Chapter 14 Chapter Fourteen Before I Regret

It wasn't long before Feng Lan came out of Wu Jiang's house, and before she could think of any countermeasures, she received a call from her father asking her to go home for dinner at night, reminding her to be smart and bring her mother's favorite things along the way. Feng Lan hurriedly bought the silk scarf that her mother had admired for a long time but was reluctant to buy, and brought it home in fear.As she expected, the silk scarf was swept to the ground by her mother.Mother Feng scolded her daughter angrily, saying that Wu Jiang was married, and Feng Lan was the only one in their family who was in trouble, and she had the courage to take the initiative to reject Zeng Fei, who was so desirable.Feng Lan giving her a silk scarf now is tantamount to letting her live with her face covered among relatives and friends from now on.

Feng Lan knew he was in the wrong, so he didn't argue too much. After eating, he obediently sat on the sofa and let his mother scold her.Based on her experience, when her mother gets tired of scolding, the anger will almost disappear, and then she will invite her mother to have a midnight snack. Unexpectedly, Feng's mother scolded for two hours, and even turned over all the old accounts from the past. The more she talked, the more angry she became. The anger at the time was even worse.Feng Lan was afraid that she would have high blood pressure again, so she quietly used her mobile phone to ask her brother on the other side of the ocean for help, and asked him to quickly ask his little niece to call grandma.

While waiting for the rescue, her mother finally brought up the topic of Ding Xiaoye, she asked Feng Lan: "You can't really be deceived by lard, because that waiter pushed the matter with Zeng Fei?" At this juncture, Feng Lan didn't dare to be perfunctory anymore. She knew very well that if she nodded, her mother would faint from anger, but she was unwilling to shake her head against her will, so she could only hold her mother's hand and said, "Do you want me to say something?" Ten thousand times? Zeng Fei and I don't have the kind of relationship between a man and a woman, and it has nothing to do with anyone."

Feng's mother said: "It's best to have nothing to do. I asked him personally, and he doesn't mean anything to you. He is quite self-aware. Even if my daughter can't get married at the age of forty, she hasn't lost her price enough to marry a waiter in her own restaurant. " Feng Lan couldn't sit still anymore, jumped up from the sofa, and asked, "Did you ask me? Mom, who are you asking?" "Who else? That little waiter who lost your mind. I let him go back wherever he came from..." Feng Lan quietly looked at her mother for a while, then grabbed her bag and walked towards the door.

Mother Feng stomped her feet anxiously, "You still say it's not because of him?" Feng Lan said: "Mom, do you know how Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, Romeo and Juliet got together, and how they died—all forced by their mothers!" After changing the shoes, Feng Lan closed the door with a bang, leaving only Mother Feng and Father Feng who had driven out of the study room looking at each other.Mother Feng hurriedly ran to her wife's side, clapped her hands and asked, "I know Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, they have turned into butterflies! Then how did the foreign Romeo and Juliet die... Oh, you are telling me, what is it?" How did you die?"

Feng Lan didn't go back to the restaurant in the afternoon, and she didn't know what her mother said to Ding Xiaoye.If mother really let Ding Xiaoye leave, she would not know where to find him.She can only return to the only place where she and Ding Xiaoye have a connection with her heart hanging. After closing, the restaurant was quiet, and the remaining light ignited Feng Lan's hope.She walked in the direction of the small terrace of the restaurant, and then stopped by the carved wooden screen. Ding Xiaoye was leaning on a "deck chair" made of several rattan chairs, with his hands resting behind his head, his hair was still freshly washed and wet.There is still a low sound of music around, which comes from the restaurant's playback equipment.

The guy would enjoy it.Feng Lan looked at him, not knowing whether to cry or laugh.She still can't figure out how she fell into his way, but no matter how blind or superficial love is, it is love after all. She really loves him. Not just a little bit. After a long time, Ding Xiaoye looked back at her and asked with a smile, "Are you here?" "Is this all prepared for me?" Feng Lan alluded to the music and the empty chairs beside him. Ding Xiaoye said: "You say yes." "It's not bad." Feng Lan took a deep breath of the air on the terrace seemingly comfortably.Even if it is rooted in the bustling heart of the city, the cool breeze at night is better than the chaos during the day.She imitated everything and moved a few chairs together, lying beside him.

