Chapter 13 Thirteenth Killer Horror Song

morning. Standing by the path, Meng Xinghun looked over through the mist, and could vaguely see a small house with bright red walls and a dark gray roof, which was exquisitely built. There is a small flower garden outside the house. Several clusters of flowers are in full bloom, but it is hard to tell whether they are camellias or chrysanthemums. No sound was heard, no one was seen, and there seemed to be a single lamp in the window that had not been extinguished. Someone must have been waiting in the house last night, very late. Xiaodie stared at the window obsessively for a long time, then sighed softly and said, "This is my home now."

Meng Xinghun said: "The current home? Did you have another home before?" Xiaodie said: "Yes." Meng Xinghun also sighed and said, "You really have quite a few homes." Xiaodie smiled, and said: "Actually, there is only one. Now this place can't be regarded as a home at all." Meng Xinghun said, "Why don't you want that home anymore?" Xiaodie smiled sadly and said: "It's not that I don't want it, it's that it doesn't want me." She seemed unwilling to mention the past, and immediately changed the subject, saying: "It's because this place is not home at all, that's why I don't want you to send me back."

Meng Xinghun said: "Why do you want me to send you back now?" Xiaodie said: "Now I don't care about anything anyway, and I also want you to see..." Meng Xinghun said, "What are you looking at?" Xiaodie's eyes suddenly became very gentle, and she said slowly: "Look at this person, I hope you like him as much as I do." Meng Xinghun's expression changed, he bit his lip, and said, "I think...it's better not to look at it." Xiaodie glanced at him and said with a smile, "You think I want you to meet that person?" Meng Xinghun said: "No?"

Xiaodie said: "Of course not, not only you don't want to see him, I also never want to see him again." Meng Xinghun said: "He is now..." Xiaodie said: "He will never be here now." Meng Xinghun said: "Then who are you bringing me to see?" Xiaodie didn't answer, took his hand, and walked side by side with him on the path among the flower beds. Very quiet, so quiet that you can almost hear the sound of petals opening. They walked slowly on the road covered with fine gravel, and someone in the house immediately heard their footsteps. A child's voice shouted: "Is the empress back? The baby wants to go out and have a look... The baby wants to go out and have a look..."

The door opened, and a sleepy little girl came out pulling a three or four year old child. The child's round face was also full of sleepiness, and he rubbed his eyes with a pair of small white and fat hands. When he saw Xiaodie, he immediately smiled, jumped, broke free from the little girl, and ran over with open arms, screaming. Said: "The empress is back, the baby misses you to death, the empress hugs the baby." Xiaodie also shook off Meng Xinghun's hand and went up to meet her, saying: "Be good, baby, come and give your mother a sweet face." She hugged the child tightly, as if she couldn't bear to let go.

The little girl's eyes were no longer sleepy, she was staring at Meng Xinghun in surprise. Meng Xinghun turned his head, his heart was in a mess, he didn't know if it was sweet?Is it bitter?Is it sour? After an unknown amount of time, he suddenly found Xiaodie standing in front of him with the child in his arms, staring at him with eyes full of tenderness, and said, "The baby is calling Uncle!" The child smiled like an angel, and immediately called out, "Uncle... is this uncle good?" Xiaodie said softly: "Of course you are good, just like a baby." The child said: "Uncle, be good, the baby has a sweet face."

He opened a pair of small hands, rushed over and hugged Meng Xinghun. Meng Xinghun suddenly felt a burst of hot blood welling up in his chest, and tears almost couldn't help but burst out of his eyes. He reached out and took the child in his arms. It was the first time in his life that he held a baby.He suddenly wished that he was holding his own child, and his heart began to ache again. Xiaodie looked at them with more gentle eyes, and after an unknown amount of time, a crystal teardrop slowly flowed from the corner of her eye and rolled down her cheek. She quietly wiped away her tears, and said softly: "It's so cold outside, baby, go with sister first, okay?"

The child's smiling face disappeared immediately, and he almost burst into tears, saying: "Is the empress going out again?" Xiao Die said: "Madam won't go out - Madam will go in to accompany the baby after saying a few words with uncle." The child said: "The empress does not lie to the baby." Xiao Die said: "The baby is good, how can the empress be willing to lie to the baby." The child immediately laughed again, slipped off Meng Xinghun's body, and said with a smile, "Be good, baby, go in first, and the mother will like it..."

He jumped in and ran in, poked his head out of the door, and shook his hand at Meng Xinghun. Meng Xinghun also shook his hand and wanted to smile, but his face seemed to be numb and stiff. After the child walked in, Xiaodie turned to look at him.Meng Xinghun forced a smile and said, "This child is indeed very obedient and cute." Xiaodie nodded slowly, and said sadly: "Very obedient, very cute,...very pitiful." Meng Xinghun let out a long sigh and said, "It's really pitiful." Xiaodie lowered her head and said, "You should know why I must come back by now!"

Meng Xinghun nodded. Xiaodie's voice was choked up, and she sighed: "He has no father, I can't let him have no mother." Meng Xinghun said: "I understand." Of course he understands that there may be no one else in the world who understands better than him how pitiful and painful an orphan without parents is. He himself did not know how many times he was awakened by nightmares in the middle of the night, and his face was full of tears when he woke up. Xiao Die sadly said: "No matter what the parents did wrong, the child is always innocent. I really can't bear to let him suffer for the rest of his life."

