Chapter 4 third chapter

At half past twelve in the morning, Lin Kangyue drove her little convertible home.After the car was parked, she didn't turn off the radio immediately, she still wanted to listen to it.Xia Xinju asked a question in the program: "If you could go back to a certain stage in your life, which stage would you go back to?" Which stage is she going to go back to? She wants this happy life now. She stepped out of the elevator, took out the key from her purse and opened the door while humming.The door opened and she turned on the light in the living room.Weng Chaoshan sat upright on the sofa, his eyes were cold, which made her jump.

"Aren't you asleep yet:" "Why did you come back so late?" He asked quietly. "Didn't I tell you that I had dinner with my old classmates tonight?" "Have you had fun?" Weng Chaoshan asked with a smile. "Hmm! We haven't seen each other for a long time." "You are very well dressed today," he said. "Really?" She is wearing a black tight dress today, which she bought last year and has been kept in the closet, and she hasn't worn it much. She took off her shoes, sat down beside Weng Chaoshan, cuddled up to him and said, "Li Siluo is married, and Luo Manli is very unhappy with her boyfriend."

"Do you have to dress so beautifully when you meet your old classmates?" Weng Chaoshan's eyes were full of suspicion. "You're here again!" She looked at him, wanting to speak, but finally swallowed her words. "I'm going to take a shower." She stood up and walked into the room. Weng Chaoshan stared at her dejected back, he hated himself a little. While Lin Kangyue was taking a shower, Weng Chaoshan also took off his clothes and walked in. "I'm sorry." He hugged her from behind, resting his head on her shoulder. "Why do you always doubt me?" Lin Kangyue said angrily.

"I don't doubt you. It's so late and I haven't seen you back yet. I'm worried about you." Lin Kangyue turned around, looked at Weng Chaoshan sadly, and said, "You don't trust me anymore." "There is no such thing." Weng Chaoshan took a bar of soap, rubbed the foam into his hands, and applied it on her body. "Did you know that every girl will deliberately dress up when she attends the reunion of old classmates? Because everyone doesn't want to lose to each other in appearance." Lin Kangyue felt that she was wronged because of that black dress, and couldn't don't say it.

"I don't know, I just know that if you don't come back, I won't be able to sleep." Weng Chaoshan said. "You'll never love me as much as you once did, will you?" she asked sadly. Weng Chaoshan held her wet face and said: "I love you as much as ever." He picked up the shower head and washed the soap off her body and the tears off her face. Lin Kangyue squatted down and buried her face in her hands.Should she trust him?Or, every word he said was just a lie of love? Weng Chaoshan also squatted down, gently pulled Lin Kangyue's hands away from his face, and said, "Put on your clothes quickly, or you will catch a cold."

Lin Kangyue shook her head, took the shower head from Weng Chaoshan's hand, put it on his shoulder, and let the hot water flow slowly through the bodies of the two of them.She sat down and hugged Weng Chaoshan tightly, wrapping her feet around his body.Water vapor filled the surroundings. At this moment, except for the sound of water and breathing, she could not hear anything, and could not see Weng Chaoshan's eyelids. A kind of gentle happiness descended on her, recalling the better years. At that time, she was in love with Weng Chaoshan.One night, she and Luo Manli had dinner in Tsim Sha Tsui.After dinner, they took a walk on Nathan Road.There were many itinerant stalls in that area, and she saw a brooch with the word "Love" on one of the stalls selling brooches.That "Love" is embedded with many fake gems.

"I'm going to buy this!" She picked up the brooch. "Isn't it?" Luo Manli asked her, shaking her head. "why not?" "Don't you think it's gross?" But she still refused to let go of the brooch. "Who would buy a brooch with this word?" Luo Manli said. "You don't need 'Love'?" "However, no one will hang needs on their chests!" Lin Kangyue ignored Luo Manli's advice and insisted on buying the brooch. "If you hang this brooch on your body, I won't go out with you." Luo Manli warned her with a smile.

She had no intention of wearing that brooch at all.It's tasteless and rough.However, at that moment, she didn't listen to Luo Manli and insisted on buying this brooch, maybe it was because she was in love? There is love in the heart, being loved by others, and loving others. The whole world is full of love. When you see the word "Love", your eyes will light up.Knowing that she would not hang this brooch, she still bought it, because she is enjoying love and feeling love.At that time, she suddenly understood that bad taste may have a reason for happiness. She told Weng Chaoshan: "Luo Manli said that if I wear this brooch, she refuses to go out with me."

