Chapter 18 Part eighteen

171 Gu Senxi didn't go to class. Yi Yao called during the class break in the morning, and Gu Senxi didn't want to talk too much, so he hung up the phone after saying a few words casually. He sat in Gu Senxiang's room, looking at the clean white sheets. There was no one at home either.Both mother and father were hospitalized.The sudden blow made both of them ten years older.Especially my mother, when she was sent to the hospital last night, her face was as pale as a piece of paper that could be torn by blowing.Before being sent to the hospital, the mother's sharp crying never stopped.

Gu Senxi's eye circles turned red again.He reached out to open the drawer and took a package of tissues. In the drawer are Gu Senxiang's hair clips, notebook, and mobile phone. Gu Senxi picked up the phone and turned it on.Staring at the picture of himself and her on the screen as the desktop, his heart throbbed again. After a few seconds, the phone vibrated.Two short messages. Open the inbox, one is Qi Ming's and one is his own. Gu Senxi pressed it, and seeing the sentence he wrote "I know. I will always love you too, beauty", tears welled up again. Gu Senxi was about to turn off his phone when he suddenly saw a text message from an unfamiliar number under the two text messages of Qi Ming and himself.Gu Senxi looked at the time, it happened to be the day her sister died.He moved the cursor to the text message.

"Are you dating Qi Ming? Then come to the warehouse at the back door of the school at two o'clock in the afternoon. I have something to tell you." Gu Senxi thought for a while, then pressed back into the outbox, and saw that besides the two messages sent by her sister to herself and Qi Ming, there was another message: "Are you satisfied?" , the same person that was in the inbox just now. Gu Senxi looked at the strange number, and seemed to have seen this series of numbers before. He took out his mobile phone and dialed the other party's number according to the number.

When the string of numbers on the phone screen suddenly turned into a name, Gu Senxi's whole body turned cold instantly. This number is always stored in my mobile phone. Its owner is: Yi Yao. Yi Yao was eating in the cafeteria when the phone rang.She saw that the caller was Gu Senxi, so she picked up the phone.Just about to speak, Gu Senxi's indifferent voice came from over there: "Go and surrender yourself." "What did you say?" Yi Yao didn't react for a while. "I mean, you go and turn yourself in." After saying this, the other party hung up the phone.

172 In fact, many things that we seem to be unreliable or unbelievable are not as complicated or unbelievable as we imagined. Just like when we were young, we couldn't understand that those disgusting caterpillars turned out to be the "children" of beautiful butterflies. In fact, there is nothing incomprehensible. Those insects wrapped themselves in opaque cocoons layer by layer, and then gradually changed day by day, and finally turned into colorful butterflies. In fact, even becoming a butterfly queen can trigger even more incredible things.For example, it vibrates its wings on the other side of the ocean, and the other side of the ocean randomly generates storms.

In fact, things are far simpler than we imagined. It's just that we can't accept it. One day Yi Yao received a text message from an unknown number, saying that if she is Qi Ming's girlfriend, then invite her to the school warehouse and tell her something.Yi Yao's subconscious reaction was that the other party "made a mistake", and Qi Ming's girlfriend should be Gu Senxiang.She never thought that such a calm and even slightly polite text message would be Gu Senxiang's death invitation card. As for what bad things happened to Gu Senxiang after he went to the appointment, no one has any way to know.Only Gu Senxiang himself knows, and the people who let Gu Senxiang encounter those dirty things know.

It's just that we all know that these bad things are so bad that Gu Senxiang can give up his life and say "I hate this dirty world". 173 Yi Yao looked at Gu Senxi standing in front of him with cold hands and feet.He stretched out his hand coldly and said, "Then show me your phone, who sent that message, give me the number, and I'll look for it." Yi Yao closed his eyes and said in despair, "I deleted that text message." Gu Senxi looked at Yi Yao in front of him, and finally burst out laughing. After wiping away his tears, he said to Yi Yao, "Do you have anything else to say?"

Yi Yao lowered his head, "It's really not me." Gu Senxi's eyes were full of disgust, "Yi Yao, do you know that what my sister went through originally belonged to you, including the person who died, it should be you." Yi Yao didn't speak, the wind blew her hair away suddenly. "My sister is a pure person. She has never experienced anything. Even a little insult can make her want to die. You forward that text message to her... I will treat it as if someone else sent it to you... you Don't you think you're too vicious?" Yi Yao brushed away the hair sticking to his cheeks because of tears, "You mean, I'm an impure person, I should have to face all that, if it was me, I would If I don’t commit suicide, my life will be cheaper than your sister’s, do you mean that?”

"You've even beaten a child, aren't you cheap?" "You just wish I could die instead of your sister?" "Yes, I just wish you could die instead of my sister." With the sudden sharp pain in his chest, Yi Yao couldn't breathe.Tears quickly blurred his vision.The sense of humiliation that had disappeared for a long time came back overwhelmingly. She took a deep breath, then stretched out her hand to Gu Senxi's clothes corner, "I know you are very angry now..." Just as Yi Yao finished speaking, Gu Senxi pushed her back forcefully, "Don't touch me!"

