Chapter 13 Chapter 11

"...I heard that she refuses the pursuit of any boy, and never talks to any boy. She walks alone every day, like a nun." Thinking of the message on the alumni record, Zhou Qianyi panicked the moment he saw Bai Mushan, pursed his lips, and dumbly didn't know how to speak, and typed out a draft that could almost be recited thousands of times. Forget it cleanly and thoroughly. "I...well, uh, I mean, Zuo Zuo, can you wash your face first?" Zhou Qianyi explained incoherently, "Since I have worked here for a long time, even if you want to drive me out , at least let me wash my face."

——The cry of "Zuo Zuo" made Bai Mushan lose her mind for a moment, even though she was wearing a thick and ruthless mask now, she couldn't help but froze. In middle school, she had longed for the scene where Zhou Qianyi would call her name countless times, but she never imagined that this address, which should have caused ripples in her heart, was so many years late. She pointed to the direction of the bathroom, sat down on the sofa without speaking. When Zhou Qianyi washed her face, she still maintained the posture of sitting upright. She suppressed it for too long, and finally said slowly: "I don't know where you know my address, what do you want to do when you come to me? Zhou Qianyi, after so long, haven't you humiliated me enough? What you have done to me The injury is deeper than you can imagine. It is so deep that... You are not needed at all, come all the way from Yancheng, and trample on my dignity again. The goal you, or your friend, has already achieved It has reached far, and even, will last longer."

She turned around and turned her back to Zhou Qianyi, "It's been five years since I went to college, right? I often have nightmares. In my dreams, there will be you, Miao Yandong, and many strangers." People, you surrounded me, isolated me, and insulted me with words so embarrassing that I couldn't speak... When I woke up, even in summer, I often broke out in a cold sweat. Over the years, I completely It's just this reason to be closed. Even though I have left the campus and become an office worker, those nightmares still refuse to give up on me. I am like a street rat, living a life of being alone. Unless it is absolutely necessary, I never deal with any boy, let alone talk or chat. All of this is thanks to you. I should thank you, thank you, for making me lose the ability to love and the courage to communicate with any opposite sex. I can't trust anyone to love me."

"Zuo Zuo, actually I..." She ignored Zhou Qianyi and continued: "But I often think unwillingly, what did I do wrong? Let you treat me like this? Well, even if I made friends carelessly and said something I shouldn't say, it would affect Miao Yandong and Wu Qi's love progress. But Zhou Qianyi, smart you, please tell me, have I ever done anything to hurt you? I have thought about it for a long, long time... I admit, I Once, I used to love you so humblely that it was almost as if I was worshiping a god, but all I gave was humble, but not despicable." Zhou Qianyi stood silently on the corner of the armrest of the sofa in the living room, his heart was deeply shaken, he said timidly: "Zuo Zuo, I want to say, in fact, I came today to solemnly apologize to you."

Bai Mushan glanced at him quickly, her face full of surprise. He mustered up his courage and continued: "I dare not ask for your forgiveness, I just hope that you will stop closing yourself up. You are such a good girl, don't hurt yourself because of the ignorant mistakes we made back then. I I know, maybe I am too late to say this. But, I want you to live well in the future. At that time, I was not sensible, and what I did greatly affected your life, and even more A lot. I was too ignorant and young. I ate brotherly loyalty as a meal, and my blood boiled at every turn, like a firecracker. Others would catch it at one point. I didn’t understand... I didn’t understand your affection for me at that time. When I understood By the time it was too late.”

Bai Mushan turned her body with her back to him at this moment, and silently looked directly into his eyes, as if she wanted to find out the truth of what he said. "I know it's inappropriate to say this, but you may not have thought that after reading the article sent by Nie Shuang, the guilt in my heart would not be lighter than the severe trauma you are suffering now. After graduating from university, After work, I often think that the time when I was the least scheming, the most free-wheeling and the most honest with each other was precisely the student life at that time. Everyone, when they were young, would say the wrong thing, do the wrong thing, and perhaps hurt others, but Not everyone has the chance to apologize. If I come today and tell me these words, it can untie your knot, it is worth more than anything else. "

The room was silent for a long time. Zhou Qianyi was so nervous that he didn't dare to speak out. He didn't know how much Bai Mushan could hear and believe what he said. Just at this moment—Gulu. Zhou Qianyi, who didn't eat lunch or dinner, was very embarrassed to hear his stomach protest.He covered his mouth with his hands and coughed twice to cover up. grunt.grunt. What a shame.Two more beeps. Bai Mushan couldn't help laughing, and said in relief, "Sit down for a while, and I'll see what's in the kitchen." "Uh……" She left him and walked into the kitchen. After busying around in the kitchen, a large plate of fried rice with eggs in soy sauce was placed on the table.The aroma of fried pork with fresh mushrooms and bitter gourd with garlic wafted in the living room, and he couldn't help swallowing.Looking up again, Bai Mushan came out with a pot of corn rib soup as if by magic.

