Chapter 2 LESSON 2: Selective Preferences

"Choice, the most important thing is to choose. From the day we were born, everything can be chosen except our parents. Choose a good kindergarten, primary school, beautiful primary school deskmate; choose a good junior high school , high school; choose a good university, choose a good job; choose a good TV, computer, stereo, lamp, choose a different brand of cosmetics, cars, condoms; choose men, women; men choose women, women choose men; men Choose a man, and a woman chooses a woman. Throughout our lives, our lives are full of choices. Among them, the most important thing for a man is to choose a beautiful woman whose IQ is hovering at the passing line or who can write thousands of words of prose For a woman, choose a poor man who treats her well but has no money, or choose a rich man but... CUT... CUT!"

In the indoor studio, a young man imitated the beginning of the movie on a treadmill, panting and talking to the camera, and finally couldn't hold on anymore, bent over and supported his knees, panting continuously. The scene was removed by the staff. The street in the background, the houses are all made of cardboard. "Who the hell wrote the lines!" The young man shouted frantically to the side, "It's so long!" It turned out that this was a studio of a sitcom, with a bunch of staff beside it, and the director looked at the camera in front of the monitor.In a small corner on the side, the boss of the investor was looking at Gu Xiaobai's script.

Gu Xiaobai watched the opponent's reaction like a dog's leg. The boss laughed, and he laughed too. The boss is serious and he is also nervous. After finally watching it, the boss heaved a long sigh of relief. Gu Xiaobai looked at the boss with an uncertain expression on his face. "Not bad." The boss smiled, "Xiaobai, you are the only one in this group who can hand in the work quickly." "Provide your family and support your family." Gu Xiaobai also smiled modestly. "But next time...can you not have so many lines?" The boss looked at him beseechingly, "The actors can't memorize..."

"Boss, you have to think this way," Gu Xiaobai confided from the sidelines, "When there are more lines, the time is fixed, and the number of scenes will be less. If the number of scenes is less, there will be fewer changes. There is no money for changing scenes. The economic crisis, everyone Save a little if you can.” The boss suddenly realized, and looked at him with admiration, and the two shameless people smiled tacitly by the side. "Receipt fee!" The boss said boldly. "Hey!" Gu Xiaobai got the order, and ran towards the accountant at another part of the studio, when the phone rang.

This is the day after a week since I met Zuo Yongbang last time... "Hello! Have you arrived yet?" Luo Shuquan yelled on the phone. From the sound, it was on the street. "Where?" "Restaurant! Damn, Zuo Yongbang invited us to dinner, did you forget?" "I didn't forget, what time is it?" "I know. I'm just finishing get out of class. I'm just wandering around. If I don't pay attention, I'll be there soon." "Unemployed!" Gu Xiaobai acted coquettishly into the phone, "He has a serious job..." "Don't disgust me. Speaking of which, why did Zuo Yongbang invite us to dinner? We don't know him well."

"So this is a Hongmen Banquet. Let me tell you, whoever goes there a minute earlier will die a minute earlier. Ouch..." "Hello??" On the set, Gu Xiaobai was walking while holding his mobile phone, and accidentally bumped into someone, and the phone fell off.Gu Xiaobai raised his head and was about to apologize when suddenly his ears rang and his heart tightened. I can't hear any sound, only the sound of my own heartbeat, thump, thump, thump, thump... Jumping faster and faster, almost in a line. "You... are you okay?" The man who was hit helped him up with concern.

"It's okay, I can't stand the scare, it will be fine in a while." Gu Xiaobai looked at her, and slowly moved to the wall while clutching his heart. "Are you really all right?" "It's really fine." The person in front of her was a real woman who could only be called a "beauty" from any angle. Although every man has a different definition of beauty, Gu Xiaobai can be sure that no man can deny the beauty of the woman opposite her. Beauty, just these two words can make the hearts of 90% of the men in the world beat faster.Beauty is the best gift God bestows on a woman, no, it is God's best weapon to punish a man...

I can't hear anything... Even the vision is blurred. In the blurred vision, she seemed to see the boss of the investor beckoning to her. The beauty glanced at Gu Xiaobai, smiled, and walked straight to the boss. Only Gu Xiaobai himself, clutching his heart, slowly fell down... Luo Shuquan walked into a restaurant with extremely luxurious decoration.At four o'clock in the afternoon, there were almost no customers. Luo Shuquan suddenly became nervous and overwhelmed. He looked at himself, wearing a very simple and even a little earthy coat, and even wanted to turn around and leave for a while, when the waiter just walked up and said, "Welcome .”

Luo Shuquan coughed twice, settled down, went in and sat down. The waiter came over with the menu, Luo Shuquan took it calmly, and looked at it slowly, the price of each item was hundreds of dollars. The waiter stood respectfully by the side. After reading it seriously, Luo Shuquan slowly handed it back to the waiter. "WATER..." Luo Shuquan said gracefully. On the set, the boss of the investor stood in the middle, and Gu Xiaobai and the beauty stood on both sides, all a little embarrassed. "This is the newly added character in your script." The investor boss said to Gu Xiaobai, "This is the actor we are looking for, Xiao Qin, what do you think, does it fit the role in your mind?" Turning to Xiao Qin, "This is the screenwriter of our play, Gu Xiaobai."

"Teacher Gu, you were shocked just now." Xiao Qin bowed to Gu Xiaobai. Gu Xiaobai hurriedly returned the gift, "No, no, you're just surprised." "You are startled." "You are startled." The two bowed down to each other. "Okay, okay, don't pay homage to each other, pray to heaven and earth?" The boss couldn't stand it anymore, "Xiaobai, I still have some things to do. Tell her more about Xiaoqin's role." After finishing speaking , the boss Shi Shi ran away, Xiao Bai turned around with a smile, and looked at the beautiful woman.

