Chapter 8 Chapter 7 Life is like a butcher's knife

Chu Hangsheng really felt distressed. This kind of heartache is a long-lost feeling-living alone in this city, the most familiar ones are the classmates from the undergraduate days, and the most common ones are the chatting and laughing in the entertainment.It had been a long time since anyone needed him to care, comfort, or rely on.In particular, this person was once the woman he watched growing up, but now she completely crossed the age limit when she was a child and stood in front of him and beside him.This made him feel a little sad, and he couldn't tell if it was for her or for himself.

He didn't know what happened, but after thinking about it, he couldn't hold back the question, just lowered his head and said, "Go to my house for a while?" Standing on the street with cars passing by, Mu Xin realized that the tears were so unscrupulous.Still rational, she knew that this was not a place to cry, let alone talk, so she nodded and followed Chu Hangsheng obediently towards the newspaper office.The midsummer sun is scorching hot, but Mu Xin feels cold from the inside out.Along the way, Mu Xin lowered her head, not looking at the road, but only at Chu Hangsheng's heels.When she entered the door, she didn't even see the house number clearly. She only remembered that she tried hard to hold back tears, and there was only one thought in her mind: this is his territory, and he has many acquaintances, so she can't embarrass him or cause him trouble by crying.After all, the taboos of adult men and women are far more complicated than when they first met.

"What do you want to eat tonight? I'll make it." He closed the door, not looking at her tears, but turned his back to her and opened the refrigerator to search.Mu Xin raised her head and wiped her face with her hands, just in time to see him turn around, holding half a cabbage in his hand, pointing to a door next to him with a smile: "That's the bathroom, there is a new towel on the shelf next to the door." Mu Xin nodded, turned and went into the bathroom.He didn't ask, but just gave her a space to settle her emotions. She was not only grateful for such respect and tolerance, but also had some unstoppable thoughts—she had to think about the mother-in-law she met when she waited for him and was with him. What would happen if it was Aunt Su instead of Xiao Yuhua?And who said that social status and personal accomplishment must be equated?With the high salary of a monopoly enterprise, isn't it just two and a half catties of silk quilts that you are willing to buy and boast about?To put it harshly, the word "little citizen" really has no necessary connection with education and occupation.It's your turn, you're unlucky, who made it impossible to see some things before marriage?

Thinking of this, Mu Xin was taken aback suddenly: Before marriage... Since Xiao Yuhua didn't like her, why did she agree to Yang Qian marrying her?Or maybe... she never agreed? Thinking of this, Mu Xin's head hurts.I don't know if it's because I have been crying for a long time, or because the question itself is too disturbing and hurtful.She just stared blankly at herself in the bathroom mirror, her eyes were red, her hands were clenched tightly, her nails were embedded in her flesh, but she couldn't feel any pain.Until Chu Hang knocked on the door: "Mu Xin, come out for dinner."

Only then did Mu Xin come to his senses, turn on the tap to wash his face, dragged a towel to wipe it clean, opened the door and walked out.The moment he opened the door, he saw Chu Hangsheng's slightly worried expression, but the moment he saw her, he immediately put on a smile: "Come and taste my handicraft, now I don't have to give you steamed buns dipped in sesame sauce anymore." Before he finished speaking, Mu Xin was taken aback—so, he also remembered? Sitting at the dining table, in front of him are simple fried cabbage, golden fried rice, and two bowls of egg drop soup. Is it God's pity, or a test?

"Eat more, it shouldn't be unpalatable," Chu Hangsheng pushed the soup in front of her, "Unhappy things will always happen when you go out, if you are full, just find a pillow and beat it up, don't keep it in your heart The human heart is very big, but also very small. It is big enough to pretend to be the world, but too small to tolerate too much grievance. If you have too much grievance, you will get sick, so forget it if you can, and don’t make it difficult for yourself.” This was the only sentence he said that seemed to be comforting, but to Mu Xin's ears, it was more like a kind of tolerant pity.The eye sockets were a little sore, but I held back and just ate with my head depressed.After a long time, I raised my head and asked him, "What if, your mother-in-law discriminates against you?"

"Discrimination?" Chu Hang was taken aback. "It's just an analogy," Mu Xin rarely showed a smile, "I almost forgot, your family background is not bad, how could you be discriminated against... Well, I don't know if I can ask... What do your father-in-law and mother-in-law do? ?” "Very prominent," Chu Hang shook his head with a smile, "Compared with her family, my family is nothing. My father-in-law is the deputy commander of the military region, and he has his family's villa on the hillside of this city where every inch of land is expensive. It is quiet in the middle, and the birds are singing and the flowers are fragrant as soon as you go out. The so-called "paradise" is actually just because they are hidden in places that ordinary people can't see."

"Really?" Mu Xin's eyes widened, she was so shocked by this shocking gossip that she forgot her resentment just now, she quickly turned her head and looked around, "Can you show me a photo?" Chu Hang was stunned again, and then smiled after a while: "Okay." As he spoke, he got up and went into a room near the door, and came out later with a photo album in his hand.Mu Xin couldn't wait to take it, and flipped through it one by one. On the first page, there is the nineteen-year-old Chu Hangsheng, a freshman entering the military training, with a youthful smile on Mu Xin's memory; then, at the age of twenty, when he participated in the "Three Going to the Countryside" activity, he was mature. A slightly tanned face; when he graduated at the age of 23, he was wearing a bachelor’s robe, with a little sweat on the tip of his nose, and he was full of vigor; in the first year of graduate school, he was tanned while standing on the bank of the Yangtze River; in the second year of graduate school, a The girl, wearing a floral dress and smiling beautifully, stood hand in hand at the foot of Lushan Mountain, as if they were a pair of lovers; after graduation, he wore a master's uniform with a blue background and a pink collar, a little fat, and looked like a Laoshan Taoist priest, But the wide sleeves just held the girl with flowers in her arms. It was so clean and sweet that it made people jealous; and then the wedding, Mu Xin finally saw Aunt Su who hadn’t seen her for a long time, she smiled so comfortably... yeah , Such a good daughter-in-law would be satisfactory to anyone, but isn't it a blessing for the bride to meet a mother-in-law like Aunt Su?

The photo album is a bit old, with a thin layer of dust on it.After reading it, Mu Xin closed it, took out a tissue, carefully wiped the cover, and put it on the table.She looked at Chu Hangsheng with a smile, thought for a while and said, "Sister-in-law, you are so beautiful." It is indeed beautiful.Temperament is something that is acquired and accumulated over time.The girl smiled generously with a bright expression.She stood beside Chu Hangsheng, not like the moon, but like a golden sun, making Chu Hangsheng even more gentle. Not without envy.Perhaps, at this moment, the jealousy that had been neglected, repressed or even forgotten in the past all popped up a little bit, which made people feel sour.

