Chapter 28 unspoken rules of resignation

"Are you happy?" This was the first sentence Xiao Xue asked me. I put my hands on my hips: "I'm happy, of course I'm happy, I'm very happy, I'm very happy, I couldn't be happier." I looked back at her: "What do you mean? Dreams come true, old dreams can come true, can I not be happy?" She smiled at me contemptuously, with a look that seemed to see through everything: "I'll just ask, why do you answer so many times?──Are you happy to show it to me, or to yourself? " This person's words were not kind, and I didn't bother to pay attention to her, so I rolled over on the bed two or three times, and spread out the big characters: "I won't tell you, anyway, you just need to know that I am very happy today."

She also rolled onto the bed and breathed out on top of me with her nose: "You are happy enough, the company leave will expire tomorrow, I wonder if you will be happy then?" When I mentioned the company, I was speechless, and finally couldn't help it. After a while, I turned over and asked her, "You said... is Song Ziyan here to celebrate my birthday today?" "No." She said firmly. I said "oh" and lay down. She murmured: "He definitely didn't leave his business all the way here to celebrate your birthday. He just happened to be back from a business trip today. He was full and drove around in the car. Hey, he happened to pass by another cake shop and was full again. I bought a birthday cake, and happened to be at our school again, and I was full and waited downstairs. Hey, I ran into you by chance──you just want to hear me say that? My sister, the Holy Mother, Complete you."

I felt as if I had knocked over the bottom of a hot pot, and my heart was burning hot, so I could only yell loudly: "I said, I have been skinny and cold for two years, and I finally got ahead. Why are you so hard on me today? Can't you just let me giggle by myself for a while?" She calmed down and said, "I'm afraid that you will cry alone in the future." She choked on me: "What are you waiting for? Didn't you return the passionate years not long ago?" I snorted: "Can this be the same?" "Why is it different? I wondered. Man and Han didn't eat all the banquets. Why did you just eat corn bread? You can get corn bread, but you still have food poisoning."

I echoed: "Hey, hey, why are you so unrealistic? Does Su Yawen shiver as much as a bun? Even if he is a bun, he poisoned me, but now he says that you can eat it if you want to eat it, and you will always win." Have you ever ate a full meal of Man Han with trepidation?" She laughed strangely: "This is not like you." I wondered: "Why doesn't it look like me?" She analyzed slowly: "If it was Qin Qing in the past, I must say that I love to eat corned buns, right?! Are you good at comparison now? Well, you are shrewd enough. I used to think that you were a flaw Mindful, now I find that you have enough mind, but two internal organs are missing."

I reacted to this for a long time, and became angry: "Why do I feel that you are cornering the corner and scolding me for being heartless?" She looked innocent: "Is there? Am I that kind of person? Where did I scold you? Didn't I just scold you directly?" Frustrated, I lay down again. Deaf ears are pure. The world was clean. After a long time, I found that I could not sleep with my eyes closed. But it's not like the excitement and anxiety on the first date, I just can't sleep. Xiao Xue's voice sounded again in the darkness, like the narration of a late-night dream: "Although you and Su Yawen are already like this, I still can't help cursing you."

I knew she knew I wasn't asleep, but she still didn't make a sound. Her familiar mocking voice came over word by word: "I curse you, if you are not careful, you will grow old together." My nose is sore, I know she doesn't want or even hate my choice, but she still blesses me like this.I closed my eyes hard, not wanting tears to fall, and not wanting her to know, but in the end I still let out a small whimpering sound. She turned over as if nothing had happened, and her usual tone was still unconsoling: "Don't hold it when you're sad, it makes you look cool. After crying, walk on the road you chose, but don't die. In your mind, if you really can't go on, just look back, maybe that person has been waiting for you at the side of the road."

The road is always there, life goes on. It’s not that your old love is revived and you’re reunited, the screen freezes at the moment you hug each other, and then the music plays and the subtitles are played, and the happy reunion is over. China is still in the primary stage of socialism, the level of productivity is not developed enough, labor is still a necessary condition for our survival, I still have to work diligently. Afraid of meeting some people I dare not meet, I arrived at the company early, and just sat down, the long-lost sanitary napkin sister arrived, watching her take out a piece of sanitary napkin and wipe the table as if nothing had happened, I couldn't help but sigh, this is really a shame. In a good season, not only the relationship can be repaired, but even the economy has recovered.

Another busy morning, I went to the cafeteria to eat at noon, and saw Huang Mao, whom I hadn't seen for a long time, since I went to the banquet that day, I had been asking for leave, so I couldn't see him.But before that, when I thought that he and I had the same gender and identity, I felt awkward and always avoided him.But now the conflict between us has disappeared, so I waved my chopsticks at him: "Huang Mao! Huang Mao! Come here!!" After hearing this, he turned and looked at me, but his feet didn't move. I made persistent efforts and smiled very kindly: "Come and eat together!"

