Chapter 9 Chapter 8 Breakup VS Turnaround

Do you love me? I don't have much luggage, I just need a simple suitcase. I don't know what kind of mood I packed my luggage, and I don't know what kind of mood I walked out of the house. I was like a puppet with only a body but lost its soul, I only knew that I had to pack up and leave before Zheng Yaye chased him back, otherwise I would definitely not be able to make up my mind to leave him! The elevator door closed slowly, and the number slowly changed from large to small. When the number on the elevator finally stopped on "1", the elevator door in front of it opened!

Looking at the elevator doors opening little by little, I was stunned.Because when the elevator door was opened little by little, the person outside the elevator door gradually appeared in my sight little by little. Impossible, the Ferris wheel should rotate in the sky for an hour, that person shouldn't come back so soon.That person should not have appeared in front of me at this time.However, he showed up!At this moment, the elevator door has been fully opened, and Zheng Yaye is completely in my line of sight. "Where are you going?" He asked, looking at the luggage in my hand.

I couldn't look him in the eyes, or look at his face.At this moment, there was no anger on his face, perhaps because the anxiety on his face had covered his anger. "Zheng Yaye, let's break up!" I lowered my head and whispered. Although my voice was very small, I was sure he heard it, because I clearly felt his body shake. He pursed his lips tightly when he heard what I said, and said nothing. The atmosphere was so tense that it almost took my breath away.I don't know what else to say or do at a time like this!Because, at such moments, it seems that no matter what I say or do, it seems so superfluous.So, I can only choose to be silent and leave.

I pulled up the suitcase and was about to leave, but he blocked me. "Tell me, what's the matter?" His voice was trembling, as if he was trying to suppress some kind of emotion that was about to explode. What happened?I don't even know this question. "We are not suitable." I must be a crybaby, I have shed so many tears, but why do I still feel that some warm things have gathered in my eye sockets at this moment? I want to keep good memories, so I can't cry now.If you cry, you really can't leave. "What nonsense are you talking about! I don't think we are inappropriate at all!" Because of his anxiety, his cheeks were a little red, he reached out and grabbed my shoulder, and shook me vigorously, "Something must have happened, right? ?”

Seeing his sad expression, I wanted to confess for a moment.However, I chose not to say it after all.I don't want him to know that I'm afraid that he will break the contract for me, I don't want him to ruin his career for me, and I don't want him to find out one day that I'm not worth it. "No, nothing happened! I just don't think we are suitable." I clenched my fists, trying hard to be unfeeling.But I know that for him, I can't do it. "What doesn't suit you, tell me! Tell me, I...will change it." His words were full of powerlessness, but it was the words full of powerlessness that gave me a tingling feeling in my heart.Yes, it really hurts!Zheng Yaye is such a proud person, but at this moment he said such words!If what happened today hadn't happened, maybe I would have been very moved, touched by his willingness to change for me.But at this moment, besides being moved, I was more shocked and sad.What makes me sad is that until now, I found out that this guy still has such a side, but when I found out, I was about to give up on him.

"It's too late! I have chosen to leave you! So, let go!" I lowered my head, not wanting him to see the teardrops on my face at this moment. "Han Xiaojie..." His hand slipped from my shoulder, and the powerlessness made me feel scared. "Zheng Yaye, leave while we still have good memories of each other. This choice is the best for you and me!" My voice was obviously choked. "No! Such a choice is not good at all! If you want good memories, we will have more in the future, why leave?" He became hysterical. A guy who is usually so calm, I can't imagine a time when he loses control like this.

after?What a beautiful word it sounds!However, such a beautiful vocabulary will not belong to me, and I am not worthy of such beauty. "Zheng Yaye! There is no future, just now, let me go in style!" I picked up the luggage at my feet, walked around him, and prepared to leave again. Just as I was on his right side, he suddenly grabbed my hand. "Don't leave..." His voice was small, but obviously imploring.The hand he grabbed me was slowly clenched, because it was too tight, so my hand was aching. "Zheng Yaye..." For a moment, my heart softened.I want to stay, stay by his side no matter what, even if it means betraying the whole world.I want to stay and tell him that the reason why I left is not because his status as a big star is more dazzling than mine, not because his appearance is more beautiful than mine, nor because he has more than I have, but because... …I love him more than he can ever imagine.

However, I did not do so after all. Leaving is the best ending I chose for him and me, so I must learn to bear such an ending. "Let me go!" My voice trembled uncontrollably.When I said these four words, my tears kept sliding down my cheeks.My face was full of tears, I didn't reach out to wipe it, but let the tears run rampant on my face. Because of my four words, the hand that was holding me gradually became weak. He finally let go of my hand. My mood has become very complicated at this moment.In fact, I don't want him to let go of my hand at all!If he had been holding my hand so tightly, perhaps in the end, I might really have stayed!However, he did not hold my hand after all.

My hand gradually slipped from his. Just like the slow motion in a TV series, I can almost see the process of my fingers slipping from his hand one by one.I could feel his reluctance and despair, but no matter how slow the speed was, my hand still slipped. He didn't hold my hand after all, and I missed him like this after all. I walked out of the apartment step by step, leaving step by step. Summer storms always come suddenly, and I stand blankly in the heavy rain, at a loss. My tears kept flowing down my cheeks, mixed with the rainwater, so I couldn't tell what was left on my cheeks at this moment!I squatted on the spot weakly, the rain was getting bigger and bigger, and the raindrops hit my body, which made me feel a pain.