This small terrace is the only outdoor landscape of the restaurant. To be precise, it is a patio. During the renovation of the restaurant, a small flower garden was built, some green plants were planted, and water fountains made of stone-carved lotus leaves were placed in the corner.Usually two tables for four can be set up.This location is the most popular among lovers. Although there are many mosquitoes in summer and there is no air-conditioning outside, it is still booked early every day. The shape of the rattan chair fit the occasion, but Feng Lan felt a little nervous when he leaned on it.She adjusted her posture and looked for a pillow to cushion her head. Finally, she felt a little more comfortable. She straightened her legs and watched the dripping Guanyin shaking its thick leaves in the night wind. The sound of a trickle, close your eyes, and pretend that five meters behind you is not a kitchen, but in a picturesque valley, or between clear water and blue sky, it doesn't matter where, as long as it is isolated from the world, there is her by your side A person who never forgets.This imagination gave Feng Lan a moment of peace and happiness.

"I thought you were gone." Feng Lan lay down for a while, then said softly. Ding Xiaoye said, "Almost." "What did my mother tell you?" "Call me to the box and chat for a few words." Ding Xiaoye turned sideways slightly, facing Feng Lan with a smile, "You are definitely born to your mother. I found that you two, mother and daughter, are very similar in certain aspects." "My mother is not like me..." Feng Lan swallowed the silly word "love you" in time, "...is also at your mercy. What did she say, did she tell you to fuck off? ?”

"Your mother is more polite than you. She talked with me about life and ideals." "Didn't I let you leave with your life ideals in the end?" Feng Lan snorted, how could she not know what her mother did, and she was curious about how Ding Xiaoye could still stay here. Ding Xiaoye answered her question. "I haven't received my salary this month." "Nonsense!" As soon as her mother opened her mouth, it would be strange if the store manager didn't quickly settle the bill and leave. "Tell me, how did you convince my mother, so that I can learn from you."

Ding Xiaoye said: "Your mother is not only more polite than you, but also much smarter than you. What she asked me, of course I have to answer honestly." "For example, you are not interested in me at all? You are honest enough." Feng Lan said displeased. "Do you want me to say that I love you like crazy, kneel down and let her be fulfilled?" Ding Xiaoye said with a smile, "I said, I only tell the truth in front of the old lady. There is another big truth - I am here, It's convenient for her to stare at me, and I can't do anything bad. But if I don't do it in your store, it's hard to say. " "You haven't done anything bad yet?" Feng Lan bit his lip and said.She believed his words, this was the only way to bluff her mother, but she was still puzzled, "Why don't you go? Don't say you can't find a better job than mine." Ding Xiaoye's dimples appeared again, "But I can't find such a silly proprietress! I found that the 'welfare' in your restaurant is not bad." He shamelessly looked at Feng Lan's flushed face, and smiled again, "Since you Let me lie to you, now that I have neither people nor money, how can I be willing to give up halfway?" "That's true." Feng Lan nodded. "Your mother released you so soon?" Ding Xiaoye asked curiously. Feng Lan said: "I used Liang Shanbo, Zhu Yingtai and Romeo and Juliet to scare her." "She also believes?" "Why don't you believe me? Do you think I can't do it in a hurry?" Feng Lan put his hands under the back of his head, facing him sideways, and said, "If I really love someone, I don't care about disobeying my parents because of it." .In the end, they love me, and they will forgive me no matter what in the end. What I am afraid of is that I will risk everything, but the other party is the one who betrayed me first." Ding Xiaoye said: "Then you have to keep your eyes open, my service does not include turning butterflies and taking poison." "I knew you would be like this." Feng Lan knew it in his heart, and said to him again, "If my mother said something nasty to you, don't hate her when you think that her daughter is so stupid." "certainly." "real?" Ding Xiaoye looked at Feng Lan and said: "Her words can't hurt me. Isn't it normal for a mother to feel sorry for her child? The jackal is still protecting the cub. When I looked at her, I thought of my mother. If my mother is still alive, even Hurt anyone, and she will protect me as well." Feng Lan had never heard Ding Xiaoye bring up his mother, or any of his family members.She is curious about everything about him. "How long has your mother been dead? What kind of person is she?" Feng Lan asked. Ding