Chapter 15 Chapter Fifteen Three Chances of Sadness

It is early autumn now, and the patio is dewy and cool after nightfall.Feng Lan didn't wear much clothes, so he sneezed twice.Ding Xiaoye pulled her up involuntarily, and said, "Your hands are as cold as ghosts. Go, I'll take you back." Feng Lan was willing to stay by his side, even for a second longer.However, Ding Xiaoye's tone did not allow her to refuse, besides, he took the initiative to send her off, no longer pushing back and forth, which was another small progress that made her secretly happy.She carefully captures every bit of tenderness and compromise in him.

When Ding Xiaoye went to tidy up the stools in the patio, Feng Lan quietly put an apple on his bedside.This has become a habit of hers, and she prefers to regard it as a kind of tacit understanding between the two. Although his bed was simple, it was tidy and not at all messy like when Kangkang was sleeping.When she bent over, a strand of hair fell and fell on his pillow. The light-colored pillowcase made the brown hair stand out.Feng Lan wanted to pick it up, but his hand touched the pillowcase, but he regretted it.Just let it stay here, this selfishness makes her feel private and happy. The moment he withdrew his hand, Feng Lan saw something under Ding Xiaoye's pillow with sharp eyes.She lifted a corner of the pillow, and underneath it was a bunch of keys.She picked it up, and it wasn't the key that made her fingers tremble, but a beaded bunny hanging from the keychain.

This kind of beaded bunny was very familiar to Feng Lan, because she also had one, and it was a gift from Cui Yan.This discovery was like taking a needle and pricking Feng Lan's heart.This kind of beaded handicraft was popular many years ago, but now it is rare. Besides, two rabbits with such similar shape and size, Feng Lan deliberately deceived himself and couldn't believe it was just a coincidence. This one was also given by Cui Yan?What's the relationship between them?When did you meet?How could she have no consciousness at all?In a hurry, Feng Lan put the rabbit in his hand for a closer look, only to notice that the one under Ding Xiaoye's pillow was obviously old, and it was as old and mottled as his bunch of keys, completely different from the one Cui Yan gave her. That brand new rabbit.

Cui Yan just turned 20 years old this year. Zeng Fei took her home when she was 13 years old. Feng Lan almost watched her grow from a yellow and thin little girl to her current slim appearance.The relationship between her and Zeng Fei has always been extremely close, no matter how powerful Ding Xiaoye is, it is unlikely that he would get involved out of thin air, and it was many years ago.The small beads on the rabbit in his hand have turned yellow and discolored, at least it has a history of ten or eight years. How old was Cui Yan at that time, it doesn't make sense at all. While confused, Feng Lan heard Ding Xiaoye calling her outside, "Let's go."

She was educated since she was a child that it is extremely impolite to look at other people's personal belongings at will. When she heard the sound, her first reaction was to quickly put the things back where they were, when Ding Xiaoye happened to walk over.He stood at the door of the warehouse and asked, "What are you doing?" Feng Lan straightened up, pointed at the apple on the bedside embarrassingly.Ding Xiaoye also saw it, smiled unbearably, but didn't say much, just urged: "Go quickly, don't dawdle." They walked out of the restaurant together.Feng Lan asked thoughtfully: "Ding Xiaoye, what age group of women do you like?"

Ding Xiaoye pushed the back of her head, and asked angrily: "Are women of any age as boring as you?" Feng Lan was shaken by his push, and angrily hit him with her bag, "Since you know I'm a woman, you can't treat me like a gentleman? I just want to know if it's a man of any age They all like girls in their early twenties." Ding Xiaoye smiled maliciously.Before he could speak, Feng Lan already understood, waved his hands in frustration and said, "Forget it, I know you'll say, you only like big breasts that are obedient and easy to bear." "Okay, Feng Lan." Ding Xiaoye's smile became more cheerful, "You seem to have become a little smarter."

Feng Lan said: "Hey, I can think of your low-level animal thinking that only uses the lower body to think with my feet..." She stopped, and so did Ding Xiaoye.They had just walked near the security booth of the building, and both of them saw Zeng Fei who had just walked out of it. Zeng Fei was talking with the person beside him, and Feng Lan had also seen that person, who was the policeman in charge of her robbing case.At this moment, Zeng Fei also noticed their existence, and said in surprise, "Feng Lan? It's so late..." Zeng Fei didn't say the second half of the sentence because he saw Ding Xiaoye beside Feng Lan.It seemed that it took him a few seconds to recall who this man was, and his expression began to look a little weird.

