Chapter 12 1998 Summer Solstice · Dibu · Sunny Sky (3)

When I meet and see Duan Qiao, I sometimes think of Qing Tian, ​​but they are actually two completely different people.One is a taciturn roller player, and the other is a fresh graduate One of the well-behaved students in the Department of Architecture with a scholarship.Just like potatoes and lychees, they look like they are not brothers. But often there is such an illusion.At a certain moment, he suddenly called out the word "Qing..." to Duan Qiao, and the text disappeared, and he was confused by himself. Consciousness is terrified. But why?I always feel that this kind of feeling is familiar, it must have happened in the past years, in the past faded into a matte color

, must have given off the twilight of fireflies in the dark night and remembered it by myself. Maybe.Maybe it's because both of them have spent their lonely time with me. They were all the closest people in the world to themselves when they were the loneliest. At 7:20 in the evening, it was completely dark.When I met, I packed up my things and waited to leave as soon as 7:30 arrived.Because I have to rush home to make up and change clothes and then Go to the bar and sing.The sky is full of goose feather snow outside. Is this the first snow I have seen since arriving in Beijing?There will be no more than five games in total, but since

But I can't remember.do not know why. Because of the bad weather, there are almost no patrons in the convenience store.So both of them were in a daze together. Duan Qiao was lying on the cash register, like a child with his face pressed against the counter, the pencil being turned around by his slender fingers.Seeing this picture, I feel so familiar .Like those days in Asakawa No. 1 Middle School, in the spacious and bright classroom, eight fluorescent lamps above the head cast clear and delicate white light, and all shadows The light is very light, the teacher sits on the podium and reads the newspaper. On the blackboard are the review outlines or notes written by the teacher during the day. The chalk writing is somewhat

It was slightly blurred, and everyone around was writing furiously. The sound of the pen rubbing against the calculation paper was like the sound of the rustling rain outside the window, quiet and profound.these are met There are only a few impressions of evening self-study in my mind.Because most of the evening self-study encounters skipped class and went out to sing. In fact, it hasn't been long since I left, but in retrospect, it seems that it has been an unusually long time.Those days of studying were all marked when I recalled it The sign of the word "was". I used to be a senior high school student who wasted his studies.

I used to be a problem student at the famous Asakawa No. 1 Middle School in the country. It seems that there are many attributes that can be added.And now, those attributives have all disappeared.Now I am a very ordinary person who catches a lot in Beijing The bottom-line poor who live and run around.The dream I had when I first came to Beijing feels so long ago and vague when I think about it now, so I deliberately Don't think about it.Although I didn't want to, I never forgot that ideal—— Qingtian, one day, you will see my CD on the CD shelf as the sales champion. This ideal is still tenderly curled up deep in my heart, it has never left, and has been stubbornly staying there.There, where is it?yes

The chest cavity is the darkest but the warmest and most humid place.It has a huge and complicated root system, which is difficult to pull out. Instead, it gradually takes root, and all the roots of the fork grow from That corner spreads, the left ventricle, right ventricle, lung lobes, and abdominal diaphragm cover the entire chest cavity, so every breath and every heartbeat involves There is little pain. "Hey, I met," said a word out of nowhere, Duan Qiao lay on the table and didn't get up, "Did it often snow in your previous city?" "Come on, Asakawa has a lot of snow in winter."

"Ah, no wonder," Duan Qiao moved the chair to the floor-to-ceiling glass, and said with his face against the glass, "Like my hometown Yongning, it doesn't snow in winter, so When I first came to Beijing, I was so happy to see snow, but my classmates laughed at me, saying that I was a countryman who made a fuss and had never seen the world. " Duan Qiao looked at the goose feather heavy snow outside the window in a trance, the face reflected on the glass was young and sharp, but with a dull look, as if the soul had escaped from the top of his head Coming out, walking in the impenetrable snow outside the window, a person who is usually very sunny at this moment makes people feel distressed slightly.

