Chapter 4 third quarter

One month is fast and fast, and the military training is coming to an end when the emergency assembly call is not blown in the middle of the night.Those students who worry about wearing clothes all day and can't sleep well are still a little regretful and feel cheated. At this time, their biggest wish is: to take off their clothes and have a good sleep after going back. In fact, the reason why the horn was not blown in the middle of the night was very simple: the company commander and instructors were also sleepy, and they had to scare the students. Although they were full of complaints about the instructors and the rules of the army, the students still formed deep and various relationships with the instructors.This is the characteristic that both humans and animals have: after being together for a long time, they don't want to separate.Therefore, many couples have their own people outside, and the marriage is still inseparable.

On the eve of the disbandment, the company commander held a meeting for the small instructors: "You don't need to know who they are, but you must recognize yourself and why you came to serve as a soldier instead of going to college. I hope you don't forget this, and know the difference between yourself and them. distance." On the day of leaving the army, the students got into the car, and the company commander and the junior instructors stood in a straight line under the car to see the students off.When the first car started, the company commander led the young instructors to salute.Immediately, the students burst into tears and returned the military salute.

This is a brief encounter in life. Two groups of people whose lives have never intersected, for some reason, at this moment, at this specific place, meet and then separate.In the dark, the seeds of fate have been planted. Wu Ping was sobbing, opened the car window, and shouted to the little instructor below who was delivering pig's trotters: "Don't listen to the company commander, write to me!" The same cars that came here took the students back to school one after another.The training base was quiet again, but the hearts of the little instructors and individual students were fluctuating.

Back to school, college life officially begins.Going around the dormitory, classrooms, cafeteria, library, and playground every day feels boring.Zou Fei asked himself in his heart: Besides these places, where else do you want to go?He answered himself again in his heart, he didn't want to go anywhere, but he just felt bored. A week later, Zou Fei took all the classes and became disappointed with the university. The courses offered in the first semester include college English, advanced mathematics, descriptive geometry, basic computer, introduction to Mao Zedong Thought, general chemistry, and general physics.When I got the timetable, just looking at the names of these courses, I felt that they were awesome, worthy of being university courses, but they sounded different from middle school courses, which made people very eager to learn.But after learning it, I found that it has no meaning at all, let alone a little meaning--it is true for Zou Fei, but it is very meaningful for others, those who need this knowledge in their lives.

If you lose interest in the things you can control and just turn a blind eye and close your eyes to get over it, it's not too painful, but if you lose interest in the things you can't control but still need to master, it will be painful. It is strange to say that those English words and grammar that became familiar after the third year of high school training are now unfamiliar after a summer vacation.It seems that the cramming education method in the third year of high school can indeed work on people, like a stimulant, but after this effort is over, it's fucked up again.This kind of situation does not only happen to Zou Fei, many people have this feeling. The highest level of English in this life is in the third year of senior high school. Two years is easier to pass.

And math.When he was in the third year of high school, Zou Fei thought that he would never need to study mathematics in his life. His current knowledge of mathematics was enough for daily needs such as business, making furniture, kneading plasticine, and tutoring children in the future. After going to university, I still need to learn advanced mathematics. Could it be that the mathematics I learned before were all low-level?It is a thick book with more than 300 pages, and it takes one semester to study it. Regardless of the content, just flip through it casually. The pages are full of incomprehensible symbols. Combining these symbols at will is a problem.Moreover, I heard that this is only the course of Advanced Mathematics (I), and there will be courses of Advanced Mathematics (II) in the second half of the year. After the sophomore year, there will be courses such as probability theory and linear algebra—Zou Fei really wants to scold those who invented this knowledge.

Let's talk about descriptive geometry. Before getting the book, Zou Fei thought it was a math class or an art class.If it was a math class, he would want to scold even more. They would be happy if the school had to hold a few math classes to drive the students crazy!If it is an art class, then you can paint however you want. It is not art if you are limited by the rules of creation. You can forget about the geometry of life, and you have to worry about the geometry of drawing. Are you tired? Especially after getting the book of this course, after reading the preface, Zou Fei was completely depressed——

The main knowledge points of this book involve orthographic projection, axonometric projection, shadow in projection, perspective projection and elevation projection, etc. Orthographic projection includes point, line, plane, line and plane, relative position between plane and plane, projection transformation, Contents such as plane three-dimensional, curved surface three-dimensional and three-dimensional intersection... What's the use of thinking about these directions and structures more thoroughly? Why don't you think about the multiple aspects of your heart? Could it be that the reason I worked so hard to get into college is to learn these things—Zou Fei finally cursed Li: Fuck him!

Later, when he understood more things, he realized that these things should and must be learned as a student of this major.There was nothing wrong with the school, and neither did he. The fault was that he took the wrong major. But at that time he didn't think so, he just felt that the university was like a tomb, with no fresh air to breathe, no sunlight, only darkness and damp, which made people rusty and hairy.The university is so different from what he imagined, and he can't say what it should be. He just thinks that the university can be anything, but it just can't be like this.

