In 1986, the eight-member volleyball team of our Baozhong Girls Middle School, led by coach Lao Wenkang, went to Thailand for training.It was the first time I saw a bread tree in Pattaya. The tree is more than 30 meters high and has male and female flowers.The female flower is shaped like a round button, and it grows gradually until it is the size of a human head, rough on the outside and stuffed with flesh like raw bread.The fruit is eaten roasted and tastes very similar to toast.At that time, I never thought that I was a woman who wanted both bread and love. In 1986, I was in Form 7.Zhu Dizhi, Shen Guanghui and I joined the volleyball team in the second year of middle school. We were fascinated by the team's uniform with red and white stripes!Moreover, the fifty-year-old old Wenkang coach is very powerful in the school. He likes to choose beautiful girls to join the volleyball team.It was an honor to be a member of the volleyball team.

Joining the team at the same time as us are Wei Lili, Le Ji, Song Xiaomian, Ye Qinghe and Liu Xinping.Wei Lili is an exception - she is not beautiful, strong and dark, with dry, thick and curly hair, just like a piece of tea cake.In the second year of middle school, she was already five feet seven inches tall, and later increased to five feet eleven inches. Her two legs were as thick as two elephants.She is a natural player, and Lao Wenkang can't find a reason to reject her. Legie is the school belle.She is indeed dazzlingly beautiful, especially when she wears volleyball pants, those two beautiful legs carved in jade are really enviable!Perhaps because of this, she is very indifferent to people.

My name is Cheng Yun. In the seven years in Baozhong, we haven't seen any good men.Even the coach of the volleyball team who needs the most physical strength is already fifty years old, and the other male teachers are even more unsightly. Judy matured much earlier than I did.She likes Deng Chufa, the new lifeguard at the school swimming pool. He has eight-pack abs and bronze skin. He is twenty years old and he is said to have come from Lamma Island. In order to get close to him, Di Zhi took me to go swimming with her every day after school. In order to attract Deng Chufa's attention, Di Zhi bought a very revealing swimsuit.Wearing that bathing suit will show cleavage - if the owner has big breasts.It's a pity that Dizhi, who is in the second year of secondary school, is only fourteen years old and has not yet developed. After putting on that swimsuit, I only saw a row of ribs on her chest.At that time, all of our girls were flat-chested, except Wei Lili.She developed early, is five feet seven inches tall, and has a more prominent curve. She doesn't wear a bra, and when she plays, her breasts shake violently.I guess she doesn't like her breasts very much, so she often hunches.I had a private discussion with Dizhi, Guanghui, Xiaomian, Qinghe, and Xinping. We don't want our breasts to be too big, which will hinder our playing.

In winter, the school swimming pool is temporarily closed, and Deng Chu gives out winter vacation.I no longer have to accompany Di Zhi to swim at the end of October when it is warm and cold, secretly applauding.Although Dizhi was a little lost, he quickly recovered.Girls' secret love can be very long. That winter vacation, something big happened.When Song Xiaomian was in English class, she had her first period.She turned her light blue school uniform blood red and burst into tears in embarrassment.They said that it was not normal for her to come so much for the first time.The first time is usually only a small amount.This incident spread quickly, and Xiao Mian was so embarrassed that she didn't go to class for two days.

"I wish my periods weren't so fast. Having a piece between my legs a few days a month is a hassle!" I said. "I heard that when menstruation comes, it will start to develop." Dizhi is looking forward to this day. Once she develops, she will fall in love with her name. finally come! When Dizhi was in history class, he found out that his first menstruation was coming, and he told me about it with surprise and joy.It was Wednesday that day, and he was going to the volleyball team to practice after school. Di Zhi went to the General Affairs Office to borrow sanitary napkins. They were big and thick, and he was very uncomfortable.I'm secretly glad my troubles haven't arrived yet.How did I know that my first menstruation also came while I was taking a shower in the locker room.