He hesitated again before walking over with the plate. As soon as he came over, I tore off my hypocritical mask, and took out a chopstick to hit him on the head: "Come here if I tell you, what are you playing?" He glanced at me, but just ate without talking. This kid really took Joe with me. If you have anything to say, you can just say it. I hate chasing someone like this the most, so I also bowed my head and picked at him, treating him like nothing. He was pretty good at showing off, but when I didn't speak, I couldn't sit still. He sneaked a few glances at me, and finally explained: "I'm too tired, so I don't want to talk."

I waved my chopsticks to expose him: "Don't you usually watch ghost movies for entertainment? How tired are you?" You don't even want to say anything? He felt wronged and pouted: "I haven't had much rest for the past few days, and I just came back from the United States last night." The expression on his face froze instantly, even the chopsticks froze there, and then I realized that he had gone to the United States with Song Ziyan. In order to cover up this little gaffe, I quickly lowered my head and took a few mouthfuls of rice. He asked, "Why do you always..."

I couldn't hear it, so I hit him on the head with chopsticks again: "What's the matter?! Eat!" He gave me a sad look, and began to lower his head to eat, but I still heard him complaining in a low voice: "I want to ask why you always eat such spicy dishes..." =.= I continued to eat in a dignified manner, pretending I didn't hear anything. When I got off work, Su Yawen came to pick me up. I didn't expect that he also owns a car.Thinking about it, we were all students, and eating hot pot is happiness, but now, in just two years, I can sing and want to go for a ride with you again, I feel very inferior. Turning around his small car, I couldn't help feeling sour: "The car is too bad!" He raised his eyebrows: "Really?" I solemnly nodded: "You see, this car is actually streamlined, how uninspired, you said you are an avant-garde young man, why should it be in the shape of a big brick?! And the paint is actually black and shiny , the sun is low and the light is reflective. As a family member of Lei Wen’s readers, no matter what, you have to have the whole colorful car to be considered competent! Also, can your car run on all fours as soon as it accelerates? No, even four legs You can’t even run to the sky, and you’re too shy to drive around on the road?!” He rubbed his chin and pondered: "I'm really ashamed when you say that, so let's do it, tomorrow I'll paint your car into a rainbow, with an upside-down turtle painted on it, with all four feet in the sky. Our car If you can’t reach it, just wait for the pictures on the car to realize your dream.” I didn't hear all of his long chants, so I paid attention to the first sentence, and said cautiously: "What are you talking about... about my car?" He shook the key in his hand: "Isn't mine yours? I wanted you to sign up for a weekend driving class." As soon as he said this, the world changed immediately. I took another look at "my car" and said firmly: "I didn't look carefully just now. In fact, if you take a closer look, you will find that this car is actually very attractive. Type, people, you can’t be so superficial as to judge a car by its appearance! I’ve decided not to despise it just because it’s ugly, but to keep it as it is!!” Su Yawen pinched my face, shook his head and smiled: "It's you anyway, I shouldn't have started this with you." His back is the setting sun, a big red pancake hangs in the sky, I look at his bright black eyes and the smile on his mouth, I feel very warm, reassuring and happy. But out of the corner of the eye, I saw a familiar figure walking out of the company's gate, his clothes were still as neat as new, his pace was still unhurried, and he was still handsome and outstanding. He glanced this way, and with just one glance, he seemed to see a streetlight and a building by the side of the road, so indifferently and irrelevantly, his eyes slid past without a trace, without staying for a moment. Like the setting sun, my heart sank little by little at a speed invisible to the naked eye... Su Yawen noticed that even the smile was stiff, and asked, "What's the matter?" He also looked over, startled for a moment, and the smile faded a little.However, he still opened the door of the passenger seat and said happily, "Come up and I will teach you first." I also tried my best to make a smile, and said while getting in the car: "I am smart if I study well, and you teach badly if I don't study well!" He didn't speak, and directly gave me a gesture of thumbs up. From that day on, I intentionally staggered the off-duty time. In fact, he was also busy. Although I was not busy, the regular working hours took up a lot of time. A decent date was watching a movie on weekends, and I was usually off work. We had dinner together, and after dinner he had to drive me back. It's a pity that I live in the suburbs. Apart from cohabitation, this relationship can be solved, otherwise it seems like I have no time to rush. But our relationship is still a river crab! And I have the ambition to carry the river crab to the end! ! But sometimes it hurts to see him driving me back when he just started work and is exhausted.Once I finally got a virtuous hand: "Don't give it away, it will take more than an hour to go back and forth." He said, "I don't worry about you being alone." I comforted him: "It's okay, I have a coolie." He frowned first: "A man?" I nodded, saw his angry little eyes, and quickly explained: "Yellow hair is like a small pet, do you care if a Tibetan mastiff is male or female?" He asked, "Yellow hair?" I nodded: "It's our company's development manager, who is younger than me and absolutely no threat! And she is even more delicate than me. Do you think that as a rotten girl, I will spoil him in ulterior motives? Of course I will give