On the Sunday night of the second week of class, Zou Fei decided to give up studying.It was the high math homework that gave him this idea. When he happily returned home from home after dinner, and was about to copy Shang Qinghua's homework and hand it in on Monday morning, he found that Shang Qinghua had written ten Multiple Pages. "You have to write step by step. If you can omit and skip the steps, you don't have to write them, so you can save money." Zou Fei opened his blank homework book and prepared to copy, "This is not about writing essays, it's about writing more than anyone else. "

"I can save as much as I can. Others have written twenty pages." Shang Qinghua previewed tomorrow's lesson. "You said it would be nice for you to rest for a while, why are you always holding a book!" Zou Fei found a handy pen and copied it. "Idle is idle." Shang Qinghua turned a page of the book. When the third page was copied, Zou Fei's hands were already sore, and he asked Shang Qinghua: "I feel tired even after copying homework, aren't you tired doing homework?" "Tired!" Shang Qinghua said firmly, "That has to be written!" After copying two more pages, Zou Fei encountered a unclear symbol and asked Shang Qinghua what it was. Shang Qinghua took the homework book and looked at it. He suddenly remembered something, and quickly flipped through the book again, then said in horror: " It’s broken, I forgot to write two questions, and then I found out.” Shang Qinghua took the homework book and hurriedly filled it up.Twenty minutes later, Zou Fei saw that Shang Qinghua was still writing, and asked him how much he had left. Shang Qinghua estimated with a scientific attitude: "This question will be finished in five minutes, and the second question may take 20 minutes." Minutes." At this moment, Zou Fei looked at Shang Qinghua's homework, and there were only a few pages left. It's only been a week since school started and you're running out of homework. What could be scarier than going to college? At this time, Luo Xi and Fan Wenqiang came back from the shower, and when they entered the door, Shang Qinghua asked for homework. One said: "Give me a copy of the Chinese translation left in English." The other said: "I put the general homework on your bed. , show me the picture you drew again." Zou Fei suddenly collapsed. Lao Xie, who was drinking tea at the side, said calmly, "Fortunately, I'm sick." Then he took out the radio, put on his earphones, and began to listen to the health care program every night with the old Chinese doctor as the guest. From this moment, Zou Fei established his first ambition since he was in college: Since I can't be a sick student, then I should be a bad student! As a result, some necessary things in high school disappeared in Zou Fei's life, such as pencil case, school bag and so on.It wasn't that Zou Fei threw them away, but he felt that they were no longer needed, so he put them aside. When he found that his pencil case and schoolbag were gone, he was already a sophomore. Talk about Zou Fei's attitude towards learning.It's kind of hard, because he doesn't have much attitude towards studying.When it's time to learn, learn to learn, if you don't need to learn, just stop learning immediately.He has no idea of ​​being outstanding academically in the future, and out of self-esteem, he doesn't want to be a student with the lowest grades. He will be looked down upon and thought stupid. How many teenagers are willing to be judged like this by others, so he His grades have been hovering between the middle and lower reaches of the class and the middle and upper reaches. Zou Fei's attitude of neither resisting nor cooperating with learning is influenced by his family.There is no academic research in the family. My father is a trade union officer and likes to play chess and feed birds; my mother is an accountant and likes to raise fish and flowers.Both of them belonged to the working class, so naturally Zou Fei was not infected with the sour energy of intellectuals, nor did he have the lofty ambition to be outstanding in some field.Like most children in Beijing, he has lived in the city since he was a child, far from luxury, but he has not experienced much hardship in life. His fate is not so bad that he has to change it, so as long as he is happy in front of his eyes , then you can live happily. Many Beijingers live like this all their lives.Parents don't have any requirements for him, they just want him to be a simple and happy person. If they grow up and know how to be filial, they will be more satisfied. And those students who struggle with knowledge are often two kinds of people: one is influenced by family members, loves knowledge from the bottom of their hearts, and doesn't try anything, just to get close to knowledge; the other is students in the mountains, they don't want to Live the life of their fathers, hate the land, must rely on knowledge to change their living space, and rely on knowledge to change their destiny.So both types of people are in the upper reaches of their grades. There is another kind of people, those who are at the