Chapter 6 Chapter.03 1997 Summer Solstice·Encounter·Swallowtail Butterfly

Li Xia didn't know how he got off the stage, he just felt like his feet had suddenly fallen into a swamp, and he couldn't exert any strength. The whole world suddenly seemed to be emptied of sound. All the remaining shots are played in front of my eyes like a silent movie. Li Xia saw Qiqi waving to the audience, her smile was like a white flower tree blooming all over the valley in spring.And Lu Zhiang stood up from behind the piano, pretending to bow to the students below the stage, feeling like he suddenly became a mature gentleman, but unfortunately he still had a seventeen-year-old childish face with sharp edges and corners.

And what about Fu Xiaosi? Lixia didn't dare to look up at Fu Xiaosi at all, he could only hear him packing his things with his sleeves rolled up in front of him.The arm protruding from the sleeve, the boy's protruding blood vessels, and the joints with distinct bones.It is completely different from the soft and delicate arms of girls. Then Li Xia went down the stage in a daze.When he got to the edge of the stage, Li Xia originally wanted to raise his head to ask Fu Xiaosi, but when he looked up, he saw Li Yanran's beautiful face, she was waiting there with a bottle of mineral water, Fu Xiaosi raised his eyes and looked down at her. After saying something aloud, Li Yanran had a bright smile on her face.So Li Xia almost stepped on the ground.

Backstage, Li Xia's eyes followed Fu Xiaosi all the time, and when he was about to speak a few times, he didn't dare to ask anything because Li Yanran was beside him, but his eyes still stayed on him.Li Xia thought, is this the painter he has liked for two whole years?Eyebrows, eyes, nose, hair.black hair.The shadows of the two people all overlapped.Feelings get weird and subtle. The night is still a little chilly. Although the heavy winter has passed, the cold factors suspended in the air and the cold outside the window have not receded, and they are still looking for every gap and lurking into the inside of the person.

At night, Lixia lay in bed and couldn't sleep.The scene of Fu Xiaosi in the background appeared repeatedly before his eyes.She wanted to ask a few times, but Li Yanran's smile forced her back when she reached the point of her mouth. pass away. A classmate passing by in the aisle in front of him patted Fu Xiaosi on the shoulder. Fu Xiaosi raised his head, with foggy eyes, and smiled politely.After a second, the priest stood in front of the drawing board holding a pen for a second, with a slight smile on his lips. Sleep on your left side. I saw Fu Xiaosi squatting down to tidy up the folded wooden easel—the light yellow wooden easel was borrowed and used by himself for a week, and later he got some paint on it that couldn’t be washed off—hair hanging down in front of the eyes A fine shadow.

Sleep on the right side. The scene jumps to the priest walking through the studio to the kitchen in the middle of the night, opening the refrigerator and taking out a bottle of Coke, then lifts his feet to avoid the scattered drawings and walks back to the living room. while staring at the ceiling Fu Xiaosi put the paints one by one into the paint box in order, with a cold expression on his face, Li Yanran was at the side to help, he shook his head and pointed to the stool next to her to tell her to rest. when you close your eyes The priest walked in the heavy rain without an umbrella, and the rain wet his hair and clothes, and large drops of rain dripped down his black hair.The ground was a wet light.

Fu Xiaosi walked over, the priest came over, and the two of them piled up together and finally turned into Fu Xiaosi's face. His eyebrows, eyes, and hair were all black, as black as the thick night. "Hey, after the performance, you still don't leave, are you stupid?" So many feelings rushed up and blocked his throat, Li Xia almost cried out, tears remained in his eyes, choked up uncomfortably.Li Xia had to cover her mouth. The night became very quiet, but Li Xia felt that many things were waking up in this cold spring night.All all wake up. What is it that wakes up? March passed slowly, Li Xia didn't ask any more questions, and then it became very natural, Li Xia thought, in fact, Fu Xiaosi didn't care at all, he was still that little gangster who didn't like to talk and had cataracts in his eyes!Even though he scored the first in the whole school in fine arts and had a clean face and well-dressed clothes, his whole body was full of a lazy and confusing feeling, so Li Xia always felt that only the title of gangster was more suitable for him.

The temperature began to rise slowly. In a city in the deep north like Asakawa, spring comes very slowly. Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang began to take off their coats, and slowly put on spring clothes from winter clothes, but Lu Zhiang was still very afraid of the cold, and occasionally wore a fleece hat, and the shape was very funny, there were two small braids on both sides of the ears, like a little girl Same.Every time Fu Xiaosi would roll his eyes at him, and Lixia and Qiqi would follow suit, but Lu Zhiang would always cover his ears and play rogue, with a begging expression of "I don't want to be like this".

Fortunately, he has a good-looking face and a bright smile. He is cute and not annoying, showing a childish air. At the end of March, a girl in Lixia's dormitory transferred to Shenzhen, and Lixia didn't feel too sad when she left.In fact, we have only been together for less than a year, and we don't usually know each other very well.The conversations that result are nothing more than "go to class" and "let's go together" and the like. I am very interested in Lixia, the transfer student that the teacher said to be transferred.The girls in the class kept saying that the one who transferred was a problem student, which made Li Xia even more curious.Because a problem student can be transferred to Asakawa No. 1 Middle School or even Class No. 3, which is as explosive as a student who has been failing the exam can be sent to Tsinghua University to study.

Looking at the vacant seat beside her, Li Xia wondered, what kind of person would sit with her? When Li Xia went to class in the morning, as soon as he entered the classroom, he heard the whole classroom buzzing, like a beehive that exploded. Li Xia turned his head and saw the class teacher standing by the window, and another girl standing in front of him with her head bowed. The light from the window was too strong, and the silhouette of the girl was illuminated with a weak halo.The shoulder-length hair is cut messily, so it feels as short as the ears. Li Xia thought, this should be that girl.

after a long time.But I can't remember how long it was. All Lixia could remember was her tone and expression when she introduced herself. The only thing she said was: "My name is Encounter." Then she walked off the podium and sat next to Lixia. Each of us will meet this and that, all kinds of people in our life.Some pass by, leaving behind a blurred face that survives for three seconds of memory.Some people gather towards life like dust, gather into a sculpture like sand sculptures, standing on the square of life. The memory of that morning is already very blurred, but Li Xia can still recall the demeanor, speed of speech and movements of Yu Yu when he spoke.Just like the other Fu Xiaosi, he didn't say a word, and his whole body felt cold.

