Chapter 15 Chapter Fourteen Another Life

I can tentatively divide my life painting into two parts - the former part is the period before meeting Wonderful, and the latter part is the period after meeting Wonderful.As far as an ordinary person's daily life is concerned, there is not much difference between these two parts; daily life is not the kind of brushing your teeth and washing your face in the morning, using black toothpaste or Gu Lingyu toothpaste, Majestic medicine or Mitayou facial cleanser ... the accumulation of trivial things that differ but make no sense? Before I was admitted to the Chinese Department of the university, my life was even worse than this situation, because I was the kind of person who didn’t develop the habit of brushing my teeth and washing my face, and even toothpaste and soap couldn’t be included in my daily life.But God rewarded me with a pair of white and even teeth and a delicate skin. No matter how dirty or sloppy I am, others will not be able to see it.When Wandefu saw me for the first time, he said: "Hey! Where is this white-faced scholar going? Do you want to buy a pair of Spring Festival couplets and post them at home?"

At that time, I was already a college student in the Department of Chinese, so I naturally looked down on the small vendors who pushed a foreign iron cart in the vegetable market and sold Spring Festival couplets. .I snorted and ignored him at all. But Xiao Wu, who was walking a step behind me, smiled "Puchi" and said, "I'm calling you, "Scholar with White Flour"丨" I just said that I gave them tofu, of course it wasn't happy, and I hurried towards Walking at Caishikou, he scolded in a low voice: "If you say another fart, you can find it alone! Fuck it."

Xiao Wu is a smart guy.In fact, she is probably the only sensible one among the horses I know.She knew she couldn't offend me that day—if she offended me, she wouldn't be able to find Master Peng, if she couldn't find Master Peng, she wouldn't be able to find Sun Xiaoliu, and if she couldn't find Sun Xiaoliu, she would scold Sun Tiger when she got home—in short, She won't do any good if she offends me.I glanced back at her, and she immediately pursed her lips, only the ends of her eyes were still smiling.It was Wan Defu who threw a sentence from afar: "Didn't your big brother teach you not to talk to little girls like this?"

my big brother?How does my eldest brother know such a bad old man who sells Spring Festival couplets?Just being suspicious, Xiao Wu took a few steps forward and put his wrist on my elbow, saying: "Old lunatic! Ignore him." That day, I didn't even see the appearance of Wandefu clearly, so I was dragged and dragged out of the Shuanghe market by Xiaowu. Master Peng was not in his martial arts gym at all that day.His wife—whose neighbors call her Mrs. Peng—is picking leeks in the courtyard of the Wuguan.She said that spring onions in the first month and leeks in February are the best in the world, and it is the twelfth lunar month in front of you, so it is good to eat them at will; anyway, when you come to Taiwan, you can make use of it, and you can do whatever you want.We listened to her saying what she had to say every time we met, and then we took a cold breath and asked, "Has Xiaoliu been here?"

"I haven't seen anyone for three or five days." Mrs. Peng said: "It is said that I will not come again before the new year, and I may not be able to come again after the new year." "Oops! Here again." Xiao Wu muttered With a sound, the two eyebrows frowned into one, and he sighed loudly. "Taiwan is such a big place, where can he go?" Mrs. Peng handed me a handful of leeks, and then said: "Go home and make dumplings for your mother-I said Xiao Wu: Don't worry about it, later Come back in a few days?" I turned my head to look at Xiao Wu, and saw that she was looking at all kinds of hand-planted vegetables in the yard with squinted eyes, and immediately her eyes dripped full of green color.It was a look that I will never forget—she just stared at half a garden of extremely ordinary green vegetable leaves, and she should be worried about Sun Xiaoliu's disappearance.But no, not that kind of worry; you don't even think she's thinking about her brother.I can see that expression - I am already twenty years old, and she is also twenty years old, a twenty-year-old boy can see a lot of things when he looks at a twenty-year-old girl - there are many things in her expression, just No worries.I couldn't tell at the time, but I met many women in the future—for example, there was a girl named Honglian—I knew that they were looking at something very intently with their watery pupils, and they even sighed generously. Moment, in fact, there is only one thought in my heart: to put it more politely, that thought is yearning; to put it more plainly, it is thinking about another life, envious of a state that I will never be able to become.

