Chapter 8 Chapter 7 Love VS Staying Away

On the weight scale with an unfamiliar number, the pointer keeps spinning, spinning, spinning... the number keeps getting bigger and bigger! And, go faster and faster, go faster and faster! This pointer seems to have no intention of stopping at all, and this number seems to have no end.I tried to get off the scale, but it didn't work, I couldn't move. There was a blank in my head.Why have I been hungry for a long time, but there is still no result?Why am I starving and still gaining weight?Could it be that I have that legendary body that makes me fat even after drinking cold water?

Just when I was thinking bitterly, Zheng Yaye appeared.There was a mocking smile on his handsome face, and that smile made my heart, which had no warmth, turn cold in an instant. "Zheng..." I wanted to call his name, but no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't make a sound. He walked to my side, looked at the numbers on the scale and said, "You fat man, I want to break up with you." I shook my head vigorously, trying to speak, but no sound came out.I stretched out my hand to grab Zheng Yaye's hand, but he slammed it away. He left without looking back, without any nostalgia.

what!Why?Why is my life so miserable?In my ears, the north wind was blowing, and I suddenly felt that I was a modern version of a little match girl! "Hula! Hula!" The sound of the wind kept whistling in my ears. "Hula! Hula!" Although the sound of the wind was very loud, why didn't I feel the coldness of the north wind? "Hula! Hula!" The wind seemed to be getting louder. Wait a minute, the wind?It doesn't sound like wind, does it?If it's not the sound of the wind, then this is... It's my cell phone ringtone! In an instant, I opened my eyes.

"Hula! Hula!" The ear-piercing mobile phone ringtones that resembled the sound of wind still continued. It turned out that my phone rang.Ah, what a horrible dream I had just now!I squinted my eyes, not yet struggling out of the horrible dream, after the ringtone kept ringing N times, I finally found my cell phone under my pillow. Looking at the caller ID, an unfamiliar number.Look at the time displayed under the number again... 7 o'clock? Damn it, which guy who thinks his life is too long is disturbing people's dreams so early?Although it is a nightmare, I still want to immerse myself in my dreamland.

This guy who doesn't know who he is, it's best not to make a mistake. "Hello?" I pressed the connect button and spoke impatiently. "Excuse me, is this Miss Han Xiaojie?" A deep and unfamiliar voice came from the other end of the phone. This person can accurately call out my name, it seems that it should be ruled out that the other party made a wrong call.But who would it be? "I am, who are you?" I asked suspiciously while rubbing my hair. "I'm Zheng Yaye's manager, Han Feng." Zheng Yaye's manager?Haven't I met Zheng Yaye's manager? His voice doesn't sound like it.

"I remember that Zheng Yaye's manager doesn't seem to have this number." I asked a little suspiciously. "It's not surprising that a popular star like Zheng Yaye has two managers. Think about it, if I wasn't Zheng Yaye's manager, how could I have your phone number, and how would I know the relationship between you?" What?" The other party's voice didn't seem to be able to hear any emotion, but I still felt an aggressive aura. Suddenly, I had a very bad premonition. "Oh, that's right. Excuse me, what's the matter?" I suppressed my confusion and asked.

"I have something I want to tell you face to face. When will you have time to meet with me?" The voice on the other side of the phone couldn't detect any emotion, which made my somewhat confused mood even more restless. "Yes, yes! I'm not very busy today." Because I was a little uneasy and nervous, I couldn't speak smoothly. "Then let's meet in the street garden in front of where you live in half an hour!" He ignored my discomfort, as if he had expected that I would be nervous.Maybe I was thinking too much, but I always felt that there was some element of disdain in his tone.

"Oh! Good!" Although I felt a little faint, I still readily agreed. Just when I finished answering neatly and thought he was going to hang up, he suddenly spoke again. "I hope you don't let Ye know about our meeting." The person on the other end of the phone still had a slightly arrogant tone.His tone made me feel that what he said to me was an order. Don't tell Zheng Yaye?The uneasiness in my heart gradually expanded. Perhaps, as I imagined, what this manager named Han Feng wants to say to me should affect me and Zheng Yaye, right? The constant unease and tension made my mind a little confused, and even I didn't know how I washed and changed my clothes.