Meng Xinghun clenched his hands tightly, and after a while he was in a daze, suddenly said: "I should go, you...you don't have to see me off." Xiaodie said quietly: "Are you leaving like this?" Meng Xinghun said: "You can't bear it, I...I can't bear it either...Although it is painful for me to stay here, it will definitely be even more painful if I leave." He turned around, but Xiaodie pulled him back, stared at him, and said: "You can't go, I still have something to say." Meng Xinghun said: "Speak, I'll listen." Xiaodie turned her eyes to the distance and said, "Of course you know that this child belongs to that person, right?" Meng Xinghun said: "Yes." Xiaodie said: "When I found out that I had a child, I really hated it, not only hated the inhuman person, but also hated myself, hated this child, I even made up my mind to drown him as soon as he was born. " Meng Xinghun was listening. Xiao Die said: "But after he was born, when I saw him for the first time and saw his ugly red face, the hatred in my heart turned into love." Her voice was like a dream, Slowly continued: "I watched him grow up day by day, I saw him getting cuter every day, and when I held him to breastfeed, I also felt that he was sucking more powerfully every day. At this time, I will temporarily forget my troubles and pains." Meng Xinghun coughed a few times in a low voice, if he didn't cough, tears would come out of his eyes again. Xiaodie said: "That's when I realized that I can never leave him in this life. Although he needs me, I need him more. For him, I can endure any pain and grievance, and I am determined to endure it for the rest of my life." She sighed sadly, and continued: "Since I don't want to part with my child, I won't have the courage to leave that person. Of course that person knows it himself, so he never thought that I would resist and change." Meng Xinghun said: "You...you changed?" Xiaodie said: "I have indeed changed - without you, I might never have dared, but you gave me the courage to make up my mind - determined to leave him!" Meng Xinghun's eyes suddenly brightened, and he said, "You...do you really have this determination?" Xiaodie faced him and said, "I just ask you, do you want me? Do you want my child?" Meng Xinghun couldn't help hugging her, and said softly, "You said that the child is innocent...your child is my child." Xiaodie said: "Really?" Meng Xinghun said, "Of course it's true." Xiaodie said: "We may encounter many difficulties and troubles in the future, will you regret it?" Meng Xinghun said: "I will never regret it! I will never regret it even if I die." Xiaodie said: "Do you not regret dying?" Meng Xinghun said: "As long as I have lived, what does it matter if I die? Only when I am with you can I be considered alive." Xiaodie let out a "wow" and threw herself into his arms. The two embraced tightly, as if the whole world had been held in their arms. The wind blows gently, the fog disperses gently, and the flowers emit fragrance gently. Xiaodie suddenly asked: "Do you like butterflies?" Meng Xinghun said, "Butterfly?" Xiao Die said: "Well, Butterfly, I like Butterfly, because I think some people have the same fate as Butterfly, especially me." Meng Xinghun said: "You?" Xiao Die said: "One day I found out that my girl caught a butterfly and put it in the book. I was very angry at first, but I couldn't think that the little girl said a truth that touched me very much." Meng Xinghun said: "What did she say?" Xiaodie said: "She said that although the butterfly died because of her, it also preserved its beauty because of it. Its life is already worthwhile. Even if she doesn't catch the butterfly, the butterfly will die sooner or later, and it may be Die worse..." She smiled sadly, and continued: "So if I die suddenly, you don't need to be sad, because my life is worth living, and I know you will always remember me." Meng Xinghun hugged him even tighter, and said, "How can you say such things? How could you die?" Xiaodie didn't speak any more, she nestled quietly in his arms, and after a long time, she said softly: "You go back and wait for me first, okay?" Meng Xinghun said, "What about you?" Xiaodie said: "I still have some things to pack here, and then I will take the child to find you immediately." Meng Xinghun pondered, then shook his head suddenly, and said, "I'd better wait for you here." Xiaodie said: "Why?" Meng Xinghun said, "I'm worried." Xiaodie said sweetly: "Silly boy, why don't you worry, do you still think I will lie to you?" Meng Xinghun said: "Of course you won't lie to me, but in case something unexpected happens..." Xiaodie said: "There will be no accidents, that person will never come for the time being, so I have to tidy up everything here, so that he will never find me in the future." She caressed Meng Xinghun's thin face, and said softly: "So you don't have to worry, I will look for you soon, no matter what. I have decided to live happily with you Together, even if we only live for one day, I