Since Xiao Wu took off my pinky knuckle in the botanical garden four or five years ago and put it back immediately, this is the first time she came to me and begged me, although I still wanted to touch her knuckle. To grandma or something, but after all, I'm already a college student and a decent person, so I shouldn't have any bad intentions if I promised to do her a little favor.In front of me, I obviously wanted to help her find Sun Xiaoliu, but just looking at her like this, I had other ideas. It can be called a feeling of electric current being passed through the skin, and I felt a fever from my stomach to my chest. I immediately remembered that there were two sentences in the book I just read: "There is a girl Huaichun/Jishi Luzhi ".As if touched by Xiao Wu's expression, the following series of feelings came out: Maybe she wasn't in a hurry to find her brother—anyway, since Sun Xiaoliu was born, every few years would suddenly They disappeared for a while for no reason, and after a year and a half they suddenly came back for no reason.This incident frightened his whole family into desperation; Sun's mother committed suicide once, and Sun Huo reported to the police station twice, but Sun Xiaoliu had a way to go home and call the door in a stupid way. I don't know this kid anymore.He actually grew up outside.The first time I was in the fourth grade of elementary school, and Sun Xiaoliu was two years old. When I was in the fifth grade, Sun Xiaoliu suddenly came back.The second time was shortly after he and I were arrested by the police shed in the botanical garden for fingerprinting and a criminal record—I really thought he was imprisoned—at that time Sun Xiaoliu was only seven or eight years old, and I was It was about when I was just in high school.I still remember: just because Xiaowu wouldn't let me touch it, I could only vent my anger by bullying Sun Xiaoliu.As a result, Sun Xiaoliu disappeared for more than half a year without thinking. On the night he came back, he suddenly said to me: "Brother Zhang, I will let you find it if you can't find it. I will never cover you." "Cover" means The words that were popular in those years mean to deceive, bluff, and brag.Sun Xiaoliu did not cover me.In the future, I—in fact, it’s not just me, the older children in our village, and I even believe that I’ve never seen anyone as stupid as him in this world—as long as I move my hands and feet to bully him, he will have a way to kill him in the blink of an eye. I smeared oil on the soles of my feet and slipped away.

There was a second time, and the Sun family obviously prepared for a third time; but it was impossible to chain Sun Xiaoliu and close the cage, so the responsibility of guarding and protecting fell on Xiao Wu's shoulders.Sun Laohuyi Xingkou Xiaowu: If Sun Xiaoliu disappears again, he will beat her ass in half.Xiao Wu told me the story. I said that people's buttocks are originally divided into two halves. If you don't believe me, touch mine.Xiao Wu said you are cheap. My mouth is cheap, but my feelings are fierce, true and pure.I'm already twenty years old, and I haven't kissed a girl's mouth or hugged a girl's waist; now I think about it all day long.No matter which girl in the street looks at me more than once, I think that this is a "female Huaichun". The degree of dreaming.But the expression of Xiaowu in front of me is quite different—how do I look, how do I feel that she doesn’t seem to be worried about Sun Xiaoliu or her ass that is about to be beaten; how do I look, how do I feel that she seems to be waiting for me to fuck He put his arms around her and said, "I'll take you away with me. Your father can't find us, and no one can find us; we'll go to live another life."

I think that's what "Younv Huaichun/Jishi Luzhi" means.But I am a college student, and college students in our time had a little sense of self-nobleness, and they were reluctant to say what to say or what not to say; as long as they didn’t say it, it seemed that this self was nobler than everything else.So I just stared at Xiao Wu in a daze, without talking nonsense, but my nosebleed almost came out.Mrs. Peng seemed to be taking a closer look, and while handing another handful of leeks to Xiao Wu, she said, "Why did you call Xiao Liu? I see that you two are out of your mind and out of your mind. What's wrong with you?" Let’s talk about your own words while no one else is around—when there are too many people in Xie’er, don’t you regret it?”

