Chapter 20 fourth quarter

Early on, the school hung the banners of the school celebrations at the school gate and on the campus. I don't know if it is to show off or to attract business.Now, that day has finally come. Early in the morning, all the parking spaces in the school were occupied by all kinds of good cars.Alumni of various classes, including members of the Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference, academicians of the Chinese Academy of Sciences and Chinese Academy of Sciences, CEOs of listed websites, famous architects, etc., returned to school and attended the school celebration meeting like dogs. I don't know what virtue these people had when they were in school.

The school is only willing to admit that it is the alma mater of those who are successful and famous. Those who are unknown or poor, such as Zou Fei, the school doesn't care at all, and the school celebration is not announced, but the tuition fees were not reduced. Therefore, many graduates vowed to do well in order to let the school recognize themselves. Jiang Wen was lucky. When he filmed "Sunny Day" in the early 1990s, he was able to restore the appearance of Beijing in the 1960s and 1970s. Today, it is difficult for anyone who wants to shoot Beijing ten years ago to restore it.Taking Zou Fei and his school as an example, the changes in the past ten years are greater than the changes in the previous forty years since the school was established.

Zou Fei and the others spontaneously organized the activity of going back to school.When these people who went to college ten years ago entered the school, they couldn't believe that the school could look like this: a building with floor-to-ceiling windows shining brightly in the sun.The original lawn, the red brick teaching building, the dilapidated library, and the grove are gone, and the bicycle shed is nowhere to be seen. Stopped inside, Zou Fei was very dissatisfied with the school's behavior.Turning the school into this must be regarded as an infringement of the memory property of the people!All the things in the school now are all piled up with money. Does it have any effect on the students' own development and inner construction?

Zou Fei arrived a little early and was walking around in the school, the school radio station was playing old songs from different eras.When Zou Fei heard the songs he played in the late 1990s when he was in school, he had a lot of thoughts. Listening to old songs is more often than not listening to songs. The lyrics and melody are so familiar that you can't be more familiar with them. You don't even know which musical instrument accompanies each piece. What you listen to is memories.When the old songs sounded, I recalled the sunshine at that time, the smell of the air, the shadows cast by the trees on the street, the friends at that time, as well as my appearance at that time and what I was thinking in my heart at that time.

That era is gone forever, unknowingly, infinitely far away, so far away that one wonders if there really was such an era, did you just make it up?At that time, Zou Fei could live for a semester with a book and a year with a song.He was moved by the fact that he could read a book or listen to a song without any other distractions, and put himself in it willingly; it was so easy to feel tired at that time, and he didn't feel far away when riding a bicycle across the city of Beijing, and he didn't feel crowded when taking a bus. , even when there is a beautiful woman standing next to him, he still hopes that the car can be squeezed a little more. This kind of life is probably not going to happen again.

Walking to the playground, Zou Fei thought of the old man in the nursing home next door. He said, "The more I am in the crowd, the lonelier I am." Now Zou Fei gradually understands this sentence.In the heart, it is dissatisfaction with real life.When people are satisfied with the status quo, they are not aware of their own hearts. Zou Fei wanted to jump over the wall to visit the old man in the nursing home, but the playground was renovated and the fence was raised, so he had to make a detour.When we arrived at the nursing home, the director changed, saying that there were all old men here, but I don't know which old man Zou Fei was talking about.Zou Fei asked him if he could take a look at those old men. The dean said that this is not a zoo and it is not for people to visit, so Zou Fei had no choice but to leave.

The students in the class had almost arrived, and went around the school in a group, feeling the changes in the school, but when they entered the toilet, they found that the familiar smell was still there.I don't know if it's because the cleaners haven't changed, or because the chef in the cafeteria is still there. In short, there is an unforgettable smell here for Zou Fei.Over the years, Zou Fei has been to various toilets, including foreign toilets, toilets with the highest altitude in the world, and toilets with the most difficult conditions. Although they are all toilets, if you smell them carefully, they are still different. Zou Fei's bone marrow.

The boys stood side by side in front of the urinal, and competed to see who could urinate the most, and all of them couldn't do it anymore. Back then, only one person could urinate on the windowsill. After visiting the campus, everyone went to the restaurant outside the school.The old pickled meat restaurants have all been demolished, and the new restaurants are all magnificent. More than 30 students in the class, half of them came, sat around a big table. Chen Zhiguo, the class leader of the year, was obliged to preside over the situation, and greeted everyone with a glass of wine: "Students, don't worry and calm down. In the future, we will have time to be rational. My youth is running out, let's go back to 'that time' today!"

