At the age of twenty-eight, Gu Xiaoying suddenly wanted to have a child. It was really sudden—that is, when she woke up one morning, she suddenly felt that there was only one child missing in her life that was so lively that it was tending to be noisy. It was a summer morning, and the hour hand was quietly pointing to 8:30. Gu Xiaoying stood on the balcony and looked out, only to see that the weather was clear and the birds were singing and the flowers were fragrant.On the lawn not far away, there are grandpas and grandmas playing with the children, and on the road outside the dormitory area, there are office workers hurrying and jostling shoulder to shoulder... These are the bustle she likes.

However, it was obviously very lonely. By this time, her husband, Guan Tong, who used to work in the secretariat of the Provincial Party Committee Office, had been working as the deputy county magistrate in Puyin County, 400 kilometers away from the provincial capital, for more than a year.When I left at the beginning, I said that the term of this temporary position was only two years. After two years, some people will stay in the local area to continue to be promoted, and some people will be transferred back to the original unit... Now counting on your fingers, there is less than one year left. To get to the end.

However, looking at Guan Tong's dedication and never admitting defeat, Gu Xiaoying doesn't know, will he really come back after the expiration?Is he willing to come back? Standing on the balcony and looking back, the 60-square-meter two-bedroom room was filled with furniture, but it still looked empty. For more than a year, Gu Xiaoying has been guarding such a house that lacks a male owner, living a simple and regular life: as a university teacher, she does not need to go to work every day, so she still spends most of her time watching at home. Read books, prepare lessons, write papers, write some novels while reviewing the exam for some pocket money...

It’s not that I’m not lonely: Most of my friends in the past were office workers from 9 to 5, and there were very few opportunities to meet up from Monday to Friday. Even on weekends, many people have their own arrangements, so I hope to be with my friends Frequent gatherings are not realistic; both parents work and live in F City, which is more than 500 kilometers away from this city, and there are still five or six years before retirement; How do you mobilize with your daughter-in-law? You just don’t come to live in G City, the capital city of the province. The reason is “I don’t have children, and we have nothing to do when we go. Why don’t we plant some land in the countryside and make some money”... Ah... Children... And Speaking of returning to this topic, Gu Xiaoying is really suffering.

In fact, not long ago, Gu Xiaoying firmly believed that twenty-eight years old was a very young age: in big cities, there are many women who are not married at twenty-eight years old, and it is normal to be married without having children but.And it's not that she doesn't want children, she just wants to live a couple of years together, but why do people keep nagging her ears every day—from physiological hygiene knowledge such as "it's not good for women to have children when they are old", When it comes to the common sense of housekeeping services such as "it will be more difficult to take care of children when you are older", it is almost a matter of preaching the "three obediences and four virtues" to her!And the most frightening thing is that her parents-in-law, who have been bound by traditional concepts all her life, call her every day to brainwash her, but her parents who have received higher education are also taking action now, giving her various forms of persuasion education every now and then. , ah - she is going crazy!

Anyone who is familiar with Gu Xiaoying knows how powerful a person must be to drive her crazy—Gu Xiaoying, born in the 1980s, stayed at the school to teach after graduating from the School of Self-reflection Art, and her character is lively and cheerful The disadvantage is that they are too lively and cheerful; their appearance is okay, about 1.65 meters tall, neither fat nor thin, with a slightly baby face (this is a bit similar to Guan Tong, so they look like a "husband and wife" It can be regarded as good at dressing up, as long as you don't open your mouth, don't throw chalk stubs with the students, but just stand there quietly, anyone will think that she is a noble lady; she is popular, kind, and enthusiastic enough. No pretensions, carefree when with boys, greasy and crooked when with girls, good reputation among students; quick-witted, relatively poor, a bit talkative, wide-hearted, all unhappy things fall asleep in one sleep I can't remember anything... Such a person, from the inside out, what point is not tenacious enough?

However, even such a tenacious person will soon be tortured madly: At the beginning, Gu Xiaoying still had an excuse and a reason not to have children temporarily - because she had an accidental miscarriage in the first year of marriage, so she always You can use "both physical and mental injuries need to be recovered" as an excuse to avoid the collective pursuit of parents and in-laws for a while.But more than a year has passed in the blink of an eye, and it stands to reason that her body as strong as a cow and her spirit as optimistic as a pig have almost recovered, especially last month when she went to Puyin to celebrate her wedding with Guan Tong 2nd anniversary.In other words, it was already the third year of their marriage, how could she still hold her breath?