"It was he who said—" Xiao Wu glanced at me obliquely, pursed his lips, and muttered, "He said he found Xiao Liu when he found Master Peng." When he said that, he blushed and turned away. Walking, said to my toes while walking: "I will go back when Master Peng is not here. Goodbye, Master." I wanted to follow out, but I felt that it was not decent to do so, and the upper and lower body seemed to be separated for a moment—two legs Peeling, but the two arms are not free to swing up.At this moment, Mrs. Peng winked at me and said something that I can't forget for a while: "The feet grow on other people's legs. If you want to find Mr. Peng, they won't come by themselves? It's up to you." Can you bring it with you? I don’t understand what people are thinking, so you can take them to the sky, what can you bring them to find?”

I remember: at first glance, I felt that it was a tongue-twister grammar often used by Mrs. Peng. The neighbors said that Mrs. Peng could speak everything like a tongue twister, but it was actually a kind of fault—she When I was young, I had tuberculosis, I had bone spurs all over my body, and part of my brain was damaged by briquettes. Later, I had three strokes. I couldn’t remember anyone or anything for several years. The worst thing was when I was forty years old. She began to live more and more and go back—the so-called living and going back is to gradually lose contact with the real world, and she often returns to her life before the age of thirty-nine.It is said that since the year I entered university, Mrs. Peng has only been a girl of eighteen or nine years old.When the situation is good, I can cope with the advances and retreats of a simple life. When the situation is bad, only Master Peng knows what she is thinking about decades ago when she says something; because only Master Peng knows what happened at that time. What's up.

But Mrs. Peng's words seem to reveal some meanings that make people think more and more interestingly - I don't understand what people are thinking, so I let you lead them to the sky, what can you bring them to find? Maybe this is what Mrs. Peng said when she suddenly returned to her home as a girl, or maybe she was too hasty to treat Xiao Wu and me as a pair of young children who are blooming together.In any case, it gave me a shock: where did I think about where I would really take Xiao Wu?How did I know where Xiao Wu wanted to go?To put it bluntly: it's just that I have such a plump two balls of oil, and I want to find a horse to put a dick on it, which is very fleshy.But Mrs. Peng's upside-down made it seem like I was going to be hired by Xiaowu's family-this is impossible.I haven't finished college yet. It was 1977, the sixty-sixth year of the Republic of China.Sun Xiaoliu, who disappeared for the third time, was only twelve years old.When he reappeared, he had already grown half his head, with an Adam's apple between his chin and the stem of his neck, and a few rat whiskers growing sparsely above his lips—my first thought when I saw him was to guess that there must be something under him. It also grows hair, and I'm afraid it also has oily pipes.He smiled and said, "I heard that brother Zhang is going to marry my sister?" "Marry your mother!" I said in a bad voice.At the same time, he slanted his eyes and looked at him for a while: "How long has it been since you came home this time?" "More than a year." He raised his hand and scratched the back of his head, as if there was a switch on the back of his head, and he couldn't speak without scratching. "Why did you go?" To be honest, this was a casual question, and I didn't care where he went or what he did: "The police were arresting duck eggs the day you left, and they thought you were caught too." Sun Xiaoliu smiled wryly, scratched the back of his head, and shook his head.The meaning seems to be saying: nothing to say.In the area of ​​Xizang Road and Zhonghua Road where we lived, there were three old national residences at that time, six public dormitories with one-story Japanese-style buildings, and four military dependents’ villages converted into four-story apartments.In almost every area with the title of Li or Village, three, five, or seven or eight young men will disappear for a period of time from time to time.The so-called disappearance is for outsiders; the family members are very clear: the young man has been locked up in a detention center.The more serious situation is not limited to nursing homes - most people call that situation "delivery to management and training".When explaining to neighbors in the neighborhood, family