"Teacher Gu." Xiao Qin looked at him with big eyes, as if wipers were cleaning the windshield, "I have something I want to ask you for advice." "Please tell me." Gu Xiaobai smiled politely. "The character I understand is a woman who combines wisdom and beauty. Her favorite book is—" Xiao Qin frantically dug out the script from his bag, and struggled word by word. Reading, ""Pure Phenomenology...and Phenomenological Philosophy..."...In order to better understand the heart of this character, I think——I need to borrow this book to read, but I I can't find it after searching and searching, sorry, can you lend me it?" Gu Xiaobai stared blankly at her, once again he couldn't hear anything, only lightning and thunder could not stop in his ears... In fact, at that time, the situation when he wrote this paragraph was like this. In order to write an uncommon title, he typed in two key words in Baidu search: "uncommon" and "philosophy book", and then a bunch of bibliography popped up. Gu Xiaobai picked one at random, copied and pasted it happily, and his own Didn't know this book at all. "This is really not..." Gu Xiaobai looked at her awkwardly.For some reason, he suddenly changed his tone and answered the following two words. "……question." Because if there really is no such thing, maybe Gu Xiaobai and her will never have a... scene again. In the restaurant, the waiter had already poured Luo Shuquan's 30th glass of water.After Luo Shuquan finished his drink again, the restaurant was still empty, and there was no sign of customers coming.Luo Shuquan was already... almost poisoned by the water... Looking at the sunset outside the window, sadly... I really want to go to the toilet. Standing up with difficulty, Luo Shuquan walked to the restroom of the restaurant. There was a large washstand in the middle, and men's and women's restrooms were on both sides.In front of the large mirror on the sink, a woman was putting on makeup with her red lips partly parted, and the floor was full of shopping bags from the mall.Luo Shuquan didn't look at it much, almost losing his life, he hurriedly pushed open the door of the men's room. "Hey!" the woman suddenly stopped him. He turned his head tremblingly. "Excuse me, can you lend me a hand?" The pretty woman in front of him looked at him expectantly. "I just bought it, so I didn't have time to try it in the store." Before Luo Shuquan agreed, the woman had already put on his arm, and with the other hand, she struggled to put on a new high-heeled shoe. Luo Shuquan has already... Can't move. Holding on to her high heels, the woman next to her looked back and forth, as if feeling dissatisfied, she shook her head and took out another shoe box from her shopping bag. He didn't notice that the man next to him was already trembling because of the urgency to urinate. The supporting arm kept shaking, making it impossible for her to put on the shoe. "Don't shake!" The woman looked at him incredulously, "Why can't such a big man stand still?" Luo Shuquan had no choice but to... Stand up straight again. I feel a little worse... Ren Du's second channel is about to be opened up. "Well, this pair...the heels are taller and match my figure." The woman next to me said with satisfaction but hesitation, "but the color of that pair is better...give me your opinion, which pair is more attractive?" "What... what attracts people?" "It's to make men think...you know...don't tremble!!" The woman blamed him again. When Luo Shuquan and Gu Xiaobai met, the restaurant was already overcrowded, and Zuo Yongbang hadn't come yet. They sat side by side at a table for four people. Gu Xiaobai excitedly described the experience to Luo Shuquan just now. "You don't know! My heart just now!! Plop, plop, plop! It's about to jump out!" Gu Xiaobai announced. "I'm going to see a doctor." Luo Shuquan said. "It's quite strange when you think about it," Gu Xiaobai didn't care what Luo Shuquan was saying, "How can there be such a qualitative difference in the psychological impact on a man between a beautiful woman and an ordinary-looking woman? I saw A normal-looking woman, thinking, um, this is a woman...or maybe I have no idea at all. I see a beautiful woman, just like seeing other creatures! Alien! Primary school teacher! Nuclear missile launch test site! That feeling of fear and anticipation..." "I'm going to see a doctor." Luo Shuquan said again expressionlessly. "But a dog, a pig, or a sheep, seeing a beautiful woman thinks that's the same, no different from other women." "I'm going to the doctor." "Hey? Is it not good for me to judge people by their appearance?" Gu Xiaobai looked at him happily, "Hey, actually, I feel a kind of joyful shame in my heart." "My kidney... must be broken." "Where can I find that book?" "Why hasn't Zuo Yongbang come yet?" Luo Shuquan was so angry that he wanted to slap the table, "He..." Before