Xiaoye said: "She is a beauty." Feng Lan has no doubts about this. Whether her mother is beautiful or not can be seen at a glance by what her son looks like.Although Ding Xiaoye is not feminine at all, Feng Lan can't imagine what his feminine template would look like, but people with such eyebrows, nose bridge, lips and chin are usually not ugly at all. She pretended not to care and said: "I understand, every mother is a great beauty in the hearts of children." But Ding Xiaoye said: "It's not up to me whether I'm beautiful or not. I told you that my grandmother is a Kazakh. I heard that she was a flower in Tzardeni when she was young. At that time, they had a lot of intermarriages with foreigners." At the age of eighteen, my grandmother secretly left home with a Han man who went to the mountains to buy medicinal materials, and has never been able to go back since then... That man is my grandfather." Feng Lan felt that something was wrong. If, as Ding Xiaoye said, her grandmother never returned to her hometown, that is to say, she grew up outside since his mother's generation, then why did he return to her hometown? To herd horses and fritillaria?This is not in line with the life trajectory of ordinary people.But she didn't want to interrupt Ding Xiaoye's words, he was willing to talk about his family to her, which in her opinion was a rare progress in the relationship between the two, and it was also a surprise. "Pure-blood Kazakhs look very different from Han people. My mother is probably a good example of a good fusion of the two bloodlines. She doesn't have much culture, and she doesn't like to dress up like you, but she is a beauty, which is probably the reason." The common impression left by everyone who met her...until she fell ill. That's probably why my dad was initially attracted to her. Then my dad had other women, the last and most endearing one ever. She is the lady with the highest asking price in my father's business, because she is so popular. Anyone who has seen her knows that she is actually just a shadow of my mother when she was young." Feng Lan reached out to touch Ding Xiaoye's hand, brushed the callus on his palm with his fingertips, and said, "I guess you must have had a good life before." This was actually a question that Feng Lan had kept in his mind for a long time, but it was confirmed in his words today.People's fortunes will change, even their appearance and name will change, but words, deeds and conversation are difficult to modify, which are the imprints of a long-term life on a person.Love, or infatuation will temporarily blind Feng Lan's eyes, but she is not stupid, and she has seen countless people in the past few years of opening a restaurant.Everything about Ding Xiaoye was like a mystery to her, but she instinctively felt that he was not just an ordinary waiter, at least not a man who used to only live a life of herding horses and sheep. Ding Xiaoye closed his palm lightly, and put her fingers in his palm.He didn't evade Feng Lan's speculation, but looked at the hands of the two and said slowly: "If the 'good life' you mean is money, frankly speaking, I had a good life in the first twenty years. I Although Dad's business is not respectable, it was once very big and he was attached to very powerful people. He was very generous to our mother and son, who made me his only son...at least that's what I know." "What happened next?" Feng Lan couldn't help asking.It was almost certain that there would be an accident later, otherwise he might not have "fell" into her hands. Speaking of family changes, Ding Xiaoye's attitude is not so "wandering".He continued to play with Feng Lan's fingers, picking at her nail polish again and again, making her hands itchy and painful.So is the heart. "It is said in the movie, 'Sooner or later you have to pay back when you come out to play'. People like my dad, no matter how big the business is, if they don't change their appearance to clean themselves up, it won't happen sooner or later? In those years when he was in power, those who offended There are a lot of people, and they know too much what they shouldn’t know. Once the luck is exhausted, there is no way to recover. He was chased by the police and hid in Tibet. My mother’s illness became more and more serious day by day. Divide up and divide up, and the rest will be spent on my mother's medical expenses." Feng Lan asked, "Do you hate your father?" "Hate?" A daze appeared on Ding Xiaoye's face that made Feng Lan feel strange.He shook his head, seemed to think about it again, but still shook his head, "Why hate? Because he is not a good person? As I said, he has always been kind to our mother and child. After I went to elementary school, he came home less frequently. My mother seems to be waiting for him every minute of her life... Even I take waiting for him as a habit. His