Chapter 43 Chapter Forty-Three

At that time, Lao Ren was happy and sad, but his face at that moment is now completely reproduced on his face. He leaned next to my ear and whispered: "Lolo, no matter what happens to you I'll protect you anyway." He said: "I really believe that hard work will lead to blossom one day. Do you remember Lolo, my biggest dream is to be able to buy a house in Beijing, buy a BMW, and then drive around the world with my loved ones." He said, "Lolo, I never want to lose you again." His voice gradually lowered, and the whole person fell down. I was pressed between my body and the seat by him, and I couldn't move for a while, and even my brain couldn't turn around.

He never wants to lose me again?Has he ever lost me? Lao Ren's dry lips were on my mouth, I couldn't struggle, and I didn't want to struggle, my mind was empty, Lao Ren...what is he doing... In my eighteen years of memory, there is no one like him . I said, old Ren, you can’t do this. This is on the street or in the car, Ren Jiahai didn’t care, he hugged me capriciously, and I couldn’t beat him until soon there was a shrill ambulance siren interrupted his madness. problem occurs. It's just half a street away. People gathered around one after another, some exclaimed, some sighed, some screamed, some lamented, some gloated, some wanted to flog the corpse, the police were sweating to maintain order, 120 stretchers hurriedly carried the people in the pool of blood up, me and the old man Ren stood not far away, and what he saw was such a chaotic scene——Ima Liangyi, who jumped from the top floor of Gao Wang's newly opened twenty-eight-story hotel and committed suicide.

The person who told me to live well just a moment ago has only one sentence in his suicide note, which is a line of lyrics - "Bury me in the spring." I touched my eyes and there were a lot of tears. Lao Ren sent me to the small clinic, where I saw the sleepy Depth, Zhu Huan and a group of brothers accompanying the bed, and Bai Jie with a pale face like a ghost. Lao Ren pulled Zhu Huan aside and asked him in a low voice what happened. Zhu Huan told him everything, but Bai Jie saw me and sneered: "You? Do you still have the face to see him?" I bit my lip, I was still hoping that the depth of field would forgive me, I looked at the man on the hospital bed who couldn't hide the pain between his brows even though he was sleeping, my tears flowed down.

I didn't feel sleepy at all. I waited until evening in the clinic. Jing Shen woke up and looked at me without saying a word. Bai Jie stepped forward to hold his hand with great concern. His hand was also covered with bandages and soaked with bright blood. My heartbroken internal organs were all mixed together. Should I tell him that I have already remembered the past? Will he forgive my stupidity?Can we start again? I spoke timidly, my voice hoarse, "I'm sorry." I said, "Jing Shen, will you forgive me..." Jing Shen still didn't say a word, Bai Jie got angry first, she pointed at me with red eyes and scolded: "You heartless bastard, do you know how good he is to you? How many days he didn't sleep to investigate your accident Do you know? Why do you still want to hurt him like this?! You still want him to forgive you, just dream! He will marry me when he goes back! Don’t stand in the way, as long as you are here, he One day will not get better, even if he has actually..."

"Stop talking." Jing Shen finally spoke, his dry voice interrupted her, "Luo Luo," he waved to me with difficulty, "Come here, let me hug you." I walked over with snot and tears, and the depth of field held me in his arms. The smell of medicine and blood on his body covered all my familiarity. I cried and heard him say: "Live a good life in the future, don't be self-willed anymore , you have to cherish yourself after I leave, it's best not to remember me, I... I'm not angry with you, it's not your fault, don't blame yourself too much, I do it willingly, but I can't take care of you anymore .”

I panicked: "Where are you going? Didn't you say you would take me with you? Did you still refuse to forgive me in the end? I was wrong, I was too stupid, I was an idiot...I...don't go away ……Please……" Jing Shen smiled with difficulty, and said: "I was injured better, so I went back to the United States. This time I came back to investigate the matter of Jin Liangyi. Now he committed suicide, and the dust has settled, hey." Jing Shen took a long sigh, and said: "Just think that I just met you by chance. In fact, your brother is better than me. I have already told him that he will take good care of you. You leave this city and go to Chen Where the forces of faith can’t reach, if they want to kill you, you can only go, preferably abroad, and you can hold concerts together, that’s great.”

I shook my head desperately, he said this, he didn't forgive me at all, why didn't he take me away, I don't want his money, I can support myself, I just want to make up for all my mistakes by his side, I... I The boy I fell in love with at the age of seventeen... Jing Shen said: "Forget about the unhappiness during this time. You and I just met by chance. You have your life, and I have mine. Bai Jie and I are college classmates. We will get engaged when we go back." "What about us?!" I almost blurted out. "Us?" Depth of Field touched my bird's hair helplessly, "We have no fate, there was no fate before, and we don't have any now, there are better people around you, cherish the present Lolo, just forget the past, Thinking about it may not be happiness, and don't think about why Chen Xin treats you like this, the result is the same whether you understand it or not, you can only go far away, and so do I."

"No! Yes! Yes!" I burst into tears, and I finally couldn't help but say: "Actually, I remembered... Depth of field... I loved you, I loved you!!! You it's me……" Before I finished crying, there was a loud bang at the door. It was the sound of stainless steel cups and plates falling to the ground. I turned around, only to see Ren Jiahai looking at me in disbelief, "Lolo, you... have you remembered?" "Yes." I said. "You've already remembered...you've already remembered..." Ren Jiahai repeated these words, and then ran away from the door. At that time, I just wondered, what does this have to do with him, at most Ren Jiayue is his sister, We happened to meet again in the north, and we lived together in poverty, so even if he failed to confess his love, he wouldn't run away, right?