Feng Lan understood Zeng Fei. If she saw Zeng Fei walking side by side with the female secretary at this time, she might have the same reaction, not to mention that she and Zeng Fei were on the verge of "talking about marriage" not long ago . Although he didn't intend to explain deliberately, Feng Lan also didn't intend to avoid it.She took a breath, glanced at Ding Xiaoye, straightened her waist and said to Zeng Fei, "Don't talk about me first, I should ask you. I have something to do when I go back to the restaurant, why are you here?" "Oh, that's right." Zeng Fei explained, "Didn't your car never be found? I don't think there's any reason for that. It just so happens that Xiao Chen and his boss are my friends, so I asked him to take me to review the surveillance cameras of the building." , After all, I have also been a policeman, and now I am engaged in security technology, so I have some experience, and I want to see if I can find any clues."

Feng Lan felt a little sorry, and said, "Don't worry about it, I'm actually not in a hurry." Zeng Fei smiled and said: "No matter what, everyone will feel at ease when the case is over. I have nothing to do recently. Maybe it's like what Cui Yan said. After taking off the police badge for so many years, I still have the addiction to solve the case. Sickness needs to be cured." Of course he said that to make Feng Lan feel better, what else could Feng Lan say?She could only say from the bottom of her heart: "Thank you, Zeng Fei." Zeng Fei's smile deepened, "If you are more polite, I'll be embarrassed. Let's be friends. If we are friends, I will do these things. Originally, I thought it would be unsafe for a girl to go in and out alone before I caught the suspect. Do you need me to send you off, but I am afraid that the old people on both sides will think too much. Now it seems that it is unnecessary. Xiao Chen and I have to watch the next monitoring, you go home early."

After saying goodbye to Zeng Fei, Feng Lan felt complicated.Zeng Fei didn't need her to thank him, he said he would do the same as a friend.She didn't know that Zeng Fei was a busy man, even if he had a little spare time, as a single man, there was nothing he could do on a good night, so why bother to watch the boring surveillance screen over and over again.Zeng Fei is undoubtedly a good person and a good friend, but... "Regret it." Ding Xiaoye's voice came from beside him. He walked, lowered his head and smiled, and said to Feng Lan, "A man who was rejected by you... Well, you can call it an ordinary friend, He can treat you like this, which is 100 times better than me getting into trouble. Why bother to be cheap when you are a good person? Don’t say I didn’t warn you, if you want to play, it depends on whether you can afford it. You can regret it before it’s too late. You can go back and find that Zeng, wouldn't everyone be happy?"

Feng Lan looked at Ding Xiaoye in disbelief, his eyes read people's hearts, but he had no emotion, just like what he just said and his face at the moment. It's true that Feng Lan was a little disappointed just now, she cared so much about him, in her heart, Ding Xiaoye was of course special.However, she was robbed twice, and he was there. Although he saved her the second time, he actually planned to stand by and watch.He always said that people must first learn to protect themselves, and Feng Lan accepts it intellectually, but he regrets his indifference emotionally. Love is deeply responsible, how can there be expectations if there is no love?And she took this little regret in her heart, is there a big fault?What Ding Xiaoye said without any scruples was really chilling. Feng Lan's eyes turned hot, but he couldn't speak.Who can she blame today?Who made her look like a donkey next to a millstone, blindfolded, following carrots that would never be eaten, pulling the mill in vain, round and round.Can it blame the blindfold and the sweetness of the carrots?To blame can only blame the greed and nostalgia in her heart. She stared straight at Ding Xiaoye for a while, then silently quickened her pace and walked forward alone, leaving him behind.She didn't want to say a word to him, and she didn't want him to see the tears she shed.When someone feels distressed, tears are tears, otherwise they are just bodily fluids with a salty taste; being cared for by others, acting like a baby is acting like a baby, otherwise it is death.Her current appearance is of no benefit except to make herself look weaker and ridiculous. Of course Ding Xiaoye would let her go. With his style, he might say that he would have saved a lot of trouble if he had known that Zeng Fei was willing to send her home.Feng Lan half-walked, half-run, and walked for a while, the weather