Chapter 9 Chapter 9 New Year's Eve

1 Celebrate the New Year, wear new clothes, marry a new wife,... 2 2003 is here, and I'm still not used to calling 2002 last year, and I feel like I haven't done anything yet. In 2002, a "Big Mac" bus appeared on the roads in Beijing. It was so long that people thought that two buses were chasing after each other at first glance. In 2002, Xu Wei released a new album "Walk in Time and Space". How desperate he was once, but now he is as brilliant as a flower.When I was in college, I listened to his "Two Days" every sleepless night. I recorded this song on both sides of a 90-minute TDK tape. Some people say that I am more desperate than Xu Wei.Today, Xu Wei's new album appeared and included a new song called , and I'm still listening to his "Two Days".

At the end of 2002, the supplement of "Beijing Youth Daily" launched the "My 2002" solicitation of essays. Some people got promoted, some got rich, some got married, some bought a car, and looked at the interesting life written by others. I also don't have a taste. In 2003, I was supposed to be twenty-three years old. I haven’t grown in six years. I have school uniforms to prove it. I can still wear my school uniform in my second year of high school, but I changed it in my first year of high school. The three-body school uniform grows faster than the narcissus raised by my grandfather. I thought at the time that if I was in the third year of high school, I would have to change into seven and eight. Unexpectedly, the third school uniform allowed me to wear it until graduation , I still wear it when playing football.

Twenty-three, I look forward to jumping up.But what's the use of growing up, no matter how long he is, he can't be as tall as Yao Ming, and he can't cover O'Neill's hat.Whether my body can grow taller is not important, the key is whether my mind has improved, don't let people say that I am stupid and big. 3 23 years old, an embarrassing age, we are no longer young, but still immature.We are arrogant, arrogant, arrogant, rough-skinned, and refuse to compromise because of growth, and we don’t take everything seriously. The saying that often hangs on our lips is: What the hell is love.

In the face of life, work, money, and love, we are eager to change the reality, but we are powerless. We take everything lightly, but we are worried. No one cares about our generation. The elders are busy making use of their waste heat and are dying before retiring. The younger generations live in a honeypot and cannot extricate themselves. I'm still overwhelmed with life, call it wasted years, it started on my first day out of college, and I was in constant panic, except knowing that I was hungry to eat, took off my pants to shit (or not, of course), Sleepy and sleepy, I was very confused and didn't know what to do.

Although the word "confused" has been used abusively by me, I am still confused, and more and more confused, so confused that I always feel that I am living elsewhere. Everyone is at a loss, so I am not afraid of my own confusion. What I am worried about is that my loss is too long. As the saying goes, there is no confusion at forty. My understanding is that people will stop being confused when they reach forty, but I am still early, and I will be confused for more than ten years. Someone compares life to backgammon, one piece in 15 years, and five pieces in a person’s life. In this way, my first piece has already been played, and now the second piece is held in the air and is about to fall on the board. There are still three pieces under my complete control. I don't know whether I will win or lose this game of chess. I just feel that the first two moves are very passive. I hope that I can turn defeat into victory in the following time.

4 When New Year's Day came, I received a greeting card from a strange woman. After seeing the familiar name on the signature, I vaguely remembered that she was my junior high school classmate.It's rare that I still remember her, and what's even rarer is that someone still remembers me. At that time, every New Year's Day, classmates would give each other greeting cards. Even two classmates who had never spoken before would smile and hand each other a card full of blessings.At that time, I was still romantic, and I always hoped to see something from the greeting cards my female classmates gave me, but I found that the greetings I wrote to everyone were all the same. Like the greeting cards, they all seemed to be wholesaled from Yuetan Park. .Later I realized that the depth of friendship depends on whether the greeting card sent by the other party is 5 cents or 7 cents.

After so many years, a female classmate still wanted to send me a greeting card. I was flattered, but at the beginning, all the greeting cards were 50 cents.But now I really want to talk to her about the past, but she wrote in the greeting card: My son is almost one year old, very naughty, very much like you in junior high school.It seems that this classmate still hasn't got rid of the habit of speaking recklessly, what will his husband think if he sees the greeting card. She also wished me a happy new year, which I can't seem to do, as if I haven't experienced happiness for a long time.

5 This card made me rummage through the boxes to find cards from ten years ago.There is a mountain of greeting cards in front of me, all of which are written with vulgar congratulatory messages: I wish me progress in my studies, try my best to complete my homework, reform my mistakes, and I hope I can be admitted to an ideal middle school, even a vocational high school, and don’t drop out of school.A few good friends wished me to improve my poker skills, score more goals, and overcome the difficulties and obstacles on the road of picking up girls. It can be seen what kind of person I was in the eyes of my classmates at that time, so I also recalled what I did at that time.

One of the classmates said, I wish our friendship will last forever.I racked my brains and couldn't remember what this person looked like, let alone how deep our friendship was at the beginning. Various reasons caused us to part ways, cut off contact, never heard from each other, and forgot each other. I just want to say here, The past days are really memorable but inadvertently forgotten. That period of life is like a person's first night, which will be lost sooner or later, but the memories are always beautiful. Because of aging, people often recall, and recall is painful, especially when the recaller is over 30 years old, or his appetite is decreasing day by day, or his current life is not as good as it was at the beginning.

Let's stop here and make an end of fourteen or fifteen years old.The tape stops going backwards, I want to fast forward more now. 6 For me, is New Year’s Day different from usual? The answer is no, I don’t seem to have any more festivals——June 1st is a holiday for primary school students, May 4th belongs to college students, and March 8th has nothing to do with me Son, I’m still far behind on Father’s Day. May 1st is the working people’s holiday. I have three days off. I’m an unemployed young man. Every day is off. Christmas is a holiday in the West. Apart from my feudal superstition, I haven’t believed in Jesus yet—I remembered that April 1st is my holiday, and many people sent text messages on this day to wish me a happy holiday.