Seeing his astonished expression, Bai Mushan explained apologetically: "The pork rib soup is left over from my last night's meal, but it hasn't gone bad. You don't mind, do you?" He shook his head and sat down at the table. The fragrant soy sauce and egg fried rice was thrown down his throat, and he wanted to swallow his tongue. The ribs were just right. He had never eaten such a well-cooked and non-greasy ribs.The flavors of fresh mushrooms and meat are mixed together, and the bitter gourd is sweet and slightly bitter. He doesn't care about the gentleness, so he eats it in big mouthfuls.

Zhou Qianyi ate up all the food on the table, wiped his mouth at the end, patted his belly contentedly, and yelled "delicious, delicious".As if knowing that she was willing to forgive him, Zhou Qianyi's expression was extremely calm, and he even leaned on the chair unceremoniously, joking with her: "Have you considered becoming a chef?" She shook her head: "The meal costs two hundred yuan. Besides, it's already too late. You can live next door to me. Anyway, Xiao Qi has moved away, so the vacant space is also vacant." It turned out that the girl's name was Xiaoqi.

She took out a set of quilts from the room, and asked Zhou Qianyi who was in a daze, "How much do you charge for accommodation?" She seemed a little embarrassed, "Well, let's count it as a standard room, including the meal expenses, add it up, five A hundred dollars, no problem?" Zhou Qianyi stared firmly into her eyes. His dark brown eyes were as cool as water, and his expression was calm and natural, without any affectation: "Zuo Zuo, thank you..." Bai Mushan heard his words from the bottom of his heart, the so-called thank you, of course, was not only for the meal, but the relief when he finally let go of the knots in his heart for so many years and was able to face the other party calmly.

... After Zhou Qianyi finished speaking on the hospital bed, Nie Shuang asked, "What happened next?" "Later, she accompanied me to a few tourist spots in Beijing and ate Beijing snacks." "I didn't ask that..." "Oh... don't you know, the leader called and asked me to attend the meeting the next day. I hurried to Yancheng and received a text message from her on the way. I was looking at it when I got into a car accident... " Nie Shuang stomped her feet anxiously, "Why don't you understand what I mean, I mean, you two, didn't you spark a little flame?" "It's broken, it's broken..." Zhou Qianyi yelled, and Nie Shuang didn't know if he changed the subject on purpose, "I haven't texted her back yet, don't let her be distracted, and quickly bring the phone over." Nie Shuang smiled, and handed Zhou Qianyi's cell phone over. He moved quickly a few times, and then put the cell phone on the table beside the bed. "Brother Qianyi, Brother Qianyi!" The door was knocked open roughly, Jiang Xiaoguang was sweating, and carrying two heavy bags, bumped into the ward: "Where is the injury, show me! Why didn't you tell me when you called me just now. " "It's a trivial matter, what can I say. How do you know?" Zhou Qianyi asked lightly. "Nie Shuang told me." He touched the plaster cast on Zhou Qianyi's leg, groped in his bag for a long time, took out a carbon pen, brushed two strokes, signed his name, then took two steps back, satisfied Nodding, "Speaking of which, my signature is getting more and more beautiful!" ...The brothers and sisters looked at each other very tacitly, and really didn't know what to say to the living treasure in front of them. "What do you want to eat? I came in a hurry, so I slurped in the supermarket. However, it should be enough for you. Is the bird's nest ready?" "I'm not hungry now, hey, what a big deal, it's still so late, and you have to come to the hospital." Jiang Xiaoguang took Nie Shuang's hand, seeing that she didn't break free, he felt at ease, "We brothers, what are you talking about?" "What's the big deal?" Ji Cheng suddenly appeared at the door, perhaps only Jiang Xiaoguang noticed, and Nie Shuang pulled out his hand embarrassingly at this moment, fearing that Jiang Xiaoguang would be overwhelmed, he stroked his hair embarrassingly. Ji Cheng glanced at Nie Shuang lightly, completely ignoring Jiang Xiaoguang's existence, "They all have comminuted fractures, and they are still stubborn. If you don't take good care of yourself and exercise, you will be able to enter the Disabled Persons' Federation." Behind him is an elderly doctor, Seeing everyone looking at him, he turned his head to Zhou Qianyi with a smile