bottom. There are many reasons for them to be at the bottom. Some of them don't want to be at the bottom, but there is no way, it is their fate to be at the bottom. The school automatically divides people into three levels, and it is the same in society. Zou Fei's attitude determined that he could only be admitted to this second-rate university, but second-rate schools are not necessarily second-rate students. Many first-rate students stumbled in the examination room and went to Tsinghua University and Peking University, but fell into this university. A second-rate school.For example, Shang Qinghua, from his name, he could see the high hopes his parents placed on him.I don’t know if his parents will change his name when he is admitted here, such as Shang Bucheng Tsinghua, and I don’t know if the principal of this school will make up his mind to strengthen the school after learning that there is a student named Shang Qinghua in his school. Try to make Shang Qinghua take his own school into consideration when naming the next generation. Zou Fei's attitude towards learning mentioned above is only limited to one week before the start of the university. In fact, he can continue this attitude until he graduates from college. He also wants to do so, but he can't do what he wants.In middle school, I usually fall behind, and I catch up before the exam, but I can't do it in university, there are too many contents, and I learn more in one semester than in three years of high school.In order to be able to enter a rich and colorful university, Zou Fei can only be willing to go to the bottom of the list.He convinced himself that everything gained must be lost.Besides, I didn't lose anything, I just put more effort into the exams, since I'm already in college, who cares so much about rankings, except for the teacher who decides who to give the scholarship to. Once a person wants to do something well, he can use his imagination and creativity beyond what he wants to do well.Other students also copied their homework, but Zou Fei didn't copy all the homework. He deliberately copied a few questions each time, so he could save a lot of trouble and not be told by the teacher that he didn't complete the homework.Mao Gai class handed in a thesis and needed to explain his own point of view. This could not be copied. Zou Fei still had a way. He rode a bicycle to other universities to find the papers of his high school classmates and copied them. The time on the road was enough to write three papers. , Zou Fei excused himself like this: I happen to be going to see my classmates too. It can be seen from this that people are more diligent in how to be lazy than they really want to be. The richness and variety of college life lies in doing whatever is unreliable.A group of eighteen or nineteen-year-old kids don't know what reliability is. As long as it is fun or new, they will do it. I don’t know who initiated the activity of going to the nursing home to show love. There was no class on Wednesday afternoon, and the whole class was organized to condolences to the lonely elderly. Chen Zhiguo asked everyone to bring rags and brooms, and to clean the nursing home, and told the girls to bring combs. Comb the old lady's hair. Zou Fei asked if he should bring a knife to give the old men a pedicure, or bring Erguotou to talk to the old men.Chen Zhiguo said that it is not necessary to get too close for the first time, just to see the reaction, and then talk about it later.Zou Fei didn't understand what kind of reaction Chen Zhiguo said. Judging from his positive energy, he knew that this activity was organized by him. He probably had to go to the department to ask for credit after the incident. Anyway, he is not the kind of person who really cares, otherwise He wouldn't think that the stray cats at the door of the dormitory blocked his way, and he raised his leg to give others a kick every time he went in and out. The nursing home is just outside the school playground wall, and it takes ten minutes to walk around to the west gate.When the group of students walked into the nursing home enthusiastically, they found that the old men and women did not put on a welcoming posture. "A group of students just came here yesterday." The dean explained. Maybe because they guard the school, they are constantly harassed by college students who have limited imagination and want to do some public welfare activities. The old people keep themselves busy and have no time to answer these students.Some went to water the flowers, some went to practice calligraphy, some started to listen to the radio, and those who couldn’t find anything to do simply went to bed. In short, they just didn’t cooperate with the students’ condolences. The students who came with love had no place to vent their excess enthusiasm, so they had to turn their attention to labor and started to work. Some began to dig the garden, some swept the yard, and some mopped the floor.Zou Fei brought a rag and wanted to wipe the glass, but when he took it out, the glass was cleaner than the rag, so he threw away the rag, sat down next