is so damn cold, it's not even October yet, why is it so cold that it makes people shiver?Ding Xiaoye behind him was silent, as she knew him well.However, just as Feng Lan was about to walk out of the alley, she heard familiar and hasty footsteps. Ding Xiaoye easily caught up with her, grabbed the chain of her bag from behind, and was thrown away by Feng Lan.She broke free with too much force, the center of gravity of her feet was unstable, her high heels sprained, and her whole body was tilted.Ding Xiaoye helped her in time. After Feng Lan stood firm, she waved Ding Xiaoye's hand on her arm away again, not forcefully but firmly.She said: "Ding Xiaoye, don't you think I'm a stupid woman who likes you, just think I'm passing by, go as soon as you want, leave me a little dignity...don't go? Want to watch the fun? Then I beg you to turn around." Go away, okay? I don't want you to see me like this...or do you not remember that I have dignity too?" She squatted down slowly, buried her head in the bag on her knees and sobbed silently.She's not the kind of woman who weeps easily, Mom said, proud and confident women don't use tears as a weapon.But how could she be proud in front of Ding Xiaoye?She was crying not because of him, but because she couldn't understand more and more what was wrong, how could she make herself so bad because of that little bit of love. Ding Xiaoye's feet were still in front of her.He didn't even turn his back on her.This bastard!Is it so amazing not to love her? Feng Lan raised his head, wiped the tears from his cheeks, gritted his teeth and said, "Even if I am a beggar, if you refuse to give alms, don't laugh at me. This is the bottom line of being a human being!" Ding Xiaoye still stood firmly in front of her, and after a while, he also squatted down.Feng Lan's gaze was at his level, was it the tears on her eyelashes that made her look away?Why did she feel that Ding Xiaoye was at a loss at this moment? He looked at her shoulders shrugged because of sobbing, and wanted to put his hand on it, but hesitated again, "If you don't want to turn back, don't turn back, why are you crying?" "Bastard!" Feng Lan pushed hard on his shoulder.Ding Xiaoye was not mentally prepared, and was pushed back by her, and said with a smile: "Can you change the word when you swear, my ears are callused." Feng Lan collected all the curse words in his stomach as he wished, and dedicated them all to him. "Bastard, dead ghost, a thousand-sword killer..." Ding Xiaoye smiled even more cheerfully, "These are used by the mother-in-law to scold her man." He dodged the bag that Feng Lan threw at him, stood up, bent down and stretched out his hand towards her. "Get up!" Seeing that Feng Lan was still motionless, he added, "I'm just talking casually—what I just said." Feng Lan still looked up at him, choked up and said, "Ding Xiaoye, this is not fun at all." Regardless of Feng Lan's refusal, Ding Xiaoye grabbed her arm and forcibly pulled her up. "You can treat me like a beggar." After he finished speaking, seeing that Feng Lan was still in a daze with a sullen face, he grabbed her hand and slid it from his arm to her palm, holding her, intertwining his fingers, and dragging her forward. "Slap a sweet date, what are you doing?" Feng Lan's struggle seemed as insincere as her words. Ding Xiaoye took her bag and hung it around his neck, and said with a smile, "Two sweet dates, is this a good deal?" "Get out!" Feng Lan cursed, she followed him forward, step by step, the resentment and unwillingness in her heart dried up like tears in the corners of her eyes in the night and under the street lights. "Seriously, you don't feel bad at all walking like a crab?" "Ding Xiaoye, shut your mouth for me." Zeng Fei was dragged by the police officer Xiao Chen and their chief to have a few drinks and returned home in the early hours of the morning.When he entered the room, he met his nephew Liu Kangkang who got up to go to the bathroom.School has started, and Kangkang will live back at his uncle's house every weekend. His part-time job at Fenglan Restaurant is not as regular as in summer vacation, but he still persists. "Uncle, are you back?" Kangkang greeted sleepily. Zeng Fei glanced at Cui Yan's darkened room, and casually asked, "Is your sister asleep?" Kangkang didn't answer, and walked into the bathroom muttering, "One came back and asked 'Is your uncle at home', and the other asked 'Your sister is asleep'? Am I an invisible person?" Zeng Fei has never been able to understand the thinking of this nephew, so he ignored him and went back to his bedroom while unbuttoning his shirt.The light in his bedroom was on, and there was the sound of water gurgling through the closed bathroom door.Zeng Fei was a little