and said, "This is my father's friend, Dean Bai. Dean Bai, this is my little boy, you must take care of him." The man called Dean Bai looked at the young people in the room with a smile, and said kindly: "Ji Cheng, don't worry, I've seen it, the problem is not too big, young people, with strong firepower, we will give you physical therapy in the later stage , Everything is too long. He will definitely not be able to enter the Disabled Persons’ Federation.” "Thank you so much Uncle." After seeing off Dean Bai, Ji Cheng returned to the ward, pulled up a chair, and sat down on Zhou Qianyi's right side, just sitting across from Nie Shuang across the bed. Zhou Qianyi deliberately adjusted the atmosphere in the room, "It seems that I am really popular. When it comes to a critical moment, there are still brothers who are thinking about it. But, Ji Cheng, how did you know that I had a car accident?" Ji Cheng withdrew his gaze from Nie Shuang, and said: "I just went to the traffic police brigade to find a buddy to do something. I heard them talking, and at first I thought they had the same name and surname. After checking, I didn't expect it to be you, so I hurried over .” "Oh..." Zhou Qianyi looked at Nie Shuang thoughtfully, then at Ji Cheng, and then at Jiang Xiaoguang, thinking about what to say. Finally, Nie Shuang couldn't sit still anymore, "Brother, that, Ji Cheng, Xiao Guang, you guys talk first. I'll go home and have a look, help mom, and come back later." "I see you off." "I see you off." ——Ji Cheng and Jiang Xiaoguang stood up and said this sentence almost in unison, making Nie Shuang even more embarrassed, "No, it's very convenient for me to take a taxi." Ji Cheng insisted: "Let me see you off." Jiang Xiaoguang was at a disadvantage and didn't insist anymore. The score on the court was already 2:0, and he saw the raging flames of love in Nie's eyes, which he had never experienced when he was with her. The final whistle was about to sound, and Jiang Xiaoguang knew that this time, he might be eliminated again. Ji Cheng looked at the silent Jiang Xiaoguang thoughtfully, turned around, and took Nie Shuang's hand very naturally, "Let's go." Nie Shuang did not expect that Ji Cheng would suddenly come over and hold his hand on such an occasion, trying to break free. He seemed to have guessed that she would do this, so he calmly exerted force, so in Zhou Qianyi and Jiang Xiaoguang's meeting In their eyes, the hands of the two of them only waved in the air, but they held on tighter, like lovers playing a little temper, and then reconciled sweetly. ——Oh, it turns out...it turns out... Jiang Xiaoguang's heart was so sore that he felt as if he had been forcibly poured more than a dozen bottles of vinegar into his stomach. He continued to surge up from his stomach to his intestines. He said with difficulty: "Nie Shuang, you and Ji Cheng haven't seen each other for a long time. It's fine if he goes. Have a good chat." After finishing speaking, I regretted it, Jiang Xiaoguang, Jiang Xiaoguang, shouldn't you take the initiative to fight for it? Zhou Qianyi glared at him bitterly. "Xiaoguang, actually I..." Seeing Jiang Xiaoguang like this, Nie Shuang's inner shame was all written on his face, "I..." Jiang Xiaoguang waved his hands pretending to be generous, "Go, go, wait for you to come back." Zhou Qianyi stared at the three of them thoughtfully. Could it be that the old lover is back again?Xiao Nizi is very good at hiding her thoughts, she even kept it from me, and even set me up for a long time.You must have a good look at her when you go back. He didn't notice Jiang Xiaoguang's eyes that were as dull as ashes. The night wind is a little cool.There are few pedestrians.On the wide asphalt road, there are only a few hawkers closing their stalls unhurriedly, and a few cars pass by occasionally, which adds a little bit of loneliness to this usually tepid city. This was the second time sitting in Ji Cheng's car, Nie Shuang put his hands behind his back warily, worried that Ji Cheng would do something out of the ordinary again. The hospital is not far from Nie Shuang's home. Ten minutes after the car drove out, the neighborhood where Nie Shuang's parents lived was in front of them.Ji Cheng recalled Jiang Xiaoguang's staring expression, summoned up all the courage, and asked, "Nie Shuang, we, I mean..." He said with difficulty, "Can we start all over again?" After saying this, a tricycle turned a blind eye to the red light and rushed over like crazy. He slammed on the brakes