Chapter 4 when you pass me

Reason for selection: After writing the novel, I aired it on the radio. It makes me cry. Made many listeners cry. When you pass by me, I can feel your warmth. If one day you go far away, I want to tell you that no matter how far you go, I can still hear your voice. Love, be with us. I received a call from Yiran at noon. Her voice was a little different from what she heard on the radio: "Ji Huan, would you like to be a guest on my show this weekend?" "No!" I instinctively refused. Yi Ran said, "Ji Huan, haven't you always wanted to see what the live broadcast room looks like?"

My heart fluttered up and down.In fact, this is something I have hoped for and imagined countless times. I should be happy to death, but I was silent for a long time, and I still said to Yiran: "I'm sorry..." "Think about it again," Yiran said, "I'll call you again on Friday. Ji Huan, I hope you will be brave." I know I let Yiran down, I'm really sorry for her, I'm really worthless. Yiran is the most popular DJ here. For me, countless afternoons are almost spent listening to her shows. I like Yiran's voice very much. Her voice belongs to the afternoon, a little lazy and a little playful, like a drop of sunshine occasionally falling into the calm water, and it instantly raises countless colors.At this time, there will often be a faint fragrance of flowers floating out of the window, it may be gardenia, it may be roses, or it may be jasmine. I can't always distinguish the fragrance of various flowers, but I remember their appearance, red, White ones bloom firmly in my memory.

I can only use the word memory, because from a certain day when I was fourteen, I gradually lost sight of the world. The hospital's diagnosis certificate is simple: glaucoma. Mom and Dad spent all their savings for me, and I still can only see a little bit of faint light.Of course I can no longer read books, and all I can do is stay at home all day long.Blindness has made my ears extremely sensitive. My family lives on the sixth floor, but I can hear my parents' footsteps when they walk to the first floor after get off work.They walked in such a hurry, for fear that something might happen to me at home.

I know what they are most worried about is the boy named Heipi who lives upstairs in my house. I don't know his real name, but everyone calls him Heipi.His mother died early, and his father couldn't control him at all. His biggest hobby was sneaking into other people's homes and stealing things. He stole almost all the upstairs and downstairs here. I still remember one time when I was sitting at home , suddenly heard a male voice say: "Are you really blind?" I was so scared that I almost fainted: "Who?" "Heipi," he said, "don't be afraid, your family is extremely poor, and I won't steal anything."

"You scared me," I said, "how did you get in here?" "It's too simple for Master Ben," he said, "it's not worth mentioning." "Strange." I said, "I can't hide any sound from my ears, but I really didn't hear you coming in." "That's what I'm capable of." He said with a smug smile, "I'm leaving, but I'll come again, I guarantee you still won't hear me coming in." "Don't be so confident," I said. "Okay then, let's see who is better next time." This time he walked out through the door, and I heard the sound of him closing the door softly.

Black skin?In my memory, he is not very dark, gentle and quiet, and he doesn't look like a thief. After I told my mother about this, my mother was so frightened, and told me again and again that I should lock the door when they were not at home. My mother is such a good mother, so I snuggled into her arms and didn't speak.My mother touched my long hair and said: "Xiaohuan, mother will still find a way, we will not give up." I shook my head not to let her go on. I know that mom and dad have already tried everything they can think of. What's more, my father has also been laid off, and now I'm doing some physical work for a private boss. I don't want to talk about being tired, and my salary is still delayed month by month. They think I don't know anything, but in fact I know everything in my heart .

All I can do is to disturb them as little as possible.I locked the door every day according to my mother's request, but in fact, I hope that Hei Pi can appear silently again, because the days when no one talks are really lonely. But the black skin didn't come for a long time. I don't think he is very good, it seems that a locked lock is difficult for him. When alone, listening to the radio is really the best choice. Besides, I like Yiran so much. I still remember the first time I mustered up the courage to participate in Yiran's program. She said in the program that day: "Spring is coming. Do you like spring? Anyway, Yiran likes it very much, because the fact that spring can be done is There are too many, you can go for an outing with your friends, or sit quietly and plan a whole year, have time to meet some people and slowly forget some people, for the coming spring, let us listen to the song Listening to "Spring Flowers Bloom" by Ren Xianqi, Yiran loves spring and loves you too."

After Yiran finished speaking, she began to sing: flowers will bloom in spring, birds are free, I am still waiting, you come from afar... I suddenly remembered my deskmate in junior high school, that boy named Lin Li, who looked very much like Ren Xianqi , with small eyes, always smiling when talking, when my eyesight was declining, he always helped me take notes, and he tilted his head and asked me again and again during class: "Ji Huan, can't you see me?" Can you see it?” Or simply hand me the notebook and say, “Ji Huan, copy mine!” What a kind boy, but now he must have forgotten me a long time ago. There must be a cute girl sitting beside him, with big and bright eyes, and a shocking smile.

I am really far away from the campus and from them. So far away that I can never go back. My heart ached so badly, but I didn't dare to cry, I was afraid that if I cried again, I would lose sight of that little bit of light. What a desperate thing it is to fall into complete darkness. I suddenly wanted to talk to someone, but as usual, there was no one around me.So I fumbled and dialed Yiran's hotline. Yiran's phone was very hot, it was the first time I called her, and it was strange that she got through right away.I told Yiran that I wanted to order a song, and Yiran said yes, so who should I give it to?