Why does the weather have to be so bad when you are sad?According to my plan, I should leave home to find my brother, but why am I hesitating at this moment, because there is no way to lift my foot? Just when I was in a daze, not knowing what to do, suddenly, the rain stopped.I looked up reflexively, and saw a large black umbrella appear above my head. This is... I turned around and found that Zheng Yaye was standing outside the umbrella, dripping wet. I looked at him as if I were looking at a god. "You..." I looked at this person who suddenly appeared behind me in surprise, at a loss, and then became joyful, with different emotions entangled in my heart.

Maybe I'm really not a person who can be ruthless. The moment I saw him, I had the urge to hug him tightly. Obviously we just broke up, and we broke up for less than 10 minutes, but why do I miss him so much at this moment?It seemed that those 10 minutes just now were as long as a lifetime. I suddenly looked at the person who suddenly appeared in front of me, but he didn't show any expression in the rain. Is it because the rain is too cold?I could feel the coldness emanating from Zheng Yaye's whole body.That feeling is familiar to me. That should be my impression of him when we first met.At that time, he had no expression, no emotion, what he had was just the coldness that resisted people thousands of miles away. Suddenly, I had a feeling that the person in front of me might no longer be the Zheng Yaye I like!The person in front of me seemed to have returned to the feeling of not having me in his life.Feeling his change, I suddenly fell into an inexplicable panic. Obviously it was my choice, but I was still so sad to see him forget me and abandon me in front of me. There must be very few fools like me in this world, right?I made a choice, but after seeing the outcome of my choice happen as I expected, I am so heartbroken. "I will, leave..." He said suddenly when I looked at him sadly. "Zheng Yaye..." I didn't know how to react to his words, I just called his name in a daze. "If I leave, your life will return to the original place, right? If this is the result you want, I will leave. But, before I leave, please give me the answer." His voice mixed with the sound of raindrops together, somewhat blurred. "Answer?" I met his eyes. Because of the tears, because of the rain, I couldn't see what kind of emotion was mixed in his eyes. "Why do you want to separate?" His tone was full of determination. The rain hit his face and body, and the long white T-shirt was tightly stuck to his body because of the rain, making his not-so-strong body look even thinner. Should I tell him?can i tell him "Just give me a reason, a real reason, and I'll leave." His voice was so calm that I was a little confused. The real reason?I looked up at the man standing in the rain.In such pouring rain, his figure looked so thin but also so lonely.Suddenly, I miss the warmth that occasionally appears on his face. "If I said that I left you because I liked you, would you believe me?" I said at a loss. He looked at me, and in the rain, my eyes met his, and we just looked into each other's eyes so silly.I tried hard to find the answer he gave me on his face, but I couldn't see clearly. Hearing my words, there was warmth in his cold eyes again. Although the tenderness was only fleeting, it also made my heart beat. "I... believe you! As long as you open your mouth, I will believe you! As long as you say yes, then I will believe you." His tone was very firm, and that firmness made my heart so strong in such a rainy night not calm. He grabbed my cold hand, handed the umbrella into my hand, squeezed it tightly, and then he turned and left. Why didn't he keep asking me?He left because he liked it, didn't he feel puzzled by such a contradictory answer?Maybe he has seen the real reason why I left him, so he turned and left my world without saying anything.Did he decide to give up too?But why is his back so firm? I watched his thin and slender figure gradually disappear into the rain curtain until the whole world was filled with misty rain and fog.The warmth left by him still remains on the handle of the umbrella in my hand, which makes me feel that he has not completely left my world.Tears welled up from my eyes again.I held the umbrella handle tightly, trying to catch the last trace of him, but the temperature