Chapter 19 Part III Love in a Depression Love in a Depression

Part III Love in Depression Love in Depression (1) When Lennon was strenuously advancing towards the virgin, he held his head up and sang: Imagine there is no heaven... Needless to say, he did it because he loved virgins. The reason why Lennon is called Lennon is because he looks very much like Lennon, and even sings like Lennon's rhinitis voice. The reason why a virgin is called a virgin is because she was really a virgin at that time. Before Lennon could finish singing imagine, the virgin pushed him away and sat up, asking solemnly: I'm not a virgin now, am I? Lennon froze for a moment and said, probably not.

The virgin pushed Lennon away, put on her clothes, opened the door and left. In fact, I originally wanted to tell you a very touching love story.Indeed the story is very touching, because Lennon is definitely a very good man, very kind, and Virgin is definitely a very good girl, very kind.What's more, they were all very poor at that time.Love in times of poverty is often the most touching, really.All the fairy tales we saw as children are evidence.In that impoverished period, Virgin sat on a mat in a bungalow, played the piano and sang, and her singing voice was so unconfident but so clear that Lennon fell in love with Virgin immediately.

If you guys haven't been moved yet, it must be because of me.As a friend of mine who is extremely gifted at writing fiction told me, I should watch my wording and tone. Lennon was handsome for an Englishman.It's a pity that he is only a Chinese, with such a short stature, such a pale face, and his clothes are always so wrinkled, so he can actually be called ugly.But the virgin is a good-looking girl, with a fair and transparent complexion, even though she still has the youthful and dullness that is unique to girls at that time.Unfortunately, she doesn't realize her own beauty, so she always feels inferior to her looks, and always breaks her heart for those handsome bastard boys.The virgin dreamed that she married the prince with roses when she was a flowery girl, so she didn't notice Lennon.You know, if a princess falls in love with a frog, it must be because it is well known that the frog will eventually become a rich and handsome prince.However, in the era we live in, due to revitalization of the economy, family contract responsibility system, family planning, daylight saving time, etc., the magic of fairy tales has disappeared in the artificial society.Lennon was finally not turned into a prince because of his kindness, so the virgin never fell in love with Lennon from beginning to end.

When she and Lennon passed by the small shop in the village, the virgin kept staring at the Orion chocolate pie in the glass window.Chocolate pie, the virgin muttered.Lennon didn't hear it at first, but after the virgin muttered several times he finally understood.He said hi, isn't it chocolate pie, I'll just buy it for you.Just as he was trying to take money out of his pocket, the virgin dragged him and quickly fled the scene.Because Lennon was so poor that he had no job and no money to pay rent.Although the virgin really wanted to eat chocolate pie, she would still obediently squat in the house and cook porridge for Lennon on a small electric stove.At that time, all materials were so rare that even a small plant of green vegetables would surprise them for a long time.And the winter is so cold, there is only a small electric stove, and virgins have to wash the sheets and quilts with cold well water.

Lennon finally decided to do something because of poverty and self-esteem.Lennon actually had nothing, he didn't even get love.He used to have fantasies.Although the virgin is kind and innocent, she still has tirelessly ambitious and fanatical dreams, which makes her always dissociated from Lennon and absent-minded.Although Lennon didn't know where he was going or what he was going to do, he knew that he couldn't let the virgin's eyes fall on him, so he decided to leave the city with the few belongings in the house. On the night of leaving, a box of Orion chocolate pies was left beside the virgin.Surprised and delighted, Virgin held the chocolate pie and looked up at Lennon.He smiled at her, his face full of pride.The virgin hugged the chocolate pie tightly and said, is it expensive or not.Lennon said boldly, neither expensive nor expensive.The virgin drew Lennon towards him and began to untie his belt.Lennon pushed the virgin's hand away, not today.The virgin looked at Lennon suspiciously.She saw the warmth in his eyes, but she didn't understand men.

By the way, Lennon loved the real Lennon, Chagall, everything good and clear, so Lennon loved the face and the voice of a virgin. That night Lennon left the village in a battered minibus.He hastily kissed the virgin's forehead, and jumped onto the bus in a hurry, and then the bus ran out of the village in a panic. That night, the city had its first light snow of the year.The virgin walked for a long time in the snow with her head bare, before she suddenly realized that the only person in the city who might love her had already left.Virgin hugged the chocolate pie and began to feel sorry for her helplessness.