I walked out of my room in a daze, the morning sun was still so bright, Zheng Yaye was still so dazzling. I looked at him at the table, who was leisurely drinking coffee while reading a book.He seemed to have heard my door opening, and suddenly raised his head. The moment I made eye contact with him, my heart beat faster. I really want to sigh again, why is this guy so good-looking?It's like the characters in the painting, it's unbelievably beautiful. "Morning!" Just as I was staring at that beautiful face in a daze, he gave me a big smile while talking. "Morning!" Because of that smile, I raised the corners of my mouth unconsciously.

"I, I yesterday..." He opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something, but as if he didn't know what to say, his cheeks were flushed. The behavior of this guy really makes me feel abnormal.Why is he blushing all of a sudden?Moreover, looking at his sudden bewilderment, it was really in stark contrast to the leisurely look just now! "Last night... I actually..." He hesitated, not knowing what to say. Looking at the hesitant Zheng Yaye at the moment, I began to wonder, has this guy really acted in so many idol dramas?Or are the voices in those idol dramas actually dubbed?And those songs are actually lip-syncing, right?I looked depressedly at the guy who was at a loss and didn't know what to express.

"Hula! Hula!" Although I waited patiently for Zheng Yaye's reply, my phone seemed impatient. I took out my phone from my pocket and looked at the strange number on the phone screen and the time next to the strange number. It seems that the person named Han Feng should have arrived. Looking up at the guy who was still hesitating and hesitating at the dining table, I said in a little panic: "That... I want to go out for a while." Although I am very embarrassed to interrupt his hesitating, but my heart is also in a mess now, and I don't know what to say to him. "Where are you going?" After hearing my words, he instantly jumped up from his chair and walked in front of me with big strides. His hesitant speech instantly became smoother. "I..." How should I put it?That Han Feng specifically explained, don't tell Zheng Yaye about my meeting with him. "I'm going to buy something." In just a moment, I thought of a reason.Therefore, people who write novels like me generally have a relatively active thinking ability. Apart from the occasional tongue-tangle, the ability to lie has always been stronger than ordinary people! "Shopping? Shall I accompany you?" He said as he was about to change clothes. This guy... Did he see through that I was lying?He actually gave me such a reaction, what excuse should I find next to prevent him from accompanying me? "No! No need! You're a big star! Go outside, and if the paparazzi see it, you won't be able to explain it clearly!" So, after telling a small lie, you need to use countless big lies to cover it up. round. However, just when I thought I was well rounded.Zheng Yaye turned around and observed me with a scrutiny.The sharp eyes seemed to want to see through me. "I, I mean, I mean I bought it, and what I bought was that you can't go with me to buy it." Facing his scrutiny, I hurriedly explained. However, the more I explained, the more suspicion grew in this guy's eyes. yes!As cold and shrewd as this guy, how could he be fooled by my little lies so easily?So what the hell am I going to do now? Suddenly, an inspiration flashed in my mind. Actually, I can say this... I ponder over the flash of inspiration that just flashed in my mind in my head.However, do you want to say this?After thinking about it, I started to hesitate.Wouldn't it be a little embarrassing if you really spoke up?After all, this kind of thing is not easy to bring up in front of ordinary people, let alone in front of people you like! I looked hesitantly at the person in front of me.To say, or not to say?This is a serious problem. "Is there something you are hiding from me?" Suddenly, he opened his mouth. "I..." I lowered my head, not daring to look directly into Zheng Yaye's eyes. That guy is also good, why are his eyes so sharp, just looking at me casually makes me feel so guilty. Time passed by every minute and every second... No!It's not an option to waste time like this, although it's embarrassing, but at this time, there's nothing I can do. "I'm actually going to buy underwear." I clenched my fists, tried hard to restrain my nervousness, and opened my mouth. After hearing my words, the original scrutiny in his eyes instantly turned into embarrassment.And me, because I said such embarrassing words, the temperature on my face rose at a rate of thousands of degrees per second. "Ahem." He coughed, as if he wanted to relieve some of the embarrassment caused by my words. However, since we didn't have much to say to each other, the atmosphere didn't seem to improve because of the cough. "Hula! Hula!" After a long silence, my