will always dissipate, my palm gradually became cold, and the last breath belonging to Zheng Yaye also disappeared. I finally understand that the short love between me and him has completely ended. Zheng Yaye, thank you for bringing me this beautiful memory. This memory will become the best part of my life, and I will never forget it.Thank you for letting go chicly and fulfilling my somewhat cowardly love. Zheng Yaye, I love you! After an unnamed DVD, I never saw Zheng Yaye again.Perhaps, it was because of his word "believe" that my life returned to peace.However, this calm makes me a little sad.Because while gaining this peace, Zheng Yaye also truly disappeared in my life, disappeared cleanly and without a trace. In the six months since he disappeared, my life has also undergone great changes. I never thought that a big star would appear in my life, and I never thought that his appearance and disappearance were so sudden, let alone that that one appeared in my life and then disappeared People who would make me so sad. So, I started to miss. I will paste his posters all over the room, I will replace the background of the computer screen with his image, I will replace the QQ avatar with his photo, I will replace the ringtone with his song, and I will go to bed on time every day, I consciously wash up every day, clean up the room every now and then, and stand under the Ferris wheel every time I pass by the park.Of course, these are nothing, my biggest change is actually - I started to lose weight. Because of his departure, and because of the heavy rain that fell when he left, I fell seriously ill, with a high fever that turned into pneumonia.People say that fever is burning fat. I don’t know if it’s true, or maybe it’s just because of a serious illness. Anyway, after this rapid rise in body temperature, my excess fat really disappeared. .Looking at those loose clothes in the past, I feel a little uncomfortable in my heart. Even I have changed, so what about Zheng Yaye?Perhaps he will become more? Although I can still see him occasionally on TV, although I feel that his handsome face has not changed at all, but that kind of gentle feeling seems to never appear on his face again.His face without any superfluous expressions in the show sometimes makes me feel very strange, just like that gentle Zheng Yaye is just a person in my memory, just a character I made up. "Xiao Jie, come out to eat!" Just as I was staring at the photo of Zheng Yaye on the computer screen in a daze, a gentle male voice came from outside the room. "Got it!" I closed the computer, got up and walked to the door of the room. Every time I stand in front of the door, I always wonder if, the next moment I open the door, I will see Zheng Yaye sitting leisurely at the dining table reading an unknown book ?Could it be that the moment I opened the door, I would see Zheng Yaye cleaning the room? I have imagined countless possibilities, but in the end they all failed because Zheng Yaye did not show up.Every time I think of this, there is a feeling of emptiness in my heart, as if a certain place in my heart has been hollowed out. I opened the door and saw a table full of delicious food.If it was changed to before, I would definitely rush over excitedly.But now, the high fever seems to have burned a lot of my good appetite. "Xiao Jie, what are you in a daze for? Hurry up and eat!" Just as I was sighing at the delicious food on the table, a gentle voice suddenly came from my ear. Turning around, I saw a handsome face.Although it is a handsome face, compared with Zheng Yaye, there is still a little gap. "Okay, brother." That's right, this boy with a handsome face is my brother, Han Xiansheng.He is also the nanny spy sent by my dear parents to monitor my life after I fell ill.As long as I have any abnormal situation, such as eating an extra piece of steamed bun or drinking half a glass of water, he will immediately report to my parents. "Eat more!" At the dining table, my brother kept adding vegetables to my bowl as he said. "Brother, that's enough!" Looking at the various chicken, duck and fish meat in the bowl that was about to become a hill, I said depressedly. "You need to eat more! Look at you, you are so skinny now!" My brother said nervously. How skinny am I now?It's just an average figure, right? I ate the dishes in the bowl depressed. "What's the