Chapter 11 disappear (1)

I turned off the lights... let the darkness surround me... Because I wish I could imagine what it's like for her to be in the dark at the same time... It turns out that in the dark...the easiest thing to feel...is loneliness... She must be lonely right now...but how am I supposed to be with her? ... Half asleep and half awake... I seem to see a beautiful butterfly... reduced to ashes in the sea of ​​fire... And that red spot... gradually turned from light red to crimson...and finally turned blood red... devouring me... Is it because of the cold beer? ...I suddenly feel cold all over...

And that coolness... actually went straight to the bottom of my heart... As the time gets closer to a quarter past three...my heart beats faster... Go online with guest! ...Because I am jht... So going online as a guest does not mean that "I" is online... She's online... Query her... Sure enough, she's not online... My heart is beating fast...but the temperature of my heart is still very low... It was not easy until 12:00 noon... I got online with jht excitedly and nervously... But she's not online... so she's in the online friend list... Only jht alone...waiting for FlyinDance alone...

However, there was an email she sent me... ※ Sender: FlyinDance (Qingwufeiyang) Title: 1998/01/01 Date: Thu Jan 110:43:291998 Dear jht: Originally, I just wanted to settle my thoughts in the dark... carefully savor the memories we have together... I didn't expect to be in the darkness... I only felt lonely... Especially when I heard the whistling sound of your wild wolf locomotive getting farther and farther away... My disappointing tears fell again... Ruffian... Can you understand my loneliness? ... I still couldn't overcome my long-standing habit, so I secretly used guest to go online at a quarter past three...

Don't blame me! ? ... :P Let me query you... you are not online... Should I be glad that my trust in you is not wishful thinking? ...or should we sigh? ... It's daylight... well... it's time to leave... Should bring something related to you...just bring that movie ticket stub! ... and then? ...I can't take what I want to take away...I can't take off what I shouldn't take... When you received this email, I should be on a flight to Taipei... Can you feel me smiling at you at a height of ten thousand? ... :) Maybe today's plane can't climb to 10,000 because my heart is heavy... :(

Go see the mail in my mailbox! ...that records the bits and pieces since our acquaintance... And the diary I wrote on the BBS...it's a diary...it seems a bit inappropriate... Because I only record my mood on a few special days... Please read in order, after reading, you can delete or keep it... The decision is yours... Because I probably don't have a chance to go online... The password is my birthday... 19760315... Go check it out! ... Fly in Dance ps. Ruffian...don't be in a daze...go! ... I didn't expect that she could even count my daze... She really is an S-shaped girl...

I quickly went online with FlyinDance... The mail in the mailbox only has the two IDs of jht and FlyinDance as the sender... I'm not in the mood to read the emails I sent... directly to her first BBS diary... ※ Sender: FlyinDance (Qingwufeiyang) Title: 1997/09/18 Date: Thu Sep 1823:22:471997 Today is the first day of school... Shameful Chengda University... unexpectedly chose the date of the September 18th Incident to start school... Clearly disrespecting compatriots who were massacred by the Japanese army! ... In order to commemorate the innocent victimized compatriots... I skipped school today to express my condolences...

I was sitting in the Banyan Garden... I felt very bored... I just walked around the campus... I walked through the underpass...to the successful campus belonging to the engineering school... Walking on "Engineering College Road"...the trees on both sides are majestic and beautiful...the sun shines gently through the leaves Come…… This kind of gentle sunshine is the limit I can enjoy... I can't help humming a song... I danced lightly... The boys here are full of vigor... different from the bookish atmosphere of the boys in the Faculty of Arts... The information building looks quite spectacular...give it some face...my girl is here too... :)

A lot of people are playing BBS...I also go to join in the fun...and register a new ID at the Chengda Research Station... Since the appearance of this girl overturned the law of "there are no beautiful women on the Internet"... My previous ID was often harassed by many boring male IDs... :( Every time I go online... there are a bunch of emails in my mailbox...the content is all about wanting to make friends with me... Some show off their writing skills... some think they are humorous... some pretend to be sincere... some pretend to be chic... snort! ...I don't care... :~ It's all my roommate Xiaowen's fault! ...Every time I go to meet netizens, I will be dragged there...

She says it's called risk sharing...in case she gets scared by a bunch of frogs...and it's me who gets scared... On the Internet...boys call the fungus a dinosaur...girls call the fungus a frog... Boys say "there are no beautiful women on the Internet"... Girls retort that "the Internet is full of frogs"... But some frogs still think they are princes... longing to be kissed by the princess and turn back into princes... Xiao Wen said that a frog is a frog...even if a beautiful woman goes to bed with him...he is still a frog... :) So what kind of ID and name should I change? ...

Thinking of Qing Wu on the Road to the Engineering College just now... The joyful mood resurfaced again... It's nice to be young... :) Just call it "Qing Wu Fei Yang"...the ID is FlyinDance...I am Flying in Dancing! ... I also modeled on this mood... I wrote down my plan... I hope I will always be young and flying... What a great day...leaving the classroom is right... :P ※ Sender: FlyinDance (Qingwufeiyang) Title: 1997/09/22 Date: Thu Sep 2223:14:521997 Xiao Wen went out on a date again at night...leaving me alone watching TV... :( TV news said that Chen Jinxing confronted the police in Yonghe...