surprised, but he didn't say anything. He just slowly sat down on the chair by the French window. Only one person would brazenly invade his personal space at a time like this.Zeng Fei tried to check the emails on his phone, but found himself a little tired.When he was a criminal policeman, he had a record of staying up for three days and three nights to solve a case. Now he is thirty-five years old. In the eyes of others, he has a successful career and is in the prime of life, but it is not yet twelve o'clock and he only drinks two glasses of wine. , He has a kind of burnout that just wants to sleep well regardless of everything.Time has taken away from him, besides sharpness and vigor, there are many other things. The bathroom door opened, and Cui Yan came out with her wet hair brushed. As soon as she saw Zeng Fei sitting there, she first sniffed vigorously with her nose, and asked suspiciously, "You didn't smoke in the room, did you?" Zeng Fei put down the phone and reminded her: "I remember this is 'my' room. Don't come in casually next time. Leave the bathroom outside..." "Kangkang's stomach is uncomfortable, I don't want to rob him. If you don't believe me, you can ask him." Cui Yan's words revealed grievances. It was impossible for Zeng Fei to ask Kangkang.He knew very well that Kangkang was calculating, but he always protected his sister in his heart.Whatever Cui Yan did, he played smoke bombs at the side. "Just use it, go back to your room, and don't dawdle in front of my eyes." Cui Yan's nightdress was knee-length, and the style was conservative, but she was a girl in her early twenties after all, and Zeng Fei felt that he had to remind her that men and women were different, even between them. Cui Yan didn't seem to hear what he said, she came over and sat down on his lap, tilted her head and wiped her hair, and asked with a smile, "Why are you so petty, why did I provoke you again?" Zeng Fei's muscles froze immediately, suppressing his strange emotions, he said coldly, "Get up!" "I'm sorry!" Cui Yan shook her hair, pouted her lips slightly, and didn't take his rejection to heart. Zeng Fei wanted to push her away, but he didn't do anything, and said word by word: "Get up when I tell you, don't make me get angry." This time Cui Yan finally withdrew from him slowly.She knew Zeng Fei well, just as he knew her well.So she could tell when Zeng Fei was pampering her and when he was serious about it.Although the former occupies most of the situation, she is a smart person and will not test a man's bottom line at will. "Is there something wrong? Tell me." Cui Yan squatted down beside Zeng Fei and asked softly with her hand on his knee. Zeng Fei wanted to say that there was nothing wrong with him, and his biggest frustration and trouble was her.But she won't listen to these words, even if she understands everything, she will pretend to be confused. Zeng Fei fiddled with the cell phone on the small round table, saying what should be said. "You move back to school tomorrow. You think the dormitory environment is not good, so rent a house nearby." "Why?" Cui Yan asked calmly. "Because you've grown up, you can take care of yourself, and you don't need to be by my side all the time." "Why can Kangkang do it? Just because he is your real blood relative?" "Yes." Zeng Fei didn't want to go around in circles with her anymore, and said directly, "He won't come out of my bathroom in the middle of the night and sit on my lap." Cui Yan stood up, turned her face away and smiled, "Just for this? Aren't we always like this?" Zeng Fei irritatedly said, "What do you mean by 'always like this'? How old were you in the past, and how old are you now? Cui Yan, girls must learn to respect themselves!" "Really? You haven't taught me this before." She laughed and jumped on his lap, and he frowned and said, "Cui Yan, you're heavy again!"——These scenes seem to be still yesterday. "Do I need to teach these?" Zeng Fei shook his head helplessly. "Of course, what didn't you teach me? What didn't you give me? Why don't you make a list and tell me what I can do in the past, but I can't do it now. When did it start? From the second, you tell me clearly, so that next time I will know my duty." "It's all my fault." Zeng Fei said to himself. Cui Yan didn't give in at all, looked at him and said: "Yes, it's all your fault. Back then you let me fend for myself, and nothing happened. Who told you to be nice to me? I can't live without you, the biggest The culprit is you. You can't single-handedly pinch me into what I am today, and then despise me for being deformed!" She seemed to be urging her words, but Zeng Fei had no way to refute.Feng Lan's words were right, if he hadn't indulged him intentionally, Cui Yan wouldn't have