he finished speaking, he turned his head, and at the door, Zuo Yongbang opened the door with a smile and came in. "Sorry, sorry, I was late for the meeting just now." Following the figure of Zuo Yongbang, behind him... The woman who nearly shattered her kidney into pieces stepped on her high-heeled shoes and flew in like a bird. Luo Shuquan was dumbfounded, but the woman didn't seem to know Luo Shuquan at all, she snuggled up to Zuo Yongbang softly, as he walked over and sat down, Zuo Yongbang took the menu handed over by the waiter and looked down... The woman next to her sat in a tone of voice, not saying a word. "Why did you change it again?" Gu Xiaobai whispered next to Luo Shuquan's ear, "It's only been a few days? Do you think I want to worship him as a teacher?" After ordering, the waiter turned and left, Zuo Yongbang looked at the two with a smile. "It's like this. I was lucky enough to meet you last time. Brother Xiaobai is unrestrained and handsome..." Zuo Yongbang turned his head to look at Luo Shuquan again, "Brother Shuquan, my little girl is under your care again. My little brother respects the two of you." Quality and knowledge are all things I like very much... So, today I take the liberty to be a Xiaodong, I hope that in the future we can become friends, walk around frequently, and keep in touch, huh? Haha." After Zuo Yongbang finished playing haha, Gu Xiaobai also immediately picked up the ancient costume accent. "Don't dare, we are the little brothers, and you are the big brother, so we still have a lot to rely on in the future." "Where is that!" Zuo Yongbang said modestly. The two of them competed with each other there, while Luo Shuquan looked at the woman opposite, who still bowed her head and smiled gracefully as if she didn't know him at all. "This is?" Looking at Zuo Yongbang, Gu Xiaobai finally couldn't help asking. "Oh! Forgot to introduce, this is Mickey..." Mi Qi, from Qingdao, Shandong, came to Shanghai to study. After several years of hard study, her grades were a mess.In desperation, I entered a third-rate university and studied an unknown major.After graduating, I found that I was useless and had no strengths. At this time, the general income of college graduates was 1,500.After tossing around the front desks of several small companies, an unexpected encounter made her know Zuo Yongbang... At that time, Zuo Yongbang was having a meeting in the small company where she was the front desk. After the meeting, the boss of his own company bowed his head and bowed respectfully to send Zuo Yongbang out.Zuo Yongbang, in a suit and leather shoes, smiled maturely. Walking out the door, suddenly turning back, looking at Mickey... At that time, Mickey was still looking down at the comics, when she heard an elegant and mature laughter above her head. "Miss, are you free for a while?" Mi Qi looked at Zuo Yongbang, as if a beam of light shot down from above his head. Just like that, Mickey quit her job and now makes a living by swiping credit cards. After drinking for three rounds, Gu Xiaobai and Zuo Yongbang were drunk and talking freely, while Luo Shuquan and Mi Qi sat face to face and the atmosphere was cold. "Come on! Let's do a multiple-choice question now." Gu Xiaobai said to everyone, "The first one is a beautiful woman, very beautiful, but she speaks an idiot, so idiotic that you want to strangle her to death." Mickey was putting the fork into her mouth when she stopped suddenly. "It's not about you, you continue to eat." Gu Xiaobai said to Mi Qi. Mickey swallowed it through gritted teeth. "Another one, a talented woman, has read a lot of books, speaks interestingly, speaks eloquently, is educated, but looks like a mess. Which one do you choose?" Gu Xiaobai looked at Luo Shuquan and Zuo Yongbang. "I won't choose any of them," Luo Shuquan said. "Must choose." Before Luo Shuquan could speak, Mi Qi raised her head suddenly, "Oh, according to what you said, there are no beautiful and talented women in the world?" The words were full of offensive meaning, Gu Xiaobai did not show any weakness, and immediately fought back. "Yes. Have you seen it?" "..." "I never think about the possibility of this being close to zero. Just like winning 5 million in the lottery, the probability exists, but it is close to zero." Mi Qi couldn't think of a rebuttal at the moment, Zuo Yongbang glanced at her, Mi Qi had to bow her head silently. "Okay," Gu Xiaobai said again, "Then let me fix my problem. On an isolated island, there are only you and two other women. One is beautiful, but she speaks like an idiot and cannot communicate at all; Like the monster on the island, but fun to talk to. Which would you choose?" "I'll jump into the sea." Luo Shuquan said bluntly. Gu Xiaobai looked at Zuo Yongbang, "What about you?" Zuo Yongbang smiled wryly, "Can I dance too?" "No, you must stay on the island." "Then