matter? Isn't this your favorite dish?" My brother couldn't help asking when he saw that I was tasteless. "Probably because of the season change, so I don't have much appetite." I whispered. "Is it lack of appetite or mood?" Hearing what I said, my brother suddenly put down his chopsticks and asked me solemnly. There was obvious concern in his brother's eyes.I have been facing this kind of concern these days, which makes me unconsciously feel guilty in my heart-I am a little overwhelmed by the concern of my family. "Brother, don't deliberately mean something." I lowered my head, not looking at my brother's expression. "What's the matter? What happened to make you become what you are now?" Finally, my brother couldn't bear to ask—maybe he was afraid of hurting me, and he didn't ask me directly before. "Nothing!" I said with a smile. I tried to smile, but it was obvious that I was having a hard time laughing.After all, my smile is so powerless now. "It's nothing! Look at your smile, every time I see it, I feel sad, and I feel that the heartless girl from before is gone." There was a bit of sadness in the brother's tone. I don't know how to answer my brother's words. yes!Zheng Yaye took away the heartless me, leaving only the me who is so pale even with a smile. "Brother, what is a heartless dead girl? I'm also your sister! How can you describe me like that?" Because I didn't know how to answer my brother's words, I had to change the subject quickly. "Alas..." My brother looked at me, at me with a smirk all over his face, and after a long time, he let out a sigh. Hearing my brother's sigh, I felt very uncomfortable in my heart. "Brother, if you sigh often, you will grow old quickly." I said playfully. "You girl!" Brother's tone was full of helplessness and compromise. This is the warmth of family, right?Knowing that you don't want to talk about it, even if you are curious, you will still refrain from asking.It was my brother's tolerance that made me breathe a sigh of relief. "Ah! That's right! Someone put a CD in the mailbox today, it seems to be for you." Suddenly, my brother took out a CD from nowhere and handed it to me. Looking at this CD, I was depressed.Show up in my mailbox?I haven't bought any messy things on the Internet recently?So this is... wait a minute, a disc? Suddenly, the image of the hair covering the whole face, wearing a robe made of long white sheets, crawling out of the TV bit by bit appeared in my head. Could this be the CD brought by Aunt Sadako? what!That's really something to watch!I have long wanted to see the real version of Sadako, but I really never had the chance!Anyway, I am also the legendary Han Bold!This kind of foreign little monster still can't scare me. I was thinking for a while, after Sadako came out, should I take off her hair first to see her Sadako's face?Or should I first ask her if the TV is crowded or not?While thinking about this question, I got up and put the CD into the DVD player. I turned on the TV, pressed the DVD play button, and the picture slowly appeared on the TV. The moment I saw the TV screen, I was stunned. The remote control I was holding slipped from my hand and fell to the ground. I didn't bother to pick it up, but just stared at the TV screen stupidly. Ferris wheel! In the dark night, the surroundings are so dim, only the Ferris wheel shines like a beautiful star in the dark night sky.No, this Ferris wheel is a star.The lights in the turntable of the Ferris wheel just appear in the shape of stars.The flickering lights gave the night a different brilliance. Seeing this Ferris wheel, I suddenly recalled the pictures I had experienced. "How did you write the book "Love Like a Star"?" "That book! It came to my mind when I was walking one night and saw the Ferris wheel. At that time, I happened to see a man and woman arguing, but they could make up after a while! Then, the light of the Ferris wheel suddenly turned on Yes, it feels like the Ferris wheel is blessing them, at that time, the lights in the turntable of the Ferris wheel happened to be in the shape of stars.” "Star?" "Have you seen "Meteor Garden"? The Ferris wheel that day was like a necklace given to Shancai by Daoming Temple. There is a shining star in the middle, and there is a shining halo around the star." Is it him?It must be him, right? It turned out that he still remembered!Remember my