After hearing this, Weng Chaoshan just smiled and said nothing.His smile is full of happiness.She had never seen such a happy look on a man's face.It has always been men who promise happiness to women; however, at that moment, she really wanted to give him a car blessing.However, this promise of happiness was not fulfilled.She used to think Weng Chaoshan was her last man.Later, she fell in love with another person. Shao Chongxia is her boss.When we met, he knew she had a boyfriend. One day, she found that a photo she put in her purse disappeared at some point.It was taken when she was four years old under the Christmas tree at home, and the negatives are gone.

When was it lost?She couldn't find it anywhere at home.That evening, she was alone in the office, rummaging through boxes and suitcases. "What are you looking for?" Shao Chongxia asked. "I'm looking for a photo. I don't know where I lost it. It's a photo I like very much." "Is this one?" Shao Chongxia took out the lost photo from her purse. "This is the one!" Lin Kang said joyfully.She thought that she would lose this photo forever. "Where did you find it?" she asked. "Next to the coffee machine." "I must have dropped it when I bought the coffee. Did you pick it up today?"

"It was four months ago." When Shao Chongxia said this, his ears suddenly turned red. She suddenly understood. The man had been secretly hiding pictures of her. She looked at Shao Chongxia, his face was flushed.Who can resist such affection?At that moment, she fell in love with him.Why did you fall in love with him then?Doesn't she already have someone else in her heart?That was the happiness she once believed in.Maybe, she is too young.When people are younger, they are always in desperate need of love. Lin Kangyue secretly met Shao Chongxia without telling Weng Chaoshan.She used many excuses: meetings, overtime, reunions with old classmates, dinner with Luo Manli... For another relationship, she told a lot of lies.In fact, she has never been a person who is not good at lying. One night, when she came out of Shao Chongxia's house, she saw Weng Chaoshan standing quietly outside the convenience store across the street, waiting for her.It turned out that Weng Chaoshan followed her here from home.The moment she saw him, she was so shocked that she wanted to run away immediately.But where can she escape?In front of him, she was too ashamed to raise her head.It was Weng Chaoshan who first asked her: "Are you going back with me?" She looked at Weng Chaoshan, she had never seen such a painful expression on his face.What a bad person she is?She saw a cruel self in his eyes.When did she forget the happiness of buying a "Love" brooch at the mobile stall on Nathan Road?When did she begin to betray a true love without hesitation: at this moment, there was not even a trace of resentment on this man's face.He came here as if to bring this lost little girl home. The affection she gave back to him was betrayal.How much did she hate herself? When the two of them were sitting in the convertible car, she covered her eyes and wept uncontrollably, but Weng Chaoshan didn't say a word.The radio was turned on, and Xia Xinju asked in the program: "Where is the end of infinity?" This question comes from a small book by Michel Lemiu, the title of which is "The Night Where the Stars Didn't Come Out". A little girl on a stormy night raises many questions about infinity, life, death, self, love, and loneliness. Where is the end of infinity? Her cries echoed in the silent night, but Weng Chaoshan kept silent in pain. Why wasn't it the one who was being betrayed who was crying?The end of infinity is love.With infinite mercy he forgives an unfaithful lover. He loved her so much that he had come to bring her home.The cold wind blew into the car from the outside, Weng Chaoshan reached out to the back seat and picked up his coat and spread it on her.Lin Kangyue cried even harder.She wanted to say sorry to him very much, but at this moment, the three words "sorry" were too painful for him, and Weng Chaoshan might prefer her to remain silent.Who can endure her love being betrayed and abandoned; at that moment, she knew deeply that she loved Weng Chaoshan.She couldn't imagine him disappearing from her life.How sad would those days be without him? Lin Kangyue left that company and Shao Chongxia.Love always has lightness and heaviness.Some loves are light and some loves are heavier.Years will determine its weight.She can only live up to the late one.Shao Chongxia was far lighter than another man in her life.His value may be to let her know that she loves Weng Chaoshan more.If she has never loved another person, how does she know that the last thing she can lose is Weng Chaoshan's love?She returned to him and used the days to come to repay what she owed him. However, the happy smile she had seen on Weng Chaoshan's face seemed to have never appeared since she came back.At times, he becomes suspicious and melancholic. One night, she found Weng Chaoshan looking through her things in the study. "What are you looking for?" she asked. "I'm looking for my phone book." Weng Chaoshan said. She knew Weng Chaoshan was peeking at her diary. Ever since she came back, Weng Chaoshan was always afraid that she would leave again.Because of guilt, she made him doubt again and again.Who told her to let him down?Maybe, he still needs a little more time before he can trust her as much as before.she will wait. This evening, when she met some old classmates, Weng Chaoshan suspected her again.He said he was worried, but she knew it was suspicion.He will never forget the past, right? Weng Chaoshan