Chapter 21 The third part Lu Wei, a soldier of love in the depression

The third part Lu Wei, a soldier of love in the depression period (1) Soldier Lu Wei When I met soldier Lu Wei, I was twenty-one and he was nineteen. He is from the north and went to the south to serve as a soldier; I am from the south and went to the north to study. The air in early spring is still cold, and some scattered wild flowers bloom slightly on the mountain, thin and stubborn.Lu Wei took my hand and climbed to the top of the mountain with me.He picked the flowers he saw along the way and handed them to me.We held hands, looked at the misty lake under the mountain, didn't say anything, just you looked at me and I looked at you and giggled.Lu Wei said I would sing a song for you, and then he sang it.It's actually a love song.He is tone deaf and has a northern accent, which made me surprised, funny and shy, so I pursed my lips and listened to it.Thinking back now, Lu Wei was at the age when he was writing poetry.And his feeling was simple and ignorant, as if he had plagiarized a bland pop song.I said, I haven't heard this song, you can sing it to me separately.But he shyly said, I only know this.

One night after a long time, I suddenly heard this song again in a taxi in Beijing.Only then did I know that this song was originally written by Huang An: Meeting you is like being in a dream, and I knew it was impossible... Such a song is catchy and unremarkable.But I insisted that it was Lu Wei who wrote it for me alone. Lu Wei is from the Taihang Mountains. He has not yet graduated from junior high school. He falsely reported his age and left the back door to become a soldier.In the army, he was young, so he had to be a cook soldier who raised pigs, grew vegetables, and cooked in a big pot. Later, he became a small chariot soldier when he was favored by the chief.He was also sent to the party school to study culture, saying it was to train cadres.If they are demobilized, they will not be reduced to taxi drivers.Lu Wei has a simple mind, so he ignorantly dreams of a bright future.At that time, I was already preparing to get two degrees, and I might go to graduate school or go abroad.Lu Wei sighed, why do you need so many degrees.I said, yes, I might as well give you one.

I want to be a lawyer.Lu Wei said. I said yes, but I knew he couldn't be a lawyer. I remember the night when I first met, I wrote a letter to my friend in the house, saying that on the way to the north, I met a boy by chance. Surprised, but also apprehensive, I'm afraid it's too good-looking, but it doesn't look like a blessed person. Thinking about it now, I was secretly worried about Lu Wei, how could I be blessed.When I first met Lu Wei, his face was like a disc, round and plump, but he couldn't keep his thin and haggard appearance after many years. At the beginning, Lai always waited for Lu Wei in the reception room of the female dormitory for long distances.More than 800 people used the same extension, ringing one after another, but none of them were looking for me.One wait is two hours.

Finally got in.He said that his family saved money to build a house in the countryside for him to marry a wife in the future. I just wanted to be a loving couple with him, and said, I wonder if your family will like me. He said, as long as I like it, they will like it. I said, I wrote a song specially for you, and put your name in it, called "The Reed Boat". He said, does it sound good? I said, it sounds good, and my friends all say it sounds good. The two chatted and laughed for forty minutes, and I finally couldn't help but hesitate and ask: You said, I, um, do you count, your er—girlfriend?

At the far end, he said bluntly: "Of course it is." I became happy, and devoted myself to knitting scarves, and wanted to be his girlfriend. Seeing the glare of the sun outside the window, the flying dust and the noisy crowd on the city bus, I always miss my boyfriend Lu Wei from the bottom of my heart.He is 1.78 meters tall and thin, the most handsome car driver in the air force base.There is no doubt that I am his girlfriend, we should love each other. That year, I always took advantage of vacations or skipping classes, and took the train all night to find Lu Wei.I remember that the fare of the express train was 150 yuan, which was very expensive for me.I always have to find ways to do some odd jobs so that I can possibly buy a ticket to the south.

I am in his unit.If he drove away, I would fill up romance novels in the women's barracks, four books a day, and my heart would beat wildly.Paging him on a free public phone number soon: Your aunt wants you to come back quickly.When I saw him back, I was so happy that I kept smiling.And he always had to deal with everyone before he would come to talk to me. I wore a baggy shirt with patches, and a pair of big slippers indiscriminately. He frowned: like the leader of a gang of beggars. I was overjoyed and said, isn't it good to be like Huang Rong? He said, I am talking about Hong Qigong.