"Cheng Yun is on her period!" Di Zhi shouted in the locker room.I am so embarrassed!Di Zhi often said that we became women on the same day.Perhaps because of this reason, we misunderstood each other later, and we were able to reconcile as before. Dizhi and I lived on the same street, and our parents ignored us.On the night of the first menstruation, we went to buy the first pack of sanitary napkins together.It was 1981 at that time, supermarkets were not as common as they are now, and you had to go to a pharmacy to buy sanitary napkins.The pharmacy is full of men, and some women call out the brand of sanitary napkins generously, but I can't muster up the courage to ask a man for sanitary napkins, and neither can Di Zhi.That night, we wandered around the pharmacy for more than two hours. The pharmacy was about to close, so we went in to buy sanitary napkins.Since the TV ads for "Piaoran" sanitary napkins sold the most, we chose "Piaoran".Later, it was Shen Guanghui's turn.Before the summer vacation, Qing He, Xin Ping, and Le Ji all had menstruation.At this time, Wei Lili told us:

"My sixth grade is here!" We were dumbfounded, came in sixth grade?It's unimaginable! I heard that it is not uncommon for girls to have menstruation in the sixth grade.Some girls are already having sex at twelve.We, the fourteen-year-old generation, may be more conservative than they are, still obsessed with sex alongside love. Later, Di Zhi and I had the courage to buy sanitary napkins by ourselves.Many, many years later, Dizhi can still ask her boyfriend to buy sanitary napkins for her. But, I won't.I look down on a man who buys me sanitary napkins. Zhu Dizhi is right, when a girl's first menstruation comes, her body begins to develop.After each practice, we hid in the gym locker room and discussed how everyone was developing.

"I will definitely have a flat chest in the future, and my mother will also have a flat chest." Xiao Mian felt a little helpless. "I like flat chests! Flat chests have personality and look good in clothes." Qing He said. Qing He is a rich girl who lives in Happy Valley and her father is a builder.Her home is two stories high, and the deck alone is bigger than our gymnasium.She is the youngest daughter in the family, her two older sisters are studying in the United States, and her parents love her the most.We've visited her closet, and it's full of clothes, all from Lane Crawford (it was Lane Crawford in 1981!).If I have the clothes in these wardrobes, I am willing to have a flat chest.

"What's so good about having a flat chest?" Shen Guanghui teased her. Guanghui has always been a little jealous of Qinghe.Every day at noon, the maid in Qinghe's family brings lunch to her in a wine-red Mercedes-Benz. Dizhi and I often want to eat Qinghe's lunch, but Guanghui never eats it. Liu Xinping also has maids at home, but they are not as grand as Qing He.Xinping's mother, Yu Huizhu, is a Chinese teacher at the school, and her father is a doctor in a government hospital, who lives in Temple Road, Tin Hau. At that time, I didn't know that although we were good classmates, there was a big distance between us.Guanghui doesn't like Qinghe, maybe she is more sensitive to this distance than me.A few years ago, there was a man who chased her. He was nice, but she just didn't like it.I found out later that he lived in Tuen Mun.To her, marrying into Tuen Mun is too disgraceful, at the very least, she has to marry into Happy Valley!

Song Xiaomian is relatively thin and short-sighted, with more than 800 degrees of myopia. Except for being very brave when playing volleyball, the rest of the time is very gentle. Her parents run a wonton noodle shop in Xiyingpen. Xiao Mian's parents are very silent, especially her mother, who is a very clean woman.She is good at arranging life and friends for her children.I can see that she likes Xiaomian to hang out with Qinghe and Xinping the most, and she really wants to push her daughter to the upper class. Wei Lili lives in Causeway Bay, and I have visited her home many times.Once, her mother just came back, and I couldn't believe it was her mother.Wei Lili's mother is young and beautiful, with modern clothes. She has thick curly hair, and Lili's hair is also inherited from her, but Lili's is like a piece of tea cake, but she is like a Barbie doll.She has the same tall figure as Lili, with a bright and charming smile.