7 Whenever I had nothing to do, I would go to the bulletin board on the street to read the newspaper. After a few days, I realized one thing: When you don’t know how to go about your life, just go with the party. Except for my jealousy when I heard that my classmates got paid again, in the rest of the time, I can basically stay at home with a peaceful mind. I vaguely feel that there are many beautiful things waiting for me ahead. I don't want to compare with others, and I don't rule out the reason of strength. I know that I can't compare. If I'm a woman, it's okay. At worst, I marry him. He enjoys the glory and wealth of being a mother-in-law, but it will be difficult if he has a son, unless he is gay and a pedophile.But I'm a man after all, so I had no choice but to swallow my anger, or find a knife and cut him off to vent my anger. 8 There are two paths before me: I adapt to life or let life adapt to me.But I am not God, I can’t control my life, all I can do is adapt to life and society obediently, but the society is not at odds with me, I have tried to get in with the society well, but things didn’t work out, and then I got along pretty well At that time, I was willing to go against the matter, and I didn't want to have close contact with the society and be assimilated by it, so I decided to break with Ya completely. Attitude is everything, one party’s disagreement is rape, consensuality is adultery—it’s unimaginable to have sex with the society, so it’s better to resist, even if you are raped.Either I play it or it plays me. It is said that we should thank God for giving us difficulties to overcome and make us strong.Why do we have to become stronger, in order to overcome more difficulties?We don't have to be thankful that God has made us strong, what about being weak without the difficulties God has arranged for us? 9 After New Year's Day in 2003, the Spring Festival came one after another.No love happened to me, but it reminded me of many love stories in the New Year: Ge You and Xu Fan in "Big Sabbath", Ge You and Liu Bei in "Party A and Party B", Ge You and Liu Bei in "Endless" Wu Qianlian, I really envy Ge You, for so many years, I have spent the holidays alone. As the Spring Festival was approaching, my dad’s unit organized a trip to Hainan to celebrate the New Year, and he could bring his family with him. He immediately signed up my mother and me.I said I won't go, you two go by yourself, I have nothing to say with a bunch of old men and old ladies.They said that you celebrate the New Year alone, and I said, what's the matter.They said it was nothing, but I said since it was nothing, I don't need you to take care of my affairs. I planned to go out by myself, find a place far away from Beijing, and write something by the way.In fact, it doesn't matter where you write. There are many good articles in the bullpen. The key is whether there are good writers who write things. My hands are not good enough, I can't wrestle my wrists, play mahjong, and I can't catch any cards. I have written many love letters but get no response, but my nails are growing so fast that I have to cut them every two days.People say it's because I don't have buckets on my fingers and there are too many dustpans, which means I have bad luck.I said I had tubercles on my toes, but people said that the ones on my toes were not tubers, they were corns, and they had to be stretched. 10 They left me on the front foot and went to Beijing Railway Station on the back foot.There was a long queue at the ticket window, and I wandered back and forth in the middle looking for a space to join the queue, but the people who bought the tickets, no matter whether they knew each other or not, all had their chests stuck to their backs, and even lesbians stood up and raised their chests. Buttocks, there is no chance for me to pinch three children. A ticket dealer came over and asked me if I wanted a ticket. I asked where they were going, and he said that there were tickets everywhere, but the real ticket was only going to the northeast. I said that the northeast is the northeast, how much is it.He said that it doesn’t matter how much I want, the price is multiplied by 1.5, I said it’s a little black, can’t you take less, he said yes, I’ll give you a root number, I asked if it’s the root number of the price, he said Of course, it is 1.5, and the price is not allowed to let him celebrate the New Year.I continued to bargain with the ticket dealer and asked him to open a third party, but he refused desperately, saying you hurry up, the police should be here in a while.I said don't be wordy, the police are here.He turned his head, and sure enough, two policemen came over.Let's go, Wang Dapeng said. The ticket seller asked where to go, Wang Dapeng said to take you to our place for the New Year, in time for New Year's Eve, the food for the past two days has been pretty good.The ticket vendor said no, he couldn't eat the food inside, he was a Muslim, and he was afraid of causing trouble to the master.Wang Dapeng said you're welcome, we won't see Rou Xing'er for half a year, but you're a small matter, you can come out in a month or two.The ticket seller said that more things are worse than less things, so it is better not to go.Wang Dapeng's attitude changed sharply, and he said don't give up his mother's face, just leave if you are told to leave, what are you talking about, one is enough for you, we are still waiting to go home for the New Year, hurry up, hear Yet!I'll