Chapter 23 first quarter

Freud also said: Love is an overestimation. The general meaning is that when you see through a person, you can no longer love him (her). Although the conclusion is a bit absolute, sometimes it is not unreasonable. For example, now, when Guan Tong looks at Jiang Manlin, he feels his gaze is penetrating and sharp—he knows what this woman wants, what she has, and what she has lost, but when he looks at Gu Xiaoying, every time , The impression and too many details of her life she gave him are all new. He thought, perhaps this difference may not necessarily stem from the sharpness of the eyes, but just because people who love each other are prone to indulge in a happy common life—from this perspective, Freud’s words are indeed true: When you start to evaluate a person deeply, you actually don't love him anymore.

It's like he and Jiang Manlin can be touched, nostalgic, and sad, but they don't love each other anymore. Interestingly, when Guan Tong met Jiang Manlin this time, their identities were miraculously changed—Guan Tong represented the leaders of the provincial party committee who went to City B to attend a meeting, and Jiang Manlin was dispatched to City B just in time. The director of the bureau is a typical representative of local officials.Still at the wine table, Jiang Manlin was a little late, and was fined drinking as soon as she entered the door.Guan Tong didn't even have time to stop her, seeing that she drank a two-and-a-half glass of liquor, Guan Tong could only stare at Jiang Manlin, not knowing what it was like in his heart.He asked himself, if it was Gu Xiaoying instead, would he be willing to let her drink like this?

In the end, there was only one answer: even if it was to refute the leader's face, he had to try his best to stop it. But for Jiang Manlin, he couldn't stop him: firstly, he had no position to stop her, and secondly, the other party might not need his protection. Even if she already has a stomach riddled with holes - about this, Guan Tong didn't know until the next day, when the meeting was over, he had time to rest in City B.When he suddenly learned that Jiang Manlin was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment due to stomach bleeding the night before, Guan Tong was about to go to the mall to buy some skin care products for her that had not yet set up a special counter in the provincial capital according to the instructions of Xiaoying.It is estimated that Gu Xiaoying had already considered that he knew nothing about skin care products, so he specially downloaded the pictures, Chinese and English names, and reference prices of the items he wanted to buy from the website, printed them neatly on a piece of A4 paper, and told Guan Tong to do it. OK.As a result, Guan Tong hesitated again and again, but decided to go to the hospital to visit the patient first.

At first glance, Jiang Manlin's face was whiter than the sheets. Jiang Manlin happened to wake up when Guan Tong entered the door, she was still in a daze when she first saw Guan Tong, thinking that she was hallucinating, until he sat in front of the hospital bed, coughed and said: "Why do you drink so much wine if you have a bad stomach? " Jiang Manlin finally believed that the suspected Guan Tong figure in front of her was alive. she laughed. That smile was faint and weak, revealing paleness and weakness, which made Guan Tong a little unbearable to look at - he couldn't figure out why this woman made himself so miserable?Even though she was able to solve the position of a senior real-time job at a young age, and she was even more successful than Guan Tong, but the price was so high, was it worth it?

But he couldn't speak these words, he could only exchange pleasantries: "Did I tell you about your family?" Jiang Manlin shook her head: "It's not a big deal, it's not necessary." "Isn't it a big deal to be hospitalized?" Guan Tong sighed, "Why do women have to be so strong, it's almost enough." "In the past, I was very envious of those women who could stand alone," Jiang Manlin answered irrelevantly. "I often went to dinner parties with my parents and entertained some occasions. I knew what to say when I met someone at a very young age, and represented the whole family at the wine table. When I toast the elders in the Internet, the toasts are always innovative. Everyone says that this little girl is really smart. When I grow up, I have almost no other choice. Accepting the shadow of my parents, and secretly thinking that I must do better than them. It turns out that I did a good job. Everyone knows that I have a background, but no one can deny that I am capable. Guan Tong, you know Yes, background and ability are indispensable in officialdom. Without any one, there will be a glass ceiling above your head. You know that the world on the other side of the glass is nothing more than that, but you just can't break through."

She paused, took a look at Guan Tong, saw him bow his head and sighed, and continued: "But I later realized that even if I have everything, I still have to pay... A woman who can stand alone, always Do some things you don't want to do. For example, sacrifice your time with your family to accompany some inexplicable people, say some inexplicable things, and make your stomach bleed inexplicably." "Then take a break... Otherwise, report and apply to go back, your father-in-law will definitely help you." Guan Tong suggested. "Why bother?" Jiang Manlin shook her head, "I've already come, so there's no reason to be a deserter now. In fact, they didn't agree with me coming here at the beginning. If they said they wanted to solve the problem, it would not be difficult to stay in the provincial government. , not to mention that the child is young and the situation is tiring. But they don't know, I was really going crazy at the time, I didn't think I could stay in that house for a day. Either escape, or tear my face... For my son, I can only Choosing the former... just treat it as giving each other a time to calm down, maybe after getting through it, the days to come will get better."