I never met Lili's father.how to say?Her home didn't even have any trace of a man at that time.There are no photos of parents, no family portraits, no men's slippers.In the bathroom, there is nothing belonging to a man. Summer is here, the swimming pool is open, and Deng Chufa is back.Zhu Dizhi put on that sexy swimsuit again, instead of showing a row of ribs, she showed her deep cleavage. I don't understand why Di Zhi fell in love with Deng Chufa. He is just a very good swimmer, and he is said to be a two-time cross-sea swimming champion. "His butterfly swim is very good," Di Zhi said. "Like a man just because he swims well in butterfly?" I marveled. "It's that simple, why does love need to be so complicated?" Di Zhi said. "I think love should be a very complicated thing." I said. "Cheng Yun, what man will you fall in love with in the future?" Di Zhi asked me. "I don't know, anyway, not a guy who just swims well in butterfly, or a dude who goes for a sea swim and swims with garbage and feces." "I know that Deng Chufa plans to participate in the cross-sea swimming next month." Di Zhi said, "I am going to participate with him. This is a good opportunity to get close to him." "You can't handle twenty-five meters, and you still talk about swimming across the sea?" "I've decided! Let's join together." "I don't want to! If I want to cross the sea, can't I take the ferry?" "Then I'll go by myself!" Sure enough, Zhu Dizhi persuaded Deng Chufa to take her to participate in the cross-sea swimming. The competition was held in Repulse Bay, and there were really many fools participating. Di Zhi followed Deng Chufa, waving to us from time to time, and holding Deng Chufa's hand for some reason. At the beginning of the competition, Deng Chufa led out first, and Dizhi moved forward hard, and we cheered for her loudly.Unexpectedly, Di Zhi would put his life and death at risk for a man.There were too many people in the sea, and everyone was wearing the same style of swimming caps, and Di Zhi disappeared soon.Suddenly someone called for help in the sea, and the lifeguards on the lifeboat immediately jumped into the water to rescue a woman, who seemed to be Di Zhi. The rescued woman is really Di Zhi, she didn't drown, she was blown up by a big jellyfish and injured her entire buttocks!When she was taken ashore by lifeguards, she lay on a stretcher, crying in pain. Deng Chufa was still in the sea, and Di Zhi was sent to the hospital. The doctor applied ointment on her and said she was fine.She was going to lie down on the hospital bed and talk to us. "You really sacrificed for love this time!" I said. "Deng Chufa may not like you too, I think you should stop wishful thinking." Guanghui persuaded her. "Will there be a scar on my butt?" she worried. "Deng Chufa won't mind?" I teased her. "Zhu Dizhi, are you okay!" Deng Chufa rushed into the ward holding the trophy, he seemed very anxious. "I'm seriously injured." Di Zhi put on a painful expression, but she didn't expect her to be superb in acting. "I'll carry you." Deng Chufa handed the trophy to Dizhi. "You won the championship?" Dizhi asked him. Deng Chufa nodded: "For you." Di Zhifu leaned on Deng Chufa's back and said softly, "Thank you!" Dizhi and Deng Chufa fell in love like this. The 21-year-old Deng Chufa turned out to be their first love too. Being in love is a taboo in Baozhong Girls' High School.The dean of instruction, Wang Yan, is a middle-aged woman with a long beard. She is thirty-six years old and still unmarried. She hates middle school students when they fall in love.Every day when school is over, she will stand at the school gate to monitor, and boys are not allowed to pick up girls from school. If she knew that Deng Chufa was in love with a girl from Baozhong, she would have dismissed him immediately without hesitation, and would have announced the matter to the whole school in the morning meeting. She was heartbroken and told us that love is a scourge.Taking her personally as an example, she has been giving up many opportunities for love to achieve what she is today.We've always wondered whether those opportunities ever materialized. This matter can not let the coach Lao Wenkang know that he has been carefully selecting the best girls in the school to join the volleyball team.They were pretty, with good grades, clean and pure. If one of the team members started dating at the age of fourteen, and fell in love with the young lifeguard in the school swimming pool, he would definitely be furious.Baozhong women's volleyball team belongs to him. I have always felt that Dizhi is not like a girl from Baozhong, she is not that kind of temperament person at all.Baozhong girls are loyal, hardworking, gregarious, obedient, and at their mercy. They are good followers, not leaders.Dizhi has his own ideas and is unwilling to be manipulated or followed.Of course, I'm not like Baozhong students, I don't fit in with others, and I don't want to be obedient. Old Wenkang once said: "Cheng Yun, I really don't know what job is suitable for you in the future!" Later, I realized that it was love. Deng Chufa took over Dizhi. In the past, Dizhi, Guanghui and