go, I'll go, the ticket dealer took out a dozen tickets from his pocket and said that they were all for the past two days, and it would be a pity to confiscate them.Wang Dapeng said that you don't need to worry about this, I will send it back to the ticket office in a while, and I have to send someone back home. When Wang Dapeng was entangled with the ticket dealer, I told another policeman, Comrade, if I hadn’t been entangled with him just now, you would not have completed the task so quickly, so don’t credit me for the credit, just sell me a ticket .The police asked me where I was going, and I said I didn’t know, let me just draw a ticket, whichever is where, the police said that you are not blind, I said no, I just want to go to other places, anywhere is fine, He took out his ID card and showed it to him. At this time, Wang Dapeng said, don't look at it, my buddy, and then spread out the tickets for me to draw. I rubbed my hands and finally drew a ticket to Jinzhou.Wang Dapeng said that it's New Year's Eve, why are you fooling around, and also said that you will go to your uncle's and aunt's house in two days to pay New Year's greetings.I said that since you are so old, my dad will not give you any more New Year’s money. I asked Wang Dapeng how to catch ticket dealers is also under your control. Wang Dapeng said that we will severely crack down on any behavior that disrupts the normal economic order of socialism. Let the farmer brothers who return to their hometown during the Spring Festival travel season go home to celebrate the New Year, but there are not many Beijingers like you who go to other places at the end of the year. I don’t know what you think.I said I was crazy.In the end, Wang Dapeng wished me a pleasant journey, and I wished him to catch more bad guys and then go their separate ways. When I saw the train ticket, it was 9:20, and I got on the train quickly.I fell asleep before the train started, and got off whenever I planned to wake up, wherever I went. So, against a southward cold air, I went north. 11 When I woke up, the train had just passed Miyun, no, it was too close, I closed my eyes and went back to sleep.When I woke up for the second time, the train was still speeding along the tracks. I went to the bathroom, and after yawning twice, the train slowed down and drove into a certain platform.I looked at my watch, it had been more than four hours, and I estimated that I had run five or six hundred miles, and here I am. 12 Walking out of the platform, the red cloth and white words "Welcome to the People of County C" fluttered above my head, which was quite polite. A group of women rushed up and asked me if I was staying at the hotel. Some of them didn't even ask, but just grabbed the bag in my hand. I said hey hey, what are you doing.She said the car is over there, get in the car.I asked you how the conditions were there, she said she had a TV there, the person next to her said she had an air conditioner, and the person next to her said she could take a shower there.When I was hesitating which one to go to, another woman said that she had everything there, and she could also access the Internet. I asked how much it was, and she said it would be up to me. As soon as I heard it was good, I followed her to the hotel that had everything. . When I entered a room on the second floor of the hotel, I saw that it was not the case. There was nothing but a bed and a dresser.I asked what was going on, didn’t it have everything, she said it had everything, then opened the window, pointed across the road and said, that’s a restaurant, that’s a bathing center, that’s a video room, that’s a training room The karaoke room, that's an Internet cafe, that's a public toilet, that's a phone booth... I thought, this is pretty good. I just took a shower before I came out, and I don’t have a cleanliness. I don’t need it for the time being. I can go to the toilet downstairs and buy a pack of cigarettes. I can read more books without TV. I can write more without entertainment, and I don't want to communicate with the outside world without a phone, not bad. I asked how much I would give you. She said that twenty yuan is not too much, and ten yuan is not too little. I said fifteen yuan is not too much, and she said yes. This counts as staying. 13 After reading the book for half an hour, I couldn't sit still and wanted to go out for a walk. It’s the beginning of the new year, and the city of C County is very lively. There are stalls on both sides of the road, selling grilled squid, fried stinky tofu, selling vests and pants, selling flashing thunder and kicks, selling vegetables and meat, and selling second-hand books. Yes, the thinner one costs three copies, and the thicker one costs two yuan and three copies.I picked a few books and "Contemporary" among them, both of which were published in the mid-1980s, which are considered thick.The stall owner said that a group of literary youths emerged in County C during this period. They had written for ten years but hadn’t published an article. So in the mid-1990s, these literary youths sold their works one after another. Literary magazines and manuscripts went into the sea and became middle-aged businessmen.I said that since they are sold as waste products, it should be cheaper. The stall owner said that if you want more, five copies will cost three yuan.I calculated for a long time, and it turned out to be a 10% discount.I said yes, I will take as many as you have, and the stall