and the car swerved, narrowly missing the guardrail. Nie Shuang exclaimed and almost jumped out of the passenger seat. At this moment, she clutched her chest, grabbed the upper handle of the car with her right hand, and said, "Drive slowly." "Miss, it's really not my fault. The current tricycles are too crazy, they don't have license plates, and they run around at red lights." Ji Cheng thought she had forgotten what she asked just now, and was thinking about whether to ask another question. At the other end, Nie Shuang suddenly said in a low voice, "Ji Cheng, maybe you already know that I, I'm already with Jiang Xiaoguang." Ji Cheng's slightly surprised expression flashed her eyes, she held her breath, and continued: "Even if I am not with Jiang Xiaoguang, do you think it is possible for us to be together? I admit, not only our reunion this time, but even with you For so many years after breaking up, I have thought about whether we will be together again. However, there are so many people and things between us, even if our fate is endless, we are destined to meet again, but in the present Are we at this point in time, or are we at that point in time when we first fell in love?" Ji Cheng stared at the road ahead, frowning. "I heard from Miao Yandong that during your years abroad, your life was..." She struggled to utter a few words, "It was very hard. I regret not being able to spend it with you. But now, Ji Cheng, don't you think we have been away from each other for too long? I have also experienced a lot in these years, and now we can still find the best fit when we love each other, and we can be as unreserved as before. To be together?" She raised her head, as expected, her eyes were moist, did she cry just now? "Ji Cheng, do you know me now? Do you know me? What do you do now? What do you like to do in your spare time? Do you like sour or spicy food? Chinese food or Western food? What brands of clothes do you buy? What brand of shampoo do you use? Has your personality changed, and will you suddenly become moody? As for me, do you still think of me as the ignorant girl who didn’t understand anything and rushed forward bravely for love? But, now, no It’s the same. Now, when I am angry with my boss at work, I will use the most vicious language to swear at him, and I will swear at him secretly when my colleagues secretly calculate. I will always think about how to make up for it. Who do you lose your temper with? When shopping, I like to go to foreign trade stores, and I have the highest requirements for shoes and backpacks. I would rather have cheaper clothes, and the grade of shoes and backpacks must not be lowered... Do you understand what I said?" When the car arrived downstairs in the community, Nie Shuang opened the door, "Ji Cheng, we are all adults now. Are you sure, what you want to start over now is the love between me and you," she emphasized " The tone of our "two words," is not your obsession with the pure and simple love of the past? Maybe it has nothing to do with me. Have you thought about it? What you want to get back now is the love of the past, or the love of the past? The love object of this love?" She clenched her fists secretly, "Even if we can overcome all of these, what about Jiang Xiaoguang? He treats me...always, always very well. I, I won't hurt him." Without waiting for Ji Cheng's response, she ran into the building and quickly closed the door. Back home, my mother just finished making soup and put it in a thermos, so the family of three locked the door and went downstairs. Nie Shuang was stunned. She didn't expect Ji Cheng to leave. "Oh, uncle and aunt, are you going to the hospital? Just take my car." Nie Shuang looked away guiltily. When he was in middle and high school, Ji Cheng often went to the house. Although he hadn't seen him for a few years, Nie Shuang's parents recognized him quickly. The husband and wife looked at each other and saw that their daughter didn't object, so they had sex happily. car. Along the way, Ji Cheng showed great hospitality. "Uncle, don't worry, Jian Jian is fine. The director of that hospital is a family friend of our family. Jian Jian's leg is not as serious as those doctors said. The director said that as long as we take good care of it, it will be fine." Nie Shuang's father breathed a sigh of relief: "Oh, that's good, you can talk to the dean when the time comes, and take care of him." "Don't worry, I told you before I came." "You child, when did you come back? I heard that you went abroad? Did