am willing!" If you have loved, you will understand what she said, and you will also agree that as long as you can live in true love for one day, you are also happy. That's much better than living your whole life with someone you hate. Meng Xinghun walked back slowly along this path. The road was narrow and rough, but he insisted on walking. "Everyone has to go his own way." He was used to loneliness, but now he suddenly felt that loneliness was so unbearable. He believed that she would definitely come, but for some reason, he always seemed to feel an ominous omen in his heart. This feeling not only made him stunned, but almost drove him out of his mind. Even a well-trained hunting dog will become unresponsive when pregnant. He was completely unaware that someone had been following him in the dark. This person's eyes were full of resentment and jealousy. If eyes could kill, Meng Xinghun would have died by the roadside. Waiting for Meng Xinghun to go far away, this person came out slowly, gritted his teeth, and murmured: "You must regret it. Although I won't kill you, one day I will make you regret it. Why don't you die sooner? I will make your life ten times more painful than death." Although his tone was full of resentment, he was still very calm. At this time, the person who can still maintain calmness means that as long as he speaks, he can do it. Meng Xinghun pushed open the door only to find that Boss Gao was in the room. She was sitting on the bed, and in the dim light of the cabin, she still looked so young, so beautiful, beautiful enough to stop most men's breath.Meng Xinghun's breathing seemed to have stopped. Boss Gao looked at his surprised expression, and said sweetly, "You didn't expect me to be here? Are you startled?" Meng Xinghun could only nod his head. Boss Gao lowered his face and said, "In the past, even if you stood ten feet away, you would still feel that there was someone in the room. Why did you suddenly become dull now? What made you change?" Meng Xinghun lowered his head, he couldn't explain it, and he couldn't explain it either. Boss Gao said coldly: "The fox will only fall into the hunter's trap when it is pregnant, what about you?" Meng Xinghun said: "I'm not a fox, I'm a human." Gao Laodao: "People also have a time of bosom." Meng Xinghun said: "There are no traps here, and you are not a hunter." Gao Laodao: "What if I am?" Meng Xinghun said: "You are dead now." Boss Gao stared at him for a long time, and finally smiled, and said, "You really are the same as before, and you really didn't disappoint me." She suddenly asked again: "Do you know what some people call you behind your back?" Meng Xinghun said, "It doesn't matter what they call me." Boss Gao smiled and said, "They call you a 'nail', no matter who hits you, a hole will be punched in their head, even me." Meng Xinghun said: "Then you shouldn't have come, I haven't forgotten what you asked me to do." Gao Laodao: "Is it okay for me to come and see you? Don't forget that you couldn't live without me even a day when you were young." Meng Xinghun lowered his head again, even lower. After a long time, he sighed and said, "I will never forget—I will never forget." Boss Gao said softly: "Ye Xiang has come to tell me about you. Since I know you are injured, why can't I not come to see you? Even if something big happens, I will still find time to come and see you .” She smiled, and then said: "I still remember that once when you went to steal taro from someone's field, the family's dog bit you twice on your leg, and you lay there for several days without moving. " Meng Xinghun said: "I...I also remember...that time you were always by my side guarding me." He was not ungrateful, but every time he recalled the past, his heart ached. Gao Laodao: "It seems that your injury has recovered?" Meng Xinghun said, "It's much better." Gao Laodao: "So, when do you want to do it?" She smiled, and continued: "I'm not urging you, but there is indeed a very good opportunity now." Meng Xinghun said, "What chance?" Gao Laodao: "Now the old man is secretly recruiting troops again, preparing for the final battle with King Wanpeng. If someone like you goes to him, he will definitely use you again." Meng Xinghun said: "He will definitely investigate my origin carefully." Gao Laodao: "Not bad." Meng Xinghun said: "If he finds out that I have no background at all, what do you think he will do to me?" He really has no history. No one in the rivers and lakes knew about his past at all. No origin is more doubtful than any origin, because a man like him could never have fallen from the sky out of thin air. Gao Laodao: "If he can't find out your origin, maybe he will kill you." Meng Xinghun said: "Do you want me to kill him, or do you want him to kill me?" Boss Gao laughed and said, "But you are not someone with no background, I have already arranged a background for you." Meng Xinghun said: "What's the origin?" Gao Laodao: "Your surname is Qin, and your name is Qin