Zou Fei picked up his wine glass and whispered from below: "If we really go back to 'that time', he shouldn't be here now, he should be in the office of the Youth League Committee." The two students next to me who heard it smiled knowingly. Everyone raised their glasses, knocked on the table, and cheered. Zou Fei didn't want to drink at first, but when he was seated, seeing these people in front of him and hearing the sound of wine bottles colliding, his throat was moistened by the contents of the bottle. Rossi sat next to Zou Fei, Lin Meng squeezed into the crowd of girls, Fan Wenqiang chose a seat farthest from Rossi and sat down, mixed in the crowd without speaking, with a look of disdain.Zou Fei knew that he used to be so virtuous, and no one could get used to it, so he asked him to sit down. Fan Wenqiang glared at Rossi, then shook his head.

Zou Fei asked Rossi and Fan Wenqiang what kind of conflict they had.Rossi said that when he came back last time, he met Fan Wenqiang and said a few words to him, and Fan Wenqiang became unhappy. Two years ago, Fan Wenqiang quit his job at his brother's place and stayed at home all the time. Apart from playing games, he just wandered around, complained about some things, and stayed at home for food and lodging.Fan Wenqiang's reason for not going to work is simple: "It's boring to deal with idiots all the time. It's easy for me to continue working unless you can guarantee that I will never get in touch with idiots again."

From the bottom of his heart, Rossi hoped that Fan Wenqiang would not let himself down. When he was twenty, it was fine to fool around. Now that he is thirty, it would be meaningless to mess around like this.Rossi always took care of Fan Wenqiang like an elder brother, playing games with him and writing leave notes for him when he was in school. In recent years, Rossi has been transformed into a promising young man by Lin Meng. Your life is not normal." Fan Wenqiang said: "I think your life is not normal, you have to do some meaningless things." "But if you don't work, do you feel embarrassed to let others support you?" "You can't understand it even if you say it." "I really can't understand why other people have to work to support you, but you can be pampered." "I'm fucking tired. I worry about the country and the people every day. I don't understand why people have to work in life. I don't work. I'll try to see if I can survive." "You can try, don't try to parasitize others if you have the ability. If you have a child in the future, what will you take to raise him, and ask your parents? When he grows up, he will be like you. Ask you, what will you take? Give?" Rossi has a mature understanding of money, money needs to be earned, and she can't live in the old days of eating a bottle of beer at a roadside stand every day.When parents are old, they need to earn money to see a doctor for them, and they will have children in the future. To make them happy, all these need money.As vulgar as it is to say, it is an unavoidable fact.Sometimes earning money is a duty to others. "This is my business, you don't need to worry about it, you can only see the surface." Fan Wenqiang insisted on his own way. "It's really your business, but for nothing, your ability to get by without working proves that life can't be what I thought it would be—everyone has to work. How much do I know But I don’t understand how you have the nerve to eat at home at such an advanced age, what if you have no food at home?” Rossi drank too much, and it was indeed out of concern for Fan Wenqiang. "You know the problem of eating. People like you live for eating. To put it bluntly, you are a foodie!" Fan Wenqiang didn't look at Rossi, and lowered his head to eat. "I'm a foodie, but I work and realize my value. If you don't work, how can you realize your own value?" "Don't keep talking about your own value, those are all high-sounding excuses made by people for their own fame and fortune." "Then where do you think your own worth is?" "Bullshit's own value, the society is so obsessed, it's because everyone wants to realize their own value, regardless of whether it's gold or shit, they all think they have value." Fan Wenqiang plausibly said, "No matter how good or bad my life is, at least I'm not a A person who fears life." "Neither do we?" "You have, bosses, punch cards, mortgages, these all make you worry." "But you are worried about money. After graduation, you have so many parties, have you ever settled the bill?" "You didn't let me pay the bill either, it was all because of you rushing to settle the bill." "Then I won't grab it this time." "You said it earlier, this time I didn't bring any money with me, so I have to settle it with you." Fan Wenqiang said with a clear conscience, "Besides, you were messing around outside back then and used me as a shield after you finished it. Treat me to a meal!" Rossi said, "I could buy you dinner for the rest of my life, but can you eat it?" "Of course I can't eat it if I'm not hungry, but I can eat it if I'm hungry." Fan Wenqiang said, "Lend me some money first." "What for?" "Flower!" "Why flowers?" "Why do you care so much?!" "You manage people to borrow