Two months later, the virgin is going to have an abortion.There were still three days before the operation, and her reaction was very violent, so she always sneaked to the vegetable market to buy Sichuan pickles for 40 cents.She chewed the kimchi with the free wonton soup, and she felt better.Suddenly a man at the table got into an argument with the shop owner because of a penny.They start throwing things.At the beginning, the virgin watched the fun as happily as everyone else, but then she shrugged her shoulders and lowered her head to avoid it. She didn't forget to take away the unfinished slices of kimchi.

Part III Love in Depression Love in Depression (2) In order to increase nutrition, the virgin gritted her teeth and bought herself a box of Orion pies before entering the operating room.A box of six.The virgin sat in the aisle of the hospital, eating one after another amidst the pungent smell of the potion.She had wanted to save a few for post-surgery celebrations, but she was worried that she would die from the operation and the chocolate pie would go to waste.So she ate the few that were left, threw the box in the hospital trash, and walked stiffly into the operating room. The splendid hotel square with golden walls.Wide streets, beautiful billboards, and brightly lit shopping malls.Trees, benches and young men and women snuggling up happily.The towering cathedral, the meadow full of roses.The wind brushed the young boy's slightly long hair.He grows very tall, with big eyes, long eyelashes, a wide forehead, and a spring-like smile.He looks at the girl now and then.She was wearing a long, plain cloth skirt, without any ornaments.Her laughter was crisp and unscrupulous.He blushed a little. He thought she was lovely and charming.

Chocolate pie, she whispered.She didn't expect that she would grow into a beautiful girl.She walks with her head up and she dares to smile.Happiness is in front of her, within easy reach. She looked at the boy with a smile, infinite tenderness.For some reason she thought of Lennon.On this night of fragrant wind, roses and beautiful lights, she thought of the panic, embarrassment and humbleness on Lennon's face inappropriately. Lennon was nowhere to be found.He finally did not come back to find the virgin.It is said that he married and returned to his old home.Others said that he had finally saved some money and that his new wife was beautiful and virtuous.In this story, no one dies.

When summer is coming, I will buy back a dozen stockings for ten yuan. All stockings are exactly the same, regardless of left or right, it doesn't matter which one is lost, and it doesn't matter which one you wear.It dries immediately after washing, regardless of gender.This is the advantage of stockings. When the clothes were taken off, I thought about whether I should take off the stockings. There was no time to take it off. Anyway, everything should be dressed as it was. When I came out of the old residential building and went to the street, there were still as many people, just like me, dressed neatly.This is the most prosperous area in the capital.

Many people watched bungee jumping around on the street.As soon as the hook is released, the person bounces up quickly, reaches a high place, and falls.I screamed and grabbed the man next to me.Seeing the fat man being tossed in the air with his eyes closed and his mouth open.Suddenly I became happy and laughed out loud. He remained calm, seeing each other every day after all.He is 1.84 meters, which is too tall for me.But I like it, whether it fits or not. I stared into his eyes.The eyes are too small, the eyelashes are too short, it means nothing.There are already traces of time on the face, but there is no warmth at all.God, it's so good.I plunged into his arms, hugging his fat waist in the sixties.He is nine years older than me, and looks like a traitor in an opera.We met once and talked once on the phone.He likes to teach me that desire can be separated from emotion.Nothing more than to prove that this is really a very natural thing.He is very reasonable.But many people have advised me so.Everyone is very sensible.I believe the first one, but I don't believe the second and third.Isn't truth in the hands of only a few? Is that how you seduce girls? It's too low-level.I laughed at him. yes.He also felt that he had no level.There is no doubt that I like you, but it is impossible for me to be your boyfriend and have a relationship with you. Don't people need to tame each other?To do something together, to spend some time together, or to do nothing, say nothing, and then, when we part, feel sad. But how can you convince people in the sixties?He can draw pictures, record his own demos with an eight-track machine, and do silk business with foreigners.But he still has no talent, because he can't tame others at all. I later realized that I was a genius, a natural talent.But then I wasted my qualifications, that's my own business.It was irreversible and inevitable.Just like the spring in Beijing, it is only a short ten days, and the past is the past. In early summer night, when walking on the dark road of the school, strange boys will come back and call you. He took off your Walkman's earbuds, stuffed his poetry collection into your hands, and hurried away.I had an umbrella under my arm because I didn't know if it would rain or not. I don't know when, I began to grow into a fairly beautiful woman, but my youth has disappeared, like a young talent, which has disappeared as soon as I realize it. In fact, people have to wait and tame slowly, but we have no chance. I do feel a bit ashamed when all I have left is a pair of stockings on my feet. But there is no need to hesitate anymore.A man who is nine years older than you will arrange everything for you.He has a plan in mind. I stroked his hair and called his name softly, just like I called my lover's name many years ago.So light, I almost shed tears.At daybreak, I will leave automatically.