Chapter 18 The most meaningful life - one month before the college entrance examination

The most meaningful life - one month before the college entrance examination After the college entrance examination mock exam, Mr. Zhang walked into the classroom.Our math teacher happened to be lecturing: "It's not long before the college entrance examination, you don't relax, you have to put your brains on mathematics." Mr. Zhang continued next to him and said: "You, Mr. Li, and my hero see the same thing. You have to put your brains on mathematics." Immediately, he suddenly shouted: "Don't take it out of context and take advantage of the loopholes to say that I told you not to study other subjects! What I'm talking about is to reasonably estimate yourself and arrange your time. If... just ...It's also possible. You have to understand the spirit!" We laughed hahaha below, and my tablemate and I were so entangled in laughter that we couldn't separate them.

The phrase "understand the spirit" is really funny. So I left school early.Most people have a program to take a chance to relax - I sat alone in my seat, thinking in my heart, I don't know if A will come, and B will come - I don't want to see them today, it's better None of them come. Someone called me outside the window.At first glance, it was X who went out and turned back.I went to open the window. X asked me: "Would you like Zhang Xinzhe's "Love Turning"?" A boy at the window said: "She gave it to you, don't pay for it." X waved his hand and said, "Excuse me!" Then he turned around and asked me if I had any arrangements.I said no.She hesitated and said, "Would you like to play?" I said, "Well..." I was infected by her hesitation, and after a while, I suddenly suggested, "Shall we throw a coin?" She shook her head.I got excited and said repeatedly: "Drop it, lose it!" She said: "No." I reached into my pocket to find coins, and she objected more fiercely, saying: "No, don't!" The boy next to him said: "Do you want coins?" X said: "No."After a while, X said: "Forget it. I'm leaving." I was still ah ah ah.She said again, "I'm leaving." I said, "Not good." She let out a huh-huh cry and said, "It's going to rain." After repeating the bad thing twice, I suddenly said, "Okay, goodbye " She beckoned, walked two steps, stopped and turned around, beckoned again, walked to the edge of the teaching building, turned around, and disappeared.I still stood in front of the window, looking at the empty concrete floor and the silver-gray air above.The boy said: "Hey, who are you still talking to?" I came back to my senses, blinked, bent down, stuck my head out of the window, and shouted loudly to the sky: "Ah!" Come in, draw the window and close it.

I drove home alone, and let the walkman play Chang Xinzhe's songs repeatedly along the way.I was thinking about how to explain to my parents when I got home—I was done for this mock exam.Today is Friday, and next Monday, the results will definitely be announced.I want to do whatever I want.I imagined: I went to school on Monday and met Mr. Zhang at the school gate. He said with a sullen face, you are picking up cigarette butts when you are going to college? I lowered my head, but I could still feel his condemning eyes.He also said, you don't have to come to school for class - Wu's same grade! So I said, okay, then I won't come to school.After finishing speaking, I turned around and left, looking for a quiet place to review my homework.

I am at home, sitting in front of my desk, with my back to the whole house.I heard my father come into my room, so I said silently, get out! But he won't go out.I sat where I was, restraining myself, afraid that I would reveal the real situation of the mock exam to him. That's how I spent the weekend. On the way to school on Monday, I imagined the scenario of running away from home very carefully: in the morning, I would leave home with my schoolbag on my back. If I didn’t go to school, I would go to the self-study classroom of some university, hide there and study, and there would never be anyone Find me - I think my original intention should be right, I just want to find a quiet place to study.I even thought about where to eat, sleep, shower and hair.But I know, I don't have the courage to implement it. If A knew, he would definitely say, I really admire you, why did you figure it out?