Lixia has heard before that everyone has an aura.Exudes its own unique influence. Electromagnetic waves like ripples. disturbing everyone around. Although the aura I met was like cold air with a cold current, but—— In the following week, I didn't talk to Lixia much.Only occasionally when the teacher asked questions in class, Li Xia would quietly write the answers on paper for her to read.Then she read it out.After sitting down, he didn't say thank you, but just glanced at Li Xia, nodded slightly, and then lowered his head again. The clothes I met were very different in Asakawa No. 1 Middle School.And if you look closely, you will find that you have pierced ears. It really is a problem student.Li Xia thought to herself. After lunch at noon on that Saturday, Li Xia came back from the bookstore outside the school. He looked up and saw a group of boys with dyed yellow hair and casual clothes standing beside the school gate.Encounter was arguing with them about something, and they got into an argument later. Yu Yu had just finished yelling a few words, when she saw Li Xia running over suddenly, she ran into the school by herself, and said in the loudest voice while running: "You are still here, the teacher is looking for you, come with me." Li Xia's heart was beating violently, afraid that the people behind him would tell him to stop.Question marks such as "What if I get caught by them" and "Will I be raped" keep appearing in my mind like the scene of a serial explosion gun battle in a movie. But Yu Yu stopped by herself, she shook off Li Xia's hand, looked at Li Xia suspiciously, as if saying "what are you doing". The little yellow-haired ruffian behind him uttered a few laughs that were just audible.Those mocking tones were like thorny seeds sticking to the body, sticking out their thorny roots and piercing fiercely into the skin.After all, Li Xia has been a good boy since he was a child, and he has never seen such a scene, so his face was so hot that it seemed to burn.Yuyu turned around and yelled at them, and then they didn't dare to make a sound. Turning around, Yuyu turned to Lixia and said, "Go back to your class and leave me alone." Li Xia felt embarrassed to death for a moment, because it seemed that he was indeed meddling. When Li Xia didn't know what to do, a person's back suddenly stood in front of Li Xia, and Li Xia knew it without raising his head.The fragrance of Asakusa came from the white coat, Fu Xiaosi turned his head and said to Lixia: "Why are you here, go back to class." Lixia looked up and saw Fu Xiaosi's face was slightly angry. Unquestionable tone, expressionless face. "Go back to class." "Why are you here?" Encounter raised her head and looked at Lixia who was taken away by Fu Xiaosi, her back was very thin and thin.It is also very strange to meet, what is the power that enables her to speak to a student with problems like herself?Can't figure it out. Lixia felt very uncomfortable throughout the afternoon. She wanted to find a chance to say sorry to Encounter but couldn't say anything, which made her feel very annoyed.So I didn't listen to the class all afternoon, and I stayed until school was over in a daze. Almost everyone in the class has left. Because today is Saturday and there is no class tomorrow, many people have gone home.It was dusk when Li Xia packed her schoolbag, she walked out of the classroom, and when she was about to go down the stairs, she heard someone calling her name at the end of the corridor. Li Xia raised his head and looked over, and saw him sitting on the window sill at the end of the corridor, with his schoolbag at his feet.In that evening, the hair I met was golden in the setting sun. "Hey. Come here." "Hey, come here." "it is good." Such dialogues occur repeatedly and frequently in everyone's life.I never expected what kind of imprint such an ordinary conversation would leave in my life. We didn't understand it ten years ago, and we can't remember it ten years later. Only the original syllables remain, leaking in the stale air. Li Xia forgot how the conversation happened and ended that afternoon, Li Xia just remembered the smile he met, it was the cleanest smile Li Xia had ever seen since childhood, even cleaner than the smiles of Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang.Perhaps it is the warm atmosphere of dusk that brews the silent furry warmth, making everything full of a sweet and greasy fragrance of happiness. "You, why do you suddenly want to take care of my affairs?" "I don't know. At that time, I just thought that I should get acquainted with you. No matter what, even if we will never see each other again after graduation, even if we see graduation photos in the future, we can't remember each other's names, but no matter what. I met all my high school classmates, each of us will be in a different situation in the future, we will also meet various people and have various relationships with them, but there are only sixty-six high school classmates in a lifetime, and How many of them are at the same table in high school in a lifetime? It must