you suffer a lot?" Ji Cheng was stunned for a while, then sadly replied: "I came back a while ago." Nie Shuang's mother looked at Nie Shuang, looked at Ji Cheng repeatedly with the expression of seeing her son-in-law, pursed her lips and kept laughing, until she got out of the car, she said to Ji Cheng: "It's too late, Auntie won't spend much time with you Chatted. Come to play at home another day, and Auntie will cook something delicious for you." Ji Cheng nodded obediently, "That's fine, uncle, aunt...Nie Shuang, I'll go back first. I'll come to see Qianyi tomorrow." Nie Shuang pretended not to hear, quickened his pace, and entered the inpatient department of the hospital.Nie Shuang's mother held the thermos and poked her husband's arm, "Old man, do you see anything wrong?" Nie Shuang's father replied blankly: "The question? What question?" "You're still a father. Didn't you see that there's something going on between Nie Shuang and Ji Cheng?" "What's the matter?" Nie Shuang's father turned around a bit, "ah, it's really kind of you to say that. They know each other, why don't they say a word." "Didn't you see that poor little look in Ji Cheng's eyes when he looked at Nie Shuang?" "...You old guy, as long as you can, you can see this. Isn't our daughter and Xiaoguang very good, and I plan to let them get married at the end of the year." "Xiaoguang's child is not bad, but I always feel that he is too childish and immature. Girl, it's just this one. It's always right to be more picky. In my opinion, Ji Cheng is better than Xiaoguang. If he can really succeed, Nie Shuang doesn't know where he got his blessings from." "When did your ideas keep pace with the times? Don't be so nonsense, Xiaoguang is good to you, 'Auntie, Auntie' yelled, and bought you a lot of food and use. Don't take the new and dislike the old." Nie Shuang's mother didn't seem to hear, her eyes were only on Ji Cheng's car going away, and she muttered: "Hey, let me see, there is a door." Because of something on his mind, when Nie Shuang woke up the next day, she almost screamed and didn't even bother to change her slippers, and hurried out of the building. , a black Wrangler off-road vehicle parked in front, the windows rolled down, Ji Cheng rested his chin on his hand, "I'll take you for a ride." "How do you..." "Although I had already calculated that you would oversleep, I didn't expect it to take so long." He looked at his watch, "Miss, I have been waiting for half an hour, and I still don't get in the car?" If you are one minute late, you will be fined fifty yuan. Nie Shuang opened the car door without hesitation and put on his seat belt. Ji Cheng took the egg pancake and a cup of soy milk from the back seat: "I remember, you like to add a little chili, right? It's not good if you don't add spicy, if it's too spicy, you have pharyngitis, it should be just right. I just ate it Yes, it tastes good." "Oh..." Nie Shuang took it, remembering what she said last night, something took a small bite somewhere in her heart, opened the paper bag, the smell of egg pancakes filled the whole car, she ate silently. All the way without words. When they arrived at the company building, Ji Cheng waved at her, "See you later." --See you later?Who will see you later? Nie Shuang didn't care about responding, and hurried up the elevator, and finished typing the time card. It was dangerous, two minutes away. I was so busy all morning that I didn't even have time to drink saliva. I took time to go to the bathroom, and caught up with the client who was eager for dubbing effects. I was called out urgently by the boss while I was still in the bathroom. At noon, Ding Ding came back after running out of customers, and took her to the newly opened hot pot restaurant downstairs. As soon as he walked to the corridor, he saw Ji Cheng leaning against the wall and waiting for her with a smile.Seeing Nie Shuang approaching, she tilted her head to the left. "Eating Japanese food? If you choose the buffet, there is unlimited supply of Haagen-Dazs." Ding Ding yelled: "Where is it? Why didn't I know there was such a good place?" After finishing speaking, he covered his mouth, "Ahem, sorry, look, I'm always ignorant, so I won't be a light bulb, next time I will Find a friend." Nie Shuang held her back, "It's okay, it's really not a light bulb." "Well, it's okay, even if you are a light bulb, I can turn a blind eye." Nie Shuang has gradually regained his senses. He couldn't see Ji Cheng being so thick-skinned, and immediately gave