Chapter 73 Section 1

When I got home, I took two sedatives, threw myself on the bed, and fell asleep in a coma. When I woke up, my head was heavy, my body was very tired, and I didn't understand why I was sleeping in bed in broad daylight.After a while, I remembered the cause and effect, and suddenly wanted to take two more pills. I was too tired, but I couldn't indulge myself. I got up, took a shower, and rushed to the hospital.As soon as he got out of the elevator, he saw Song Xiang and Lu Licheng standing side by side in front of the window, not talking, just smoking a cigarette.The sun was bright at first, but the lingering smoke made everything dark.

Hearing the sound of footsteps, Lu Licheng turned to look at me, and I asked, "Did Malatang wake up?" "Wake up, but she won't see us." I nodded and walked past them. Aunt Wang, who was dozing on the bed, straightened up vigilantly as soon as she opened the door of the ward. Seeing that it was me, she relaxed her expression and leaned back on the bed again. As I walked towards the hospital bed, Malatang heard the voice, turned her head and asked, "Mom?" I was stunned, and looked at Aunt Wang questioningly, Aunt Wang said with tears in her eyes, "Su Man came to see you."

At this time, I had already walked to her hospital bed, and Malatang smiled and said, "Oh, I can see it." I leaned over her and asked, "How are you feeling?" "very good." Looking at the smile on her face, I want to cry, but also want to scream.very good?Is that good?But everything can only be turned into silence. Malatang said: "Mom, I want to be alone with Manman for a while." Aunt Wang stood up immediately, "Okay, you guys talk, I'll go down and take a look around." "mom……" "What?" Aunt Wang asked with her hand on the door.

"Stop scolding Song Xiang." Aunt Wang reluctantly said: "No." When Aunt Wang closed the door, Malatang smiled and shook my hand, "Are we the only two left in the room?" "Hmm. Can you see me?" "Yes. It's just that you can't see it from a distance, but you can see it up close." She smiled, "Lie down next to me, okay?" I took off my shoes and squeezed into her side to lie down. She asked: "Song Xiang is still outside?" "Ok." "Actually, I don't hate him. Go out and tell him later, let him go back!"

"Speak for yourself." Malatang pinched my ear, "I know you're going to be angry again. But think about it, I was like this six years ago, this is what I should be like. God gave me six years for no reason, let me know You, we have played so many places together, it's worth it!" "It's worth a ghost! I still have a lot of places to go!" Malatang smiled blindly, but there were tears in the corners of my eyes, and I secretly wiped away the tears. She asked me: "Manman, do you still like Song Xiang?" I honestly replied: "I like him, but I hate him now. What about you?"

Malatang's expression was very confused, "I don't know. When I first found out that he was Xu Qiu's boyfriend, I thought he was just as hateful as my father. You said you were going to be a lover, no one stopped you, but you shouldn't Come out to harm people. How could I, a young woman with a promising future, and the master of Yanshixing in Beijing, act in such a bloody drama with him in a daze. If he was by my side at that time, I would definitely be cruel He is very handsome and has a few big ears." I couldn't laugh or cry when I heard it, and asked, "What about now?"

"I don't feel much now. It feels like a dream. When I couldn't see, I was eager to know what this person looked like, and then God let me know, and then I couldn't see again." Malatang giggled Get up, "Song Xiang is really miserable! He was originally a sweet potato, but all of a sudden, we don't want to see him anymore." I laughed too, "I'm sorry! I should have told you earlier that I like Song Xiang." "It doesn't matter. After the incident, everyone is Zhuge Liang, but at that time and place, you and I can only make the best choice at that time and place."

I held her hand, "Ma La Tang, you promised in front of my dad that you would accompany me for the rest of your life." There were tears in her eyes, "You are a good person, there will be many people who like to be friends with you and play with you." "They don't wake me up at four o'clock in the morning, not only don't get angry, but also talk to me. They don't help me dry my hair and paint my nails when I have a bad cold." Malatang didn't speak, I said softly, "Malatang, don't leave me!" There were tears in her eyes, but there was a smile on her face, "Do you think my old lady wants to leave this world of flowers? Although Song Xiang regarded me as Xu Qiu's substitute, I blame the injury, but I didn't intend to seek death for them, no It's worth it! One of these two people is someone I hate, and the other doesn't like me at all. Why should I seek death for them? It's just that my reason is clear, but I can't control the commands deep in my subconscious mind. I just hate Xu Qiu, a bitch , I can’t help it! But don’t worry, who is my dad? There's a way. But don't tell Song Xiang that trouble, let him feel guilty and reflect on himself!"

My heart settled down, and I pinched her mouth with a smile, "Your mouth!" She smiled, moved her head in my direction, and hugged me tightly.The two of them were lying head to head, with a feeling of peace of mind that someone could rely on. During the day, relying on medicines, I couldn't sleep well. At this time, Malatang and I were chatting nonchalantly, and fell asleep in a daze.When I woke up, I found Uncle Xu and Aunt Wang sitting in the ward. I was so embarrassed that I hurriedly got out of bed and put on my shoes. Malatang was woken up by me and called me in a daze: "Manman?"

"exist." She smiled, "I had a dream. I dreamed that the two of us were going to a nightclub and saw a guy who looked weird..." I covered her mouth with sharp eyes and hands, and smiled dryly at Uncle Xu: "Hello, Uncle Xu." !" Uncle Xu smiled and said, "You are fine too." Malatang's smile disappeared immediately, and he closed his eyes with a straight face. I said to Malatang: "I will come to see you tomorrow." I said goodbye to Uncle Xu and Aunt Wang. Walking out of the ward, I saw Lu Licheng and Song Xiang still outside the ward.Lu Licheng saw me and pointed to the watch on his wrist, "Do you know how long you've been in there?"

