Chapter 46 Forty-six, it turns out that I am such a narrow-minded person

In the second year of high school, the year known as "heavy snow", time passed our fingers like a snap of the fingers.Because of that night on Central Street, the relationship between me and Liang Sheng became so alienated. Bei Xiaowu rented a hut near the school and moved out of the school dormitory.He said that it was too early to turn off the lights in the school dormitory, and he wanted to study hard and study for a while.I know he's not joking.I also know that he is for Xiaojiu.In the years of high school, we didn't know what kind of posture to embrace happiness.I just read a lot of stories, which have taught us that all happiness will be fulfilled when you are admitted to university.

Bei Xiaowu wanted to give Xiao Jiu a more solid shoulder, so he had to make his foundation more solid.And for the current him, the only thing he can do with this solidity is to study hard.It seems that there is no necessary logical relationship, but I can't find a better explanation, so let's leave it at that. Many times, when Bei Xiaowu was reading books, he would suddenly laugh out loud.He threw the grass on my lap, with a piece of green grass in his mouth, he said, hey, Jiang Sheng, tell me, if I really got admitted to college, what would Xiao Jiu say if he found out? I closed the book, looked at the empty playground, then looked at him, shaking my head.What will Xiao Jiu say?It has been more than a year, and there is no news of her. I dare not forget this girl who walked through my life wearing a set of themed suits. I dare not forget how lonely she looked when she was smoking, and how she shed tears when she was drinking.However, I dare not remember her exaggerated appearance when she spoke. I am afraid that when I think of her vivid expression when her eyebrows flutter, I will feel very sad.

Bei Xiaowu squinted his eyes and fell on the grass. The sun shone brightly on his wheat-colored skin. He smiled and said, Jiang Sheng, your grandma's is really a pig.I think so, my Xiaojiu would say this: Damn, Bei Xiaowu, I'm illiterate, and I'm dating a college student like you!Damn, am I not poisoning living beings?After finishing speaking, Bei Xiaowu laughed out loud, looking very happy.He looked up at me and said, Jiang Sheng, I have never heard any girl say the word "I rely on" as sweetly as Xiao Jiu, as if it was a flower blooming from her mouth. Bei Xiaowu is a fool, he thought he was grinning at me, but I couldn't see the redness around his eyes, and I couldn't see the scattered tears in the corners of his eyes.

I wanted to make him happy, so I patted him on the head with a book and said, cut, I thought Xiao Jiu would say, grandma’s Bei Xiaowu, is it your turn to popularize 16-year compulsory education in China? This pig head went to college! When Bei Xiaowu heard this, he grabbed my arm and pinched it severely. If it wasn't for the fact that the basketball court not far away was full of eye-catching little brothers, I would have been crying like hell.But for my huge dream of being a handsome guy, I had no choice but to watch my arm get swollen and swollen by this despicable guy named Bei Xiaowu.

Bei Xiaowu seemed very satisfied with his work, he said, hey, Jiang Sheng, look, it's swollen.You said that in the future, those bodybuilders don't have to work hard all day long, they all come to me, and I pinch each one a few times, and all of them swell up with muscle mass. I sneered, blowing air on my arm to reduce the swelling, glanced at the handsome guy on the basketball court, and had to free up my mouth to deal with Bei Xiaowu's stupid question, I said, damn, with your great IQ, you What kind of university do you still want to go to? I will develop a "Pinch Pinch" muscle gym after school this afternoon. Isn't this business popular all over the world?Then apply for a patent, and in the rest of your life, you will be the second Bill Gates.You don't have to worry about other things, just sit on the kang with your mother and count the banknotes.

After saying this, I realized how much I miss Xiao Jiu.Even the way he speaks has her taste.Although we have never had a close friendship, Xiao Jiu is the only girl who can go deep in my heart for so many years.I also believe that for Xiaojiu, I am equally important. However, Bei Xiaowu is really a villain. After hearing my praise, he didn't show mercy to me just because he looked like Xiaojiu. He stared at me for a long time, smiled, then stretched out his little paw, I had a hard pinch on the other arm. That whole day, I shrugged my arms like a big lobster and dangled around the campus, not to mention how embarrassing it was.

Sometimes, I would think that if Liang Sheng was by my side, he would definitely attack Bei Xiaowu.It was because Liang Sheng was not by my side that Bei Xiaowu dared to bully me so arrogantly. When I think of Liang Sheng, the corners of my mouth will turn up, with a faint arc, very ethereal; but there are two deep wrinkles between my brows, but I don't know it. On campus, I often see Liang Sheng, just watching from a distance.If it was before, I would always run up to him happily, call him brother with a bright voice, and then make trouble for him heartlessly for a while.But now, if we meet, we will talk and talk and laugh as if nothing happened.But it's always the insignificant, innocuous things.

It turned out that I was such a narrow-minded person.Never walked out of that midnight, never walked out of that sad street.I can't get over the mistrust that Liang Sheng gave me and the hurt that Wei Young gave me. Liang Sheng that day, Wei Young that day, and the sculpture of the little girl on Zhongxin Street that day seem to be vivid in my memory.That night I went back to the dormitory, crying beside Jin Ling.I cursed Wei Young, blamed Liang Sheng for his distrust, blamed Bei Xiaowu for his dishonesty, cried loudly, with tears all over his face, as if the whole world had failed me.Only I didn't apologize to Jinling, it seems that my throat is particularly stingy with the word "sorry".Or, I am afraid that these three words are too hypocritical.

Jinling also felt sad with me, and gave me face wash. She said, you can believe whatever others say, Jiang Sheng, are you a pig?Then put a large towel over my face and wipe it gently. Until now, I have never said "sorry" to Jinling.However, I believe that everyone knows how guilty I am.I also believe that many people have been so self-willed; they have hurt their friends.Sorry or sorry, will it make them feel sad when they say it?It's better to just stay in your heart like this and let yourself feel sad slowly. Jin Ling chose liberal arts, the same as Liang Sheng and Wei Young.I chose science. Since I studied politics in junior high school, I vowed to get rid of this "slurred" subject that made my life worse than death.Later, I got my wish.Bei Xiaowu ridiculed me that my brain is in the rectum and I can't turn.

This disgusting broken metaphor has me in a state of nausea for a week. When the life of the second year of high school whizzed by, I realized that time is really like running water, and it will always go quietly.A lot of time, a lot of people, can only exist in memory forever, and gradually fade into an image, even if this reality will make you painful.However, after all, time goes by. For example, on the Weijiaping Grassland, the little boy named Liang Sheng used to protect a little girl named Jiang Sheng like a hen. This disgusting broken metaphor has me in a state of nausea for a week.