Chapter 33 Thirty-three, Jiang Sheng, you have seen how bad and what a bad girl I am

The day before Xiaojiu left, it was raining lightly in Weijiaping.At that time, I didn't know that after the rainy day, when the rainbow hung over the Qingshui River, it was the day we parted. At that time, Xiao Jiu asked me, Jiang Sheng, do you have any wine? I said, there is none at home, if you want to drink, I will buy it for you at the canteen. Xiaojiu and I didn't go home after buying wine, but went to the sour jujube grove.The rain was pouring down, soaking our hair. Xiao Jiu asked me, Jiang Sheng, do you feel that in many cases, the better a person treats you, the more guilty you will be?

I thought about it and nodded.Once, I hurt Liang Sheng with a lunch box, but Liang Sheng didn't blame me; I lost my temper at him and complained that his mother ruined my mother's life happiness, but he just stood there stupidly, not making a sound. No reply.Of course, I didn't say these things, they have already scalded my heart, and I don't want them to scald my tongue and lips again. Xiao Jiu said, the better that idiot Bei Xiaowu treats me, the more guilty I will be.The more he looks at me, the more my heart hurts, so, Jiang Sheng, I have to leave. After she finished speaking, she slowly raised the wine bottle, and I listened quietly to the sound of beer sliding down her throat.

Xiao Jiu said, Jiang Sheng, in fact, I don't want to drink, smoke, fight, or drive fast.There are many times, looking at you, looking at Jinling, looking at Weiyang, looking at little girls like you, I think, if, if, when I was six years old, my mother didn't leave me, now, am I also like you Same, with hair cut like vermicelli in clear soup, with a pair of warm little hands, will you secretly blush when you see a boy you like?But, Jiang Sheng, all these youthful beauties are far away from me. Even if I see the boy I like, I can only act carelessly and frivolously like a little girl.I have so much bad past.One day, I had a dream that I was covered in dirty mud, I washed and washed, but no matter how much I washed, it couldn't get rid of it, I rubbed my skin until it was red , until they peeled off and I saw my own bones, I realized that I was so dirty, it wasn't the mud that made me dirty, but I made the mud dirty!

After finishing speaking, she gulped down the wine, then laughed, wiped the foam from the corners of her mouth, and recited indulgently: the green wine bottle, the pink lips, where they meet, are those fleeting youth, They just left so gorgeously, leaving only poor Xiaojiu, and poor tears, shedding and shedding... I looked at her dancing body stupidly, at a loss.Xiao Jiu smiled at me. In the rain, her hair was no longer fluffy, but it was so softly attached to her ears.I said, Xiao Jiu, stop drinking, if I knew you were like this, I wouldn't buy you wine. Xiaojiu brought her face close to my eyes, and showed me her red eyes with her hands. She said, Jiang Sheng, you are so annoying. I don’t drink, how can I shed tears? Without tears, how can I tell you the following Sad story.

At that time, neither Xiaojiu nor I noticed that Bei Xiaowu was running happily. Xiao Jiu leaned her head on my shoulder, and she said, Jiang Sheng, look, I have lost all my tears, I need to drink some wine and replenish my water so that I can cry.Jiang Sheng, when I came to your house, I realized that we are really sisters with the same fate.Your father abandoned you and your mother, but my mother abandoned me and my father. I timidly asked, Xiao Jiu, didn't you say that your mother died when you were six years old? Xiao Jiu threw the wine bottle on the ground, picked up another bottle and continued to drink, she said, Jiang Sheng, you are just a silly girl, you will believe whatever others say.Did Cheng Tianyou say that if he likes you, you really consider yourself his true destiny!Stupid!After speaking, she poked my head straight with her finger.

My face turned red, and I whispered, Xiao Jiu, what nonsense are you talking about! Xiao Jiu looked at me unsteadily, smiled, and she said, Jiang Sheng, you know why I like you, because I think you, like Bei Xiaowu, are very stupid, stupid and stubborn.Jiang Sheng, I know what you're thinking, but I won't say it, I'm afraid you will hurt. I said, Xiao Jiu, you're drunk, let's go home and wait for Bei Xiaowu to bring us scallion pancakes and Meilin's roast chicken. Jiang Sheng shook his head, I don't want to eat it, I just want to eat the leek dumplings made by my mother, she cried after she finished speaking, she said, Jiang Sheng, I would rather she died when I was six years old!Over the years, I hated her hated her!But, Jiang Sheng, I really want to have a mother, I want to act like a baby with her, ask her for beautiful clothes, and let her dress me up like you little girls... As she spoke, her tears and snot flowed Together.

She said, Jiang Sheng, I have a secret that I must tell you before I leave, but you must keep it for me.Be sure to keep it safe for me. I nod. Xiao Jiu stopped crying, threw away the wine bottle, wiped away her tears, and quietly looked at Weijiaping's playground. She said, when I was six years old, my mother ran away with other men, leaving me and my father behind.Later, when I grew up, I found the man who took my mother away and slept with him! I looked at Xiao Jiu stupidly, and Xiao Jiu laughed, I know I am shameless and mean, but I hate my mother!I want her to know that that man doesn't take her seriously!I wanted to make her suffer, to make her feel how miserable it was for me to live thinking and longing for her all these ten years!But she told me so calmly, she said she knew that man had never been divorced, but she just liked him, there was nothing she could do.Speaking of this, Xiao Jiu cried again. She said, from now on, I have been fooling around with all kinds of men, and I treat myself as a chicken!I treat myself as a piece of trash discarded by her!Until I met Bei Xiaowu...

When she called Bei Xiaowu's name, her voice was trembling, she said, Jiang Sheng, only Bei Xiaowu never took advantage of me.He just likes me as a pure girl, but, Jiang Sheng, you can see how bad and what a bad girl I am... After Xiao Jiu finished speaking, she stayed quietly in the rain, like a homeless child.After such a long silence, she said, "Jiang Sheng, in fact, I always wanted to ask her, would she be sad when she thinks of me after leaving me for so many years?"After speaking, she looked up at me, and her expression became extremely complicated for a moment. I turned around, only to see Bei Xiaowu standing beside us in a daze, the rain slipped from his hair without a sound, and he was carrying two big bags of things in his hand.Because Xiaojiu complained to him yesterday that Liangsheng always boiled noodles, so he ran to the county early this morning to buy Meilin roast chicken and scallion pancakes for Xiaojiu.