Chapter 22 Section 21

Sunday July 17th cloudy and foggy After attending the wedding yesterday, after Xiao Jian left, I went home and fell asleep. This drowsiness is the kind of drowsiness that vowed to sleep to death in the past and present. I didn't have any dreams, and I was perfectly integrated with the whole sleep.Sometimes when I turn over and wake up, I look at the weather outside. It is gloomy and malicious, which is clearly encouraging me to go back to sleep. When I fully woke up, it was already past four o'clock in the afternoon, and the weather was gray outside the window. After a long sleep, my bones were weakened. Every time I moved, I could hear the rattle of the parts connecting my limbs. loud sound.

I put on a pair of sweatpants, turned on the air conditioner, and went back to bed, sitting in a daze. This is what I am after the big battle. The day after the college entrance examination was over, I was also like this. When I got home, I fell asleep for a long time. After waking up, I leaned on the bed and started to think for myself. The more I thought about it, the more I felt that I failed the exam, so I jumped out of bed and started packing my luggage I was about to run away from home, and my parents were devastated by me. This child has not said a word since returning home, and now she has to carry her bag and leave. Others take the college entrance examination to go to college, but why does she seem like a whole person after taking the college entrance examination? It's like people have been brainwashed.

The same was true for me the day I established a relationship with him.He bought a can of Coke and won the lottery. He went to redeem the prize happily, and then put his arms around me and said, whatever you do with you will be lucky, and we will be together for the rest of our lives.After I heard this, my heart exploded with excitement, but my face remained calm.Back in the dormitory, I fell asleep on the bed until the early morning of the next day.After waking up, I ran downstairs all the way, went to the commissary to buy 50 cans of Coke, and secretly piled them up in a pyramid shape in front of his house.

The same is true for me now. When I wake up from a big dream, when I open my eyes, what I see is a fork in the road and a new chapter in my life, but what is slightly different is that after this battle, the prospect of my life I see is the same as today’s weather , the wind and rain are about to come, and there is a confusion. This kind of confusion is the kind of confusion that does not lead to the village in the front and does not lead to the store in the back. I am holding the gold-lettered signboard of an older unmarried young woman, just standing in this wilderness that belongs to me. , The sign in your hand must not be used as an umbrella.

I know that there are still many good young people in the market. There must be someone who is humorous but not artificial, gentle but not salty, and does not need to be dignified, but a casual smile can hit my heart.There are so many freaks active in the vast sea of ​​people, can't there be room for such a person? I want to try my best to comfort myself, Huang Xiaoxian, the future is still bright, come back out of the arena, even if you are defeated repeatedly, put on makeup and change clothes to stand up again, and fight until this person appears, this is unique to older women open-minded attitude.

But I quickly changed my mind, what if my destined husband and I are destined not to meet each other in this life?For example, I am an otaku girl and he is an otaku guy. After work, we go back to our respective homes. I go to Taobao and he watches DVDs. Even if we play Wii together, we are still in different spaces.On the way to work, we may be able to take the same subway, but when I was pinched by the salty guy, he might be standing in another car, watching "Six People" on the PSP and laughing. Even if the whole city is ambushed on all sides, it is possible to pass by the right person again and again.This bloody and literary imagination made my fighting spirit, which had just been aroused with great difficulty, become damp and languid like a firework twister placed on the open field during the rainy season.The old things are far away, and the newcomers haven't come yet. This is my new chapter.

After thinking deeply for a long time, I felt that even the cold wind blowing from the air conditioner was leisurely circling in my ears and mocking me, "Nagging and worrying, it's obvious that menopause is ahead of schedule, you live well without chronological order." I shook my head, yes, even if you are a mediocre person, you can't bother yourself every day, take one step at a time and talk about it one step at a time, this is the most chronological order. I turned off the desk lamp, and the whole room returned to the darkness I was familiar with. Before sleepiness came, I buried my head in the pillow, comforting my many second personalities who were sad, "Before dying, can you wait for this person?" Come on, even if it’s just to say hello, it’s already very remarkable in terms of my circumstances.”