After the meal, Mu Xin finally calmed down and visited Chu Hangsheng's home with a cup of tea. The area of ​​the house is not too big, the three bedrooms and one living room add up to only 120 square meters.Surprisingly, there is almost no trace of the hostess, whether it is cosmetics, clothing or shoes, it is not visible.There was only one toothbrushing cup on the washstand, and Mu Xin stood at the door of the bathroom staring at it blankly, thinking for a long time but couldn't figure out how these two couples could live in such a miserable life? "What are you looking at?" Chu Hangsheng stood behind her, curiously looking in the direction of her line of sight.

"Do you often go to your father-in-law's house?" Mu Xin turned her head and asked. "Not much," Chu Hangsheng replied honestly, "She didn't have time to get close before she went to Hong Kong, and she couldn't get closer afterward." He didn't want to talk more about his marriage, and Mu Xin saw it, so he didn't ask any more.It's just strange at times, because the air in this house is so lonely, unnaturally lonely.She even feels pity for her - she has admired him for so long, and now she is used to treating him as a relative's elder brother. Does he like this kind of life?Does he feel happy when he opens the door after get off work every day and sees such an empty room? "I only allocated this house after she left," Chu Hangsheng replied as if he understood Mu Xin's question, "She has almost no chance to live here." "Oh, by the way, you can visit her often!" Mu Xin suddenly realized and smiled, "Is Hong Kong fun?" "Everywhere is full of people, what fun can there be?" Chu Hang shrugged, "Before you go, you will be stuffed with a long shopping list by your colleagues. When you enter the mall, you will never know which are gifts and which are genuine products. I have to distribute the things I bought on behalf of others, and help people calculate the price after the tax refund...so every time I go, I feel like I am on the battlefield.” While talking, he looked out the window, unexpectedly it was more than nine o'clock in the blink of an eye, it was dark, and the voice of "Evening News" came from someone's house.He looked at Mu Xin: "Sleep in the guest room at night." "Ah?" Mu Xin seemed to have just realized that it was so late in time, and just about to refuse, she suddenly heard the phone ring. Going to the living room to get the phone, Mu Xin frowned when she saw the screen—it was Lu Bingtang. "Xiao Mu? Are you still used to coming here to work?" Lu Bingtang greeted eagerly straight to the point, even saving the initial politeness. It seemed that he really didn't regard himself as an outsider. "Thank you, Team Lu, it's okay." Mu Xin frowned, trying to maintain a respectful tone.Chu Hangsheng saw it from the side, and didn't think it was so strange, he just thought it was the leader caring for his subordinates. "I'm having a drink with your director. Come over and have a seat." Lu Bingtang seemed to be clinking glasses while talking. During the dinner, there were occasional crisp glass crashes, which were not loud, but they hit Mu Xin already. Very fragile heart.She was about to growl, to say that I quit... At this time, she felt Chu Hang's voice gently pat her on the shoulder. When she looked up, she saw his worried expression, which seemed to be because she saw some unusual emotions on her face.This expression, this warm pat, immediately gave Mu Xin support, and even courage.She took a deep breath, looked at Chu Hangsheng's face, and replied calmly: "Thank you, Captain Lu, but it may not be convenient today. I'm here with my brother, and my sister-in-law is going on a business trip. Let's have dinner together, and we agreed to help her pack her luggage at night. You see ..." I could feel Lu Bingtang paused for a moment, then said casually, "Okay then, we'll talk about it another day." After speaking, he hung up the phone. Mu Xin let out a long sigh, and sat back on the sofa weakly.After being stunned for a moment, he bent down, buried his face in his arms, and remained motionless.There was only a small floor lamp turned on in the living room, and the light shrouded her body, haloing a solid golden circle. After a long time, Mu Xin raised his head, looked at the voice of Chu Hang who had been standing beside him with a wry smile, and asked softly, "Brother, where is the guest room?" Chu Hangsheng walked away a few steps, and pushed open the door of the guest room. Mu Xin stood up and wanted to follow him, but in the next second, she covered her chest and bent down.Chu Hang turned around, just in time to see Mu Xin fall straight to the floor! "Xin Xin!" Chu Hangsheng rushed over, only in time to grab her arm, because of inertia, both of them couldn't stand still, Chu Hangsheng fell on the sofa, and Mu Xin fell into his arms.He hugged her and called her name, but in a moment of anxiety, what she blurted out was still the common name used by the whole family when she was a child.He didn't care about these plausible details anymore, he just asked repeatedly: "Xin Xin, what's wrong with you? Look at me, open your eyes, can you hear me?" Chu Hang's voice was incoherent, and he wanted to dial "120", but he didn't dare to let go or move her.Fortunately, it didn't take long for Mu Xin to open her eyes, but her hands were still