As a result, the two sides did not fire a single shot...and let him escape... Luckily I'm not at Yonghe's house...otherwise I won't be able to sleep tonight... I'm online... New ID, new atmosphere... Go to each board to hang out... I also ran to the mantalk board that I never visit...to listen to the calls of the frogs... There is an interesting article...I paid attention to the author...his name is jht... What a shame! ... What ID! ... none of the three letters j, h, and t is a vowel ... how difficult it is to pronounce! ... I read a foreign language... I really can't stand this kind of ID that is almost ignorant of English... And his nickname is even more idiotic... It's actually called "Ruffian Cai"! ...Xonga est... Xiaowen said that if the frog's nickname sounds good, it may not be good...but if it sounds bad, it must be bad... So I figured he must be a toad... I secretly went to query his plan...but I saw the interest... He said: "If you pour out all the water in the Pacific Ocean, it will not quench the fire of my love for you. Can all the water in the entire Pacific Ocean be poured out? ……no. So I don't love you. "... If Xiaowen saw it... he would definitely say he was farting... But I'm a lady...so I reserve the right not to swear... What kind of person is this guy? ... Really ruffian? ...or just an English idiot? ... Why does he have an angelic writing style...but a devilish nickname? ... I searched for his articles everywhere... This toad can jump... Many boards have his articles... Letter board... Story board... Baseball board... Even went to the Ladytalk board at the dinosaur camp to scream... Aren't you afraid of being trampled flat by a dinosaur? ... Anyway, it was boring... So I emailed him... and told him that I think his plan is very interesting...:~ Before ending today's diary... I have been wondering... Because this is the first time I take the initiative to send a mail to a completely unfamiliar ID... Why do I have such courage and impulse? ...was Xiaowen leading you into trouble? ... Is it really just because I'm "bored anyway"? ... ※ Sender: FlyinDance (Qingwufeiyang) Title: 1997/09/30 Date: Tue Sep 3023:48:061997 This afternoon, I went to the "Fei Leng Cui" on Dongfeng Road to have afternoon tea with Xiaowen... The atmosphere is very comfortable...:)...Only the two of us on the first floor... I ordered a cup of lavender flavored tea.. what a rare treat.. Because I love coffee...never actually drink tea at tea time... Probably influenced by the attentive and convincing words of the clerk! ... When I went online at night, I received the first virgin email belonging to FlyinDance... It's from that english idiot toad jht... He said he waited a few days.I hope to meet me online... But the sky is not what I want... I have to send Mail with hatred... How can heaven not obey people's wishes? ...Maybe God listens to me better! ... :P He said to prove that I was prescient..he will work hard to train himself to be a funny person.. train? ...is it interesting to use for training? ...Looks like there's something wrong with his head... It's so pitiful...when a graduate student has no IQ and English level...it is indeed worthy of sympathy... :) But his mail is very different from his post on the board... His posts are very masculine...often hitting the nail on the head and leaving no stone unturned... But his mail... has a gentle and slender smell... like? ……Seems? ... It seems to be the cup of lavender tea in the afternoon... ※ Sender: FlyinDance (Qingwufeiyang) Title: 1997/10/05 Date: Sun Oct 523:50:351997 A rare holiday... What's even more rare... Xiao Wen didn't have a date today! ... I went shopping with her at Shin Kong Mitsukoshi Department Store... because there is a leather bag sale on the 13th floor... Lunch is also settled in Mitsukoshi...Korean-style tofu noodle soup...so spicy that Xiaowen shed tears... She said that hot girls really shouldn't eat spicy food...otherwise it will be more spicy...Spice yourself first before it's spicy... I have my eye on a brown backpack...its color, decoration and shape... Reminds me of Cappuccino coffee... I bought it without hesitation... Wearing this backpack...it's like sipping a cup of sweet but strong Cappuccino coffee... Hmm ... so good ...:) ... It's a bit like falling in love ... isn't it? ... :P Ziyan has been working since the night of 10/1... Could it be a deliberate protest against "that" National Day? ? ... It didn't return to normal until last night... During these three days... I tried every means to connect to Ziyan... Is there any treasure in funding research? ...and I don't get BBS syndrome...why do I have to be online? ... Even if you want to read articles... just go to another station! ...Why do you have to go to research? ... Is it just because Ziyan has the toad jht? ... I finally received the second email from him today... I feel like I have found a treasure... I read his mail over and over again... Feeling at ease...and excited... :) Suddenly I really want to drink a cup of fragrant Cappuccino... ※ Sender: FlyinDance (Qingwufeiyang) Title: 1997/10/10 Date: Fri Oct 1023:53:261997 Today is "Double Cross", I deliberately slept until after two o'clock in the afternoon...:～ In fact, it's all the fault of the frog! ...The online time is always in the middle of the night... No...the correct statement should be at the end of the fourth watch... I was waiting for him last night...and I was praying to dear God...hoping to meet a frog... Waited until around two o'clock in the morning... I accidentally fell asleep... Idle for 40 minutes... I was kicked off the station... What's even more annoying...he went online at three o'clock...and then sent me the sixth email... He said he wanted me to be happy... Happy size! ... Didn't he know that a military plane crashed? ... Idiot... Could it be that his head is cursed? ... It's really annoying... What are you doing without sleeping in the middle of the night? ... It's rare to have a three-day holiday with today's holiday, tomorrow's no class, and the day after tomorrow... Maybe this girl is in a good mood...you can go out with him... snort! ...don't expect me to wait for him tonight... :( Huh? ...Why don't I call him a toad today? ...and call him a frog instead? ... And...why am I waiting for him? ...and why would I want to see him? ... Could it be that I... I... I will miss him? ...