members usually say: The child has gone to study at a relative’s house in the south.No one believed it, and no one exposed it; because who wouldn't have such a little thing happen? But Tiger Sun was a scapegoat.His lectures are very strict, and he never pretends to speak.His eldest son’s scientific name is Dayi, and his second son’s name is Daeran. It doesn’t matter how old he gets down, and he goes all the way down to the third, the fourth, the fifth, and the sixth.Five men and one woman, except for freshmen and sophomores who had practiced a few sets of boxing skills, and were sent to the south to study in junior schools and government schools early—they really "went to the south to study"—let alone no one else. He was a Taibao, and he didn't even learn boxing.It is said that it was all because Xiao Liu disappeared suddenly when he was two years old, and Sun's mother committed suicide. She managed to save a life, but she became a little dull and silent.Afterwards, Tiger Sun never talked about boxing, and only drove his taxi every morning and evening.One day, in the middle of the night, he ran into three carjacking thieves. Sun Laohu kept his face hidden from view, and forced them to rob him of more than two thousand yuan, not to mention breaking a rib.Even though he keeps his head down and walks in the world, Tiger Sun has a vicious appearance, and people who know him always say that he knows martial arts, even saying that he has a soft steel knife hidden in his trouser belt.Therefore, shortly after Sun Xiaoliu disappeared when he was six or seven years old, rumors spread in the village that he had become a petty pickpocket, lost his temper, was arrested, and sent to some kind of correctional institution. This time, Mama Sun didn't commit suicide, and she explained to everyone she met: Sun Xiaoliu taught the flower thieves to take pictures of her.Everyone in the village thought that Mama Sun's actions were nothing more than a thief calling for a thief—just imagine: where is there a child who was photographed when he was two years old, and then returned a year later for no reason?Furthermore, even if such a thing happened, how could it happen again? Around that time, Sun Dayi and Sun Dayer were sent to the military academy, while Xiao San and Xiao Si were successively thrown into garages and watch shops as apprentices.Sun Huohu didn't say a word of explanation to outsiders. He only drove the taxi to the gate of my house on the day when I announced my high school entrance examination results, saying that he had heard my name on the radio.He insisted on taking our family of three to see a list at the entrance of a certain university where the list was posted for free, and it was glorious.On the way, he said to his father and mother: "My father gave birth to me at the age of eighteen, and he passed on a single pass. His old man urged me to start a family early and raise children; None of them are successful. Brother Zhang and sister-in-law Zhang have a lot of good fortune and cultivate such a good son." After hearing the words, my father and mother said a few words of humility, and specifically confessed that their son was not the first choice to get into the exam, and it was too early to talk about his future; I thought to myself, who have I offended?But Sun Laohu then said something strange: "A family can't be successful without a scholar. My eldest and second child have already joined the army, the third and fourth have become craftsmen, and the author of Liuhe is half a fool. Only the fifth is clever, It's a pity that it's a woman - now I can only hope that she will marry a scholar and change our Sun family's family style." "Xiao Wu's hands are clever, and he is beautiful," my mother continued to praise: "I must be a good man." Sun Laohu was happy, and turned his head to slap my thigh: "That's kind." His slap came down , My leg hurts for a week, and I don't believe anyone who says Tiger Sun is a coward.When Sun Xiaoliu went missing for the third time and returned home, I saw Tiger Sun's kung fu again—not just his kung fu, but also Sun Xiaoliu's kung fu; What Wu possesses is not only kung fu, but also a power thousands of times more terrifying than kung fu—generally people call that power love. It started when Sun Xiaoliu and I met unexpectedly in front of a small barber shop outside the village.He had an Adam's apple, a beard (and pubic hair that I guess must have sprouted), and he had grown to around one hundred and sixty. He asked me with a smile on my face if I wanted to marry his sister, but refused to say that he had gone for more than a