I can only do this," Zuo Yongbang thought for a while and said, "I choose beautiful women, and then I hope to give birth to a child who can see and talk. In this way, I can talk to the child." Gu Xiaobai stared blankly at Zuo Yongbang, completely admiring him.After being stunned for a while, he said reluctantly, "Then let me correct my question again. You are on an isolated island, but you have been circumcised. There are two women..." Zuo Yongbang and Gu Xiaobai chatted very high, while Mi Qi ate silently by himself, and Luo Shuquan helped her pass things with concern from time to time. Mi Qi raised her head and smiled awkwardly at Luo Shuquan. After dinner, Gu Xiaobai, Luo Shuquan and Zuo Yongbang bid farewell to each other, and the two had nothing to say all the way.Gu Xiaobai is still amazed at Zuo Yongbang's superhuman thinking, wishing to worship him as his teacher.Luo Shuquan was trembling by the scene just now, and he didn't know which string in his heart, so he remained silent.The two returned to the building and entered the door of Luo Shu's family. Gu Xiaobai turned his head with a look of admiration. "I think this Zuo Yongbang can make friends. He has temperament, style, money, and most importantly, he is older than us." "Crap Xiaoxiao is his daughter, but what do you want to say?" "Being older than us means having more qualifications than us. Experience, means, and intelligence are more mature than us. When encountering problems that we find difficult, we can ask him for advice." Looking at Gu Xiaobai's excited expression, Luo Shuquan couldn't say anything, but it seemed he had to say it. It seems that there is something pressed in the throat, and it seems that I can't spit out... "Don't you think..." Luo Shuquan frowned and looked at Gu Xiaobai, "Doesn't he care about that Mickey?" "Huh?" Gu Xiaobai looked at him blankly, "I never pay attention to other people's girlfriends." Luo Shuquan's face froze suddenly, and after taking a look at Gu Xiaobai, he opened his own door and entered the room without looking back, and slammed it shut. Outside the door, Gu Xiaobai was stunned for a while, then began to knock on the door. "There's something wrong with you!!" Early the next morning, Gu Xiaobai woke up refreshed - usually this is the time when he starts to sleep.Gu Xiaobai vowed to dig out that book after visiting bookstores all over Shanghai.However, after half a day passed, it was already afternoon, and the scene encountered in every bookstore was the same. "Excuse me, let me ask, is there a book called..." In front of the counter, Gu Xiaobai propped up his hands, smiled charmingly at the bookstore clerk, took out a note and began to read: "Pure Phenomenology and Concepts of Phenomenological Philosophy." "what?" "Pure...phenomenology...and...idea of...phenomenology...philosophy...." "what?" "goodbye." Every bookstore has exactly the same experience, different salespersons, the same blank expression, and the same frequency of shaking their heads like a rattle. Gu Xiaobai's confidence was almost completely destroyed, he looked at the last bookstore on the list, right in front of him.If this bookstore doesn't have one yet, I can't wait to write one myself—for the sake of beautiful women, he can do such a thing. Looking at the signboard of the bookstore, Gu Xiaobai walked in step by step with a pale face. Pushing open the door, it was the same counter again. "What do you need?" the salesperson asked. Gu Xiaobai took out a piece of paper, waved his hand to the waiter, motioned to keep silent, and read to the paper: "Our Father in heaven, may your name be hallowed, may your kingdom come... save We are free from evil, because excess, power, and glory are all yours forever, amen..." "what are you doing?" "prayer." "..." "Do you have a book called—"Pure Phenomenology and the Idea of ​​Phenomenological Philosophy"?" "No." The salesman said bluntly. Gu Xiaobai silently raised his head and looked at the sky. "You like this book too?" Suddenly a female voice sounded next to her. Gu Xiaobai quickly turned his face away, and at some point there was a thin girl standing beside him.The girl was holding a book, wearing black-rimmed glasses, looking at him happily. "what?" Gu Xiaobai stared blankly at her. "Great, I thought I was the only one reading this book!" The excited look of the girl seemed to have found her soul mate in this life. Gu Xiaobai returned home in a trance, hesitating whether to join Christianity along the way, feeling both disturbed and excited, and thinking about what happened after the encounter in the bookstore, he was a little insane.Instead of entering his own house, he kicked open the door of Luo Shu's family.Luo Shuquan was on the phone with someone, when he saw Gu Xiaobai, he put down the phone abruptly. Look a little embarrassed. "What... what's wrong?" "What are you doing?" Gu