to an old man listening to the radio in the backyard, and basked in the sun. Ma Sanli's cross talk was playing on the radio, and it was about "Teasing You". It was not the first time I heard it, but Zou Fei and the old man were still amused in the end. "Are you a student too?" The old man glanced at Zou Fei, as if he had just discovered him. "Am I not like a student?" Zou Fei was really worried that he would be regarded as a companion in the nursing home by the old man. "You college students are too self-righteous." The old man said this inexplicably. "What's wrong with the college student?" Zou Fei wanted to see if the old man was out of his mind. "You don't study hard, why are you running around here?" The old man was very dissatisfied. "It's annoying enough." Zou Fei had to admit. "The dean said that you are afraid that we will be lonely, so you came to express condolences to us. Do you really think so?" The old man turned off the radio. "Maybe they think so." At this moment, Chen Zhiguo passed by the two of them with a basin of dirty water. Zou Fei pointed to Chen Zhiguo and said to the old man, "Especially him, anyway, I don't think so." "He must be lonely, so he thinks that others are also lonely." The old man said, "Many people take their thoughts on others for granted, which is no different from raped others in their hearts." Zou Fei felt that the old man's words made sense, and this was the first sentence he had heard since he was in college that could be remembered. The old man continued: "Actually, I'm not lonely without people coming. The more I am in the crowd, the more lonely I am." "We'll be leaving in a while." Zou Fei was a little ashamed. "If you leave, others will come." The old man said helplessly. "It seems that when choosing a site for a nursing home, you must not choose it next to the school." Zou Fei saw the old man holding a book in his arms, "Can you show me your book?" "A student left here yesterday." The old man gave the book to Zou Fei. It is a collection of poems, the author is an unknown foreigner, opened the book, the title page is covered with the chapter of the school library.Zou Fei randomly turned to a page, read a paragraph, and found that his heart was agitated.Including the Tang poems he learned in middle school, this is the first time that Zou Fei feels that he understands poems. "Can I borrow this book to read for a few days?" Zou Fei felt that this kind of book would be more enjoyable to read alone in bed. "You want to get it back." The old man took out a small book from his pocket, "Write down which class you are in, and if someone comes back to look for books, I will ask him to find you." Zou Fei took the book: "I also wrote the phone number of the dormitory on it." At this time, Chen Zhiguo ran over with a notebook to investigate: "Excuse me, grandpa, how old are you?" "Not tall or old, seventy-four." "Does your family know you're here?" "have no idea." "Do you have any news from your family?" "Nonsense, our home is in Haidian, and it's only an hour's drive away. If I miss my grandson, or think they need me, I'll go back and see them." "Since you have a family, why do you still come here?" Chen Zhiguo felt a strong curiosity. "I came here just for the sake of peace. If you continue this endlessly, I will go home!" The old man got angry, got up and left with the radio, leaving Chen Zhiguo a sentence, "Why don't you want to listen to a cross talk quietly?" It's that difficult!" Chen Zhiguo froze in place. "What's the matter, let me help you finish the investigation? I'm eighteen years old." Zou Fei said. Chen Zhiguo regained his composure, and handed over the book: "You can help me sign here." "Sign my name?" "What's the use of signing your name? Sign the old man's name just now." "I don't know what people's names are." "Call it whatever you want, or just sign your grandpa's name." "I'd better sign your uncle's name!" "Alright." Chen Zhiguo told Zou Fei his uncle's name. Zou Fei signed behind the interviewee: "Actually, you can sign yourself." "Then the teacher recognized it." "Show this thing back to the teacher? What are you doing?" "Nothing." Chen Zhiguo closed his notebook and left. Many behaviors of student cadres are difficult for the masses to understand. When we came, we all came together, but when we arrived, we found it boring, so we finished our work and went back to school one after another.Rossi and Fan Wenqiang were very playful. When they worked, they chose to level the ground where the old man played gateball. They played for a long time before starting to work. The others left, and they were only half done.Zou Fei also played with the two of them for a while, and now that he was tired of playing, he watched them do it from the sidelines. "Why don't we talk about the rest later, and let the old men make do for half the time?" Fan Wenqiang put down the guy who was working. "Okay, anyway, there are no classes next Wednesday." Rossi also felt that this job was not as fun as imagined. Just as he was about to leave, the dean came out with two glasses of water: "Student has worked