Chapter 80 Part 1: Dreaming in the Garden (2)

The quality of the beds in their dormitory was not very good, and they creaked and squeaked when the boy sat up. It also woke up several other people.Originally, everyone could fall asleep in a daze for an instant, but when they saw Chen Xiaosen when they opened their eyes slightly, they all rubbed their eyes in disbelief and sat up one after another. Seeing this, Xu Zhian could only smile and said, this is my girlfriend, Xiaosen. Several people were giggling, yawning and laughing, saying no wonder you got up so early and went to pick up your wife.Morning sister-in-law! Only the boy on the upper bunk in the corner was not wearing a shirt, shrank back in embarrassment, stretched out his arms and exposed half of his shoulders, and said, "I'm kidding, brothers and sisters can sit whatever they want!"

Xiaosen didn't know what to say.She remembered that the sisters in her dormitory often said that she liked to hang out with her boyfriend's buddies. As a family member, she felt like a big warm family, not to mention that boys were often humorous, funny, slightly wretched but harmless. As soon as she met, she had a good impression of these boys, although she didn't like being called younger sister or second sister-in-law. She blushed, smiled a little forcedly, and nodded as a greeting. Unexpectedly, his eyes met with the washing powder boy just now, unlike the boys who were a little shy in spite of shouting loudly about the second sister-in-law and second sister-in-law just now, he smiled at her naturally and generously, and said, hello.

Hi. Even if the eyes seem to be a little bit closed. "Second brother, what are you looking for?" The boy's voice sounded like Uesugi Tatsuya's Chinese dubbing, and Chen Xiaosen was a little distracted. "Student ID card. I'm going to take her to another school, and I might check it when I go into the library. I borrowed one from the girl in our class yesterday for her to use, but I couldn't find my own." "Take mine, it's in the wallet, you can find it when you open the drawer." "Okay then, thanks." Xu Zhian walked towards the only combination desk that was neatly tidied up in the entire dormitory, squatted on the ground and opened the drawer.Chen Xiaosen stared at the entire row of Agatha Christie on the bookshelf for a long, long time.

When she turned around, several other boys had already fallen down and buried their heads in the pillows and continued to fall asleep. Only Uesugi Tatsuya was sitting against the wall, with a slightly dazed look, his eyes half-closed, looking at the leak that leaked into the room and sprinkled on the floor. The square sun on the sky. He was engrossed.She was also fascinated. Hearing the sound of the drawer closing, Chen Xiaosen hurriedly lowered his head. Xu Zhian thanked the boy on the bed. Her eyes were so bent that she couldn't see where the gaze was pointing, so for a moment Chen Xiaosen felt that the gaze was directed at herself, like a chasing light above the stage, surrounded by dark nothingness, and only she existed alone.

exist. She hasn't lost all presence, even when the sun shines. As she thought, her mood gradually improved. They circled the lake a few times. In early October, Beijing was still a bit warm in summer. Unknown flowers by the lake were in full bloom, and clusters of bright pink bloomed all over the branches and even covered the leaves. It was very crowded.The library still didn't go in after all, the teacher who checked today was very strict, and stopped Xu Zhian outside with a glance - "Is this your student ID card?" Standing behind him, Chen Xiaosen glanced at the orange card held in the teacher's hand. The boy with a perfect smile on it was so different from Xu Zhian that there was no room for him to lie or deceive him.

She bowed her head to apologize to the teacher, and the two of them could only leave the entrance.Chen Xiaosen raised his head against the sun, and the tall dark gray building stood quietly in front of him against the blue sky. Xu Zhian kept apologizing, but she smiled easily and said, I didn't want to go in. "It's just because it's very famous, but I don't know how to read the huge collection of books in it, so why go in." Xu Zhian breathed a sigh of relief, and asked her if she wanted to see the Bird's Nest Water Cube under construction or the old Beijing attractions like Houhai Liulichang.She smiled politely and said, you decide, I don't care.