Xiaobai asked vigilantly, as if trespassing on private houses had never been a problem. "It's nothing." Luo Shuquan looked at him innocently, "What's the matter with you?" "Apparition!" Gu Xiaobai told him what happened just now... The girl said that she had this book, and Gu Xiaobai said that he wanted to read it very much. The girl lowered her head shyly and said that she could lend it to him.Then the two of them walked out of the bookstore together. In order not to make this encounter too abrupt, they chatted for a while in the nearby cafe.The content involved philosophy, aesthetics, architecture, and music. Gu Xiaobai hadn't chatted so heartily with people for a long time. A beautiful afternoon passed. Before parting, the girl promised to express the legendary rare book to him as soon as he got home. Just after he finished speaking, Luo Shuquan's phone rang. He answered the phone, answered a few words, then turned his head and looked at Gu Xiaobai wonderingly. "What's going on? A courier said there was something for me, come up now." "Yes, yes, it's my book." Seeing Luo Shu's puzzled expression, Gu Xiaobai explained. "Because I saw something wrong with the way that girl looked at me, uh...so for safety's sake, I left your cell phone and your address here." So I'm here now to collect the express mail. After sending the courier away, Gu Xiaobai tore open the package like a gift from Santa Claus. In addition to the legendary book, there were also a few manuscript papers attached. "At that moment, I raised the wind horse, not to pray for blessings, but to wait for your arrival—" Gu Xiaobai read the verses on the manuscript paper affectionately, "That day, when I closed my eyes in the fragrant mist of the scripture hall, I suddenly heard , the mantra of your chanting. In that month, I shook all the prayer wheels, not for exaltation, but just to touch your fingertips..." "what is this?" Luo Shuquan was flipping through the book that he could understand all Chinese characters, but couldn't understand anything when he gathered together. Hearing this, he turned his head and asked. "She said that when she sent me the book, she would add some poems she likes and let me comment on it." Gu Xiaobai was full of admiration, "Look, this writing..." "Why do I feel like I've heard it somewhere?" It is a poem that is circulated on the Internet who does not know who wrote it. "Why do I feel that this is a love poem for you?" Luo Shuquan took it, looked at it for a while like an expert in cultural relic appraisal, and came to a conclusion. "Fortunately..." Gu Xiaobai stared at him dumbfounded, "I also left your name..." "Hi, nice to meet you...my name is Luo Shuquan." Out of animal defense instinct, Gu Xiaobai immediately reported Luo Shuquan's name. Just when Luo Shuquan's eyes were bloodshot, and he was about to pounce on him and bite, Gu Xiaobai tore the book and the manuscript paper, and fled back to his home. The beautiful actress Xiao Qin, whose heart almost stopped beating, stood quietly at the door of his house with a posture of being the scenery. At that moment, even the surrounding air became thinner. Gu Xiaobai watched her from a distance, and approached her step by step. How amazing the Creator is. "Teacher Gu." "Come in... come in." After getting the whereabouts of the book, Gu Xiaobai called her immediately, saying that he could deliver it to her by express, but she insisted on the phone that she would come to pick it up, but Gu Xiaobai couldn't help it and gave her the address. But did not expect so soon. "You don't know how hard it is for me to find this place..." Xiao Qin complained as he walked into Gu Xiaobai's house, "First the taxi driver didn't know the road, and then went around and around, and I got off car, and went through the wrong door..." "So it's good to express it to you..." "This makes me appear more sincere. Hard-won things are precious, right?" She looked at him with clear eyes, but with a strange light. Again, fixed... Gu Xiaobai quickly shook his body. "You... what would you like to drink?" "Sparkling mineral water would be nice." "There is no such thing." "Oh...whatever." She started to take a step, browsing in Gu Xiaobai's living room. The shelves are full of toys. "It turns out that the screenwriter's house is like this. I thought it was full of books..." See that "Terminator" doll and reach for it. Gu Xiaobai wanted to stop it, but it was too late—after the formation that had been arranged with great difficulty was changed, it fell to the ground with a rumble. Xiao Qin stood on the ruins of the toy, moving the corners of his mouth. "Are they not welcoming me?" "It's okay, I'll get you the book." Mingming was so distressed that he wanted to kill her and dismember her immediately, but Gu Xiaobai could only force a smile on his face, taking a deep breath while fetching her a book. The Idea