return is the best thing for our family. My mother will become very happy, and I would like to see her happy. I Dad will also bring me a lot of things, food, play, and always smiles at me. In my heart, that is all the love of a father. Like Santa Claus, even if he only comes once a year, even if he comes Put down the gift and leave, but I still look forward to his coming next year, and the year after that..." Feng Lan grew up in a sound and complete family. Her parents would quarrel occasionally, and even fought once, but if anyone outside said that her father was not in the slightest, her mother's eyes would turn cold.Her father was also a leader when he was in power, but at home, his wife and children were always the top priority.The two elders have been inseparable even after retirement, and their relationship seems to be closer than when they were young.She could understand Ding Xiaoye's words, but she couldn't understand that kind of life at all. "Then...you hate your stepmother?" Her tone became hesitant. Ding Xiaoye laughed as soon as she heard it, as if she had told a ridiculous joke. "Who is my stepmother?" Feng Lan was taken aback, "Didn't you say that later your father had a woman outside, and the last one was a young lady who looked a bit like your mother?" "Oh...she." Ding Xiaoye adjusted his posture and said casually, "She is at most 'one of' my dad's women outside, but my dad really cares about her. If it wasn't for her, My dad may not fall so quickly." "So you should hate her even more. She took away your father and even killed him." Feng Lan was a little confused by him. Ding Xiaoye said: "What my dad did was not a good thing. Even if that woman accidentally pushed her... she is still a poor person. Speaking of taking my dad away, my dad had other women before her. My mother didn't even show any special hatred for her, why should I hate?" "What kind of messed up family do you have?" Feng Lan felt weird, these things were too far away from her life, it sounded like a dog blood TV series - no, dog blood TV series at least had wives and concubines fighting, How can they live in such harmony and mutual understanding? Ding Xiaoye took one of her hands from her ear, and said with a smile: "If I tell you, my mother not only knows about the existence of that woman, but also acquiesces in my father's bringing home that woman and the daughter of her predecessor. .That little girl calls me 'brother', my dad is very nice to her, don't you think I'm a big liar?" Feng Lan is not surprised now, she has learned to look at Ding Xiaoye and his previous life with "abnormal" eyes.She used to think he was a weird guy, even if he didn't look like a bad guy, he always had an inexplicable "evil spirit", or "wildness".From this point of view, he grew up in such a "harmonious" environment, and he was considered physically and mentally healthy if he didn't grow into a pervert. She said in awe: "If you're not a big liar, your dad is a lover. Tell me, is he a handsome guy of 'You're like this and times two'?" "Why is it 'this way I multiply by two'?" Ding Xiaoye raised his mouth. "Because even if a man grows up to be like you, I will not allow other women around him, and I will accept the existence of those women and coexist with them, never!" Feng Lan stared. Ding Xiaoye said: "In fact, my father looks very ordinary, and I am more like my mother." Feng Lan shouted: "I don't believe it!" Ding Xiaoye found that women are really interesting. She accepted all the more bizarre things he said earlier, but she refused to believe such a trivial issue as his father is not a handsome guy.Women's brain circuits are indeed different. "You don't believe it, because you are completely different from my mother and Duan... that woman." "A woman is a woman, and love is absolutely exclusive." Feng Lan insisted on his point of view, "If your mother really cares about your father as much as you said, it's impossible for her to be totally indifferent to his cheating." "I guess my mother looked away. She is not in good health. Without this woman, there will be another one. Besides, my father has real feelings for her." Ding Xiaoye said to Feng Lan. Feng Lan didn't take it seriously, "Just like a leader came to inspect, say a few words 'comrades have worked hard', then turn around and enjoy his Qi Tianyan blessing, is this the so-called 'true affection'?" "At least they were buried together after death. This is the unanimous wish of both of them." Ding Xiaoye said lightly. We live in different quilts, but we share the same acupoints in death.This is also a very classic sense of staying together.But Feng Lan is not reconciled. If she had a choice, she would rather hang out with each other every day when she was alive, and leave her bones and ashes after her death. "The love between a man and a woman is completely