year. where. "Does your dad know where you've been?" I asked him around the corner. "I'm not home yet." "He'll beat your ass in four when he sees you," I said. It was a Saturday when the weather had just cleared up. I came back just to ask for a sum of living expenses for the next week, and I was about to sneak back to the school dormitory. Unexpectedly, my mother forced me to have my hair cut, saying that I would keep my hair without paying, and I would not keep my hair if I asked for money.I had to do it.While I was washing my hair, I was still thinking: I wonder if Tiger Sun will take action to teach Sun Xiaoliu a lesson?The more I thought about it, the more I felt that I couldn't miss it; so I made up my mind: the matter of going back to school can be delayed, but the scene of Tiger Sun beating someone is definitely not to be missed. But Tiger Sun came home very late that day.It was after one o'clock at night that his old Yulong, which sounded like a steam locomotive, stopped at the entrance of the village hesitantly.I heard him slam the car door, piss on the big-leaf golden kudzu in front of Guo's house next door, and unlock the door of the apartment.Then I got out of bed, sneaked out through the back door, and climbed over the garden wall surrounded by broken door panels between Liu's house and Guo's house.Sun's house is on the second floor of Guo's house, but from the flat roof of the kitchen built by Guo's house, you can squat down and watch all the movements in the living room of Sun's house.I just squatted down, and then I heard Tiger Sun let out a nasty roar—he really is called Tiger! "You've made a mistake again, kid! How dare you come back!" When he said that, Tiger Sun ripped off his jacket and shirt to the sides, and all the buttons and buttons were blown off. It was smashed.Tiger Sun didn’t wear a singlet under his shirt, and the two hard mounds on his chest, which looked neither like breasts nor mallets, not only bulged up like balloons, but also shone with a layer of oil—frankly speaking: except for the lack of two small The beard is exactly the same as a Hong Kong boy named Chen Xing - no, it looks a little uglier than Chen Xing.I was so scared that I blinked a few times. I didn't see exactly how Sun Xiaoliu reacted, but I saw Sun Huo take a step forward with his left foot, move forward with his right foot, and straddle a long bow with his right palm at the same time. Cut forward from the outside to the inside.But the strange thing is that what he struck was air—that is to say: Sun Xiaoliu evaporated the moment his father struck out with his palm. Tiger Sun seemed even more surprised than I was.He stared at his chestnut-sized eyes, and his mouth was wide enough to fit his fist. He was stunned for a while, as if talking to his palm: "Xiao Liu! Where did you practice this?" After finishing speaking, I turned to one side, and then I saw a thin and small shadow standing shyly behind his huge body. "Dad—I, I didn't practice anything. Dad—" "Put your mother's stinky fart!" Sun Tiger said, leaning down, rushing to the left and slapping his palm again -- this palm is the opposite of the previous palm, it is a gesture with the palm facing down and from the inside out. road.But in the same way, Sun Xiaoliu disappeared again. On the right side out of my perspective, Mother Sun and Xiao Wu yelled "Dad" in unison.Mama Sun burst into tears immediately, and stood two steps forward, just enough for me to see her stretch out her hands, like the hen's posture when we were young when we were playing with eagles and chickens, to stop Tiger Sun—needless to say: Sun Xiaoliu has already Hiding behind her or Xiao Wu. But at this time Tiger Sun seemed not as angry as before, and his big, bulging eyeballs seemed longer and flatter, and he couldn't stop exhaling from his heart, as if he was talking to Mama Sun or him. He said to himself: "No! It's not right at all! Lao Peng doesn't have this kind of kung fu, where did he learn it? Why not learn from these prodigal things?" "I didn't learn much kung fu, Dad—" "He didn't learn much kung fu, you heard me, Dad—" Mama Sun always called Tiger Sun to her children: "Dad", when I was not sensible, I always thought that Mama Sun was also Tiger Sun's daughter. "Just now he dodged my two palms, using the same set of movements, which originated from our old Beijing natural Liuhe sect - I can't say that I can't, even if his grandfather is alive, he might not be able to; this kid is obviously messing around outside. After all, the dead duck insisted that he didn’t learn much kung fu. Do you know what absurd people he