It must have been that hurt tone.Encounter is very familiar, because I have heard people say similar things since I was a child—— You country boy. Poor ghost nobody wants. I told my dad to hit you, my dad is the greatest hero! No mother Oh, meet is a monster without a mother, each of us has a mother. ... There are many, many words like this, scattered on every foot and every inch of time, and then absorbing the nutrients of youth to grow into a big tree with luxuriant branches and leaves. cast huge shadows on the paper. "But," the tone suddenly changed, the face reflected in the glass was glowing softly, slightly moved, with a flying look, "I've never been angry.

I have never been discouraged. One day, I will let the buildings I design appear in the most eye-catching places in Beijing. I will design landmark buildings and let everyone People passing by will raise their heads in admiration, and they will say, look, the designer of this building is Duan Qiao, he is really an amazing person! " What is it, breaking ground from the damp and dark heart in an instant. ——Qing Tian, ​​one day, you will see my CD on the CD shelf as the sales champion. "It's time," Yu met taking off the coat from the wall, her eyes stinging slightly, she explained this as the light was too strong, but she knew that if she didn't leave, those

The tears that flowed down could not be explained by too much light, "I'm off work, please do your best, great architect." "I have to go to class every day." Duan Qiao turned his head and closed his eyes with a smile. "Aren't you tired of teaching those children every day?" I met Duan Qiao who lied to me that I was a piano teacher. "It's amazing, I can teach other children at such a young age," said the delicate face, like the most transparent water, "I was born without artistic talent, and I don't have any musical instruments."