different." This is a fact that Feng Lan must admit, and she said, "Your father is ordinary, so he must have other abilities that can subdue a woman, otherwise he can't Make sure that the main room can stand upright, and the women outside won't argue?" "I don't know about other flowers and plants. I just said that he was the one who cared the most. He obviously looked for the shadow of my mother in her back then. The other party may not be in love with her. It was mostly forced by life in the beginning. Before meeting my dad , she is living a very bad life. My father is rich and treats her well. He never pursues the past and takes care of her life in a down-to-earth manner. Even the child born to that woman with others in the early years is regarded as my own. , how many normal good men in your world can do it?" "That's true." Feng Lan murmured to herself, devotion doesn't mean that you have to love only one person for the rest of your life, but that you only treat her well when you love that person.A thought flashed through her mind, and she blurted out, "You won't be as promiscuous as your father in the future, will you? Then I must go crazy." She blushed only after she finished speaking. It was as if they really had a future!She felt a little regretful, but now that she had said everything, she was vaguely looking forward to his answer. "Me? Of course I won't be like him." The smile on Ding Xiaoye's face did not fade, but his eyes were full of sarcasm, "It's not because I'm better than my dad, but because I've seen too many stupid women." Even the chaotic lights could not conceal the shame on Feng Lan's face as if he had been slapped across the face.Is there any chat like this?The former sentence was still laughing at Yan Yan, and the latter sentence directly slapped her in the face.It's true that she loves him blindly, and she admits that she is stupid, but does he have to say it so bluntly? Ding Xiaoye glanced at her, slightly surprised by her sudden change of expression, startled, with a suppressed smile on the corner of his mouth, "You think I said you... oh, I almost forgot you. There is progress, and self-knowledge begins .” Feng Lan reached out to pinch him recklessly, and said angrily: "Ding Xiaoye, you bastard! Don't take advantage of it and act like a good boy. The whole world can call me stupid, but you are the beneficiary, and you have no right to say so." Ding Xiaoye asked her to pinch her a few times before he stopped her hand, and asked in a low voice, "You all know this is stupid, why do you still do it knowingly?" "Why don't you eat minced meat?" Feng Lan sneered, "Why don't you ask a beggar, knowing that begging is despicable, why do you still reach out to others?" The confusion on Ding Xiaoye's face did not change, but he remained silent. The small terrace they were on was only lit by a decorative lamp next to the flower garden. Strangely, the light was blurred, but Ding Xiaoye's face seemed clearer than every time Feng Lan saw him in the past.Her hand was fixed by him, and gradually, she began to believe that his words were not out of ridicule, but that he really couldn't understand a woman's love, just as she couldn't understand his past grotesque life. Ding Xiaoye said: "I asked my mother the same question, why spend all my life waiting for a man." "What did your mother say?" "She didn't answer me." Ding Xiaoye was expressionless, only his eyelashes fluttered slightly.His mother never said anything wrong with his father in front of him. He only remembered that when his mother was found to have kidney problems, his father's business was booming, and the house suddenly became much deserted. His father said that it was because the patient needed to rest.Every time the father came home, he greeted the mother and the child, and the mother also behaved cheerfully and tenderly.It’s just that occasionally Ding Xiaoye forgot to bring his keys when he came home from school. When he rang the doorbell at home, his mother always opened the door late.This light will gradually disappear after the door is opened, even if standing outside the door is her most beloved son. At that time, he didn't know much about the emotional world of adults.Sometimes my mother would say to him in a joking tone: "Ah Ting, if you love someone in the future, don't make her wait. Waiting makes a sick person feel that life is too long." Sometimes she changed her mind and said, "Being able to wait is better than having nothing to wait for." He didn't like to hear his mother say these things in the past, and he always felt that they were supernatural, but she stopped talking about them later.Her illness came and went, and she became increasingly indifferent to Ding Xiaoye's father's romantic anecdotes, and even slowly accepted the existence of those women, tolerant of all his good and bad like a family member.In