be hypocritical for me to say this!" Spring is a wet season.Sometimes it rains all week.Even though he didn't have to do gymnastics because of the rain, the cold and wet feeling still made people uncomfortable.The quilt exudes a cold feeling, as if it has been thrown into a puddle of water and soaked. It takes half an hour to feel warm after sleeping. I met that I didn’t go to evening self-study every night. Every time the teacher turned around after calling the name, I ran out, and then I didn’t come back until the evening self-study was over.Often, when Li Xia was laying on the bed with a flashlight and doing exercises or writing English words or chemical equations repeatedly, he would hear very slight footsteps in the corridor, and when he opened the door, he would see Encounter. It often rains, and she often comes back wet.The clothes were soaked in water and there were large and large water stains, and the tips of the hair were also dripping with water. Even in spring, it is very cold. Originally, Li Xia also wanted to ask her why she went out every night, but after thinking about what happened last time, she decisively shut up.She didn't want Yuyuyu to think that she was a meddlesome gossip.Although she is indeed more like a gossip sometimes, when Yingying and the others discuss the lace of a certain celebrity and whether so and so in the seventh class of the second year has fallen in love with so and so in the fifth class of the first year and other gossips, she often joins the fight Chatted so brightly. The first time Lixia went to open the door for Encounter, she was really shocked. When she opened the door, she saw a woman with dripping hair standing at the door and almost bit her tongue out. She opened her mouth and wanted to scream. covered his mouth. Then I gradually got used to it. Almost every night at 11:30, I have to help Yuen to open the door, and when it rains, I will prepare dry towels. Lixia always wonders why Yuyu doesn't like to open an umbrella, but he is too embarrassed to ask.Later, Lixia would prepare a cup of hot milk and then sit in front of the desk and wait for the meeting to come back.This habit has become more and more permanent and has become a part of life. Tiptoeing cautiously, the heat of the milk in the glass, a whispered "thank you", and the door creaking open at midnight, these have become Lixia's habits.It is like a path that has just been stepped on, from the grass that collapsed into a road at the beginning, and gradually exposed to the ground at the end, turning into a spacious road leading to the distant future. Time has become a narrow corridor.Memories and habits are marked along the way. Later, Li Xia didn't feel anything strange anymore, and it was only natural that Encounter should show up at 11:30, and came back dripping wet.If she went to the evening study on time and returned to the dormitory on time, then she should call the police. Yuyu habitually sat cross-legged on a chair and wiped her hair, and then watched Lixia wearing pajamas with dark circles under her eyes and gritting her teeth reciting foreign languages.Sometimes the hair is tied up, and sometimes a little eye cream mask is applied to prevent it from being too ugly the next day.When the homework is too difficult, he will whine and complain, and he will scold Fu Xiaosi, Lu Zhiang, why the bastard doesn't work hard, and his grades are so good.The most common is throwing the head back at an almost broken angle and howling "you're a pig". I don't know whether I am saying that the exercises are pigs or I am a pig. Thoughtful and authentic.It's like standing on a plank with your feet on the ground.Such a person. The temperature of the milk travels from the throat all the way down to the heart.Meet and look at Lixia think so. Yu Yu sometimes asked her, "Why do you fight so hard?" Li Xia looked back with wide eyes and said, "You can't let Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang look down on you." So when I met, I squinted my eyes and smiled. "beginning of summer" "Ok?" "Thank you for waiting for me every night." "Oh, don't say that, meet me. I have to stay up late at night to study. I just want to thank you because you are with me. I used to be scared when I read and wrote my diary alone in the dormitory." "Xiao Si, accompany me to get my hair cut." "Won't you go by yourself?" "It doesn't matter what your attitude is, just go with me." "Isn't your hair very good, why cut it?" "Oh, stop talking nonsense. Cut it if you like it. By the way, skip the afternoon class, go to the hillside to play for a while, and then go to cut your hair after school." "Aren't you going to be arrested, You Kuang?" "No, the teacher is not here this afternoon. I have already greeted the study committee member. She has been secretly in love with me, haha." "Go to hell." "Xiao Si, you can't be jealous, just admit it." "kill me!" The grass on the hillside has changed from the withered yellow in winter to the current light green, while the dark green turns around and sweeps up the treetops, and the darker green spreads