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Jing didn't have time to visit Cong Wei in the future, and what happened to Cong Wei caused a lot of waves.Big and small newspapers are all follow-up reports of Cong Wei, and people continue to go to the psychiatric hospital to interview Cong Wei and secretly take photos of her.Cong Wei in the photo is eating a bowl of rice with dull eyes. She is still wearing the long gray gown, and her hair is messy and withered.There is also her who is shrinking in the corner, looking at the camera with her usual terrified eyes, full of resentment.They also found the messy fragments written by Cong Wei from the wastebasket in Cong Wei's room, and studied whether there was Xiaozhuo in Cong Wei's incomplete memory.They kept arguing and discussing Cong Wei's story.For example, when did Cong Wei start to have a nervous breakdown, and whether her novels were completed in a rational state, or were they more or less crazy?

Epilepsy... They frequently went to the nursing home to "visit" Cong Wei, asking questions.Cong Wei closed the doors and windows, shrank in the corner of the room and screamed in horror.Those who are more patient among them will keep guarding the door, while those who are impatient will even violently break open the doors and windows, asking Cong Wei to answer their questions.They seemed to be sure that Cong Wei had no relatives around her, so they bullied her cruelly like this. Every day brings new evidence and new discoveries.The whole sanatorium is restless all day long, and it has become the base of many tabloid reporters.Not only Cong Wei, but the lives of other mentally ill patients have also been greatly affected. There have been several fights between mentally ill patients and reporters... There is even a film and television company planning to make a TV series based on Cong Wei's experience. : "Reflect a female writer's bumpy emotional and literary path, and reproduce her rich and splendid spiritual world." In order to obtain a realistic effect, they specially went to the nursing home where Cong Wei lived to shoot scenes.The superficial actress lazily follows the director's wishes, "learning" Cong Wei's behavior and expression, complaining from time to time that the director wants her to "play crazy and act stupid".Disputes among tabloid reporters, conflicts within the crew, competition among photojournalists... one after another, the nursing home suddenly became a non-stop news-making machine.Just as they were about to calm down, the reporters, fearing that the world would not be chaotic, stuffed photos of Xiao Zhuo and Lu Yihan into Cong Wei's room through the cracks in the door and windows, asked her if she knew these two people, and told her that they were dead... Cong Wei's "recognition of relatives" activity caused Cong Wei to collapse immediately.She yelled and ran out of the room, scratching the reporter's face.And this news, logically, made the headlines of entertainment news the next day.Things got worse and worse, and Cong Wei became a well-deserved "man of the hour" this year.Her book has been printed and reprinted by publishers, and the best-selling rate far exceeds that of any previous period.Cong Wei's novels, Cong Wei's biography, "Exposing X doubts and X mysteries in the Cong Wei incident", "Discussing the emotional life of contemporary female writers", "In-depth analysis of the lonely overseas life of female writers", "Reappearing Taoli Street No. 3 the past twenty years"... All kinds of books related to Cong Wei are selling well, and later even expanded to the field of psychology. If a book such as "Female Psychoanalysis and Famous Cases" is printed on the cover Zhang Congwei's panic-stricken photos also sold a good amount, and later some lectures on "female psychology" were also coordinated with the sales of psychology books, pushing this "psychology book craze" to a climax.For the bleak book market at the end of the year, the hot sales of various books related to Cong Wei are nothing less than a shot in the arm.The carts of book vendors on the street are also filled with many versions of Cong Wei's pirated and low-quality books.They greet you with a well-timed warm voice when you happen to glance at their books:

"Do you want to buy a book? Let's take a look. There is Cong Wei's..." Even Mann hadn't expected the incident to become such a big mess. Jing has seen a series of incidents these days, which made her begin to understand the cruelty of the world, and she also clearly saw the evil roots of people in the world gloating at others' misfortune and benefiting themselves at the expense of others.For Jing, who is new to society, these may come too quickly and too intensely.Before that, she seemed to be still immersed in her own small world, with only a few people around her, entanglement, but she was just thinking about how much she loved, or how sad she was because of parting.Even with her mother, Jing also felt that it was a well-founded confrontation, and they would confront each other in a direct way, without so many traps, without such sinister intentions...