Zhongting. You are from the Qin family in the east of Lu. Qin Huhua is the distant nephew of Qin Erye. Zhong Yuan showed up, so no one recognizes you." She smiled again, and continued: "You should know that Qin Huhua not only owes me love, but also always wants to please me. Even if I say you are his uncle, he will not deny it." Meng Xinghun said: "Children of the Qin family, why do you seek refuge with the old man?" Gao Laodao: "Because you want to stand out, the battle between the old man and the 'Twelve Feipeng Gang' has already caused a sensation in the martial arts. If young people want to make a name for themselves, this is the best opportunity." Meng Xinghun looked at her, and couldn't help feeling admiration in his heart. Although she is a woman, although she is still very young, she has a thorough plan, which is far inferior to the sum of ten veterans.Boss Gao was also looking at him with sharp and calm eyes. When Meng Xinghun met her gaze, he often wondered in his heart whether the cold and realistic woman sitting in front of him was really the one who rescued them from the quagmire and sacrificed everything to raise them and make them The girl from cold and hunger. Sometimes he even wondered, why did she save them then?Is it really out of pity and compassion?Or do you have plans to use them?Her care and love for them was just a planned investment? He doubted, but never wanted to think too much, too deeply. He didn't want to be ungrateful. Boss Gao took out two well-bound paper books from his bosom, and said, "This is the family tree of the Qin family. The Qin family in eastern Ludong is a big family with many people. You'd better write them all down. Among them is a family tree called Qin Xiong's is your father, he died when you were ten years old." Meng Xinghun asked, "How did you die?" Gao Laodao: "He died of illness." She thought about it, and then said: "It is said that it is a disgraceful disease, so when others ask, you can refuse to answer." Meng Xinghun said, "What about the other book?" Gao Laodao: "This is Qin Zhongting's private diary written by himself on the boat. It records his life over the years, who he has known and where he has been. So you should remember it very well." Meng Xinghun said: "Those people..." Boss Gao interrupted him, saying: "Those people have all gone to sea and will never come back in two or three years, so you don't have to worry about them revealing this secret." Meng Xinghun said, "I'm only worried about one thing." Gao Laodao: "Are you worried that the old man will find the real Qin Zhongting?" Meng Xinghun said: "Yes." Mr. Gao laughed and said, "Don't worry, he won't find it." Meng Xinghun didn't ask why. He knew that if Boss Gao wanted to disappear alone, it would not be difficult. Boss Gao stared at him and said, "Do you have any questions?" Meng Xinghun said: "Not anymore." Gao Laodao: "Then it's my turn to ask you, are you going or not?" Meng Xinghun turned around and faced the window. The wind blows from afar, the fallen leaves flutter in the wind, and the mountains in the distance are desolate. Meng Xinghun said slowly: "If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be alive at all. You know that I am ready to die for you at any time." Boss Gao's gaze suddenly became soft, and he said, "But I don't want you to die for me, I just want you to live for me." Meng Xinghun said: "I don't have parents, I don't have relatives, I don't even have friends. I can die for you or live for you, but now I..." Gao Laodao: "How about now?" Meng Xinghun held the window tightly with his hand, and said slowly, "Now I hope to live for myself for a while." The tenderness in Gao's eyes suddenly froze, and he said, "Do you want to leave me?" Meng Xinghun said: "I didn't mean that, it's just..." Boss Gao suddenly interrupted him again, and said, "I think I understand what you mean." Her eyes were colder, but her voice was more gentle, and she said softly, "Do you already have someone you like?" Meng Xinghun was silent, and silence usually meant acquiescing. Gao Laodao: "You don't need to hide it from me, this is a happy event, and I'm happy for you, but... is that girl worthy of you?" Meng Xinghun said, "She's fine." Boss Gao smiled, but there was still no warmth in his smile.She smiled and said: "I really want to see her, the girl who can make you so fascinated must be very good." Meng Xinghun said: "You have no objection?" Gao Laodao: "Why should I object? You have already reached the time when you should start a family. As long as it is a girl you like, I will definitely like it too." Meng Xinghun turned his head, his eyes were full of gratitude, so grateful that his throat seemed to be blocked. Boss Gao turned his head and said, "Where are you going?" Meng Xinghun pondered, and said, "I don't know yet, I just want to find a quiet place." Gao Laodao: "When are you going to leave?" Meng Xinghun picked up the two notebooks on the table and said, "It depends on when this matter will be