out on the tree trunks. Fu Xiaosi slept with his clothes covered on his head, Lu Zhiang sat on the grass next to him, looked down at Xiao Si who was sleeping with his head covered, hesitant to speak.After repeatedly opening his mouth many times, he finally spoke. "Xiao Si, do you think that the relationship between people will last forever? Or do you say that you are very happy when you are together, but once you are separated, you will soon forget it, have a new partner, and start laughing at new things. For a year or so, I won't think about the past of the people in the past. Do you think it will be like this?" "It should be." "But I don't like it." "It's not up to you to say idiot whether you like it or not. Do you think you are? Does the earth rotate because of you?" "Xiao Si, have you ever thought about the division of subjects?" "I've thought about it. I don't care what I study. I can either be an artist or an engineer. My mother thinks it's good, so I don't care." "I haven't decided yet. It's tiring to study science, or just be an art student, and go to the class of Qiqi after the division, study liberal arts, read novels, draw pictures, and joke with beautiful girls all day, but it seems that this is also very empty. life" Then there is silence.Neither of them spoke anymore.Xiao Si felt that the grass in his neck was itching all the time, even after moving a few times, he still felt itchy.He sighed and closed his eyes to the blue sky.The eyes were blood red, with a furry heat. The spring sun is getting hotter day by day.After thinking about it, I thought of Qinghai. Xiao Si had seen the introduction on TV before, and the scenery there was particularly beautiful in spring.There is a sea of ​​flowers there.Travelers say that when driving through the mountains, they often lose sight of people for half a day, and then they will encounter a large sea of ​​flowers on the way. The entire sea of ​​flowers is endless, filled with thousands of palm-sized butterflies flying inside. Xiao Si took off the clothes covering his eyes, and then told Lu Zhiang the distant scenery that he thought of just now. Lu Zhiang laughed loudly, and then said vigorously: "Xiao Si, you don't know, when I do the test papers in front of the desk lamp at night, I feel very tired, and sometimes I want to travel on a whim, and I still I think if Xiao Si is going, I will take him with me, and then I will bring my tall shepherd dog Zeus, and then go to hell with exams, college entrance, beautiful girls, handsome clothes, the two of us will go like that Vagabond. Is the word vagabond really cool?" After he finished speaking, he laughed loudly, his hair was disheveled like a lion in the wind.Halfway through the laugh, he felt something was wrong, because Fu Xiaosi didn't say a word, so he turned to look at him, and saw that he had cataract eyes open, and said with a blank expression: "Please explain, what is Dai, Shang, Fu, Xiao, Si, He, You, Jia, De, Dog." Inevitably, the two had a fight, with Lu Zhiang's screaming in the middle.After the beating, both of them had grass on their hair. The sun was setting along the outline of the hillside. The world is golden. "Accompany me to get my hair cut." Lu Zhiang said. "No, I've wasted an afternoon with you, idiot. I promised Lixia to help her with chemistry. It seems that the girl didn't do well in science when she went to high school. She seemed to be confused about those equations. That's it." help her." "Ah, you want a wife and not a brother." "Do you want to be beaten again?" "Then I'll cut my hair another day. I'll wait for you to go home together." "Well. OK." Many days in a row. The sun at 5:30 in the afternoon, the desks under the sun are half golden and half shaded.Outside, the camphor camphor grows new leaves silently. Dust floats in the light like slow motion.You can see clearly when you squint.When you close your eyes, it is a hot red. Li Xia lay on the table and thought blankly, many irrelevant things passed from his mind one by one.The notebook that was just used up, gel pens that cost one yuan each, Fu Xiaosi’s black chemistry notes, Lu Zhiang’s braided hat. Writing and drawing on the calculation paper with a pen, those rustling sounds were like the sound of rain heard in a deep sleep, echoing out of the window in a trance. "Well, two moles of sulfuric acid react with it, but at this temperature they don't react, need a catalyst and heat, and hey, are you listening?" Li Xia was interrupted by Fu Xiaosi's last words, came back to his senses, and saw Fu Xiaosi's fierce face and the raised hand holding a pen about to hit his head, with sharp knuckles. Time is slowly pacing outside the window, and the days pass like this. Li Xia somehow remembered such a sentence. It seems like this has been a long time, every afternoon after school, Fu Xiaosi came up from the back row and sat next to Li Xia, spread out his notebook and began to help her with tutoring, Lu Zhiang put the two chairs together in the back seat to sleep, with his hair covered Cover most of the angular face. The surrounding