of ​​Pure Phenomenology and Phenomenological Philosophy. How could I choose such an unlucky book? When I picked it up and was about to leave, the picture just before me suddenly appeared inexplicably. "Actually, I think there is no difference between reading this kind of book and not reading it." In the cafe, the girl with black-rimmed glasses said this to him. "Huh? Why?" "Because philosophy belongs to the superstructure, but we live in the midst of joy, anger, sorrow, birth, old age, sickness and death. If people read philosophy books under normal conditions, it is interesting to use their brains, but when encountering such things as joy, anger, sorrow, birth, old age, sickness and death, no knowledge can Useless." "That's right, that's Maslow's theory of needs." Gu Xiaobai echoed excitedly, "The human brain is divided into left and right brains. The left brain controls reason, and the right brain is responsible for emotions. The two sides are separated. No matter how clear the reason is, Emotions are something you can’t control.” "But I have been looking for my soul mate all my life. No matter where I am on the earth or at any node in time and space, I can share my heart and soul with that person." me too…… No matter how much I long for beauty, I still hope that there is one person in this world who can understand me thoroughly, understand me, and understand me... ——What is the real me like? "Sorry..." Gu Xiaobai put down the obvious book in his hand and turned his head. "I forgot where I put that book, and I can't find it." "Oh, it's okay." Xiao Qin seemed indifferent. "fine?" "The problem is..." Xiao Qin smiled beautifully, and approached Gu Xiaobai step by step, "Then how can you compensate me?" Gu Xiaobai stepped back step by step, suddenly panicked, "Didn't you say that hard-won things are more precious?" "Yeah, I mean you..." He wasn't ready yet, he had already been posted by the other party, leaning heavily on the bookshelf. The lips were kissed to the lips. All the toys that were still standing collapsed and fell to the ground one after another. Together with those few manuscript papers. "In that month, I shook all the prayer wheels, not for extension, just to touch your fingertips..." In the evening, when Zuo Yongbang was at home, he received a call from Gu Xiaobai, saying that he had an urgent matter to visit, and Zuo Yongbang gave him the address.Not long after, Gu Xiaobai came to the door, and after telling what happened just now, he began to self-criticize on the sofa with heartbroken self-criticism. "This is a mistake that all men in the world make!!" Gu Xiaobai said sadly. "If you want to open up, no one wants you to surrender, the question is what do you do now?" "I want to know why I'm still looking for you? Your house is so coldly decorated, it's not fun at all. A big reason why I kissed her just now is also because this way she can stop talking." Gu Xiaobai opened his eyes wide Innocent eyes, "But I can't be kissing her forever, can I?" "Maybe they are playing with you too?" "It's not necessary. I'm not a director. I don't benefit from unspoken rules." "Then you can help her write more plays." "That's true..." Gu Xiaobai fell into deep thought. "What are you thinking?" "I'm thinking about what plot to write to kill her..." "Okay, okay, stop pretending, and don't be so extreme." Zuo Yongbang stood up and poured himself a glass of wine, "Anyway, now you are facing... the problem of choosing one or the other on the isolated island, right? " "clever!" "The problem is that you are not on an isolated island!" "Ok?" Looking at Gu Xiaobai's blank eyes, Zuo Yongbang was about to explain further when the phone rang, and Zuo Yongbang walked over to answer it. "Okay, don't make trouble, a cold is not a serious illness... let's talk about it tomorrow, take two pills and go to sleep. Huh? Xiaobai is here with me, that's it, bye." It should be Mickey's call. Zuo Yongbang hung up the phone and returned to his seat, "The problem is that no one is your girlfriend now, no one is forcing you to choose someone to be your girlfriend, and neither party knows the existence of the other, so the situation is against you There is nothing harmful.” Zuo Yongbang looked at him puzzled, “Why do you push yourself to the point where you have to choose one or the other? Anyway, you have nothing to do but write at home and hang out outside. The matter. Let’s get along with each other first, and the answer will automatically emerge..." Gu Xiaobai got the guidance of the sage, and he suddenly became enlightened.Yes, no one forced himself to associate with the other party, so why choose one of the two?Probably because I have been used to choosing since I was a child, and I don't understand the principle of inclusiveness. Sometimes you don't choose things, things choose you. As Zuo Yongbang said, "The answer will emerge