fact, the new lovers around Ding Xiaoye's father changed again and again, but when he was tired, tired, injured, downcast, Ding Xiaoye and his mother and son were his only home. Perhaps Feng Lan was right, his mother had never complained.Resentment is too deep, and you can't leave it, hold it, and take it away. Everything turns into helplessness, and it becomes a "virtue" of tolerance in the eyes of others. "Her life is like a poker card with only two sides, one is 'he comes' and the other is 'he goes'. Until she became terminally ill, the nurse said that as long as she was awake, day and night could not be distinguished. She will find a way to tidy up her hair, she is afraid that my dad will appear in front of the hospital bed at some point." "Is your father here?" Feng Lan asked impatiently.She imagined such a picture, even if it was a lie, it sounded cruel. Ding Xiaoye didn't answer right away, Feng Lan felt his hand shaking her slightly. "No. It's not that he doesn't want to... My mother should forgive him. At the last moment, she couldn't keep her eyes open. I lied to her and said: 'Daddy is here to see you'. She walked away with a smile .” "That's enough, you did what you can." Feng Lan couldn't imagine the grief of watching a loved one die with his own eyes, "It must be very sad for you to be with her for the last time alone." Ding Xiaoye's tone was calm, but Feng Lan knew that was definitely not the case in his heart. "I didn't stay with her for long, and I only had time to see her for the last time. It doesn't matter if my dad didn't come. In the last half month, the nurse put away the mirror, otherwise my mother would never let my dad see her at that time." She used to be so beautiful, no matter how good the food in her restaurant is, the guests who come here will only remember that the proprietress is good-looking... until she dies, she is almost out of shape." When Feng Lan first heard that Ding Xiaoye's mother also owned a restaurant in the past, her heart skipped a beat for no reason.Is this one of the reasons why he is willing to stay in her shop?She didn't even have the courage to ask. "Birth, old age, sickness and death are inevitable things." Feng Lan tried his best to say some comforting words. However, Ding Xiaoye didn't seem to be talking about her sympathy.He glanced at her and said, "My mother's death was indeed due to illness, but do you know how that woman died?" "She's not here either?" "Well, he died of a drug overdose." "Because of your father?" Ding Xiaoye said: "My father's accident is one of the reasons. What's more terrible is that the people she cares about set her up." "man?" "What do you say?" Feng Lan remained silent. Ding Xiaoye continued: "That's why I said she is also a poor person. I still don't understand that love is so important, it can make people live and die and make people crazy. If that is the case, then I would rather not love anyone." "Because you don't love anyone, it's impossible for you to understand, so you can speak so easily." Ding Xiaoye frowned, "The world is so big, don't women also have a pair of legs? Why trap yourself on a man and just watch the sky?" Feng Lan was lying flat, quietly looking at the sunshade glass on the roof of the terrace. If there were a pair of looking down eyes, would she be like a frog sitting in a narrow well at this moment.She probably understood why Ding Xiaoye said these things to her. Even though he didn't love her, he had good intentions. "Many women don't need a wide world. No matter how big the world is, what's the point if it's not hers? Why is the frog stuck at the bottom of the well? Because when it looks out from the mouth of the well, it thinks the sky belongs to it. It belongs to it. Even if it's a small piece, it's enough for it." Feng Lan looked at Ding Xiaoye beside him, and asked with a smile, "You think I'm pitifully stupid, don't you?" Ding Xiaoye said expressionlessly: "Poor people must have something to hate. Let me ask you, Feng Lan, what do you like about me? Identity, status, material conditions... Are we suitable? If it weren't for this face, you Will you still treat me unforgivingly?" Thinking about his words, Feng Lan couldn't help drawing the outline of his face with her hands.Yes, if he looked like the head chef, Lao Li, the cut worker, and Ah Cheng, another waiter, would she still be fascinated by him?she won't.But it's not like she hasn't seen good-looking men, just like her mother said, which of the men she loved was ugly?Aside from being far away, Zhou Taoran and Zeng Fei looked dignified even in the crowd.She will be tempted and hesitate, but she will not give up her bottom line for them.But she has no bottom line in Ding Xiaoye's eyes. She said: "Is falling in love with the soul more noble than falling in love with the appearance? Heartbeat is just a momentary