students left one after another, the hustle and bustle gradually stopped, the sun at sunset slowly shone on the three of them, the world was quiet, only the sound of Fu Xiaosi's pen rubbing against the paper. The only sound in the world. Several times Li Yanran came to the classroom to look for Fu Xiaosi, probably to tell him to go home together, but every time Fu Xiaosi went to the door, lowered his head and talked to her for a while, because the distance was too far and the voice was too low , Lixia feels like watching a silent scene in a movie.The setting sun came from behind the two of them, a golden color, every time Fu Xiaosi said a few words in a low voice, Li Yanran turned around with a smile and left.Then he still sat down with a blank expression and continued to help Lixia give a lecture. Lixia sometimes feels that the two of them are full of tacit understanding like a couple who have been married for many years, and this imagination frightens her.baffling.There is no reason. Usually at this time Lu Zhiang would pretend not to see Li Yanran and continue to sleep with his head covered. That day, Li Xia originally thought that Fu Xiaosi would stay and teach him chemistry for a while before going home, because the test papers for last week's exam were handed out today, and Li Xia's grades were average again.But during the second class in the afternoon, Li Xia turned around and found that the two people behind him were gone, and they disappeared without knowing when.So after school, Lixia and Yumet went back to the apartment. I took the lunch box and went to the cafeteria to get a meal, and there was a long queue.Li Xia turned sideways and looked at the endless black heads in front of him, and felt even hungrier. After dawdling for about an hour before coming out, Li Xia walked towards the apartment with the lunch box in his hands.When he came to the steps of the apartment gate, Li Xia froze there as soon as he raised his head, Li Yanran stood at the door, looked at him and smiled politely.Li Xia felt that the gray iron lunch box in his hand was slightly hot, and it burned to the base of his ears. "Xiao Si has been helping you with tutoring this month, right?" "Ok." "No wonder, I'm busy with my own affairs, and I have to take care of your studies. He seems to lack sleep every day, which is really worrying." "Originally I" "I don't mean anything else, you don't need to explain. It's just that you should do your own things. Xiao Si is very good to everyone, but it's meaningless for you to trouble others all the time. What's more, your family and Xiao Si The situation at home is so different, in the eyes of others, I don't know what it will look like." Li Yanran was a little proud when she said this, and looked at Li Xia with a pitiful expression.Li Xia suddenly panicked, opened his mouth and didn't know what to say, but felt that his eyes were sore and uncomfortable. "I'm not for" "Why, it has nothing to do with me. I'm going to pick up Xiaosi from school. Goodbye." "Please wait" Li Xia subconsciously touched Li Yanran's sleeve. It's like treating the classmates around you, such as meeting, such as Yingying.Lixia is the kind of girl who likes intimacy. After meeting and getting acquainted with her, she said that Lixia is actually a cat, so sticky to people. After Lixia touched Li Yanran's sleeve, she felt awkward, and her hand stopped there awkwardly. . Li Yanran hastily shook off Li Xia's hand, her eyes somewhat disgusted, although she was still well-bred and polite, but this politeness disappeared completely shortly after.Because of her shaking hands, and because of Li Xia's embarrassment and bewilderment, the lunch box in Li Xia's hand suddenly fell from her hand, and the vegetables inside splashed on Li Yanran's white coat.Li Yanran let out a scream that was neither high nor low, making all the surrounding students look over. It's like time has disappeared.And all the sounds. When Li Xia raised his head again, he saw the faces of Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang behind Li Yanran. Fu Xiaosi's expressionless face made Li Xia feel less flustered, Li Xia even suddenly felt relaxed for no reason.She thought it was a good thing Xiao Si came. Some feelings have haunted a corner of the world unexpectedly.For example, I was worried about the whereabouts of the kite, and suddenly a warm spring breeze came.For example, when you are worried about the cloud and the sun is closed, you suddenly see the sun shining.For example, the chemistry exam that I have been worrying about, the last three big questions just happened to be read when I stayed up late with dark circles the night before.For example, when I was scared, and you just passed by me.For example, I am afraid that the phoenix flowers will wither all over the ground, and suddenly summer seems to never end, and the sun is shining brightly to fill the whole world. Li Xia was thinking in his heart: "Fu Xiaosi, Fu, Xiao, Si." But Fu Xiaosi didn't look at Li Xia.He put Li Yanran behind him, then looked down at the dishes on Li Yanran's clothes, and