Chapter 10 Chapter nine

The flight from Hong Kong to Vancouver has taken off.Du Canglin and Wang Limei sat on the window seat.From the window down, the night is bright.Many years ago, he also went to Vancouver alone to attend university.This time, he was here on business. After one night, the plane landed at Vancouver Airport. Since leaving, Du Canglin has never set foot on this land again.There are usually two reasons why a person does not want to revisit the old place: the old memory is too good, and he does not want to destroy it.Or maybe the previous memory was too painful and he didn't want to touch it again.

In any case, he always came back. Autumn in Vancouver is a bit chilly.The work was going better than he had imagined.After the day's meeting ended, he took a taxi to a hospital in the city, where a woman in a white robe was standing in the corridor waiting for him.She is Jiang Anyu, his college classmate and a chemist in this hospital. Jiang Anyu came up to hug him and said: "I was really shocked when I got your call yesterday. Are you married?" "Done." "And you? Are you married?" "I don't even have a boyfriend yet!" "How is Yan Yingru?" Du Canglin asked.

Jiang Anyu shook his head with a smile: "I knew you weren't here for me." Du Canglin was a little embarrassed: "I haven't heard from her for a long time." "We don't see each other often. She rarely attends the gatherings of old classmates." "Is she married?" "It seems not yet." "Do you have a boyfriend?" "I don't know that. All I know is that she teaches biology in high school. I'll write down the school's address and phone number. Will you go to her?" "If you were her, would you want to see me?"

"That depends on whether I am happy now. If I am happy, I don't mind meeting my old lover." When Du Canglin came to the school, several students were playing on the grass.He asked a red-haired boy, and the red-haired boy told him that Yan Yingru was in the laboratory. He came to a laboratory next to the grass. In the corridor, there was a slight fishy smell in the air.The door of the laboratory was not closed, he stood outside the door and saw Yan Yingru. Yan Yingru was wearing a powder blue wool skirt and a pair of crimson gloves, and was picking up the fresh fish that the students had dissected.No wonder there is a fishy smell in the air.

Yan Yingru raised her head and saw him.Her gloves were stained with fish blood and stayed in mid-air.She was so shocked. Du Canglin took two steps forward and said: "It was Jiang Anyu who gave me the address of the school." "When did you come?" "The day before yesterday." "Oh--" "How are you?" he asked shyly. "Very good." She smiled. Yan Yingru took off the gloves and threw them into the trash can. "What are you doing in Vancouver this time?" Yan Yingru asked while tidying up the books on the table. "I'm here on business."

"Then when are you leaving?" "tomorrow." "Oh." "I just saw a Starbucks nearby. Are you free? Let's go get a cup of coffee." "Alright, you can blow on the fishy smell on your body. You wait for me outside, and I'll get my purse." Yan Yingru returned to the teacher's room, put down the book in her hand, and sat in her seat blankly. Didn't Du Canglin leave without a word?Why did he come to interfere with her peaceful life when he left her so cruelly? Her heart is a little messed up.She tidied her hair, put on her coat and went out.

She came down from the second floor and saw Du Canglin at the bottom of the stairs, with his hands in his trouser pockets, leaning against the pillar.There were countless days when he waited for her to finish class like this. "Let's go." There have also been countless days when they walked together like this in the fall of Vancouver. They walked in silence, how many past events rushed through the faults of time. That year, she went to Vancouver to attend university with her boyfriend Shao Chongxia.She and Shao Chongxia went to different universities. She read biology, he read mathematics.Shao Chongxia is a very good boyfriend, he treats her too well.He cared for her, accommodated her, and pampered her.

In college, she met Du Canglin who also came from Hong Kong.Jiang Anyu, Du Canglin's old classmate, is in the same class as her. Du Canglin studied chemistry, and they hit it off very well.When she was reluctant to mention her boyfriend in front of him and let Shao Chongxia get to know him, she had a premonition that something would happen one day. She and Shao Chongxia have been together for five years.There is no substitute for those five years.However, a smooth life often makes people forgetful.She forgot those good days.She is still young, and she doesn't want to hide her love for another man for the sake of so-called morality and responsibility.

Besides, that love can no longer be hidden. On Halloween that year, Shao Chongxia dressed himself up as a Japanese superman, and she dressed up as a dinosaur monster.They went to knock on the door with other friends to get candy. After a night of trouble, Shao Chongxia walked home with her holding a Superman mask and a bag full of candy. "Shall we break up?" she said. "Why?" Shao Chongxia was stunned. "You—must you know why?" Shao Chongxia looked at her in pain.If she doesn't say it, he won't give up. "Maybe, I've fallen in love with someone else."

"What 'maybe'?" "Because I don't know if he loves me or not." "Who is he?" "I can't tell." "You left me for someone who didn't know if he would love you?" Shao Chongxia shed tears. She avoided Shao Chongxia's gaze, and continued walking forward holding the monster's head.Yes, she felt stupid too. She and Du Canglin are just very good friends, although there is a little ambiguity, after all, it hasn't started yet.Why did she suddenly want to break up with Shao Chongxia? When we went to get candy together today, she wanted to tell Shao Chongxia that she didn't love him anymore.She didn't know if it was a sudden feeling or it happened after Du Canglin appeared.But what difference does that make?The road she walked with him was over.