How could Jing and Shen He stand by like this.They went to the nursing home several times to pick up Cong Wei, but they were blocked by reporters, especially the appearance of Jing, which cheered up the reporters who were about to calm down. Everyone began to guess the "hidden secrets" in it, and the more active ones The tabloid made a bold inference that "Jing is Cong Wei's illegitimate daughter".As for the hospital, although they are extremely disgusted with this kind of endless harassment (of course, from another perspective, this is another free advertisement for the hospital), but judging from Cong Wei's condition, the doctor thinks that she Should have stayed in a nursing home.I'm afraid no one knows how much Cong Wei's heart has been traumatized.She went from panic, struggle, and resistance to an exceptionally quiet state.But what's going on under the quiet surface, no one knows.The doctor said that he had to wait for all the reporters to disperse and Cong Wei was completely relieved before he could conduct a comprehensive examination for Cong Wei and get an accurate diagnosis.But when will all the reporters disperse?The only thing Cong Wei can rely on now is Shen He.Only Shen He pushed aside the reporters surrounding the door, came in to visit her, talked to her, and fed her; Afraid of rumors and damage spreading everywhere, he vehemently denounced the despicable behavior of reporters; only Shen He, who is doing mobilization work with little effect, hopes that more people can understand Cong Wei and care for Cong Wei...

Jing didn't stay out of it.But the reality decided that she could not show up in the nursing home, which would only attract more news and right and wrong, fueling this ridiculous wave.In fact, Jing has been thinking about what she can give Cong Wei, or what Cong Wei needs most.Home.Yes, she wants to give Cong Wei a warm home, which may be the best comfort to her wounded heart.No. 3 Taoli Street.She thought of it in the next second.Here and home have always been connected together, it is true for her, and it is also true for Cong Wei.Jing believes that souls are gathered together, and they have always been inseparable from this house related to their destiny.She thought that if she took back No. 3 Taoli Street, she would have a good place for Cong Wei to heal her injuries.It's great that Cong Wei can still live with Xiaoyan.They are all relatives of Xiao Zhuo and should live together, and the injured can best understand the sorrow of others, so they can heal each other.Jing wanted to buy the house, and she learned from the real estate agent that Man's husband, Zheng Peng, had mortgaged the house before his death.However, No. 3 Taoli Street has already become a famous house because of this huge "Cong Wei Incident", and the price has doubled, which is staggering.Even if Jing took out all the money she had saved for publishing books, and added a loan, it was still far from the high price charged by the homeowner.But Jing must get it.It is home.Jing decided to rent it at a high price first, and then slowly figure out a way in the future.

In December, Jing rented No. 3 Taoli Street at a very high price.Jing went to see the house, walked on the unfamiliar Taoli Street, looked around, the high-rise buildings here are full of financial institutions with strong capital, overseas companies, this place is changing every day, a construction site surrounded by low simple walls may change tomorrow Into a new building group composed of Block A, Block B, Block C, etc.Time seems to run many times faster here than elsewhere.The former low-rise buildings on this street have almost been demolished, and most of the private houses have also been relocated.Only No. 3 Taoli Street is still standing alone at the east end of this street, "like a melancholy little white elephant". Jing remembers that this was the first time she came to this house when she was twelve years old.It's interesting to say, I don't know how this Cong Wei farce will affect No. 3 Taoli Street

Say, is it a blessing in disguise?This small building, which was fading with its nearly 40-year history, suddenly became famous, not only soared in value, but also escaped the fate of being demolished.On the contrary, people are looking at it with anticipation, looking forward to how many years later Cong Wei will become a famous female writer who has been passed down from generation to generation and has a reputation overseas, then this house can be used as her former residence for the world to visit. But there is no peace at No. 3 Taoli Street.Jing saw that this already very old two-story building seemed to have become much dimmer in the past few years.The garden was empty—except for a few big video cameras, where film and television companies filmed scenes for TV shows.Jing always remembers that there are many flowers here.When she and Xiao Zhuo passed through here at night, they felt that it was a deep forest.

Jing followed the homeowner through the yard to the door of the small building.The snow is accumulated after many heavy snowfalls, mixed with black mud, stepping on it is deep and shallow, and the pants will inevitably be splashed with mud.The owner opened the door for her: she felt very dark, not sure if it was because of the cloudy weather—she noticed that there were no curtains, and the large glass exposed the internal organs of the house.This seems to be more in line with the appearance of a house with sightseeing value.The furniture in the room was almost emptied—the landlord quickly explained that it was not he who did it, but the hostess who moved away and sold all the furniture.Jing slightly knows about Man's situation, so it's not surprising.The homeowner turned on the light, but the light was not on. The shade of the chandelier was removed, and the exposed light bulb had been broken for an unknown period of time.There was a rain leak at the corner of the stairs, and the homeowner quickly apologized and said that he would send someone to fix it.