said in a low voice: "Is the clothes okay? It should be very expensive, or I'll buy one for you." At that moment, the whole world was silent and silent. When Li Xia raised his head again, Fu Xiaosi still didn't look at her, but Li Yanran smiled at Fu Xiaosi with a very magnanimous look and said, "It's okay, it's okay". Li Xia felt uncomfortable in his throat as if being pinched, many words were repeatedly combined and split in his throat, but he couldn't say it out.On the contrary, Lu Zhiang looked at her with concern behind Xiao Si, but later he turned his face away because he didn't dare to meet Li Xia's gaze. Li Xia felt that he should say something, but when he opened his mouth, he said "I'm sorry this dress is expensive, me, me" "I'll buy one and pay you back." It was originally such words. But he dared not say these words. Li Xia looked at the clothes and didn't know if he could afford them. Even if he asked his mother for money, it might not go well, maybe it was half a month's living expenses for the family.So the voice of "I, I" gradually decreased, and I felt sad and ashamed.After speaking, the voice lowered, and then it was quiet.Li Xia thought, I'll just stand there for a while and see what they can say, maybe they don't care so they don't want me to pay.It was originally a word to comfort myself, but it almost made me cry. "Is it necessary to look down on people so much?" Lixia was suddenly pulled back forcefully, looked up and saw Yuyu standing in front of him holding a basin full of freshly washed clothes with his back to him. "Isn't it just a piece of ragged clothes? Do you need to pretend to be wronged by such hypocritical inquiries? I'll pay you how much, and the three of you can go away." Lu Zhiang let out an aggrieved cry: "It's none of my business, I didn't say a word." Yu Yu glanced over and said, "Don't fart if it's none of your business, shut up!" Lu Zhiang seemed to have swallowed an egg suddenly, blushing, raised his head and asked Fu Xiaosi for help. Fu Xiaosi looked at Yu Yu, the eyes of both of them were cold."It's none of your business," he said. "It's really none of my business, but when I saw a mad dog biting people, I wanted to kick that dog to death. Isn't it just because of some money at home, a piece of ragged clothes looks like someone else stole your ancestral grave. Clothes Can’t it be dirty? Can’t it be washed if it’s dirty? If you can’t wash it, buy another fucking one. Isn’t the family very rich? Is it necessary to embarrass others with a piece of clothing?” Fu Xiaosi didn't speak, Lu Zhiang muttered softly behind him: "Ah, that's not what we meant." "Whatever you mean, don't be disgusting. As for you, hey, what about you, look around, I will pay you back for your clothes, don't pretend to be so pitiful. You are better than the two of them This one is even more disgusting." One sentence made Li Yanran's face turn red and turn white, and she leaned against Fu Xiaosi in a small way, but now she also put her hand off Fu Xiaosi's arm. Then met Li Xia going back to the apartment, Fu Xiaosi opened his mouth many times and finally called out in a low voice: "Li Xia!" Li Xia's back trembled in Fu Xiaosi's voice, and then continued to be dragged Go forward.Fu Xiaosi saw that Lixia was caught with one hand and covered his face with the other, so he wondered in a daze, did she cry? There is no one in the dormitory.Everyone else should have gone to eat or take a shower. Li Xia whispered, "I'll take a shower first." Li Xia lowered his head and rubbed his hands back and forth, looking carefully at the vegetables on his hair and the front of his clothes, he was really embarrassed, so Yu Yu held back his distressed tone and said "OK" calmly. There is only Lixia in the bathhouse. The long and narrow space is like a corridor of time.A row of faucets.There were two or three drips.The sound of empty water droplets moves back and forth in the space, like the sound of wind squeezing through the gap. Li Xia stood in a daze with the shower head in his hand.All the things just now were played back in my mind, with silent faces, silent expressions and silent movements.It's like watching TV, but there is no sound.The picture kept skipping frames, Li Xia saw Fu Xiaosi's foggy eyes, saw Lu Zhiang's hesitant to speak, and the water sprayed from the shower splashed onto the ground and became dirty.Tears fell in large drops on the white tiles. Li Xia suddenly thought in a daze, when can summer come earlier? Yu Yu was standing by the window, the dusk was almost over, the night was piling up outside the window like a tide, and he could even hear the sound like a tide, turned his head to look at Lixia who was sitting by the bed, and didn’t know how to comfort her . I have been used to living alone since I was a child, and I have neither comforted anyone nor comforted myself.So facing Li Xia who lowered his head and shoulders twitched slightly, he didn't know how to speak.He must be crying, Yu Yuxin thought. As soon as "Li Xia" opened his mouth, he couldn't utter the words, because when Yu Yu saw Li Xia