Come to think of it, I can't let them not find me, I can't let A not find me. A has been helping me make up lessons for more than a month.If he comes to see me today—how can I explain to him? Examination papers are distributed non-stop throughout the day, and examination papers are distributed in every class.At noon, the last Chinese test paper was handed out, and I will talk about it later in class.I had lunch at the same table and hadn’t come back yet. I was sitting alone on the seat, with one ugly test paper after another spread out on the table.I really hate this kind of white paper, the circles drawn by the teacher with red pens on the paper, and my own blue wrong answers.At this time, out of the corner of my eye, I saw A walking in from the door.He kept walking, walked to the side of my desk, and stood still.I didn't look up at him, but I guessed that he must be looking at my exam papers spread out on the table.I just sat there, huddled up, with my hands raised and sandwiched between my knees.Immediately A's hand was placed on my head.I kept my head down, as if Ji Li Gua did not know what to say. A quietly waited for me to finish speaking, and then said in a warm voice: "It's over, don't think about it. We still have time." He put his hand on my head and touched it lightly.The heat of his palms radiates from my hair all the way in.I sat there with my glasses on, tears dripping on the glass.

A said: "You go to class well. I'm in the library, I'll come to you after school later. Let's study hard." I didn't ring and didn't move.He didn't leave immediately, waited for a while, bent down, helped me take off the dripping glasses, put them on the desk, pressed the Chinese test paper, and then straightened up. Before leaving, he patted my head again. A took me out of the school gate and went to take the bus.I asked him where he was going, and he said that he would know when he went.I said: "No! You want to tell me, where are you taking me?" He had been walking forward, then stopped, turned around and smiled at me, and said softly: "Didn't you tell me, you Want to find a quiet, comfortable and orderly place to review your homework? Now I will take you there."

I stood with my legs crossed under the big metal shed waiting for the train, my sleeves were covered with sweat.The sun shone down from above, and there was a blue-green shadow on the ground.The color of metal, the shadow of metal, the sound of metal clashing: jingle, jingle. A stretched out his hand and shook it in front of my eyes, but I didn't move.He swayed again, but I still didn't move.He lowered his head and said, "Is your spirit so bad?" I didn't answer him right away, and after a long time, I said lazily, "No spirit." listen to music.I didn't bother to ask what he was listening to.After a while, he tugged on my sleeve, signaling that the car was coming.I nod.

Along the way, I kept thinking, what kind of place is that.I hadn't figured it out anyway until A took me to that place - it was the Hilton. A and I sat comfortably and proudly in the beautiful lobby of Hilton.I picked a location close to the corner - firstly, it is more secluded, and secondly, I can see all kinds of people coming and going from here. A sat next to me, and we did analytic geometry together.My body cools down, my heart calms down, and my eyes look at the well-dressed men and women , I listened to A telling me about various curves in my ears.In front of my eyes, there are curves full of sparkles, intertwined and embracing each other.Among those ever-changing curves, A's smiling face appeared from time to time—he kept saying, you should pay attention to this, let's study and study, study and study.

A's earphones never left his ears.I stretched out my hand to pull the headphone cable, and protested: "How can I listen to music during class?" He smiled and said: "I didn't listen to it again. I turned it off--I just don't bother to put it away. I don't believe it .” As he spoke, he took off the earphones and stuffed them in my ears—it really was silent.I pressed my ears to make the earphones more comfortable, and said, "Play it for me." He took out the diskman in his schoolbag and played it for me. Very strong and powerful drumbeat, pure and powerful singing voice like a little boy.Amidst the la-la-la cheers of a group of people, I accidentally yelled softly.

I asked A: "What song?" He said: ""Off The Ground". Do you know Paul Mc Cartney?" At the same time, a group of people in the ear, like a group of young gods, dragged their voices and sang: O- ff-the-groun-d! I happily smiled at A and said, "Let's play it again!" I whispered to myself: Now, I'm sitting in the silvery lobby of the Hilton; listening to Paul McCartney's "Off The Ground"! We sat there peacefully for about an hour, working on the topic, listening to Paul McCartney singing and singing like a little boy with his head held high.When I was immersed in studying a topic, A suddenly whispered in my ear: "The black cat is here." When I looked up, I saw a well-dressed black cat walking towards us.Without moving my lips, I said, "What should I do?" A said, "What should I do? Do your problem."

