Chapter 27 unspoken rules birthday

I just stood there, Xiao Xue looked at us back and forth, and said, "I still have something to do, so I'll go up first." Then he turned around and told me in a low voice: "Hold on!" before turning around and entering the dormitory gate. The rest of us were embarrassed, and after a moment of silence, Su Yawen asked, "What's wrong with your feet?" My heart trembled inexplicably, in fact, the injury on my foot has healed a lot, and I can't see anything unusual when I walk in sneakers, it's so normal that even Xiao Xue forgot to ask.But he can see it, just as his face is a bit thin, and his brows are slightly gloomy, I can clearly distinguish these subtle differences with just one glance.

Maybe it's because I never forgot. I shrank my feet a little, and smiled: "I was burned a while ago, and it's all gone now." He frowned: "Why are you still so careless?" ... This sentence is a bit ambiguous, I can only watch it fall to the ground, and I don't have the courage to pick it up.I can only listen but not hear and find something to say: "Why are you here?" His eyes wandered for a while, and he also smiled: "Just passing by here." I really couldn't find any reason to convince myself that a person living in the urban area passed by the door of a girls' dormitory in a rural school in the middle of the night, so... I nodded solemnly: "What a coincidence."

He also nodded: "Yes." Became silent again. In the past, Su Yawen was like an April day in the world, whether it was wind or rain, it was just right to make people comfortable and comfortable.But now he is more like a chemical weapon with a proton force field, making the surrounding air as heavy as a boulder. And I would rather Mars hit the earth and the cruise ship hit an iceberg than a stalemate. I asked bluntly and loudly: "When are you going back?" Going back to your little Qingmei, I know that I am as strong as a donkey, so please don't dangle in front of me. to the uneaten bale.

He was stunned for a moment, and his voice lowered: "Where else can I go back? Haven't I already returned?" My heart stopped for a moment, and I seemed to watch the acceptance letter in his hand tremblingly handed over in a blank, but he only put it away halfway, but he put it away again, with a polite and alienated expression on his face. Smile: "It's so late, I should go too, you go back first." that's it?That's all?I couldn't tell whether I was glad or disappointed, so I could only reply politely: "Okay, then you should slow down on the road."

He said "hmm", and I turned around and walked into the dormitory. I tried to be natural, but my back was stiff and straight, and I could only pick up my pace. He didn't look back, and he didn't dare to look back, but after entering the dormitory, he still couldn't help hiding in the corridor and peeking out. He was still standing there, as if he had been standing there all the time, the dim street lights outside the dormitory pulled his figure into a lonely curve, and his eyes seemed to be looking at this side with heavy fog.After watching for a long time, I finally left.

I went to the water room to wash my face before dragging my feet back to the dormitory. Under Xiao Xue's excited mother-in-law's face, I briefly described the matter of taking and retracting the acceptance letter from the principal of Peking University. Xiao Xue's position is quite clear: "Let me tell you Qin Qing, even if he is a Peking University, Song Ziyan is definitely at the Harvard level, you can't pick up sesame seeds and lose watermelon. Besides, even if Song Ziyan is just a pheasant university, you I have been in school for so long, so there is always some affection."

I am silent, even if Song Ziyan is really Harvard, I am at best a student.Unintentionally, what he said was the most sincere words. He once said every word so clearly that I don't deserve it. After hearing no response from me for a long time, Xiao Xue could only give her last advice: "Let me advise you, good horses don't turn their heads back!" ... What is there to remind him of, regardless of whether it is a good horse or a bad horse that he turns his head back to. From start to finish, I was human. I don't think there's anything to worry about. They didn't say anything, but I feel a little too good about myself. Maybe they just happened to miss the breeze and clouds here. A street lamp on the side of the road came to have a look. Coincidentally, I started to fantasize, which is a bit too self-righteous.