turned off the faucet, wrapped her tightly in a big towel, and said softly: "Go to bed now." Lin Kangyue suddenly felt that she was a little bird in his palm.She once flew away from him, she betrayed him, and she was willing to spend the rest of her life repairing that rift. Later, one night, she stayed with her at Luo Manli's house.Luo Manli had a fight with her boyfriend.She has been with that man for a year and three months, but that man still misses his old lover seven years ago.He doesn't love her at all. "I want to find that woman." Luo Manli said. "The female writer?" "Ok." "What are you looking for her for?" "Just go and see." "Do you know where she lives?" "I don't know, but I can go to the publishing house to try my luck." "What do you want to see?" "She is immortal in the heart of the man I love. I am both envious and jealous. I want to look up." "Don't be crazy!" "It's good not to look up, but to feel sorry for yourself. Do you think Shao Chongxia will secretly visit you or Weng Chaoshan?" "I have no idea." "In this world, how many people will peek at the old lover and the lover of the old lover every day?" Lin Kangyue smiled: "Who knows? People who are peeked at may be happier." "Do you love Weng Chaoshan or Shao Chongxia?" "Weng Chaoshan." Lin Kangyue said sweetly, "He is also immortal in my heart." A storm blew up tonight, and Lin Kangyue's convertible was speeding on the road.She wanted to go back quickly, Weng Chaoshan would worry about her. She turned on the radio in the car, and Xia Xinju's program played the last song, which was Dan Fogeberg's "Longer".However, this section of the road seems to never end, and she wants to go back quickly.Weng Chaoshan must have not slept yet.He said that if she didn't go back, he wouldn't be able to sleep. When she opened the door, what greeted her was not a gentle wait, but an angry face. "Manli's mood is terrible, so I..." She quickly explained. "Are you really with her?" Weng Chaoshan asked. "Yes." She murmured, she had never seen him so fierce. "What is this?" Weng Chaoshan handed an envelope to her. She took the envelope, which contained a ticket for violating traffic regulations. She didn't understand why he was so angry. "I forgot to pay the fine!" she said. "This ticket was issued two months ago. The location is Happy Valley. Doesn't the man surnamed Shao live there?" "Do you think I went to find him?" She felt greatly wronged. "That night, I just went to have dinner with my old classmates. After the meal, I sent Li Siluo home. She just moved there. have no idea." "You are such a master liar, I am no match for you!" Weng Chaoshan said coldly. "I'm not lying at all!" "You've told too many lies! Tonight, are you meeting Shao again?" "You're too much!" she snarled at him, "If you don't believe me, why are you with me! You never forgive me, so why pretend to be generous!" "Yes, it's my fault!" Weng Chaoshan said painfully. "That was not what I meant--" She looked at Weng Chaoshan, tears rolling down his eyelids.She had never seen him cry.She knew it all too well, and he couldn't forget her betrayal.When he doubted her, it was more painful than her.She used to be very willing to spend the rest of her life repairing the rift in this relationship, but now she understands that no matter how hard she tries all her life, she can't repair it.They met each other with tears, she loved him more than before, why didn't he?However, it is also time to end. The next day, Lin Kangyue moved out alone.The convertible is still parked in the building, it was a gift from Weng Chaoshan to her in the past.At night, he was alone, and he didn't have to wait for the door any more. How much does Weng Chaoshan hate himself?Once, one day, he secretly looked through her diary.Time and time again, whenever she wasn't around, he would think she was with another man. For the rest of his life, he couldn't forget what happened that night.He followed her out from the house.The taxi she was in was parked outside an apartment building on King Kwong Street in Happy Valley. A man surnamed Shao picked her up there, and they walked up together. He knew that she was secretly in contact with others.He stood outside the convenience store across the street and waited for her.He was angry and scared, he was afraid of losing her.At that moment, he knew that he loved her more than he thought. Every minute and every second of waiting is a heart-pounding torture.When Lin Kangyue came out of the building, she had a smile on her face. Was she hugged by others?What man can bear this pain?He went up and took her home.He really wanted to forget about her infidelity, but the cracks that once existed could never be repaired.He hated himself for being like this, he didn't want to doubt her anymore, it would weaken his love for her.Perhaps, only after separation, the two live their own lives, can he miss her forever. Where is the end of infinity? Lin Kangyue walked out alone, she didn't hate Weng Chaoshan, she knew how uncomfortable he was.Farewell, just do not want to hurt each other.In her wallet, there is a photo of Weng Chaoshan, which was taken when he was nine years old. Holding a piece of orange chocolate in his hand, he smiled innocently and happily.She had seen such a happy smile in their days together. If she could choose to go back to a certain moment in her life, she would go back to the time when there was no crack.She thought that the rift could be repaired with love, but she was wrong. The end of infinity is not love, love is limited and ends in betrayal and infidelity.This time, she knew that Weng Chaoshan would not come to pick her up again.