owner will be so happy. As soon as he turned around, he took out more than fifty magazines from the cardboard box at the back, and said, they are all here.I took out thirty yuan and said, all my money is here too.Thirty is thirty, the stall owner took the money very happily, as if he had picked it up, and I also moved the book away with enthusiasm, and I bought so many words for thirty yuan. I went back to the hotel with the Chinese literature of the 1980s in my arms, and couldn’t wait to read it on the bed. When I opened "Contemporary", before I could see the title of the first novel clearly, I was dazzled by the sand falling out of the book.When I rubbed my eyes, I felt that my face had been covered with a layer of dust. I quickly sat up and cleaned the box of books. The dust that fell off was enough to grow potted flowers.I pat and blow, but the books are still not clean enough.When I finished a short story, my hands were as dirty as if I hadn’t washed them for days. After I finished a novel, my hands were the same color as a car repairer. Later, I read a long story, and my hands were as black as black after reading a novel. Just moved a car of briquettes. Not everyone has mental emptiness, but everyone has emptiness in the stomach. After reading a few pages, I was so hungry that I went downstairs to find a place to eat.it's getting dark. I went into the restaurant across the road and ordered a fish-flavored shredded pork and two bowls of rice.When I came in, I saw two men in white coats watching TV while wrapping garlic. They were probably chefs. They looked clumsy about wrapping garlic, and they didn’t seem to know how to fry any dishes, so I ordered fish-flavored shredded pork. The advantage is that if a chef with two knives fry it, the taste will not be bad.If I come to a plate of braised hairtail, I'm afraid they will have to take the train to Beijing to buy it now. I can't wait, and I want to finish eating and go back to read old books. Not counting the cat that was gnawing on the bone, I was the only one eating in the restaurant.The food came quickly, I tasted it, it was okay, except it was a bit salty and spicy.I asked the waiter to bring a pot of tea, and quickly brought up two bowls of rice. It's one thing to be hungry, quite another to be full.After I was full of water and food, I didn’t go back to the hotel directly, but went to the place where the lights were bright. County C has a sensual life. During the day, I saw the advertisements on the telephone poles and station signs. Yes, there is nothing out of nothing. Not to mention, the small advertisements are really unsightly. The rectification of small advertisements in Beijing has been quite effective. I am used to staying in the capital. It's lumps, pus, rashes, and poison, but it's really evil that one injection is effective, and the medicine can cure the disease. 14 Although City C is small, it is full of five poisons.Along the way, I was stopped by a woman on the street and asked: Brother, do you wash your hair?Can I watch a movie with you, little sister?To sing or not? High medicine?Do you want an invoice? I entered a karaoke practice room that looked fairly clean. Seeing that I was unfamiliar, the boss showed me the price list. It said 100 yuan for a private room, free singing, and an extra charge for drinks.I asked the boss if the TV can receive Beijing Six, the boss smiled wryly and said, only Central Five.The central five is the central five, the same as the Bundesliga. I planned to watch the Premier League, Manchester United vs. Arsenal, and today is Saturday. I told the boss, just stay for two hours, 30 is fine.The boss said no, no matter what, it will cost fifty, and he can give me two bottles of beer.I watched the game was about to start, so I agreed to come down. The boss took me into the private room, turned on the light, and said that you should sit first and find a lady.I can't say, I have to stay for a while, the boss said that's boring, I'll call you one, I said no, really no, the boss said you're welcome, we have all kinds of girls here, you look like a Cultural people, I will find you a high-quality one, and after finishing speaking, I opened the door with a smile on my face and left. I turned on the TV and broadcast it to Central Five. Huang Jianxiang and a Bundesliga expert whose name I forgot were doing pre-match commentary, and the ball started immediately.At this time, a girl came in, tall (boots with high heels) and wearing glasses. I think this is what the boss calls high-quality.The girl put down the two bottles of beer in her hand, and said hello to me politely, and I said hello to you too, let's sit down and watch the game. I sat on the left side of the couch, the girl sat on the right, and the TV was directly in front of us.When Bayern on the left attacked, my eyes moved to the right with the ball, and I glanced at the girl from the corner of my eye from time to time.The girl knew that I was looking at her, so she twitched, not knowing whether it was pretending or really embarrassed.In fact, I didn't have any intentions, I just wanted to know if the glasses the girl was wearing were real or not, could they be plain glasses, or else they were just glasses frames without any lenses. Before the end of the first half, I only said half a sentence, without a subject, and talking to myself-I shot, I shot!The girl looked at me in surprise, her gaze swept across my body from top to bottom. During the intermission, I asked the girl