting in the clinic now is named Liang Jinghu.His daughter, Liang Shuying, is the tenth nurse at the East District Hospital. Zhou Manqian stayed there for a while and was an old colleague of her.A few weeks ago, the teacher, who was still a year away from retiring, was caught by the police while wandering the streets dressed as a woman in her dead wife's dress.Liang Shuying hoped that Zhou Manqian could talk to him, and she agreed.Last time, Liang Jinghu came with his son, and he refused to say anything.Today, he didn't have an appointment, and he ran here by himself. Liang Jinghu mourned his dead wife sadly.The dress, wig, high heels and purse he was wearing that night belonged to his late wife.Although this approach is a bit unbelievable, but he missed it too much.Putting on his wife's clothes and going back to the way he used to take her to work every day, it seems that he can recall those good years. "Am I sick?" Liang Jinghu said while crying. "No, you are not sick." "I won't do this again in the future, I don't want to lose my children." Liang Jinghu said. Everyone will try their best to get closer to the one they love.The poor male teacher, put on the clothes of his dead wife, and let her come back to life in him, so that he can touch her again, hold her hand again and walk her the way they used to walk.Zhou Manqian wanted to sleepwalk for a while, but it was much more difficult than putting on her old lover's clothes. When I drove back home, it was already late at night. Zhou Manqian took off her coat, lay on the bed, and took out her passport and air ticket from the side drawer.Tomorrow, she is leaving for Los Angeles to attend a seminar.Just now when I had dinner with Fan Meiyin, she drank some wine and she fell asleep faintly. She felt very cold, and when she woke up, she found that she was not on the bed, but on the ground of the roof.She held the house keys in her hand, was wearing the clothes she wore when she went to bed last night, and her left eyelid was bruised and bleeding.Why is she here? She ran to the lobby to find the administrator. "Good morning, Miss Zhou." The administrator greeted the ground. "Did you see me last night?" "Yes! I saw you on the rooftop when I was on patrol at three o'clock in the middle of the night." "What am I doing on the rooftop?" The administrator scratched his head and said, "Yes, I'm also surprised, it's so cold, aren't you afraid of catching cold standing there? But last night the stars were beautiful, all over the sky. You leaned on the railing and looked at the sky, I I think you are going to the rooftop to watch the stars." "Are my eyes open or closed?" "Of course it's open." "Then thank you." "Miss Zhou, there is blood on your face." Zhou Manqian touched her almost frozen face and said with a smile, "It doesn't matter." Whatever the reason, she was sleepwalking.She got up vaguely in the middle of the night, took the key to open the door, and then walked up to the rooftop to look at the stars.When the cold north wind woke her up the next morning, she lay on the ground with no memory of what had happened.She sleepwalked with Jiang Yanzhong.Just like Jiang Yanzhong was six years old, she also went to the rooftop.If she could, she wanted to sleep again and sleepwalk again, then she could get closer to him. The next day, Zhou Manqian boarded the flight to Luo Province in a happy mood. The aftereffect of sleepwalking was that she caught a cold and suffered from a bad cold.But she is happy to have the disease.The cold on her body was a continuation of sleepwalking, allowing her to indulge in the only time of sleepwalking. A few days later, she came back from Los Angeles.When she went to claim her luggage, she saw a man standing by the luggage conveyor belt.That figure is very familiar, is it him?The man looked back, it was really Jiang Yanzhong.He saw her too, and nodded shyly at her. "Did you also come back from Vancouver?" Jiang Yanzhong asked. "No, I came back from Luo Province." Jiang Yanzhong saw that her nose was red and her voice was a little hoarse. "Do you have a cold?" "Yes, a bad cold. Much better now." "Did you go to the doctor?" "I've taken the medicine." Jiang Yanzhong didn't know what to say. "Which piece of luggage is yours?" he said at last. "It hasn't come out yet." After a moment of silence, she asked Jiang Yanzhong: "Are you still alone?" He smiled and nodded. She saw her suitcase come off the conveyor belt. "My luggage is out." "Which one is it?" Jiang Yanzhong asked. "The gray one with the doves on it." "I