words, remember my favorite Ferris wheel... Ferris wheel, that is the memory between me and him.Even now, I still think, if I really chose to sit on that Ferris wheel with him at that time, would it be different?Although, I know that the problem between me and him does not appear on the Ferris wheel at all, but sometimes I can't help but think so. Just as I was staring at the Star Ferris Wheel that appeared on TV, the sound of music suddenly came to my ears. The shallow melody contained a little sadness and helplessness.A low-alcohol, delicious voice like red wine slowly sounded along with the music. With the silence of the night, trap your heart and mine. Some feelings, not everyone can explain. Because of love, it gave us too many difficulties, missed the beautiful scenery, and lost ourselves. I want to simply love you and untie my depressed heart. Some sadness, not everyone can explain. Your tears are colder than mine, and I swear to be more courageous to protect you. The stars in the sky, shining on the Ferris wheel, will you be by my side? Some wounds heal themselves, and your smile is the light that shines through me.The stars in the sky, shining on the Ferris wheel, will you be by my side? I want to see your warm face, and sad, same eyes. The music is over, but the mellow voice like red wine keeps circling in my mind and ringing in my ears. The picture on the TV is still going on, like the spinning Ferris wheel, it seems that there is no end and it will not end. "I want to give you the most beautiful Ferris wheel in the world, but I don't want you to sit on the Ferris wheel and be sad alone. So, I write this song for you. I want to tell you that as long as there is you, 3000 Wan doesn't matter to me, even if I give up my career for you, it doesn't matter to me, as long as I have you, Han Xiaojie." Just as I was staring at the Star Ferris Wheel on TV, the sound came out again sound. Without warning, I felt an irregular cold mark on my cheek.The coldness gave me a long-lost feeling. It's really Zheng Yaye. Because of this passage, I can already confirm that Zheng Yaye really put in this disc.That Zheng Yaye I love!That Zheng Yaye who loves me! It turns out that he knows everything!He was willing to give up his career for me!It turns out that not only I can give everything for this love, but he can too!I suddenly felt so stupid, why didn't I have more confidence in him?Our relationship is not destroyed by external force, but by my own fragility! "It seems that this is the reason for your change." Just as I was crying, I handed over a tissue with one hand. I took the tissue paper and looked at my brother with tears in my eyes. "Brother..." There was an obvious cry in my voice. "We Xiaojie have grown up, are we in love?" Brother whispered. Facing my brother's question, I didn't know how to answer, so I could only look up at my brother foolishly. "If you don't want to talk about feelings, then I won't ask any more in the future. Because knowing some things may make you even more sad. However, brother can feel that the person who gave you this CD is important to you. It's different! And you treat him differently! I don't know what you are running away from, and I don't know what happened to you. However, I think if you are willing to work hard, all difficult things may pass." The elder brother seemed to say such words in comfort. Looking at the smile on my brother's face, my heart fluctuated differently at this moment.Will everything pass if we just let it?At this moment, can I still recover this lost love?This love that was abandoned by myself... "Who is singing my song, that loneliness, no one can grasp; who is singing my song, that weakness, you have never experienced it at all." Suddenly, the phone in his pocket rang loudly. He took out his mobile phone and looked at the display on the screen. It was an unfamiliar number. Could it be him?The moment I saw this strange number, my heartbeat was completely messed up.Why did he disappear for half a year, but when he reappeared, he shocked me in such a way?What is he trying to do? The bell echoed in my ears over and over again, and I didn't know how to react.If it is really him, what should I do?If it is really him, what should I say?If it was really him, what would he say to me?Finally, I took a deep breath and pressed the answer button with a trembling thumb. "Hello?" A