The black cat came to us and asked A if he needed help.I saw A said solemnly and expressionlessly: "We are looking for someone." The black cat asked him who he was looking for. A quickly reported a room number and a foreigner's name.Hearing that, the black cat turned around and left.I just let go of my breath, but A has already grabbed my hand and said: "Hurry up." I said in surprise: "Isn't he gone?" A smiled on his face and said: "Yes , He went to check it, and there is no one from the person I mentioned." Saying that, he dragged me out of the gate of Hilton. We were across the road from the Hilton laughing.Accidentally, I was shot several times by A on the shoulder. The silver Hilton is really nice.Even better than C. A said: "What should I do? I was kicked out." I said: "Yes. What should I do?" A said: "But today's efficiency is quite high. Hilton does make sense." We started to walk forward, past Napoleon Bar, the beauty salon of Shanghai Jahwa, many clothing stores, and dear Jing'an Bakery.We walked from Huashan Road to Urumqi Road, and from Urumqi Road to Wuyuan Road, and saw East China Theological Seminary.Then, we walked to Changshu Road - almost a rectangle around it. A quietly found my dangling hand and shook it.I turned my head and met his gaze, so we smiled at each other. If you like someone, you love someone with all your heart—the sky is bright and majestic, embedded with such a line of words. I snatched A's diskman over, held it in my hand, and kept listening, and kept listening. Off the ground, off the ground. Fly around, fly around. Hear the sound, hear the sound. Off the ground, off the ground. A took me from Changshu Road to Huaihai Road. After walking for ten minutes on Huaihai Road, which I never forget, A stopped and said, "It's almost time, let's go home." I followed him to stop, but I didn't want to go home. "I don't want to go home," I said. A smiled gently and said, "If you don't go home, what are you doing?" I looked at the neon lights that had just started to light up in front of me, my chin dropped heavily under my lips, and I muttered stubbornly and slowly: "I I don’t want to go home. I, no, want, go, go home.” A’s brows furrowed, he looked at me, then at the cars driving on the road, and said for a while, “What should I do? I want to go back Home." My heart sank silently to the soles of my feet.I said: "Then you go home." "That's not okay," A said, "or else, I'll ride there with you, and I'll ride back, okay?" I stood on Huaihai Road, staring at A silently. "My house has been moved," I said, "it's not the original place. It's far away from your house now." He smiled and said, "Yes, I haven't been to your house since I moved, and I just went to meet you today." ’ I stared at him, my jaw was about to drop.I said: "You mean, you will come down wherever I come down?" He said: "Yes." I said: "Really?" He said: "Hey, you are the best at a Chinese , don’t make me doubt your comprehension of words anymore.” I laughed and asked, “When will you be home at the latest?” He said, “It doesn’t matter. Now I don’t have an exam task, before ten o’clock You can do it anytime." I heard this, glanced at my watch, and said, "It's five o'clock—hehe." He got alert, jumped a step away, pointed at me, and said, "Hey, what do you want to do? Don’t use your brain! Don’t tell me to go to Qibao.” I smiled and said, “I didn’t mention going to Qibao. Qibao is in the suburbs. I don’t go to Qibao. Why do you go to Qibao?” We talked and walked to the station, I looked up at the license plate, calculated it quickly in my heart, and said: "There are two multiplications, the one with more roads, or the one with less roads?" A said: "Whatever ——Let’s throw a coin.” He took out a coin and said, “The heads belong to Lu Duo, and the tails belong to Lu Shao.” He tossed the coin beautifully, then caught it and put it in his nose I looked at the bottom and showed it to me again—it was the reverse side. "If there are fewer roads, there will be fewer roads." I said bluntly.We stretched our necks and waited for the bus. After waiting for a long time, I laughed happily and said, "You don't know which one has more roads and which one has less roads." A was stunned, and smiled: "Okay, I have to up to you." We took a bus to Zhongshan North Road, and changed to another bus that was hard to squeeze into. When A squeezed up, he couldn't figure it out and said to himself: "Hey, how can there be such a crowded car?" I laughed.He asked angrily, "What are you laughing at?" I said, "There are so many