done." This was his last chance to repay Boss Gao's kindness, so he had to go. Boss Gao turned his head to look at him, even his gaze became very gentle, and said: "This mission is very dangerous, even if you don't go, I won't blame you." Meng Xinghun said: "I'll go, I've already promised you." Gao Laodao: "Are you not sure?" Meng Xinghun smiled, and said, "You don't need to worry about me, the person who should be worried is Sun Yubo." He has never been so confident in himself, no matter how difficult and dangerous this task is, he has the confidence to complete it.He suddenly felt that he was more mature and smarter than before, this is the power of love. Love can make a person strong, brave and confident. Love can do almost anything except one thing - love changes only you, you can't change others. Boss Gao left, with a smile on his face. There was a gorgeous carriage waiting in the distance, and she got into it with a smile.The driver who was driving the car was already a little impatient, but now he is in a better mood: "Madam Boss must be going well today, and she must have received very happy news." He had never discovered that the landlady's smile was so cute and joyful.Whoever sees this smile will feel better. When she returned to Happy Forest, it was not too late. She drank a few more glasses of wine with the guests, and the smile on her face was even sweeter. Even the guests couldn't help asking: "Why is the proprietress so happy today?" She did not return to her room until very late.The girl next to her also felt that she had a particularly good temper today, and she didn't even care that the bath water was cold. She smiled and told the girl to go to bed early, smiled and closed the door, then suddenly turned around and smashed everything in the room that could be smashed to pieces! Meng Xinghun had been standing at the door, so he had seen Xiaodie as soon as she walked into the woods. "As expected, she came, bringing the child with her." Meng Xinghun had never been happier than this moment in his life, and he suddenly felt that his ominous premonition just now was absurd and ridiculous. The child is asleep. Xiaodie gently put him on the bed, she looked at the child, then at Meng Xinghun. His eyes were full of happiness and contentment, as gentle as a lake under the setting sun. Meng Xinghun had already opened his arms, waiting for her. Xiaodie threw herself into his arms, sighed contentedly and said, "Now I am completely yours, you can do whatever you want." Meng Xinghun's hand slipped in from her collar, stroking her warm and smooth skin, and said, "Whatever I want?" Xiaodie closed her eyes, giggled coquettishly and said, "Whatever...would you eat me?" Meng Xinghun said: "I just want to eat you, eat it into my stomach bit by bit." He lowered his head and bit her ear and neck gently. Xiaodie flashed a smile, panting: "My child... Be careful not to wake the child..." The child sat up, staring at them with wide eyes. Xiaodie hurriedly pushed him away and pulled the front of her clothes, although she still blushed a little in front of her own child. The child blinked, then suddenly smiled, and said: "My mother kisses uncle, uncle must be very good." Meng Xinghun couldn't help laughing, walked over to pick up the child, and said, "The baby is also very well-behaved, uncle kisses the baby." The child rubbed his eyes and said, "The baby is sleepy, can the empress take the baby home?" Xiaodie took the child, put it on the bed, and said softly: "The baby will sleep here obediently, this is our home." The child shook his head vigorously, and said, "Baby doesn't want this house, it's so dirty and messy, and baby can't sleep." Xiaodie glanced at Meng Xinghun, forced a smile and said, "Baby sleep well first, uncle will take us to a good place." The child asked: "Can uncle lie to others?" Meng Xinghun said softly: "How could uncle lie? Baby just sleep peacefully!" The child smiled and said: "Uncle is not good if he cheats, and my mother will not kiss uncle." He took his mother's hand, closed his eyes, and with a sweet smile on his face, he murmured: "Uncle is going to take me with you." The baby has gone to a good place, where there are very fragrant flowers, and the bed the baby sleeps on is soft and comfortable..." He had found the place in his dream, and he slept soundly. Meng Xinghun's heart began to ache again, he really wanted them to live a more stable and comfortable life, he really wanted to give them a good home.But he suddenly found that he couldn't do it. Love can't change everything. It can't change this broken house into a warm home, and it can't turn sunny grass into food for children. Meng Xinghun's hand involuntarily reached into his pocket, tightly holding the remaining bank note. This was all his property, and his palms suddenly broke out in cold sweat. Xiaodie stared at him, obviously saw what was on his mind, walked over to caress his face, and said softly: "You don't need to worry, as long as we can