Chapter 29 28

After Yumi was imprisoned, Jing began her difficult and hard life.At that time, she and Xiao Zhuo Shang lived in Yumi's hut.Jing will always remember that those subtle sorrows, like wrinkles, are also a kind of wound. Jing became a waitress in a coffee shop.Wear a pink uniform and smile without limits.Serve hot coffee or milk tea or herbal tea steadily, and always remember the price of tiramisu muffins and cookies.Standing during working hours, no time to eat.I often get a small box of cakes that expired that day when I leave work in the middle of the night.She left half for Xiaozhuo, and she left the rest

Grab it on the way to work, and eat while walking.In the past, because I always cared about my weight, things like cakes have been completely quit.But now, Jing often feels hungry, and when hunger breeds in her heart, she will feel extremely wronged.In order to restrain her grievance, she can only make up for it with food.And food was no longer an option for her. Xiao Zhuo also wanted to come out to work, but Jing refused.During that summer vacation, he stayed alone in the small house of 20 square meters, often standing by the window sill in a daze, feeding the small fish over and over again.But he learned to cook, and the happiest thing every day is to cook different meals for Jing.And Jing still often looks at Xiao Zhuo and feels disappointed. His growing up is a dangerous thing for Jing, because he is more and more like his father, leading Jing more and more to return to the past years and obsessions.Perhaps it is also because of this that Jing can't have too much verbal communication with him, or sometimes she is deliberately alienating him, just worried that the illusion in her heart will gradually expand, making their friendship no longer pure.

The dead man turned into a gully between Jing and Xiao Zhuo.None of them can come near.Walking on both sides of the strait in silence. Jing didn't even know that Xiao Zhuo's sleepwalking had become serious again, and now his father had also become a soul far out of reach.Xiao Zhuo was originally a person who had stepped into the void of dreams with one foot, but Lu Yihan's death seemed to have pulled him hard again, making him completely suspended in the dream.No longer anxious about sleepwalking, he now really hopes that his father or mother can take him away.Xiao Zhuo just understood the importance of material things. Now that he is penniless, he can't even care about Jing Jing. what about this?Poverty shuts his mouth, and all words of consolation appear false and comic.He can only pray every day that he will not get sick and cause Jing more trouble.They have all become silent, like two strangers under the same roof, is this what he wants?Didn't they used to sit together on the "raft" made of moonlight and shadows, looking forward to growing up, because when they grow up, everything will be better.

They gradually got used to this small house, even though it had to cut off the water every few days, and it took a long walk to take out the garbage, and there lived a rock fan next door, who often played very loud music, like a rotting His wounds vented his passion and resentment.But there are also colorful walls in this small house. The deep red makes it very warm, and the warm orange floor lamp is like a sweet orange, exuding a fresh and friendly smell.There is a small kitchen. Xiao Zhuo is wearing slippers and pajamas standing next to the stove cooking, and a pot of sweet fruit porridge is stuffed in the small pot.There is a thriving little fish, naughtyly pushes the aquatic plants with its tail, and then runs away quickly like a child who has gotten into trouble.Later, Jing and Xiao Zhuo also discovered that on the attic on the top floor, there was a simple terrace with a flock of gray pigeons on it.They often climb up to see them after dinner.This lonely animal has lost the favor of its owner. They often cry deeply at night, wanting some tender greetings and care.Jing and Xiaozhuo took Mi to see them, and they fell calmly in the palm of their hands, as if they were animals with a destiny with them, and there was no barrier between them.

However, at the end of the vacation, Jing still decided to let Xiaozhuo go to boarding in his high school.The house they live in is very far away from his school and Jing's S University. Besides, Jing still has to work part-time. In addition to his studies, he should have no time to take care of Xiao Zhuo.She hoped that he could study in school with peace of mind and be a simple child.And Jing himself also plans to live in the dormitory of S University, where it will be much cheaper, and the saved money can give Xiaozhuo better material support.She told Xiao Zhuo about this decision, but Xiao Zhuo just remained silent.Jing began to tidy up the room, dividing the things that could be taken away into two parts. She and Xiao Zhuo took them to the school dormitory respectively, but more things, such as furniture, had to be kept.Xiao Zhuo stood at the door holding the fish tank.Jing said, you have to study hard, you don't have time to raise fish, let's give them away.Xiao Zhuo still refused to speak.Jing tidied up his clothes again. He didn't have too many clothes, just a few shirts and jeans that Jing bought for him.She washed them all and folded them neatly.He gave Xiao Zhuo another wad of money and put it in the inner layer of his schoolbag, reminding him to keep it safe.