Even though I thought so, my heart was still floating, limp and effortless like floating on clouds.But my mind is extremely busy, too many scenes are interlaced and staged, like a poisoned video that keeps jumping, repeating, and interspersed, little by little memories gather into a sea of ​​the past and beat vigorously in my brain . I drifted like this for a long time, my mind was buzzing and I couldn't fall asleep, I looked at my phone, it was already two o'clock in the morning.It was so uncomfortable to have my heart hanging empty, and I suddenly wanted to listen to Song Ziyan talk, to hear him choke me slowly.

He got out of bed secretly, went to the corridor and dialed the number.Soon his voice came from the microphone: "What's the matter?" People in the middle of the night are very easy to be honest, and I actually said directly: "It's nothing, I just want to talk to you." After I finished speaking, I felt hairy in my head, why did Xiao Cui tell the truth and tell the truth! !But unexpectedly, Song Ziyan didn't take it seriously, and smiled softly: "Why haven't you slept yet?" I said, "Aren't you still asleep?" He calmed down and said, "It's daytime here."

I just remembered that he is now on the other side of the earth, and suddenly felt a little fresh: "What are you doing?" He said, "I just had dinner, at the hotel." Hotel... hotel? !The CJ scene could not be automatically switched in my mind, I asked cautiously: "Then... is the exhibition manager here?" Song Ziyan's originally pleasant voice immediately dropped by twenty degrees, freezing to death: "Qin Qing." Even though he wasn't in front of me, I shrank my head subconsciously, as it turned out that Ni Lin couldn't touch him.But I'm not afraid in my heart, I just have a desire to tell him, I have so many things I want to say to him: "General manager, I'm at school now, and today's class reunion is here."