money and pay it back, who can lend it to you?" "I'm thirty and I need a woman." "Then again, if you don't go to work, what will you spend on women in the future?" "I don't care if you borrow some money. If you don't want to borrow money, just say so. You don't need to talk a lot of reason. Are you tired?" Rossi took out the money without saying a word: "Women can't be done with money." Fan Wenqiang took the money rudely: "I'm a woman, don't worry about it!" A few days later, Rossi called Fan Wenqiang: "How is the woman?" Fan Wenqiang said: "No woman can understand me." He hung up the phone. Within a few days, Fan Wenqiang took the initiative to call Rossi: "Lend me some more money." Rossi had already returned to Canada at this time, and he felt that lending money to Fan Wenqiang was pampering him and educating him. Fan Wenqiang couldn't take it anymore: "Why don't you become a teacher! Just ask whether you want to borrow it or not?" Rossi's heart relented, but he couldn't help it: "Wait until I go back next month!" Fan Wenqiang didn't appreciate it: "I know you are in Beijing, idiot, don't use Canada as a cover, if you really want to lend me money, even if you are not in Beijing, you can send me money!" Then he hung up the phone. Rossi thought that if Fan Wenqiang had a stable girlfriend, his life might be healthy, so he begged Lin Meng to introduce one to Fan Wenqiang.Lin Meng once again showed her greatness. After a few phone calls, she made an appointment with a girl in Beijing to meet Fan Wenqiang. After meeting several times, the girl suddenly refused to continue dating Fan Wenqiang, and sent a message: "Your classmate is sick!" From then on, Fan Wenqiang no longer contacted Rossi, no matter how much Rossi called, he would not answer. Many people haven’t seen each other after graduation. They got together on the occasion of school celebrations, let go of eating and drinking, and released the daily pressure. After drinking too much, they began to make fun of each other. Watching Chen Zhiguo using his iPhone, some people said: “You are not a fashionista. Young man, just sitting in an office and managing files, why don't you keep a low profile?" "Back then, you even sent out leaflets asking people to boycott American products!" someone yelled. "No way, I also support the use of Lenovo ZTE TCL. This is what we sent, saying that it allows us to improve work efficiency and be on standby 24 hours a day. I am afraid that domestic mobile phones will shut down by themselves." Chen Zhiguo said with both flaunting and helplessness , "The things we distribute there, except for the domestic condoms, everything else is foreign." "How old are your leaders?" Someone asked. "The leader, he's not too young, he's almost 60, and he's retiring immediately." Chen Zhiguo said. "That's because your leaders are jealous that you can still use this kind of thing. When the new leader takes office, if you are not old, you can immediately replace it with imported ones." Everyone laughed. The well-informed person began to tell the story of another class. When two boys went to school, they fought for a girl. In fact, they didn't like the girl. For love, only for dignity.But after many years, neither of them had sex with this girl. This girl married another boy. These three boys lived in the same dormitory. After everyone listened, they laughed at this kind of youthful feelings. Everyone also talked about the little boy in Zou Fei's dormitory who left the school after only appearing for ten seconds. He didn't go to college with Zou Fei and the others, so they didn't know what kind of life he was living now. When the wine was half drunk, a small meeting gradually started.Some students went to an insurance company after graduation, and now they are financial consultants, talking about the importance of financial management and their company's financial planning.Listening to those numbers of years, money and returns, Zou Fei was thinking, if not having money is a kind of fear, then should people live to get rid of fear, or should they live for something else? He also admitted that money is not a bad thing. Although people cannot live for money, even if you are a person who only pursues the quality of spiritual life and ignores the living environment, you should not give up the possibility of making money while you are alive.One is because you are responsible for the family. To put it bluntly, the family needs you to use money to create a comfortable environment for them-not everyone pursues a life like yours; With some money, it is possible for a person to live in a nobler way—not the kind of nobility, but the kind of nobility that does not have to sacrifice oneself for fame and fortune—in order to jump over the surface of life and see more of the possibilities of humanity and life . There are also students who start their own businesses after graduation, and now the company is about to go public.Zou Fei went to his company back then, and started from a simple one-story house in Zhongguancun. There was no front desk, only the back door - which opened into a stinky ditch.In less than ten years, his current company has rented the first floor of a