Chapter 109 Chapter 109: Gu Xiaobei

I've been flipping for a long time.Although I finished reading this book in school a long time ago.I remember that I was still with Lin Lan at that time, we each bought a copy, and they were in different editions, hers had a blue cover, mine had a white cover.I remember that summer, we often lay in the shade of the school and read this book, and fell asleep while reading it.The sunshine at that time was extraordinarily bright, as clear as piercing through youth, which made me feel very happy. Not long after Lin Lan left, Yao Shanshan broke up with me. I remember she said to me on the day we broke up, she said Gu Xiaobei, you have never liked me, and you only have one Lin Lan in your heart. It's pointless for us to develop.But you have to remember you hurt me.I nodded, and I said yes.Yao Shanshan didn't say anything, but just poured coffee on me. At that moment, I suddenly remembered that she had splashed Lin Lan like this before, and I suddenly felt Lin Lan's pain at that time.There are many people around, but I feel that there is no one.Yao Shanshan was right, I did not bring happiness to anyone, my connivance to them actually brought them the greatest harm.I closed my eyes, and suddenly saw Lin Lan's sad face, which was the face I had loved for six years.

Not long after that, I heard that Yao Shanshan had found a well-known big boss in the advertising industry. From then on, I kept seeing her commercials on TV. She is now a small star.I think this is fine, this is the happiness she has been pursuing, and I can't give it to her. In fact, I went to find her the day Lin Lan left. I just wanted to tell her that I still love her, but she obviously doesn't love me anymore.I found that some of my original thoughts were naive.I have always listened to her, and I will do whatever she tells me to do. I like to pet her, pamper her, spoil her, and I am willing to spoil her temper.She said to break up, so I said yes, I want to wait until one day she is no longer angry, she will come back, I can still hold her, stand in the ice and snow in Beijing and watch the scenery.But one day, I suddenly discovered that she had gone a long way, and she would never come back, nor would she want to come back.Because suddenly there was Lu Xu by her side.

Lu Xu's death brought almost devastating damage to Lin Lan, I know this.That's why I went to find her, because I knew that after Lu Xu's death, she must be taken care of and protected by someone.But she turned me down and slapped me. That slap woke me up, and I realized what a stupid mistake I had been making all along. Later, I went to Shenzhen to look for Lin Lan, but I saw her with a man who was driving a car to pick Lin Lan from get off work. Lin Lan was sitting in the car smiling, very happy.I stood at the corner of the street, thinking to myself, Lin Lan has finally grown up, she is no longer the crazy little girl she was back then.I don't think she needs anyone to take care of her anymore, she can withstand the wind and rain that she has always resisted.In fact, I can clearly see the traces that the society has carved on her body, vividly in my mind, which makes me feel lost.

I found a job in Beijing, doing design and copywriting.Sometimes when I see some works with a style similar to Lin Lan, I feel my nose sore.I often see Lin Lan's works in some magazines in the industry. From those works, I can see that Lin Lan has really grown up. Her breath, her thoughts, and her life linger from those designs. engulfed me like a mist. I often have a dream. In the dream, I am seventeen years old forever. Lin Lan is sitting on the back of my bicycle. I take her through the bright and sad youth.The dream continues and never stops.