I absolutely did not expect him to be interested, so I actually asked, "Is it lively?" I said: "It's lively, it's very lively, and there is a big oolong. There is a person who was supposed to hold hands with the second choice, but unexpectedly confessed to the first choice. Don't you think this is nonsense. Although the second choice is not my special I want to choose, but she is also a human being, so why is she being abused like this? If you already know that you are the second choice, who would want to go through this muddy water? Besides, I am your pheasant university, maybe it is someone else What about Tsinghua University and Peking University, don’t you think so?!” I couldn't even understand what I said, so it was hard for him to listen patiently. After a while, his deep voice came over: "What happened?" I was originally filled with anger, but when he asked this, I felt sad again, and said quickly: "It's okay." He persisted: "What's the matter?" I couldn't evade it, and suddenly thought of something, so I asked, "General manager, can you come back on Wednesday?" Although the schedule was on Saturday, I still had a glimmer of hope. He asked: "What's the matter?" I said cheekily: "It's my birthday." In fact, it’s not prevarication. The expensive clothes on Zuo Siren today, and Huangmao’s well-decorated small apartment in memory all stimulated me, especially when I thought of the brightly colored apron in the kitchen with a bear painted on it. . ...I feel like I need to get a little stronger. Migrant workers no longer have the problem of wage arrears, and I, who has an ambiguous identity, should also fight for my rights. He said "hmm". ... just... a hmm? ! ! I made a meaningful proposal: "Would you like to celebrate?" Send a gift or something? "Celebrate what?" He expressed his doubts very seriously: "Celebrate that you are one year older?" =.= ...I want you to choke me, not to want you to choke me to death! ! After eating the leopard guts, I hung up the phone and went back to sleep angrily! ! I slept soundly this time. When I woke up in the morning, I started to miss the canteen steamed buns that I hadn’t eaten for a long time. I went to buy them in my pajamas and slippers, but I met the monitor at the entrance of the canteen. My eyes met, and I couldn’t help feeling a little bit cramped. I greeted first: "Squad leader so early?" He raised the breakfast in his hand, and began to smile as calmly as usual: "Bring food to your sister-in-law!" He is so calm, I am no longer petty, and I also laughed: "Wife slave, wife slave." He counterattacked and turned defensive: "If you have the ability, you can also find one to order." One sentence choked me, and I could only watch him leave triumphantly humming a little tune. I'm quite bright, just like what Xiao Xue said, when someone has a relationship, he can't leave him. Yesterday he just drank too much and made a little farewell. Now I think in his heart that even the manicure on Mrs. Ban's little finger Colored beads are no match. But the deepest part of my heart is still a little sad, the first small peach blossom in my life only bloomed for one night, and it shrank quickly as soon as the sun came out the next day, comparable to an epiphyllum. Impotence so quickly! Looking back at the squad leader waiting for his sister-in-law at the door of the female dormitory with a bun, he couldn't help but sigh, I am the former, she is the backward, how easy it is for him to choose.As for me, the intentions of the past are unclear, and the future has no contempt for me. My choices are useless, and I can only go on in a muddle along the way. After being so muddled in school for a few days, it finally came to the day when I grow old. It was only two weeks before graduation, and the rest of the dormitory had already left. Xiao Xue was also busy outside every day. Although she was alone, she guarded the empty dormitory, and there was no one who could talk when she turned around. It's not a good feeling in my heart. Coupled with the fact that today happens to be my birthday, I feel even more uncomfortable. With my wallet in hand, I decided to go outside and spend a lot of money alone. After walking aimlessly outside for a long time, I suddenly heard a sweet voice calling: "Beauty, how many are there?" Only then did I realize that I had gone back to that "old place" by a ghost.In the past two years, except for the last time when Yan Peng came back, I have never been here again.The boss doesn't remember me anymore, and the waiters are all new faces, but because of this, he politely called me "beauty".Those before were more realistic, and they called me directly: "Three stomachs." The origin of the name is that I love the hot pot here so much. Every time I return the remnant clouds, I still look at the dishes on the table and make a wish: "God, give me three more stomachs~~" Once I was too rude and was served at the time. A waiter who brought the food heard it, and it became my nickname in the future. As long as he saw me, he would call out: "Stomach, how are you~~~~" Looking at the little girl in front of me who called me "beautiful" with polite and strange eyes, I also replied very strangely: "Just me, I want to go to Shanshui Pass." Shanshuiguan is the name of an elegant room, which is our old place. The little girl said a few words to the walkie-talkie and looked at me in embarrassment: "Shanshuiguan