Just as I was about to speak, the door of the ward opened again, and Uncle Xu came out. Both Lu Licheng and Song Xiang stood up immediately, Lu Licheng called "Uncle Xu", and Song Xiang lowered his head and did not speak. Uncle Xu nodded to Lu Licheng, and said to me: "Let's find a place to sit, can we?" Of course I said "yes". Uncle Xu led me into a small conference room next to the ward, he closed the door, and poured me a glass of water, "Just now I saw you and Xiao Lian laying on the bed head to head, it gave me an illusion, as if My own pair of daughters. But in fact, Xiaoqiu and Xiaolian have never been so close." I don't know what to say, I can only drink water with my head down. "Xiao Lian told you something about her and her sister, right?" I said cautiously: "I've talked a little bit." Uncle Xu seemed to see through my worries, and said with a light smile, "I used to like to call Xiao Lian 'Lian Shuang'. After her operation, I never called her 'Lian Shuang' again, but she was busy with me all day long. Dou Qi, I never noticed this change." I vaguely understood something in my heart, and asked expectantly: "Is it Uncle's idea to conceal that the kidney transplanted by Malatang came from Xu Qiu?" He nodded, "Xiao Lian's condition is very bad now, and her rejection reaction is very strong. Six years ago, when her kidneys failed, it took more than half a year for her eyesight to degrade to the point where she could not see. But now, from yesterday's onset to today, it only took one day. I am already half blind. Doctors have searched for suitable kidneys across the country, but they are human kidneys after all, not something that can be bought, and I am afraid that even if I have a way, it will be too late." The hope I had just ignited was dashed, my water glass fell to the ground, my shoes were completely wet, but I didn't even have the strength to move my feet. Uncle Xu's expression was also very sad, "I'm sitting at home today, thinking about this issue all the time. No matter how the medical explanation is for this matter, I think the reason lies in Xiao Lian herself in the final analysis. Maybe she doesn't want to do this either, but her brain She faithfully carried out the most sincere wish in her heart—she hated and resisted the kidney from Xiaoqiu.” For a father, the most painful thing is that his children turned against each other, and the white-haired man gave away the black-haired man. He has encountered them all. I want to say something, but any language is pale. He put a diary in front of me, "This is Xiaoqiu's diary. The diary was left to her by her mother. Ever since she was able to write, she has been used to pouring out her emotions into the diary. This habit has always been Continue until she gets into a car accident." All the doubts in my mind were finally cleared up, "Uncle Xu knew what Xu Qiu did to Malatang when he was a child?" Uncle Xu nodded silently, his eyes full of grief and self-blame. "But, I don't understand why you want to give me the diary? Do you want me to tell Malatang that you know what she has endured? Why don't you tell her yourself?" "I have already lost one daughter, and I can't lose another daughter, especially all the 'evil consequences' today are the 'evil causes' planted by me back then. If I can discuss with Xiaoqiu before marrying Ayun, consult She agrees, pay attention to protecting her psychology, maybe she won't hate Xiaolian so much; if I can find out what kind of child Xiaoqiu is earlier, and educate her earlier, maybe there will be no car accident later; if I can Fulfilling the responsibility of being a father to Xiao Lian, her spirit will not be depressed for a long time, maybe her kidneys will not get sick at all. I really want to untie Xiao Lian's knot, but I can't do it. Freezing three feet is not a day Han, the estrangement between me and Xiao Lian for nearly thirty years does not mean that I can resolve it immediately with my hard work. I give you this diary to pin my last hope on you, please keep her!" The man sitting in front of me took off all the worldly clothes. He was just a sad and helpless father who was born prematurely.I held the diary in my arms and said firmly, "I will, because I can't bear the death of a loved one again." Uncle Xu and I came out one after the other. Uncle Xu greeted Lu Licheng and returned to the ward.I sat next to Song Xiang, "Song Xiang, Malatang's kidney failure is very fast, and she is already half blind. At this rate, she may not be able to wait for a suitable kidney at all." Song Xiang looked at me blankly, his eyes that were once full of vigor were lifeless gray.In an instant, my resentment towards him because of Malatang dissipated.As Malatang said, we are not wise in advance, we can only make choices at the moment, maybe wrong, but we all just follow our own hearts. "She doesn't blame you." Song Xiang's hands curled up into fists in pain, his knuckles turned white. After thinking about it for a long time, I said, "When I first found out that you were with Malatang, I was in so much pain that I wished I could disappear into this world immediately. But no matter how sad or painful I was, I never blamed you. I always What worries you is whether you have ever loved me, whether you have never loved me from the beginning to the end, but you were just moved by me, or you once loved a little bit, and you forget it when you meet Malatang. Actually, I don’t care what the answer is, but I think If you want an answer, please tell me clearly." "Su Man, how can you still pester these things now?" Lu Licheng's eyes could not hide the disappointment and bitterness. I ignored him, and still said to Song Xiang: "I want you to think about the matter between you and Malatang. She is good because she has eyes similar to Xu Qiu's. She has Xu Qiu's eyes in her body. Kidneys, or a little bit of Malatang? The answer itself is not important, what is important is that you understand your heart. Song Xiang, you know that we really love you. If we lose you, we will suffer and cry. But the beauty on this stone step is not only love. After the pain and crying, we will still muster up the courage to continue the journey below, but we need to make an account of the past and everything we have sincerely given. The answer is like a full stop, Let's end this paragraph and start the next." I stood up and strode away without looking back.Lu Licheng strode to catch up from behind, "Going home?" "I'm going to buy some cans of coffee first." "do what?" "Study data on the treatment of heart disease." He glanced at the bag in my arms and said nothing.