familiar and gentle voice came from the other end of the phone. In an instant, my suspended heart fell to the ground and was shattered.It's not him, it's not him, although it's familiar, it's not his voice. "You are?" There was doubt in my voice, but it should be more disappointment, right? "I'm Ming Qizhe." The person on the other end of the phone said. Ming Qizhe?Such a familiar name!I searched for memories in my head... Suddenly, a fat figure with a face like a Disney cartoon appeared in my head. It's him?If there is no problem with my memory, after Zheng Yaye left, I have already handed over the matter of making novels and TV series to my dear editor!Then what is he looking for me for? "Hello." Although I don't know what it is, I still greeted politely. "The main reason for calling you is to tell you that "Love is Like a Star" has been wrapped! Tonight is the wrap-up reception, I hope you can come!" Is it finished? I always feel that "Love Is Like the Stars" is going to be filmed, it was just yesterday, but now it's already finished? "I, I..." If it was a finale reception, he would definitely meet Zheng Yaye, right?Although the CD of the Star Ferris Wheel moved me very much, even if he said he didn't care about the 30 million things, I still don't know how to face him, I don't know how to face Zheng Yaye, who I love so much people. I am such a contradictory creature. Just now I expected that the person calling would be Zheng Yaye, but now I am afraid to see him again. "Don't worry, because today is Xiao Ye's concert, so he won't come." Ming Qizhe seemed to know my concerns, and said.Should I say that this director named Ming Qizhe is empathetic?How did he know about me and Zheng Yaye?Why do I always feel that there is something weird about this matter? Although puzzled, I still did not ask.After all, some things are embarrassing once asked! "Then I..." Although it was true that I didn't want to go because of Zheng Yaye, I didn't want Ming Qizhe to feel it. "After all, you are the original creator, and you didn't participate in the production of the whole play. If you don't come to the finale reception, it seems a bit unreasonable." Seeing that I still don't want to go, the person on the other end of the phone said immediately. "I...Okay! I'll go!" I agreed after thinking about it. Anyway, there is no Zheng Yaye, so there is no embarrassment. "Well! That's it! Ah, that's right! I've asked the stylist to help you fix it, and I'll be at your house in about two minutes!" After finishing speaking, the person on the other end of the phone hung up before I could answer. Telephone. This... what's the situation?I looked at the phone that had been hung up in confusion. "Sure enough, I lost a lot of weight." As early as when I was staring at the phone in a daze, suddenly, a deep voice sounded beside me. I reflexively looked towards the source of the voice. A well-dressed boy appeared in front of my eyes. At this moment, I felt that I actually knew a lot of handsome guys, such as the one in front of me.Isn't he the stylist in the inexplicable stylist that Zheng Yaye took me to? Just now, the stylist mentioned by Ming Qizhe is this guy, right? "Well, how did you come in?" Although he knew this guy would come two minutes ago, wouldn't it be too scary to appear so suddenly? "Han Xiansheng opened the door for me." He shrugged and said. "You know my brother?" I looked at the person in front of me in confusion, and by the way, I glanced at my brother who was "looking left and right". "Uh, I don't know!" While he was speaking, there was a trace of embarrassment on his face that could not be noticed. "Then how do you know my brother's name?" I asked strangely. He visibly froze. "Uh, that's because, that's because your name is Miss Han, and your brother must be called Mr. Han!" He blushed and said such a sentence. "Then how do you know he is my brother?" I asked strangely again. "That, this, because, because you look like a family!" He seemed to be unable to find any good excuses! The editor often teaches me that if you can't tell a lie, then don't tell a lie.I think this sentence is very suitable for the person in front of me. It seems that this guy will never admit that he knows my dear brother, so there is no need for me to continue asking, otherwise, I don’t know what more amazing lies this person in front of me will tell. I