covering her chest, panting heavily, her lips were very pale, and she looked at him as if she was asking for help, but also as if she was relying on her.Chu Hangsheng breathed a sigh of relief, and asked anxiously, "What's wrong with you?" "It's okay, just now, chest tightness." She let out a breath and tried to smile, but a fool could hear her weakness, "Back hurts." Chu Hang's heart sank, he reached behind Mu Xin, and gently pressed the position below her left back shoulder blade: "Does it hurt here?" Mu Xin nodded, closed her eyes, and the halo of the floor lamp came up again, but it turned into a silent grayish yellow.Her long hair was scattered on Chu Hangsheng's arm, which made Chu Hangsheng suddenly anxious: "Have you ever been in pain before?" Mu Xin shook her head, her nose was full of his breath, which was a little familiar but also very strange.She was a little dazed, as if she was thinking of Yang Qian, but she didn't want to think of him.Xiao Yuhua's voice was vaguely heard in his ear, but it disappeared quickly.The chest is still tight, and breathing has become a difficult thing.Headache, throbbing near the temple, as if a needle was poking deep in the brain repeatedly.The back still hurts, like muscle strain, but doesn’t muscle strain often appear in the waist, why does it reach the shoulders and back?She couldn't figure it out, and she didn't want to think about it anymore, she just leaned towards the source of warmth, thinking in a daze, the air conditioner was too cold... Mu Xin fell asleep for a long time. The exhaustion of the past few days seems to have finally found an opportunity to knock her down, making her only able to fall asleep.I wanted to get up to drink water, but the thought only flashed, and then quickly disappeared in the next dream; I wanted to find the bathroom, but I just thought about it, and soon fell asleep again.When I finally woke up, it was already the afternoon of the second day. When I opened my eyes, I was surrounded by a strange white. "Are you awake?" An elderly voice sounded beside her. Mu Xin turned her head and saw an old lady in her sixties on the next bed, "Your partner has gone out. What do you want a nurse? There is a bell at the bedside." Mu Xin finally realizes later—is this a hospital? When he was confused, Chu Hang entered the door. Before Mu Xin could speak, the enthusiastic old lady spoke first: "Hey, you're back? Your wife is awake." Chu Hang was taken aback for a moment, then turned his head to see Mu Xin's embarrassed expression, and didn't bother to explain her misunderstanding to the old lady, so he hurried to the bed and looked down at Mu Xin: "How do you feel?" Seeing that Mu Xin wanted to sit up, he hurriedly pressed it down: "I'll do it." While talking, he went to the end of the bed and shook the lifting handle, the head of the bed slowly lifted up, and as his eyes rose, Mu Xin finally felt that he was letting go, and then asked dryly: "Why are you here? " "How many days have you not slept?" Chu Hangsheng answered irrelevantly, but frowned at her, "Do you want some water?" Mu Xin nodded, Chu Hang turned around and went to the bedside table to pour water, and said while pouring water: "I answered the phone call from your unit, and asked for leave for you. I will just rest here honestly for a few days. If you are not careful, Otherwise, you will have a heart attack.” "Heart disease?" Mu Xin smiled, "I am so young, how could I have heart disease?" "I'm ashamed to laugh, don't you know that you have myocardial infarction in your thirties?" Chu Hang sounded scared when he thought about it, and his tone was much more severe, "Chest pain, dyspnea, palpitations, dizziness, palpitation... Do you have any of these symptoms? Intensive work, long-term lack of sleep, sudden mental stimulation... A heart attack can be caused if you don't pay attention. The doctor said you were overtired, and the high pressure was only 80 when it was sent in! What are you busy with? What pressure can torture you like this ?” He propped his hands on the edge of the hospital bed, very close to her, staring at her and questioning her intently. Mu Xin was stunned. "At first I didn't want to ask, I thought it was your personal matter, but now I have to ask. Mu Xin, if you have any difficulties, tell me, maybe I can help you solve it? Don't carry it alone, you Unaccompanied here, how much can you carry? If you trust me, just like you did when you were a child...you can let me help you." Chu Hangsheng looked straight at Mu Xin, not allowing her to escape.Mu Xin didn't know how to answer, but felt something sour in her eyes, as if she was about to burst out of the gate. "So you are not a couple!" The old lady in the next bed finally interrupted with a sudden realization, but it also dilutes Mu Xin's stomach full of bitterness.The two looked back at the old lady together, and said in unison, "This is my brother" and "This is my sister".The old lady nodded and grinned: "It's strange that there are husband and wife looks." Mu Xin was about to drink water and almost choked on this sentence. It was late in the evening when Yang Qian got the news that Mu Xin was staying in the hospital for observation - when Chu Hangsheng went out to buy food, Mu Xin kept calling Yang Qian's cell phone number.In the beginning, I couldn't get through, and Mu Xin didn't