luxurious office building in Zhongguancun. There is a bright front desk with a beautiful receptionist sitting behind it. Shining brightly, there are many fax machines, copiers and telephones next to it, ringing every few minutes, and hundreds of employees.Think about when this classmate was in school, he often sold things.From the moment of enrollment, everyone's attitude has already determined the future destiny. It seems that many people have this goal: to start a business, expand the business, go public, and then retire, or start a new company and go public.If you don't retire, you are a workaholic. Zou Fei also envied them, but if he had to make another choice, he would still choose the current life, because only the current life is in line with his nature and can make him feel his own existence. However, recently, he has gradually felt that the kind of life he is pursuing is not new. Although he will keep getting closer to his heart, he will always keep going, and the rhythm will not change. change. He began to want to change his way of life, thinking of the established way of human beings, that is, the one he had always rejected before.He thought, since it is a common method for human beings, it should not be unreasonable.If it was Zou Fei’s aspiration to live according to his spiritual growth and his own needs, then building a stable family has become his real need now.It's like a person driving a car straight forward. When he is tired of driving, it is time to stop and pull someone up. The two discuss to see if there is a more interesting place to go, or even if there is no goal, they can only keep going. Before, it was better to talk to someone beside you than to drive yourself stupidly.Since this voice comes from the heart, it doesn't matter if it's in a traditional or non-traditional way. The transformation of people's thinking is often like straightening a hunchback and teeth. It is straightened by external forces. Zou Fei has another important purpose for coming to the school celebration this time, which is to meet Tong Yue.Feng Aiai also agreed to come, and said that she would stay in Beijing for a few days, and that she could make an appointment with Tong Yue for Zou Fei, but because of a temporary emergency, she couldn't arrive in Beijing earlier, so she booked a plane ticket for this morning. I thought I would be able to catch up with the noon party, but the flight was delayed, and Feng Aiai was still at the airport at the time.Zou Fei asked Feng Aiai when she would be able to arrive in Beijing, Feng Aiai said she couldn't tell, the plane that was about to take off hadn't flown back from Beijing yet, so maybe it wouldn't be in time for the party.Zou Fei had no choice but to listen to Feng Aiai's words to comfort himself: "Don't worry, everything is born of the harmony of fate." I drank with my classmates for a while, and everyone competed to see who would go to the bathroom the latest. After two bottles, they couldn't hold it anymore and left their seats to go to the bathroom.Zou Fei came out of the bathroom, did not go back to the private room, and stood at the door of the restaurant to breathe.At this moment, a boy and a girl came out of the restaurant, the boy smiled at Zou Fei, and went into the nearby hotel with the girl.Zou Fei knew that the boy was interested in the girl when he was in school, and the two passed by each other out of face, and now he is going to realize his dream.At this moment, he had waited for fourteen years, from the girl to the young woman.As for his own dream, Zou Fei didn't know when it would come true, so he sat down on the steps at the door and began to think about things in a daze.He has become more and more unable to adapt to the modern view of love. Whether it is the marriages of those celebrities or the mate selection programs on TV, it does not look like they are in a relationship, but more like they are doing business or discussing something together. Son, to achieve a win-win situation.Of course, the two parties can still have feelings in the end, but the two parties in the business can also have feelings after the transaction, so it is hard to say whether they are in love or in business.Zou Fei felt that this kind of love and marriage was not very exciting, and he hoped that the two would be together because they were in love, not anything else. "Uncle, what are you doing?" A child stood beside Zou Fei and asked, it was the child of one of Zou Fei's classmates. "Why did you come out alone?" Zou Fei regained his composure. "I'm full, I'm bored, come out to play for a while, what are you doing?" said the child. "I'm just like you. I'm full. I'm bored. Let's go out and play for a while." Zou Fei said. "Then shall we play together?" "Okay, what are you talking about playing?" "Say it!" "Then guess Ding Ke?" "What's the penalty for losing?" Zou Fei thought for a while and said, "If you lose, you will call me Dad; if you win, I will call you son." "Come on!" The child agreed, raising his fist. The two started playing, winning and losing each other, calling each other father and son.At this time, a red car was parked at the entrance of the restaurant and was about to