He likes me with long hair and short skirts.He likes to sit by the lake, bury his face in me, and talk to me casually, or not at all. He buys me flowers.I said angrily, what are you doing buying flowers for Hong Qigong.He said nothing, I know, he wants me to. It was sweet to be sick then.He took me to the infirmary for injections and medicines, and he spoke earnestly, like coaxing a child: How can you get better if you don’t get injections? In the evening he took me back to the barracks.That room turned out to be a warehouse, and the lights were out long ago.He sprayed the deodorant for me and closed the windows.I put the flowers in an enamel cup for drinking.He watched me go to bed, covered the blanket, and couldn't help but hug me.I got up to meet him.The two hugged each other in the dark, inseparable.

a long time.I said, you should go. He just let me go, turned around and went out, closing the door gently. When I heard the sound of the car engine downstairs, I jumped up from the bed, ran barefoot to the corridor, stretched out most of my body, and waved to my young sweetheart—no matter how reluctant I was, he couldn’t stay at night. by my side. The third part Lu Wei, a soldier of love in the depression period (2) At that time, it was the time of youth, with affection and desire, but obeyed the rules and taboos, and was afraid of frivolously flirting with the other party, and dared not try that indulgent one.Things have changed, and in retrospect, I just feel that life and death are difficult because of that sprouting love.

And how can a love that has not melted desire last for a long time?If there is a change, God doesn't want to ask me. Once I arrived in Lu Wei's city at midnight, but he didn't come to pick me up.I called him for a long time, but he was late. When I saw him, I was determined not to blame him. Can't help but hug him.Suddenly right and wrong: he doesn't love me. As stupid as I am, I must come to discuss a result. Why don't you come with me? He said aiaiai periodically, they all laughed at me when they saw me with you. I couldn't help being discouraged and heartbroken: what others think is so important to him.

They said, how can you think of being a soldier? It's nothing more than a lie. I took his hand and said softly: Lu Wei, how could I lie to you?They're just talking nonsense, let's ignore them, shall we? I stuffed the cold medicine and chocolate I bought for him into his hand.He said happily again: When I graduate from university, you will also be demobilized. I will not stay in Beijing anymore. I will come here to live with you.I go to work as a technician, you still drive, the two live together, and get married in the future, okay? He doesn't speak. I hooked my fingers to signal him to come over.

He bowed his head, and I kissed his lips coldly. He was going to grab me and I just ran away laughing. That time, it rained in the city.Lu Wei already has a girlfriend and a female soldier in the same unit as him.The last time I visited him in Wuhan, I saw that girl hanging on her boyfriend while squinting at Lu Wei. The two of them exchanged witty words, it was so frivolous. And I've decided not to blame him. The boy smiled innocently and gently.At that time, the two of them were very affectionate, and I couldn't help but tease, are all the men in Taihang Mountain as good-looking as you? He couldn't hide his arrogance and said, he is not as good-looking as me. I blame him for bragging, but I am willing to believe it.It's not that I really love his beauty, but I just stubbornly believe that he has innocence and kindness that are different from ordinary people.Otherwise, how could you love an ordinary woman like me with a watery face? what about loveFinally to break up, to forget. I wrote about Lu Wei not for nothing.The old-fashioned southern women are always cautious about their relationships, and later they have a boyfriend in a proper manner, and they must be honest and considerate.It was agreed that they would stay together for the rest of their lives, and the parents had seen each other. The two parties had nothing to say, and they just waited to earn money and get married.It was hard to make room in my heart to accommodate this stranger, bumping into each other, but in the end it was inevitable to leave me.I don’t want to ask me whether I love it or not, and all the painstaking efforts in management are in vain.I remember chasing Lu Wei back then and asking bitterly: Did you really like me back then?The streets are decorated with colorful lanterns and people come and go, Lu Wei stopped suddenly and asked me, what can I do if I like it or not?I suddenly realized: After studying for so many years in vain, it is not as wise and clear as the soldier Lu Weilai who has not read a few books. So he let go of the hand holding his skirt, and said, I'm leaving, this time I'm going, and I will never come back to look for you again. This kind of statement is as boring as a story in a fashion magazine, and Lu Wei's humble status and circumstances, and my rough writing style are always not strong enough or clear enough, so no matter what, I can't earn that huge sum of money. I got paid.When you are young, you are only young after all, what can you expect in exchange?Lu Wei is just a small episode, with a bit of thin bleakness, not even qualified to linger in dreams.In late autumn, wearing a bright red turtleneck sweater and sitting in the house, I feel warm and refuse to pay attention to the rare sunshine outside.