Gu's mother couldn't figure it out, Gu's father couldn't figure it out, Guan Tong's father couldn't figure it out, and Guan Tong's mother couldn't figure it out... Anyway, except for the young couple themselves and Gu Xiaoying's group of "life is short, enjoy yourself in time" All the enthusiastic people, including relatives on both sides, well-meaning colleagues, and caring neighbors, are starting to worry!In the dark, a persuasive education group full of vitality and fighting spirit is gradually forming and growing stronger! God—for quite a long time, the sentence she was most afraid of hearing by Gu Xiaoying was: Don't you plan to have children yet?Not too young!

The sentence I am more afraid of hearing than "most afraid" is: Is there any news? Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo However, people change. For example, at nine o'clock in the morning, Gu Xiaoying stood on the balcony and couldn't get enough of the children playing, so she finally changed into a cotton skirt, took a book and went downstairs to the small garden not far away.She sat down on a stone bench at random, put the book aside, and watched with interest the two baby boys and one baby girl playing not far away.The babies are about two or three years old, and the girls are obviously more naughty than the boys. While supervising the boys digging sand pits, she is shaking an empty mineral water bottle that has probably been drunk.Shaking it a few times felt very boring, so while the boy wasn't paying attention, he hit the baby boy on the back of the head with a "slap"!So "wow", the baby boy burst into tears!

The grandparents watching the children seemed to realize that such a violent incident happened while they were chatting, so they hurriedly interrupted the conversation and rushed forward.The grandpa of the baby girl was very embarrassed and apologized to the grandma of the boy baby. The grandma of the baby boy probably felt that her grandson was so cowardly and shameless as a boy, but she felt sorry for her grandson, so she said "it's okay" She hugged her grandson and coaxed her vigorously, and promised to buy her grandson a "big bread with chicken inside" at noon (according to Gu Xiaoying's analysis, it should refer to the hamburgers from K's or M's)... The scene was chaotic, Gu Xiaoying watched Overjoyed.