Originally, she didn't have to break up with Shao Chongxia now.She should have started with Du Canglin first, making sure that the relationship was safe and that Du Canglin also loved her, and then she broke up with Shao Chongxia.For her, it was wiser, but what was so rare about this kind of love? She wants to use her free body to love another man.Whether gained or lost, this kind of love is noble. Shao Chongxia cried so much that she stood beside him numbly.Superman has always defeated dinosaur monsters.However, this time, Superman was defeated. She was still wearing the monster costume and rushed to Du Canglin's house.When Du Canglin came to open the door, he was dressed as a big yellow butterfly. He was holding a masquerade party at home with his friends. "I broke up with my boyfriend!" Yan Yingru said while shivering in the cold wind. "Why?" he asked. She smiled and said nothing.This smile is a confession.If Du Canglin doesn't understand, he doesn't deserve to love her. After that day, she did not leave his house again. However, this relationship is not as noble as she thought.Du Canglin and Shao Chongxia are fundamentally two different people.Shao Chongxia dotes on her and accommodates her in everything. Du Canglin has his own principles, and if he doesn't like it, he just doesn't like it.Shao Chongxia always puts her first, but Du Canglin will leave her on weekends and go out with friends. She has been with Shao Chongxia for so many years, and with Du Canglin, she clearly knows that two people should not be compared, but she always compares them. That night they quarreled over a trivial matter that she had forgotten. She had never tried to be so angry before, she blurted out to Du Canglin: "If it was him, he wouldn't treat me like you!" Du Canglin's face was extremely ugly. In the middle of the night, she crawled on top of him and wept. "I'm sorry," she cried. "It's okay." Du Canglin hugged her. She kissed his earballs and wiped his neck with her face.She atones with intimate sex.If possible, she would take back that statement. However, a sentence that has been spoken to the other party's bones cannot be taken back. The next day, Yan Ying returned home after class, but Du Canglin was nowhere to be seen.His papers and clothes were also missing. She betrayed her first boyfriend for him, and his reward for her was to leave without saying goodbye.Perhaps, this is her retribution. Later, she learned that he had gone to San Francisco.She didn't intend to go to him, she hated him too much. Shao Chongxia also dropped out of school and went back to Hong Kong, and now she is the only one left in Vancouver.She was originally loved by two men, but now she has become the most failed one.That's ridiculous. She and Du Canglin came to Starbucks.She ordered a cappuccino. "How is life at school?" Du Canglin asked. She looked at Du Canglin, how many years had passed in a flash.After he left, she had been in love several times, without any good results.She deliberately doesn't associate with her former classmates, she doesn't want to remember those past events. Du Canglin looked at her, thinking, is she happy now?He dared not ask. At that time, he used to suffer from loving her.She already has such a good boyfriend, he can't get her, and he shouldn't ruin her happiness.On Halloween night, when she told him that she had broken up with her boyfriend, he also told himself to treat her well. He tried his best to love her, but she kept comparing him to her previous men. He can stand unrequited love, but can't stand comparison. — One night, when they were arguing, Yan Yingru yelled at him: "If it was him, he wouldn't treat me like you!" He knew that if he didn't leave again, he would hate her.In order not to let himself hate, he quietly left alone.He went to another university in the US and lived a different life.Later, he met Wang Limei.He doesn't love her very much.In a lonely foreign land, it is the feeling of being dependent on each other. Over the years, every time he thinks of Yan Yingru, he always blames himself.He should be able to do better.Yan Yingru turned his back on another man for him, and also gave up the original happiness, how could he just abandon her and go away like this? After Mo Junyi left him, he missed her heartbreakingly, not knowing where she had gone.When a person is in pain, he will remember that he has been in pain before. "I'm sorry." He said to Yan Yingru. "You came to me just to say this to me?" Yan Yingru said in a trembling voice. Yes.This sentence has been hidden in his heart for a long time. "Why are you saying sorry to me?" "I shouldn't have left without a word." Yan Yingru smiled: "Do you remember that I also said 'I'm sorry' to you?" Du Canglin was at a loss and had no impression at all. "I know you don't remember." Yan Yingru stood up and said, "I'm going back to class. Goodbye." She trembled in the wind.Yes, he doesn't remember. She hated him not because he left without saying goodbye. She hates him?It was because he left without saying goodbye and made love to her the night before. She climbed on top of him and said she was sorry.She teases him and atones with intimate sex.He hugged her impulsively, deep into her body.After a violent brawl, they devour each other feverishly.At that moment, she thought he had accepted her "I'm sorry". Who knew that he would leave without saying goodbye the next day. There is no greater humiliation than this one. Since he forgot, why did he come back?He is still so selfish and just wants to make his conscience feel better in the future. The flight from Vancouver to Hong Kong took off.Du Canglin went back full of doubts and disappointment. In the cabin, a baby was crying violently. The woman holding the baby suddenly stood up and walked towards him. It was Mo Junyi.Why is she here, holding a child? Mo Junyi put the child in his arms and said: "He is your child, you come and hug him!" He held the child, and the child stopped crying. Then, Wang Limei started to cry. Mo Junyi supported the chair with her hands, staring at him weakly and bitterly. At night, Yan Yingru took out the costume she wore as a dinosaur monster on Halloween that year and put it on.For years, whenever she was unhappy, she would wear this monster costume.The dress brought back many fond memories for her.That night, she also ran to find Du Canglin wearing this outfit.Du Canglin was wearing the clothes of Big Butterfly.When he left, he left behind the butterfly costume.She kept putting it together with her own monster clothes. She should have forgotten him a long time ago, this fake butterfly has expired.The real one flew away many years ago.