already has a guest, can I change it?" I couldn't help being a little disappointed, but I quickly said: "The one next to Shanshui Pass is also fine." She smiled: "Yes, you come with me." I followed her and walked past the gate of Shanshui Pass, just as a waiter who was serving food opened the door, just with such a casual glance, my whole body froze. It was actually Su Yawen sitting there. He also saw me, and the whole picture seemed to freeze for a moment. My eyes moved down to the dishes I ordered, two plates of mutton, one plate of luncheon meat, one plate of vermicelli, one plate of lettuce, one plate of enoki mushroom, and one plate of frozen tofu. There is also a pack of mung bean noodles and the largest bottle of orange juice next to it. Not only is it familiar, it is exactly the same. It was exactly the same as the day he left two years ago, and every previous date. I couldn't say the word "what a coincidence" on my lips. Finally sat down and he turned the spicy side over to me. Characters: A pair of old lovers.Location: The origin of the disappearance of love.Time: The heroine's birthday. At the beginning of the novel, the three elements are all in place, and one more plot can be added to complete the novel. I have a hunch that things are going to develop on the bloody side. I silently lowered my head and gnawed on the green vegetables, but apart from the sound of the hot pot boiling, the room seemed too quiet, it was unbearably quiet, so I had nothing to say: "Hey, I've always wanted to come here, but I was never free." , but when I came here, I found that it was actually not as delicious as I remembered.” He smiled: "Yes, what many people pursue is not what they really want." I felt like I had stabbed a hornet's nest, and I didn't dare to speak anymore, so I could only continue to bow my head and eat vegetables silently. But he seemed to be wound up, and continued to say: "It's like a person walking on the road, full of a goal in his heart, but when he reaches the end, he realizes that the people who walked together on the road are the most cherished. " I just said something about hot pot, and your thinking has diverged like this, but now that I have said it like this, I have to say: "Maybe the person you met on the road has already gone to another fork, and the person you saw when you turned around Also empty." He was silent for a while, then said, "I can find it." Now I'm silent. I just looked at the bright red admission notice in his hand looming, and felt awkward in my heart. I'm not smart, I don't know how to draw inferences from one example, and I don't have the confidence of a time-traveling heroine, knowing that I am being chased by stars like the moon.I am timid and slow to respond, and I am self-aware and never dare to be passionate.If you regret it, if you want to turn back, please tell me directly. It’s one thing to say yes or no, but please don’t keep making metaphors. I don’t have so many literary bacteria and open-mindedness. I don't understand, I really can't believe it. You can see how straightforward Song Ziyan is, he can say that you are not worthy. Why are you, Su Yawen, so grindy and sticky? You just made such bundles of grass that rubbed against my nose and wiped my mouth from time to time, but I never let me taste it. Don't make me guess, my strong ass thought number one, it's definitely not food until it eats what's in its mouth. I felt that the expression on my face was a little cold, and I really didn't want to hear it anymore, so I held my chopsticks and started to greet him: "Don't just talk, eat and eat." His face was hidden behind the white mist, making it difficult to see clearly, only a slightly deep voice came over: "Zihan has been my dream since I was twelve years old, so when she called, I almost didn't think about it." He hesitated and went to her side." The more you are made to eat, the more you talk, and you still take the salt and sprinkle it on other people's painful places, causing secondary damage. But as a victim, I can only eat vegetables with my head depressed and my mouth full of bitterness. His voice was unhurried, as if he was narrating a story: "But after I got by her side, I wasn't unhappy or unhappy, but I always felt that things were different from what I imagined. I often think of you, just now At first I thought it was a habit, but then I thought it was probably guilt, and then I was surprised, and I didn’t even find an excuse, and I felt pretty good just thinking about it.” The sesame sauce in the plate was slightly rippling, and some liquid slipped into it. He sighed: "After returning to China, I wanted to come and take a look when I was free, to see the place where I sent you back, to see the road we walked together before. I really want to meet you but I am afraid of meeting you. But at that time, I still didn't know the reason. Later, when I saw you in the hospital, I saw you pouting your mouth, frowning and pretending to be pitiful because of another person, and I finally understood. When Zihan liked the third brother before, I Looking at it from a distance, I feel very envious, but that day I knew what jealousy is." He smiled: "Using your words, it's called jealousy that scratches the heart, lungs, liver and intestines." I used to blame others for not being honest, and I kept a notice hidden, but seeing that they were about to hand it over with