be together, it doesn't matter if life is a little bit harder." She had, of course, some jewellery, but she had brought nothing. She has made up her mind to throw away everything in the past and start a new life. This is what Meng Xinghun is most grateful for. He knows that she is willing to share weal and woe with him, but the child... Meng Xinghun shook his head suddenly, and said, "No matter what, we can't wrong the child." He had made up his mind, determined to complete that task as soon as possible. After the mission is completed, Boss Gao will definitely give him a generous reward. Meng Xinghun said again: "Can you wait for me here for ten days?" Xiaodie said: "Waiting for you for ten days? Why?" Meng Xinghun said: "I still have something to do, as long as this thing can be done well, the child can live a better life in the future." Xiao Die said: "But... you have to leave me for ten days, ten days." Meng Xinghun said: "Ten days is not long, maybe I can come back early." Xiaodie lowered her head and said: "I used to think that ten days is very short, even ten years, it seems to pass in the blink of an eye, but now, now it is different, because..." She suddenly hugged him tightly again and said: "Because I will definitely think about you all the time, and worry about you all the time. If you are not by my side, I can't even live a day like that." Meng Xinghun said softly: "You will definitely be able to live on, as long as you think that we still have thousands of hundreds of ten days in the future, these ten days will pass soon." Xiaodie said: "Can you tell me where you are going?" Meng Xinghun hesitated, forced a smile, and said, "I will definitely tell you in the future, but you'd better not know now." A look of worry appeared in Xiaodie's eyes, and she said, "Why? Are you afraid that I will worry? Is what you are doing dangerous?" Meng Xinghun smiled and said: "You don't need to worry about me, as long as you think of you, even if there is some danger, I can handle it." Xiaodie said: "You... are you sure you will come back?" Meng Xinghun said: "Of course, no matter what, I will definitely come back." He smirked, kissed her on the face, and said: "Even if someone cuts off my two legs, I will crawl back!" Xiaodie watched Meng Xinghun's figure disappear, tears flowed down her cheeks again. For some reason, she suddenly felt very confused, as if she had a premonition that something unfortunate was about to happen. Especially the words Meng Xinghun said before leaving made her even more worried.She seemed to have seen Meng Xinghun's two legs cut off, and he was crawling back. She really wanted to desperately keep him by her side, but she didn't. Because she knows what a man does, it's best for a woman not to interfere - if a woman always interferes in a man's affairs, she will regret it sooner or later - when the man can't stand her, she can't regret it. But if Xiaodie knew what Meng Xinghun was going to do now and who she was going to kill, then she would rather be blamed by him than desperately keep him. Because what he did here will surely make them both regret for life. Boss Gao looked at the debris all over the floor, his hands were still trembling. She had never been so angry in her life. As long as she wants what she wants, she will do whatever it takes to get it, and she will definitely get it. Once she got it, she held onto it very tightly, because she didn't want to lose it, let alone be robbed by others, and she would never let go of it until the value of that thing was lost. She has thrown away many things that have lost their value, and many people who have lost their value, just like shaking off the snot from her hand. But she has never been abandoned by others. Now, Meng Xinghun, whom she raised single-handedly, is about to leave her for another woman. How can she endure such a thing? Anger was like a flame, burning from her heart to her womb. She needs to vent. No matter how much you break, it doesn't count as venting. She was a woman, a thirty-seven-year-old woman whose real outlet could only be found in a man. Under the lamp, her freshly bathed skin looked rosy, like the face of a newborn baby. The expensive and silky silk robe was open, and the slender legs protruding from the open placket were still strong and full of elasticity. The lower abdomen is still flat, and there is absolutely no muscle relaxation anywhere in the whole body. A woman like this, of course, can find many men. Whenever he sees her, his eyes salivate like a hungry dog ​​seeing fat. She didn't underestimate her own charm, but she was reluctant to do so. A woman's body is like bait, which can only be seen by a man, but not obtained by him. For a man is a very strange fish, and when he swallows the bait, he tends to slip away. "A wife is worse than a concubine, a concubine is worse than a thief, and stealing is worse than not being able to steal." She has understood a man's heart many years ago, so she has known how to use lust