raised his head, his whole face was covered with tears, and the moment he raised his head, tears rolled out again, Yu Yu immediately panicked Hands and feet, said in a low voice, "Is it so sad?" Although the voice was very low, Lixia still heard it. She bit her lip hard to stop herself from yelling at Yumet, and then she let go of her lower lip which hurt so much from being bitten. She choked up and said, "Meet, what's the situation at your home?" Unlike me, you will never know what the shame of not having money is like. I also hope to be polite and say sorry I will pay you for a dress. I hope I look very educated, but I can’t open my mouth, I’m afraid her clothes are too expensive and I have no money, do you know how it feels? How does it feel?! In your eyes, I’m a countryman, rude! Vulgar No taste! No manners! No manners" Speaking of this, Li Xia's throat hurts as if being choked alive, and he can't speak with his mouth open.It's just that the tears are still flowing, Li Xia thinks that his face must be dirty now. You met and let Li Xia talk until she stopped before slowly walking in front of her, Yu Yu squatted down and looked up at Li Xia, and said slowly but clearly: "If I were like you said, I would have hugged my arms. Stand aside and watch the joke." Lixia looked at Yuyu, seeing Yuyu in front of him with a calm and strong face, so he finally couldn't help crying. "Yeah, are you asleep?" "not yet." "I want to talk to you, can I go to your bed?" "come on." Li Xia got into the quilt she met, and her skin was icy cold. "Why are you as cold as a snake?" "Why are you so hot that you look like spring?" "Hey, what do you want to say? Are you still thinking about the afternoon?" "Well, I kept telling myself on the bed not to care, don't care, it's not worth it to be sad about this kind of thing. But I'm still sad. You know, I always thought that Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang treated me as good friends like I treat them Yes, until this afternoon, I didn’t realize that the world between myself and them is actually different. I was always taking classes with them, drawing together, skipping class to go to art exhibitions, and even using When Fu Xiaosi bent over with a broom and knocked on my head, I didn't even feel that we were people from two worlds. But today I was really sad and asked if there was anything wrong with my clothes, but I was a human being, at least You should ask me first, it’s embarrassing, it’s not even as good as a piece of clothing.” Yuyu felt a cold patch on his shoulder, and when he stretched out his hand, he touched the tears in his hand. "Cried?" "Ok." "It's useless, if I give them three, one for each of them." "If my family was the same as Yumet's, I would do the same. Actually, I thought at the time that if I didn't talk back or talk back, maybe Li Yanran wouldn't argue with me if she thought it was okay. I was just thinking like this at the time, what kind of self-esteem?啊什么骄傲啊都没有了。其实自己身上也有菜汤的，头发上也有的，那些菜沿着头发往下流到脸上，很狼狈的遇见，你说傅小司和陆之昂他们真的就看不见么” 话语因为哽咽而硬生生地断在空气里。 像突然进行到一半的话剧，演员忘记了台词，黑暗的剧院突然消失了声音。 忘记的台词是什么？ 春天过得很快，一瞬间就朝尾声奔走过去。夏日什么时候才会到来呢？等到夏日的末尾，在浅川的日子就是一年了吧？ 立夏了个身，想起一位诗人的话。他说，一生就是一年，一年就是一天，朝阳和夕阳，都是你不动声色的茫然的侧脸。 早上起来精神好多了，立夏刷牙洗脸之后打开柜子拿出妈妈昨天寄过来的甜点——春草饼。这个是室县的特产，立夏从小吃到大的，每到春天那种叫做春草的植物就会在室县的各个地方蓬勃地生长，整个室县都会变得格外的绿，像是绿色颜料突然就淹没了一整个县城。春草有着很强的生命力，无论是多么恶劣的环境，只要春天来临，就会萌发新苗。立夏记得自己小时候妈妈就说过，如果长大后能像春草一样坚强，那一定是个很勇敢的人。 立夏本来习惯性地拿出一小包准备带到教室里去的，这已成为她这大半年来的习惯。从夏天家里带过来的糖水罐头，到秋天的红松果仁，到冬天的冻柿果干，立夏每次看到傅小司吃着这些从家乡带来的小吃时微微皱起眉头认真的表情，看到陆之昂欢天喜地手舞足蹈死命抢着往口袋里放不给傅小司的样子，立夏就觉得周围的温度一瞬间重回春末夏初，一切温暖而带有微微的水汽。 可是现在呢。立夏想了想只拿了两块出来，塞了一块到遇见手里，然后就背上书包着遇见上课去了。下楼梯的时候因为怕迟到而跑得太快，心里突然冒出傅小司、陆之昂两个人三步跳下楼梯的样子。一瞬间心里有着微微的酸楚感。那一切尽管只过去了一天，可是竟然像过去了好几年一样让人心里生出了沧海桑田的感觉。 “哎，别等了吧，要迟到了” “少废话。” “立夏这丫头什么时候也变得跟我们一样爱赶着最后一秒进教室了？” "have no idea." “小司我问你个问题你别生气啊，你昨天为什么那样呢多少有点儿过分呢” “懒得说。反正等下也要解释一遍的，你想听就听好了。” 七点五十五分，离上课还有五分钟，从公寓到教室跑去的话六分钟，拼了命像跑八百米考试一样的话四分钟，这些立夏都是知道的。所以她和遇见两个人鬼叫着从公寓楼上往下面冲，遇见着立夏的手，两个人的笑容像这个春天里面盛开的那些娇艳的花朵一样，年轻的女孩子脸上有着耀眼的美丽光芒。 因为穿着两件一模一样的CK外套，傅小司和陆之昂看上去格外像双胞胎兄弟的样子，所以来来往往的人都会向他们两个看过去。在浅川一中，大部分人都是认识他们两个的，而且在这种时候不赶着去上课而是悠闲地坐在公寓大门口，更加引人注目，所以每个匆忙跑过他们身边的人都投过来好奇的目光。这让傅小司很不自在。陆之昂倒是没什么，不安分地晃着长腿吹着不着调的口哨，不时地傅小司指点看他口中的某某可爱女生，并且无一例外地在最后加一句“她一直默默地喜欢着我”。 而之后的相遇，像极了电影中惯用的那种慢镜头。傅小司看到立夏和遇见奔跑过来，起身走过去，那一个匆忙的照面短暂得使傅小司只来得及说出一个“立”字，遇见和立夏的脸就像是模糊的影像从自己面前奔跑过去。 傅小司站在地。消失了所有的表情。 那一刹那，有根神突然断在胸腔深处，思维跳出一段空白。 那张熟悉的脸竟然带不出任何生动的叙述，于是只是仓皇地一瞥，即使他叫了自己名字的一个字。可是，已没有关系了。立夏被遇见着朝前面跑过去，傅小司、陆之昂顶着一张英俊的脸，从开始的艰难开口到吃惊再到不动声色，一切像是熟悉的电影情节，所有曾看过的胶片全部燃烧起来。在他的那个“立”字出口的刹那全部烧成灰烬。 立夏带着一种悲哀的情绪想，不就是这样么，再坏还能怎样呢。 一直到立夏和遇见跑了很远了，傅小司还是站在他刚刚开口的地方。陆之昂站在旁边搓着手，也不知道该说些什么，最后叹了口气摊开两条长腿坐在台阶上，抬起头望着傅小司，表情痛苦。 其实他很了解傅小司呢，从小到大，他生气的时候就是一言不发，一张面无表情的脸和一双白茫茫没有焦点的眼睛，平静地看书画画，要么就是戴着耳机躺在床上看天花板，一看就是两三个小时。而现在他又是这个样子。站在公寓前面一动不动，像是一棵早晨的树。是什么树呢？陆之昂眯着眼睛在想，本来自己这个时候该担心小司是不是开心是不是难过的，却无来由地去想他究竟是一棵什么样的树。也许是木棉吧，不张扬，又或许是玉兰，有着无比的香气，又或者是香樟呢，这些头顶上终年不凋零的香樟。 “嘿，傅香樟，该去上课了。” 傅小司转过头来看了看他，然后一句话也没说就走了，走了两三步就开始朝教室跑过去，越跑越快。到后来都有点儿田径队训练的架势了。这让陆之昂慌了手脚，“嗷”的一声跳起来追过去，一边跑一边觉得自己委实很笨，说不定最后迟到的只有自己一个人呢。妈的狡猾的傅香樟算你狠。 一整天是怎么过去的呢？傅小司眯起眼睛也想不起来，只是当自己突然意识到的时候太阳就已沉到了学校围墙的爬山虎后面。 已渐渐逼近了夏天，日照开始逐渐延长，日落的时间由五点，五点一刻，五点四十逐渐向后逼近，傅小司看看表才发现已快六点了。