both hands, I suddenly didn't want to listen to it. The two thin sheets of paper were covered with small red flames, which were too hot. So, I continued to hold my chopsticks and greeted very palely: "Don't keep talking, eat and eat!" He smiled wryly: "I know you don't want to hear it, I didn't intend to say it at first. When Zihan left, I told her that I wanted to stay for two more days, but I still have to leave. Because I've already let one person down, and I can't let another go. When I met you a few days ago, I also endured it, because I knew that the third brother took good care of you when I saw you. As you said, you have already turned to another fork. But today you are back here Isn't it? You still like me in your heart, don't you?" I was choked by his last two words. You didn't intend to say it, but you got excited again when you saw me here today?Is it my fault to go back and forth?I stood up abruptly: "Su Yawen, don't bully people too much! Didn't you do well in Tsinghua University? Is it necessary to come here to pay homage to this hypocrisy? Yes, I am not popular, and I will lose my reputation as soon as I You don’t have the qualifications to enter a first-rate university, but you stayed there for two years, but Tsinghua University waved a small handkerchief, and you ran away. Why didn’t you think of me at that time? Like Xiao Xue said, the past two years Don't you have any affection for me?! I treat you with all my heart and soul, and I believe in you so wholeheartedly. In this room, you leave me to meet your new lover, and I am very happy with you Bye, I said with peace of mind that you came back early. How refreshing you were when you left me for ten days and came back and said you broke up. Now that you are nostalgic for old times and are about to drop out of Tsinghua University, do you still expect me to lay out a red carpet to hang up? Put up a banner with colorful flags to welcome you? Let me tell you, I am not a university with a cold sign, I am a person, I have feelings and hearts, and feelings are my own heart and my own. It's a waste!" I have won the true biography of Grandma Qiongyao, and I didn't even make a joke when I said a long paragraph, and I was quite like Yujie. It's a pity that this expression is too poor. If you learn from the copied four-character idiom, it is the standard tearful face. In the end, my voice trembled, and the more I talked, the more I felt that it was not easy for me, and in the end I was almost howling. He looked at me, some light flashed in his eyes that I understood, but he was just silent. I was still standing, and felt a little embarrassed after venting my emotions, and began to regret that I might as well just slam the door and leave after yelling, with a little momentum.As it is now, if he insists on not opening his mouth, I can't yell anymore. Fortunately, my mobile phone started to ring on the table at this time. I have never felt such a cheerful ringtone in recent times. ...a bell from heaven. As soon as I put my hand on it, I was stupid. The person with the photo on the screen pursed his lips impatiently. This is Song Ziyan that I insisted on filming under coercion and temptation. ...a bell from hell. I put my hand on it and dare not pick it up. No one spoke, only the ringtone rang again and again, Su Yawen glanced at me, I also looked at him, and finally the eyes were on the mobile phone that kept vibrating. In fact, I didn't do anything shameful, so I felt guilty for not answering, so I wanted to pick it up as soon as I shook it. Leaning over and holding me with one hand, Su Yawen looked at me and shook his head: "Don't answer." The phone kept vibrating under my hands, my palms seemed to be sweating, and the sweat on the back of my hands belonged to him. The phone rang for a long time, and finally quieted down. I have an instinct in my head, as long as I encounter a more complicated and chaotic situation, I will react directly and slip away. I withdrew my hand, put the phone in my bag, and said goodbye to him: "It's too late, I'll go back first." He just sat there, not saying a word. I stood up and walked to the door, but he suddenly came over and hugged me.Bury your head on my shoulder and say, "Don't go." My hand was still on the doorknob, and I didn't look back: "Let me go." He shook his head, and his hair gently rubbed against my cheek: "Don't let it go. I know that after you walk out of this door today, you will never look back. " Student Su Yawen, I liked you once, and even, I like you now. But I won't look back, it has nothing to do with not being able to get out of this door. I was about to push him away when I heard him say in my ear: "I love you, give me another chance, okay?" All the strength in my body disappeared. I read a book before, Shanghai Fortress in the South of the Yangtze River. I can't remember the names of the hero and heroine, but there is one scene that I have never forgotten.The hero asks the heroine why she wants to be with someone else.The hostess said, because he said a word. What? I love you. Sure enough, I can't be exempt, maybe all women are subconsciously waiting for these three words. No guesswork, no anxiety. Because that's the answer to all your questions. I suddenly felt that I had been quite tired before, and after hearing these three words, I suddenly relaxed, my nerves relaxed, and I cried for nothing. Su Yawen pulled me