him to another man." Ruin it!" His eyes were a little strange: "You... know him very well?" I thought about it, and said, "It's just fan friends and occasional movie friends." His eyes became even more strange: "Do you know his... relationship with Third Brother?" This was the first time we mentioned Song Ziyan in so many days. I rolled my eyes and answered dispensably: "I know, Huang Mao lives in the general manager's house." He shook his head: "I just didn't expect you to know." Then there was silence again, and I still had the upper hand with distress: "But seriously, don't send me off every day, you see your dark circles are almost fainted into smoky makeup, this delicate energy makes my plain face look like the sky What is the situation with my real girlfriend." He nodded: "Okay, I've decided." I touched his face with a loving mother's expression: "Good boy, you are so obedient." He glanced at me: "In addition to sending you back at night, I have to pick you up in the morning." =.= I had to imitate a growling horse and ask, "Why?" "Didn't you just take the Tibetan mastiff as an example?" He glanced at me again and said it as a matter of course: "My answer is, even if there is a Tibetan mastiff around you, it can only be a female." =.= But the pick-up and drop-off of this car is so ostentatious. Although I deliberately stagger the time every time, there are always colleagues who meet me.On this day, even the sister of the sanitary napkin, who has always been very insensitive to gossip, came over and asked, "I heard that you were with a man these days...you broke up with the general manager?" "No." Seeing her more puzzled eyes, I said, "We've never been together before." She looked at me suspiciously: "Have you ever been together? Then you used to go in and out together." I don't know how to explain it, so I can only emphasize: "It's true that we have never been together." She wanted to ask again, but Manager Sun came, with an inquiring and suspicious look, and handed me the document in his hand: "Send this to the conference room later." What a familiar sentence, but this time I can only refuse: "Manager Sun, I have something to do right now, you can find someone else." She said coldly, "then put the one in your hand away first." I muttered, "But..." She ignored me, raised her wrist and looked at her watch: "It will be delivered at three o'clock." She walked away on her high heels. I looked at the file in a daze. As the saying goes, an office romance is the worst thing. After breaking up, I still don’t look up and look down.Even though we didn't hold hands and broke up, I also felt embarrassed, so embarrassed that I didn't want to see him at all, and it was best not to even hear his name. At three o'clock, I went to the front of the meeting room with the documents in my arms. I hesitated at the door, but I dared not go in. I put my hand on the doorknob several times, but I retracted it again. I don’t know how long I waited, but the door suddenly opened from the inside. I stood there unexpectedly, and a group of people who were going out were all stunned. It happened that Manager Sun was in front of me. I lowered my head and handed over the document: “Manager Sun, The information you want." She scolded: "The meeting is over." I said "Oh" and took a step back, not daring to block their footsteps. My mind is a little confused, it seems that standing like this is not right, it seems that it is not right to put my hands like this, and it seems that my head should be lower. In such a trance, a person bumped into me in the chaos. I couldn't wear high-heeled shoes stably, so I fell to the ground with my documents scattered all over the place, but I still didn't dare to look up. The man wanted to help me, but his movements stopped there... I saw a pair of familiar leather shoes walking towards me slowly. So familiar, so familiar that my heart seems to be beating at his pace. For such a long time, except for that one time at the gate of the company, this was the first time I saw him, and he was so close. There seemed to be some extravagant hope in my heart, but I didn't dare to think about it, I just watched his footsteps getting closer and closer. In the end, he just stopped in front of me for a while, but without hesitation he lifted his foot and left, walking further and further away. In fact, I know, he is like this. Before today, before coming to the company, I knew it at school.He is polite, gentle, and refined, but his politeness, gentleness, and elegance have degrees.Alienated and indifferent because of this degree. I used to complain that he tossed me so much, why couldn't he seem to be indifferent to other people, and I envied those who were isolated from the world by him. However, now I am finally isolated. The way he looked at me was so flat, I finally became the people I used to envy, the people he didn't care about. The person who just bumped into me asked eagerly, "Why are you crying? Did you hurt yourself from a fall?" Only then did I realize that the tears were flowing, and they kept flowing. He won't look back, he won't look impatient, he doesn't seem to pay attention but he keeps taking care of me; he won't look at me casually but with a smile every time I'm choked out of breath; because he He is no longer so slow, choking me out of breath as if nothing had happened... Now, even if I stand in front of him, he is stingy to give me an extra look. Perhaps inadvertently, I have been in his domain, and now I have finally been deported. After Su Yawen picked me up after get off work, he stared at me closely and asked, "Why are your eyes swollen from crying?" I said, "I fell." He didn't speak, and I was silent too, there was only the sound of wind passing through in silence between us. After a while, I looked back at the company building covered with a layer of gold under the setting sun, and finally made a decision. Turn around and say to him: "I want to resign."