hard, drink some water before doing it!" Rossi and Fan Wenqiang had no choice but to take the water glasses, but the dean didn't leave. He had to watch them drink the water before leaving in peace. After drinking other people's water, they couldn't just slap their ass and leave without finishing their work. Rossi and Fan Wenqiang had no choice but to continue to clean up the mess.Zou Fei felt that he should do some work, and it was worthwhile to come to the nursing home once, so he went up to help. While doing it, Luo Xi suddenly poked Zou Fei: "Look!" "Look at what?" "Look there!" Rosie pointed to the door. Zou Fei raised his head and saw Tong Yue walking into the courtyard. "Hey!" Zou Fei greeted Tong Yue. "Yo, you guys are here to show your love too." Tong Yue stepped forward, "Our class came yesterday." "Then why did you come here by yourself again today?" Zou Fei asked, "Did you show less love yesterday?" "I really want to contribute more, but my grandparents don't want to see you. I left yesterday without staying for a while." Tong Yue said, "I left the book here." "Is this the book?" Zou Fei pulled out the poetry collection he had just read from his body. "Why are you here?" Tong Yue took it over. "I flipped through it just now, and thought I could read it, so I planned to take it back to the dormitory to read." "Aren't you afraid that the owner of this book won't be able to find it when he returns?" "I told the nursing home that I would send the book back after I finished it, or let the people who came back to look for the book come to me directly." Zou Fei asked Tong Yue, "Why do you think of reading this book? No one borrows this book." .” "Only this book is less read, and it looks cleaner." Tong Yue said, "I planned to return the book today, but found that the book is gone, I thought it was left here." "Lend me to read it, and I'll show it to you after reading it." Zou Fei said. "You can return the book to the library directly after reading it. You don't need a certificate to return the book." Tong Yue said, "There are still more than two weeks until the due date." At this time, Rossi and Fan Wenqiang finally made the field no longer potholed, and they could leave. "Don't go around, just jump over the wall." Rossi suggested. "Yes, jumping over the wall is close!" Fan Wenqiang agreed. "You two dance, I will walk back with Tong Yue." Zou Fei felt that this was an opportunity. "Forget it, you can dance with them too, so as not to say that you value sex over friends." Tong Yue smiled and left by herself. "Still chasing after him?" Rossi expressed Zou Fei's thoughts. "Forget it." Zou Fei pretended to be indifferent, "Let her go by herself!" "It seems that you are really tempted." Fan Wenqiang said, "Otherwise, you wouldn't be so tense." "What's the rush? It's yours. Sooner or later it will be yours." What Zou Fei actually thought in his heart was: let's go sooner! "You have to hurry up, you are not the only hunter in the school." Rossi climbed up the wall. "The prey is in the light, and the hunters are in the dark. It depends on who shoots earlier." Fan Wenqiang also climbed up the wall, groaning, "It's been a long time since I've been active, I'm fucking fucked." Their words reminded Zou Fei.Hearing from high school classmates, Zou Fei used to worry about their marriages for the poor girls in his class, and within a week after arriving in college, he already had a boyfriend, and he gnawed grandly in the cafeteria queue. Nibbling away, many hungry students lost their appetite.The desire of college boys to find a girlfriend is much more arrogant than in high school, which makes the aesthetic level drop a lot. "In order to protect Tong Yue from others, I can only go hunting at the gate of the school." Zou Fei climbed over the wall, landed on the school playground, and left alone. "Where are we going?" Fan Wenqiang asked Rossi. "I don't know," said Rosie, "how about we go out and watch the prey, too?" "I... I'm not interested in this matter, let's go back to the dormitory and play games!" Fan Wenqiang looked disdainful. "Then you go back, I'm going to play football!" Rossi blended into the crowd playing football on the playground. Zou Fei met Tong Yue and walked towards the school gate, thinking about what to say when he met her: You can invite her to have dinner together, but this statement is too purposeful; you can also ask her to watch a movie, as it happens that pirated discs are played in the school auditorium every Wednesday, He just said that he had a lot of tickets and didn't want to waste them; if he couldn't do it, he said he had finished reading the book and gave it back to her - although this reason was so implausible, it was easier for her to accept than to appear in front of Tong Yue again without any explanation.Of course, the most important thing is to adapt to the situation and strive to make the meeting between the two natural and interesting. At the door, Zou Fei sat down on the side of the road, lit a cigarette, and watched the direction Tong Yue was coming from. When they arrived at university, the number of boys who