been able to go so far on the wrong road.He loves Cui Yan very much, and always wants to treat her better, even better, wishing to give her the whole world.He was the one who forged the intimacy between the two of them, and he used to enjoy this kind of intimacy, but when he realized that the situation was not what he imagined, Cui Yan's feelings forced him into a dilemma in reality, he was vigilant He came over and wanted to pull away, but this kind of pulling away like a severed arm was unfamiliar to him, and it was even more cruel to Cui Yan.He knew it was hard, but he had to do it. Zeng Fei said: "I treat you well, because you are also my relatives. But even if you are a father and daughter, you should avoid suspicion when you reach a certain age." "Dear ones!" Ding Xiaoye's disdain and ridicule appeared in front of Cui Yan's eyes when he heard these two words.Ding Xiaoye could see it, so did Feng Lan, and Kang Kang... Maybe everyone could see it, but Zeng Fei was the only one who was deceiving himself. Cui Yanyu said sadly to Zeng Fei: "My heart is selfless and generous. Zeng Fei, if you really want to treat me as your relative, you should be more open-minded." Under the dim desk lamp, she had a pale face with a sad expression.This kind of Cui Yan was more difficult for Zeng Fei than when she was eloquent.He thought of some past events, his heart softened a bit, and he sighed: "How many times do I have to say, people can't live in this world by their own temper." "If it was your temper, would you love me?" Cui Yan keenly captured what she cared about most from his words. Zeng Fei leaned back on the chair wearily, closed his eyes slightly, "I don't want to discuss this kind of issue with you." "Are you scared? Don't dare to answer? Afraid I'll see you lying!" Cui Yan was aggressive.He does not love her, or cannot love her, this distinction is very important in her heart. "Did you go to Feng Lan?" Zeng Fei simply changed the subject. "Why do you ask that?" Cui Yan said warily, "Don't be turned around and blame me!" "Don't admit it? I don't know who you are yet!" Zeng Fei knew that he had guessed correctly when he saw Cui Yan's appearance. Cui Yan is very good at pleasing people, because she has learned to read people's faces, guess people's hearts, and then do what they like from a very young age.She seldom fights with people, and gets along well with everyone.When she was fourteen years old, Zeng Fei took her back to her sister's house.My sister, brother-in-law and his old mother were originally reluctant.Because Cui Yan is not young anymore, and has experienced many things, it is not easy to raise, and no one feels at ease when there is one more person in the family.But it only took less than a year for Cui Yan to let Zeng Fei's family completely accept her existence. Even though they didn't treat her as close as Kang Kang, everyone from the old lady to her sister and brother-in-law admitted that she was a A sensible and kind child who knows how to do things and has a sweet mouth, which is very worry-free.Kangkang even treated her as his own sister.Every boyfriend who breaks up misses her well.She is like water, it looks different in different containers.Only Zeng Fei is familiar with her nature, Cui Yan has no sense of security and longs to be loved, so she subconsciously pleases everyone and lets others see her goodness.In fact, she was very stubborn, no matter how much trouble she had to get what she wanted, she would always get it, except... regarding the matter of dealing with Feng Lan, Zeng Fei didn't believe that she would sit still. The matter may involve Ding Xiaoye, Cui Yan dare not be careless.Zeng Fei was not easy to be fooled, her complexion changed, and she reluctantly said: "I'm looking for her." "What did you do to her?" Cui Yan raised her chin and said, "I told her, I love you. What's wrong? I didn't lie!" "That's it?" Zeng Fei still stared into her eyes. After a while, Cui Yan lowered her voice and added: "I also said that you love me too... It will be a matter of time!" Zeng Fei had a headache, "You keep talking about love, do you know what love is?" "Of course I know." Cui Yan said sharply, "I also know that Feng Lan doesn't love you. If she really loves you, she won't give up casually because of external force. If it were me, whoever said what, whoever stopped I will never change my love for you." Zeng Fei didn't want to listen anymore, "Okay, okay, take your 'love' and go back to your room to sleep, I'm tired." Cui Yan didn't move, she thought of why people would call a kind of sadness "sadness", it was like a kind of strong corrosive undercurrent, eating and soaking the whole person.She can accept Zeng Fei pushing her away and rejecting her with harsh