phone rang again. Uh, I was so busy dealing with this guy that I actually forgot the most important thing. "That, that, I have something else to do, so I'm leaving first." I didn't give Zheng Yaye a chance to react this time, so I ran away. Han Feng and I have been sitting side by side on a bench in the street garden not far from my house for 10 minutes. During these 10 minutes, he didn't say anything, just stared ahead.If it weren't for this guy who blinked his eyes occasionally, I would really wonder if this guy was learning from Zhang Fei to sleep with his eyes open. During these 10 minutes, I used my peripheral vision to secretly look at this guy named Han Feng who claimed to be Zheng Yaye's manager from time to time.This guy looks like he should be about 30 years old, with gold-rimmed glasses, a tall nose, and thin lips.Such a look, although not handsome, but at least handsome, right? He exudes a very strong aura, which seems to be expressing the theme of "whoever stands in my way dies".Compared with the agent I met at my door last time, Han Feng's aura is many times stronger. Under the influence of his momentum, I unconsciously felt a little nervous.Sitting on the bench, I could only rub the corners of my clothes with my fingers. "Miss Han, I came to you today because I have something to tell you." Just as I was rubbing the hem of my clothes, he suddenly spoke. yes!If you have nothing to do, why call me out!Isn't this all nonsense? "That's it!" I, Han Xiaojie, am a well-educated child. Although I thought he was talking nonsense, I still agreed. "Miss Han should have read the latest reports, right?" He turned his head to me while talking.Under the sun, his glasses sparkled, making my eyes hard to open for a moment. report?What report? I cast my confused eyes on Han Feng. "It's the report about you and Ye." Seeing my confused look, he gave me a hint. Reports from me and Zheng Yaye?Why is he asking that?In my heart, suddenly the alarm bells went off. "I've seen some on the internet." Actually, I'd rather see nothing, and if I didn't, I probably wouldn't lose the damn weight at all.If I didn't lose weight, I probably wouldn't be on a diet, and if I wasn't on a diet, I wouldn't be so hungry now at all. "So, do you know what Ye lost because of this news?" His tone was very flat, and he didn't seem to be saying anything very bad at all. However, it was such a flat tone that stimulated me even more. "loss?" Isn't it just a scandal?Isn't this kind of thing normal for a big star like Zheng Yaye?What's all the fuss about. "Yes! Loss! Among the many contracts signed by Ye, there are clauses that cannot fall in love. That is to say, once Ye falls in love, these contracts will be breached." He said calmly, however, he turned to me His eyes were not calm at all. Looking at Han Feng's restless, no, it should be said to be very angry eyes, I felt a cold feeling slowly spread in my chest.Although his tone was calm, I knew he was talking about a very serious matter. "Is that breach of contract... serious?" I whispered. To be honest, I don't have any specific feelings about the breach of contract.After all, apart from the occasional contract of sale with my dear editor, I don't seem to have signed any contracts related to the law, have I?Therefore, although I have encountered the word breach of contract in various idol dramas and novels, this is the first time in real life. "Is it serious?" He repeated my words with a mocking tone. For his obvious ridicule, I should be very angry, but at this moment, I can't care less about being angry.Although I am not very proficient in the law, since Han Feng, the manager who is really unlikable, came to me on a special trip, it should show that this matter is really not easy! "Then, will Zheng Yaye go to jail?" Not to mention the writer's rich associative ability, mainly because I don't know why, when I talk about the law, the first thing I think of is the big iron gate and the black and white striped prison clothes.Hearing my question, the person in front of me was obviously taken aback.He didn't seem to have thought that I would ask such a question at all. "Not at all! It's just..." I don't know if this guy is deliberately trying to trouble me, but when my face is full of nervousness, he wants to lengthen his tone. "Just what?" I said anxiously. "It's just a liquidated damages." He said lightly. "Uh..." I let out a long breath, and then rolled my eyes fiercely at the guy in front of me.Isn't it just losing money?I thought it was a big deal!It actually made the atmosphere so tense. "You seem to have misunderstood something. The liquidated damages I mentioned are not what you imagined in your head." As he spoke, he stretched out his hand and pushed the gold-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose. snort!do you know what i thinkI looked at him dissatisfied. "30 million." Just as I was looking at him