The sun is very comfortable on the body.She was inexplicably happy, but also inexplicably unhappy. After a long time, Xu Zhian sighed slowly. Chen Xiaosen looked ahead and yawned slowly. The hand holding her loosened at some point, Chen Xiaosen stopped, and they had already reached the gate of the school. "this is?" "Ximen is the main entrance. Let's take a photo together." "Oh, OK." Please pass by my schoolmates, they took a bland photo side by side.Xu Zhian was expressionless, the collar of his T-shirt was tilted to one side, and there were beads of sweat on his forehead; Chen Xiaosen's smile was weak, and her eyes were a little dark circled by driving all night, and her face was oily.

Xu Zhian stared at the screen of the digital camera for a long time.Chen Xiaosen was surprised that there was something good to study in such photos, but he didn't urge him. "Xiaosen, are you unhappy?" She was surprised, "No." "Then are you happy?" She paused. "Very happy." "I'm very happy that you can come. I almost couldn't sleep last night." The tone of Xu Zhian's statement was not happy, but vaguely sad.Chen Xiaosen turned her face away, she didn't want to admit that she felt a little sympathetic to Xu Zhian at this moment - sympathy for her boyfriend, without qualifications and positions, funny and sad, sympathy.

How do other people talk about their long-distance relationships?Use SMS QQ to tell each other non-stop every day that I love you and I miss you. Are you doing well? Do you miss me?Are you busy booking tickets, packing your luggage, and taking turns going to each other's locations before the holiday?Or, holding hands, hugging, kissing? Chen Xiaosen found himself not very clear. There was some embarrassing estrangement between them, which was obvious, but no one pierced it.Xu Zhian tried his best to treat her well, waiting on QQ every day, sending text messages in the morning, noon and evening, asking about her health, and running back to her hometown to visit her at the university where she was studying on May 11th...

Everyone says that your boyfriend is really nice. The roommate on the upper bunk was unfair behind the scenes, thinking that both Chen Xiaosen and her were worthless with an average score, so why is Chen Xiaosen's boyfriend an affectionate and talented student? Everyone is saying to her, you are so happy, Xu Zhian is so kind. This kind of repeated bombardment and strengthening made her feel that she really should love him. Because he is good. After all, it is not an unrealistic and romantic Cinderella.Cinderella is not really Cinderella, she is a princess in distress, perfect in everything except being forced to do coolies.