smoked suddenly increased, but not many of them came to university with a cigarette addiction from high school. It was not a physical need to start smoking, but they just thought it was time to smoke when they entered university.For boys, smoking is not only a cool thing, but it also seems to be helpful for thinking. It is a prop for pretending, especially when you are alone, stand on the top of the building, look around, and click on a Cigarette, like an adult, feels that he is living a very deep life. Depth is something that people of that age are very concerned about. After smoking one, Tong Yue didn't show up, so Zou Fei continued to wait.After the second one was drawn, Tong Yue hadn't appeared yet, Zou Fei added another one, and there were only three left in the box, hoping that Tong Yue could appear before they were exhausted. But in the end Tong Yue didn't show up.Zou Fei felt that it would be a bit silly to wait without something in his hand. If he waited until Tong Yue was asked what he was doing here, if he had a cigarette in his hand, he could say "I smoke here", Then start the topic later, and if you don't have anything in your hand, you can only say "I'm waiting for you here", it would be too silly. Zou Fei looked at the big clock at the gate of the school. It was time for the cafeteria to open, so he walked towards the cafeteria. When I went to college, one thing that was required every day in middle school was missing-the school uniform.Universities also have school uniforms, which are the same as middle schools, they are sportswear, but they are uglier than middle schools, and the colors and styles are more old-fashioned. Is it because college students are a few years older than middle school students that they have to wear old-fashioned clothes?Fortunately, the school does not require students to wear them, as long as they pay the money and take away the school uniform, it is the students' own business whether to wear it or not. If you are willing to use it to wipe the table, wipe your feet, or anywhere, you can. Students are not controlled in appearance, and self-consciousness extends to the heart can also be uncontrolled.In fact, the truth is the same. Teachers don’t care what you think. If you want to kill someone, you can kill them. If you want to set fire, you can set them on fire.The head teacher also has a name in vain. After graduation, he can't even call the names of the students in the class. Therefore, once no one cares about yourself, you will feel that you are an adult and you can act independently. When these adults realize that studying is not the only task and they don’t have to attend classes, the first thing they think of is sleep, as if they want to make up for the lack of sleep in the ten years before going to college.So a few months ago, the students who had to go out of the house to go to school after 6 o'clock in the morning are now still lying in bed after 10 o'clock. In the third year of high school, I went to bed late to review.Even people who go to college sleep late, but not many people do it for reading, and even if they read, they read martial arts novels.At 11 o'clock in the evening, the lights in the dormitory are turned off, but the lights in the corridor are not turned off. At this time, the life of the day has just begun. Thinking that the day will be over soon, I quickly move out two chairs, copy the homework due tomorrow, or start calling friends Call friends out for a drink.People who go to bed don’t go to sleep right away, and they have to chat, chat about Jin Yong (it’s strange, few people talk about Cologne), girls, porn, Age of Empires Red Alert Heroes… Some love to chat, some love to chat. Love to show off, in short, the time to sleep is after midnight.I would wake up habitually at six or seven o'clock the next morning. I thought how I could get out of bed after working so hard last night, so I turned over and continued to lie down. For a while, it seemed that the purpose of going to college was to come to the dormitory to sleep, but there were still many more students in the classroom than in the bed, but Zou Fei was like this, so he noticed the same kind of students. He doesn't know what the students in the classroom think, and he doesn't want to know at this stage. After a few days of rest, Zou Fei felt that it would be boring to sleep any longer, so he got up and had breakfast. After eating, he felt that he had nowhere to go, so he might as well go to the classroom, as the teacher of this class likes to take roll calls.Therefore, he sat in the second-to-last row with empty hands but not an empty stomach. This was to prepare for leaving as soon as he wanted to. Both the first row and the first-to-last row were easy to be noticed by the teacher. The bell is rung, the teacher comes in, roll call, draw the hook, the ceremony is completed, and the class begins.Zou Fei thought he could sit for forty-five minutes, and when the get out of class was over, he would leave the classroom graciously and never come back again, but the teacher was too disappointing, or the teacher didn't want