him a fatal blow: "...my boyfriend is Jiang Xiaoguang." After speaking, seeing Ji Cheng's sad expression, he regretted that he was like this hit him like that. Ding Ding noticed Ji Cheng's embarrassing expression, and said very understandingly: "You guys talk, I suddenly remembered something, I need to work overtime, I need to work overtime." After finishing speaking, Ding Ding waved his hand and turned into the fast food restaurant in the alley. Nie Shuang wanted to say something to Ji Cheng, but as soon as he opened his mouth, he was interrupted by him: "Nie Shuang, I don't want to say anything else today, I just want to see you eating delicious food in front of me. Do you still remember us When you were in school? I took you to eat almost all the delicacies in Lancheng." Nie Shuang was dejected, so he had nothing to say, and ate quietly. After five o'clock in the afternoon, during off-duty time, colleagues walked out in twos and threes. When Ji Cheng saw Nie Shuang, he waved his hand and shouted: "Nie Shuang, Nie Shuang, this way!" I was really afraid that others would not see him. The good colleagues saw that no matter men or women, they all looked like gossip gods, their ears were as sharp as rabbits, and their eyes glanced again and again, but they deliberately made a gesture of "not delaying your good deeds", passing by them When he was beside him, he looked up and down repeatedly, and winked at Nie Shuang ambiguously. Nie Shuang thought that Ji Cheng must have done it on purpose, yes, he did do it on purpose. She was never used to being the focus of everyone's attention, so she didn't dare to delay any longer. She got into the car and shouted angrily, "Drive!" As the car drove into the wide asphalt road, Nie Shuang tilted his head, "Ji Cheng, what on earth do you want to do? You didn't hear what I said yesterday, did you? If you didn't hear, I don't mind saying it again." Looking at her angry look, she seemed really anxious.Ji Cheng couldn't help laughing secretly, how long has it been since I saw her like this?I really miss it. "No more, I'm getting out of the car." "Hey, listen to me. How about this, let's go to dinner first, shall we talk at the dinner table? If I get distracted later and get into a car accident like your brother, you will be so distressed." "Ji Cheng, I really can't see, when did you become so thick-skinned? It doesn't mean that you have suffered all kinds of hardships during your years of living abroad. Unexpectedly, you have developed a thick-skinned face." This sentence may be a bit harsh.Seeing Ji Cheng's absent-minded expression, Nie Shuang regretted it again. Isn't the person in front of you the person you've been thinking about for several years?Why do you pretend to be indifferent, torturing the other party and torturing yourself? Is it because you care too much, so you are afraid of losing it again after getting it easily? Is it because I have obtained it before, so I am afraid that after losing it, I will suffer a deeper blow again? Or is it because, in fact, you don't have confidence and courage in this love that can be "lost and regained"? ... I don't know how long it took, Ji Cheng parked the car on the side of the road and said unhurriedly: "Nie Shuang, you and Jiang Xiaoguang, aren't you married yet?" Seeing that Nie Shuang's mouth was wide enough to fit a peach in surprise, Ji Cheng smiled with satisfaction, "So, why can't I pursue you again?" He glanced at a couple on the bustling street, and continued, "Have you received all the postcards I sent you? Do you still like them?" "Nie Shuang, during these years in Australia, I have never stopped missing you. Miao Yandong called me and told you everything, but at the beginning, I still couldn't muster up the courage to stand by you In front of you. You must not know that I have always regretted breaking up with you back then. You must really hate me, right?" Ignoring that Nie Shuang did not answer, he continued, "In Australia, it is indeed very bitter. The suffering here does not refer to the physical suffering when working, but the far away from home, far away from relatives and friends in a foreign country. , because of the language barrier, I was helpless like a fool in the face of everything, that kind of spiritual and spiritual suffering. I won’t hide it from you, in fact, when I couldn’t make it through, I accepted a girl who pursued me desperately, just , but lasted for three months.” Finally, I had the guts to look straight into Nie Shuang's eyes, "That's a girl