I were the three of us, but now Guanghui and I are the only two left. A beach or a swimming pool has only one lifeguard. She alone is equal to a beach. It's not that I look down on Deng Chufa, but I often feel that if a man chooses to be a lifeguard, is he lazy? "He is just a lifeguard temporarily." Di Zhi said, "His greatest dream is to become a member of the Hong Kong Swimming Team and participate in the Olympics." "To participate in the Olympics? He is 21 years old, isn't he a little old?" I said. I didn't deliberately look down on Deng Chufa. At that time, I couldn't understand that a man would always find many excuses for his incompetence. I just felt that he took my Di Zhi, so I didn't like him. One day many months later, Di Zhi happily came to me and told me, "Deng Chufa is no longer a lifeguard!" Deng Chufa had a friend who ran a sporting goods company in Wan Chai, and asked him to help in the store. "Okay! I will buy sneakers at half price in the future." I said. After the summer vacation, Deng Chufa left Baozhong.We bought jerseys and sneakers, and sure enough, there were half-price discounts.There is no class on Sunday, and Dizhi will come to the store to help out, just like the proprietress. At that time, I thought she would always be with Deng Chufa, they seemed very happy.Later, I realized that Dizhi was not a woman who wanted to be stable, and that happiness was not her goal. Maybe she didn't even know it at the time. The group of players from Form Five and Preparatory School left one after another because of their studies. Old Wenkang decided to train us intensively.Of course, we also know that the so-called training of old Wenkang will not be very strict. He is fifty-three years old himself, so he doesn't have so much energy to train us.The meaning of intensive training is to select two captains and vice captains among us before the end of the semester. Being able to be the captain of Baozhong women's volleyball team will naturally become a man of the school. Among our group, Wei Lili has the best game skills, but Wei Lili will definitely not be selected as the captain because she is not beautiful. The only ones left are me, Di Zhi, Guanghui, Qing He, and Le Ji.Legie's skills have improved a lot in the past two years, and she is so beautiful, we are all worried that she will be elected.She is the kind of person who will rule out dissidents once she is made queen.The one who wants to be elected the most is Guanghui. She always hopes to prove herself with some things, especially to Ye Qinghe. That year, the Chinese women's volleyball team won the World Cup women's volleyball championship, and Hong Kong set off a wave of women's volleyball fever.We all have our idols, and Wei Lili's idol is Lang Ping.The idol of Dizhi, Guanghui and I is Zhou Xiaolan, she is the most beautiful one.At that time, I already understood that as a woman, you better be good, or beautiful. In the first volleyball team practice after the beginning of the fifth semester, Lao Wenkang announced to everyone that he had decided that Shen Guanghui and I would be the captains and vice captains.Di Zhi, Xiao Mian, Qing He, Xin Ping, and Li Li all applauded enthusiastically, and I noticed that Le Ji's eyes were full of jealousy.She's the kind of girl who thinks she's so beautiful that she shouldn't lose anything. I understand why old Wenkang chose Guanghui.Guanghui's skills are not the best, nor are they the worst.She is more organized and rational.But, I guess the most important thing is that old Wenkang likes girls like Guanghui.She is not very beautiful, but she is a demure Xiaojiabiyu, with a round face and a round waist, like an obedient daughter-in-law. Old Wenkang's youngest son is about the same age as us, and he often wants to find a young wife.We often make fun of Guanghui like this.Guanghui also likes old Wenkang, she admires him the most. As for me, I don't worship old Wenkang, nor do I obey.The old Wenkang chose me because of a certain degree of repair. After passing the exam, we can cope with it very easily, and we can go back to practice volleyball once a week. On the day when the rankings were released, the best result was Qing He. She got seven As, and I also got four As.Old Wenkang treated us to a meal of Chaozhou cuisine as a reward. At that time, I felt that he loved us very much.It wasn't until Form Seven that I realized that he was not what I imagined. One afternoon in the first semester of the second year of the preparatory school, I had made an appointment with Guanghui to go to Lao Wenkang to discuss the matter of ordering new jerseys.I knocked on the door for a long time but no one answered. I thought he wasn't there, so I turned around and walked for a while, only to see Guanghui coming out of his