Half a month later, Depth of Field's injury improved, and he left with Bai Jie after completing the discharge procedures. I went to the airport to see them off, so what do you think?What Jing Shen said is right, our fate is over, I watched them walk into the security inspection channel arm in arm among the crowds, I cried and called his name at the end, but he didn't look back at me. Zhu Huan said, once gone is a farewell, many things in the world often have no ending, just like I can easily forget Zhang Zhengyi, Li Peipei, the three aunts and six aunts next door, and all the people passing by in my life. Two months later, Zhu Huan took out his savings, took my mother, and his entire band, and we went to Japan. I found a painting company there, and I still made a living selling paintings. I looked up at the bright sunshine , I only know that our lives have been staggered since then, I forgot to forget, he forgot to remember, and I have never seen Ren Jiahai again. From the moment he ran away from the hospital, he completely disappeared in my world. I heard from my colleagues that he disappeared after he resigned as the editor-in-chief of the magazine, but I didn't expect that this farewell would be far away.

A year later, Zhu Huan got married. The bride was a little girl in the band who had a crush on him for a long time. At the wedding, I raised my glass to wish them happiness forever. Two years later, the art club I was in was acquired by the largest game company in Japan as an art team. I was the main artist, and my painting style was appreciated by the boss. A new game was launched, and I returned to my motherland from Japan overnight. When I was worried that Chen Xin would come to me again, I accidentally found news about Chen Xin on the Internet. Looking at the date, it was old news from a year ago. The face of the perpetrator in the news is obviously Ren Jiahai's, but he is much older. Looking at his tired eyes, I feel sore in my heart. He finally made money. Enough money to buy a BMW, his dream has finally come true, but he used this method to avenge his sister, this man who told me that as long as I work hard, there is hope...

I searched for the follow-up, but all I could find was the news that "the perpetrator Ren Jiahai committed suicide after surrendering to the police". I lay down in front of the monitor, and my tears flowed down. I haven't cried for many years. Old Ren, You said Luo Luo don't cry, but you made me cry after all. At that time, my mother was cooking and asked me what was wrong. I cried and told her that my parents who used to provide food and clothing committed suicide. "His name is Ren Jiahai..." My mother looked at the photos in the news thoughtfully, "A doctor came to me and confessed to me, saying that he took money to kill you with a medical accident, and in the end he was so sad. I can't bear it, and then we discussed it and sent you to a mental hospital to escape, he seems to look like this." That night, I folded my paintbrush. Another year later, I agreed to a marriage proposal from a colleague in the company. He is also Chinese and his family is very rich. After graduating from studying abroad, he joined the technical department of this company. With the help of colleagues, we are together. That summer, I held a world tour art exhibition, from Japan to China, from London to Sweden, from Paris to Atlanta. Under the support of the company's media, I became a world-renowned illustrator. The last stop of the art exhibition was Pennsylvania in the United States. In the square of the Philadelphia Art Exhibition, countless spotlights focused on my back, and I looked up at the flags fluttering high. For so long, he has thought of me. Of course, it doesn't matter whether he is there or not. He should be living happily with Bai Jie now, and I will hold our wedding with my fiancé at the last stop of the art exhibition. I am wearing the most beautiful wedding dress and I am holding a handsome The man who is about to become my husband, I receive bouquets and blessings from fans all over the world. Above my head are colorful balloons and white doves, which fly by the wind over the cross on the top of the church. The sun casts a perfect angle, Zhu Huan is right, we will all have a day when all our hardships are gone, those sad pasts, one day we can look back with a smile. Lao Ren probably also smiled and blessed me in the sky. I snuggled into my husband's arms and sweetly accepted people's bouquets. The wedding lasted until evening. My husband and I hugged and kissed, and in the blessings of the whole world, we also passed the media Bless the whole world, our wedding photo will become the most popular retweet on twitter tonight, I smiled so brightly, like the summer tree on the paintings I hung all over the place, when I was sketching in Beihai, my favorite What I like most is the branches and leaves of trees that bloom in full bloom in summer. They are in full bloom in my life, singing all the way and all the way. The last one who brought up the bouquet that day was a blind man wearing sunglasses. He delivered a bouquet of sunflowers to me, and then turned away. No one helped him. His figure on crutches staggered and disappeared at the end of the sunset. , for some reason, I suddenly felt a little desolate, I actually have a blind fan, can he also understand my paintings? When the banquet was held in the evening, several professors from the University of Pennsylvania also came. They said "Miss Xia's paintings have a kind of life force" in unproficient Chinese. I toasted them with a smile. One of the professors was Chinese. , he started chatting after drinking too much, I listened quietly, and heard him sigh with regret at the end: "I had a student who also liked Miss Xia's paintings very much, and insisted on paying expensive postage every month to buy a copy of your domestic painting. this magazine." I was surprised: "A magazine? It wouldn't be "Beauty Times", I just debuted at that time." The professor said: "It seems to be called the title of the book. It's a pity for this student. His grades are the best in the medical school. It's just that when he just graduated, he was diagnosed with eye cancer in his right eye. Excision of the lesion can save his left eye, but he Oh, I refused, and I packed up my things and went back to the country, saying that I was going to find the person I love the most. As a result, when he finally came back, both of his eyes were gone. Our best doctor had no choice but to give him all. resection." After hearing this, I also sighed: "That's really pitiful, such a good person, and so affectionate." "Let's talk about something happy, this is the wedding of a great painter." The half-drunk professor poured himself another glass of wine, "I wish Miss Xia a happy wedding and an early baby!" Everyone echoed: "To grow old together, to have a precious son early!" I raised my glass, smiling gracefully, as bright as summer flowers.