It seems that this is also the first time she has started to think about a question: if there is really a child who calls herself "mother", it seems that it is not bad if it makes trouble for herself but also adds a lot of fun. However, if you think about it carefully, this matter is not that simple. As we all know, having a child is a systematic project.Not to mention the "Hope Project" and "Closing Mountains for Forestry" before, and the hard work and hard work in the middle... Let's just talk about the most essential link: the birth of a child must be completed by the husband and wife with concerted efforts, one heart and one mind, and hand in hand Bar?But Gu Xiaoying's man is 400 kilometers away, so it's good to see him once a month. She's not a snail, and she can't reproduce by herself! Thinking of this, Gu Xiaoying was very depressed. "Two tigers, two tigers, run fast, run fast..." When I was in a daze, the phone rang, and I knew it was my "best friend" Xu Xin when I heard the music. Gu Xiaoying picked up the phone and asked: "Editor Xu, the day's plan is in the morning. If you don't go to work well, why should you call me?" "Little fly!" Xu Xin's voice was trembling, and he couldn't contain his excitement at this moment, "Little fly! Let me tell you, I'm going to get rich!" "Developed?" Gu Xiaoying looked up, the sky was very blue and there was no trace of UFO, "Aliens are coming to pick you up?" "Bah, you're an alien," Xu Xin almost danced, "I'm giving out money, wow, wow, I've never seen so much money in my life! I'll treat you to dinner!" "Wait, wait, make it clear," Gu Xiaoying's eyes lit up when she heard the word "money", and she regained her usual energy and asked, "How much money can you earn as a child publishing house? You tell me the truth, if you really took a lot of money, don't expect to treat me to a meal and get rid of me!" "Hey, I won't tell you," Xu Xin narrowed his eyes happily, "Anyway, I have contacted a few children's literature writers who are currently very 'good', and no matter how many copies they write, the book is still not enough to sell! Hahaha I'm so excited, I can't wait to kiss the staff in the bank now! I want to buy a house! I want to buy a car! I want to buy—" "Sister, you should buy a man first," Gu Xiaoying gloated, "Whenever I was forced by my mother to have a child, as long as I thought of you who were still being forced to marry, I felt that the world was extremely beautiful... " "Don't want a man! What's the use of a man? They don't protect you from the wind or the rain." Xu Xin waved his big hand, his mouth almost reaching his ears, "You can accompany me to see houses on weekends. A small apartment of 10 square meters, with a floor height of 5.6 meters, can be divided into a small loft by itself, and it only costs more than 400,000." "Forty square meters, more than 400,000 yuan! Still 'only'?" Gu Xiaoying screamed, "Xu Xin, you upstart! How much money did you make? The 330,000 yuan second-hand house I bought last year The loan is 180,000 yuan! Within five years, I have to repay the bank 3,300 yuan a month!" "Three thousand three is not a piece of cake for you?" Xu Xin didn't care, "Wouldn't it be enough if you wrote more novels?" "It's easy for you to say. I still have scientific research papers to write, and I have to prepare lessons. I can't finish a novel in a year! You just edited a book, and you can buy 400,000 novels without writing it." Leap level," Gu Xiaoying was extremely sad and indignant, "I strongly despise people like you who sit at the top of the pyramid!" "Who says it's the top? I'm the real hard-earned money! You haven't seen how hard it is for me to sign sales and do publicity all over the country, and I haven't enjoyed a weekend for several months," Xu Xin sighed, comforting Gu Xiaoying, "Besides, I'm also the light in the company. Last year, our company made more than 200 million yuan. A little bee like me works harder and gets more money." "You little bee," Gu Xiaoying rolled her eyes, "I don't see you eat less, drink less and degenerate. According to me, what kind of house do you buy as a woman? Just come and live in the second-hand house I bought. Give me a little less money It’s fine if you mean it, and you don’t have to pay any money.” Xu Xin wondered: "The newly bought second-hand house... Didn't you say that you want to move there and leave the current house to your in-laws?" "My in-laws won't come!" Gu Xiaoying got a headache when she mentioned this, "They said they would come to take care of our children, otherwise they might as well farm at home." "It's so noble..." Xu Xin sighed, "You said they brought up their sons with great difficulty, and it's rare that their daughter-in-law is willing to take them to live in the city. Why don't they want to come out and live a comfortable life for a few days?" "So I'm going to rent that house to a colleague of Guan Tong, and I'll charge you some money, which is less than one-third of my monthly mortgage," Gu Xiaoying sighed, "I found out that I'm not a money-maker. Fate, in fact, the rent for three bedrooms and one living room in this area is 2,000 or even 2,500 a month, no problem." "I think you're right, but your husband is a government official, if you just rent the house to others in order to make money, if you rent it to an unreliable person, if something happens in the future, your husband won't do it. " "That's why I said it's good for you to come and live in my house, let a man buy a new house," Gu Xiaoying warmly invited, and tried his best to persuade, "Besides, the Academy of Art is going to raise funds to build a house soon, it seems that Mr. Jiang can buy a rather big one. of." "What does it matter to me that he buys a house?" Xu Xin stared, "Don't be like those old ladies who keep the media! You have always been a modern intellectual woman with taste, pursuit and interest in my heart... " "Pull it down," Gu Xiaoying couldn't listen anymore, "The mediator's pulling the thread is also a benefit to mankind, and its merits are immeasurable. You will know it later, when you live a happy life with a man, a house, and a car After that, I wish that people all over the world could be as happy as you, and it will be a matter of time before the mediator pulls the string, Amitabha..." "I'm too lazy to tell you," Xu Xin put down a word to close the line, "wait for my summons on the weekend, and I'll pick you up." Gu Xiaoying only had time to roll her eyes vigorously. When I put away my phone and looked back, the crying babies on the lawn had happily cooperated again: one baby boy dug the sand into a small bucket, and