dissatisfied, he threw out such a number inexplicably. "Huh?" I uttered a single syllable reflexively. "If those large and small contracts are accumulated, the penalty for breach of contract is at least 30 million." His tone was lukewarm, still calm, and it felt as if he was talking about 3,000 yuan. 30 million?My mind instantly became chaotic. How many zeros are there after 30 million? "Then, then, Zheng Yaye can keep our relationship secret!" I said while counting the zero after 30 million. "Of course you don't have to make it public, but one day you will appear in front of everyone!" He said seriously. "But, Zheng Yaye always wants to fall in love, doesn't he?" I said depressedly. Could it be that, in order not to break the contract, Zheng Yaye must not fall in love or get married for the rest of his life? "It's okay to fall in love, but it must be approved by these merchants. However, the conditions for their agreement are harsh. So, what I will say next is what I want to find you today." His original calmness disappeared again. , replaced by a very powerful low pressure. "What's the matter?" My heart was filled with fear!In fact, this kind of fear, when I received Han Feng's call in the morning, I already expected it, right? "Leave the night! This way, it's good for everyone." There was a very complicated emotion in his tone, an emotion that I couldn't understand.At this moment, I don't have the mood to delve into what his complicated emotions represent.Because, at this moment, my mood has become messy. "Why? Why does everyone want me to leave him?" My tone was full of loneliness and disappointment. Why can't I?Why can't I?Although I am very ordinary, why can't I be with him? "Because you and Ye are not from the same world." Isn't it a world? I looked at the person in front of me. Although his words made me feel very vicious, I had to admit that what he said was something I never wanted, didn't want, and didn't dare to admit. What he said is not wrong, Zheng Yaye and I are not from the same world.Zheng Yaye is a glamorous star, and I'm just a "house girl" Han Xiaojie.Compared to me, he is the most shining star in the sky, and I am just a small stone that can be seen everywhere on the ground.I am too ordinary, too ordinary. "But..." Although I know that he and I are not from the same world, I still don't want to admit it. "Because there are no people like you in his world, that's why he likes you! Because he thinks you are different from him, so he likes you! You should understand that this is just a temporary curiosity, and it won't last long. "His tone didn't seem to be reasoning with me, but was instilling some consciousness in me. "You..." I didn't know how to respond to his words. Just curious?maybe!After all, how could he fall in love with a girl like me in such a short period of time? "Choose to leave while you still have good memories. In this case, it will be good for you!" He said, standing up from the bench. I stared blankly at him getting up and leaving. His back gradually disappeared from my eyes, not because he was walking away, but because my eyes were full of tears.Tears completely occupied my eyes, making it impossible for me to see the people, things and things in front of me.Tears continued to flow, and finally, welled out of my eyes.I stood where I was, without reaching out to wipe my tears.Because at this moment, I don't even have the strength to raise my hand. My whole being seemed to be emptied, I was powerless to think, I couldn't think, and I didn't want to think anymore. In fact, I already knew about the ending of Zheng Yaye and me, would it be like this?But, I have always been unwilling to admit it, unwilling to face it.I even naively thought that if I lost weight and lost weight, I might stay by his side forever. But, in fact, all this is an illusion of my own fantasy, right?I tried my best to live in my fantasy. I foolishly thought that as long as I kept my eyes closed, I could continue the dream.However, I neglected that even if you close your eyes, the dream will eventually end, and after the good dream, the nightmare will come after all. If Zheng Yaye no longer loves me in the future, but his career is affected because of me, he will definitely regret it, and even hate me!With that in mind, I couldn't be strong enough to bring myself to selfishly tie him to my side. My tears kept flowing uncontrollably, flowing into my mouth and heart, which made me taste the most hurtful bitterness.When I think of Zheng Yaye, I feel very sad. What should I do if the dream is about to wake up?What should we do when the story is about to end? When watching idol dramas before, when I saw the heroine leaving the actor because of some minor problems, I would always think indignantly: What’s the big deal, why did she choose to leave?However, when the story actually happened, I actually made the same choice. I should stay by Zheng Yaye's side