how old she was, and she said it was a horse.I don't know if it's thirty-seven, twenty-five, or thirteen years old, I think it's all possible, maybe she just said it casually.I asked where the girl was from, and why she didn't come home during the Chinese New Year.The girl said that you didn't go home either. Naturally, there was a reason why you didn't go home.I didn't see the inconvenience of asking more, so I poured her a glass of beer. The girl said she didn't drink, and I didn't ask her what she drank. I knew she was waiting for me to ask, but I didn't ask. I just said "oh", and said in my heart, I didn't drink and fell down. The second half started, the two sides switched venues, the girl and I were still male left female right, the formation remained unchanged.The Bayern team's offensive was too fierce, and Kaiserslautern couldn't pass the half-time. I didn't have the opportunity to look to the right at all, but the girl's eyes kept glancing at me, full of doubts, confusion, and disgust. And begging, which made me uncomfortable.At this time, Bayern had a three-to-zero lead, and Kaiserslautern was unable to score goals, unable to recover, and the outcome was set. Bayern's offensive wave after wave, the girl's eyes simply fixed on my face.I threw the remote control to her and said, let's broadcast, you can watch whatever you want. The girl took the remote control and played it for a while, but she was not satisfied, so she asked me again, what are you watching?I can watch anything, or watch the football, it's a few to zero, I said.The girl turned the TV to Central Five again, and it was still three to zero. Before the game was over, the girl finally couldn't sit still and asked, when do you want to see it? Right now, it's eighty-three minutes.After I finished speaking, I realized that there is no need to be so polite with her. Do you think staying with me is very boring, I said after taking a sip of beer. What do you say, come here to watch the game!The girl stared at the screen and said. What do you think is interesting, does it have to be touched by people to be interesting?Sit down and watch what's going on with the ball, don't watch you go, I'll give you how much I want. The girl pushed her glasses, raised her head and said, why do you speak so harshly? What do you mean by kissing and touching? Isn't your job to be kissed and touched? You pretend to be innocent, and you're afraid to say don't be a lady... Before I finished speaking, the girl cried.I couldn't stand the woman crying, so I quickly took out a wrinkled toilet paper from my pocket and said, don't cry, I'm leaving now.The girl took the paper, wiped her face and said, look at yours, there will be Serie A in a while, Juventus vs. Roma. 15 Somehow, I really stayed. The boss said that the time was up, and I said to add two more hours. The boss said that it would be 100 yuan, and I said yes, you can get a few more bottles of beer for free.The boss said no problem. I asked the girl what do you drink.Just beer, the girl poured herself a glass.I asked her how long she had been in this business, and the girl said it was not long, only a few days.I laughed to myself, this is the way I go everywhere.The girl continued, really, I didn't lie to you.I thought to myself, whoever said that would not tell lies, I lied to you.The girl said again, my boyfriend and I just broke up a few days ago.It's a cliché again, either the parents are laid off, the younger brother is seriously ill, and the family is waiting for money.Why, I asked.The girl said, when I knew him, he was working in a hotel, and I found out later that his job was to help customers find ladies. I told him several times, let’s change jobs, but he didn’t, saying that he would work for another two years to earn Marry me when you have enough money, I said, then you can do it, be careful, he is good, not only looking for customers, but also looking for himself, not to mention getting sick, and almost infecting me, if I insist on principles It's over, I broke up with him in a fit of anger, quit my job, and did this job too. Today is my third day at work, and you are my first customer.She said that as if I had something to do with her.I asked what your previous job was.Teacher, I graduated from a normal school and was assigned to teach junior high school Chinese.It looks like her glasses are real.I asked you if you like literature.She said it was okay, she usually read novels, essays or something.I asked her how she felt about the huge difference between the two jobs. The girl said that it was almost the same. As a teacher, she had to meet the parents of students at school, and now I often see parents of students here. 16 After drinking, I left without finishing Serie A. I asked the girl how much I should pay, and she said no, don't forget to give her a book when it comes out tomorrow.I didn't know why I told her about my novel writing, and we exchanged phone calls.Why am I getting taller again? I shouldn’t be. There are only five bottles of beer. Back at the hotel, pulled back the quilt and fell asleep The first night was uneventful. 