"You..." Guan Tong didn't know what to say. "You didn't expect me to say this, did you?" Jiang Manlin looked at him, with a smile that she couldn't tell whether it was a mockery or a joke, "According to my strong personality, even if I tell anyone that I am not happy I will tell you. Why, you are living a prosperous life, but my eyes are dying." "I don't think so," Guan Tong said, "every family has scriptures that are difficult to recite." "That's true." Jiang Manlin smiled mixedly, "I can't guarantee that I will be carefree every day when I'm with you. I always don't understand, Guan Tong, you said that when two people live together, the relationship will be different. Is there a shelf life? Will there be a day when even if there is no seven-year itch, there will be a ten-year itch..."

"Well, I don't have the right to speak for the time being," Guan Tong smiled slightly, "I've only been married for two years, so I don't have enough experience. But I think when two people are together, when they depend on each other, they can't part with each other. Or put it this way Well, you think you can give up, but once you do, you will hurt more than anyone else." "You never said such emotional things before," Jiang Manlin smiled, "Marriage really can change a person." "Actually, this is what my wife said," Guan Tong smiled. "She has too many quotations, and one of them left a deep impression on me. She said, 'Many tragedies of fate stem from tragedies of character'. Thinking about it, it might be true. In this way, people with different personalities do things with different personalities, and they will naturally get different endings. The road is chosen by oneself, and it may be related to others, but it is not necessarily connected."

"She's very smart," Jiang Manlin seemed to sigh, before asking, "I heard she's much younger than you." "Almost six years old," Guan Tong answered honestly, "According to superstition, a gap of six years old is not considered auspicious." "But you're still together." "If you really appreciate each other, you won't care about these rules and regulations," Guan Tong turned to look at the bedside table, "Do you want some water? Fruits don't seem to be edible..." "Are you dependent on each other?" Jiang Manlin didn't answer, but asked seriously, "You understand what I mean by dependence."

"Yes, I understand, it's actually a kind of instinctive trust and longing," Guan Tong looked at her, "You will not depend on your family, but you can't hide it. I have to thank my wife for this, She taught me what to say, but no one understands it in my heart, and in the end, I am more tired than anyone else.” Jiang Manlin stopped talking. At this moment, Guan Tong's cell phone rang, he picked it up to have a look, and answered it naturally: "It's me." "Is the meeting over? Did you buy me what I wanted?" Gu Xiaoying asked expectantly. "I haven't gone yet, I'll go now," Guan Tong looked at his watch, "I'll be home in the afternoon."