room.Guanghui and I saw each other in the corridor, she didn't speak to me, and left from the other side.I told Dizhi about it. "You mean to coach him—no way! He's fifty-five years old! Besides, he's so upright." Di Zhi said. "I think so too. Maybe Guanghui wants to confide in old Wenkang! She has always admired him." I said. I didn't take this matter to heart, and Guanghui played with us as if nothing had happened.One night a month later, we met for coffee at a bar in Wanchai, and Guanghui also came. "Old Wenkang likes me." Guanghui told us. "I know! He loves you very much." I said. "No! It's not like that. He...he likes me, and I like him too, but it's not so mundane as the relationship between a man and a woman. It's love, a kind of sublimated love. He loves me, and I love him too." Guanghui sweetly say. Di Zhi and I were petrified. "You have a teacher-student relationship with old Wenkang?" I couldn't believe it. "You can say that." Guanghui said. "But, old Wenkang is fifty-five years old, you...you are only nineteen years old, and thirty-six years older than you! He can be your grandfather!" Di Zhi said. "Age is not a problem." Guanghui said. "How do you know he loves you?" I said. Guanghui said: "You have to swear not to tell anyone that he kissed me. That day, in his office, he said that I would leave Baozhong soon, and he wanted to kiss me. I nodded, thinking he would kissed my forehead, but he kissed my lips, and then he kissed my breasts." "What? Are you doing this kind of thing with him?" Dizhi looked at Guanghui in surprise. "What kind of thing, we haven't done anything." Guanghui said. "You still say nothing? You kiss!" I said. "What are you going to do next?" Di Zhi asked her. "He took off my school uniform and hugged me for a long time." Guanghui said. I was really surprised. At that time, I naively thought that the relationship between men and women did not involve the flesh. "Di Zhi, I want to ask you, does a man only kiss a woman if he likes her?" Guang Hui asked Di Zhi. "It should be. But Guanghui, you and old Wenkang are not normal. I really can't believe that he would do this to you. You are his student! His youngest son is also older than you .” Guanghui said: "Dizhi, love is not like this. I don't care about his age and background. I feel that the relationship between me and him is like a father and a daughter. When he kisses me, he kisses me like a father kisses a daughter." "How could a father kiss his daughter's chest!" Di Zhi said. "So my love with him is like a father and daughter, and also like a man and a woman." "No wonder I saw you coming out of his room that day." I said. "You have to swear not to tell anyone." Guanghui said. At that time, I didn't know if it was love or not.Di Zhihui knows better than me that she and Deng Chufa have been together for five years, and Guanghui wanted to hear Di Zhi's opinion by telling the story. That night, we drank coffee until the wee hours of the morning. Guanghui was sweeter than honey, and she felt that she was starting an earth-shattering love affair. When the old Wenkang was in front of us again, he was just and stern, and he criticized today's students for not knowing how to respect their teachers. I agree with Dizhi, the relationship between Lao Wenkang and Guanghui is definitely not the love of father and daughter, the love of teachers and students, but the relationship between men and women. One day, Dizhi and I finished class together, and Dizhi said to me: "I asked Deng Chufa, and he said that a man kissing a girl's breast would never be without intention." "What? You told Deng Chufa? You promised Guanghui not to tell anyone." "What are you afraid of! Deng Chufa is not an outsider, and he won't tell anyone." "Then you should tell Guanghui not to continue with old Wenkang." "Cheng Yun, do you understand? If a woman decides to love a man, no one can stop her!" Di Zhi said. "Is this love?" I said. "Until now, I know love better than you do." Yes, at that time, why should I argue with Dizhi about love?She has five years of love experience, and I have nothing.For love, I only have fantasies, and because I read a lot of novels, I think love is pure and pure. "As for the matters between men and women, until now, I know better than you." Di Zhi continued.She had a proud look on her face to show that I didn't have to argue with her. But this made me suspicious: "What's the matter between a man and a woman? You and Deng Chufa..." Dizhi answered me in embarrassment: "It's nothing, don't guess!" I am ashamed, at that time, I thought that men and women would not go to bed when they were in love.I also told myself at the time that maybe Guanghui was right. The love between her and old Wenkang was detached, romantic and painful.It is a sad story that