with a lot of personality, from Wenzhou. Hehe, she was the one who proposed to break up first. She said that love is not begging, and she doesn't want to be a beggar for love." I remembered what the girls said in the night when they broke up: "Ji Cheng, actually, I know that although we have only been together for three short months, I know that you have never had me in your heart. I work hard Yes, I tried, I thought I could change you..." At that time, he only knew how to look at each other numbly. "I understand that if a person doesn't love you, he doesn't love you. Rather than begging for a perfunctory love, I would rather give up." She held back tears, slightly raised the corners of her mouth, and tried to smile, "However, Ji Cheng, you Remember, I dumped you first." He embraced the girl and buried his head in the girl's shoulder socket. "Ji Cheng, take care. If you always love that person, then you should work hard to fight for it. What is the biggest difficulty in doing something? It's not lack of money, time, opportunity, or courage... but, when When excuses abound, knock them down without question." "I will always remember the time we spent together. And I, you don't have to worry, I will soon find someone who loves me and cherishes me." After the girl finished speaking, she took two steps back, waved at him, and strode away. ... Ji Cheng came back to his senses and covered Nie Shuang's eyes with his hands, "Nie Shuang, don't look at me with interrogating anxious eyes like this. Nothing I said is a lie." "Honestly speaking, when I come back this time, I don't have confidence in myself. Can I get your forgiveness, can I rebuild the old relationship, can I hold your hand again, just like I didn't want to let go after holding it? Among us, there are too many people and things, and more, it is the mark that time has left on us. However, I always remember what the girl said. She said, what is the biggest difficulty in doing one thing? No No money, no time, no opportunity, no courage... but, when countless excuses come, knock them down without a doubt. Nie Shuang, I want to continue to be with you, no matter what difficulties I have, I will Defeat them without a doubt." His eyes were dark and shining, "If you are worried about Jiang Xiaoguang's hard to explain, then it's okay, I can talk about it. If you always mind our previous breakup, then it's okay, I think... I think, I can Pursue you again." "...Again, pursue me?" Nie Shuang opened her eyes wide open, hoping that the tears would evaporate as soon as possible, so as not to leak her weakness from the eyes, "I think you remembered wrongly, you never pursued me, yes I have always pursued you wishfully, discarding all self-esteem to pursue you. Since I haven't done it before, how can I pursue you again?" Ji Cheng parked the car on the side of the road and pulled Nie Shuang into his arms: "Nie Shuang, I admit that when I was young, I was too passive about love. However, with the growth of experience, a person, about love, With regard to the concept of love and the good girls around you, you will understand more and more what you want. You remember, many of you girls always say 'men are not bad, women don't love'. Is it really bad? No. In In my opinion, the 'bad' mentioned here does not refer to how depraved this man's character is, but refers to the initiative and boldness of boys in dealing with love, which is why it is so popular with girls. Nie Shuang, after so much For a long time, the days with you are the best time I have ever had. You are the one I want to stay with and cherish most all the time." He buried his head in the hollow of her shoulder, "If it is said that I didn't know how to take the initiative in love before, or that I had no choice but to, then now I will never give up." Bai Mushan's phone call came at night. Nie Shuang thought, she should have called too. "Nie Shuang, how are you doing recently?" "Hey, I should be the one asking you, okay?" "...What and what?" Bai Mushan didn't tell himself, "Isn't it your brother who came to see me, why is he so eccentric? Listening to your voice, it seems that we are having some kind of adultery." "You still say there is no adultery?" Nie Shuang was dissatisfied, "When has he ever been so humble to a girl? He traveled thousands of miles to drive to see you. In order to read your text messages, he even got into a car accident. If his leg doesn't heal, No one married him, you have to take full responsibility for my brother." It took a long time for Bai