Chapter 10 8.Lame girl Duan Xiaomu

7-year-old Duan Xiaomu became a primary school student in Xigendao Street Primary School and the only disabled student.In fact, thinking about it, Duan Xiaomu still feels very lucky. When she was an orphan, she was not sent to the orphanage, but stayed in the kindergarten; when she became a disabled child, she was not sent to the orphanage. Sent to a school for the handicapped, but stayed at the elementary school on West Gendao Street.She still thanks God for that. The image of Duan Xiaomu driving back and forth on crutches to this small street every day, with a big head, slender body and solid khaki wooden brackets on both sides, was once photographed by a college student studying photography and won the photography award of the year .Duan Xiaomu once again became the object of public tears of sympathy after her mother died.Duan Xiaomu's growth process was full of pity. She will always be the character in a big play who thinks of it and tears will fill her eyes when she thinks about it.

Duan Xiaomu fell from the swing and injured his right leg that time.She lay unconscious in the hospital for many days before waking up.Her right leg was broken, and there was a heavy plaster cast on the leg. She knocked it down lightly, and the whole leg was as hard and cold as a freshly painted wall. "I wanted to swing so much, I forgot that I had a heart attack, and then I fell down." Duan Xiaomu explained.Granny Li looked at her full of doubts, but she didn't say anything, she just put her arms around her, and gently rubbed her chin on Duan Xiaomu's thinning hair. Ji Yan often visits her too.Ji Yan wore a low hat that covered his eyebrows and eyes, with his hands in his pockets, standing beside her bed without saying a word.Duan Xiaomu could tell that Ji Yan had undergone a huge change after witnessing the swing incident.Ji Yan was originally an overly kind-hearted boy, and his soft heart could not withstand any hard scratches.And that brutal bloody murder caused Ji Yan to be picked up and put into a terrifying world that he didn't want to see.Du Wanwan was originally an extremely cute girl in his heart, but Duan Xiaomu was an extremely poor girl worthy of the pity of the whole world in his heart.But the extremely cute girl wants to stand up and kill the extremely poor girl.Ji Yan's soft heart was stabbed heavily, he stood in front of Duan Xiaomu's bed for a long time, tears streaming from his dazed eyes.

Duan Xiaomu knew that he was thinking about what happened on the swing that day.She was also thinking about it, every moment, all the time.It was not an accident, of course she knew that.She was thinking about Du Wanwan's motivation for doing so.She doesn't hold grudges against Du Wanwan, because Du Wanwan is the only person in this big and empty world who has the same feelings as Duan Xiaomu, she makes her feel that there are relatives in this world.She thought there must be a reason why Du Wanwan treated her like this.At this moment, she was lying on the hospital bed, thinking hard, and she just wanted to help Du Wanwan come up with a reasonable reason, why did she treat her like this.

However, one night, the angina pectoris broke out -- Duan Xiaomu's heart disease has worsened since the last time he swung violently on the swing, and the pain always came more violently.In the middle of the night, another girl's sleep talking and moaning came from her deep pain.She could clearly hear that it was the voice of Du Wanwan in pain.She suddenly sat up from the sick bed, and she finally understood the reason, it was because of the angina, because whenever Duan Xiaomu got sick, no matter how far away she was, Du Wanwan would feel the same pain.It was because of this connection of touch that the innocent Du Wanwan had to be tied to a patient like her, and the healthy Du Wanwan also had the shadow of a serious illness.Duan Xiaomu was very sad, no one understood the severity of angina pectoris better than her, the poor little girl Du Wanwan, she definitely couldn't bear it.

Duan Xiaomu knelt by the window of the ward under the bright moonlight, praying softly to God, she begged him to release Du Wanwan's pain, voice, everything related to Duan Xiaomu.She begged Du Wanwan to let Du Wanwan go and come to her. She should bear the cause of these illnesses. Duan Xiaomu felt that her feelings for Du Wanwan had deepened, and she wanted to find her, hug her, and apologize to her personally.She is her little sister, the little sister who is dependent on each other, they should care for each other and support each other.However, Duan Xiaomu immediately said to herself:

"What can I do to help her?" She shook her head, sat on the bed and continued to make dancing figures—all the pocket money Granny Li gave her was bought into colorful candies.Duan Xiaomu is not interested in candy itself, she also followed Du Wanwan's example and stuffed candy affectionately into the mouths of other children, she just kept the candy wrapper.She smoothed out the candy wrappers and folded them into colorful dancing figures.But behind Duan Xiaomu's calm movements was a conscience that made her restless.She thought she wanted to see Du Wanwan as soon as possible, and talk to her about her guilt.