17 The next day, I woke up very early, leaned on the bedside and finished reading a novella on "Contemporary", and it was already noon when I got up, I tidied up, and then went downstairs to eat. After eating a bowl of noodles, I started wandering on the street, saw a newsstand, bought a newspaper, and then went into the bar opposite the newsstand to read the newspaper. The bar in C City is obviously cheaper than the ones in Beijing. A large bottle of "Snowflake" only costs 8 yuan, and I ordered a bottle.I was the only one reading the newspaper in the bar. The boss went to the bathhouse and said that it was almost Chinese New Year, so he wanted to be clean and let me drink slowly. He would come back in a while and then went out. He was not afraid of me running the bill or walking him along. something.I always felt that there was some movement in the room. I looked down and was startled. No wonder the boss was so relieved. It turned out that a big wolfhound was wandering under the table.It strolls around, and I read my newspaper. After drinking a bottle of beer, I still wanted to drink it. Before the boss came back, I went to the bar to get a bottle. The dog followed me all the time. Seeing that I had returned to my seat after taking the beer, he didn’t want to leave, so he didn’t bark. .I opened the beer, thinking, such a big bottle of beer can be bought for 30 yuan in Beijing, but here I can drink four.I finally experienced what people often say, the benefits of earning money abroad and spending it domestically are the same as earning money in Beijing and spending it abroad. The boss came back, much whiter than before going out, even the pores are bigger, it looks like he just finished the sauna.After paying for the drinks, the boss only charged me fifteen, which made me feel like I was taking a huge advantage. 18 I was walking on the narrow street when I felt my feet rest on something. When I looked up, there was a brownish-yellow foreign object on the ground. I don’t know who made it, or it was a piece of roasted sweet potato left by someone. Fortunately, the weather was so cold that this thing was frozen hard, and it was okay to step on it, and it didn't stick to your feet. There are Internet cafes on both sides of the road, and the sound of QQ's "beep" came from the house. I walked in and sat down in a corner. When I logged onto QQ, I saw Liu Zi's headshot shining brightly. Thinking that he was on the other side of the ocean, and I could still see him, I couldn't help but feel a little unreal, so I sent a message: Is it really you, Liu Zi? "Nonsense!" That's right, yes, I knew it as soon as he opened his mouth. "I didn't expect to see you online." "Damn, it seems that the United States cannot access the Internet." "What about you, is it midnight over there?" "Just had sex, now drink some water and take a break." "Let's live on your own. Although there is no harm in masturbating, there is no benefit either. You can do as little as possible." "Do you have earphones and a microphone with you?" Liu Zi wanted to chat with me by voice. "No, I'm in an Internet cafe. I'm too embarrassed to use it if I have one. You're shameless and I want more!" I knew he was going to talk about physical hygiene. "You're so boring, I just wanted to hear your voice, it's been so long." "Nonsense, you want to hear hooligan talk in Chinese, you all say FUCK over there." I typed an English word. "Don't type English indiscriminately. There is a foreign girl sitting next to me. She saw the FUCK you typed and blamed me for making friends like you. If you want to speak dirty words, you can type Chinese. She can't understand." "Okay, you, you've found your next home so quickly. Is this chick your girlfriend?" "NO, it's my landlord's daughter." "Did you FUCK her?" "Why do you speak English again, use Chinese!" "answer my question!" "No, but FUCKed by her, the afternoon after I moved in." "Do you know the difference between foreign cars and domestic cars this time?" "The components are all the same, but the feel is different, and they are fluffy. I'm sorry, she called me on the bed." "Well, I wish you a harmonious life!" "Yes, I will!" Farewell to Liu Zi, I plan to go online to see how people across the country are preparing for the New Year.In the Internet cafes in Beijing in the past, just type "S", and the browser can display the URLs of Sina and Sohu according to the memory function, but this time it did not. After I typed "S", more than a dozen URLs were displayed. URLs beginning with "sex".It seems that the places are different, and the dynamics of attention are different.Now that it's connected, let's take a look, so I click on the links layer by layer, but apart from seeing the thighs, breasts and buttocks, there is nothing less inappropriate.Someone may ask, what else do you want to see.In fact, I don't want to watch anything. The psychological expectation in the process is interesting. I have already felt it, and I am very satisfied now. After seeing a few pictures of foreign women’s curvaceous beauty, I suddenly remembered that I should write a New Year’s daydream before the year, but there is no Word in the computer, and there is no WordPad installed, so I can only use Notepad. After writing three to five hundred words , the Internet cafe suddenly had a power outage, and the notepad did not have an automatic save function. 