met? What kind of stupid things did he do? In the past one year, three months and ten days, the national army’s fucking counterattack to the mainland has been beaten Lanzhou." Having said this in one breath, Tiger Sun retreated instead of advancing, and fell back on a broken rattan chair with a big flower chair cushion embroidered by Xiao Wu, and sighed again, as if the words were aimed at Sun. Xiao Liu said, but his eyes were fixed on his crotch: "The first two times we only thought of you as a child. You played wild and got lost. We only blamed the parents who owed favors in the previous life and repaid them in this life. This time you kid It’s fine if Mom doesn’t come back, and if I don’t have an explanation when I come back—” As he spoke, he flew forward again, forcing Mama Sun to stand up and hit her head on. The word "person" is big.It was too late, and soon, Xiaowu took Sun Xiaoliu with one hand, and drew a circle with the other hand, his legs were already floating in the air - it was a "floating" posture - Flying fast, flying slowly, twisting my legs in the air as if in water, but the free hand opened the window sash at an astonishing speed. It landed on the top of the kitchen built by the Guo family.When Sun Xiaoliu saw me, he laughed, while Xiaowu looked furious, peeked around the room, then shook his head, leaned over and grabbed my armpit, and lifted it up vigorously, and my feet were off the ground , circling like a light petal and flying seven or eight meters away with her - before this, I have never been able to get so close to Xiao Wu's body, and I never knew that her body was smeared with star toilet water. What brand of perfume is similar but very different.But in this very brief second or two, I didn't have time to think of touching her.I was so scared that I almost wet my pants, and it seemed like there was only one little thought left in my head, shouting in the depths of my own ear drum: "Fuck! I'm going to fall to my death." But I didn't fall to my death.After Xiao Wu stood still on the ground, Sun Xiaoliu and I staggered a few steps limply.Xiao Wu then yelled in a low voice: "Run again!" We didn't seem to have any other ideas, so we had to follow her to the construction site of Juguang New City next to the village.It was a new type of apartment building consisting of twelve buildings with twelve floors each.At that time, the building body had been completed, and only waiting for the mud to dry out, the formwork had to be removed and the inner wall rebuilt.It is precisely because the project is in the middle and late stages that there are all kinds of tools, equipment and materials that the craftsmen are too lazy to take away after finishing work during the day, as well as materials that seem to be waiting to be used or have been discarded.Xiao Wu led us straight through these as if he had night eyes, and went straight to the depths of the maze. It was on the top floor of the fourth building next to our village, and there was no short wall around it, and there was a danger of going straight to the underworld if you stepped into the air.But standing on it—to paraphrase a schoolboy—felt happy. The wind blows from all directions in circles towards people, sometimes blowing on the right cheek, sometimes blowing on the left cheek, sometimes blowing up from the crotch, and in a blink of an eye, hitting the back of the vest and shoving people.It wasn't me who said: If Xiao Wu hadn't brought us up, I would never have known how lively the wind is at high places.When the wind blew, none of us spoke for a long time.Originally, I wanted to ask Sun Xiaoliu anything but suddenly forgot. I don't know what his sister and brother were thinking, but I remember thinking about running away from home.Standing on the top of the twelfth floor, which is no more than 80 meters away from home, looking at my home through the gray-blue night sky, it makes people feel a little melancholy, even pity.I can almost tell what's going on in the house from the slightest glimmer of light coming through the windows of my house - in one of the yellow-lighted windows my mother is fast asleep; I wake up as soon as I sleep on the pillow, and there is a person in the middle who doesn't have dreams and can't remember them.In the white-lit room next door, who must still be sitting upright writing his history of the war, is my father.He has been engaged in the history of Chinese wars in the history of the Ministry of National Defense for more than ten years. He writes during the day when he goes to work, and draws after get off work at night. I looked at these two