Zou Fei to attend the class too much. After ten minutes of lecture, Zou Fei Fei couldn't sit down anymore.He felt that it was a crime to waste the good time of his youth listening to classes that he was not interested in and could not understand. He can choose to do something else, such as going back to the dormitory and taking a nap, so he can rest; or go to the library to find a book to read, so he can recharge his batteries; a play.Anyway, nothing can be left behind after listening to it. The voice came from the teacher's mouth and entered the brains of some students, but Zou Fei didn't even let his ears in. After knocking on the door for a long time, Zou Fei refused to open it, and then he simply moved. ——When the teacher turned to write on the blackboard, he slipped out of the classroom through the back door. Zou Fei himself didn't think the significance of this moment was too great, but it was actually a turning point in his life.Since then, he has embarked on a path leading to his own heart. Since it is his own heart, it must be different from others. It feels so good to leave the teacher's loud lecture behind.Zou Fei slipped out of the classroom, not knowing where to go, anyway, he had to leave the teaching building first, he was walking towards the door, and bumped into Tong Yue holding on to the back door of a classroom to watch. This is probably a chance encounter, and finally found something to do, Zou Fei thought so, and stepped forward: "What are you doing?" Tong Yue turned her head and saw that it was Zou Fei: "Find a classroom for self-study, there are classes." "I'm also looking for a classroom for self-study!" Zou Fei continued. "You don't bring anything to the self-study?" Seeing Zou Feikong's hands, Tong Yue seemed to be shopping. "Ah, I forgot." Zou Fei pretended to remember, "I said why do I feel that there is something missing in my hand!" Tong Yue smiled: "How can I always meet you?" "I also want to ask this question." Zou Fei seemed serious, "Do you think this is a legendary fate?" Tong Yue smiled but did not answer. "I've already turned around. There are no empty classrooms. They are all in class. Let's go to the library!" Zou Fei didn't want his classmates to see him not sitting in his own classroom for class, but going to other classrooms to talk to him. A girl from a foreign department went to self-study, "It just so happened that I returned that book of yours." "You don't have class in the morning?" Tong Yue asked. "Whether there is a class or not is up to you. I'll go back to the dormitory to pick up my things, you go there first and help me get a seat!" Zou Fei ran away without waiting for Tong Yue to speak, not giving her a chance to refuse. Zou Fei returned to the dormitory, picked up the books to be returned, and found out the homework book that Shang Qinghua was due to hand in tomorrow (Shang Qinghua has developed the habit of putting the book on the bright side after finishing the homework for others to take away for plagiarism) , I washed my face well, looked in the mirror, and found no major problems, so I went out. The library is really a good place to read, the sun is shining, the dust is rolling in the beams, and the smell of books and wooden bookshelves is refreshing.Zou Fei found Tong Yue, there was an empty seat next to him being occupied by a book, he pulled out the chair and was about to sit. "That one is not for you." Tong Yue said. Zou Fei's heart turned cold: it's over, someone got into the car ahead of me. "Do you still have my seat?" Zou Fei didn't want to miss this car. "It was taken by someone else. There were two empty seats when I came here, and I sat here." Tong Yue pointed in one direction, "There is another one over there that is reserved for you." Like riding a roller coaster, Zou Fei's heart reached its peak again, happily sat down on the seat Tong Yue occupied for him, took out Shang Qinghua's homework and copied for a while, while copying, he paid attention to Tong Yue's surroundings. Seat, once there is an empty seat, he intends to sit there.However, there are people sitting motionless on those seats, or there is a book or a roll of toilet paper, and a note is pressed under it, which says "someone". Put it here, come at night, also to take away the books and toilet paper, occupy the latrine and neither shit nor fart, I don't understand what these people occupy the seat. There was only one last question left to copy, Zou Fei decided not to copy, and pretended not to do it to find Tong Yue to get close, Tong Yue's department also offered this class. "Where have you been talking, can you solve this problem?" Zou Fei sat down on the empty seat beside Tong Yue, and handed over the homework. Tong Yue took the homework book and looked at it: "We have left this question in our homework." "Then tell me how to do it?" Zou Fei moved the chair forward. Tong Yue glanced and saw another question that Zou Fei had already copied in his homework book: "Ah, you also left this question, I can't do it after thinking about it for a long time, please tell me about this question first Bar!" Zou Fei