"Okay! How about I make stir-fried kidneys for you? I just learned from the recipe!" Gu Xiaoying snickered. "I'm outside, so I won't tell you more," Guan Tong said helplessly, "Be light, it must be light." "Yam, the yam is light." Gu Xiaoying made a final decision, choosing the aphrodisiac vegetables. Guan Tong was speechless. Hang up the phone, and when I turned around, I saw Jiang Manlin staring at him without blinking. Seeing him finish the call, she smiled slightly: "Your lover?" "Yeah, let me buy her cosmetics," Guan Tong smiled apologetically, "I have to go, the car in the afternoon. Is there anyone here to take care of you? It stands to reason that you should have some porridge." "Someone from the unit came over this afternoon." Jiang Manlin waved her hand, her face was still pale, but her smile was much better than when she first started, and even brought a little softness back then, "Let's go, let's have a safe journey." Guan Tong also smiled, turned and walked out, when he was called to the door, he turned around and saw a warm smile on Jiang Manlin's face, she said: "Guan Tong, let's have a child, a happy person should have a child." Children will be happier." Guan Tong was shocked, nodded a little stiffly, and then turned to leave. As a result, on the way back to the provincial capital, sitting in the car, Guan Tong kept thinking about Jiang Manlin's words: Have a child, happy people should have a child, and they will be happier. He thought of Gu Xiaoying's almost obsessed expectation, probably, he was also longing for such happiness, right? In the hearts of women, there is indeed a natural motherhood. As a result, Guan Tong did not expect to bump into Gu Xiaoying and Guan Liming on the phone as soon as he got home. The moment he saw Guan Tong entering the door, Gu Xiaoying felt relieved and hurriedly said to the phone: "Dad, wait a moment, Guan Tong is back." , let him answer the phone." After speaking, he couldn't wait to transfer the phone to Guan Tong, and at the same time, he didn't forget to pat him on the shoulder, leaving a look of "good for himself", and gloated aside. Guan Tong looked at Gu Xiaoying's expression inexplicably, picked up the phone, and immediately knew why Gu Xiaoying was so gloating, because Guan Liming's first sentence was: "Your nephew is really good! He is only 20 years old and has a son! Make your uncle so happy, four generations live under one roof!" "Do you think this is a violation of the policy?" Gu Xiaoying whispered in Guan Tong's ear. "How can there be so many policies in the countryside?" Guan Tong got annoyed when he heard this topic, so he turned around to deal with Gu Xiaoying, and then dealt with Guan Liming, "Okay, next time I go home I will prepare lucky money for my children." "I didn't talk about the New Year's money!" Guan Liming became anxious, "I'm talking about giving birth!" "I'll give the New Year's money to him after he has a baby." Guan Tong answered with a frown.For the first time, Gu Xiaoying discovered with admiration that her man's level of pretending to be crazy is quite high. "Talk about the two of you, Guan Tong, how old are you!" Guan Liming was almost out of breath, and yelled, "What's the use of reading these books? You can't even have a baby if you read so much!" Gu Xiaoying sighed, shook her head and said nothing.Guan Tong was even annoyed when he heard Gu Xiaoying's sigh, so he couldn't help shouting: "Then it's good to go to work after finishing junior high school, get engaged at eighteen, get married and have children at twenty? It's good to be farmers for generations, and it's good for children to be left-behind children." ? Why don’t you make sense when you say that?” "Guan Tong, please keep your voice down," Gu Xiaoying patted Guan Tong's shoulder, and looked at him sympathetically, "If you don't understand what you're saying, don't say it, and you'll make the old man angry if you shout so loudly." After speaking, he stood up and went to the kitchen to prepare for cooking.Guan Tong resisted listening to Guan Liming say a few more words, finally couldn't take it anymore, and finally shouted into the phone: "I won't say anything, hang up." Really hung up the phone! Gu Xiaoying was choosing vegetables in the kitchen while listening to the commotion in the living room. He hung up the phone after hearing Guan Tong yelling, and couldn't help shaking his head—we have been married for almost three years, and every time I see Guan Tong and Guan Liming arguing with her I feel very sad.In fact, Guan Tong is quite filial and a very good-tempered person, but he can always be aroused by his father's completely incommunicable views and find it difficult to calm down.For example, having a baby is not the scariest topic in their family.Because the scariest topic is that from the very beginning, Guan Liming felt that his son was useless, no matter how much he studied, no matter how big an organization he worked in, he was useless and worthless! Because Guan Liming was scared.He feels that "money" is the most secure thing in the world, and those who can make a lot of money are promising people.Before meeting Guan Liming, Gu Xiaoying never knew that there are people who would rather send their sons to work than graduate students; would rather their sons do the work for a familiar contractor than listen to him. I've heard that the leaders of the provincial party committee work as small followers... Guan Liming even once thought that the person who does the work for the contractor can become a contractor sooner or later, unlike his son, who depends on others every day and only earns four dollars a month. More than a thousand pieces. It is also because of this situation that Gu Xiaoying habitually repeats in front of Guan Liming how capable Guan Tong is. He is the youngest deputy county magistrate in Puyin, the youngest deputy director of the General Office of the Provincial Party Committee Office, and a promising But Guan Liming still thinks these are too ridiculous, because according to his understanding, "If the future is really bright, why can't we find a job that can make money for all relatives in the family and become urbanites?" identity? The last time Yanyan went to the provincial capital, didn’t he just help find a job as a worker in a factory?" Gu Xiaoying is so excited that he will debate: "This is the disadvantage of not studying. If Guan Tong and his cousins ​​can work hard like Guan Tong, they won't waste every minute in college, and they won't be reduced to The point where I can’t find a job. It’s still the same sentence, if you are not good enough, don’t complain about the unfairness of the society. If it is so unfair, Guan Tong will not be where he is today!” Guan Liming sneered: "So he still has no skills. If he is a big boss and starts a big company by himself, no matter how many cousins ​​and cousins ​​can work!" ... Gu Xiaoying, who has always been able to speak well, was so shocked by this circular theory that he couldn't communicate at all, and was powerless to fight back. From then on, he never tried to reason with Guan Liming.Occasionally, she would feel schadenfreude when watching the spark-splashing communication scene between Guan Liming and Guan Tong. But this time, Gu Xiaoying looked at Guan Tong who was restlessly pacing in the living room, and couldn't continue to gloat.Instead, she quietly thought, maybe she really should think of other ways to help you take a shortcut, it's not enough to keep fighting for a long time...