automatically." Gu Xiaobai went home happily. The girl from the bookstore on the way called him and asked him if he had received the book. Gu Xiaobai expressed his gratitude. "No, I didn't say you wrote it, but it also represents your state of mind. I understand..." After hanging up the phone, I suddenly felt something was wrong. But I can't remember what is wrong all at once. Coincidentally, at the door, I met Xiaoxiao who seemed to be looking for him. "Where did Luo Shuquan go?" Xiaoxiao saw him and asked straight to the point. "what?" "I'll play with him for a while...he's not here, where did he go?" Suddenly... all understood. "Damn it, I want to find him too." Gu Xiaobai gritted his teeth, "When did he transfer the number of that bookstore girl to my phone?" "It's nothing, but the fuse is blown." Luo Shuquan jumped off the chair and said to Mi Qi, "Maybe you have turned on too many electrical appliances, such as lights and air conditioners." "Well, thank you." The woman on the opposite side said to him wrapped in a quilt. Just the day before, she was supporting him at the door of the toilet like a legend, almost causing him incontinence, and then she found out that she was Zuo Yongbang's girlfriend.Luo Shuquan witnessed how she was not cared by Zuo Yongbang throughout the meal, and he didn't know whether it was sympathy or what. Seeing that Gu Xiaobai and Zuo Yongbang were so engaged in chatting, the two could only talk indifferently, After exchanging MSN and phone number, I didn't expect that she called him just now. The voice on the phone sounded sad and frightened. I caught a cold, and somehow the house was completely dark again.My boyfriend doesn't care about my life again. As he spoke, he began to cry. Luo Shuquan rushed to her house and helped her solve the energy supply problem.The house lights up again. "It's okay." Luo Shuquan smiled, "For such a big matter, it's scary for a girl to be alone at home in the dark. Are you still feeling sick? Have you taken your medicine?" It's been a long time since I've tasted the feeling of being cared for, so Mickey nodded. "Then...then I'm leaving." "Can you talk to me?" The other party looked at him pleadingly. "He only knows how to give me a card for me to swipe. He never knows to take the initiative to care about me. I don't care if I'm sick. When I go out with him, he says that I don't understand. Don't talk nonsense. I am afraid alone, so I put everything The lights are all turned on, I just feel cold, so I turn the air conditioner to the highest, who knows that the fuse is also blown, and the fuse doesn't care about me... Wow..." For the next ten minutes, Mickey poured out her grief like a flood. Luo Shuquan sat on the side, with nowhere to put his hands and feet, and didn't know how to comfort the other party, so he kept pulling out tissues and handing them to her. "On my birthday, I thought he would give me a gift, but I didn't expect him to have nothing. He also said, I gave you all the cards, and you can buy whatever you like. I just bought shoes and bags in one go , necklaces, earrings, earrings. He maxed out all his cards, but he forgot not to buy a fuse... Wow..." If this continues, the house will be flooded... "Since he treats you so badly," Luo Shuquan hesitated for a while, and finally made up his mind, "If he doesn't care about you so much, why do you want to be with him?" "Because my birthday is only once a year, I'm not too sick..." The other party looked at him with an incredible look. "But for the remaining 364 days, I need shoes, bags, necklaces, earrings, and studs..." Only when we are weak, do we feel that spiritual care is a precious thing.Most of the time, just material satisfaction has made me very happy. "You won't understand." Mickey wiped away her tears and raised her head, "Thank you, you should go back and rest early." Luo Shuquan nodded and stood up.Mitch reluctantly saw him off, went to the door and opened it. As soon as he lowered his head, Mickey grabbed the other hand. Luo Shuquan lowered his head, staring blankly at Miqi holding his hand. Mickey looked down at her hands too. This was a weird moment, Mi Qi didn't know why she did this, and Luo Shuquan didn't know how to react even more. Just in time—just in time again—the phone rang, and Luo Shuquan picked it up as if grasping at straws. "Where are you?" Gu Xiaobai asked vigorously on the phone, "When did you transfer the call of that bookstore girl to my mobile phone?" "Nonsense, this is your business, and it has nothing to do with me!" "Okay, this is my business, but there is another thing that is not mine. Now I will help you take care of it." "what?" "Xiaoxiao! Xiaoxiao stays with me and refuses to leave. She insists on waiting for you to come back and play with you for a while. I don't know what to play with you. Anyway, if you don't come back, I will be played to death by her. Where are you? ?" "come back quickly!!!" Gu Xiaobai hung up the phone with a bang. After putting away the phone, both of them came back to their senses, looked at each other and smiled awkwardly. "Is there something?" Mickey smiled. "I... I am a student." She is the child of your boyfriend and ex-wife, and also my student. It was a bit too messy. "You are so kind." Miqi smiled lightly, "A really good man will be cherished by women." "Please take good care of yourself." “今天是我太脆弱，我不该找你的，也不应该给你电话让你过来，是我太冲动了。” “我明白，每个人不可能两全其美的，你知道你要的是什么就够了。” 