back, kissed the tears on my face, and asked: "No one gets lost this time, no one is confused, just keep walking like this, okay?" The two of us walked back slowly together. There are stars in the sky, there are street lights on the side of the road, and there is a person who loves you by your side. Well, I feel at ease. I flatter myself, this is not forgiveness, this is forgiveness.After all, he didn't betray me, after all, he didn't cheat, he told me before betraying and cheating, and then flew into another person's arms.What are the chances of a person falling in love with someone, and how many times is it possible for a person to be liked by the person she likes?I am not the Holy Mother, but I don’t want to have a missing front tooth and a chrysanthemum face after a few years. If I was XXXX back then, maybe XXXX now, and now I can only recall XXXX... I can't do things that are too complicated, so it's better to keep things simple. I love him and he loves me. Do not violate the law, do not violate morality.Don't bother others. Why can't we be together? Even now there is no external force at all, why should I set up obstacles for myself? I'm not Liu Xiang, I just pick and run on the smoothest road... The two of us didn't talk much, and we are still not used to this kind of reunion after a long absence, but the intimacy that has passed through time can still be felt.When I was about to reach the dormitory, I stopped and said, "Go back first, it's not safe to drive at night." He straightened my collar with both hands: "I see you walk in." Although it's crappy but it's useful, but even though it's very useful, it's still crappy. I'm already the oldest person in the school, watching the couples of young schoolgirls at the door of the dormitory, whispering goodbye to each other, and then we'll fix this I couldn't hold back my old face, so I pushed him: "You should go back first, I am a low-key person." He suggested: "How about you go ahead and I will follow you?" ...Like an underground party, the corners of my mouth twitched: "Forget it, let's live this life once, let them see, our tomatoes also have spring." He smiled again: "Okay, take my male tomato and go for a walk." As soon as I said "yo" I suddenly remembered Xiao Xue's sentence: "Take your old Song out for a little bit." My heart suddenly sank, but I didn't think I owed him anything, so I was relieved after thinking about it, but my heart was still heavy, and I couldn't get up again. I didn't want to talk anymore, and walked forward absent-mindedly, and suddenly felt Su Yawen's body stiffen, stood there, and his voice changed slightly: "Third...Third brother." A car was parked in a dark corner at the door of the dormitory. Song Ziyan leaned on it, with a red star between his fingers, but his eyes were as gloomy as the night. Although I thought I didn't owe anything, I felt inexplicably guilty, but when I saw the birthday cake in front of the car, that guilt turned into an indescribable sadness. Subconsciously, I shrank behind Su Yawen. Song Ziyan's eyes became more ferocious, he stood still and called me: "Come here." Out of habit, I was about to move forward with my feet obedient, but Su Yawen held me back. With a hint of pleading in his voice, he said, "Third Brother, listen to me..." Song Ziyan didn't even look at him, he just stared at me: "Come here." I bow my head. There was a strange voice, and I was taken aback before I realized it was Song Ziyan laughing softly... He actually laughed so badly. I was very scared, the turbulent feeling in my chest should be fear, I was afraid that he would rush over, but he just stood there staring at me from a distance, almost stubbornly just said: "Come here." I can't make it through, from the time you said I'm unworthy, I can't make it through. Or rather, I've never been there. I whispered: "General manager, you... go back first, it's getting dark..." His face became more and more ugly, and I couldn't even stammer anymore, so I could only bow my head. The arm tightened, it turned out that he was really coming, and Su Yawen was also there in a daze, until I was dragged and walked a few steps before he remembered and rushed over to block us. It's not a narrow road, but Song Ziyan didn't intend to detour, he just looked at Su Yawen and said, "I'll take her back." Su Yawen refused to give in: "I know you have always been strong, but some things are not decided by you, so you will definitely go your way. Have you ever asked her what she thinks?" Song Ziyan was slightly startled, and after a long silence, he looked down at me: "I just want to ask you one thing, and it's the last one, do you want to go home with me?" His tone was very soft and gentle, and there was almost a hint of pleading in his eyes. Today, I feel like I have a heart attack, and my heart throbs uncomfortable, but seeing him like this makes my heart throb the most. Looking at Su Yawen who was standing on one side, I bit my lip and shook my head. Song Ziyan's face turned pale, but it was only for a moment, and he returned to his usual expression. Cold, indifferent, arrogant look. He let go of my arm inch by inch. I watched his figure walking towards the car, the warmth of his palm still remained on his arm. Suddenly understood Su Yawen's words: Once you walk out of this door today, there's no going back. After Song Ziyan let go of me today, he won't hold me anymore.