know if he was on a case.The first reaction is to worry, afraid that he will be careless, and even more afraid that he will show his courage for a while.It wasn't until he got in touch with him that he realized that he hadn't brought his mobile phone to the interrogation room just now. At that moment, Mu Xin finally breathed a sigh of relief and felt that his breathing became easier. "I'm fine, maybe I was too tired a while ago. I went to work during the day, stayed with me in bed at night, and didn't have much rest." Mu Xin thought, she was by no means a saint, and it was impossible for her to live quietly as Lei Feng in this home.Since the hard work must be known, and this person is undoubtedly Yang Qian - she bet that he will be the one who loves her the most in this family. "What's going on now?" Yang Qian was really anxious, "I'm going there right now, wait a moment, I'll ask Team Fang to ask for leave." "Can I leave? It's fine if it's inconvenient." This is of course duplicity, but fortunately, Yang Qian's attitude is reassuring: "Wait, I'll come right away." "I'm coming" - if you can hear this sentence anytime, anywhere, and listen to it for a lifetime, it must be the dream of many people for a long time, right?Even if there are always some small twists and turns in life, but you know that he is by your side and you are very important to him, it seems that that is enough. Yang Qian came when the visiting time was about to end. When he entered the door and saw Chu Hangsheng, he was stunned for a moment, and then hurried over to shake hands with Chu Hangsheng: "Brother Chu, thank you. Thanks to you—we went to the case without a mobile phone .” "You're welcome," Chu Hang nodded understandingly, "If you're busy, I'll be here at night." "No, no, I'm asking for leave, I've already troubled you a lot," Yang Qian turned around and took Mu Xin's hand, "Are you feeling better?" "It's all right. In fact, I didn't need to be hospitalized. My brother said he wanted to observe it." Mu Xin looked up at Yang Qian's face, showing a rare weak expression unconsciously.She held Yang Qian's hand tightly, trying to pull him closer to her, and a little closer. It felt like the boat had finally docked.At that moment, Mu Xin knew that she had never strayed—she had always known that this was her pier, her harbor, the place she had chosen to tie the rope for the rest of her life. Chu Hangsheng, he was an older brother before, and he will only be an older brother in the future. There may be regrets, but why not a kind of joy? That night, Mu Xin was really happy—after Chu Hangsheng left, Yang Qian took care of him meticulously.He peeled fruit for her and brought her water to drink.The water temperature is just right, as warm as the temperature in my heart.He even brought her a basin of hot water to wash her feet, but she shyly refused.In fact, this is true, even if it is a couple, there is always some warmth that cannot be tolerated.It was enough for her to know that he cared about her and treated her well.She thinks that she should be considered a happy person, and a life with occasional flaws is probably a real life and a real marriage. Yes, at this time, the one she can rely on, the one she can rely on, is not the one she had vaguely liked when she was a child, but the one who is still standing there waiting for her no matter what the situation is-it is when she faces During the tough training life in the police academy, when she felt hopeless and painful in the face of everything unfamiliar, he hugged her and made her cry, helped her analyze cases and prepare for exams, and even washed her socks when she was tired and paralyzed during the annual compulsory training. She thought, maybe, a woman also has two roses in her lifetime, but unlike a man, no matter which one she gets, it is her destination, and she can annihilate all the heart-scratching longings before.Even if not immediately, passion is no match for time.At this point, men may be just the opposite-once they are worn out by time, they will find their passion again. Because there was no serious problem, Mu Xin was discharged from the hospital a few days later.She logically asked for sick leave from the Municipal Bureau and went home to recuperate. Since Yang Chenglin was still recovering, Mu Xin didn't dare to tell the truth about his illness, but only said that he had a cold and a fever and had to rest for a while.Xiao Yuhua was not very happy, because there were two more patients in the family at once, and she was too busy.Of course Mu Xin didn't like Xiao Yuhua either, but for the sake of Yang Chenglin's face and Yang Qian's affection, after careful consideration, he finally endured it.Also in order to avoid conflicts as much as possible, Mu Xin often helped to choose vegetables, cook and wash clothes during the day. In the end, she didn't know if it was a sick leave or a labor class. She just thought about not letting Yang Qian get caught in the middle. As for herself, Fortunately, the heart is doing well, and I haven't caused any trouble for myself. On the contrary, Hao Huinan rushed to visit Mu Xin as soon as he heard that he was ill, and it is no exaggeration to describe the arrival of Village Chief Hao with the words "travelling and dusty". When Hao Huinan entered the door, he carried a basket of eggs in his left hand and a