19 The proprietress was preparing meals, and when she saw that I was back, she asked me to eat with them at night. I asked if it was appropriate, and she said that there was nothing inappropriate, why not just add a pair of chopsticks. There are so many people and it’s lively, I said that’s fine, I'm going to buy some wine.The proprietress said that everything has been bought, so you can help choose the vegetables. I helped the proprietress, she cooked vegetables and stewed chicken, and told me about her family and C city. The proprietress has three sons, the youngest one is older than me and belongs to monkey, and the other two belong to horse and sheep.It seems that her husband was so energetic in those years that the female boss didn't even have a chance to catch her breath. I asked the proprietress why she didn't have another one, and it just happened to be a table for playing mahjong.The proprietress said that family planning spread here after giving birth to the third child. She didn't know what happened, so she was taken to the hospital by the female chairman of the labor union of the unit. She fell asleep after being injected with anesthesia. When she woke up, she was told: Don't worry. Well, this time I promise you won't be able to conceive a child. The proprietress was furious, slapped the bed and got up, saying, why deprive me of the right to have children, I curse your 18th generation hens for not being able to lay eggs.The proprietress originally wanted to give birth to a Chinese zodiac. At that time, the proprietress had already prepared 12 new houses for her son to marry a wife, but now they are useless, they have changed to hotels, and she also resigned from her work unit to become a proprietress. The proprietress's husband is a businessman, well-known in C City, he wastes everything, such as reinforced concrete, bricks and tiles, communication products, auto parts, see-through mahjong... He leaves early and returns late every day, working tirelessly, and most of the time he doesn't return.The twelve rooms in the house were built from the stock he had when he was tinkering with building materials. Their three children all graduated from junior high school and have low education. I have doubts about whether they can find a decent job, but they are all engaged in the most profitable jobs in C City, selling mobile phones, opening Internet cafes, and renting out. Obviously, my worries are unfounded. This place is no better than Beijing, and there are no crowds of talents. Most of the young people in City C are like them, they don't study much, but they live happily.Every guy walking on the street is accompanied by a beautiful girl, C City is small, so small that every pretty girl and handsome guy know each other and have been in love, so you can often see boyfriends on the street girl greets boy across the road with his arms around his girlfriend's shoulders.In City C, there are almost no people in their twenties who have not dated. They call falling in love an object, and this way they call it less romantic.They don't refer to each other as boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, or daughter-in-law, they just call each other objects, and they turn the ending sound into a clear and sweet voice, as if the two have gone through many ups and downs hand in hand, but it has not been two days since they recovered. The young people in C City are not conservative, and the two live together when they are happy, even though their age plus one is less than thirty-five or six.Although their parents objected, they often stayed together for a while during the day when their parents were both going to work, or took a few hours off work, and went back to their respective homes at night. Girls in C City love and dedicate themselves thoroughly, and they only hang out with men of similar age who can be talked to. No one goes to marry rich men in their forties or fifties. This has something to do with the fact that C City does not have rich men. They all stay at home, hang out all day, have no serious business, mess in the city, or work as a temporary worker to earn some food money, but the girls love them as always, and they will not break up because of financial reasons. They are completely different from Beijing girls, so the boys in C City have a life attitude of "not seeking to make progress" and "satisfied with the status quo". The children are not demanding, and the parents are not tired. This is the advantage of living in C City.People are constantly on the go, living at a slow pace, and taking things as they go. Day after day, year after year, they are getting old in this city. People in City C live like this over and over again, for a lifetime. 20 Apart from eating, dressing, and living at home, the people of C City have no more needs.此处房价低得惊人，县城中心最繁华地段像《大腕》里描述那样设施的房价，还没有北京通县的房价高，就这样，房子还是卖不出去，因为承建公司是当地的建筑队，没盖过六层以上的房子，这次突然搞了个大的，十五层，不知道是地基挖浅了，还是土质疏松的原因，风一大房子就摇晃，至今未售出一套。这幢楼鹤立鸡群般摇摇摆摆地挺立在城中央，吓跑了底下摆摊的商贩。市委就此问题和建筑队开了无数次会议，也没商讨出拆好还是不拆好，有两种声音，一是完全保留，把它像比萨斜塔一样保护起来，供游人参观。二是拦腰斩断，将十五层分成三份，每五层为一幢楼。经研究，后者的难度大于拆了重盖，行不通。 物质消费水平之低导致了市民们心态平和，大街上走路都比北京人慢很多。汽车在C城更是多余的，从南头到北头，骑车十五分钟就够了，所以多数当地人以步代车，去哪儿都走着，反正没啥要紧事儿，无非就是赶着回家看电视。 城里跑着的四趟公共汽车和二百辆出租汽车足够满足市民的用车需要，买了车也就是个摆设，不去外地的话，一年能跑二千公里就是奇迹。 twenty one 老板娘说，一会儿吃饭的时候，她儿子可能把对象儿领回来。正说着，大儿子回来了，身旁跟着一个可以打七十五分的女孩，她不带丝毫扭捏地叫了老板娘一声：伯母。 老二和老三也陆续回来，晚饭已经准备就绪，老板娘发令开饭，不等她家男人了，越是过节他越忙。 一家人和我围坐一桌，谈笑风生。老板娘问老二，什么时候你能把媳妇领回来，看你哥。老二说，我才不找本地的，没劲，要找就找个首都的。老板娘让我给老二介绍一个，我满口答应，等把自己的问题解决后，一定给老二找个晶莹剔透的。老二说自己的事情自己办，他已经在网上聊了一个，人家都从北京过来了，现在就在C城。老二是开网吧的，利用工作之便，四处留情。我说行呀你，我跟北京二十多年了，还光棍一条。老二说那是你笨，北京女孩挺容易上手的，远没想象中的困难。我心说，也就是让你赶上一个别的。 吃完饭，像往年一样，坐电视机前看中央电视台，里面还是赵忠祥和倪萍，他俩依旧精神矍铄，神采奕奕，小点儿的电视，根本看不出皱纹。中国没人了怎么的。 twenty two 这两天，老板娘家打麻将缺人就叫上我凑一手，说来奇怪，最近两天我的手气出奇壮，再难落听的牌也能和，赢了不少钱，却不好意思往兜里装，只好又故意输回去，上听的牌拆了打，别人点炮我装没看见，越玩越没劲。 偶尔写点儿东西，少得可怜，从北京带来的钢笔至今还没打过水，剩我一个人的时候就看会儿书，别看它们旧，却挺好看，可惜太多了，没办法扛回北京，只能就地正法，多看一本是一本。当初买的时候太激动了，忘了还要回北京。 这几天C城的鞭炮声就没停过，特别是初五这天早晨，噼里啪啦的炮声震人发匮。只听见老板娘喊三儿子：放炮去吧，饺子这就出锅了。 又是一通噼里啪啦。 我已经几宿没合眼了，每次刚要睡着，都被二踢脚炸醒。