When Ji Yan came to visit Duan Xiaomu again, Duan Xiaomu begged Ji Yan eagerly: "Take me to see Du Wanwan. You have been to her house, and you know where she lives. Take me there. I have something to tell her." "She was the one who wanted to kill you." Ji Yan looked at her in bewilderment. "Take me there. This is all my fault. I want to reconcile with her. I have something to tell her, and we will reconcile after we finish talking." Duan Xiaomu still begged.Her eager desire to see Du Wanwan made her thin body tremble constantly, and the whole bed was moved by it.

"Let's wait for your leg to heal." Ji Yan evaded. "Tomorrow will be fine!" Duan Xiaomu said happily when she heard Ji Yan promised her. From the doctor's point of view, the girl's request was a bit unreasonable. She even asked to remove the plaster cast on her leg early.The doctor kindly advises: "You are still so young and don't understand the consequences. Your legs haven't grown well yet, and if they are misplaced, you will become a cripple." Duan Xiaomu shook his head: "No, no, I will rest at home." The doctor still disagrees. What would a six-year-old girl know?She doesn't even know how to love her own body.

In the afternoon, Ji Yan came to see Duan Xiaomu.Duan Xiaomu suddenly cried helplessly.Her face was covered in water like a doll that fell into the water, and she was lifeless.Duan Xiaomu shook Ji Yan's arm and said: "Let me out! Take me to see Du Wanwan." Ji Yan was terrified by Duan Xiaomu's desperate expression.He didn't know what to do. "I have to go and explain it to her right away. I think it's going to be too late, I can feel it, it's going to be too late." Duan Xiaomu was sitting on the hospital bed crying, which couldn't help moving Ji Yan.Ji Yan said:

"But your legs are still wrapped around this, how do you walk?" Duan Xiaomu said: "Come and help me, let's remove this, and I can leave." Ji Yan only looked at her suspiciously, not knowing what to do.But in the heart of the six-year-old Ji Yan, he really didn't understand the true meaning of the plaster. He didn't know why Duan Xiaomu's leg was tied with this hard thing, so that her leg could not move.He was very sure that this plaster must have made Duan Xiaomu uncomfortable, and he thought he should help Duan Xiaomu get rid of this uncomfortable thing.He asked again:

"Are you sure, if I remove this thing, your leg will be fine?" "Yes, yes, and then you take me to find Du Wanwan, okay?" Duan Xiaomu nodded again and again with a sincere expression on his face. "Okay." Ji Yan finally agreed.He found a fruit knife and cut open the plaster bit by bit. The plaster gradually cracked completely.He took them away one by one.Finally, there was only a small piece of gauze wrapped around Duan Xiaomu's leg.They all laughed.Ji Yan felt that he had done a great thing, he rescued Duan Xiaomu.Duan Xiaomu also felt that she was finally released, she immediately jumped out of bed, her legs hurt heavily as soon as they touched the ground.But she held on to the bed or stopped.Then she took off her hospital gown and wore only her long, baggy skirt—just enough to cover the wound.Then she said to Ji Yan: "Let's go." Ji Yan and the bumpy Duan Xiaomu walked out of the hospital.When leaving the gate of the hospital, Duan Xiaomu tried her best to straighten her chest, and her legs didn't show any signs of walking. She definitely didn't look like a patient, but a visiting patient. She escaped smoothly. The guard looked at him, and Ji Yan came to the main road.They were all very happy, so even though Duan Xiaomu felt leg pain at the moment, she refused to say it, because she saw Ji Yan beside her at the moment full of a sense of accomplishment as a hero. The hospital is not far from the kindergarten and Du Wanwan's home.They will be here soon.When going upstairs, Duan Xiaomu felt very strenuous, Ji Yan pulled her up every step tightly.Finally came to Du Wanwan's house.Ji Yan knocked on the door.It was Du Wanwan's father who opened the door.Duan Xiaomu immediately saw the exuberant warmth.This man once took her to eat three-color ice cream. She liked that ice cream so much, because she heard from Du Wanwan's father that it was Du Wanwan's favorite.Du Wanwan's favorite, which in itself made Duan Xiaomu like it.Now she saw this gentle and amiable father again.She smiled at him and asked: "Uncle, is Du Wanwan here?" "Oh, she's gone. She and her mother have gone to Luocheng. Our family is about to move, to Luocheng. ——Will you come and play with her? Come, come in and sit down." The gentle and amiable father said with a smile. Duan Xiaomu felt that everything was in vain.Her whole leg ached like it was splitting open.She shook her head and said: "We won't go in." She pulled Ji Yan and turned to leave.Du Wanwan's father said again: "By the way, Xiao Mu, last time you told me that your father was lost and he hasn't come to see you for a long time, so now? Has he come back?" His tone was full of pity for her. "No. He didn't." Duan Xiaomu shook her head, she suddenly felt that she had already lost the confidence that her father would come back, but she always tried her best to hide it from everyone including herself.Now at this time she had lost all hope.Duan Xiaomu is an orphan. She has no father for a long time, and Du Wanwan also tried her best to get rid of her and get rid of her.She was so sad that she was about to cry. Duan Xiaomu grabbed Ji Yan's hand and hurried downstairs.When she walked downstairs, she was already stumbling, she let go of Ji Yan's hand, and walked slower and slower.Behind is the voice of Du Wanwan's father: "You guys are going to Luocheng to play with Wanwan in the future!" Ji Yan walked in front of her, muttering: "She must be afraid to see you, so she ran away." There was no answering voice behind him.Then he said again: "Are you going back to the hospital now?" There was no answer behind him, but there was a heavy sound—he looked back, and Duan Xiaomu had already fallen to the ground.Ji Yan could only hear the faint wind at night, he felt as if everything had returned to the swing, and he was facing the unconscious girl lying on the cold ground again.Only then did he faintly feel that he had caused a catastrophe. Duan Xiaomu was sent to the hospital again.The doctors were very angry. The girl broke the plaster cast without her leg recovering and ran out of the hospital.The broken bones that she had reattached before were all dislocated because of this walk.Even if it is connected again, the two legs will become short and long.She has since become a cripple who can only walk with the help of crutches. When Duan Xiaomu fully recovered from her illness and returned to the kindergarten on crutches, the summer vacation of the kindergarten had already arrived, and all the children were gone.At the moment it looks like a deserted manor.All toys in kindergarten are old.The red paint on the slide has faded, and a puddle of rainwater has accumulated on the uneven slideway; the seesaw is missing a board for the seat, and the straight iron frame is like a sword pierced into the sky; the swing, Duan Xiaomu saw the swing, oh , her, her and her swing.Duan Xiaomu walked to the swing again.This place used to be so intense.She could think of the whole world upended she felt when she was on the swing, and she could feel the resentment hidden behind the sweet singing of the girl behind her, the anger pouring over her like a mountain.At this time, Duan Xiaomu missed her dear little sister so much, the little sister who resented her and tried to murder her.Duan Xiaomu always judges Du Wanwan's mood from the voice sounding deep in her ears, and prays for her, wishing her to be happy.She loves her, she wishes she could understand. That afternoon when she returned to kindergarten, Duan Xiaomu threw away her crutches, sat on the swing, and swung gently by herself.She thinks that there will be another heart's perception in a very far away place, she can know it, Duan Xiaomu misses Du Wanwan so much. It was only later that Ji Yan realized the seriousness of the matter.It was he who broke the plaster cast on Duan Xiaomu's leg. It was he who broke Duan Xiaomu's leg with the so-called "rescue". It was broken forever and could not be restored.Maybe this incident was just a kind of fear and panic to the six-year-old Ji Yan. As he grew older, this incident became his eternal sorrow. He always returned to that night with the deepest regret, He, who was ignorant, knocked off her plaster cast, and at that time he actually showed a sense of complacency.In these regretful memories, he can no longer tell the difference between him and Du Wanwan. If the damage Du Wanwan caused to Duan Xiaomu can be redeemed and made up for, the damage he caused to Duan Xiaomu can never be reversed. .He has always resented Du Wanwan in his heart, but what is the difference between him and her? However, although Duan Xiaomu often cried sadly facing this leg that could no longer walk normally, as long as Ji Yan came, she would definitely say: "I did it myself. I was too impatient." In any case, since Ji Yan accidentally witnessed the accident when he was six years old, Ji Yan and Duan Xiaomu have had an inseparable connection.After that, Ji Yan always visited Duan Xiaomu every now and then, whether Duan Xiaomu lived in the hospital or later she moved to Granny Li's house. When he was 12 years old, Ji Yan's family also moved to Luocheng.Intuition told Duan Xiaomu that this seemed to be Ji Yan's own choice.He really wanted to see Du Wanwan again, even though he always said how much he hated her.On the last night when Ji Yan was about to leave, Duan Xiaomu walked to Ji Yan's house with difficulty.She stood at the door and said again in a pleading tone: "If you find Du Wanwan in Luocheng, can you tell her that I really want to see her? Or, or, come back and tell me, and take me to see her." Ji Yan went to Luocheng like this.One year, two years, many years, he failed to find Du Wanwan, but he insisted on taking the train from Luocheng to Licheng to return to Licheng every month to visit Duan Xiaomu. "Du Wanwan still hasn't been found." Ji Yan said sadly while sitting in the simple hut where Duan Xiaomu and Granny Li lived.Ji Yan looked around at the hut that was as damp as a cave and as dark as a cellar, and then looked at the disappointed Duan Xiaomu—she looked more and more like a dragonfly, with big eyes and a slender body. Ji Yan felt the cruelty of God.God is a word that Ji Yan frequently heard from Duan Xiaomu. With a happy and satisfied tone, she used it to describe her father's respect and closeness, and said about God. Ji Yan never understood where Duan Xiaomu got such great strength, which made her firmly believe that God was especially kind to her, and she passionately loved Du Wanwan who pushed her off the swing.