meeting. " He also lied to Duan Qiao that he was a third-year student who taught piano part-time and worked as a convenience store clerk. "No, I have heard others say that architecture is frozen music. One day, when you become the best architect, you will also be the best musician.I'm leaving first, I'm going to be late. " Tears will flow down any further. The tide is getting higher and higher inside.cordon.red light.Long flute. WARNINGI NARNINGI said in a soft but firm voice, "Wait a minute." wait a minute. Time did not wait for me.It was you who forgot to take me away. Why did you say that the person who waited was not you? Why wasn't you the one who put on my coat when the cold wind poured down? Why is it not you who thinks that my clothes are too thin on such a snowy night and I will definitely be cold? Why didn't the smell of washing powder on the boy's coat come from you? How many immeasurable years have been taken away by time, so that when looking back, the dense fog almost cut off the sky. I'll never rush to find you on my bike after school anymore, just like you'll never text me when the wind blows.I will never be in the snow again It's time to put your hands in your coat pockets, just like you will never be at the kitchen door and can't help swallowing because of the smell.I will never again because I can't help being sad when I think of your soft face, just like you will never run in the street in a hurry because of my fever in the middle of the night.green Tian, ​​it's not that I can't get rid of the sadness because of the separation I pulled. The reason why I am sad is because we have been inseparable for so many years. At that time, I didn't even say "goodbye" seriously.They say that those who say goodbye seriously, no matter how long they have been apart, one day they will meet again See.So we will never meet again?Will you still stand outside the school gate and wait for me to finish school? Will you still stand on the stairs and look up, blushing slightly like the summer at the end of the second year of junior high school? ——Meet in 1998 Always comfort myself not to cry.Even if it's to keep the tears from freezing on your face, it's too cold, you can't cry.and kept telling myself that these The wind and snow all over the sky, these irresistible cold, will eventually pass, the front is a warm room, although no one is waiting for you, but there is still a warm space Air, and the evergreen potted plant on the windowsill. Meet met striding up the stairs, stepping over two or three steps, one step at a time, then took out the key, opened the door, and a gust of cold wind came out of the room . The valve is blocked again. Recently, the heating valve has always had problems, and the hot water is often blocked.The whole house was whizzing like an ice cellar.Meet take off your coat, from I took out a wrench and pliers from the dusty toolbox in the corner of the room, knelt down on the cold concrete floor and began to repair the pipe valve.It broke down once a few days ago. Jian's knocking and tapping is already available, but now it's blocked again, Yu Yu thought to himself, his mother's hell. Frustration and sadness piled up in my heart like a tide. After working for a long time, it finally became unobstructed. Before Yuyu could close the valve, a gust of hot water sprayed out. Even if Yuyu hid quickly, his hands were still red. chunks. It hurts deeply. When you turn on the tap, the tap water in winter is bitingly cold.It was like countless sharp thorns piercing the skin, and piercing deeply into the flesh and blood.meet Dazed in front of the faucet, I put my hand under the cold water and kept running until it became numb, until my whole hand turned red, and I came back to my senses only when I met it. Turning off the tap, two lines of tears flowed down. Huddled in the quilt in the corner in a daze.The temperature in the room rose little by little as the heating came back on.Because the temperature on the glass window is too fast The ground was covered with a layer of water vapor, and then more and more, one or two large drops of water flowed down the pane in disordered tracks. What the hell kind of day is this. No sound came out of the throat, as if it was locked tightly around the neck.When I closed my eyes, I felt pain in my eyes, and blisters came out of the red spot on my hand. It hurts to jump.There was a sound of glass breaking in the chest cavity, like a floor-to-ceiling window smashed by a huge stone, and the messy fragments scattered towards the heart The softest part was pierced deeply and shallowly, and blood gushed out. What kind of day is it?Almost completely lost the meaning of leaving Asakawa. After coming to Beijing, I met a manager of that record company under the recommendation of the boss. In fact, that record company is indeed famous in China. Ding Ding.Even though Yu Yu was not famous at all and had no vocal training, she was still signed.The agent told her, my place So I decided to sign you, not because of your singing skills, but because of your feelings. After that, it didn't go as smoothly as expected. The company didn't spend too much effort on Yu Yu, and her manager had many artists in his hands. Staying alive in the company.When some big-name stars changed their clothes in the middle of the concert, they met and could be on stage with several other newcomers Sing and sing, and they all sing other people's songs.Or some large-scale events such as the opening ceremony or small fashion parties, you can show up and sing to add to the fun . Afterwards, the agent helped Yuyu get a job singing in a five-star hotel, but Yuyu was used to rock and roll and sang about those canaries She always looks awkward and awkward when singing songs, and she feels uncomfortable when she