一整天都很忙碌，了整整五页的化学笔记，去学校教导处拿了两份美术大赛的推荐表，一份给自己，另外一份是给陆之昂的，然后学生会主席找他说自己快毕业了希望小司能接替他的位置，中午去画室帮美术老师整理了一下乱七八糟的石膏像，下午的时候英语老师临时考试，所有人的表情都很痛苦，然后放学陆之昂值日，现在他正在扫地而自己坐在窗台上看着太阳，教室里除了他们两个已没有人了。 而在这些事情与事情之间的空隙里，傅小司无数次无数次地看到立夏与遇见微笑的脸，语气调侃夸张，带着女孩子的吵闹和明快，而自己不动声色的侧脸无数次地过她们，那一次一次的时刻世界是无声的。而在那一刻短暂的无声寂静之后世界又重新喧闹起来。于是寂静喧闹寂静喧闹，像是缓慢的钟摆一样来回。 摇荡出满满当当的空虚感。 似乎没有自己的世界，立夏依然过得很好。傅小司靠在窗框上想。以前就觉得立夏很坚强，像是那种无论在哪里都会生长的野草，而自己和之昂似乎就是活在家庭的温室里，没有见过雨雪也没有遇过狂风，只是在一个有着安全的玻璃外墙的世界里迸发出别人觉得耀眼的光芒。可是，这些真的是值得骄傲的事情么？ 多少还是有些气恼呢。本来是一副好心肠，却没有解释清楚。平时对别人的事情根本不会有兴趣，难得的一次为别人着想却变成现在不可收拾的局面。傅小司抬头看了看正在俯着身子扫地的陆之昂想，难道真的像陆之昂以前说过的那样自己有一个世界，别人都听不懂我的语言么？又不是外星人。 傅小司心里烦，顺手就拿过刚发下来的物理试卷折了个飞机朝窗户外面飞出去。 “哎，发什么呆呢，我扫完了，回家么？”抬起头陆之昂不知道什么时候站在自己前面，头发乱糟糟的，脸上还有点儿灰。“哎，做值日真是件麻烦的事情，我宁愿去画静物。” “我不回去，你先回去吧。” "What are you doing?" “不能这么窝囊啊。总归要把事情说清楚。不然好像我欠她什么一样。我也不是像她想的那么差劲的人呀。” “哦，那我陪你去吧。” “干吗要你陪你回去洗澡啊，全身的灰，做你妈真辛苦。” “做我家洗衣机比较辛苦吧。” 傅小司从窗台上跳了下来，拿起桌子上的书包甩到肩膀上去，然后头也不回地走出了教室。陆之昂把扫把一丢，拿起书包也朝教室外面跑。 傅小司回过头看到陆之昂，眉头皱起来快走了两步。身后那个人也快走两步。 傅小司开始跑了起来。后面那个人也跑了起来。 最后两个人气吁吁地停在了公寓楼的下面，傅小司大口地着气，冲陆之昂说：“你神病。”陆之昂弯着腰两手撑在膝盖上，因为呼吸太急促而说不出话来，只能用手冲着傅小司指来指去的。 等休息好才反应过来，寄宿制学生都是要上晚自修的，公寓楼里一片黑灯瞎火，一个人也没有。于是两个人你看看我我看看你，脸色死人一样白。傅小司说：“我现在有点儿想打架。” 陆之昂摊开双手双脚朝地上一坐，一副随便你我破罐子破摔了的架势。 夜色开始变浓了，傅小司坐在公寓大门口的那张椅子上。他从包里拿出耳机开始听歌。中途陆之昂离开了一下，等回来的时候手上已拿着两罐加热过的牛奶了。他对小司说：“我去超市买的，先喝吧，等下肚子要饿了。我打电话给你家和我家了，我跟他们讲今天学校有活动要到很晚，不回家吃饭了。” 傅小司抬起头望着眼前这个头发乱糟糟的人，心里其实有些感动的，本来想说一声谢谢，却不太好意思出口，于是趁着喝牛奶的时候喉咙里含糊地哼了哼“谢谢”的那两个音节。 陆之昂马上一副笑得很欠扁的样子说：“哈哈，我知道你现在心里肯定很感动有我这么一个优秀的好兄弟吧，不要说谢谢啦，我对朋友的好是全国有口碑的啊！” 本来还存在的一点点感谢的心情现在全没了，一个白眼过去就不想再理他。这种臭屁的性格也不知道什么时候能改掉呢，还全国有口皆碑，是不是全国还要为你立牌坊啊。 九点半晚自习结束的时候，傅小司才看到立夏走过来。只有她一个人，遇见不在。 立夏在过公寓大门的时候朝旁边看了一下，然后面无表情地朝公寓里面走去。只有立夏自己知道心里有多少个声音在一起嘈杂。在转过头去的一刹那看到傅小司那双没有焦点的眼睛，还有傅小司身后陆之昂暖洋洋的笑容，立夏也不知道哪里来的勇气对这一切漠然，在走上楼梯的时候听到了身后一声接一声的“立夏立夏”。 其实心里并没有多少怨恨的情绪，只是不知道怎么去面对那两个人。终究还是另一个世界里的。立夏很沮丧。坐在台灯下面半个小时，可是面前摊开的化学参考书上的题目一道也没有做。盈盈她们都上床睡觉去了，只是立夏要等遇见晚上回来帮她开门，所以习惯性地晚睡。平常立夏都会用这段时间温书做题，可是今天手中的铅笔在纸上画来画去只写出一堆乱七八糟没有任何意义的数字和符号。还有一些莫名其妙的没有来由的短句：“不要青春痘！”“瘦死的骆驼比马大”“星星点灯”“小卖部的新笔记本真好看” 立夏望着窗外，心里想，快要夏天了吧，风里都有很多的水汽了。什么时候才能到夏天呢？到了夏天，一切都会不一样吧。 “哎，小司，要么先回去吧估计立夏她” 傅小司没有说话，戴着耳机仰躺在长椅的靠背上，于是陆之昂也说不下去了，只能低低地叹一口气，然后也躺下身子望着天。 “之昂，你看天上的云那么厚，应该快下雨了吧？” 没来由的一句话。声音里也听不出任何的情绪。 “是啊，所以要快点回家呢。已十一点了” “你先回去吧。我等下也走了。” “还是一起吧。我包里有雨衣的。” “一件雨衣也不能两个人用啊，笨蛋。先回去吧你。” “天上的月亮真圆啊” “哪儿来的月亮！” “月亮代表我的心” “月亮要哭了。” “你！白内障！” 后来果真下起了雨。春天的天气总是潮湿的。特别是浅川，似乎春天的每个晚上都是春雨连绵的。傅小司站起来脱掉衣服兜在头上，正要着冷得哆嗦的陆之昂离开，一抬头就看见散着湿漉漉的头发的遇见从学校外面跑进来。傅小司微微地皱起了眉头。大半夜才从学校外面回来，傅小司想起班上的关于遇见是个问题学生的传言。 "really" 遇见只顾着低头赶路，跑到公寓门口才突然看到长椅上有两个人，着实吓了一跳，等看清楚了是傅小司和陆之昂之后就停了下来。 “你们是鬼啊你们，大半夜地站在这里害人干吗？” “等立夏呢。不过立夏好像不太愿意讲话的样子。有点儿伤脑筋。” 陆之昂用书包里的雨衣兜着头，看了看全身湿淋淋的遇见然后想了想把雨衣递了过去说：“你要么？” 遇见盯着他看了几秒钟然后说：“你自己留着吧，我马上就回公寓了用不着。”之后又抬起头看了看傅小司，然后顿了顿说，“你等等吧，我去叫立夏下来。”然后在两个男生目瞪口呆的表情里麻利地过了铁门朝楼上跑去。 立夏也不知道该如何来回忆这一天发生的事情。记忆全部掏空，只记得自己几分钟前在楼下号啕大哭差点儿吵醒管理员的傻瓜样子。可是现在心里是毛茸茸的温暖。就像是冬天洗好澡之后冷得打哆嗦，然后突然钻进了妈妈用暖水袋暖好的被子。 本来是习惯性地等遇见回来，习惯性地在十一点多听到走廊的脚步声然后帮她开门顺便给她干毛巾擦雨水。可是她着立夏往楼下跑，立夏心里其实隐约地能想到什么，却始终有种惶恐，不过因为有遇见，心里并不怎么害怕。 立夏想现在傅小司和陆之昂应该已到家钻进被子睡觉了吧。特别是陆之昂那个家伙，好像特别爱睡的样子呢。想着他们两个全身湿淋淋地站在铁门外面对她说话的认真样子，立夏就有一点儿想哭。 她想她一辈子都会记得今天小司说话的语气以及他说过的这段话。 他说，因为怕李嫣然计较那件衣服，所以才急忙开口说要赔给她，因为怕李嫣然说出来比他自己说出来会让立夏难堪一百倍。他说，本来以为立夏能理解他的想法，因为大家是朋友所以不会计较，可是没讲清楚，所以让立夏误会了，真是对不起啊。 其实立夏可以很清楚地听出傅小司语气里的那些失望，这让她觉得很内疚。为自己的不知好歹也为自己对他们的不信任感到丢脸。所以她忍了很久终于扯着嗓子放声大哭，这一哭惹得遇见马上用手捂住她的嘴并且骂了她一声笨蛋。 的确是笨蛋啊！ 傅小司和陆之昂变了脸色，傅小司表情郁闷地说：“难道我又说错了？” 然后立夏死命地摇头，尽管遇见用力地捂着她的嘴，她哭不出声来，可是她知道自己的眼泪流了很多很多，只是它们溶进了雨水里，没有人知道吧。 走的时候傅小司低下头表情认真地问：“立夏你还生气么？” 她只记得自己很傻地用力地摇头，然后看到傅小司终于露出了笑容，其实傅小司的笑容特别的温暖，不像是陆之昂如同春天的朝阳一样和煦的温暖，而是像冬日里的终于从厚厚云层里钻出来的毛茸茸的太阳，因为难得一见，所以更加的温暖。而且他的眼睛在夜色里变得格外的清晰，像是在舞台上看到他时的样子，北极星高悬在天空上面，指引北方的回归永不迷失。 上楼的时候还是一直哭，遇见在一旁摇头叹气拿她没办法。 每上一层楼，从走廊阳台望出去，都可以看到他们两个蒙着衣服在雨里奔跑的样子。 立夏想，他们两个从小在优越的家庭环境里能够一直如此干净而明亮地成长，真是不容易呢。等到他们长成棱角分明的成熟男人的时候，应该也会因为他们的善良和宽容而被越来越多的女孩子喜欢吧。 而五年，十年，二十年之后大家又会是什么样子呢？自己会像现在这样从自己的公司带一大包点心，穿越人潮汹涌的街道，走过红绿灯，走过斑马线，走过一个一个陌生的人，然后出现在他们面前么？ 不出所料第二天两个人都感冒了。遇见还嘲笑他们两个抵抗力弱，自己天天晚上都淋着雨回来还没感冒呢。立夏心里却很内疚。明明可以在晚上回公寓的时候停下来听听他们说话的，自己却摆了副臭架子。真的是臭架子呢，都不知道当时觉得自己有什么资格，现在想起来真的脸红。 陆之昂穿得像个粽子一样，在他们两个的座位边上摆了个垃圾篓子，擦完鼻涕的纸大团大团地往里面扔。立夏上课时不时地听到后面传来的叹气，因为鼻子不通畅所以带着嗡嗡的声音。 班主任很紧张的样子，甚至主动要批假让他们两个回家休息。看起来学生和学生就是不一样，其他一些同学偶尔要请一下假都难，而这两个人感冒一下就吓得老师要主动放他们大假。 所幸的是没几天两个人的感冒就好了，男生的身体总归是强壮一点的。于是立夏稍微放了点心。之后就开始从寝室里大包小包地带妈妈寄过来的点心到教室里来，让陆之昂很开心地吃了三天。 五一劳动节，学校破例放了两天假。这在浅川一中是难得的一次。因为随着功课越来越紧，时间就变得越来越不够用。所以立夏在考虑了很久之后决定还是留在学校看书比较好。傅小司和陆之昂肯定是回家去的，七七叫家里开车来接，她叫立夏一起回去，立夏摇了摇头，尽管立夏蛮想回去看看妈妈的。所幸的是遇见留在学校，这让立夏觉得特别开心。 早上起床的时候整个寝室甚至是整个公寓大楼都空荡荡的。立夏和遇见体会了一下两个人独占宿舍独占盥洗室甚至整个公寓楼的感受，这真让人开心。两个人从起床开始就一直打闹进盥洗室然后又打闹回寝室，像是疯了一样。 吃过早饭后遇见有点儿认真地对立夏说：“等下上街去吧。” “去干吗？不看书啦？快期中考试了呢遇见。” “去帮那个女的买衣服啊，说过赔她的总归要赔的。” “遇见，我身边没那么多钱呢” “是我赔又不是你赔，你要钱来干什么？” 立夏抬起头看着遇见微微有些生气的脸，心里像是有潮水一阵一阵打上来，她想起自己小时候站在海边上，傍晚时分的大海很温暖，那些海浪一阵一阵地覆盖到身上，像回到很多年前妈妈的怀抱一样。“妈妈？咦怎么把遇见想成了妈妈啊夸张” 路上到处张灯结彩，毕竟在中国劳动节还是一个很重要的节日呢。“不是说劳动最光荣吗，那么劳动者的节日似乎就应该最隆重呢。”立夏嘻嘻哈哈地对遇见说。 转过两个街角停下来，遇见抬起头看了看门口巨大的广告牌，说：“应该是这里了吧。”然后着立夏走了进去。 马路上总有那么多的人那么多的车，他们朝着自己的方向匆忙地前进。没有人关心另外的人的方向和路程，每个人都在自己的旅途上风雨兼程。大街上熙熙攘攘的人群日复一日地重复着嘈杂和混乱，无数的脚印刚刚印上马上就被新的脚印覆盖。 头顶的电车线纵横交错。 在苍白的天空里切割出大大小小的零碎的块。 越来越小的碎片。越来越小。 立夏坐在马路边上，低头看着自己的脚背。而身边的遇见从里面出来后就一言不发地坐在马路边上，立夏微微转过头去就看到遇见因为用力而发白的手指骨节，再微微地低下点头就看到了遇见眼里含着一些细碎的眼泪，这立刻让立夏慌了手脚。 因为不知道为什么，所以立夏也只能机械地重复叫着“遇见，遇见”，叫到后来声音越来越小都带了哭腔。 遇见擦了擦眼睛，隔了很久然后抬起头说：“那件衣服三百八十块，我只带了三百块。对不起呢。” 时间融化成液体。包容着所有的躯体。 就像是所有的婴儿沉睡在子宫的海洋里。落日从长街的尽头渲染过来，照穿了一整条街。 立夏本来也不明白遇见为什么