So Chen Xiaosen knows better than anyone that he should be safe.She told herself that she lived in peace and contentment, anyway, she had already got too many average marks, her life had already passed, and she didn't have to struggle like others because of the desire to compete or the reality of helplessness, and even her feelings It is so-so and enviable. If a person wants to live a good life, he must not toss about or think wildly. Can't, can't. How many brides are there in the world who can carry their skirts and run wildly at the wedding scene? When Xu Zhian told her on QQ that the student union in the department had activities on May 1st and could not come to see her, there was a strong sense of guilt in his tone.She obviously even breathed a sigh of relief because of this, but her conscience couldn't bear to see that guilt. "I'll go to Beijing to find you." She said. It was such an act, which may not be very sincere, that moved him so much that he happily typed a lot of emoticons. Chen Xiaosen was silent, his fingers hung in the air on the keyboard, trembling, but put them back. This cheap care gave her a reason to comfort herself - after all, I have also paid for this relationship, and I am also running it. After spending a whole day in Beijing, she was so tired that she went to bed early. The alarm clock was set early. She woke up early on purpose because she wanted to put on a light makeup. Today's appearance is not as embarrassing as yesterday. But people with a self-aware name are often more painful.Facing the mirror, Chen Xiaosen still admitted that she looks too ordinary.Slightly large forehead, thick pores on both sides of the nose, a bit square chin, only the eyes can be said to be lively, but they are far from Gu Panshenghui. She hasn't dressed up for a long time. My fingers trembled a little when I touched the powder box.She tried her best to avoid the reason for her deliberate grooming—every time she thought about it, she felt a sense of guilt in her heart. Xu Zhian came to pick her up, his eyes lit up, and he kept praising her for her beauty. Every time he complimented her, she felt sad. After taking a taxi to Happy Valley, everyone else had already arrived. She walked over from a distance, and they stood there waiting. Looking at them, Chen Xiaosen suddenly felt that his walking posture was awkward. In addition to the two of them, there are the five and six in the dormitory, his girlfriend, and Sheng Huainan. She never mentioned to Xu Zhian the students in the dormitory she saw yesterday, nor asked who they were—the original tour was a bit dull, but this was an excellent topic, and Xu Zhian could introduce them to her one by one without much trouble. , Tell me about the things in the dormitory... But she didn't ask. Even when the student card was taken away by the teacher, she took a very careful look at it, and she could even see clearly the three small words "Sheng Huainan". Even when she was distracted, she would think of the pattern on his pajamas. She still didn't ask anything, didn't ask for a single word. She doesn't want to do things with impure motives.When she thought that Xu Zhian might try his best to give her a detailed introduction to make her happy, she felt extremely guilty. The girlfriends of the fifth and sixth are all dressed up fancy, which set off Chen Xiaosen's simplicity.Queuing up to buy tickets, entering the venue, discussing which project to queue up first... Sheng Huainan, who is single, plays the role of coordinating and directing, but he does not feel assertive. He is always in a negotiating tone and attitude, and what he says naturally makes others I don't think there is any need to worry about it or discuss it, just let him decide.The smiling expression was full of affinity, but only Chen Xiaosen noticed that he always stood at a certain distance from them, as if he was not a group—or in other words, everything around him, the blazing sun, the bustling tourists, the rockery, the pool, the passing Cheers and screams... including the six of them, all became the background color of Sheng Huainan. He was just a clean, good-looking boy in a white shirt with an elegant demeanor. But that kind of presence, completely different from Chen Xiaosen's ordinary and lazy life, made her unable to follow without paying attention. It's not that she hasn't met handsome boys. In her university, she would be dragged by her roommates to peek at the school grass of the accounting department in the sports field or in the cafeteria. When talking, she would listen to their comments and use words from various novels. Let me classify all the handsome guys, gentle glasses type, iceberg black type... But her lazy heart has never been shaken in the slightest.It's not that she hasn't met a busy-looking cadre in the student union who can direct a group of people around... However, she has never been envious or admired. If she had ever yearned for such a person, she would not be so willing to settle for mediocrity. However, at this moment, Chen Xiaosen realized that the reason she was able to be content with the chaotic mediocrity was that the temptation of light was not strong enough. To be bewitched, just a moment is enough. His eyes were glued, and then he went blind like this. Recalling that short morning after a long time, Chen Xiaosen always felt that those emotions that filled her body in an instant but could not be suppressed - humbleness, envy, throbbing, joy, hopelessness... It was like an infinite power, she no longer felt indifferent, but She understood all of a sudden that those feelings and tricks that had appeared in her own classmates and roommates, and that she sneered and called 13 o'clock in my heart, were not really so nasty and idiot 13 o'clock. "That Sheng Huainan seems to be very generous, and he likes to organize in the first place." She learned to insinuate. "Is it as good as you said? It's really pretty, but it's not that pretty." Also learned to cover up the truth. Occasionally mentioned a sentence or two, mixed in the inquiries of the old and the young and the girlfriends, mixed