I convinced myself to accept the reality, and one month after graduation, I found a job in mechanical sales. Every day, when I sit in my office and watch the sun rise and set from the window, it feels like youth is irretrievably passing by. At that time, I was extremely dissatisfied with everything in my life. I couldn't understand the people and things around me. I thought everyone was stupid except myself. When I lost my ideals and Zhou Zhou, when I walked out of the campus ignorantly , started to squeeze the bus to and from get off work from 8 to 5, and was criticized by the mean boss from time to time because of work mistakes but still let him be at his mercy. Only then did I realize that I was actually a veritable member of the ranks of idiots, and one of the most idiots among them.

There is a price to pay for growing up, for which I lost four years of my youth.In the process, I learned anger, patience, cynicism, and numbness.Dreams have less and less appeared in my sleep, replaced by thunderous snoring and long sleep, youthful vigor and fresh blood have disappeared from me, and I can even describe myself as "old-fashioned". The four years of university have passed, and the touching stories and vivid faces are fading in the depths of my memory, becoming unrecognizable and fragmented. A year is almost over, and I am waiting for the news of Zhou Zhou's return...

"Grassy Years Ⅰ——The Story of Peking X University Ending"