Jing went to the kitchen first.The refrigerator was not sold, Jing guessed it must be broken.She walked over and saw the cartoon stickers she and Xiao Zhuo had stuck on the white refrigerator: Mickey Mouse in a magic hat holding the hand of Donald Duck with a pink bow on his head, smiling and bowing The gesture of the curtain call.It's time for the curtain call.Jing's nose was sore, she turned and left.She thought that the landlord must be very surprised that the girl's eyes were red when she looked at a dilapidated refrigerator. Yes, no one knows how many nights of Girls' Generation she spent here.How many nights she and Xiao Zhuo were here, imagining an inevitable growing process on the moonlight boat.

Jing went upstairs.Although everything is old and damaged, it is still so familiar.The furniture in her room was still there, and there was a thick layer of dust on the bare mattress.Counting it, she has never slept in this bed since she went to boarding school at the age of sixteen.The only night when she came back here and thought everything would be rebuilt, she spent with Uncle Lu.She walked gently to Man and Lu Yihan's bedroom.This was a window that she accidentally opened in her ignorant girlhood.The lingering and intense images inside gave her her initial sexual fantasies, and also became a jail that imprisoned her for a long time.She noticed that all the furniture in this room was there, except Man's dresser.This is in line with Man's style-her mother will bring her own dressing table everywhere, Jing can't help laughing when she thinks of this.She was surprised by her own laughter, and she found that the past, even the ones she didn't like, seemed to be so memorable.

The landlord handed over the key to Jing and promised that someone would come to repair it soon.After he left, Jing stood alone in the middle of the empty living room.This place is like an old castle, and what happened in the past is like a bucket of paint, and every corner of this place has been repainted.Gloomy memories are like water oozing from the wall, they interact with each other and become the special air permeating here.Jing suddenly knelt down, hugged her head, covered her face and cried bitterly.She still had fantasies, and someone hugged her tenderly.She didn't know who she wanted that vague image of a man to be.She didn't dare to think about it.But when she came here again, she discovered how cruel it was for her to give up all the memories about this place. She also didn't know if it was too difficult to rebuild the word in an old castle filled with special air. In the next two weeks, Jing began to redecorate No. 3 Taoli Street.The time is too short, and the flowers cannot be planted. She went to the flower market to buy narcissus and oleander. She hates the small flowerpots of ornamental oleanders-she thinks that she will plant them herself next spring.The walls were repainted, and the new white was a little disconcerting.Floor-to-ceiling curtains must be required, and they must be made decently, like accessories for women. She chose lotus-colored printed ones. The patterns are very light, and they can only be seen when the sun is shining during the day.She bought furniture and allocated rooms.She gave Xiao Zhuo's room to Xiaoyan, let Cong Wei live in Lu Yihan's room before, and she and Shen He went to live in her room.As for the study, Jing thinks it is a place to take care of slowly in the future.She wants to buy Uncle Lu's antiques and put them here.The bookcase should be filled with books written by her and Cong Wei's two generations of female writers—God, how many books will be written, Jing thought and laughed. She bought a TV and stereo, she thought they could have a party here, and then they could sing loudly here, how can life be extravagant, Jing thought to herself.Ah, and there are game consoles, Jing thought again, the days of fighting side by side with Shen He holding the controller are really nostalgic. Jing went shopping for new year's goods again, bought all kinds of cheerfully packaged food, and specially bought a lot of fireworks, this time she wanted to set them off by herself.Sitting on the newly purchased dark date-colored cloth sofa, she thought about it, and suddenly felt dizzy.Vomit.Was this period too tiring? She decided to go to the doctor when she went to the hospital to see Xiaoyan in the afternoon. Xiaoyan is still full of hatred for her, if Jing brings her food or clothes, she will definitely throw them out of the window without looking at them.If Jing talks to her or asks her questions, she will spit on Jing's face.That time she strangled Jing's neck fiercely, because she learned that Jing had buried the rotten kitten and goldfish in her schoolbag.But Jing didn't care about these.She thought, what are these compared to her begging outside alone and giving birth to a child alone?Compared with her loss of Xiaozhuo and her own child, what is it?Jing believes it just takes time.She made every effort to visit Xiaoyan, so that one day she would be forgiven.Jing believed it. Jing visited the doctor by the way this afternoon, and learned that she was pregnant.The silent life has actually lived in her body for more than two months.Jing walked out of the hospital very confused.Now she has a lot of thoughts about the word mother, what a roundabout and dignified word it is.It is definitely not as simple as calling "Mom" crisply.She really doesn't know how much effort a woman has to put in to be a competent mother.Not Man, not Cong Wei, not Xiaoyan.How much tolerance and patience are needed to be willing to take on so many responsibilities.Jing thought maybe it shouldn't be wanted, it might be a new grievance, a new exile and a new departure.