a man in his twilight years falls in love with a girl in full bloom.There is not only one kind of love in the world. Dizhi and Deng Chufa are an enviable young couple, while the secrets of Guanghui and Lao Wenkang are unknown, leaving me alone, I can deal with A-level wholeheartedly. After A-level is over, we may go our separate ways.Guanghui was most reluctant to part with old Wenkang, for this reason, she proposed to everyone to hold the last training camp. Qinghe, Lili, Xiaomian, and Xinping all agree, and even Le Ji, who has always been indifferent, agrees. The location was chosen in nearby Pattaya, Thailand, because the travel expenses are relatively cheap, and it is a tropical place, which has a taste of hard training.Of course, the training camp cannot lack Lao Wenkang.Except for Qing He and Xin Ping who had already been to Disneyland in the United States, the rest of us were going out for the first time, and our family members came to see us off at the airport, and I saw Lili's beautiful mother again.Guanghui's family didn't come, I think she told them not to come, she didn't want them to see old Wenkang. However, old Wenkang's wife came. Old Wenkang's wife wore a plain suit and light makeup, but standing among us, she looked too old. Even though she was younger than Old Wenkang, she was already fifty years old.At that time, I felt that being old was really a sin.Now, I think it's really a sin to think that being old is a sin. Old Wenkang's wife looks virtuous and virtuous, but I noticed that her eyes were flickering. She kept looking at our eight girls. She spent more time paying attention to Legie. She is the most beautiful.She didn't take Guanghui seriously.The wife is the most intelligent, she understands her husband, understands that an old man may not be able to withstand the temptation of a young girl.However, the wife is also the most ignorant, she misidentified the target. The plane arrived in Pattaya, we stayed in a hotel with a beach, and started a seven-day training camp.Dizhi and I share a room. On the second night of the training camp, Guanghui came to Dizhi and I's room with a bottle of white wine. "I want to go to old Wenkang's room to find him." "Do you have anything to say to him?" Dizhi asked her. "I'm about to leave him, and I want to give him my most precious thing." "You want to sleep with him?" Di Zhi was shocked. I was taken aback. "I won't regret it, this is love." Guanghui said with a smile. "So what if you slept with him? He is married, thirty-six years older than you, he won't marry you, don't be stupid." Di Zhi said. "I don't need a future." Guanghui picked up three wine glasses, poured out three glasses of wine, and asked us to toast her love, which is really absurd. "If it's a friend, let me do what I want!" "Okay! I'll toast to you!" Dizhi stood up. "Cheng Yun, you come too!" Di Zhi pulled me up from the bed. The three of us toasted, Guanghui drank the wine, and it was the first time I drank wine.Guanghui put down the wine glass, we didn't know what to say, she smiled and left the room. "I feel like we are sending Guanghui to die." I told Di Zhi. "We are adults, we can do whatever we like!" I thought it was ridiculous, I never thought I'd toast a virgin.When she came back, she had become a woman.My heart couldn't calm down, and Di Zhi drank the rest of the white wine, and fell into a drowsy dream. When I woke up again, I saw Guanghui sleeping between me and Di. "You and old Wenkang have—" I asked her. "We haven't done anything," Guanghui said. "Old Wenkang doesn't want to?" "I don't know, we were lying on the bed, we all took off our clothes, but we didn't do anything," Guanghui said. "Guanghui, he's too old." Di Zhi smiled bewitchingly. "I don't understand what you mean." Guanghui said. "You will understand in the future, my head hurts, let me sleep." Di Zhi closed his eyes. At that moment, I felt that old Wenkang was a good man. At the last moment, he couldn't bear to take away a young girl's virginity, and Guanghui thought so too. Later, when we all had experience, we realized that old Wenkang was powerless that night, not because he felt pity for her.He's a bad guy through and through.Guanghui refused to admit being cheated in the future because she couldn't accept that she was cheated by such a man.There is no such otherworldly love in the world as he once thought, because men can't do it. On our last day in Pattaya, we all had an al fresco dinner on the beach.I carefully re-study the old Wenkang.He is fifty-five years old, and his dyed hair has been bleached by the sea for the past few days, revealing its original gray color.His face has been sun-baked for a long time, full of wrinkles, two piles of excess fat hanging around his waist, his face is always