to conquer a man many years ago.On a hot summer night many years ago, she was suddenly so burned by lust that she couldn't sleep, she went out quietly, and rinsed in a corner of the warehouse with a bucket of cold water.She saw a few pairs of bright eyes staring at her naked body in the dark - Meng Xinghun was not the only one who saw her naked in the bath that night. She didn't stop them, nor did she cover herself, but rushed more carefully, trying to expose her flawless body to the moonlight. Because she suddenly found that she likes to be peeped by men. She herself felt a secret pleasure whenever anyone peeped at her. During that night, she discovered two other things. Those children have grown up. She was not just a mother and a friend to them, but a woman, and if she knew how to use that, they would never betray her. The first time she suffered failure was in Meng Xinghun's wooden house. She never imagined that Meng Xinghun could still control herself at that time, when Meng Xinghun ran out of the wooden house, she was so angry that she almost couldn't help pulling him back and beating him to pieces.When a woman is rejected by a man, the feeling in her heart is not shame but anger, which is probably beyond the imagination of men. She also restrained herself because she was sure that there would be opportunities later. She never thought that Meng Xinghun would leave her. Open the window, the wind is very cold. Lust is like a flame, the cold wind not only cannot blow it out, but fuels it even more. She lifted up her skirt and swept it out. Although Xiao He is useless now, she knows where to find Ye Xiang. The wine bottle is empty. The wine bottles in Ye Xiang's hands seemed to be empty.He lay prone on the ground, pressing the ground hard, as if to regard the ground as his woman. Although his heart is crippled, he is not crippled, just like those other thirty-year-old men who are always tormented by lust. Especially after drinking, alcohol always makes men think of women. Does alcohol make women think of men? Yes. The only difference is that after a man drinks, he will think of all kinds of women, many different women; after a woman drinks, she will only think of one man. Most of the time she thought about a man who had abandoned her. Ye Xiang is a man, now he thinks of many women, from his first woman to the last.He had had many women, most of them whores, whom he had bought with money. But his first woman was different. He sold his whole life to that woman. That is indeed a different woman. As long as he thinks of her flawless body, he is so impulsive that he can't help but use his hands as hers. Suddenly someone was laughing, and the laughter was like a silver bell! "I didn't expect you to become so pitiful, so pitiful that you could only use your own hands." Ye Xiang turned over and saw Boss Gao. Boss Gao looked at him, giggled and said, "When you use your hands, are you thinking of me?" Ye Xiang blushed with anger. Lately he felt he had grown numb, but now he was almost unbearably angry. Boss Gao was still smiling, and smiled even more charmingly, and said, "You think I won't look for you again, so you use your hands, don't you?" Ye Xiang barely controlled his anger, and said coldly: "I knew you would come to me again." Gao Laodao: "Oh?" Ye Xiang said: "You are like a bitch, when there are no men, you will even look for wild dogs." Boss Gao laughed and said, "Then you are a wild dog." She deliberately let the wind blow away the silk robe on her body, allowing him to see the carcass he was already familiar with. A familiar heat rose from his lower abdomen, and he suddenly grabbed her slender ankle with force. She fell, on top of him. Ye Xiang rolled over and held her down, panting... The wind is in the forest. Ye Xiang's breathing gradually calmed down. But Boss Gao stood up, looked at him coldly, and said coldly: "I know you can't do it anymore, but I didn't expect that you can't even do this kind of thing." Ye Xiang sneered and said, "That's because I treat you like a bitch, and I don't need you to enjoy it." 高老大的脸色也因愤怒而发红，咬着牙道：“莫忘了是谁让你活到现在的，我既能让你活，同样也能要你死！” 叶翔道：“我没有忘记，我一直对你很尊敬很感激，直到我发现你是条母狗的时候。你不但自己是狗，也将我们当作狗——你养我们，为的就是要我们替你去咬人。” 高老大瞪着他，嘴角忽然又露出微笑，道：“无论你嘴里怎么说，我知道，你心里还是在想着我的。” 叶翔道：“我的确在想你，连我用手的时候也在想着你，但我也只有在想这种事的时候，才会想到你，因为这种时候，我不敢想她，我不敢冒亵了她。” 高老大道：“她？她是谁？” 叶翔笑了笑，道：“当然是一个女人。” 高老大道：“你心里还有别的女人？” 叶翔道：“没有别的，只有她。” 高老大道：“她究竟是谁？” 叶翔冷笑道：“她比你高贵，比你美，比你也不知要好多少倍。”高老大听后脸色有些变了。 叶翔笑得更残酷，道：“我知道你现在一定在想杀了她，只可惜你永远也不会知道她是谁。” 高老大忽然大笑了，忽然问道：“你知不知道孙玉伯还有个女儿？” 叶翔脸上的笑容忽然冻结。 高老大道：“你若去问孙玉伯，他一定不承认自己有个女儿，因为这女儿实在太丢他的人，还未出嫁就被人弄大了肚子。” 叶翔的脸已因痛苦而扭曲。 他忽然发觉无论任何秘密都瞒不了高老大。 高老大道：“最妙的是，她肚子大了之后，却还不知谁是肚里孩子的父亲。” 叶翔眼前仿佛又出现了个纯洁的美丽影子，正痴痴地站在夕阳下的花丛里，痴痴地看一双飞翔的蝴蝶…… 那是他心中的女神，也是他梦中的情人。 叶翔跳起来，咬着牙，哽声道：“你说谎，她绝不是这种女人。” 高老大道：“你知道她是怎么样的女人？你认得她？” 叶翔咬着牙不能回答。 这是他心里最大的秘密，他准备将这秘密一直隐藏到死。 但他当然也知道，若不是为了她，孙玉伯就不会要韩棠去找他，他也就不会变成这个样子。 高老大带着笑道：“孙玉伯对这女儿本来管得很严，绝不许任何男人接近她，无论谁只要对她有了染指之意，就立刻会发觉孙玉伯属下的打手等着他，那么这人很快就会失踪了。” 她笑得比叶翔刚才更残酷，接着又道：“但孙玉伯还是忘了一件事，忘了将他女儿像男人一样阉割掉。等他发现女儿肚子已大了时，后悔已来不及。