Yi Yao, who fell heavily backwards, just happened to bump into the bicycle riding over. The boy who fell on the ground quickly stood up and asked Yi Yao in a panic if he was okay. Yi Yao looked at his painful knee, and there was a long gash oozing blood. Yi Yao raised his head, and Gu Senxi had already left without looking back. 174 The hatred that evaporates from every heart, the hatred that evaporates continuously, the hatred that evaporates from so many people who hate me. Countless days that continued to evaporate, gathered above my head and turned into a heavy black cloud. Why is there never an end?

Why can't it stop? All the dripping hate you keep pouring on me. I just want you to die. I just wish you could die instead of her. I wish you could die. I wish you could die instead of her. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. Go to hell. 175 When Qi Ming saw the phone call, he hesitated for a long time before answering it. There was no emotion in Yi Yao's voice on the phone, "Qi Ming, come find me after school, I have something to tell you." "Yi Yao, go and surrender." The other party was obviously silent for a while, and then continued: "...Gu Senxi told you?" "Do you think he shouldn't have told me?" "I want to see you, not what you think." "I don't want to see you anymore...Yi Yao, you go and surrender." "What do you mean?" "Nothing. I'm hanging up." "You don't want to see me anyway, do you?" Qi Ming didn't speak, listening to the whistling air coming from the phone. "...Okay, then I'll let you see me now." "What did you say?" Qi Ming didn't understand Yi Yao's meaning, but the other party had already hung up the phone. Qi Ming carried his schoolbag and walked out of the corridor. He had just taken two steps when he heard the whistling wind above his head. Qi Ming raised his head, and a shadow suddenly fell in front of him. 176 that sound. That voice that swallows everything. That voice that drags Qi Ming into a bottomless nightmare every night. The sound of the joints, bones, chest, and head of the whole body shattering together. That kind of sound that can coagulate all the blood in an instant, and then make all the blood rush uncontrollably to the top of the head in the next instant. It kept ringing in my mind. It clicked endlessly. 177 Gu Senxi sat on the sofa.The lights were not turned on, and today's news was broadcast on the TV. He sank deep into the sofa. Close your eyes, and your vision is filled with white light swimming back and forth. The voice of the newscaster on the TV sounded impersonal. "At 6:00 p.m. yesterday, a student committed suicide by jumping off a building in a middle school in Shanghai. The person who committed suicide was Yi Yao, a sophomore student in the school. The cause of the suicide is still under investigation. The picture shows the dead picture taken at the scene. The deceased just turned 18 this year. It is reported that this is the second suicide case in the school within a month, and relevant departments have paid close attention to it." Gu Senxi opened her eyes, and Yi Yao was lying on the concrete floor on the screen, with blood flowing from her body.She stared fixedly at the sky, with her mouth half-opened, as if she was about to speak. Gu Senxi sat in front of the TV, silent and motionless. Dark clouds rolled across the sky. Three o'clock in the morning.The moonlight was covered tightly. In the dark room, the only thing left is the colorful bar pattern that buzzes continuously when the program ends on the TV. The beating light of the TV shone on Gu Senxi who was sitting on the sofa and had been motionless since the afternoon. 178 The alley was filled with fog again. The morning slowly brightened the sky.Someone turned on the dim lights in the house one after another. More and more people crowded into public kitchens to brush their teeth and wash their faces.Sleepily looking out the window at the bright morning. Someone will always turn the wrong faucet. There are two empty rooms in the alley. When other people passed by the door of these two houses, they all quickened their pace. Every minute in this world, countless doors are opened and countless doors are closed.The light surged in, and then was covered up a few seconds later. Different people live in different worlds.Red.blue.green.white.yellow.Or even a pink world. Why are you the only one living in a black world. What emerges from the darkness will always be your last face on the TV screen, the eyes that look like they want to look through the screen, and the mouth that refuses to close.You who hesitate to speak, do you want to say "forgive me" to me, or "help me"? Do you want to say "I'm sorry" or "I hate you" to this cold world that has never cherished you? Gu Senxi stood at the door of the alley, looking at the room inside that would never be lit up again, his red eyes in the dark were as wet as if it had rained. 179 In my memory, you pressed your ear to my chest nervously to listen to my heartbeat, and then never left again. 180 It was already dusk when Qi Ming woke up, and there were thousands of lights outside the window.Sitting on the bed and looking out the window, there are boats with lights on the river moving slowly. He got up and walked around to find that his parents were not at home either.He must have been out on errands. I turned on the TV and watched, it was full of boring funny and disgusting dialogues.He pressed the remote control to go to the toilet to brush his teeth and wash his face. Qi Ming wiped his freshly washed hair with a towel, walked to the desk, opened his notebook and wrote two lines on the paper, then got up and closed all the windows and drew the curtains, and then he left He unplugged the telephone line before going to the telephone, and then pulled off the electric switch at home. After he finished all this, he got up and walked slowly towards the kitchen. Then he went back to the room, lay on the bed, and slowly closed his eyes in the darkness. 181 ——Your heavy breathing in the dark is the familiar fog in the alley in the morning. —your warm chest. —a great river of sorrow and silence flowing slowly.