watermelon in his right. He was so tired that he was wheezing, his face was covered with sweat, and there was a small piece of shed skin on the tip of his nose, revealing the new skin tenderly inside. Those who didn't know it thought it was a college student who had just finished military training, but anyway, he didn't look like a man. Appointment "village head". Mu Xin was astonished: "Are you here for drought relief?" "I got the village-to-village fund," Hao Huinan was very proud, "I've been busy building roads for a month." "How did you get it?" Mu Xin was even more surprised, "You can't really hang yourself after crying, making trouble, and hanging yourself?" "It's a coincidence that when I first entered the village, the number one leader in our town changed. The new leader was selected from the city. The village chief, the first female college student in the town, even came to the village to investigate. This person is not bad, probably because he has just become an official, he has no bureaucratic airs, and he speaks very sincerely. He immediately helped me think How to coordinate," Hao Huinan smacked her lips regretfully, "Why didn't you come earlier? Come earlier, maybe I won't have to go into the village." "Yeah, if you don't enter the village, you'd better stay closer to Zhang Le," Mu Xin regretted, "It's so far from the town to the village, how do you cultivate your relationship?" "What are you thinking? Who wants to develop a relationship with him!" Hao Huinan was unwilling. "Zhang Le is a nice person," Mu Xin said with all his heart, "I heard from my colleagues that his father is also a senior policeman, and almost no criminals can escape his eyes. Zhang Le himself has made second-class meritorious service. How difficult is it to wait for merit? This is not an ordinary reward, and you can take turns sitting on the bank." "In our township government, even if it is a reward, it will not take turns to sit in the village," Hao Huinan shook her head. "Don't think that our leaders will show their integrity and leave the opportunity for meritorious service to young people. The reward will be 300 yuan at the end of the year. Money, five hundred for third-class merit, enough for them to break their heads." "Don't go so far, let's talk about Zhang Le." Mu Xin looked at Hao Huinan complainingly. "You really think we are suitable?" Hao Huinan smiled, "To tell you the truth, I can't fall in love with Zhang Le for three reasons." She met Mu Xin's puzzled gaze and explained with her fingers: "First, Zhang Le is one year younger than me, so I always think it's better to be older than me. Second, I don't want to stay in Xiushan for the rest of my life. You know Yes, I plan to take the civil service exams for central and provincial government agencies. If Zhang Lehao ​​and I get married, and then leave the exam...then we will have to wait for the two places to live apart? If we have another child, I will I don't have the time and energy to study for the exam. Besides, after leaving, my vision will be broadened, so I will inevitably not meet better candidates. Is it really necessary to lock myself in this small circle early?" She paused for a while and continued: "Third, even if you don't consider age, future, etc., just talk about Zhang Le's style, sometimes I really don't know how to describe him... You know how we met ?" Mu Xin shook her head, Hao Huinan sighed. Yes, how did she know Zhang Le? The beginning is actually very simple—since Hao Huinan found out that the cost of learning to drive at a nearby driving school was much lower than that in the urban area, he began to think about "learning early and not learning late".Fortunately, the study went smoothly, from the physical examination, theory test to the pile upside down, all the way passed smoothly.It’s just that when it was time for the road test, Hao Huinan, who has always been a little careless, was scolded by the coach for the nth time because she accidentally parked the car under the bus plate or within 50 meters of the intersection, and gradually felt that she wanted to find someone. The heart of sparring.It just so happened that the eldest sister in the office next door and the deputy director of the police station were a couple, and besides being enthusiastic about solving difficulties, they also had the intention of protecting the media.So it was logical to introduce Hao Huinan to Zhang Le and his broken Jetta. How broken is that broken Jetta?According to Hao Huinan, basically all the glass will shake, there is a thick layer of dust where there are seams, the air conditioner and radio are all on strike, the seat cover of the car has a few small holes burned by cigarette butts, newspapers, bread bags, old police hats and ties Throw it all over the place.When Zhang Le first came to pick up Hao Huinan for practice, it is said that he blushed and threw all the things that could be thrown out of the car, and sighed "Hey, so this thing is here"... Hao Huinan didn't know whether to laugh or cry, but it wasn't easy to show her surprise in front of strangers, so she just stood aside with a smile, didn't speak, and let him take care of her.But it was awkward to look at like this, because she found that Zhang Le threw all the garbage on the side of the road at the gate of the town government without a care.Although there