looked at the question symbolically, but he couldn't understand it at all, but he said thoughtfully: "I know it, but I can't say it - you can understand this kind of situation, try to see if you can understand it , if you don’t understand, I’ll explain it to you, it’s best if you can understand it yourself, I’m afraid I won’t understand it.” Tong Yue followed the steps to solve the problem, read it step by step, and suddenly realized: "Why did you think of it, why didn't I think of it!" "I don't know how I thought of it." Zou Fei said innocently, "You should tell me about the following question!" "You have solved that difficult question, but you still don't know how to solve this easy one?" Tong Yue was puzzled. "Maybe that question took too much brain, and this question is not enough." Zou Fei explained. Tong Yue began to explain to Zou Fei, but Zou Fei couldn't listen at all. He smelled the fragrance of shower gel or shampoo from Tong Yue's body, and looked at Tong Yue's white and thin fingers, shiny nails, and The traces of blue-green blood vessels that are looming are floating. "Did I not speak clearly?" Tong Yue didn't suddenly understand when Zou Fei finished speaking. Just now Zou Fei didn't know that he had finished speaking, and it was too late to wake up like a dream, so he said: "It's not that I don't know very well, it's too clear. I'm thinking about it, so I hurried back to write it before I forget it." The homework is gone. 邹飞并没有听懂，回到座位上，又照着尚清华的作业接着抄。抄完，无事可做了，偷偷观察佟玥，可惜角度不佳，佟玥又总低着头，被隔板挡住。 邹飞找个理由，又走到佟玥跟前：“我去还书，顺便再借几本，你去吗？” “好啊！”佟玥的回答正中邹飞下怀。 图书馆的文学书堆里一个人也没有，佟玥站在两排书架形成的狭长过道里，阳光照在她的肩上，一侧处在背光中，轮廓清晰，另一侧被阳光照亮，明晃晃的，晃得邹飞眼前一阵阵发晕，站在她后排的过道窥探着她，屡屡想上前抱住她，站在这一屋子的书里亲吻她，然后两人将书架撞倒，任书籍一本本落下，纷纷砸在他们身上，把他俩盖住。 “这本书你觉得怎么样？”佟玥打破了邹飞的幻想。 邹飞隔着一排书架接过书，翻了翻，见封底印着评论家的一段话：“在文化日趋向现代主义演变的进程中，用这种后现代的表现手法，不遗余力地在城市、乡镇和农村中寻找迷失的精神文化，以一种崭新但不失传统的视点，剖析社会、拷问人类、逼近真相……” “书怎么样我说不好，但看完封底这些话我想找个地方吐会儿。”邹飞把书递给佟玥，“都是屁话！” “为什么这么说？”佟玥问。 “什么……现代主义、后现代主义，弄得跟英语语法似的。”邹飞义愤填膺道，“说不出实际点儿的东西，只能用这些词来吓唬人，估计他们丫自己都不太明白这些词什么意思，就是觉得这词牛叉，所以就用了。” “评论家不就是干这事儿的吗，他们要是能做实事，早当作家去了。”佟玥对此见怪不怪。 “可能作者本人并不是特意想借这种方式表达，而是他只会这么表达，他可能会为得到评论家的称赞而暗自高兴，但他不一定觉得那些评论家的话有道理，不一定因为他们表扬了他就瞧得起他们了，也许还在心里骂着这些人装模作样。” “你真够残酷的，不过也许倒是实话。”佟玥举着书说，“你还没说这书会不会好看呢！” “一般这种书我都不看。” "why?" “真正的作家不需要在自己的书上印上别人说了什么。” “万一书本身并不难看呢？那些话只是出版社为了书好卖呢？” “有这个可能，不过刚才我翻了翻，虽然评论说得很扯，但这书远没评论说得那么像回事儿，没准儿是评论印错了，本该印在另一本书上的。” “你可真够坏的！”佟玥笑呵地把书放回原处。 最终，佟玥借了两本张爱玲的书，邹飞借了黑塞的《在轮下》和。因为只有一本了，邹飞就让给了佟玥。 出了图书馆，食堂已经开饭了，佟玥说和宿舍里的同学约好一起吃了，邹飞觉得两人已经过了一个愉快的上午，中午不必再死死纠缠，便一个人去吃饭。快吃完的时候，他远远地看见佟玥和几个女生走进食堂，之前一直在猜测佟玥有没有男朋友，这个画面让他安心了许多，打着嗝满足地离开了食堂。 邹飞再次和佟玥碰面，是在下一个周三下午的讲座上。有个德育专家，不知道是学校请来的，还是自己非得来，在电教阶梯教室有个讲座。长这么大，邹飞还不知道什么是讲座，就决定去听听。 讲座两点开始，邹飞睡过了，两点半才去，从后门进去，坐在最后一排。来的人倒是不少，教室里基本坐满了。 原来所谓的讲座，就是一个人在台上喷，甭管说的内容是否有用，一群人在台下傻听，觉得没劲了就趴桌上睡觉，或者写作业。从邹飞进门，专家就在讲他当知青插队时候的事儿，说晚上饿了就去偷老乡家的鸡；还有个别男同学不光偷鸡，还偷老乡的老婆，致使对方怀孕，生了个儿子，老乡以为是自己经过多年努力终于播种成功，摆了酒席，告诉全村人自己家的香火终于续上了。学生们开始搞不清这个专家到底是来教育还是来教唆学生的。 专家喝了口茶继续说，他们那时生活在一个荒诞的年代，做了许多荒唐事儿。当今这个时代回归理性了，人开始做人事儿了，但少了理想主义的色彩，他很怀念那段偷鸡摸狗的岁月。 邹飞不明白办这种讲座的目的何在，难道这就是大学生活丰富多彩的表现之一吗，人们难道就没点儿正经事儿可做吗？就在邹飞准备起身走的时候，一个女生在邹飞身旁的座位上坐下。 “真巧啊！”邹飞看着佟玥心里暗自高兴。 “又碰到你啦！”佟玥一扭脸见是邹飞，问道，“都讲什么了？” “讲只有干坏事儿才是对青春岁月最好的证明。”邹飞说，“我正准备走呢，你怎么这会儿才来？” “本来没打算来，正好路过，看下面贴着这儿有个讲座，就过来听听。”佟玥解开书包，掏出那本，“我看完了，给你看吧！” "Does it look good?" “还不错，我打算一会儿再去借几本塞林格的书。” “正好我也要去图书馆，一起去吧！”邹飞本来打算去找罗西他们踢球的。 德育专家对自己演讲的时候台下有人聊天很不满：“后面的那位男同学和那位女同学，有问题说出来大家一起交流，不要窃窃私语。” 邹飞没理他，对佟玥说：“走吧，别跟这儿耽误工夫了，一会儿图书馆关门了。” 说完两人站起来，准备走。 德育专家看见两人要走，又说：“既然你们来了，为什么不把讲座听完呢，你们要学会尊重人，国外的电影观众没有在中途退场的。” 邹飞停住，转过身：“我们没不尊重您，就是此时我俩需要窃窃私语，您又不让，为了不侵犯您的权利，我俩只好离开这儿，顺便告诉您一声，国外的电影观众不中途退场也因为电影本身好看，您慢慢讲着！”说完就和佟玥从后门出去了。 下了楼，见楼口贴着德育专家讲座的海报，人模狗样的照片印在上面，邹飞看着就来气：“有笔吗？我给他脸上画点儿东西。” “你都多大了，走吧！”佟玥拉着邹飞去了图书馆。 如果一个作家写了一本书，让人读到心里去了，这个作家将一辈子被人记在心里。塞林格就是一个这样的作家，让很多人记住了他，虽然这辈子没出几本书，作为一个码字的，有这么一本就够了。而很多作家，写的书等身高了，却没一句能让人记住的话。 一个人，喜欢上一个作家，会找来他的所有书看，可惜图书馆里塞林格的书都被借出去了，佟玥和邹飞空手而归。 没借到书，对邹飞来说是件好事儿，让他有了向佟玥表白的机会。他觉得，两人认识的时间也不短了，该让佟玥知道自己怎么想的了。他去图书大厦买了一本塞林格的《九故事》，然后写了一个纸条，内容如下：大学的生活挺没劲的，认识了你，觉得又有劲了。希望能经常和你一起上自习，一起挑食堂饭菜的毛病，一起去图书馆借书，将来再一起干点儿什么待定。如果你也恰好有这个愿望，或者愿意试着和我接触看看能不能产生这个愿望，那么明天晚上七点，学校礼堂门口见，有电影放，我有票。盼出现，不用忒早到，卡着点儿就行！ 写完把纸条夹在《九故事》里第一个故事结束第二个故事开始的那页，然后去找佟玥。 “我昨天没事儿，正好路过书店，买了这本书，给你吧！”邹飞把书交给佟玥。 “你看了吗？”佟玥拿过书翻了翻，纸条飘落下来，佟玥也没看见。 “我这鞋带怎么又开了！”邹飞赶紧蹲下，假装系鞋带，顺手把纸条攥在手里，“我那儿有《麦田守望者》，这本还没看。” “那我还是看完了给你看。”佟玥说着就要把书装进书包。 “等会儿。”邹飞赶紧把书抢了过来。 “怎么了？”佟玥很奇怪邹飞的反应。 邹飞把书翻了两遍，趁佟玥不备把纸条塞进书的前几页：“我看看是不是塞林格的那本书，别给你拿错了。” “封面不是很清楚吗！” “我看看里面是不是，别装订错了，上回我买了本王小波的书，结果回家一翻，里面都是色情描写。” “王小波的书就那样。”佟玥笑道。 “哦，是吗，那我孤陋寡闻了。”邹飞假装无知，“我一会儿还有课，老师点名，我先走了，书你拿回去慢慢看吧！”邹飞急急忙忙地假装往教室方向走，然后绕了一圈，准备回宿舍睡觉，不料途中又遇上佟玥。 “你不是上课去了吗？”佟玥拎着水壶准备去打水。 “书忘带了，回宿舍取一趟去。”邹飞只能编出这么一个借口。 “你怎么总忘带书啊！” “我也不知道我想什么呢！”邹飞观察佟玥的神态，看不出来她是否看到了纸条，又急于想知道结果，“书看了吗？” “哪儿那么快呀，回屋放下书拿上暖壶我就出来了。”佟玥说。 “那你慢慢看，我走了。”邹飞慌慌张张地回了宿舍。 宿舍里难得这么安静，老谢去医院做检查了，范文强昨天在网吧刷了一宿夜，这会儿还睡着，罗西进了校足球队，正在操场上训练，尚清华又去了自习室。本来邹飞打算回来睡个午觉，然后看会儿闲书，等待明天佟玥的出现，但是躺床上却怎么也睡不着，他已经开始幻想佟玥出现在他面前，然后两人手拉手坐在礼堂的黑暗中看电影的情景了。 对恋爱的憧憬，这种朦朦胧胧的感觉，比恋爱本身更迷人。恋爱一旦谈起来，就有许多具体事情要做，而这种憧憬，则完完全全是一种内心的甜蜜，无须任何行动，就足够让人兴奋了。 邹飞也想过换种表白方式，比如直接说，也不是不可以，就是觉得这么说太傻了：“我喜欢你，咱俩谈恋爱吧！”或者花五块钱去学校电视台点首MV，把自己要说的话在画面底下打上字幕。很多人都这么干，最后署个只有对方能猜出，别的同学看了一头雾水的名字，这被认为是一种浪漫的方式，但是邹飞始终不知道这事儿浪漫在什么地方。邹飞不是一个不正经的人，但不喜欢做什么事儿都一本正经，对什么事儿都志在必得的姿态挺招人讨厌的。他做好了两人的关系到此戛然而止的准备，既然大学生活如此让人失望的现状都接受了，就没有什么不能接受的了。