is wearing an evening dress.So she gave up.after she quit the job At the same time, her agent also gave up on her. Yu Yu kept thinking in his heart, did he really give up?Is the ideal I have persisted for so long really given up by myself?I've been thinking about it for a long time and I can't figure it out , I felt a lot of grievances, but because of my strong personality since I was a child, I still didn't make any compromises. Since then, Yuyu has had no jobs, no announcements, and no opportunities for Lunan.She came over all of these swallowed.but need money.After finally finding a job in a convenience store, the salary was meager, and it happened that there was a newspaper delivery job in the community. I was very tired, so I took it when I met.still one I found a job singing at night in a bar. Then start to survive in the huge city of Beijing. Living in the cracks between stones and forests, flies and dogs. Encounter once thought that on the way from Asakawa to Beijing, the Christmas Eve spent on the train was the loneliest moment in life. After arriving in Beijing, Only to find that every day is more lonely than that moment. But loneliness, loneliness, such words will not appear in the dictionary I met.While walking on the dusty roads in Beijing, I met still firm I believe that one day, I will become the best female singer in China.Although the sky is cloudy, it will still be blue after all.Clouds will still come and go gracefully.year In the end, Hua will become a gorgeous swallowtail butterfly and sprinkle dazzling phosphorous powder in the world. The hotel where Lixia and the others stayed was an old bungalow on an old street in Shanghai.It happened to be close to the examination room for Xiao Si's competition.The whole street is full of exotic buildings , old villas, bungalows with iron railings.The red walls are covered with vines, most of them withered in winter and salty yellow, the backside of the leaves A darker grey.There were white windows pierced under the gabled roof, standard attic windows.There are tall sycamores in the courtyard, leaves The tree fell to the ground, and the remaining bare branches struggled to stab towards the sky. The twilight is all in one.Indistinct clouds moved rapidly in the sky, casting even more indistinct shadows of the sun on the ground. Is this Shanghai?Is this the bustling ten-mile foreign market described by Eileen Chang?Li Xia patted his ears, it seemed that the tinnitus on the plane hadn't stopped, his mind was still there However, I'm a bit unclear, how did I go from Asakawa to Shanghai? It's too exaggerated. Unload the luggage from the taxi and walk into the door of the hotel.Because it had just rained, the ground was wet and reflected the light of the street lamps.It's not easy to put in the suitcase dragged on the ground.Fu Xiaosi took the box in Lixia's hand, and Lixia quickly said that he could do it without me, and then the two fought back and forth, and finally Lixia was rejected Fu Xiaosi said "Don't be brave!" He shrank his hands in fright, and then he watched Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang walking forward, the two talked in a low voice, and they didn't say anything. Take care of yourself.It wasn't until the two of them were about to disappear into the distant twilight that Fu Xiaosi turned around, "What are you doing so stupid?" Fu Xiaosi's eyes in the twilight Send out a tiny light, "Follow me quickly." Live in two separate rooms.The room is on the third floor, and you have to go through the wooden stairs. When you go up the stairs, you will hear the sound of your feet.wide wooden door Nice room with white sheets and big soft pillows.It looks very good, but the price is extremely cheap, and there are few people.Fu Xiaosi has I suspected it was a black shop, but Lu Zhiang kept patting his chest and said it was okay, he had already checked it on the Internet when he came, and it was a very good small hotel. After putting away the luggage, Fu Xiaosi raised his eyes and looked out the window, the sky was completely dark, and by the light of the street lamps, he could see the raindrops slanting past, glowing The silvery white light of street lamps. "Ah, it's raining again." Fu Xiaosi turned his head and looked at Lu Zhiang who was pouring water into the cup with a thermos bottle, "Then it will Are you going out for a walk? " "Well, no more," Lu Zhiang put the cork back on, "Rest early today, I'm tired anyway, you have to compete tomorrow, go after the competition. " Fu Xiaosi nodded, and then said, "Then I'll go and talk to Lixia." "It's so cold," Fu Xiaosi said suddenly while sitting on the window sill, "Shanghai is even colder than the north, it's really messed up." Still can't change Huo has developed the habit of sitting on the window sill long ago, which is exactly the same as Yu Yu. He always likes to sit cross-legged on the window sill, and then look at him with a blank expression. Staring out the window in a daze. Lu Zhiang showed his white teeth, with a nice and quiet smile, "Because Shanghai doesn't have heating like our north." Fu Xiaosi turned his head to look at Lu Zhiang who was smiling, tilted the corners of his mouth, snorted, and said, why do you want to imitate my smile? Grinning like before, showing your gums and smiling like an idiot, you cool handsome guy who is halfway through transformation. After speaking, he was hit on the head by a thrown pillow.Then the two started fighting. Tired from the beating, the two sat on the bed wrapped in quilts and chatted. Hey, Xiao Si, do you still remember that we were traveling like this once, wrapped in sleeping bags and chatting, I remember you said that we are like two good friends Zongzi chatting. Well, I remember, and I remember that some idiot chose a