saw." Jiang Yanzhong took down the suitcase for her. "Thank you." "Shall I take it out for you?" "No need." She picked up the suitcase. "Goodbye." She turned her head and waved to him with a smile. It was getting dark, and Jiang Yanzhong had already drunk his eleventh glass of expresso, and he was a little drunk. "Do you want to hear a story about the back?" He asked Han Chunyi. "Is it the one that hasn't been cleared?" "No. It's another figure from the back." "Yes." Han Chunyi nodded. "A man has been with a woman for seven years. He loves her very much, and his life is very sweet. One day, he found that he had been evading and accommodating. He didn't like this kind of life at all. It's not that he didn't love her, but He found that he was losing himself little by little. One night, he finally told her that he wanted to live alone. The next day, the woman left with a suitcase. He sat in front of the desk and watched her back. The suitcase might have been heavier, and her shoulders were slightly tilted to one side. She turned to him and said, "Call me." He promised, but failed to keep his promise. Many years later, he met her again This day, she was also carrying the suitcase. This time, the suitcase was too heavy, and her shoulders leaned heavily to one side. Over the years, he always thought it was right for him to leave her. Since he doesn't enjoy that Life, he didn't want to lie to her. Break up early, she can fall in love with another person. However, on this day of reunion, when he saw her back leaving with her suitcase again, he felt guilty. How much he used to be Bad, for the sake of freedom, let down a woman who loves him." "Has that man found himself now, rebuilding his life?" "Found it. But of course it will be a little lonely." "Maybe, she has found someone who loves her." Han Chunyi said. "Yes. Her smile was as sweet as ever that day." This evening, Zhou Manqian and Fan Meiyin had dinner at an Italian restaurant, and she ordered a glass of expresso. "I was at Starbucks with Fang Zhian that day, and I saw a man who looked like Jiang Yanzhong. When I looked back, he was gone." Su Meiyin said. "Really?" Zhou Manqian said leisurely. "Are you still waiting for him?" Fan Meiyin asked. "No more." "When did you start not waiting? Don't you miss him anymore?" "Missing will also expire." "Oh, yes." "What about you? Do you still call Shao Chongxia to wake up every morning?" "there is none left." "why?" Fan Meiyin smiled: "Attachment will also expire." "What about Fang Zhian?" "He's long overdue." "Is there anything that never expires?" "Yes. Antique." Fan Meiyin said. "Have you ever heard a story about a butterfly..." Zhou Manfeng said. "what story?" "An eminent monk, in his later years, was on a majestic mountain gate, and saw a frail butterfly flying past. At that moment, he suddenly realized the lightness and heaviness of life. We thought that we loved so much that we couldn't give up. ; but, at one tiny joint, you suddenly wake up." "Unfortunately, I don't know how long I'll have to wait for that joint eye!" Fan Meiyin said, "I'm afraid I won't be able to wait until that day expires." At midnight, Channel A hosted by Xia Xinju was playing on the radio.A twenty-four-year-old girl is in love with a married man.She said that she would spend her whole life waiting for him. "You just think that he will choose you in the end, right? If you don't have the hope of getting married, how can you spend your whole life waiting for you?" "Waiting is a dedication to love, and there is no need for results." The girl said softly but firmly. Zhou Manqian sat on the rocking chair next to the radio, under the dim light, she put her cold feet into two woolen socks.Now, she feels much warmer.She had thought about the reunion scene thousands of times in her dreams.All these years, she has been waiting for this man, hoping that he will return to her one day.When we meet again, she will tell Jiang Yanzhong: "My phone number is still the same as before." She will wait for him forever.However, when she bumped into him at the airport, she was at peace. Perhaps, because she had sleepwalked, her waiting was done. The moment of reunion, the feeling of intimacy is not as good as when she walked into Jiang Yanzhong's sleepwalking world and experienced the same experience with him, as if they lived on the same street when they were young.Before falling in love, we have met thousands of times.It is also time for her to set herself free, the butterfly has already flown over the mountain gate. (full text)