serious, but I am no longer afraid of him, because I know about him and Guanghui.It's unimaginable for Guanghui to fall in love with such an old man.And the old man is very happy among us, he wants to grab a youthful body before falling into the black hole of aging. That night, we sang and danced together.Di Zhi brought Lin Zhengping's new song, "I Can't Forget You" was about a couple breaking up, and the one who was most moved was Guanghui. I raised my glass and said, "Friendship lasts forever." In the singing, I broke up with seven years of middle school life. Not long after I returned to Hong Kong, the A-level results were released. I got an A in Chinese and History, and I enrolled in the Chinese Department of the University of Hong Kong.Guanghui's grades were not satisfactory, so she could only apply for science and engineering, all because of the exhaustion of old Wenkang.However, Dizhi's grades surprised me, she failed all the grades. "Let's take the test again!" I said. "No! I don't want to take the exam again, it's boring." Di Zhi said. In fact, if Dizhi hadn't been in a relationship in those years, her grades should not have been so bad, and it was tiring for men. "Congratulations, Cheng Yun, you are a college student. Guanghui, it's also good for you, it's hard to get into science and engineering." Di Zhi said. Neither Guanghui nor I know what to say. Le Ji also applied to the University of Hong Kong.Lili is studying at a normal school, and she wants to be a physical education teacher.Xiaomian's grades are also not satisfactory, and she enrolls in nursing courses.Xin Ping went to the UK to study, and Qing He got the best grades, but their family wanted to immigrate to the US. Dizhi decided to work, and she joined Leyin Record Company as a secretary.Leyin was a medium-sized company at that time, and there were not many singers, but everyone was well-known and distinctive.Leyin's trump card is Lin Zhengping, who is so popular.We were fascinated by his "Can't Forget You". Di Zhi reported to me every day which singer she met that day.Her enthusiasm for the job reassured me a little.One day, she finally got to know Lin Zhengping. "He's as charming in real life as he looks on camera, and he's chatting with me without any airs." Di Zhi told me excitedly that she seemed to be fascinated by Lin Zhengping. "I heard he's gay," I said. "It's just that others slandered him! I heard from people in the company that he has a girlfriend of ten years, but the other party has never been exposed." A month later, Lin Zhengping held a concert at the Hongkan Gymnasium, and Dizhi took the front seats for us.After the concert, I still have the ability to take Guanghui and me to the backstage to take a photo with Lin Zhengping.In Lin Zhengping's lounge, I saw a woman without makeup silently arranging his clothes. That was probably the woman behind him. That woman was inconspicuous, and she was still a long way from matching Lin Zhengping.But a beautiful woman may not be able to bear that kind of grievance. One night, Dizhi and I were having dinner, halfway through, her pager rang, and she called back. "Lin Zhengping called me!" Di Zhi smiled sweetly. Lin Zhengping actually called her at night, proving that she is a very attractive girl. "What is he looking for you for?" "He said he had just finished recording and asked me if I had time to have a cup of tea with him." "He asked you for tea?" I think it's not easy. "Or...or he likes me, his girlfriend is so ugly!" Di Zhi seemed ready to accept the pursuit. "Check out, Lin Zhengping will pick me up now." I watched Di Zhi get into Lin Zhengping's Porsche and drive away.She has been far away from Deng Chufa.Poor lifeguard. Late at night, I received a call from Dizhi. "We were walking in Repulse Bay, and he was still holding my hand!" Dizhi told me excitedly. "Then what about Deng Chufa?" "I told him, I'll be with you tonight. Cheng Yun, I'm finding more and more that it's impossible for a person to have only one love in his life." "But Deng Chufa is your first love." "He is my first lover, so even if I leave him, I don't owe him anything. I have already given him the best." Women love to give men their virginity as a gift. That night, Dizhi admitted to me for the first time that she and Deng Chufa had a physical relationship, and it happened after they fell in love for half a year.She never told me because I don't have a boyfriend, I don't know. "Find a boyfriend quickly, and you will understand that if a man loves you, he will do that to you." At that time, I suddenly had a very funny thought. At the age of twenty, I was still a virgin, which was really embarrassing. "Do you like Deng Chufa, or Lin Zhengping?" I asked her. "I have no idea……" When she didn't know, the love between her