willfully, looking forward to the miracle of a big change that only happens in idol dramas.However, I know that the odds of a miracle happening are slim.And, as Han Feng said, leave while you have good memories! Memories...Zheng Yaye!Let me last willful to leave a good memory, okay? I didn't go home until the tears had dried up.I want to make good memories!In good memories, there are no tears. I stood at the door of my house, thinking about what kind of good memories I would leave at the end.I took a deep breath, opened the door and walked in. As soon as he pushed the door, he saw Zheng Yaye standing at the entrance with a cold face. When I saw his handsome face, depressed because of dissatisfaction, I suddenly had a feeling, that is, this guy is still so handsome!Uh, why is there such a handsome person like Zheng Yaye in the world who doesn't dazzle people all the time. "Where have you been?" he said angrily. Listening to his dissatisfied tone, there was still a trace of concern, and my heart suddenly ached. "I, didn't I tell you? I'm going shopping!" Sure enough, a lie is proficient after being told twice. "Really? What about the things you bought?" He crossed his arms and looked at me very unhappy. What I bought...why does this guy react so quickly?This is completely bullying a slow-moving person like me! "I, what I bought, I, I was hungry just now! So I ate it on the way!" I said depressedly. Practice has proved that my ability to tell lies is still not at home, and I still need to practice more.And now Zheng Yaye seems to be working hard to give me a chance to practice? "Oh? So, underwear is edible?" He raised his eyebrows and said. This, this guy is real!Why do you have to point out my lies?I'm also an idiot to come up with such a poor excuse! "I...I..." How to explain this next! I kept aiming at Zheng Yaye with my eyes, carefully observing Zheng Yaye's face.However, there was not much expression on his face at the moment, only a little bit of dissatisfaction was written on his face. "Where have you been?" he asked coldly. "I, I, I want to go to the amusement park." I stammered for a long time, but then I said something wrong. In the short love between Zheng Yaye and I, the only date was at the amusement park. So, should the last good memories be kept there? "Ah?" He seemed completely unresponsive that I would say such a thing. For a while, he was confused for a long time because of my big turn. "Ah what! Let's go!" I dragged him who hadn't responded yet and strode out of the house. Zheng Yaye, this is the last time!Let me indulge in the feeling of living in the world closest to you for the last time!Let me immerse myself in my dream for the last time!Just let me be so capricious for the last time!Just let me love you so much for the last time... Most Beautiful Memories The last time I had an amusement park date, I had a makeover, but this time?Just change to Zheng Yaye!Looking at the person in front of me, I touched my chin with satisfaction! Take a look at the most popular big sunglasses at the moment, look at this baseball cap decorated with sparkling rhinestones, look at this long T-shirt that almost reaches the knee, and these jeans with countless holes.It's just perfect! I looked at Zheng Yaye in front of me with a smile on my face, who else can see his true face in Lushan?I am very satisfied with my big makeover. "Let's go!" I pulled him. However, his hand was strong and pulled me back. "What?" I looked at him dejectedly. "This..." He looked at the clothes all over his body, and seemed to be trying to find a suitable adjective to describe it, but in the end he found that it seemed to be futile. "It's still very handsome!" I held up two thumbs and waved them in front of his eyes with satisfaction.After hearing my compliment, the corners of his mouth lifted slightly. This guy is sometimes like a child. After hearing other people's praise, his face will always have some elements of complacency unconsciously. "Then, let's go!" As he said, he took my hand and walked into the amusement park. His hands are still cold, and his hands seem to be so cold forever.Although such a hand is very comfortable to hold in summer, what if it comes to winter?If it is still this cold, it will be very cold!fine!My hands will be hotter, in winter, let me help him warm his hands! Winter, when I think of such a distant vocabulary, I suddenly feel a little sentimental.Zheng Yaye and I have no winter, no, it might be more appropriate to say that there is no tomorrow rather than no winter. Thinking of this, my tears want to flow again.However, I gritted my teeth and swallowed back my tears forcefully. "You suddenly want to come to the amusement park, there must be some reason?" He said while pulling me into the amusement park. This guy, why does he hit me right every time he speaks? "It's nothing! I just want to come to play suddenly!" I said with a smile. He took me to the