looked sideways at the embarrassed elder brother, and concluded in my heart: These two people must know each other!But why would they refuse to admit that they knew each other? My head can't help but start imagining many possibilities. Is my brother also learning how to style?Because of poor study, both of them felt too embarrassed, so they pretended not to know each other?No, I never imagined that my brother would be interested in makeup.Oh, I feel that these two people are hiding a lot of things from me, there is a conspiracy! "Although I've lost weight, my demented look still hasn't changed at all! Hurry up! There's no time!" When I was imagining all kinds of possibilities, the stylist interrupted me viciously, pushing I walked into my room and threw me a light blue dress and a pair of white high heels for me to change into. After the door of the room was closed, I looked at the little dress in my hand.That guy is a magician, right?He obviously didn't bring anything when he talked to me just now, so where did this little dress come from? Of course, none of the above surprised me the most. What surprised me the most was that when I put on this little dress, it was just right? What's the situation now?Why is this little dress so appropriate?Even if he can detect my figure visually, wouldn't it be too strange to conjure clothes that match my figure in an instant? As I was thinking, I looked at me in the mirror in the light blue dress. So, if you lose weight, you will be beautiful no matter what.I looked at the person in the mirror. He had fair skin and a slender figure. With a light blue slim dress, he looked quite harmonious.This little dress is not gorgeous, but it makes me look very elegant when I wear it. The light blue fabric is inlaid with broken diamonds, and there are inconspicuous lace trims all over the body of the dress, probably because of the lace trim. , let this dress have a little cute feeling in the elegance.Paired with those white high heels, it seems to be able to accentuate my figure even more. I changed my clothes and walked out of the room.The moment I opened the door, I saw my brother and the stylist were chatting, but when I walked out of the room, the two of them turned their heads to the sides at lightning speed, as if trying to cover up the relationship between the two. Personally, the pleasant chat atmosphere just now.Looking at the two dodgy people, I am even more sure that these two people must be hiding something.I carefully observed the two people in front of me, trying to find a little bit of clues from their actions and states.However, the two of them did nothing but looked up at the ceiling. I don't understand, when did the ceiling of our house look so beautiful? "Hey, that, the clothes still fit! Haha!" The stylist's tone was a little embarrassed. So, watching others embarrassing is the happiest time!Looking at them who behaved so awkwardly in front of me, I feel inexplicably happy. "Yes! It fits well!" I said with a smile while looking at the two awkward people with strange eyes. "Cough, it's getting late! Hurry up and get your hair and face makeup done!" Probably because I felt uncomfortable watching, the stylist changed the subject unnaturally. “好！”我的声音里面带着满满的笑意。 虽然那个造型师的样子有的时候真的是很窘迫，但不可否认的是，那个家伙的手还真是神奇。在他那修长的手指运作之下，我的原本那平凡的脸被装饰得异常精致。我从来都不知道，原来我的眼睛是这么大，而戴上淡蓝色的美瞳，感觉上好像有了一种异国的特色。鼻子两旁因为打了暗影的原因，显得特别高挺。嘴唇上似乎是抹了什么晶莹的东西，感觉上粉粉嫩嫩的有一些透明的感觉，让我不禁联想到了草莓口味的果冻。我原本不太服帖的头发被盘起，露出了我还算是纤细的脖子。 当我看到镜子里面的那个人时，我甚至已经开始怀疑，那个人是不是我了。 “好了！大功告成！现在赶紧去吧！”造型师一边收拾着桌子上面的化妆品，一边说着。 去吧？是要去哪里啊？那个明齐哲导演，刚刚电话挂得那么急，连在什么地方举行杀青酒会都没有告诉我，那我是要去什么地方啊？ “我送你去好了！”一旁的哥哥不知道什么时候已经穿戴整齐站在我旁边了。 “可是……”我不知道要到什么地方去啊？ “不要可是啦！快走！” 还不等我有所反应，哥哥已经拉着我走出了家门。 哥哥的车在一座不知名的酒店下面停住了。我并没有多余的经历去观赏眼前这间豪华的大酒店，而是把全部的目光投向了哥哥。 我都不知道的杀青酒会地点，为什么哥哥会知道呢？而且，我从头到尾都没有跟哥哥说我要来酒会的事情，为什么他会知道？ “你，你怎么这样看着我？”似乎是感觉到了我疑惑的眼神，哥哥怯怯地开了口。 “哥，你不觉得你今天的行为有些怪吗？说吧，你们到底在搞什么鬼？”我审视着眼前有些心虚的哥哥。 “很怪吗？”哥哥极其不自然地说。 我很坚定地点了点头。 “呼……”看到我用力的点头，哥哥长长地出了一口气。 “筱洁你听我说，哥哥现在这么做都是希望你能够幸福！现在不要问我到底怎么了，或者是发生什么了，只要相信哥哥就好。”哥哥一口气说了这么一段让我费解的话。 happiness?believe?哥哥到底在说什么啊？ “好了！筱洁，快点去吧！” 哥哥说着，将我推下了车。然后，好像是害怕我返回似的，在我下车的一瞬间他就将车开走了。 全世界都无所谓我走进这间装饰得金碧辉煌的大饭店，说明来意后按照服务生的指示，来到了一间挂着表演厅牌子的房间外。 我站在门外，心跳莫名地加快。 幸福，相信，哥哥的话里面究竟隐藏着什么？他的意思是，我会在今晚遇见自己的幸福吗？难道说，在这间房间里面，我会遇到久违了的那个人？ 我深吸了一口气，平静了一下因为紧张而七上八下的心跳，伸出手，握住了门把手。轻轻向右扭动。 随着一声清脆的“咔嚓”声之后，大门打开了。 然后，我看到了……黑暗，无边的黑暗。 是走错房间了吗？我迷茫地看着房间里面伸手不见五指的黑暗。虽然房间黑暗，但是莫名地，有一种力量牵引着我走了进去。 “咔嚓！”