and Deng Chufa was over.A lifeguard, even if he is a minority shareholder of a sporting goods company, why should he compete with the superstar Lin Zhengping?Di Zhi's vanity, I fully understand.A high-ranking man actually pursued her, and she was destined to be unable to escape. One morning, Di Zhi told me that she had done that with Lin Zhengping. "Where is it?" I asked her. "On his Porsche." Dizhi decides to break up with Deng Chufa and keeps avoiding him. Deng Chufa waited downstairs at Di's house every night to see if she had a new boyfriend. One night, Dizhi finally broke up with him, and he slapped Dizhi. "Did you fight back?" I asked Di Zhi. "No, I want him to owe me. He slapped me, and I don't even have any remaining affection for him." One night two days later, Deng Chufa invited me to dinner. When I met him at the restaurant, he was very upset. "You must know who Di Zhi's new boyfriend is?" "Don't force her at this time. Let her calm down, maybe she will come back to you." "No! She won't come back! I slapped her!" Deng Chu laughed bitterly. A man with eight-pack abs fell on the table and howled. Love took away his dignity. He pulled out a pink envelope and handed it to me. "I wrote a letter to Dizhi, please read it." Deng Chufa handed the letter to me. "How dare I read your love letter." "No! Look, if you can touch you, you can touch Di Zhi." "Di Zhi is as hard-hearted as I am." I started reading his love letters.Although he is so sad, but, but I want to laugh!His love letter was very badly written, the handwriting was as ugly as a primary school student's, and the writing style was poor. There were thirteen typos in total, and he wanted to impress a woman?I dare not look up at him, I am afraid I will not be able to help laughing.He should read more books. "How?" he asked me. I struggled to find something to compliment him: "Your affection is genuine." "Can you write one for me, I know I can't write well." It was the first time someone asked me to write a love letter. "I can't write for you, I don't want to deceive Dizhi." Deng Chufa grabbed my hands: "I beg you, help me this time." I felt that he was too pitiful, so I agreed to him and wrote a love letter for him. After he copied it himself, he sent it to Dizhi. Three days later, I received a call from Dizhi, who was crying. "What's the matter?" I asked her. "I read the letter Deng Chufa wrote to me, and I was very moved." A tearful love letter cannot win back a woman's heart.Deng Chufa didn't understand.He thought that if I wrote a love letter for him, Di Zhi would be able to change his mind.Di Zhi was too confused. She had been with a man for five years, but she couldn't tell whether he had the talent to write that love letter. The love letter sent by Deng Chu can only be exchanged for the last meeting.Deng Chufa and Jodizhi met at that humble Malayan restaurant in Causeway Bay, where they first dated.他期望用旧情留住她，可是他不知道，迪之跟林正平去浅水湾餐厅、雅谷和卡萨布兰卡，两个人吃饭，要数千元。迪之不再喜欢那种马来亚餐厅，人不能走回头路。 “我不能再见他，我见他一次，便更加讨厌他。我宁愿留一点美好回忆。”迪之说。 当然，失败的男人，还有什么魅力？邓初发不该出来献世，如果他躲在暗角，黯然神伤，还能赢得一点同情。 在跟迪之见面后的第二天晚上，邓初发来找我。 “谢谢你替我写情信，虽然没有什么结果，我还是想谢谢你，我决定回去南丫岛。”邓初发说。 伤心的邓初发回到老家去，他履行诺言，没有再骚扰迪之。迪之却对我说： “我有点挂念他。” “你不是挂念他，你是可怜他。” 因为女人先抛弃男人，所以，她可以升上上帝的宝座来怜悯他。邓初发正是受不住这种怜悯，所以宁愿躲起来。 “你会爱上他吗？”迪之笑着问我。 我有点愕然，她竟然怀疑我会爱上邓初发。她太自大了，她以为即使她弃如敝屣的男人，都是一个配得起我有馀的男人。而且当时我还没有男孩子追求，而她先有邓初发和天皇巨星林正平。我有点愤怒，想告诉她，即使在五年前，我也不会选择邓初发，何况今天？ “跟你说笑罢了！”迪之看见我有点愠怒，拉着我的手。 当然，我知道她不是说笑，她觉得自己上岸了，很想做一件善事将邓初发推给我，或者将我推给邓初发。我才不会爱上一个连我的好朋友也不要的男人。 光蕙来了，刚好打破我和迪之的困局，我们三个人，很久没有一起吃饭了。 “我们的未来测量师很忙吗？”光蕙在理工读屋宇管理及测量系，迪之有点妒忌光蕙可以考上大专。 “谁说的？我替学生补习呀，今天收到薪水，可以请你们吃饭。” “不，你和程韵还在念书，这顿饭该由我来请。”迪之说。 “好，我不跟你争，你现在是林正平的女朋友啊，手头阔绰得多了。”光蕙取笑她。“听说邓初发回南丫岛去了。唉，男人都是可怜的动物。我也挂念老文康。” “邓初发和老文康不同，老文康对你不是真的，毕业后，他没有找过你！”我说。 光蕙的脸色突然变得很难看，我知道我说错了话。迪之伤害了我，我伤害了光蕙。 光蕙对老文康的感情很复杂，她爱他，可是也怀疑他是否欺骗自己。但怀疑他太痛苦了，到不如相信他。 “老文康对我是真是假我自己最清楚。”光蕙咬着牙说。 “那最好。”我说。 “程韵不是这个意思，她关心你。”迪之对光蕙说。 我没有表示同意。向光蕙道歉，我下不了台，我心情也不好。 “老文康寄过一张卡给我。”光蕙说。 “他说什么？”迪之问她。 “问候我，我和他，打从开始，便知道没有结果，我们相差三十六年。”光蕙说。 “林正平也有女朋友，我和他的事，不能让他女朋友知道。”迪之说。 “那种偷偷摸摸的感觉，很刺激，也很痛苦。”光蕙对迪之说。 “也许正是由于这种偷偷摸摸的感觉，使我们相聚的时光更快乐。”迪之告诉光蕙。 她们把我摒出局了！两个情妇在抒发当情妇的感受，好象情妇是世上最伟大也最伤感的身份。 “一个女人，一生之中，无论如何要当一次第三者。”迪之说。 “是的，做过第三者，才会明白，爱一个人，是多么凄凉。我们想要的人，并非常常可以得到。” 光蕙说。 “一对一的爱情太单调了。我和邓初发曾经有过快乐时光，我们在床上调笑、接吻，以为理所当然。但，跟林正平一起，即使只是接吻，我也会血脉沸腾，想得到更多。他令我觉得自己象一个女人，一个想偷情的坏女人。” “你现在的样子很姣！”我揶揄她。 我跟迪之一起乘车回家，电台刚好播放林正平的新歌。 “你留心听听，这首歌很好听！是一位新进填词人写的！”迪之说。 林正平唱得很好，不象他以往所唱的那些肤浅的情歌。歌名叫《人间》。 迪之听得很陶醉，好象林正平单单为她一个人而唱。我有点悲伤，莫名其妙地被歌词牵动心灵。我倚在迪之的肩上，她的手放在我的肩膊上。我们竟然在那一夜，被一首歌，感动得说不出话。 “填词人是谁？”我问迪之。 “好象叫林放。” 第二天早上，起床的时候，我又从电台听到那首歌，无端地伤感。那是一个下着滂沱大雨的早上，雨中的港大并不美丽。我忽然觉得，我并不怎么喜欢那地方。开课一个月，并没有找到一个跟我特别投契的人。读中文系的人，并不活泼。下课后，他们都忙着去替学生补习。我最不能忍受替那些小白痴补习，我没有那份能耐，我会杀死那些补习老师讲解三次他仍不明白的小白痴。我参加过两次女排的练习，那群女孩子都是高傲的波牛，技术不好，却很自信，很排外。我决定不参加。在校园里，我偶然会碰到乐姬，常常有一群男孩子包围着她，听说他们选了她做港大校花。 班上女孩子比男孩子多出六倍。十个男孩子都面目模糊。 上唐诗讨论的时候，第十一个男生闯进来。