feeling, why is it not the same? If you don't have this face, I won't look at you at all, but if you only have this face, I won't look at you for too long. I haven't figured out what is hooking me in your bones, maybe there is nothing at all. By that time, I will get tired of seeing you and leave you far away, like a Out-of-season dresses. Do you think I'm going to die like those women you've seen?" A playful expression appeared on Ding Xiaoye's face.He asked, "What if I trick you into running away before you get tired of watching it?" "Haven't you been lying to me? Ding Xiaoye." Feng Lan said with a wry smile, "If you really dumped me before I got tired of it, I would hate you to death, then fall in love with another person, and start over." "Really?" Feng Lan's hand wandered to Ding Xiaoye's lips, and he bit him gently. Feng Lan withdrew his fingers with a hiss, but did not withdraw too far, just tapped the corner of his mouth lightly.She said: "Do you think I'm talking angry? Let me tell you, I will not kidnap my future life for a failed relationship, nor will I ruin my imagination of love for a bad man." Ding Xiaoye tilted his head, bit her fingertip easily again, and mocked: "I will never repent! It seems that you were left behind for no reason." This time, Feng Lan slowly retracted his hand to his side.Ding Xiaoye always found out her weakness easily, and her confidence was weakening. He's gone, and it's not impossible for her to do it all over again.But how long it will take to get over that breath, God knows.Will she wait until she retires for morning exercises to sing "Sunset Red" to meet some old man in the park again?If she doesn't want to die alone before then, she must give up her "emotional key" and break in at the door of marriage.This possibility made goose bumps appear on Feng Lan's arms exposed to the night wind. "Ding Xiaoye!" Feng Lan suddenly called out to him. "Ok?" He agreed lazily.But this answer is still close at hand after all.Feng Lan's bewildered heart inexplicably settled down a bit.She said: "Come with me on my 30th birthday. Whether you cheated or not cheated what you wanted, you should have this patience." "The reason?" Ding Xiaoye revealed a trace of curiosity. "Because I was afraid." Feng Lan said, "When I was in my teens or twenties, like my little friends, I didn't know why people in their thirties lived. Youth is gone, so what's the point of existence. But again I will be thirty years old in just over a month. There are still many things I don't understand, and there are still many things I want to grasp. I don't want to wait until that day comes, and find that I am alone, only more than myself when I was twenty Crow's feet." Feng Lan stared at Ding Xiaoye intently.Even if the possibility of their cultivation is even slimmer than reaching the sky, even if he has nothing, even if he may not love her and disappear without a trace at some point, she still wants to look into his eyes.If he accompanied her through her thirtieth birthday, she would desperately keep him, no matter what means she used, even if the whole world said she was crazy, she would let him accompany her through forty years old, Fifty...until they're too old to forget their age. Ding Xiaoye didn't look at her, he tried to sit up and said, "This song is terrible, I'll change it." Feng Lan grabbed his collar, gritted his teeth, and said in a sad tone, "You won't even promise me this?" The two reclining chairs they made up were very close to each other. Feng Lan held on to Ding Xiaoye, and he didn't struggle immediately. The posture of the two of them was like a couple lying on the bed. Ding Xiaoye laughed first, he stretched out his hand to brush away the strands of hair that were blocking Feng Lan's eyes, and slid them behind her ears very unskillfully.He said: "Feng Lan, I am not the person you imagined. I just made up what I said just now to lie to you. Every liar has a set of such rhetoric. The more tragic and bizarre, the more difficult it is for women to move away." Legs. You are a thirty-year-old girl, why don't you have a little heart?" He said, trying to free part of his T-shirt from Feng Lan's grasp, but she grabbed it even tighter. "Since you want to confess, let's finish it at once. What else is lying to me, tell me." "It's all." Ding Xiaoye lowered his eyelids, looked directly at her slightly trembling lips, and said, "I'm very casual about that, don't take anything seriously." "If you want to lie, why don't you lie to the end? I'm not afraid, what are you afraid of?" Feng Lan bit her lip. Ding Xiaoye tried to say in a joking tone: "I'm afraid you'll take it too seriously, and you'll regret it if you can't leave me." Feng Lan finally loosened his collar, but quietly put his hands around his neck. "Anyway, I can't live without you now. Give me a little more time before I regret it."