good place to sleep, and woke up the next day surrounded by the wheel tracks of big trucks driving past.not dead really I can't justify it. ...but it's not over yet.what…… Don't be stubborn!Zongzi! Hey…… What are you doing? Are you nervous about tomorrow's game? We don't talk about this. It doesn't matter, I have no other skills, but I am very good at making a very serious and tense matter easy. I know this. Didn’t you put on such a good show when you were in the first year of high school? The principal told us about the heroic deeds of firefighters, saying that a certain team The firefighter jumped down from the third floor with the baby in his arms. The baby was unharmed, but the fireman's arm was broken into several pieces!Didn't you also hear the principal's exclamation sentence? It became a question sentence, and then said "three cuts" vigorously below, which made the whole school laugh.You are very capable... ... When did your memory become so good? Sorry, it has always been like this. Zhiang, do you know, after many years, when I think back to the winter of 1997, I think you have become Lu Zhiang in 1995, you are still the same The teenager who has never experienced grief, anger and pain will still laugh happily with his gums exposed. The nervousness of the day before the game is really bickering with you Disappeared in the process.Sometimes I think, it is really a happy thing to have you by my side in this life, so I always thank God for letting you accompany me I have spent such a long time, from a child, to a teenager, and then to the complicated world in the afternoon, you have always been by my side, like a person who has never been A young god who is transparent and does not change with the customs of the mountains.Thank you, whether it is the one who loves to laugh, or the one who loves to be silent, Lu Zhiang. ——2003 Fu Xiaosi "Ah," Lu Zhiang suddenly jumped up from the head of the bed, "It's snowing!" Fu Xiaosi threw off the quilt on his body and got up, climbed onto the window sill and leaned against the window to look out , "Really, does it snow in the south?" Lu Zhiang also jumped up and sat on the window sill. Fu Xiaosi looked out into the thick night, although the ground was still wet reflecting the white light of the street lamps, and there was no snow like Asakawa, but the empty space In the midst of the chaotic rain, there are indeed large flakes of snow mixed in. Although it cannot be called a heavy snow, it is indeed a heavy snow. "Ah, it's rare." Lu Zhiang rested his fingers on the glass and knocked irregularly, "It will snow in Shanghai, I think this should be a good omen, you know God will definitely take the first place. " "Where does this go? It's completely out of line." Although his tone was lukewarm, Fu Xiaosi looked at Lu Zhiang with eyes full of gratitude. Lu Zhiang smiled happily.Just as he was about to speak, he heard a scream from Lixia's room. When Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang unscrewed the door of Lixia's unlocked room, Lixia was jumping on the TV cabinet and yelling. Hearing the sound of the door opening, he turned around and saw two big boys standing at the door, and he was standing on tiptoe on the TV cabinet, and his movements froze in an instant. Fu Xiaosi opened his mouth with an expression of "What kind of plane are you doing?" while Lu Zhiang was already leaning against the wall, covering his stomach and laughing like he was about to die. "What are you doing?" Fu Xiaosi pointed at Li Xia, "Come down. Why are you standing so tall?" "And...and shouting so loudly," Lu Zhiang said while laughing, "It looks like a girl being raped by a satyr." "There are cockroaches!" Li Xia looked at the ground and made sure there were no more, so he came down in embarrassment. Fu Xiaosi pointed to Lu Zhiang and said, you blame him, he booked the hotel.He kept saying that this hotel is very good, I suspect that the people in this hotel secretly gave Paid his agency fee. Fu Xiaosi clasped his big and small thumbs together, stretched out his index finger, middle finger and ring finger facing upwards, and made an oath, saying, God testifies entirely because this hotel is far away from you. The game is near and I'm a good guy. Xiao Si said, let us accompany you for a while. Lu Zhiang took the words and said, we found Go in the room, Xiao Si is very good at playing Go, he has been learning Go since elementary school, you can ask him to teach you. Li Xia opened his mouth wide in surprise, people who listened to rock music played Go from elementary school... Is this a joke?But looking at Fu Xiaosi's serious questioning expression, he felt Not quite like a joke. "It's okay, you go back first." Li Xia's face was also a little red, and he didn't dare to ask them to stay, otherwise it would be even more embarrassing. Fu Xiaosi let out a cry, and Lu Zhiang put his hand on Fu Xiaosi's shoulder and hooked it, and said with a smirk to Lixia, or, Xiaosi will sleep with you. The door closed with a "bang", almost hitting Lu Zhiang's nose. Fu Xiaosi looked at him and said, it doesn't matter if your cold joke can be a little colder. Lu Zhiang said, I didn't tell a joke, maybe she thought of something that made the young girl dreamy but dare not speak. Just after speaking, the door suddenly opened, and a pillow hit Lu Zhiang directly on the head. Lu Zhiang, this is the third floor!If you talk nonsense again, I will throw you down!If you don't fall to death, you will freeze to death!Li Xia shouted. The door slammed shut again.Holding the pillow, Lu Zhiang laughed and said, she imitated me, haha, throwing the pillow. Fu Xiaosi didn't intend to talk to him at all, and went back to his room wearing slippers. abada.cn(txt share) next page back to directory back to home page