words, he has his concerns and difficulties.But she couldn't stand him talking about her "love" with such a contemptuous attitude, as if it was a big joke. She was wrong, wrong in saying love too many times.Zeng Fei was tired of listening, tired of listening, and his sincerity became a joke. Cui Yan always thinks that love is the best thing she can give Zeng Fei, and it is also the thing she has the most, inexhaustible and inexhaustible, but she actually forgot one thing, too many things will become cheap .In Zeng Fei's view, her love is like this. You can't live by doing your own crimes. "Still leaving, haven't 'loved enough' yet?" Zeng Fei stood up and walked around her to the bathroom. Cui Yan's eyes were red, she squeezed her hands secretly, and suddenly asked: "When my mother said she loved you, did you treat her like this?" Zeng Fei stopped in his tracks. This is a taboo between them.Even if Zeng Fei lets Cui Yan run amok again, she rarely dares to touch his sore spots.The people and things in the past have become old wounds, and uncovering the scars will only make everyone hurt, which is not worthwhile.But now she doesn't care about it, her sadness is trapped in her heart, she can't get up, she can't get down, and when she speaks out, she is moaning without illness, and she wants him to experience this feeling too.Now she somewhat understands how her mother feels.All the thoughts, that person suddenly didn't realize it, just because in his heart these were not important at all. Zeng Fei turned his back to Cui Yan and said, "Your mother and I have nothing like this." His tone was calm and restrained, which made Cui Yan want to pierce his disguise even more. "Did she not tell you personally, or did you pretend not to know? Also, my mother is not like me, she always puts that word on her lips. " "What do you mean?" Zeng Fei turned his head to face Cui Yan coldly. Cui Yan thought to herself: "I remember my mother said that a woman can only be sad three times in a lifetime at most, and then her heart fades and she dies... Didn't she break her heart when she died? Don't you ask me which three times?" ?” Zeng Fei's eyes became more and more fierce, but he didn't tell Cui Yan to "scroll" immediately. Cui Yan knew that he didn't care. "The first time, it was because of my bastard biological father. Her stomach disappeared when she was eighteen. The second time, it was because of Uncle Cui. She always thought that she couldn't get away with what happened to Uncle Cui. The third time was for whom? ...do I still need to say..." "what do you know!" "Of course I know...you treat her as a 'family member', just like you treat me." Cui Yan smiled bitterly, "Zeng Fei, don't make me do it all because of you three times." She finished and walked out of his room. Zeng Fei locked himself in the bathroom, letting the water wash over his body fiercely. "Who is it for the third time...do I need to say?" Who taught Cui Yan to say these words?She made it up to anger him?Or did Jinglin really say that? Jinglin is very different from her daughter. Compared with Cui Yan, she is more reserved and reticent, and she keeps everything in her heart.She didn't say anything to Zeng Fei, at least she never told Zeng Fei personally, so at that time he just pretended not to know. Not long after Zeng Fei was born, his father was transferred to another job, his sister lived with his grandmother, and his mother had to go to work. He grew up with a nanny.When his mother was busy with work, she would even allow the nanny to take him back to her home. He even mistakenly thought that he was really the nanny's child, and asked Jinglin to play games with him, calling "sister" over and over again. His earliest memory is that he was wearing a heavy padded jacket, chasing after "Sister Lin" trying to touch the bow on her braid, stepping on his right foot with his left foot, falling and crying.The aunt scolded Jinglin loudly, saying that she couldn't take responsibility for what happened, and Jinglin hung her head and said nothing. Later he went to junior high school, Jinglin was waiting at the gate of the school with his favorite crispy meat.The classmates asked: "Zeng Fei, how many sisters do you have?" Zeng Fei blushed and said, "She is not my sister, but the nanny's daughter." Jing Lin handed the crispy meat to him and left. Didn't say anything. Later, the family changed the nanny, and he and Jing Lin became estranged.Occasionally, I heard about her recent situation from my mother. It was nothing more than saying that she had poor grades and mixed up with bad elements in society early on. A good girl was ruined.When he saw her again, he had just been admitted to a key high school, and on the way home with the admission