the other baby boy was responsible for moving the sand in the bucket to different places. Under a small tree in the distance, the baby girl is responsible for re-piling the sand into a small mound... Gu Xiaoying really couldn't help admiring the children's talents from the bottom of her heart, what a reasonable assembly line this is! She looked at it and couldn't help standing up and walking to the baby girl, squatting down, pointing to the mound of dirt and asking the baby: "What is this?" The baby girl looked up at her face carefully, and replied solemnly: "Home, this is the home of ants." After saying this, the baby girl tilted her head, looked into Gu Xiaoying's eyes for a long time, and suddenly shouted: "Auntie!" Gu Xiaoying was elated, and immediately replied sweetly: "Hey..." Before he could speak, the baby boy who carried the sand ran over, stood beside the baby girl, looked at Gu Xiaoying as well, and shouted: "Auntie!" "Good boy..." Ten thousand flowers bloomed in Gu Xiaoying's heart in an instant, and she only hated why her smile couldn't be sweeter.She reached out to touch the boy's face, and smiled at the boy, "You are so smart, how old are you?" "Three and a half years old." Before the baby boy could finish speaking, another baby boy rushed up and shouted, "Auntie, I'm three years old!" Gu Xiaoying looked at the three smart babies who surrounded her in an instant, and felt that she was so happy that she couldn't be happier!She wished she could grow four hands and hold three babies in her arms at once.She also wondered: Didn't she like children so much before?It's not so attractive to children!Usually two or three-year-old children will stick to their parents but not to her. She still feels that she is not destined to be a child! Could it be that when she wanted to have a child, the magnetic fields in her whole body would change? As a result, when she received a call from Guan Tong at night, Gu Xiaoying asked this question: "Hey, husband, do you think I have the halo of the Virgin on my head now? Why do the children start to like me?" "Holy Mother?" After ten o'clock in the evening, the deputy county magistrate was working overtime in the office. He was a little sleepy, but when he heard this sentence, he half woke up with a smile, "Honey, you are too demanding of our son." "Daughter," Gu Xiaoying corrected, "you must firmly plant the belief that you can have a daughter deep in your heart." "Why can't my son do it?" Guan Tong wondered. "My son is a loser! A married son pours out water, and when he has a wife, he forgets his mother... The wisdom of the predecessors, haven't you heard of it?" Gu Xiaoying rolled her eyes after finishing speaking, "Guan Tong, are you Don't you really want a son?" "It's okay, it's okay," Guan Tong perfunctory while looking down at the speech script that will be used on the desk the next day, "Society has progressed, and men and women are the same." "Really?" Gu Xiaoying smiled, "Then if it's a son, your parents will be so happy!" "It doesn't matter to them, men and women are the same." Guan Tong flipped through the pen holder on the desk, found a pencil, and took it over to read the manuscript while scratching. "I don't believe it," Gu Xiaoying was very disdainful, "There are not many words you said that are credible. You may not know your parents as well as I do. I guarantee that they are looking forward to a grandson." "Well, I think according to their current state, they may no longer care about whether it is a grandson or a granddaughter," Guan Tong said while reading the manuscript, "It should be that as long as they have a child, they will be satisfied." "Really?" Gu Xiaoying was happy, "How about, husband, let's have a baby!" "What?" Guan Tong paused his hand when he heard this, and the pointed pencil tip hit the table, and it broke with a "click". He threw the pencil aside, as if he didn't hear clearly Ask Gu Xiaoying again, "What did you say?" "Have a baby, my husband, I think I really like children now, and I really want a child," Gu Xiaoying said with a face full of fantasy and intoxication, "A soft child, holding it in your hands is like holding a kitten." The pup feels better." "But, you are there alone, and I still have nearly a year before I can finish my job." Guan Tong felt really embarrassed, and he couldn't tell whether his wife was a whim or a real thing through the phone line, "You are pregnant. , it’s not convenient to be alone..." He didn't dare to go on, the painful experience a year ago was still fresh in his memory - at that time, he had just come to Puyin, and it was the time when the new official took office.He hasn't been home for a long time, and he can't wait to spend all his time on getting familiar with the work.Therefore, he didn't know that his wife was pregnant, that she had a severe pregnancy reaction, that she was completely unprepared at that time, how helpless she felt in her heart, and that when the child was lost unexpectedly, what was going on in her heart? how sad.But at that time, Puyin had a serious traffic accident. He was so busy dealing with the aftermath that he didn't even have time to answer her phone... After a long time, whenever he put himself in his shoes and remembered the scene at that time, he had to admit, From a woman's point of view, when she lost a child and was lying on a hospital bed, what she needed most was indeed her husband!And if she couldn't reach her husband after calling on the phone all night, what kind of despair would it be? After more than two years of marriage, Guan Tong asked himself, apart from temporary employment and business trips in his life, he worked overtime all night.The time he spends with his wife at home is less than half a year, and he often feels ashamed of her, but he can't say anything other than "wife, you've worked hard" and "wife, I'm sorry". On the other side of the phone, Gu Xiaoying probably thought of this too, so she was silent too. After an unknown amount of time, Guan Tong heard Gu Xiaoying say: "But, I still want a child." Guan Tong sighed. In the quiet night, he did not speak, nor did she. Across a telephone line, they felt each other's breath in a space where they could not see each other. Guan Tong doesn't know, but Gu Xiaoying really wants to ask him: Guan Tong, life is so short, you are busy with your career and future, when will you look back at your little family? It is said that struggle is to be qualified to enjoy life, and to enjoy life is to strive better... But Guan Tong, you only struggle and don't enjoy, you are so busy that you can't even afford a child, are you tired?