为了顾全自己的面子，只有将她赶出去，而且永远不承认自己有这么一个女儿。” 叶翔全身颤抖，道：“你……你说的话我一个字也不信。” 高老大笑了笑，说道：“其实，你每个字都相信，因为你不但见过孙玉伯的那个女儿，也见过她的孩子。” 叶翔退了两步，忽然坐到地上。 高老大道：“有件事你也许真的不信——非但你不信，连我都有点不信，像她那样的荡妇，居然还有人敢去爱她。” 她眨了眨眼，又说道：“你猜她爱上了的人是谁？” 叶翔咬着牙。 高老大道：“你当然猜不到，爱上她的人，就是孟星魂。” 叶翔全身冰冷。 高老大道：“更妙的是，她居然也像真的爱上了他，居然准备跟他私奔。” 叶翔颤声道：“我不信——这种事就算真的发生了，你也不会知道。” 高老大淡淡道：“我为什么不能知道，我知道的事比你想像的多得多。” 叶翔道：“你……你已知道，却还是要孟星魂去杀她的父亲。” 高老大沉下脸，冷冷地说道：“那是他的任务，他不能不去，何况他根本不知道她是谁的女儿。” 她嘴角又露出残酷的微笑，悠然接着道：“等他知道时，那情况一定有趣得很……等到那时，他就会回来的。” 后面那两句话她说的声音更低，因为她根本是说给自己听的。 叶翔没有听见，他好像什么都没有听见。高老大道：“你在想些什么？是不是想去告诉他？” 叶翔忽然笑了，道：“我本来还以为你很了解男人，谁知你除了跟男人做那件事外，别的什么都不懂。” 高老大瞪着眼，道：“我不懂？” 叶翔道：“你若懂得男人，就应该知道男人也跟女人一样，也会吃醋的，而且吃起醋来，比女人更可怕。” 高老大看着他，目中露出笑意。 她当然懂。 最冷静的男人往往也会因嫉妒而发狂，做出一些连他自己也想不到的事，因为那时他已完全失去理智，已变成野兽。 高老大笑道：“不错，孙玉伯死了之后，他女儿迟早总会知道是谁杀了他，那时你也许还有机会。” 叶翔闭起眼睛，说道：“现在，我只担心一件事。” 高老大道：“担心什么？” 叶翔道：“只担心小孟杀不了孙玉伯。” 高老大脸上的笑忽然变得神秘，缓缓道：“你用不着担心，他的机会很好，简直太好了。” 叶翔皱眉道：“为什么？” 高老大道：“你知道是谁来求我暗杀孙玉伯的么？”叶翔摇摇头。 高老大笑道：“你果然猜不到……谁都猜不到的。” 叶翔试探着道：“孙玉伯的仇人很多。” 高老大道：“来找我的并不是他的仇人，而是他的朋友。” 她又笑笑，慢慢地接着道：“你最好记着，仇人并不可怕，真正可怕的是你的朋友。” 叶翔沉默了很久，才又淡淡地道：“我没有朋友。” 高老大道：“孟星魂岂非是你的朋友？” 有人说：“聪明人宁可信任自己的仇敌，也不信任朋友。” 被“朋友”出卖的确实很多。因为你只提防仇敌，不会提防朋友。 高老大的确是聪明人，只不过她还是说错了一点。 朋友并不可怕。真正可怕的是你分不出谁是你的仇人，谁是你的朋友。 孟星魂在树下挖了个洞，看着那两本簿子在洞中烧成灰烬，再将灰烬埋在土里。 在行动前，他总是分外小心，无论做什么都绝不留下痕迹，因为“无论多么小的疏忽，都可能是致命的疏忽”。 现在他已将这两本簿子上的名字全都记熟，他确信自己无论在任何情况下都绝不会忘记。 现在他已准备开始行动。 除了第一次外，他每在行动前都保持平静，几乎和平时完全没有两样，就算一个真正的刽子手在行刑前，心情都会比他紧张得多。但现在他心里忽然觉得有些不安。那是不是因为他以前杀人都是报恩，为了奉命，为了尽责，所以自己总能为自己找到借口，而这次杀人却是为了自己。 他不能不承认这次去杀人是有些私心。因他已想到了杀人的报酬，而且竟想用这报酬来养自己所爱的人。他简直不敢去想，因为连他自己也觉得自己这想法卑鄙无耻。 “孙玉伯也许本就该杀。” “但你为了正义去杀他是一回事，为了报酬杀他又是另一回事了。” 孟星魂心里充满了痛苦和矛盾，只有不去想它——逃避虽也可耻，但世人又有谁没有逃避过呢？有的人逃避理想，有的人逃避现实，有的人逃避别人，有的人逃避自己。 有时逃避只不过是种休息，让你有更多的勇气去面对人生。 所以你觉得太紧张时，若能逃避一下，也蛮不错的，但却千万不可逃避得太久，因为你所逃避的问题，绝不会因你逃避而解决的。你只能在逃避中休息，绝不能“死”在逃避里。 孟星魂站起来，长长地叹了口气。 The moon and stars are rare. 他踏着月色走向老伯的花园，现在去虽已太迟了些，但他决心不再等。 只有一样事比“明知做错，还要去做”更可怕，那就是“等着去做这件事”。你往往会等得发疯。 老伯的花园在月色中看来更美如仙境，没有人，没有声音，只有花的香气在风中静静流动。 也没有任何警戒防备，花园的门大开着。孟星魂走了进去。 他只踏入了这“毫无戒备”的花园一步—— 突然间，铃声一响，十八枝弩箭挟着劲风，白花丛中射出。 孟星魂的身子也如弩箭般射出。 他落在菊花上，菊花开得这么美，看来的确是比较安全的地方。 但菊花中立刻就有刀光飞起。 四把刀，一把刀刺他的足踝，一把刀砍他的腰，一把刀在旁边等着他，谁也不知道要砍向哪里。 还有一把刀却是从上面砍下来的，砍他的头。 花丛上完全没有借力之处，他身子已无法再跃起，看来已免不了要挨一刀。 至少挨一刀，也许是四刀。 孟星魂没有挨上，他身子不能跃起，就忽然沉了下去。 “一条路在走不通时，你就赶快地找另一条路。” 孟星魂的武功并不完全是从师父那学来的，师父的武功是死的，他的武功却不死——否则他就死了，早就死了。 他从经验中学到的更多。 他身子忽然落入花丛中，落下去之前脚一踩，踩住了削他足踝的一把刀，挥拳打飞了砍他腰的一把刀。 他身子既已沉下，砍他头的一刀自然是砍空了。 那把在旁边等着的刀砍下来时，他的脚已踩到地，脚尖一借力，身子又跃起。 身子跃起时，乘机一脚踢上这人的手。手拿不住刀，刀飞出。 孟星魂仿佛早已算准这把刀要飞往哪里，一伸手，就已将刀抄住。 他并没有使出什么奇诡的招式，他使用的每一个动作都很自然，就好像这一切本来就是很顺理成章的事，一点也不勉强。 因为他每一个动作都配合得很好，而且所有的动作仿佛是在同一瞬间发生的。 现在他手里虽有了一把刀，但花丛中藏着的刀显然更多。 他身子还未落下，又有刀光飞起。 突听一人喝道：“住手！” 这声音似比神鬼的魔咒都有效，刀光只一闪，就突又消失。 花园中立刻又恢复平静，又变得“没有人，没有声音，没有戒备”，只有花香在风中飘动。 但孟星魂却知道老伯已来了。 只有老伯的命令才能如此有效。 他身子落下时，就看到老伯。 老伯身后虽还有别人，但他只看到老伯，老伯无论站在多少人中间，你第一眼总是先看到他。 他穿着件灰色的布袍，背负着双手，神情安详而悠闲，只有一双眸子在夜色中灼灼发光。他上下打量了孟星魂两眼，淡淡地笑了笑，道：“这位朋友好俊的身手！” 孟星魂冷笑道：“我这副身手本来是准备交给你的，但是现在……” 老伯道：“现在怎么样？” 孟星魂道：“现在我才知道老伯用什么法子对待朋友，我实在很失望。” 他冷笑着转身，竟似准备走了。 老伯笑了，道：“你好像将我这地方看成是可以让你说来就来、说走就走的。” 孟星魂回过头，怒道：“我偷了你什么？” 老伯道：“没有。” 孟星魂道：“我杀了你手下的人？” 老伯道：“也没有。” 孟星魂道：“那么我为何不能走？” 老伯道：“因为我还不知你是为何而来的。” 孟星魂道：“我刚才说过。” 老伯微笑道：“你若是想来交我这朋友的，就未免来的太不是时候。在半夜里到我这里来的，通常都是强盗小偷，绝不是朋友。” 孟星魂冷笑道：“我若真想交朋友，从不选时候，我若想来杀你，也不必选时候。” 老伯道：“为什么？” 孟星魂冷冷道：“因为什么时候都一样，只有呆子，才会认为你在半夜中没有防备，就能杀得了你。” 老伯又笑了，回头道：“这人像不像呆子？”他身后站着的是律香川和陆漫天。 律香川道：“不像。” 孟星魂又冷冷笑道：“我是呆子，我想不到老伯只有在白天才肯交朋友。” 老伯道：“但你白天也来过，那时候为什么不交我这朋友？” 孟星魂的心一跳，他想不到老伯在满园宾客中，还能记住那么样一个平平凡凡的陌生人。 他心里虽然吃惊，面上却丝毫不动声色，淡淡道：“那天我本不是来交朋友的。” 老伯道：“你难道真是来拜寿的？” 孟星魂道：“也不是，我只不过来看看，谁是我值得交的朋友，是你？还是万鹏王？” 老伯道：“你为什么选了我？” 孟星魂道：“因为我根本见不到万鹏王。” 老伯大笑，又回头道：“你有没有发现这人有样好处？” 律香川微笑，道：“他至少很坦白。” 老伯道：“我想你一定还记得他的名字！” 律香川道：“本来是记得的，但刚才忽然又忘了。” 老伯皱眉道：“怎么会忽然忘记？” 律香川道：“那时他既不想来交朋友，自然不会用真名字，既然不是真名字，又何必记住？” 老伯点点头，又问道：“他所说的话你信不信？” 律香川道：“他说的理由并不动听，但不动听的话通常是真的，除了呆子外，任何人说谎都会说得动听些。” 老伯道：“你看他是不是呆子？” 律香川凝视着孟星魂，微笑道：“绝不是的。” 孟星魂也在看着他，忽然道：“我至少愿意交你这朋友，无论什么时候都愿意。” 老伯大笑，道：“你的确不是呆子，你刚选了个好朋友。” 他拍了拍律香川的肩，道：“带他回去，今天晚上我将客人让给你。” 陆漫天一直在盯着孟星魂，此刻忽然道：“等一等，你还没有问他的名字。” 老伯微笑道：“名字可能是假的，朋友却不会假，我既已知道他是朋友，又何必再问名字？” 孟星魂看着他，忽然发现他的确是个很会交朋友的人。 无论他是在用手段，还是真心诚意，都一样能感动人，令人对他死心塌地。 在这种人面前，很少有人能不说真话。 孟星魂能，他说的还是个假名字。 陆漫天道：“秦中亭？你是什么地方人？” 孟星魂道：“鲁东。” 陆漫天目光如鹰，在他面上搜索，又问道：“你是秦护花的什么人？” 孟星魂道：“堂侄。” 陆漫天道：“你最近有没有见过他？” 孟星魂道：“见过。” 陆漫天道：“他的气喘病是不是好了些？” 孟星魂道：“他根本没有气喘病。” 陆漫天点了点头，似乎觉得很满意。 孟星魂几乎忍不住要将这人当作笨蛋，无论谁都可以想到秦护花绝没有气喘病。 内家高手很少有气喘病。 用这种话来试探别人，非但很愚蠢，简直是可笑。 孟星魂的确想笑，但他听到陆漫天手里铁胆的相击声时，就发觉一点也不可笑了。 他忽然想到那天在快活林看见过这人，听见过他手捏铁胆的声音，他捏着铁胆走过小桥，每个人都对他十分尊敬。 那时孟星魂对他已有些好奇，现在终于恍然大悟。 要杀孙玉伯的人，原来就是他！ 那天他到快活林去，为的就是要收买高老大手下的刺客。 现在他故意用这种可笑的问题来试探孟星魂，为的只不过是要加深老伯的信任，他显然早已知道孟星魂的身份。 这人非但一点也不可笑，而且很可怕。 朋友手里的刀，远比敌人手里的可怕，因为无论多谨慎的人，都难免常常会忘记提防它。 律香川的屋子精致而干净，每样东西都恰好在它应该在的地方，无论在什么地方都找不出一粒灰尘。 灯光很亮，但屋子里看来还是冷清清的，不像是个家。 没有女主人的屋子，永远都不是一个家。 律香川推开厅角的小门，道：“你可以睡在这屋子里，床单和被都是新换过的。” 孟星魂道：“谢谢。” 律香川道：“你现在一定很饿，是不是？” 孟星魂道：“很饿，也很累，所以不吃也睡得着。” 律香川道：“但吃了就睡得更好。” 他提起灯道：“你跟我来。” 孟星魂跟着他，推开另一扇门，竟是间小小的厨房。 律香川已放下灯，卷起衣袖，带着微笑问道：“你喜欢吃甜的？还是咸的？” 孟星魂道：“我不吃甜的。” 律香川道：“我也一样——这里还有香肠和风鸡，再来碗蛋炒饭好不好？” 孟星魂道：“很好。” 他实在觉得很惊异，他想不到像律香川这种地位的人，还会亲自下厨房。 律香川似已看出了他日中的惊异之色，微笑着道：“自从林秀走了之后，我每天都会在半夜起来，弄点东西吃，我喜欢自己动手，也许只有在厨房里的时候，我才会觉得真正轻松。” 孟星魂笑了，道：“我没有下过厨房。” 他决定以后也要时常下厨房。 律香川从纱橱里拿出三个蛋，忽然道：“你没有问林秀是谁？” 孟星魂道：“我应该问吗？” 律香川显得有点心不在焉的样子，好像根本没有听见他在说什么，很久，才叹了口气，道：“林秀以