Then Jing said, we can go.Xiao Zhuo still held the fish tank, looked at Jing sadly, and remained motionless.Jing sighed, blaming him for not being considerate.Jing picked up his schoolbag, carried it on his shoulder, and pushed him, Xiao Zhuo, we have to go.Xiao Zhuo still didn't move.Jing was so sad in her heart, she felt that he was embarrassing herself by doing this, and he couldn't forgive her at all.Jing suddenly became irritable and restless, worried that if they continued to entangle like this, both of them would fall into a state of despair.So Jing said loudly to Xiao Zhuo: "You have to be sensible, you know? I don't have time to take care of you, do you know that?"

Xiao Zhuo looked at Jing with a disappointed expression, put the fish tank on the table, turned and ran away.Jing felt wronged in her heart, but no one could comfort her anymore.Yuya is gone, Uncle Lu is gone.Jing moved the fish tank, his schoolbag, and her luggage one by one to the corridor outside, and locked the door.But don't know where to go.So she sat on the floor in the hallway, waiting for the landlord to come and collect the keys. On the floor of the corridor, holding her legs, Jing gradually fell asleep.The non-stop fatigue for months finally became unbearable for her.Jing doesn't write novels, doesn't read, doesn't go shopping, and doesn't buy any personal luxury goods.In addition to working in a coffee shop, she also goes to work in a supermarket in her spare time. She has a pink uniform and a dark blue uniform, the prices of various snacks, the weight of cabbage and green beans, and so on in her daily life.Jing thought she would have frequent nightmares, Uncle Lu, Yuya, or even her father and grandma.But in fact, she never had a dream.Dreaming is a luxury, you need to straighten your body and wait quietly, and then the dream will slowly float over you like a cloud.But in fact Jing didn't have that time at all, she would jump up soon after she lay down, and ran to work the night shift or pick up the morning shift.So how rough her life is, or this is the way of survival it carefully chose for her, leaving her no time for mourning and sadness. As Yumi said, Jing is a spinning top that has been pumped up, unable stop again.

Jing said in her heart, Xiao Zhuo, do you know?I don't want to be separated from you either.Jing thought of his worried face looking at her, how he resented her so deeply.Jing fell asleep like this, until someone patted her on the shoulder, and she woke up immediately.I saw that it was the landlord who came to pick up the keys.Jing then stood up quickly and took out the key to him.He froze for a moment, and said to Jing: "Your brother just paid next month's rent and said that you will continue to live. Is that so?" Jing looked at him, speechless, but mechanically retracted the hand that had been stretched out to give him the key.She put the key in her pocket.As soon as it arrived in Jing's pocket, there was a clattering sound, like the lively and joyful sound of a lost animal finally being sent home.Jing stopped talking and nodded to him, because she had already seen that Xiao Zhuo was standing behind him.

The landlord is gone.Xiao Zhuo walked over slowly.Jing asked: "Where did you get the money?" "I earn money by helping people make sculptures." He said. Jing suddenly remembered that he often made sculptures at home. She thought it was his art class homework, so it was.Jing stopped talking. Xiao Zhuo walked a little closer, and said to Jing: "Miss, I dreamed about my father last night." "Really? He still prefers you. You see, he never comes to my dreams." Jing said sourly, with a lot of grievances and grievances in her heart, as if she was really competing with Xiao Zhuo for favor.

"No, he came for your business." Xiao Zhuo said. "Oh? My business?" Jing's heart moved. "Yeah. He told me that Miss Sister is too tired. You have to listen to her and don't make her angry. You want to live together and love each other, you know?" Xiao Zhuo imitated his father's tone.He and his father already had similar eyebrows and expressions, and when he stood here talking like this, Jing suddenly couldn't tell who he was. Jing finally shed tears again, and nodded: "You help me tell Uncle Lu that Jing will take good care of Xiao Zhuo, and love Xiao Zhuo and will not be separated."

"Father said that he was very relieved to hear it." Xiao Zhuo quickly answered Jing, smiling slightly, like an elf traveling between two worlds.Xiao Zhuo helped Jing pick up the luggage at the door, Jing took out the key from his pocket, and opened the door again.Looking around the room, there are dark red cloth walls and long columnar paper floor lamps.The little fish in the fish tank are still playing happily without knowing the world. Living in them is just a harmonious cruising, without oppression or concealment.All truth is water, sunlight and food to them. This is their home, it is like a mushroom that drilled out of the ground silently in the rainstorm. Although it can only resist the meager rain, it is also a comforting umbrella.Jing saw a few pigeons living on the roof of their building falling on the window sill. They looked at them infinitely tenderly. This is their kindest and friendly neighbor. fall in love.