"I don't know." I said. "Oh?" Yi Ran said, "Is this afternoon a bit lonely?" "Actually, every afternoon is lonely." I said. "Then do something." Yiran said playfully, "Read your favorite books and watch your favorite TV. Find friends to chat with. Of course, listening to Yiran's programs is the best choice." "Can you chat with me?" I said unreasonably.What I usually hate the most is the chattering audience who call into the hotline, but I couldn't help making such a request that day. Yiran's temper is also very good, she said: "Okay, what do you want to say?"

"I want to say that I don't like spring." "Why?" Yiran was obviously interested in my topic. "Because spring is not like what you said, you have time to meet some people and slowly forget some people, you are too naive to know?" After finishing speaking, I hung up the phone very rudely. After a while of beeps, Yiran said: "It must be a lonely girl. Your voice is very nice. I want to continue listening to you. Why did you hang up the phone? No matter what, Yiran hopes you are happy!" She didn't blame me for being impolite, and even sent me a song. After Yiran’s show ended, I called the director’s office to apologize to her, saying that I shouldn’t call her naive, she laughed and said, “There are many more listeners than you, I won’t take it to heart. " "That's good." I said goodbye to her. "Wait!" She called out to me, "Don't you want to tell me what's on your mind?" "The hosts are very busy." I said. "Speak," said Yiran, "I feel that you have something to tell me." So I briefly told Yiran about my situation, and I told her that my eyes were a bit bad, so I had to stay at home, and the happiest thing every day was to listen to her program. "I'm honored." Yi Ran said, "Can I do something for you?" "Why don't you tell me what your live studio is like? I've always wanted to be a host." Yiran said: "I'd better invite you to visit, I have to describe how tiring it is." Then asked: "How bad is your eyesight, how much can you see?" "It's okay." I lied, I didn't tell her that I was almost blind. As soon as I put down the phone, I heard Hei Pi saying: "The programs on the radio are the most boring." I stood up from the chair with a bang and said, "Heipi, when did you come in?" I was really afraid that he would hear the conversation I had with Yiran just now, I stood up in a hurry, bumped into the armrest of the chair, and almost fell to the ground . He held me with one hand and said, "Be careful." I pushed the hand away in a panic and said, "What are you going to do?" "Hey." He said with a smirk, "I've already done what I want to do." What a bad boy.But I still like him to come to see me, I said: "I was listening to the program and talking on the phone today, and if I didn't hear you coming in, it doesn't mean I lost." "Okay," he said, "we'll play tomorrow." "Will you come tomorrow?" I said, "You won't come for many days." "I got into the game," Hei Pi said nonchalantly, "I just let it out." "You don't look like a bad guy," I said, "not at all." "Only you say that," Hei Pi said, "Bad guys don't have engravings on their faces. You have to know this, or you will suffer." "I can't see your face." I said honestly, "I only remember you from two years ago." "It's a pity," Hei Pipi said thickly, "I'm much more handsome now." I smile. Hei Pi said again: "Actually, you are also very beautiful. Your eyes are very big, but it's a pity that you can't see them." The first time a boy praised me for being pretty, I blushed.I believe Heipi must have seen it, and I'm grateful that he didn't laugh at me, I always think Heipi is not that bad.I didn't tell my mother about Hei Pi's return to my house. Sometimes I would make him a cup of tea and wait for him to come and talk to me. He often blows himself up better than the snitch in the novel.His story is often full of holes, but I never expose it.Because I really like to listen to it. Sometimes when he doesn't come for a long time, I order songs for him in Yiran's program. Although he never listens to the radio, I still hope he can hear it. Will know, I miss him a lot.I really consider him a friend. I'm afraid he will do something bad again. No, Hei Pi hasn't been here for a long time again.My mood has never been better. Yiran called and hoped that I could be a guest on her show. I was a little afraid to go. I was afraid to tell others my story. The most important thing was that I was afraid that others would sympathize with me. I don’t think I need any sympathy. What I need more is friendship, like the kind of friendship Heipi gave me, it is very warm. Cranky, my mother got off work.As soon as she entered the door, she screamed and said, "Whose money?" "What?" I said. "Who put the money on the table?" My hand tremblingly touched it, and it was a stack of brand new RMB. My mother told me that it was three thousand yuan.Beside it, is a small radio with earphones. I know it's Heipi, and he put the money.He came, and I didn't hear it again.He didn't leave a single word, but I know that the money is for my medical treatment. Heipi once said that my illness is nothing at all, and if I have money, I can be cured.Heipi also said that my radio is too broken, so I don't mind throwing it away. I asked my mother to take me upstairs to find Hei Pi, and the police were there, and they were also looking for Hei Pi, saying that Hei Pi had injured someone because of a buddy, and fled in fear of crime. Absconding in fear of crime?What a hopeless word. For the first time since losing my sight, I shed tears. I hope that they will never find Hei Pi, but I also hope that Hei Pi will come back. I don't want anyone to say that Hei Pi is a bad person. In my heart, he is really a good person through and through. Are people really that weird? I called Yiran and told her that I would like to be her guest. I want to tell everyone the story of me and Hei Pi. I still hope that Hei Pi, who never listens to the radio, can hear my show. He said: "I hope that the next time you pass by me, you will knock on my door openly. My whole family and I will welcome you. I am waiting for you to come back and face everything bravely like me. No matter what, you will always be my friend." I also want to play a song for him, because Hei Pi said that if there is any good song in this world, it is "Only Mother is Good in the World". But, will Heipi hear it?