be reversed into the warehouse. Someone was sitting in the car and saw this scene. Tong Yue is the driver of this car.She was wearing sunglasses, and through the brown car window, she saw Zou Fei sitting on the steps, still wearing worn-out jeans and sneakers, teasing a five-year-old child. Agreeing, the two played without communication barriers, just like a father and son. This scene shocked Tong Yue a lot.She didn't know anything about Zou Fei's situation in the past few years. When she asked Feng Aiai about Zou Fei's news, Feng Aiai didn't tell her too much, but said, "You'd better find out by yourself, after all, I know is not comprehensive."This sentence can make people feel hopeful, and it can also be regarded as a comforting word. It is a tactful reminder not to have hope. The scene just seen makes it easier for Tong Yue to imagine the fact as the latter.At this moment, she knew that Zou Fei still had a place in her heart. This scene appeared so suddenly, Tong Yue's mind went blank, she didn't know what to do, the car stopped in the middle of the road, in a dilemma. When Zou Fei saw the car, he thought the driver was a novice, and he wanted to reverse the car but couldn't get in, so he came to direct him. "It's okay, there's a lot of room behind!" Zou Fei shouted from the back of the car. The child dubbed the voice: "Reverse, please pay attention, reverse, please pay attention..." Tong Yue didn't intend to reverse the car, so she didn't know why she chose to reverse the car again. Reversing the car was not difficult for Tong Yue, but because of the appearance of Zou Fei, it became more difficult. She looked in the rearview mirror at Zou Fei who was directing and the children beside her, flustered and flustered. Go to the car next to you. "Stop! Stop! Go forward a little bit, then turn right and then fall back." Zou Fei shouted from outside the car. "Stop! Stop! Go forward a bit first, then turn right and then reverse." The child imitated Zou Fei's words, walked to the front of the car and directed Tong Yue. Tong Yue couldn't listen to these words anymore, her heart was in a mess, she quickly put the forward gear on, kicked the accelerator and drove the car away. "How did she leave?" the child asked Zou Fei. "I don't know either." Zou Fei said, "Leave her alone, let's continue playing." The two continued to guess Ding Ke again. After a few rounds, the child suddenly said: "I don't want to play anymore. It seems that I am the loser!" Tong Yue was going to attend their class reunion, but she didn't expect to book a restaurant with Zou Fei's class, and she didn't expect to see Zou Fei and a child before getting out of the car.Tong Yue really thought that this boy was Zou Fei's son, so she didn't feel the need to get out of the car and run into Zou Fei, so she just avoided him, and now she was in no mood to reunite with her classmates. When the car drove on the road, Tong Yue remained expressionless. Although she knew that many of her classmates had already had children, she still couldn't accept the fact that Zou Fei also had children.She felt that she had been deceived by the world, and she faced the world sincerely, but what the world rewarded her was to disappoint her. Tong Yue stopped when the car passed the school gate.She sat in the car and thought for a while, then turned the car into the campus.She plans to go to school again, bid farewell to her youth and the past, and then start a new life. The past life should come to an end. Tong Yue parked the car, got down, and walked on the campus alone. The buildings were newer and taller, and the road surface was cleaner, but the atmosphere here was still so familiar.Tong Yue went to the dormitory building, classroom, old library and playground where she lived, and finally, she went to the new library.The new library is currently the tallest building in the school. On the anniversary day, in order to allow new and old alumni to see the whole picture of the campus, the roof of the building was opened for alumni to have a bird's-eye view of the whole school. There are already many alumni standing on the top of the building, men and women, some come together, some lead their families, pointing fingers, looking for traces of their own lives: "I used to live in that building, the third floor is the third from the left. Five windows." "I used to vomit under that tree after drinking too much." "I slept in that chair." "I used to read English to that corner every day." "I peed behind that building." "Why is that broken car still parked there? My first kiss was lost in the back of the car." "Did you wait for girls at that corner when you were a junior?" "Where is the rockery that was placed here before? At that time, there was a couple behind the rockery every night." "The last time we fought with those people from the Seventh Department was on this road. It turns out that this is a wild land." ... Listening to these words, Tong Yue seemed to have returned to that time, but she knew clearly that she could not go back to that time.Memories can add color to life, but memories cannot be the whole of life. Life is moving forward, not looking back, nor looking left and right.Now