身后的大门被关上了。 本来由门口处射进来的光芒也消失了，房间里面瞬间变得更加黑暗。因为太过黑暗，我什么都看不到了，甚至连大门都找不到了。 就在我焦急地想要找寻方向的时候，一道光线突然亮起，这道光线并不强烈，但是，在这样漆黑的房间，却还是显得格外明显。然而，这道光线在此时此刻并不重要，因为，在光线亮起的那一瞬间，先一刻吸引到我的，是那个站在昏黄光线下面的人。 那个人，他穿着黑色的西装，在西装的一面斜挂着一条黑色的皮草，白色的衬衣因为昏黄的光线而显得有些单薄，窄长的西装裤，修饰着他修长的腿。 那个人，他双手握着话筒，眼神迷离地看着我。 那个人，脸上带着一些不确定的忧郁，让那原本精致的五官显得有些冰凉。 那个人，就是被我封锁在记忆里面的人。 那个人，就是我爱的人。 那个人，就是郑亚夜。 他站在光线下面，如同一颗会闪耀光芒的星星，让这样黑暗的房间变得闪闪发亮。我失神地看着眼前这个突然出现的人，不知应该如何反应，只能愣愣地站在那里。 “今天，我是第一次公开我的这首歌，这首代表着我和一个我最重要的人的歌曲。如果她听得懂这首歌，如果她还怀念我们之间的记忆，那么，我希望，下一次的摩天轮，我不会是一个人坐，而她也不是。”舞台上的人，对着话筒轻声地说。 他的声音，如同一种魅惑的药，让我原本就不平静的心更加乱七八糟。 音乐在耳边慢慢地响起，我的记忆力虽然不好，但是我知道这首歌就是今天那张光盘里面的歌曲。 郑亚夜握住话筒，眼神直视着我，动情地唱着。 用黑夜的寂静，困住你我的心。 有的感情，不是谁都能够说明。 因为爱情，给我们太多困境，错过了美丽风景，丢失自己。 想简单地爱你，解开压抑的心。 有些悲伤，不是谁都能够说明。 你的眼泪比我更加冰冷，我发誓更有勇气，要保护你。 当天边的星星，在摩天轮上闪耀，在我身边好吗？ 有些伤口会自己治疗，你的笑容是我闪耀的光芒。 当天边的星星，在摩天轮上闪耀，在我身边好吗？ 我想看着你温暖脸庞，和很悲伤的，还是一样的眼睛。 因为这样的音乐，我的眼泪再一次决堤。台上的他是那样动情，他的眼睛从歌曲开始之后便没有离开过我的脸庞。我就只能那么愣愣地站在原地，看着那样帅气的他。在一瞬间，我觉得，全世界就只剩下了我和他。我们彼此的眼中只剩下了彼此。 音乐声渐渐变小，直至停止。 我傻傻地看着他，有那么一瞬间，我觉得全世界对于我来说都无所谓了！看着直视我的郑亚夜，我真的觉得，即使全世界都要背叛他，我也要站在他的身边背叛全世界。 他目不斜视地走下了舞台，灯光随着他的前进而前进。 随着他距离我越来越近，越来越近。我没有逃离，不想逃离，所以我就那么站在原地等待着他的靠近。 他在我的面前停住脚步站定。这一刻，原本围绕在他身上的光芒也将我同时笼罩。 我们望着彼此，相对无言。我想，这一刻，说什么话都显得很多余吧？所以我们就这么呆呆地看着彼此。我能读出在他眼睛里面满溢的想念与眷恋，我想他应该也能够解读深藏在我眼中的想念吧！ 有一件事情，在喜欢上他的时候我并没有发现，在离开他的时候我并没有发现，而就在此刻，在我与他这样久别重逢，这样近距离地看着彼此的时候，我发现了。我，真的好喜欢好喜欢这个人，喜欢到，愿意放弃了我的原则，喜欢到，我忍不住想要告诉他，告诉他我真的好喜欢好喜欢他。 “郑亚夜，我……”然而，就在我刚刚准备开口的时候，他却突然很用力地抱住了我，让我的话戛然而止。 他的怀抱，一如记忆之中那样的温暖。他的拥抱，却好像和以前有所不同。这拥抱让我和他之间没有任何间隙，这拥抱紧得让我一时间透不过气来。 “好想你！”他的声音在我耳边响起。那带有他鼻息温度的温热话语，让原本就不停流下的泪水更加地肆虐。 “我……也是……”我也很想你！real!想到整颗心都变得空荡荡的，想到我的生活都为你全部改变。 大概是因为听到了我的回答，他拥抱我的双手更加地紧了。 “那么，不要离开我了好不好？”他的口气里面都是祈求与不确定。 “好！”不知道是因为他的语气，还是因为他的不确定，又或者是因为，这一次我真的不想再放开他的手，我很坚定地回答了他的话。 这一次，因为我的话，他没有再继续用力抱紧我，而是放开了我。 因为他的拥抱太过用力，被他松开后，我大口大口地呼吸着新鲜的空气。 “郑亚夜，对不起。”面对着他的脸，我终于能够说出从刚才我就一直想说的话了。 “该说对不起的人是我。我一直在努力让你不要受到伤害，结果你却因为我受到了最大的伤害，而不去见你，就是我对自己的惩罚。”郑亚夜的笑容有些苦涩。 “不！不要说这样的话，是我自卑，我不相信你，是我太脆弱，才会被人伤害。可是现在不会了，从今以后，我会让自己变得很强大，任何人都不能再伤害我对你的爱！”我紧紧握着拳头，用这样的方式告诉他我的勇气。 “傻瓜，以后不会有人能够伤害你了。我已经跟公司说好，不准他们干涉我的私生活，而且我要向外界公布我们的关系，以后就不会有人再在网上乱写了。”郑亚夜握住我颤抖的手，心疼地说。 向外界公布我们的关系？他的公司会答应吗？我无比震惊地看着他的脸庞，虽然他看起来很开心，可是眼睛里仍然有着看不出的疲惫。他很累吗？一定是吧，这半年来他做了那么多工作，曝光量足足翻了个倍。难道说，他一直以他的方式跟公司抗争吗？直到今天，他的抗争终于胜利了，所以他才来找我……“郑亚夜……”我的声音带着哭腔。 这个人为了我们的爱情究竟付出了多少？这半年孤独的生活他是如何撑过来的呢？我除了感动，还有深深的内疚。我知道，我只有比以前更爱更爱他才能回报。 “别哭了，有一句话，一直都没有说，以后会每天跟你说，所以，你要听好了！”他看着我，声音不大地对着我说。 我看着他，等待着他的下文。 “我爱你！” 因为他突然冒出的三个字，我整个人愣住了，原来，这三个字真的是这样的动听，原来，这三个字真的可以穿透心灵，原来……突然地，我有了一种冲动。我微微点起脚尖，冲着我记忆之中那红唇扑了过去。当我的嘴唇触碰到了一个冰凉的唇的同时，我闭上了眼睛。 他抱住了我，回吻住我。 kiss……kiss……这一刻，我们之间的时间静止了，在一刻，全世界都为我们欢呼，这一刻，连阳光都为我们欢呼。 等一等……欢呼，阳光？ 我猛地睁开眼睛，什么时候，这间黑暗的大厅里变得如此明亮？什么时候，我的身边聚集了这么多的人？他们围绕着我和郑亚夜，脸上满是祝福的微笑。 我猛地推开了郑亚夜，然而，因为郑亚夜是抱着我的，我并没有推开他，只是将我们原本黏在一起的唇分开了。 我的脸颊急速地升温，抬头看郑亚夜，他正似笑非笑地看着我。 他的那笑容，让我只能联想到一个词语，那就是……狡猾。 突然间，我的灵光一现。 原来，今天所发生的这些个莫名其妙的事件，完全都是这个家伙搞的鬼？ 从早上哥哥莫名其妙拿出那个什么光盘给我，到后来明齐哲的电话还有造型师，还有最后哥哥带我来这里，应该都是这个家伙一手设计的吧？ 这个该死的家伙……居然设计我？ 我擦干眼泪，刚刚的感动被一股气闷的感觉代替。所有人瞒着我设计了这么一出，实在让我又好气又想笑，一股闷气憋在心里，别提多难受了。 想到这里，我毫不留情地用那双让我的脚受了不少苦头的高跟鞋，狠狠地亲吻了他那双被擦得锃亮的黑皮鞋。 “啊！”他松开了对我的拥抱，抱住自己的脚在原地乱蹦乱跳。 “郑亚夜！你居然敢设计我！”我故意愤怒地指着郑亚夜说。 一时间，原本围绕在我和他身边的，认识的不认识的人们全部都安静了。惊诧地看着这样急转弯的剧情。 “筱洁……” “不要叫我！”我十分不满地说。 “不要生气啦！”他摇晃着我的手，做撒娇状。 这个家伙，居然给我来这招？你以为这样我就会原谅你吗？你以为……呃，好吧！我承认我是个没骨气的人，当我看到在一边摇晃着我的手，一边为我带上戒指的家伙，我的心突然就软了下来。 “你……干吗？”我红着脸，大叫着，想要用我强大的声音掩盖我此刻害羞得不知所措的情绪。 “你看到啦！求婚啊？”面对我害羞，郑亚夜倒是非常理直气壮。 “你胡说什么啊？我还想继续当个单身公主呢，怎么可能结婚啊？”我的脸更红了， 为他一点儿也不害臊地说出这种话。 “那有什么关系？我们可以先订婚啊，等你毕业我们就结婚！这样我就不用担心你被别人抢走了！”看来郑亚夜是认真的，他边说边点头，好像觉得自己这么早求婚是一件非常正确的事。 please!我这样普通的女生，怎么可能会成为抢手货啊！不过，看到郑亚夜傻气的一面，我真的很高兴，他非常重视我呢！ “那个，哪里有你这样求婚的啊？求婚不都是单膝跪地，拿出戒指问女生能不能嫁给他吗？哪有这样直接就给女生带上戒指的道理啊？”我的心有点动摇了，却还是有点不爽。 这个家伙不是演过很多偶像剧吗？里面应该不缺求婚的情节啊？为什么这个家伙就一点儿也没有学会呢？我很幽怨地想着。 “那，你不想要啊？”他可怜巴巴地看着我。 这个家伙，明明是这么一句非常气人的话，却偏偏摆出一副好像是他在受委屈一般的表情，让人就算有气也不好意思对他发泄。 “我……”面对这样的求婚，我应该生气的啊！但是在我的心底里面就是有那么一点点甜蜜的感觉流露出来，这让我一时间不知道应该怎么回答他的话。 “不想要，我也不勉强你，来还给我吧！”突然，他伸手准备把刚刚套在我手上的戒指再要回去。 看到这一画面，我赶紧收回我的手，让原本想要拉住我手的他扑了个空。一时间，周围传来了哄堂大笑。 我的脸颊温度继续上升。我觉得自己有点像传说中的结婚狂，好像生怕自己以后会嫁不出去一样。都是郑亚夜这个坏家伙，这么欺负我很有意思吗？我抬头，很是幽怨地看向了他。 他满脸微笑地看着我，脸上有一点儿阴谋得逞的味道，但是更多的，是幸福与宠溺的味道。 “你收下戒指了哦！收下之后就不准还给我了，也就是说，你这辈子注定要跟我绑在一起，不准反悔了！” 郑亚夜的话一说完，周围立刻响起阵阵掌声和口哨声，怎么大家都配合他来欺负我呀！我的脸红得像熟透的番茄，摸着手指上的戒指，不知所措地看着郑亚夜。 幸福来得太突然，让我欣喜得想哭。就在我心情复杂地咬着嘴唇的时候，郑亚夜换上了一副认真的表情，伸手把我抱在怀里。 “韩筱洁，你愿意嫁给我吗？”他的声音带着蛊惑的意味，在我的耳边响起。 我把脸埋在他的肩膀，觉得他的怀抱是那么安全，那么宽广，让我有了坚定的力量。 "I do!" 终于，那股复杂的不断在脑中冲击的情感平息下来了，只要有了这个誓言，我和郑亚夜一定会永远幸福地在一起。 身边似乎传来阵阵狂欢的狂潮，那是所有爱我们的人为我们带来的祝福。可是我好像什么都听不见了，我已经沉醉在郑亚夜坚实的怀抱中。 这就是我和郑亚夜幸福的故事，在这里终于画上了一个圆满的句号！不过，你以为这样，故事就结束了吗？ NO! NO! NO!you are wrong! 我们的故事还在继续，一直继续，永远继续着。