windows from a tall building tens of meters away, and suddenly felt a sense of sadness that had no clue and no origin.It was as if, in twenty-one years of my life, I had seen my life for the first time, and for the first time had a vague idea of ​​why I didn't want to be in that converted four-story apartment house—that I wasn't supposed to belong at all. The world inside the two windows, one yellow and one white—what I was thinking of was another life that I had never touched and imagined. Before the village was demolished and rebuilt, our family, Sun Laohu and more than a hundred other families of civil and military officials from the Ministry of National Defense lived on the other side of the city.When Sun Xiaoliu disappeared for the first time, Sun Huohu resigned with the rank of major—it seems that the reason was that Sun’s mother committed suicide; but the ministry allowed him to keep his family home, and gave him a errand at home to meditate. This is because there is an old relationship between Sun Xiaoliu and his grandfather in the presidential palace.In short, when we children heard that the whole village was going to move to four-story apartments, we felt that we had been promoted to a higher class.Xiao Wu and I often took the No. 12 bus to the South Airport, and then walked along the Dashuigou, which will be paved into Tibet Road in the future, to the construction site of the new cottage.Shouting loudly in the empty house echoing everywhere: "This is my home, this is my-our-home." "Our home!" "Our-our-home-" Ten or eleven years later, I stood on the top of another tall building and looked at my low and old home in the dark, thinking of the excited, childish, and shrill children's voice. Shouting, I felt very, very ashamed.I deeply know: the reason why I am ashamed is not because the apartment on the fourth floor is so old, but that the old and young people in our village have never and will never be able to really change our lives by changing houses; It is never possible to have another life.Tiger Sun still pissed in the street, and Mother Sun used her head to beat others when things happened. My father led the ancient troops to march on the white paper every day. My mother never remembered what dreams she had.As for Xiao Wu, besides crocheting hats, knitting sweaters and sewing cloth shoes, he also sews cloth shoes, knitting sweaters and crocheting hats.I secretly prayed to all gods and Buddhas in the world: let me never finish my college life, and let me live in a dormitory for the rest of my life—even if I look like a mouse. At that moment, Xiao Wu quietly walked over from behind and wrapped a furry thing around my neck.I was stunned for a moment, and then I looked down to see clearly: it was a woolen scarf that was wrapped around her own neck earlier. "It's already May, and it's still cold." Xiao Wu murmured behind me in a low voice: "I originally called you, but you always stay at school and don't go home, and when you go home, you don't see anyone; after procrastinating until now, It seems that you won't be around for a few days." I didn't respond, but I thought that this woman was acting like a snitch a few minutes ago, and now I can't bear to do this to me.But she continued quietly—""Will you come home sooner? Can't ring the doorbell? Why are you sneaking around like a thief?" This is great, there is a big misunderstanding; she thought I was looking for her.I hurriedly turned around, pulled off the scarf around my neck, and said, "It was my model plane that fell on the top of Guo's kitchen. I'll go find—" "It's full of lies." Xiao Wu glared at me, but suddenly grinned, and said, "I don't care about you. Come, listen to Xiao Liu say that he met a fairy. —— Xiao Liu! Tell your Brother Zhang. " "What kind of fairy? Who said it was a fairy?" Sun Xiaoliu squatted on the ground with his head buried between his knees, and was playing with half of the steel bar on the ground—maybe it wasn't a steel bar, but a finger-like Thick and thin, twisted and looped cables and things like that.While playing, he raised his head and said bitterly to Xiao Wu: "I told you not to talk about it but you still want to talk about it. Why talk about it? If you don't talk about it, you will die!" The two sisters continued to quarrel for a long time, and I was very bored listening to it—that kind of bickering is that you go from the village to the village, from the east to the west, brother, brother, sister, and sister. The nonsense that can't be stopped for 24 hours, can't stand thinking, can't stand research, and can't even stand up to echoing in the ears for