that I have looked back and looked at what I should see, there is nothing to see on both sides, so I should move forward. At this time, Tong Yue's cell phone rang, and it was Feng Aiai's call. She made an appointment to meet Tong Yue tonight, but because she couldn't rush back to Beijing, she had to tell Tong Yue to cancel the meeting.Feng Aiai asked Tong Yue what she was doing on the phone, and Tong Yue said that she was standing on the roof of the new library looking at the future and saying goodbye to the past.Feng Aiai asked if she saw Zou Fei, Tong Yue said yes, and she was playing with his son, she left without getting out of the car. Feng Aiai knew that Tong Yue was confused, she didn't explain for Zou Fei, she just called Zou Fei and asked him to explain by himself, and told him: "Tong Yue is in school right now." The party in Zou Fei's class was over. Zou Fei was about to take a taxi home. After receiving a call from Feng Aiai, he hurried to the school and asked, "The school is big, where is she?" "It's up to you whether you can find it." Feng Aiai encouraged Zou Fei and hung up the phone. In the past, there was only one door that was always open in the school, but now there are doors in the southeast, north, and west, and they are all open. I can't just wait and see. Zou Fei once asked Feng Aiai for Tong Yue's phone number, but Feng Aiai promised Tong Yue not to give her phone number to anyone. Feng Aiai is a trustworthy person.Zou Fei can only rely on his own strength. At this time, he remembered what Feng Aiai said, "Everything is born of a combination of fate". If he can find Tong Yue, then it is fate, but what is the cause? "When a person likes a certain space, he is willing to stay there." This is a sentence that Lao Xie said. At this moment, this sentence flashed in Zou Fei's mind, and he knew how to find Tong Yue. Zou Fei decided to go to the roof of the new library, which was the tallest, and he could see all the roofs at a glance. In addition, he also brought tools, a loudspeaker.The loudspeaker was borrowed by Zou Fei from the newsstand in front of the school. It had been hung in the window of the newsstand before. It was recorded and played: "Men's clothes, watching movies, readers, youth digest... Men's clothes, watching movies, Readers, Youth Digest..." If Tong Yue can't be seen, Zou Fei plans to use this speaker to record Tong Yue's name, point it at the whole school, and let it keep shouting: "Tong Yue... Tong Yue... Tong Yue..." Zou Fei went to the top of the building and scanned around. There were a few people standing there, but he didn't see Tong Yue, not even a woman.Zou Fei walked a few steps forward, turned on the speaker, and was about to record, but misplaced the button, and it became playback, and another paragraph came: "Men's clothes, watching movies, readers, youth digest..." Everyone was taken aback, turned their heads to look at Zou Fei, and then smiled knowingly. Zou Fei turned off the playback, pressed the record button, and walked a few steps forward, getting closer to the rooftop, and was about to shout into the speaker: "Tong..." As soon as the word "Tong" was uttered, a face appeared behind the attic on the roof. This face was simple, pure, beautiful, and quiet. Zou Fei once thought that any girl with such a face could build him such a face. world. Now that this face appears again, Zou Fei still thinks so, and believes it even more firmly. Just now, Tong Yue had been standing behind the attic without being seen by Zou Fei. After hearing the trumpets of "men's clothing, watching movies, readers, youth digest...", she walked over to see what was going on, and unexpectedly saw Zou Feiju The horn was about to call her name. After shouting the word "Tong", the word "Yue" was about to come out with inertia, but the sudden appearance of Tong Yue made Zou Fei's mouth bald, and whispered the word "Yue" as if talking to himself, and then The two faced each other in silence. "That child is not mine." Zou Fei suddenly remembered what he was here for, and spoke the first sentence after a long time. Then I don't know how to say the second sentence. But with these words, all problems were solved, and Tong Yue smiled at Zou Fei. After the party, Lin Meng drove the car and took Rossi home. Rossi piled up on the passenger seat without saying a word. When Lin Meng thought of how alive Rossi was at the party just now, she kept her mouth open, and couldn't help complaining: "Why do you have nothing to say when you're with me, and talk endlessly when you're with them?" "They're the ones who spent my twenties with me." Rossi shut her mouth tightly after she finished speaking. "But you are already thirty years old, and you will spend the next forty, fifty, and eighty years old with me." "That's right, but I still think about when I was twenty with them." Lin Meng recalled how Rossi was when he was in school. At that time, he was young, full of vigor, and in full bloom. He realized that life after marriage obliterated his original passion and dreams, and made him step by step towards mediocrity. "Do you feel bad about living with me?" Lin Meng asked Rossi. "You think so?" Rossi asked back. "If