in "the spaceship is so childish" and "hey, this project is cute", wrapped in a safe and hidden way, but still in the When he asked, his throat was slightly astringent. Knowing that she was dizzy and didn't want to be a pirate ship, Xu Zhian also insisted on staying below to accompany her, but she pushed her up in the end. "It's only three minutes, don't accompany me, after waiting in line for such a long time, hurry up!" He smirked, and sat down in the chair amidst the laughter of "Look how much my sister-in-law loves you". She backed out, ran down the stairs, and stood underneath waiting. When the electric bell rang, she turned around and saw Sheng Huainan standing with his hands in his pockets and his back leaning against the railing of the artificial lake, with his head turned to the lake, looking at something absently. She folded her hands in front of her and stood quietly five steps away, finally able to look at him openly. Behind is the wind from the pirate ship, the girls screaming like waves of the sea, the cheerful music from the radio, and the chatting and laughing pedestrians intertwined into a noisy cloud of smoke.Everything is lively, only the two of them are still, but they are two distinct worlds, Chen Xiaosen can even see the transparent wall clearly. Three minutes is both short and long. Just like when she met him, there were only two short scenes. But maybe the aftertaste will last a lifetime. The gentle autumn wind messed up her forehead hair.Chen Xiaosen felt tenderness in his heart.The blazing sunlight refracted through the lake, revealing a bright hopelessness in her eyes. she will remember. I remember how I was holding my boyfriend's hand, always ready to meet his boyfriend's eyes and make a happy smile, but I tried every means to pretend to be by his side unintentionally when I was riding an amusement project. I remember that she talked a lot of nonsense all morning, it seems that the sum of what she said to Xu Zhian in a year of dating is not so much, but in fact it was just to covertly mix a few questions about him. I remember the three minutes when she was motionless, such intense and turbulent emotions turned into quiet watching and watching, stretching into a sense of self-existence that no longer sees light, dies, and no longer disappears from chaos. Remember, that's enough.Following his example, she put her hands in her pockets, leaned against the railing at a corner far away from him, and stared straight at the dazzling water until her vision was blurred. At noon, they went to the restaurant of Ant Kingdom to find a seat. She answered the phone calls from her mother and sister outside, and signaled Xu Zhian and the others to go in first without waiting for her. Her mother is extremely supportive of her daughter's love.A high school classmate who knows the basics, is a top student, and is simple and honest... Although I still worry about a lot of things about self-protection, I can still hear overflowing joy from the lines. Chen Xiaosen smiled wryly, answering one and one, twitching the corners of his mouth. When the call reached her sister, she no longer reluctantly agreed. "What's wrong?" My sister felt something strange about her. "Sister, if... If you find a blind date, everything is suitable, and then you are ready to get married, but at this time, at this time..." "how?" "At this time, Xian Dao Akira, whom you have liked since junior high school, suddenly appeared in your life, and then wanted to take you away, would you..." "Hehe," the sister on the other side of the phone smiled knowingly, "I'm thinking wildly again, can I do something?" "Will it...will it..." "I will." "Yep?" The elder sister's voice was soft but firm: "I will lift the corner of the wedding dress, throw off the high heels, and run away following Xiandao without looking back." Don't look back. Chen Xiaosen's heart suddenly became clear. "Encountered the immortal way?" The elder sister's voice was slightly teasing. "En." She nodded.Without hesitation. "Xiaosen, there is something I didn't say just now..." "I know. It's just an if. In fact, you have waited for so many years, and no fairy came to elope with you." "It's not that there is no immortal Daozhang in the world, but he won't pull me away. So I will still obediently marry someone on a blind date." "But I'm different," Chen Xiaosen suddenly realized that this was the first time she said loudly that she was different. The point is not whether Akira Sendo will drag you to elope at the wedding. The point is, Chen Xiaosen discovered that no matter how good the person who wants to marry you is, no matter how lucky you are, once faced with a hypothetical Xiandao Akira, she will still firmly choose to throw off her high heels and follow this if person to escape into the distance— ——Then, regardless of whether this will become a reality, she will lift the corner of her skirt and stride out of the wedding scene shrouded in blessings. Never look back. She hung up the phone and walked into the restaurant. Those people had already finished eating, and Sheng Huainan was not there. They joked that Sheng Huainan abandoned the six of them and ran away with the beauty and the child. Chen Xiaosen also smiled. Smile and say goodbye to everyone at dusk. Smiling and telling Xu Zhian, I'm sorry. Smiling, he got on the return train, and when it drove into deep sleep and night again, Chen Xiaosen used his coat to make a comfortable posture for himself, leaning his head against the glass, and gradually fell asleep. The boy got up from the bed with a dazed look on his face.His appearance and disappearance were equally sudden, without saying goodbye, so short that Chen Xiaosen couldn't even remember his outstanding eyebrows. He only said one word to her.He said hello. Like a swift light, it dazzled her eyes. Then he could see the path under his feet clearly. How would she explain to others that she was not in love with another person. It's just that I accidentally discovered that the feeling of lifting the hem of the skirt and running barefoot against the sun is so good. She will keep running.