a second.People who talk bullshit never get tired of it, and I'm not the type to listen to bullshit anymore.I've already seen your Sun family's peerless miraculous skills, that's enough; I don't need to see these nonsense anymore.So—like a mouse—I crept a few steps aside, preparing to sneak downstairs at some point.But at this time, Sun Xiaoliu asked for forgiveness, and after a while of "Okay, okay", he said half helplessly and half excitedly: ""Grandpa Mask" told me to go home on May 6th, and said that May 6th The date is March 30th in the lunar calendar, and this afternoon when I was 330 steps southeast of my home, I would meet a pretty boy; he also said that this boy should marry my sister. Then I ran into you!" "Damn you!" I said, "Who is this "Grandpa Mask"?" As soon as I spoke, Xiao Wu who was next to me suddenly ran up to me, raised his palm high, but stopped, and didn't throw it towards my face.She just raised her palms like that, her big round eyes stared no smaller than Tiger Sun.After staring at me for a long while, she lowered her arm, took advantage of the situation and snatched the scarf, and said, "Next time, come to our house by the back window and I will kick you like a thief!" After finishing speaking, she threw the scarf on the ground , stepped on it a few times, and raised the toes again—the scarf flew several feet into the sky like a little dragon or snake in an iridescent suit, and then twisted its body at such a high, so black, In such a clear and cold night sky, there is a circle dance.The wind is very strong, especially on a scarf that is swinging back and forth. The scarf seems to refuse to fall easily in the wind, and suddenly bounces upwards, and suddenly floats to the side .I don’t know how long it took before I watched it fall into the middle of the street—there was a group of night laborers there—and the little five sisters and brothers behind me had disappeared. I took a few steps around, didn't see anyone, but almost tripped over something.I bent down and looked it up, only to find that it was exactly what Sun Xiaoliu was playing with just now—it really was a steel bar, not a cable—which made me feel the hairs all over my body stand on end, and goosebumps grew out one after another What's more interesting is that those steel bars were nothing more than the scraps left over by the construction workers at the construction site during the day. There are pieces of steel bars ranging from two or three inches to a foot long, and each piece should be straight; only Sun Xiaoliu The pile I played with, totaling about seven or eight, were each bent into a circle like a horseshoe.Not to mention, Sun Xiaoliu also planted the seven or eight steel bars like radishes into the cement on the ground floor of the top floor, lined up in a row, a foot wide, and each piece was about an inch above the ground. ; I am afraid that the ones planted in the cement are not less than an inch.And when Sun Xiaoliu was playing this boring game, it was like putting candles on a cake, without making any noise. How dare I stay where I am?I quickly calmed down, opened my pupils wide, looked for the stairs in the dark, and jumped down the stairs—these 12 floors went up easily, but down were heavy. For a moment, I even guessed the ghosts who would go to hell after death We have probably all experienced such a period.Afterwards, every time I think back to that night, I always feel that the horror when I went down the stairs was mixed with other, complicated elements that I didn't dare to admit at the time; Feeling haunted from the darkness like a ghost.I avoided and wiped out the emotions that I didn't want to have, nor willing to bear, let alone give, with a lightly remark. I slowly crossed the unpaved dirt and gravel road between Juguang New City and the village, passing a group of workers who were burying telephone lines underground—a small circle surrounded by a pale electric light in the center Well, the light relieved me a little, as if I had suddenly returned to the human world after a strange, ghostly ritual.I kept thinking in my heart: Love shouldn’t be like this; it shouldn’t be so reckless, hasty, and overwhelming... At this moment, a hand slammed on my shoulder again. "Sir—is this yours?" It was one of the workers laying telephone wires, and he was holding the scarf that Xiao Wu kicked down the stairs just now.没等我答话——或者是看我一副答不出话来的模样——那人一歪嘴笑了：“我看你从那上面下来。” 我接过围巾，闻到那上面还残留着的香味，有一种被冤枉了想哭的感觉——但是当时我太年轻，不知道那感觉其实并不是什么被冤枉不被冤枉，而是我完全欠缺被人爱上的信心。如果还要往里挖深一点，我更该承认：二十一岁时候身为大学生的我，打从心底不想要被一个不知道从哪里混来一身功夫、却连高中都没念过的女人爱上。那时我祇想追求另一种生活，也相信每个人都不该陷溺于已然如此的生活，于是我过于傲慢。