Mushan's surprised voice to come from the other end of the phone, "Your brother, was there a car accident? When did it happen?" "Ah, didn't my brother tell you? When I came back from Beijing that day, I ran into a drunk driver at the exit of the expressway. After the operation, I saw him texting you back..." "Is it serious? Which hospital are you in now? Your brother, just say that you got home smoothly, and come to Beijing to see me next time." "Uh, maybe he's worried that you're worried. It's okay to say that the ribs are broken, but the soles of the feet are troublesome. The doctor said it was a comminuted fracture, and it might be..." Nie Shuang deliberately made the condition more serious. Anyway, the doctor at the beginning was also So to speak. Bai Mushan was really fooled, and panicked for a moment, "Nie Shuang, I'm sorry, it's all my fault. I... I'll pack my bags and go see your brother." "Okay, okay, come on, I'm busy with work every day, and my parents signed up for a tour group to Qingdao, and the air ticket can't be refunded, and no one takes care of my brother, he is very pitiful." After hanging up the phone, Nie Shuang took out a portfolio from his bag, nestled in the soft sofa, and flipped through it carefully. In the file bag was a stack of printed paper and an envelope with unknown content. He gave it to Ji Cheng when he had dinner with Ji Cheng that night, and asked her to read it when she got home. "A Feasibility Report on the Reunion of Ji Cheng and Nie Shuang". At first glance, Nie Shuang thought it was his university graduation thesis. She grabbed a peach from the fruit plate and took a hard bite. The report consists of six pages and is divided into four major points, which are the comprehensive analysis of Ji Cheng, the comprehensive analysis of Nie Shuang, the feasibility analysis of the two together, and the family dream and family of creating a better life and future together. plan. The report comprehensively introduces Ji Cheng and Nie Shuang's personalities, hobbies, tempers, and work in the current state... The professionalism and comprehensiveness are almost comparable to the reports of detective agencies. Fortunately for him, no one knows him better than him.But his own, after so many years, he even wears flat shoes on the way to work, he will change into high-heeled shoes after arriving at the company, he likes to eat hairy crabs, and he likes to say "fuck off" when he curses...all of them are clear. Nie Shuang put down the report and took out the envelope. There were twelve handmade cards. At Christmas that year when we were together, Ji Cheng once gave her a set of twelve "Walk what you say" cards that he hand-painted himself.After the breakup, she locked them in a drawer. During the four years of university, every birthday, I received postcards drawn by him one after another. Unexpectedly, he actually drew another set. This is a set of cards that is exactly the same as the set of "Walk what you say" that Ji Cheng gave Nie Shuang. It turned out that he drew two sets. His fingertips ran across the card and wiped off a corner of the card. Nie Shuang was so distressed that he wiped it gently with a wet tissue... No, this set should have been drawn recently. There are also cartoon portraits of Ji Cheng and Nie Shuang, twelve of which represent twelve months, and twelve of Ji Cheng and Nie Shuang when they were in love. The two kissed in the quiet grove of the campus, and Nie Shuang closed his eyes slightly. Ji Cheng held her in his arms, supported her chin with the other hand, and kissed her affectionately. When the two went to eat noodles, Nie Shuang splashed the soup on Ji Cheng's face, and the two laughed heartily. Riding a bicycle side by side, Nie Shuang's refreshing short hair fluttered in the wind, and Ji Cheng looked over affectionately. Exactly the same picture and color, exactly the same time and place. 卡片的背后，清清楚楚季橙清晰的笔迹，字的内容，与那套卡片略有不同： 在两人的签名处，有一行刚劲有力的小楷： 聂双的目光瞥过安静的没有一个来电一条短信的手机，说不上是悲是喜。 从医院见过蒋小光后，他便再没有出现过。 打电话，只说工作忙，要加班。聂双说过去看他，又被拒绝，说顾不上。聂双心知肚明，他是故意的，以前的他，再忙，也会抽出时间和自己见面，晚上加班哪怕熬个通宵，隔天早上还会发短信叫自己起床。 季橙那边，她并没有做出任何表示。很大程度上，她不得不承认，并不是自己不爱，而是，始终无法对蒋小光做出交代。 纵然她多半是出于感动才和蒋小光在一起，但五年的时光，她对他，也并非全无感情可言；纵然他曾经说过只要季橙出现，他便彻底退出，自己却不能真的做到那般无情。 这些天，她要季橙答应自己不联系不见面，要静下心来好好想一想，也不过是为了让自己变得清醒些，再清醒些。她没想到的是，蒋小光居然也选择了和自己不联系不见面。 他，是在等自己作出选择吗？还是说，他知道自己的选择已定，已决意刻意疏远，逐渐淡出？ 聂双终于沉不住气，换好衣服，决定打车去蒋小光家里，不论两人见面要说些什么，只要能见面，只要能说说话，她的心里，也会踏实些吧。换了拖鞋刚锁好门，手机来了条短信。 她从包里摸出手机，发信人正是蒋小光，只有一句话：聂双，我往你的QQ邮箱发了一封邮件，请查收，小光。 往邮箱里发邮件，聂双呆住，他很少用这样的语气同自己说话，脑袋“嗡”的一声，她打开门，跑到卧室打开电脑：