front of the carousel. "I didn't play this last time, so let's make it up this time?" he said. Before I could answer, he had already dragged me onto the wooden horse stage.I chose the black wooden horse, and Zheng Yaye chose the white wooden horse in front of the black wooden horse. As the cheerful music sounded, the wooden horse slowly began to rotate. I sat on the black wooden horse and looked at Zheng Yaye on the white wooden horse in front of me.Suddenly found something.In fact, Zheng Yaye and I are like the wooden horses on this merry-go-round.Although they are rotating at the same speed, they can never meet each other.Zheng Yaye, do you know?I like you very much, because I like you, I can do many things for you, including leaving you! The wooden horse kept spinning, and I prayed silently in my heart, praying that time would pass a little slower, and a little slower.How good would it be if time could stop at this moment? However, things often don't go the way you imagined.Although I hope to stay longer, the music stopped, and the Trojan horse's footsteps also stopped. At the moment when the wooden horse stopped, I stayed on the wooden horse and refused to get off. Zheng Yaye just pulled me with a smile. How nice!How nice it would be to know nothing like this!If I can also know nothing, then how happy I should be now! Because I know everything, besides the current happiness, there is a little more coldness. On the roller coaster, he held my hand tightly, and we screamed wantonly.I'm not afraid of the speed of the roller coaster, nor the stimulation of hanging upside down, I'm just afraid, how sad it will be for me to live alone in the future... High-altitude jumping, he hugged me tightly, and I hugged back tightly with him. "Zheng Yaye..." I called his name loudly. Zheng Yaye...Zheng Yaye...Zheng Yaye...Calling your name like this, maybe there will be no chance in the future?Calling you around so loudly like this, you won't have a chance in the future, right?Pirate ship, I sat side by side with him, feeling the tickle in my heart when the ship rocked up and down.If Zheng Yaye leaves in the future, will my heart still feel it?Could it be that when I left him, my heart only felt pain? ... There are many items in the amusement park, but today, for me, it feels very little. When Zheng Yaye and I stood under the Ferris wheel, it was already night. I looked up at the Ferris wheel with colorful lights, and I didn't know what it felt like.I may have been numb to grief!Because I was so sad, I couldn't feel the pain in my heart. "Let's go! Let's ride the Ferris wheel!" Seeing me staring blankly at the huge Ferris wheel, he said. "Okay!" I smiled weakly at him. Probably because the sky was too dark, he didn't notice the weakness mixed with my smile. He and I walked up to the entrance of the Ferris wheel, watching couples entering the Ferris wheel happily, and couples walking out of the Ferris wheel happily, I was really jealous.Why can other people be so happy, but I just can't? A small lattice door hanging from the Ferris wheel opened, and Zheng Yaye walked in first.The moment he just walked in, I suddenly closed the door of the small lattice, because the door was locked from the outside, so Zheng Yaye could only look at the distance between me and him inexplicably. become farther. Then, Zheng Yaye slammed on the door of the Ferris wheel vigorously. "Han Xiaojie! What are you doing?" He yelled loudly while knocking on the small grid door. I could feel the tension and fear in Zheng Yaye's voice.In fact, he has already noticed it, right?I noticed my strangeness today, I noticed my fear!It has been a long time since I held my hand so tightly all day long. "Zheng Yaye, goodbye!" I looked at him in a low voice and said, wondering if he could hear me.Finally, I turned around and walked off the Ferris wheel alone. I looked up at the slowly turning Ferris wheel, which small grid should Zheng Yaye be in?I have no idea.The distance between me and him is as far as the distance from the ground to the sky. He has returned to the sky, and I can't find him anymore. Because I couldn't find it, my mood suddenly became messy. fool!Obviously he sent Zheng Yaye away by himself, why are you still sad now?Obviously he decided to give up on his own, so what right do he have to be sad now?What a complete fool I am!I let go of my own happiness with my own hands. Although I know it is good for us all, I am really sad!Because, I love him! When tears slid down my cheeks again, I turned around, step by step, step by step, until the Ferris wheel disappeared behind me.Step by step, my steps are getting bigger and bigger, and my steps are getting faster and faster. Zheng Yaye, at the end, I can only give you such memories. I am really sorry!Zheng Yaye, I am so sorry that I chose to leave like this in the end!Zheng Yaye, in the end, I still like you, I'm really sorry! Zheng Yaye... goodbye!