is a trash can only 50 meters away, Zhang Le obviously turned a blind eye to this device.Hao Huinan opened her mouth, but in the end she still didn't speak, and let him go. After getting into the car, Zhang Le began to teach seriously, such as "half-clutch", "turn right and make a small turn, turn left and turn a big turn", "when overtaking, wait until you can fully see the front of the car behind you before merging", etc. Very detailed.There are also traffic rules, such as "you must give way when you see a certain sign when meeting a car", "a certain sign is one-way"...Hao Huinan wrote it down carefully, and gradually felt that this teacher was very dedicated. However, some problems are always exposed when the parties concerned are unintentional, but they are remembered by those who are interested in watching. One time, when returning to the town government after practice, it happened to catch up with the big collection stall next to the town government, and the people who came and went to the market Block a road in a mess.Hao Huinan didn't dare to drive, so she gave up the driver's seat to Zhang Le.At the beginning, Zhang Le honked the horn, but with little effect. He simply stepped on the accelerator and rushed forward, holding the megaphone in his hand and shouting "Let's go, let's go"... Hao Huinan frowned, and it wasn't until Zhang Le drove to the gate of the town government that he finally couldn't help asking: "We don't have official business, can we use a megaphone?" Zhang Le was stunned for a moment, scratched his head, and then smiled honestly and replied: "Actually, you are not allowed to drive a police car without wearing a police uniform. So fastidious." Hao Huinan was silent again, she didn't know how to explain what she meant to Zhang Le—maybe it was only then that she realized that even after many days of inseparable practice, they were still not familiar with each other—he couldn't even imagine It turned out that her original meaning had nothing to do with the inspector's punishment at all. She just wanted to say after seeing the ordinary people avoiding the police cars: If there is no official business, is such a privilege considered arrogant? "Mu Xin, tell me, even if he does a good job and looks good, but the constraints of the environment and personal conditions, which one can make me love?" Hao Huinan asked Mu Xin calmly. Mu Xin was silent. After sending Hao Huinan away, Mu Xin went back into the room and met Xiao Yuhua coming out of the kitchen. Seeing the guests leave, she asked Mu Xin enthusiastically, "Your classmate?" "Friend." Mu Xin answered concisely. "You can only make friends with people of that level at any level," Xiao Yuhua sighed, "When you come to the county town, you can only associate with the village chief. This is the environment!" Mu Xin didn't know why she was so emotional, and didn't bother to talk much, so she turned and went back to the room.Losing the audience, Xiao Yuhua was very disappointed, so at the dinner table that night, he had a lot of memories of bitterness and sweetness. It happened that Yang Chenglin had finished eating first and went out for a walk. : I have to get up at four o'clock in the morning to cook and wash clothes for the family. I can't delay the morning shift at the factory. I have to take a long bus ride. I oversleep on the road, get off the bus and run all the way back.When I went to the factory, I still missed the time, deducted full attendance, and lost a dollar at the end of the month. I tried my best to cheat her natal sister from the lucky money she had saved, and returned it to my mother-in-law.At night, I was so tired that I came home, and I still had to cook, wash dishes, and do laundry.After giving birth, there was no one to bring hot water, so I climbed out of bed and found that the thermos bottle was still empty.The mother-in-law hugged her eldest grandson and smiled happily in another room. She, who has worked so hard, had to go to the kitchen to boil hot water for drinking... After finishing the speech, I sighed with emotion: "Look at how happy you are now. Someone is waiting for you. You can either sleep until the sun shines on your buttocks, or you can sleep all afternoon... When I was not retired, some colleagues said that Lao Xiao will be in the future. Whoever will be your daughter-in-law will have a good life. You want everything first, and you will do everything. You are a hard worker...Isn't it? When I think about it now, I am not A hard worker?" She looked at Mu Xin while she was talking, but Mu Xin didn't speak, just lowered his head to eat.She looked at Yang Qian again, and Yang Qian had a bright smile on his face: "That's right, Mom, you are a model worker." He poked Mu Xin while talking, Mu Xin raised his head and smiled, and said, "Mom, you have worked hard." "I don't work hard. If you guys work overtime, I have to share, right? It wasn't easy for me when I was young, and it's not easy for my children when I can't be a mother-in-law," Xiao Yuhua said every time he spoke with a serious expression, like Affectionate poetry recitation, but there is a turning point later, "But, busyness is one thing, laziness is another, right? Especially girls, when you get married, you have to take care of your family and take care of your family. To be comfortable, this is the duty of a