notice, he saw her coming towards him from a distance with a huge belly.Zeng Fei was so shocked that he forgot everything, the only thing he couldn't forget was Jing Lin's face turning from red to white.The corners of her mouth trembled, she couldn't tell whether it was shame or bitterness. At the age of twenty-five, Zeng Fei participated in the largest anti-pornography campaign of the year.In the nightclub, he passed a row of naked young women with their heads in their hands, one of them looked up at him blankly, he scolded her impatiently, and told her to squat down, but after a while, through the big The heavy makeup recognized the face from before.He bailed her out and said, "Don't do this, I'll give you money." Jing Lin shook her head silently. Twenty-eight years old, Zeng Fei is the most promising one among the same batch of people who joined the team, and his future is limitless.The superior promised that as long as he made another meritorious deed, he would be promoted exceptionally.If he sits in that seat at his age, it is unknown that his achievements will surpass his old man in the future.This time, he took the initiative to walk into Jing Lin's life. At that time, she was no longer his "sister Lin", but the closest woman around Cui Kejian, the key target of anti-pornography and crime crackdown.Every time he went to her, she was as happy as a child.She still doesn't like to talk, at most he asks a question, and she answers, knowing everything and talking endlessly.She only said a few words on topics that had nothing to do with his interests - Cui Kejian was very kind to their mother and daughter, and she let her daughter take his surname. Cui Kejian's incident was revealed, and he died soon after.Zeng Fei took all his places up to the root.The arrest was a complete victory with the least cost, and Zeng Fei was promoted as expected, and he was in the limelight for a while.But he didn't have the expected spring breeze, almost every day after get off work, he would stay by Jinglin's side with peace of mind.He tried to reason with her, the law, and his own difficulties.She listened quietly, never refuted, and then she quietly consumed the rest of her vitality... When he and Cui Yan lifted the white cloth off Jinglin's body in the morgue, Zeng Fei looked at the needles all over her body, and slapped her stone-cold face fiercely, and he gave himself the next slap. The slap was so painful that he burst into tears in front of Cui Yan. Zeng Fei seldom wants to think of Jing Lin's shriveled and out-of-shape appearance in the end.At that time, all kinds of praises were given to him from above, and the envy and compliments of others were like a tide. His father also said with satisfaction when he was outside that "the next generation is awesome, and there will be successors".However, behind the flowers and applause, that face hovered in his mind all the time, no matter whether he was awake or dreaming, no matter whether he resisted or not.He finally resigned from the public office, took Cui Yan with him, and cared for the only part Jing Lin left for him, the best part of her.His greatest satisfaction is to see Cui Yan's full and happy face day by day. That face is youthful and full of vigor, which will make him forget about death and ugliness. Cui Yan filled Zeng Fei's life, as if the scent of bath liquid she used now filled his breath and chest.This bath liquid was bought by Cui Yan and placed in Zeng Fei's room, just like many of his personal items have passed through her hands.He has no wife, and no fixed female companion. Cui Yan has already played the role of the hostess of this family invisibly. Zeng Fei secretly cursed "evil door".He usually uses this bath liquid, but he remembers that the taste is clearly different, and it is definitely not as strong, frivolous... and sweet as it is now, which made him dizzy.He tried to turn down the water temperature in the shower, and turned the switch of the faucet hard, only to realize that it had been turned to the end. In the sound of running water, someone seemed to whisper in his ear: "Afei, I'm cold..." This is the last sentence Jinglin left for him.When he was young, he insisted on swimming in the reservoir and nearly drowned. Jing Lin tried her best to pick him up, and he was fine. She had a long cold, and she said the same thing when she was seriously ill. He seemed once again on the verge of drowning.Who took him ashore this time? He shook his head vigorously and breathed heavily, the sweetness that once disgusted him became his life-saving medicine. Another face, another voice dispelled the chill just now.However, the voice guarding his heart was clearly also sad. She said, "Zeng Fei, don't make me sad three times because of you."