crowded cars on Zhongshan North Road." The car was packed from the beginning to the end, and A and I were obediently caught in the middle, motionless. A stretched his neck and complained: "Oh, this schoolbag of yours is really unbearable." Come. Every time the bus came to a stop, the conductor would loudly call on the people in the carriage to go in and let the people below come up, but no one responded. A whispered: "If the conductor knew what I was doing on this bus, he would definitely pick me up and throw me out—oh, collect the money first, and then throw me out." I laughed until my chest and back seemed to expand—— The people in front of me and behind me were miserable. After another two stops, the car gradually became a little empty. A took me to the window and looked out seriously.After looking at it for a long time, I said, "I don't recognize this place anymore. Is there any landmark building?" I thought for a while, and said, "There is a Hualian supermarket on the corner over there." Expressing disbelief, I said, "Oh, Hualian Supermarket is available everywhere in the city." I smiled and said, "I'll give the fare back to the conductor, and tell her to take the fare back when she makes a round trip." Bring this little friend back." A raised his fist, as if to hit me.I yelled: "Children, children!" At this time, a bus in the opposite direction passed us, and I said unbalanced: "Hey, why is this bus so empty?" A slowly Said: "Because you are not on it. When the driver of our car writes the driver's logbook, he must write: There is a big schoolbag like a tumor blocking the traffic." I yelled: "Fart! Where is the driver's logbook?" ? The captain has a log!" A laughed and patted me on the shoulder. It was cloudy again.I put my eyes on the window pane and peered out.There are clusters of dark clouds approaching the sky, the gray sky against the roof and the tall trees, everything looks extremely clear, as if cut out of paper and pasted on this bright gray background. In front of this strange background, someone sang loudly: Off the ground, off the ground. Fly around, fly around. Hear the sound, hear the sound. Off the ground, off the ground. , coming from the end of the sky. I pointed to the six-story building where my house was located, and said, "Here, that's right there, on the fourth floor." A said loudly, "Ah? That's it?!" I said funny, "What do you expect?" A Scratching my scalp, I said, "I don't really expect anything, but I didn't expect it to be this one. It's better to be a small single-family villa." I said, "Fart! If you can figure it out, here it is! It's my father's unit." It’s a house.” A smiled and said, “Oh, really.” He looked across the road, pointed to a gate and asked, “What’s that?” I looked, and said, “You don’t know Reading? Shanghai West Railway Station." He didn't say anything more.I was about to take him to the station when he suddenly said, "Is there a train that can take me to my house?" I laugh out loud.He said seriously: "What's so funny about this? Is there any?" I said: "Yes, there are. There are small trains that run between Nanxiang and downtown Shanghai during commuting hours—but you need a pass." Yes." His face was ashen, and the corners of his mouth dropped.I looked at him and continued, "You can also get involved. I have been around many times, and Shu Mei has been with me once." A smiled, patted my head, and said, "Then take me Let's do it again." My head was warm, and suddenly a drop of rain fell on the tip of my nose, which was very cool. A followed me and went to ride the small train.He was walking behind me on the left, and I turned around and said, "Someone will block the door later, so I can't do anything." He asked, "What do you mean?" I said, "Hey, if someone blocks you, you won't be able to get in. .” When passing the vegetable market, the rain can already be felt by everyone.I said: "My mother is shopping in there." A said: "Oh? It's kind of bad to meet you." After a while, he said: "Your mother doesn't know me—does she not know me? ""Well," I happily agreed, "That's right, I don't know you." After a pause, I said again: "But, she knows me." A laughed. He patted me on the shoulder and said, "Hey, why don't you announce the mock test results to your parents when you go home?" I replied blankly, "Of course I have to tell them. If you don't tell them, won't you be killed?" ?” After a pause, I added: “If you tell them, they will most likely be killed. But there may still be a chance.” A said, “You, you, didn’t realize that you were so