wife—" Fortunately, before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by Yang Chenglin who had just entered the door: "Hey, go and see if the water is cut off? When I went upstairs, I heard someone said that the water was cut off again..." "What kind of shabby house is this? There is no water at both ends for three days!" Xiao Yuhua grumbled angrily and got up and walked towards the kitchen, while instructing Yang Chenglin, "Wash your hands before entering the door! There is water in the pot! Thankfully I have a pot of water on weekdays Habit……" Seeing this, Mu Xin didn't even think about it, she pushed the bowl away and slipped into her room. Yang Qian then followed in, sighing as he closed the door: "My mother is really in menopause." Mu Xin glanced at Yang Qian, thinking that Xiao Yuhua's menopause came late enough. After recovering from illness, Mu Xin returned to work, and as soon as she entered the door of the laboratory, there was a lot of condolences.Colleagues expressed condolences and blessings one after another, and the deputy director went downstairs to shake hands and said with a smile, "Welcome back to continue fighting", but what Mu Xin didn't know was that the deputy director went back upstairs, closed the door, and said to the director The first sentence is: "Why did Xiaogu think of recommending a girl to be a substitute for training? He was tired and sick in just a few days. If he has a child in the future, he still has to ask for leave every day? Do you think women are useless?" , you still don't believe it!" "Why don't I believe it? Of course I believe it," the director frowned while smoking a cigarette, "but Xiaogu swears that this girl is of good quality, and I can help her pick up the materials when she goes back after studying. I can't agree ?Anyway, the person has already come, so I will teach you when you need to teach, and go back to Xiushan after teaching, even if you cause trouble, it will be for Gu Qing, and it has nothing to do with us." "Actually, I really want to leave a few good seedlings for our office through this training rotation." The deputy director sighed, "Xiao Mu is a graduate student, and the hardware is quite good." "Graduate students are useless?" The director shook his head, "Didn't you see the provincial university's master's degree in mathematics recruited by our bureau two years ago to do the pre-trial? After staying up for half a night, I couldn't stand it anymore and lay down on the table to confront the criminal suspects." People say, 'Brother, I beg you, just recruit'..." The deputy director laughed loudly: "In fact, our bureau wants to recruit some highly educated talents, and I guess it also wants to stimulate the overall atmosphere. You haven't seen the last time the Chengnan Branch Bureau competed for posts. What kind of style do the directors of the police stations have? The question is, "What should I do if the suspect still hasn't confessed the crime when the time limit for detention is up?" Deng, the head of the Luozhuang Police Station, just said "beat up"!" ... Mu Xin didn't hear this conversation, so naturally he didn't know what kind of impression this illness and these trivial family affairs made on him in the mind of the leader.Her energy is limited, and she has to be busy hiding from Lu Bingtang, taking care of her sick father-in-law, dealing with her picky mother-in-law, and telling Yang Qian to "be careful" from time to time... She thinks, maybe, she is destined to be A worrying life. Besides, to add to the confusion, Mu's mother called and murmured, "Xin Xin, well, I want to find someone else to make do with for the rest of my life, do you think it's okay?" Mu Xin was taken aback. On Saturday, Mu Xin asked for leave with her in-laws and hurried back to her natal home.I didn't tell the truth about the matter, but said that my mother was not in good health and I wanted to go back and have a look.肖玉华听了，还热情地买了两桶专供中老年食用的核桃粉，要穆忻带回去。穆忻千恩万谢地接了，走出家门后才终于卸下堆了满脸的笑容。 不是她凉薄，而实在是因为累——肖玉华做在面子上的礼节从来都是完善得不能再完善，如果不是这样，穆忻也不会在第一次登门的时候因为那些热情的寒暄而丝毫没有意识到鄙夷的存在。可日子总要慢慢过，要朝夕相处，才能看到她内心深处的那些不屑。 想到这里，凭着一点若有若无的敏感，穆忻停下脚步，站在树荫下小心取出一盒核桃粉，看看罐底的保质期——果然，还有一个月就要过期，不用猜都知道一定是超市解决库存时的打折货。 这次，穆忻一点都没生气，她只是觉得有点好笑。 仍然是因为这种穆忻自己都未曾意识到的职业敏感，在第一眼见到宋喜元的时候，穆忻很想准确把握出这个人的特征，但很难——这个六十岁上下的老男人身高大约一米七左右，五官没有什么鲜明的特征，唯有满脸风霜，还有努力堆出来的无害的笑容。那样的笑容，带点讨好，带点忐忑，在接触到穆忻身上尚且没有佩戴警号、警衔的警用执勤服时蓦地瑟缩了一下，然后是一点卑微的寒暄。 穆忻问他：“大伯，你家也有儿女吧？” 他老老实实点头，坐在沙发上的样子更像是被审讯：“一儿一女。” “现在都在做什么工作？”穆忻努力让自己的语气听上去像是拉家常。 “儿子和儿媳妇带着孙子在外面打工，闺女也嫁人了，没工作，在家带孩子，念书都不行。”他憨厚地笑笑。 “您儿子在哪儿打工？”穆忻刚问完，看见穆妈端着水果过来，主动替她把想要问的全都解释一遍：“在四川，每到过年才回来。儿子比你大四岁，闺女也比你大一岁，也生的男孩呢……” 穆忻在心里翻一下白眼，真不知道该怎么说她妈，想了想，还是趁穆妈妈去厨房做饭的时候跟进去，埋怨：“我就想试探试探他，你都说了，让我从哪里开口问？” “有什么好试探的？”穆妈妈不愿意了，“你当了警察以后是不是看谁都不像好人？” “那倒不至于，不过你们是通过什么方式认识的？婚介所可不靠谱，婚托多得是。”穆忻压低声音。 “我去公园里锻炼身体认识的呀！”穆妈妈得意了，“你别老拿有色眼镜看人，你宋大爷是自己闲不住，揽了个扫大街的活儿，我们在公园门口广场上拉呱儿的时候认识的。” “你结婚我没意见，不过随便找个人结婚可不行，”穆忻叹口气，“那你把他身份证拿给我看看吧！” “身份证？”穆妈妈大惊，“要这个干什么？” “查查真伪。”穆忻没好气儿。 “这还能有假的吗？这么大的一个大活人！”穆妈妈提高声音，穆忻赶紧捂上她妈妈的嘴。 “小点声儿！你这个老太太怎么这么没有防范意识！”穆忻急得瞪眼，“现在户口本、身份证都有假的，咱家有这个条件验明真伪你还这么不积极。” “还得怎么积极？”老太太生气了，“你就是当警察当出毛病来了！” 说完，老太太撂了抹布没好气地出了厨房，穆忻跟在她身后，路过宋喜元身边的时候看见他惶惶地抬起头看了自己一眼，却没来由地从那双眼睛里看到了更多的畏惧。 穆忻有点愣住了。 她似乎第一次发现，自己是可以让别人产生畏惧感的。 她不知道，这种畏惧感，是来自于她的警服，还是她这个人？ 没成想第二天穆妈还是把宋喜元的身份证给了穆忻。穆忻一分钟都没耽误，打电话回分局，找到刚好在值班的孟悦悦，火速用公安内网辨别身份证号码的真伪。 “宋喜元，男，1952年11月17日生……”孟悦悦的效率真是高，直接在电话里读查询结果，“可惜你没法接收传真……要不这样吧，我把他身份证上的照片用手机拍下来发彩信，你接收一下比对看看。” “好！”