you feel bad, we will divorce, and you will live a life without my interference." "Actually, that's pretty good." Rossi tilted her head, leaned to the side, and fell asleep. Lin Meng glanced at Rossi, like a mother looking at a sleeping child, turned her head after reading it, adjusted the direction of the air outlet of the air conditioner so that it would not blow directly on Rossi, and then continued to drive, the car drove very steadily. Zou Fei and Tong Yue stood side by side on the inner edge of the roof of the building, facing the distance, listening to each other's narration. Looking at the buildings that did not exist ten years ago, Zou Fei asked Tong Yue which buildings she had designed. Tong Yue said that there was not a single building in the world that she designed. She drew her plan, but after drawing it, people saw it as unreasonable, and either killed her or changed her plan beyond recognition. "Maybe the house I design will only be suitable for myself in the future." Tong Yue said. "It should also be suitable for me to live in." Zou Fei added at the right time. "I used to think that what I thought was reasonable, but I don't know what is reasonable now. I want to ask you." Tong Yue said. "It's reasonable to listen to yourself." To this question, Zou Fei can only answer in this way, which is accumulated from his thirty years of life experience.People are different, and their principles are also different. What suits you is reasonable.There are all kinds of people in this society, and you will inevitably be criticized for anything you do, but it is better not to do things that are against your own values. First of all, don't be scolded by yourself. Before going to university, Zou Fei thought that life was already prepared, like an infinitely long downhill road, and he could always move forward without participating. He never thought that life can be actively chosen.Thirteen years have passed, and he found that life is not prepared for you, but you need to choose by yourself. Fortunately, you can choose, so that he can live the life he wants to live.This kind of life lingers outside the mainstream life, unlike the life of being a teacher or civil servant. Once you live it, you can do it once and for all. There are no accidents, but you can live until you are old. The life Zou Fei chooses can only be maintained by his own efforts. go down. Zou Fei has already figured it out. From now on, his world will only have these few things: a belief, a family, a few friends, some spiritual consumer goods, such as books, movies, records, favorite things, as for others, no matter what. Sorry, it's all redundant.There are too many unbearable burdens in life, he decided to take off all the useless things and travel lightly. The singing of the school radio station rang again, it was Wang Zheng's "We Are All Good Boys": Open the window to see the white bird in the sky I think of your peppermint smile when you were running on the playground Shout out I love you, do you know then we were not afraid of anything Watching the coffee-colored sunset set again You said to always love and always be good just like this never parting We are all good kids whimsical child Believe that love can last forever We are all good kids kindest child miss what hurt us We are all good kids the most innocent child Brilliant, lonely, becoming far away We are all good kids cutest kid Weep for happiness together Hearing this lyric, Zou Fei asked Tong Yue: "This world is for adults, I don't want to be an adult, a secular adult, an annoying adult, or a fame-seeking adult. , I don’t want to be a dirty adult, I don’t want to be a shameless adult, I don’t want to be an adult who only lives for life, but I am no longer a child, people are calling me uncle, what should I do? What to do?" Tong Yue looked at Zou Fei with the same confused and eager eyes. When he was in college, Zou Fei felt that his heart could hold the whole world, and the world was small in front of him; but today, he knows how big the world is, although his heart has filled more and more things, but the world I don't know when it has run out of his heart and wrapped him up.He knows that the more time goes by, the more he will know what the world is like, and at the same time, the more he will know that the world is far from what he already knows.Therefore, he hopes that someone can accompany him to see the world clearly. When he is confused, even if he can't find the answer, he will know what to do when he sees the other person—not everyone can become this person.Not only does Zou Fei think this way, but Tong Yue also feels that there should be such a person in life. It just so happens that she and Zou Fei have the same requirements for the world, and neither can describe it in words, but as long as the other party appears in front of him, he knows what it is I want it. "Being on good terms with you is not only my need, but also my resistance to this world. Are you willing to help me?" Zou Fei took Tong Yue's hand. At this time, the confusion in Tong Yue's eyes disappeared, and she showed Zou Fei the answer.不知道谁碰到了喇叭的放音键，里面传出音乐：“如果感到幸福你就拍拍手，啪；如果感到幸福你就拍拍手，啪；如果感到幸福你就表示吧，我们大家一起拍拍手，啪……”