听多了二踢脚“呯——嘭”的两声，就习惯了这种节奏，昨天半夜，只听见“呯”，没听见“嘭”，我就等呀等，不敢睡，怕快睡着的时候被“嘭”吓一机灵，那多难受，可一直等到了天亮，也没听见“嘭”，操，早知道是个蔫炮，我就踏踏实实地睡了。 天已大亮，我正准备放松心情，睡个安稳觉，没承想，刚一闭眼，又“呯——嘭”地响了起来，妈的，成心！ C城四面环山，盆地地势，一点儿声音就能响彻山涧，更何况百炮齐鸣，余音缭绕，窗外又烟火四起，真假难辨，给我一种哪里又打起来的感觉。 后来我把耳朵塞上袜子，脑袋钻进被窝，但还是前后受敌，左右挨炸，鞭炮声依然震耳欲聋，吵得我坐卧不安，怎么他妈这么闹腾！以前人们就是这样对付麻雀的，拿着锅碗瓢盆爬上自家房顶，叮叮当当一通乱敲，吓得麻雀在天上飞来飞去，不敢落脚，结果都累死了，飞着飞着就往下掉。我也快了，都五天没睡觉了。“呯——嘭”仍在继续，愈演愈烈。 算了，我还是起来吃饺子吧。 twenty three 饺子是羊肉馅的，除了葱姜，再没蔬菜，老板娘管这种馅叫“一个肉丸”的，她说，因为今年是羊年，就吃羊肉丸的。我暗中庆幸：好再没赶上鼠年。 刚吃了俩饺子，嚼得满嘴流油，正剥蒜的时候，门开了，老二带回家一个女孩，说，妈，这就是我说的首都网友。 我咬了一口蒜，一看，这女孩长得怎么这么像雷蕾呀，除了是一头短发！Ok?wrong! 再定睛一瞧…… twenty four 没错，就是雷蕾。当我和她面面相觑的时候，不约而同地一惊，不等我开口，她便夺门而出，我立即放下手里的半瓣蒜，不等再吃口饺子，干嚼着一嘴蒜就追了出去。老板娘的疑问——这是怎么回事儿，三儿子的不解——我哪儿知道，都被远远地留在身后。 跑过街道，雷蕾突然停下来，转过身盯着我。我追上前。 “怎么会在这儿看见你？”雷蕾说。 “难道依然仅仅是巧合吗”我说。 “为什么是这种结果！” “这也是我的疑问，为什么你这么随便就跟网友回了家，而且不远千里！” “那你跑这里来干什么！” “我……”我一时说不上话来，不知激动还是激愤。 我和雷蕾站在距离北京600里的C城满地烟花爆竹纸屑的路边，站在初五的晨光中，大眼（她）瞪小眼（我），思潮起伏，默不作声。 终于，我们在一阵鞭炮声中，抱在一起。 25 良久，雷蕾挣脱开我的拥抱，哭了起来。 我说你别哭了，眼泪都流嘴里了，她说废话，眼泪有往脑门儿上流的吗。我说怎么没有，你倒立着哭看看，眼泪准保往脑门上流，你如果躺着哭，眼泪就往耳朵里流，你趴我肩膀上哭的话，眼泪还能往后背流呢，只不过是我的后背。 你讨厌！雷蕾更放声地哭了起来。 我的后背果然湿透了，冰凉冰凉的。 26 后来雷蕾告诉我，她到这里是来实习的。郊游回来的那天下午，学校安排实习，有北京的设计院，也有外地的建筑队，学生自愿选择。雷蕾为了躲避我一段日子，就毫不犹豫地报了外地。 雷蕾说她实习的地方就在那个盖歪了的十五层楼的工地，老师带着他们绞尽脑汁，想怎么才能将这座即将竣工但无法入住的商品楼的损失降至最低限度，群策群力，千方百计后，没有可实施的办法，眼看着就过年了，老师下定决心，想不出辙就不离开C城半步，看着归家心切的学生说，你们回家过年吧，不愿意走的就留下来。雷蕾就属于那个不愿意走的，在北京过年无非就那些事儿，吃饭、串门、拜年、压岁钱……已经倒背如流，所以宁愿过一个了无牵挂的年。于是她告诉父母，她在C城挺好的，爸爸妈妈不要太牵挂，这里有时候挺冷的，但是她没啥舍不得，就又买了一件毛背心穿上了，虽然这个春节不能回去，但是她很想家。父母说，照顾好自己，完了事儿赶紧回来。 我问雷蕾手机为什么注销。她说，正好该交钱了，她没交，反正到了外地还要漫游，索性买了一张当地的卡。 雷蕾说，这不，大年三十上午，老师接到他老婆的电话，让他必须回去，否则后果自负，于是老师买了当天的车票回京了，剩下我一个人，流落他乡，无依无靠，只好上网消磨时间，碰到一个当地的网友，聊了几天，约好就在这家网吧见面，结果见了面发现，就是网吧的老板，他说就不收我钱了。 我说，约你见面你就见呀，他要是坏人呢，你在这儿人生地不熟，还跟他回家。我就是想吃口热饺子，谁让他以带我回家吃饺子为诱饵呢，我没经住，雷蕾可怜兮兮地说。 Walk!I say. What are you going to do? 吃饺子去，一个肉丸的。 27 我和雷蕾找到一家“天天过年”饺子馆，要了一斤饺子，雷蕾说吃不了，我说你以为就你一个人吃呀，刚才追你追得我肚子都抽了筋，蕾蕾说，你那是吃多了撑的。 饺子上来后，雷蕾只顾埋头苦干，也没理我，弄得我只好没话找话。我问那个研究生也没有联系你吗。雷蕾说，别提他行不，我都把他忘得差不多了，我心里总记着他，对你有什么好处，自讨苦吃。我说，我是对自己特别自信才这么说的，他哪儿能跟我比呀，根本就不是一个档次上的人。雷蕾说，这儿的饺子皮真厚，可是没你脸皮厚，像你这么厚的，少见。脸皮厚好，冬暖夏凉，我说。 我问雷蕾为什么剪了短发，她说为了开始一段新生活。我说，我说过你留短发不好看。雷蕾说，可我自己认为好看，我干嘛要听你的。我说，女为悦己者容。雷蕾说，那是别人，我才不管这些，我想怎样就怎样。 我又说，原来你都大四了，学建筑的。雷蕾说，你以为呢，对人家一点儿都不关心。我说我原来那么问你，你都不说，还让我以为碰上刘胡兰了呢。雷蕾说，我那是考验你，没想到你一点儿诚意没有，碰到困难就退缩，真让人失望。我说好，吃完饺子就回北京，那里有我们的希望。 28 吃过饺子，我问雷蕾在这里还有什么可留恋的，她说就是对那座十五层楼放心不下，万一哪天倒了砸着人怎么办，我说你操心也没用，该倒还要倒，那些头头脑脑说了才算，他们是人民的父母官，不会看着自己的孩子快挨砸了还无动于衷，雷蕾说那她就踏实了。 我和雷蕾去学校给她安排的宿舍取东西，然后拿上行礼到了老板娘家，我悄声说，你在外面等着，我进去取了东西就走，然后跟个特务似的溜进二层我的房间。 正收拾东西的时候，老板娘进来了，问我早上的一幕是怎么回事儿，我说，雷蕾是我女朋友，知道我离家出走到了C城，就来找我，正巧遇到老二这么个好人，怕她找不着，还把她领到我面前。老板娘说，那老二怎么说是他新谈的女朋友。我说，他那是为了让您高兴，对了，他人呢？老板娘说，嗨，又回网吧上班了，说明天再领回一个来，这孩子！ 结了房钱，与老板娘依依惜别后，我和雷蕾手挽手，去了C城车站。 火车启动了。 C城，再见！ 29 北京有股独特的味道，在北京呆久了的人，都深有体会，特别是刚从外地回来，闻到这味儿能让我热泪盈眶，幸好是冬天，眼泪冻住了，没流下来。我管这种味道，叫北京味儿。 回到家，见屋内还和我走的时候一样，桌上的半个面包已经硬成了一块砖头，盖房绝对不成问题。 我给爸妈打了一个电话，他们在电话里抑制不住旅游的喜悦，老两口觉得外面的世界太精彩了，玩上了瘾，就打算多转转，反正退休了，时间对他们来说，富富有余。 30 听说我家没人，雷蕾就来找我，有时候晚上干脆不走，和我挤单人床，每晚我都闲不着，白天也落不着休息。 忙完事儿后，睡觉的时候雷蕾非要和我鼻尖相触，保持零距离。我说我不习惯。她说几天就能让我习惯。我说这样睡不着，我吸入的全是你喷出的二氧化碳，气上不来。她就说，你怎么不是一株植物呀，连光合作用都不会。 雷蕾让我对她说我爱你，我说不说，她说那你就是不爱我，我说不是，她说那你为什么不说，我说我不好意思，她说你还会不好意思，我说有些话不一定非说出来，她说那你就是爱我了，我从鼻子里发出一声：嗯。雷蕾说，好，明天我带你去公证处，我问干嘛，她说去做公正，让你成为我的私有财产。我说好啊，如果六十年后你没了而我还活着，我就是你的遗产。雷蕾说，我不在了你活着能有什么乐趣，我不会丢下你不管的，回头咱俩一起走。我说你想干什么。雷蕾说，到时候你就知道了。 雷蕾问我谈过女朋友吗。我说当然。她就问，谁甩的谁。我说是女的甩的我。雷蕾说，你怎么这么窝囊。我说天生如此。雷蕾说，也难怪，你有什么资本甩别人，能有女朋友已经够奢侈了。我说你说什么。她说没什么。我说别以为我没听见。她说听见了你还问。 雷蕾整天就知道看电视和睡觉，我说你也不看看书，或者出去找找工作，都大四了，还这么混。雷蕾说，要是有看电视和睡觉的工作就好了。我说，这也是我梦寐以求的，可惜这样的公司还没成立。 31 我和雷蕾呆饿了就出去随便找个地方吃饭，无论在哪儿，她都点金针菇，甭管凉拌，还是火锅。 看她吃得津津有味，我就问：“你想过将来干什么吗？” “没有，你说我能干什么？”雷蕾反问，“你对我有什么认识？” “你饭量可以。”我说。 “我不吃了！”雷蕾撂下筷子，甩手不吃了，但还是把嘴里正嚼着的金针菇咽下去。 “看来你现在饭量也不行了，这可是你唯一的优点呀。” “我就给你这么个印象？！” “能吃不是缺点。”我说，“我帮你分析一下未来吧。” "you say." “你是学建筑的，除了考研、出国，只有一种选择，就是去工地。工地上的职业很多，如果靠体力劳动，虽然你能吃，但是没劲儿，所以，当民工这条路是行不通的。” “太好了，求之不得。” “其次，走脑力劳动的路线，去当设计师，但是你刚毕业，撑死了设计个牛棚猪圈，摩天大楼轮不到你，你也就是给那些老专家沏茶倒水的份儿，可你一定不愿意干，所以，前途叵测呀！”我语重心长。 “那我学你不行吗，你想过干点儿什么吗，待业都一个月了吧。” 说到这里，我便不再说话，只有低头吃饭。 32 爸妈来了电话，说转得差不多了，明天回家。我挂了电话，雷蕾说，那明天我走了，正好过两天有一门补考，该看书了。 第二天，我跟雷蕾回了学校，陪她在教室看了一会儿书，她说看不进去，我说谁都一样，那也得硬着头皮看。雷蕾说要能看进一点儿，当初也不至于不过。我说你会什么写什么，哪怕驴唇不对马嘴，至少不会倒扣分，实在不行就抄几个公式，然后生搬硬套，还给雷蕾举例说明，我初中考物理的时候，有一道计算液体压强的题，我把公式忘了，只记得老师在课堂上告诉我们，背这个公式有窍门，原公式是P＝ρgh，你们记住压强等于“肉鸡爱吃”就行了，于是我牢记在心，并将此话写在考卷上，后来卷子发下来，我看老师回了一句话：我也爱吃。还给了我一分，因为这证明我上课认真听讲了。 我说，还有一次，政治考试，简述社会主义制度的优越性所在，我便在答案上写下：社会主义制度的优越性无处不在，正如歌中所唱，社会主义好，社会主义好，社会主义国家人民地位高，反动派被打倒，帝国主义夹着尾巴逃跑了，全国人民大团结，掀起了社会主义建设高潮，建设高潮……并因此得到该题一半的分数。 雷蕾说，让你这么一说，考试挺容易的，那我不看书了，回去听歌算了。 我说，万万使不得，如果你赶上的老师是乐盲，岂不还要重考。 “那你说我该怎么办？” “作弊呀！” “我才不！” 33 雷蕾坐在教室手里捧着课本，看了半个小时居然没有翻页，我问：“想什么呢，这么半天了，还盯着这页看。” “没想什么。”雷蕾看我一眼，然后把书翻过一页。 一分钟后，雷蕾又把书翻回到刚才那页。 我问：“怎么了？看不进去？” 她说：“肚子疼。” 我问：“吃坏肚子了？” "no." "Then why?" 雷蕾没有回答，我看出她的表情，又问：“痛经？” 雷蕾点点头。 我说：“要不去医院开点儿止痛片？” 雷蕾说：“吃止痛片对身体不好。” “那怎么办，给你倒点开水喝？” “没用，你给我揉揉肚子吧。”雷蕾靠住我的肩膀。 我用胳膊揽住雷蕾的腰肢，手按在她的小腹上，轻轻地揉了起来。 雷蕾因为喝了许多茶水，随着我手掌的运动，有“咕噜”的水声从雷蕾的肚子传出。 揉了一会儿后，雷蕾按住我的手说：“别揉了。” 我说：“为什么，不疼了？” “还疼。” “那为什么不揉了？” 雷蕾趴在我的耳边说：“我想放屁。” 我悄声说道：“你能保证放出的屁既没有声音又没有臭味吗？” 雷蕾说：“有点儿困难，你没听过臭屁不响，响屁不臭的道理吗？” 我说：“那你就出去找一个没人的地方再放，多响多臭都没关系。” 雷蕾说：“你陪我去” “我不去” "why?" “不是我不想去，我怕去了影响你的发挥，我做这种事情从来都是偷偷摸摸，当着人做不出来。” 雷蕾拽住我的衣服说：“你跟我去，我不怕。” 出了教室，来到楼顶，我点上一根烟，指着不远处的墙角对雷蕾说：“就那儿吧，我不过去了。” 雷蕾说：“我不想放了。” "why?" “没有感觉了。” “要不然我再给你揉揉肚子，酝酿一下情绪？” "No." “那干嘛来了。” “我就是想和你出来呆会儿。” 34 抽完烟，我和雷蕾拥抱了片刻，没有接吻，因为她不喜欢我嘴里的烟味，然后又回到教室。 35 雷蕾果真按我说的做了，抄了一张密密麻麻的宝典，带去考场。 考试下午四点开始，不到一个小时候，雷蕾满心欢喜地回来，说都抄上了，离开考场的时候，纸条还被旁边一个束手无策的男生要去。 雷蕾说，过了这门，再把毕业设计搞定，就算大功告成。我说那去庆祝一下吧，雷蕾说，当然了，等晚上的。 到了六点，我和雷蕾正要出去，来了一个电话，她说：“是你……找我什么事……对……啊……那怎么办……好吧。”然后挂了电话，愁眉不展地对我说：“那个研究生给我打的，出事儿了！” 36 原来，雷蕾把纸条给了旁边男生后，他抄完又给了另一个男生，而这个男生笨手笨脚地刚打开纸条，就被监考老师擒获，他不打自招，说纸条不是自己的，别人给的，于是老师逆流而上，寻到根儿上。 这个老师就是那个研究生的导师，他回到实验室把抓了一个女生作弊的事情