穆忻挂上电话，五分钟后彩信到，略有点模糊，但果然就是宋喜元的这张脸。 穆忻这才放了心。 “真不知道你折腾个什么劲。”穆妈妈看到彩信，还是埋怨。 “虽然不能预防犯罪，但至少可以保证在犯罪行为发生后提供准确的抓捕依据。”穆忻说话已经从学生时代的大意敷衍变成如今的煞有介事，她不自知，只觉得这是一种本能反应。穆妈妈瞪女儿一眼，也没多说话。 “妈，这宋大伯的儿女支持他再婚吗？”警察的职业病之后，终于才是正常人的思路。 “据说是不支持，不反对，没什么具体意见。”穆妈妈一边切菜一边道。 “哦，那我也不反对，”穆忻看着穆妈妈脸上的皱纹，突然一阵心疼，便伸开手，从后面环抱住妈妈的腰，低声道，“妈，你跟我去省城，好不好？” “要是这里有个家，就不孤单了。”穆妈妈伸手拍拍女儿的手，感叹着答。听上去好像答非所问，但穆忻知道，妈妈懂她的意思。 妈妈其实是在告诉女儿，开始另一段婚姻，是因为孤独，也不仅仅是因为孤独。 因为，这普天下的父母，多是既希望与儿女朝夕相处，又从来都不愿意成为儿女的负担——这份苦心，总是在为人儿女者远行之后，才骤然悟得。 没多久之后，没有声张，没有宴请，穆妈妈悄悄地就与宋喜元领了结婚证。穆忻作为唯一的观礼人不知道该如何形容自己的心情，谈不上失落或者高兴，她只是在无可无不可中有些迷茫：毕竟不是二十多岁的怀春少男少女了，毕竟曾和一个人举案齐眉、同床共枕，毕竟曾有不同的生活圈子、夫妻相处模式……有些东西，会随着时间滋生成一种习惯，甚至本能，好像一个隔膜，横亘在这张鲜红的结婚证之上。她不知道他们之间有没有陌生感，还会不会想起那个曾经以为能白头偕老的人？而这两个有着太多不同轨迹的人在走到一起之后，又有怎样的未来？ 但穆忻知道，她现在，也并不相信什么所谓的“白头偕老”了。 因为哪怕她再不愿意相信，却不得不承认，埋藏在她和杨谦之间的地雷远比想象的要多。 比如，一条鱼。 那天是杨谦难得的早回家——悬置已久的杀人案终于告破，他从进了家门就眉飞色舞。彼时杨成林在客厅里看报纸，肖玉华在卫生间里洗衣服，杨谦进门后远远地喊了一声“爸妈，我回来了”就一头钻进厨房，抓住穆忻开始絮叨。 “媳妇儿，你猜那个采石场的腐烂尸体到底是哪儿来的，凶手是谁？”穆忻在厨房里忙前忙后地切菜炒菜，杨谦跟进跟出，兴奋之情溢于言表，一点都不觉得自己碍事。 “是谁？”穆忻有一搭没一搭地回答。 “邵呈合啊！”杨谦瞪大眼，俨然是在揭露一个惊天秘密的表情。 令他失望的是，穆忻一边炒菜一边问：“谁是邵呈合？” “邵呈合你不认识？去年区里政法系统表彰大会，他还戴着大红花受奖，你不是和小孟都去做会场服务了？还一人抱一个大红花给受奖人戴呢。站你面前那个不就是邵呈合吗？” “政法系统的……法院还是检察院的？”穆忻还是不在状态。 杨谦叹口气：“司法局局长，案发地点是他家祖屋后院，采石场那里是抛尸。” 穆忻一边听一边炸鱼，油一热，鱼入锅，迅速泛出金黄的泡沫来。 杨谦站在穆忻身后，闻着鱼香眉飞色舞：“我们发现尸体后就去查失踪人口，经比对确认死者身份后开始排查他的社会关系，结果就发现他之前认识司法局长。然后又根据手机信号追踪发现邵呈合在案发时间内曾经出现在距离采石场不远的祖屋附近。科技！这就是科技的力量！” “他就那么老实招供？”穆忻炸着鱼回头看他一眼，余光瞄到肖玉华晾好衣服，站在厨房门口听他俩说话。 “当然没有，我们连测谎仪都上了！”杨谦舒口气，“好在有目击证人见过他的车，到最后他总归是招了，不然我们也太冒险了……所以说人还是不能做亏心事，不然除非你心理素质暴强，强悍到能用一个谎言弥补另一个谎言，直到谎言之间环环相套，不然总会露马脚的。因为还真没有哪个犯罪分子能不假思索地回答所有问题——这些问题在不心虚的人那里就是再普通不过的问题，可是到了心虚的人那儿，总要迟疑，总要思索怎么回答，这一思索，就太可疑了。” “真没想到堂堂司法局长要杀人，动机是什么呢？”穆忻回头问。 “对方敲诈，忍无可忍。” “一定是有把柄在别人手里吧？”穆忻翻白眼。 “你猜对了……”杨谦嘿嘿笑，“也算杀人灭口吧。不过通过这个案子我是真佩服技术中队那批人，你说那尸体，多恶心，他们怎么验尸的？” 穆忻在警校培训时见多了命案现场图片，也习惯了这种联想，没有什么太剧烈的反应，反倒突然想起什么似的回头问杨谦：“这种高度腐烂的尸体究竟是怎么提取指纹的？真像咱们在警校培训时学的那样，要局部油炸一下再提取指纹吗？” “呕……”肖玉华本来刚想抬脚离开，可还是倒霉地听见了最后这句话，也真巧，伴随这句话响起的是又一条黄花鱼入锅时“嗤啦”的油炸声，肖玉华顿时崩溃了，当即咆哮，“穆忻你闭嘴！” 穆忻吓一跳，差点把手里盛着鱼的盆也扔到锅里，还是杨谦眼疾手快抢过来，紧接着就听见肖玉华如暴风骤雨般的吼叫声：“快吃饭了说什么尸体，你恶心不恶心？” 穆忻被吼得手足无措，而肖玉华转身就冲回到洗手间。 随后就到了晚上吃饭的时候，一无所知的杨成林吃鱼吃得挺香，见肖玉华不动筷子，还问：“怎么不吃鱼？炸鱼多香……穆忻手艺不错。” 肖玉华猛地想起穆忻刚才的那句话，脸色又一阵发白。穆忻低下头不敢说话，杨谦抓耳挠腮地想要转移肖玉华的注意力，但还没等她想出辙，肖玉华已经“啪”地把筷子一甩，吼：“穆忻你成心恶心我是吧？明明知道晚上要吃炸鱼，还说什么……什么……尸体！” 虽然有几个字没说出来，但终究是太过形象的一幅画面，肖玉华忍不住又是一阵作呕，干脆扔下筷子转身进了屋。 杨成林莫名其妙看看老婆的背影，问杨谦：“你妈怎么了？” “更年期。”杨谦随口答。 “你才更年期！”肖玉华在里屋听见杨谦的话，怒气冲冲走出来，把手里端着的水杯狠狠往桌上一放，“我怎么更年期了？我比穆忻她妈还年轻一岁呢！穆忻她妈都能嫁人，多年轻啊！凭什么我就更年期？” 穆忻一头雾水，不知道话题为什么要扯到自己的妈妈身上，一条鱼跟自己妈妈改嫁有什么关系？这样想着脸色就也冷下来：“这事儿跟我妈有什么关系？” 其实杨谦本来也想说这句话，可这话被穆忻抢先说了，问题也就大了——儿子朝自己的妈抗议，最多不过是人民内部矛盾；儿媳妇质问婆婆，这简直就是敌我矛盾了！ “我说什么了？我说什么了！你这是什么语气？”肖玉华气得拍桌子，“要真是敞开来说，老了老了再找个第二春，脸上还真挂得住！” “轰”的一声，穆忻的头炸了。 “你再说一遍，”穆忻伸出一根手指头指着肖玉华，语气冷得要结冰，“你再给我说一遍！” “穆忻，闭嘴！”杨谦见势不妙急忙呵斥媳妇，可惜战火蹭蹭地烧，压根没给他灭火的契机。 肖玉华已经开始吼：“你这是什么语气？你敢用手指头指我？小市民家庭没家教，你爸妈就是这么教你的吗？哦我差点忘了，你爸早死了，你妈自己光忙着改嫁是不是？” 穆忻一口气差点没上来，她简直难以相信这是自己家会出现的对白，眼前这个蛮不讲理的婆婆比电视上出现的那些还要恶毒一百倍！现在她相信了，原来，艺术真的是源于生活又高于生活，对许多人而言，有许多事只是没见过，而不等于不存在！ 穆忻使劲挣脱杨谦想要推她进卧室的手，可是杨谦力气太大，她推不动，干脆豁出去一口咬下去，杨谦“啊”地喊了一声，肖玉华气得哆嗦：“你个疯子，你还要不要脸了，你凭什么咬我儿子，你凭什么？” “他是我男人，我爱咬就咬，这是我家，我说了算！”穆忻要很努力才能压住心底那些恶毒的咒骂，她也是到这时才发现，自己不是没有撒泼的天分，而只是在努力压抑。她在心底冷笑，想着肖玉华你别逼我，你逼急了我，我骂得比你更难听！ “好了，都闭嘴！”杨谦一声暴喝，见穆忻还顽固地想往外冲，一扬手，“啪”地把穆忻甩到一边，他没想到自己的力量和一个手无缚鸡之力的女人相比有多大，穆忻随他甩出去的方向跌出去，刚好跌在身后一个五斗橱上。她的腰刚好卡在老式五斗橱的把手上，忍不住痛苦地喊一声，往前跌出去。肖玉华正在气头上，就在穆忻跌过来的瞬间毫不犹豫伸出手，“啪”地就是一巴掌！ 穆忻眼前一黑，只觉耳朵里“嗡嗡”作响，周围的一切，顿时隐去。 杨谦惊得呆住了几秒钟，直到杨成林急得满头汗地把肖玉华推到一边，一边喊着“杨谦快去看你媳妇怎样了”，他才猛地醒过神来，一个箭步冲上前去，伸手把穆忻抱到怀里，一叠声地问：“媳妇儿，媳妇儿，你怎样了？你没事吧？” 穆忻没有回答。她闭着眼，觉得脑袋里“嗡嗡”响成一片，什么都想不明白，也听不清楚，她不想哭的，可是不知道为什么泪水像条件反射一样涌出来。她能感觉到有人伸手给她擦去眼泪，可是她已经没有力气睁眼看那人到底是谁了。 穆忻恢复意识的时候已经是半小时后，她睁开眼，看见杨谦坐在床边，一手拉着她的手，一边焦急地问：“你怎么样了，哪儿不舒服？” 见穆忻的眼神木木的，杨谦赶紧承认错误：“对不起啊媳妇儿，我不是故意的，我真不是故意的，我怎么舍得打你呢，我这辈子都不舍得对你不好啊！可是当时也是急了，我没掌握好力道，你也知道我们做刑警的有时候处理突发情况那就得一招制敌，下手不能不狠，所以我脑子一热，心里一急，就没弄明白现在是在家不是在队里，我……” “杨谦，离开这儿吧。”穆忻的眼泪再次滑下来之前，杨谦听到这句话。 奇怪的是，他先松了一口气——实话说，他本以为，她对他说的第一句话会是“杨谦，离婚吧”。 可是这句“离开这儿”，是什么意思？ “我讨厌你做警察，也讨厌我自己。”穆忻的声音沙哑，没有多少力气，思维却清晰得很，甚是还有些不正常的冷静：不是抱怨这场婚姻，也没有抱怨婆媳关系，只是陈述那些像最后一根稻草一般的绝望——是的，她只觉得，自己快要被这最后一根稻草压垮。 她的视线空洞，明明看着杨谦的脸，又好像看着远处：“我讨厌这些人，野蛮、粗俗、毫无文明可言。你们刑讯逼供习惯了是吧？所以才出手就把老婆当犯人揍。杨谦，你以前不是这个样子的。偶尔想起以前的时候，我常常觉得我的青春也是浪漫过的。是有人递情书，有人心心念念地追，有人盼着和我比翼双飞……可是现在，倒是比翼了，但我觉得最后那点漂亮的羽毛都要掉光了，飞不起来了。” “这都是哪儿跟哪儿，”杨谦哭笑不得，“我说过我会努力考走的，可是既然还没走，就总得入乡随俗……” “我跟你选择这条道路的时候，是因为的确被你的热情感染，无论是爱情的热情，还是事业的热情，再或者是对那身警服的热情，可现在我常常会很困惑，因为我真没想到需要付出这么多的改变才能打好这份工，”穆忻疲惫地闭上眼，“要说快速学会当地方言、和群众相谈甚欢地挖线索、和同事讲着荤段子打成一片，你都远比我要适应得快，就连被纳入特权思想的笼罩并享受这种便利，你都比我入戏快。可是这样，真的就是好的吗？” 杨谦张张嘴，觉得自己也有很多辩解的话要说，但突然之间又没有头绪，无从说起。他正梳理着辩论的思路，却听见穆忻的话题倏然间又跳回到家庭生活的角度：“杨谦，你老实告诉我，当初你要跟我结婚的时候，你妈同意不同意？” “啊？”杨谦被这种跳跃绕晕了两秒钟，才反应，“这都猴年马月的事儿了，谁记得住？” “其实不过也就两年。将来，说不定还要一起生活一辈子，”穆忻睁开眼，紧紧盯着杨谦，“当然，如果这一辈子还能一起生活下去的话。” “你这什么意思？”杨谦很费解，“大晚上的，问我这么没意义的问题。” “还有什么更有意义的？之前我不是没问过你，对于咱们结婚，你父母有什么态度。你说他们都挺高兴的。后来婚礼上看你妈忙前忙后，我真是挺感动，我也真的以为她欢迎我成为你们家的一份子，以后和你一起过日子。可是日子总要过着过着才知道，歧视这东西，是源自骨子里的，你妈不说，不等于不存在。你没见上次她用那种怜悯的眼神赏赐给我一床廉价蚕丝被的时候那种施舍的感觉……杨谦，我虽然是小门小户的孩子，可是我也有尊严。我从没有求你们家接纳我，因为婚姻应该是平等的一件事，而不该是高高在上。可是，现在我却觉得，你妈不仅看不起我，还看不起我们家，她嫌我们穷，而穷人就不该有追求幸福的权利，穷人就算是改嫁都是恬不知耻的！” 杨谦完全被这一大套控诉砸懵了，半晌才答：“你别上纲上线的，哪有那么严重！我不是说了吗，咱生个孩子，她一忙就没空找咱的茬了。上个月失败了没关系，咱这个月继续……” 他一边讨好一边靠过来，想要揽住妻子，却被穆忻一把推开：“少整这套，你以为生完孩子就完了？生孩子容易养孩子难！就像你妈这态度，一旦发生教育孩子的分歧，咱再继续吵架吗？吓着孩子怎么办？” “不会的，我妈她就是被恶心着了，心情不好，找个托辞发泄呢……” “托辞、发泄？杨谦，那我如果也说自己身体不舒服，然后发泄说你妈就是个精神病，你还能这么心平气和地跟我解释吗？” “你这不是蛮不讲理吗……”杨谦不知道该说什么，说起来刚才穆忻不是还挺理智的吗？怎么说着说着就发展到现在这样撕破脸骂人的境地了呢？ “对，我蛮不讲理，你是好儿子，你心疼你妈，你守着你妈过一辈子吧！”穆忻说完话，狠狠瞪杨谦一眼，扯过被子把自己卷起来，再不看他一眼。 杨谦嘟囔一句“莫名其妙”，也背转身子睡觉了。他有点想不明白：曾经那个好脾气的姑娘哪儿去了？不就是一两句小口角，至于开始人身攻击吗？站在一个母亲的儿子的立场，他本来可以和她吵架，但他心疼她，所以不能吵，宁愿让步，难道这样还不行吗…… 想着想着，杨谦渐渐在一团乱麻中睡着了。