sensible before. !” I smiled wryly and said, “I’ve been in this third year of high school, so I can endure anything that I couldn’t bear before, and I can laugh at all the things that used to make me cry.” A smiled, and I smiled too.We met eyes quickly at the staff entrance of the West Station, and then he walked in behind me. I turned around and waved, told A to hurry up, and repeated: "There is nothing you can do if you stop it." A said: "You go in together." "Of course I will accompany you in and take you to the car," I said, " How do you know which car to take?" While talking, he pretended to walk in calmly, and A followed closely. Now that we're on the platform, the drizzle is gleefully falling on us, making me feel like a puppy in the rain - as soon as my nose gets wet and chills, I start fantasizing about myself It's a puppy.I looked at A through the strands of rain and smiled at him. A also smiled at me.In this drizzle, the world looks clearest. I said: "When you arrive at the new passenger station, you go out from the North Square. Don't make a mistake. Once you reach the South Square, you will not be able to go back." After thinking about it, I corrected: "You can go back, but it takes a lot of money. A lot of time." "That's right," said Interface A, "my mother is going to beat me to death and throw me out." I smiled, and continued the previous sentence: "There are always people going down to the new passenger station, most of them You have to go out from the North Square, and you follow along, don’t pay attention to the black cat at the door, just like you would deal with Hilton’s black cat.” A patted me on the shoulder and laughed.I said anxiously: "Don't laugh, I'm here to tell you seriously. If you don't look at him, he won't stop you. If you look at him, he will stop you." A became serious and asked: " What if you are stopped by him?" I thought for a while and said, "Normally not. If you stop, you can say that you are taking a passenger car." A stayed for a long time, and said, "Or I will say Du Shuang Xiao’s name is ready. Doesn’t her mother work in the new passenger station? Ah,” I said impatiently, “If you really want to stop me, just say that you forgot to bring your ID. He will never lock you up—— It's not interesting to shut you up." We looked at each other and smiled. After waiting for a quarter of an hour, A muttered, "Aren't you coming? Well, you tricked me in." He walked towards a pillar more than one meter away from us, stood still, and said to me: " Alas, I actually got it ("Huide" means "will" in Shanghai dialect) to accompany you on the bus, and I got to come here with you." I laughed smugly.He shouted, "What are you laughing at?" I comforted him and said, "There will always be a car coming within a quarter of an hour. Probably one of them will be dropped." He calmed down, walked back smiling, and folded his hands on his chest. Just then a train roared past.When it was far away, A said: "I have never seen a train passing by like this." I stared at him in surprise and said: "Isn't it?" Of course it doesn't count on the train," he explained, "There is no stop." To be in a place like this, to see it so close—it's wonderful!" I said, "I've seen it so many times. He didn't speak right away, but reached out and wiped his face to wipe off some rainwater, and said, "I'm so happy."When buying a house in the future, you must buy this kind of house close to the train station. "Fart!" I said, "It's a pity that our family has to move again, to Pudong—" At this moment, another train passed by, and A opened his mouth and yelled at it.All his voices were those of the locomotive. I watched him, fine rain fell on my lips.In the blink of a thousandth of a second, I thought of the stranger who kissed me in physics tuition class.My lips are getting moist again.And at this very moment, I watch A—my mind is confused and sad. The place where we stood was leaning against a pool with a lot of water taps on it. A walked around, pointing at them and saying, "Why are you putting this up here?" I seldom seized an opportunity to laugh at him, and said, "Hey, there are train stations, there are all of them. Once a station arrives, people always have to come down." Wash your face, move your legs and feet—and add some water.” He showed a contemptuous look, as if he thought what I said was ridiculous, and said with gestures: “Ah, when I arrive at a station, I have to come down to wash my face? Oh , took a towel down?" I was a little hairy, and argued: "Yes. That's how it is. On the