对方低头笑了笑，然后抬起头，下了决心般说道：“再见。” 女人比较容易想清楚然后忍痛割舍，男人总幻想着两全其美真的会落到自己头上，哪怕不能完美统一，能分裂着供给也不错。接下来的日子里，顾小白和美女演员、书店女孩同时交往着，享受着和美女并肩走在路上虚荣心的巨大满足，感受着和书店女孩倾谈的内心平静。可惜和前一个无法交流，后一个又实在让他除了聊天产生不了任何其他想法。 但哪一个都不舍得率先丢弃。 “我现在已经完全疯掉了。”半个月后的一天，顾小白对罗书全说，“每次手机铃一响，完全不知道打过来的是谁，骰盅就开始摇。” “那你跟他们其中一个在一起的时候，另一个打过来怎么办？” “你这个问题问得好！你想知道我是怎么解决的吗？” "Ok?" “话说这个问题的解决办法，我还是从你这里得到的启发。” “我这里？” 罗书全和米琪的短暂情谊只维持了一个小时，他可以尽情地关心顾小白的八卦。 “你那天不是把书店那个女孩儿的电话转移到我手机上吗？” “是啊。”罗书全点头，“用个手机软件就可以。专门可以指定具体的号码转移。” “这个软件我也下了。”顾小白一边打手势一边解释，“我和A在一起的时候呢，我就把B的号码转移到她自己手机上。” “什么？”罗书全听不明白。 “就是她打电话给我，从我这里兜一圈又回到自己手机上，等于自己在给自己打电话。” “那……那会听到什么？” “我怎么知道？”他干脆道，“我又没打过这么变态的电话。”顾小白哀怨地走到罗书全的窗前，看着楼下。“人生真的很辛苦……” “你不觉得，你这样很卑鄙吗？” “你以为我想啊！”顾小白转过头，恨恨道，“我在做公益事业！” "What?" “你看啊！我制定了这样一个计划……”顾小白看着他，“我呐——同时在为小秦补文化课，介绍她看不同的书啊，电影啊，CD啊，提升她的精神品味。但同时呢，我在给那个叫小蓝的补服饰课，我问小秦女人的衣服怎么搭配啊，化妆怎么化脸部会比较立体啊，我还在鼓动小蓝把眼镜摘了，戴美瞳，那样看起来更有女人味儿。” “那你成功了没？” “没。”顾小白沮丧地摇头，“她们同时开始认为我是个很有文化的同性恋。” "..." “但任何事情都是有附加的好处的。”沮丧了一会儿，顾小白又振作起来，“你看，由于我长时间进行这种身体和灵魂的分裂活动，我已经开始渐渐掌握了灵魂出窍的技能。” Luo Shuquan stared at him blankly. “你看啊！”顾小白开始微笑地闭着眼睛在沙发上坐定，一动不动。 “干什么啊？”等了半天，罗书全终于忍不住问。 “你看角落里。”顾小白依旧微笑地闭着眼睛，“有没有看到一个人影在走动？” 罗书全转头看去。 理所应当的，什么也没有。 “他现在走到厨房，倒了杯水，然后他喝了——他现在正在洗杯子……他现在把碗也洗了，你昨天吃的是速冻湾仔码头的水饺，因为地上还有一张残破的包装袋……他现在收拾起垃圾袋，往垃圾间走去……” 顾小白栩栩如生地描绘着一个并不存在的人。 “你快看医生去吧！你！” 被罗书全飞来的杂志击中，顾小白倒在沙发上，还在闭目微笑。 “你现在击中的是我的肉体，但是由于我的灵魂已经出窍，所以我的痛感神经没有办法感知到这一种撞击的行为……” 罗书全恨得要死，加上羡慕嫉妒恨，扑上去就掐住他脖子使劲晃。 “你现在感不感知得到？你现在感不感知得到？” 开始还在憋着气，终于忍不住扑腾起来。 “别闹，”顾小白使劲叫，“你别闹！” “我在帮你招魂呢！” 只能挠痒痒了。顾小白手伸到罗书全腋下一通乱抓。 两人闹得好欢乐。 门不知何时被推开了。 书店的女孩毫无征兆地推门进来，看到这个情景，眼珠子差点掉下来。 “好了。”望着她飞奔下去落荒而逃的身影，顾小白严肃地坐起身，整理了一下衣领。“她现在很确定我是个同性恋了。” 罗书全看着顾小白跳起身，冲下楼去挽救这段不知道算不算恋情的关系，自己在电脑前若无其事地玩起来，十分钟以后顾小白连蹦带跳地冲上来。 脸色居然显得十分喜悦。 “怎么样？你成功挽回了吗？”罗书全问。 “左永邦真是个神人哪！”顾小白激动得都语无伦次了，“他告诉我两个同时交往，答案会自己浮现出来的，答案果然自己浮现出来啦！” "what?" “话说我冲下楼去，她逃得比兔子还快！” 顾小白家楼下，顾小白冲下楼去，拉住书店女孩。 “我上气不接下气地向她解释，事情不是她想象的那样，罗书全只是我的一个好朋友。” “你不是叫罗书全吗？”女孩呆呆地看着他。 “嗯哈？”罗书全得意洋洋地反问，“你怎么说。” “我说对，没错，我只是在展示我新学会的一门技能，她刚才看到的那个人其实不是人，其实只不过是我用意念分离出来的一个分身。既然都是我自己，那名字当然是一样的啦！” 罗书全呆呆地看着他。 从来没看到能这么会自圆其说的人…… “你……真TM能掰啊！”罗书全痴痴地说。 “嗯，于是她非但认为我是个同性恋，连精神都不正常，于是我更加激动，更加口不择言地向她解释，这种冲动我已经很久没有体验到了……” 顾小白脸上浮现出梦幻的表情。 “所以你终于明白你真正选的真正喜欢的其实是她。”罗书全大叫道。 “哈哈哈，你完全猜错了，我在跟她解释的时候看着她的脸，我终于意识到哪怕她讲话再有趣，再有文化，再能背唐诗我也不想跟她在一起。” "..." “你想象一下，”顾小白看着他，“你如果每天起床，睁开眼睛看到的第一样东西，就是一张自己不喜欢的脸，你是什么心情？”他飞快地说，“那么每一天对我来说都是一个心情糟糕的开始，我将以糟糕的心情开始每一天，我会变得不爱说话，不爱见人，不爱任何活的东西，了无生趣，把睡觉当成我唯一的乐趣，直到我从此长眠不醒……” 望着罗书全呆若木鸡的脸，顾小白尘埃落定。 “这就是我聆听到自己内心的声音……” “但是那另一个是个半文盲啊。” “文盲都是可以培养的啊。”顾小白诧异地看着他，“小孩子不都是文盲吗？不都一个个培养出来了吗，你只要把她当成小孩子就行了——反正女人内心都是小孩子，只不过这是个漂亮的小孩子，我可以培养她的心智。但我再厉害，也没办法把一个不漂亮的小孩子培养好看啊！” “你真是个禽兽啊！”罗书全叹为观止。 “你……”顾小白紧紧盯着他。“一直在看手机干吗啊？” 原来自己也在不知不觉的时候，一直在看有没有人打电话来。 而这个人…… 正在一个人逛商场，也不时拿起手机看着，没有来电，失落又失落地放进包里。突然响起来，米琪激动得要命，一阵手忙脚乱地接起。 原来是左永邦。 “嘿，是你啊。” “干吗？不是我还是谁啊？” “没有。”米琪笑了笑，“我就是在想，这个时间你怎么会打电话来？” “一个会刚开完，一会儿去客户那里。”左永邦说，“顺便给你打个电话，你感冒怎么样了？” “早好啦，你听听。”米琪把手机举在空中，“我像是在家里吗？” “又在商场里？” “干吗？心惊胆战了？” 脸上挂着的，是勉强的笑容吧。 “我喜欢的是你。”对面的左永邦笑起来，“所以你喜欢什么就买什么，我干吗要害怕——对了，晚上我们一起吃饭吧，顾小白约了我们，好像要带他的新女朋友给我们看。” "OK." 挂了电话，米琪不由得往边上的餐厅望去。 就是在那个餐厅里，她前所未有地感到自己原来这么不被重视。 这是对比下来感知到的心情…… 原来米琪丰衣足食，即便偶尔有些伤感，也咬咬牙过去了，但她也终于明白……有些东西，比如一个男人的关心，是钱买不来的…… 罗书全走进餐厅的时候，米琪正在大落地窗前坐着，喝着咖啡，旁边一大堆购物袋。 见到对方的时候，都有些尴尬。 都是又先早到了。 "Hi!" "Hi!" 两人微笑看着对方。 “怎么又是你一个人先来？又要试鞋子？那我先去洗手间。”罗书全面无人色。 “没有没有。”米琪笑着扬手，“我给你看样东西。” 罗书全困惑地走过去，坐到米琪身边，看着她从一个购物袋里拎出一个大公仔玩具。 “你什么时候学得跟顾小白一样喜欢这种东西了？” “没没，我给你看啊！” 说着，米琪在公仔后面的开关上拨拉了一下。 “早点睡觉咯？”公仔发出声音，“不要着凉喔……睡不着我讲故事给你听吧……从前呢，有只小白兔，它在森林里迷了路……” 罗书全呆呆看着她。 “可以自己录音的哦。”米琪得意地笑起来，“以后我想听什么好话它都能跟我说。” 这是一个女人给予自己最最温暖的妥协…… 因为她也想通自己要的究竟是什么，怎么去得到。 与此同时，在陕西路地铁站边的季风书店里…… 顾小白拎着购物袋，里面全是女装。小秦在杂志栏前翻着杂志，开始一二三四五拿起五本杂志往收银台前走。 “你干什么？”顾小白忍不住问。 “啊？我们不是说好的吗？一件衣服换一本书，我们刚才买了五件衣服，所以我负责看完五本书。” “是书……不是杂志。” “啊？有什么区别吗？” “杂志……”顾小白深呼吸，“里面还是衣服……” “好好，就这几本吧！”小秦随便在边上的柜子上拨拉出几本书来。刚要走，突然暼到一本书，一边抽出一边叫起来，“哎呀！这本书我十年前看过的！很感动的啊！” 是痞子蔡的《第一次的亲密接触》。 “我还记得我当年看这本书的时候，我们全班女生都在看呢，我就拿过来看看啊，想，哎哟……怎么会有作者叫那么奇怪的名字啊，叫'胚子蔡'啊。” 顾小白呆呆地看着她。 "what is it call?" “胚子蔡啊！” "Really." “是的啊！”小秦伤感地感慨着，“那天下午我一个人看得哭死来，后来我就一直在想，这个胚子蔡是学理工的呀，怎么能写出这么感人的故事啊？难道是真的啊？明明写得那么感动，非要给自己取个名字叫胚子蔡，奇怪哇。” 一回头，身边顾小白已经消失。 大街上，人来人往，这么多人，却只有顾小白一个人在逃亡。 我们总是在不断地选择，衡量不同的指标，选择有钱的，选择身高一米八，选择胸围，选择学历，选择进攻的方向，选择逃跑的路线。因为这个世间没有尽善尽美，我们只能选择对自己最有利的。选择，成为我们不被淘汰的理由，成了我们活下去的法宝，只是我们早已经忘了——在我们很小的时候…… 在罗书全从米琪家“安全”回来的那一天，到顾小白家接潇潇的时候。 “潇潇，我问你个问题。”他坐下来，疲倦地问面前的女孩。 “啊？”潇潇抬起头看着他。 “你长大以后，你会选择一个有钱的男人，还是对你好的男人呢？” “什么？没听懂。” “你会选一个有钱的男人，还是对你好的？” “这些东西和我有关系吗？” 面对这样难倒所有成年人的困境，潇潇毫不犹豫地看着面前的男人。 “我只选自己喜欢的。”站起来，拍拍罗书全的脸，“也就是你啦。” 说完，潇潇嚼着口香糖，头也不回地走出顾小白家。 罗书全一个人呆呆坐在那里。 我们都已经忘了……