train, after walking a certain distance and arriving at a station, it must be cleaned up, and the flight attendant is also responsible for refilling the water. , or where is the water on the car?" A looked at me, smiled at me, and said, "Okay. You are the mother-in-law here, so I will trust you." I said playfully, "Aren't you also Is it your land father?" He said: "No. We have Du Shuangxiao as the land mother-in-law, it's not my turn." I laughed and said: "That's what I mean. Here, you are the land father, She is the mother-in-law of the land." Before I finished speaking, I was about to run away, but before I finished speaking, a hand came to pinch my neck quickly.I yelled, jumped a few feet, and jumped away. A pointed at me with his hand, and said with a grim face: "You bastard!" The car finally came. A went up and walked in the carriage to find a seat, and I followed him below.After sitting down, he stuck out his head and said, "Call me at eight o'clock. If I haven't come home yet, tell my mother that I was detained at the train station and ask her to pick it up." I said, "Fart !” He turned his head, looked into the carriage, and said, “There is no one in this carriage.” I was a little surprised, and I looked around—there was no one—and I couldn’t think of anything for a while. He said, "Oh, it's pretty good." He turned his head again and said, "There is a bicycle." I smiled.He said, "Maybe it's a ghost's bicycle in this carriage. Maybe I wasn't impounded, but was killed by this ghost." My face changed, and I said, "Hey, don't say such things " He smiled happily, stretched out his hand, handed me a note, and said, "Here, this is for you." I took it in my hand, but didn't open it right away——I felt a very uneasy feeling in my heart, as if Really afraid that there is a ghost in the car. The train screeches. A smiled at me from the window.I kept looking at him, kept looking at him, and then, for some reason, I blurted out: "When you get off the bus, you have to go out from the North Square, and walk with many people, you know?" He smiled and looked at him from the window. I said, "Got it!" The train was rumbling and we were both yelling. A put his hand on the top of my head for the nth time, and said softly: "Okay, you know? Go home and do your homework. There is enough time." I nodded, still holding his diskman in my hand.There is still a most beautiful voice in my ears singing over and over again, singing endlessly, singing it for a lifetime, and singing it for several lifetimes. The car moved, and I waved to him.He sat quietly, smiling at me.At this moment, I suddenly thought of one thing: when I walked to the station just now, he asked me, what do I do when I work in Nanxiang? The chef of steamed stuffed buns! He laughed and said, oh, take a minibus every day to make small steamed stuffed buns? I smiled and watched the car go away, and A also went away.So I crossed the tracks, exited the station, and headed home. The note A gave me in the palm of my hand gently touched my skin.I opened it up—it was the lyrics to “Off The Ground”—which A probably just scribbled down at the Hilton while I was working on analytic geometry. There must have been a lot of heartache For you to sink so low. You must have a ton of pressure. Only answer if the answer's no. I need loving, you need loving too. Doesn't take a lot to get off the ground. There must have been a lot of magic When the world was born. Let me be the one you wish for, One you call for, when you're all alone. I need loving, you need loving too. Wouldn't take a lot to get off the ground. Off the ground, off the ground. Fly around, fly around. Hear the sound, hear the sound. Off the ground, off the ground. Thought it takes a lot of power To make a big tree grow. It doesn't need a pot of knowledge, For a seed knows what a seed must know. You need loving, I need loving too. Doesn't take a lot to get off the ground. Off the ground, off the ground. Fly around, fly around. Hear the sound, hear the sound. Off the ground, off the ground. Hear the sound, hear the sound. Off the ground, off the ground. Yeah yeah, off the ground. The rain was falling densely—it didn't know when it started to thicken.When I was on the platform, I asked A why the rain doesn't fall the same way—sometimes it's big and round, and sometimes it's like this. A said that it was because of the strong wind in the sky, which scattered the rain, so it was not so clear. Off the ground, the singing of off the ground fell down from the windy place in the sky like raindrops.